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      "title": "16: Esoteric Surgery",
      "summary": "<p>When every word was a lie, only silence suggested truth.</p>\n<p>J held her tongue.</p>\n<p><em>That wasn’t her voice.</em> A thought looping, encircling, and <em>strangling</em> until there was nothing else to think or say. Silence brooked no falsehoods — nor answers. And was that trade worth it? Was <em>this</em> the best strategy of the most effective disassembly drone when confronted? This meek, passive hush? No, J needed something to work with.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"Esoteric Surgery\"\ndate: 2024-08-20\n---\n\n::::: subchapter\n\nWhen every word was a lie, only silence suggested truth.\n\nJ held her tongue.\n\n*That wasn't her voice.*  A thought looping, encircling, and\n*strangling* until there was nothing else to think or say.  Silence\nbrooked no falsehoods --- nor answers.  And was that trade worth it?\nWas *this* the best strategy of the most effective disassembly drone\nwhen confronted?  This meek, passive hush?  No, J needed something to\nwork with.\n\n(What would Uzi think?)\n\n\"w-who are y_ou,\" buzzed a vocalsynth in the cold and quiet dark.\nThat wasn't her voice.  Consonants got stuck in the buffer, rendered\nrepeatedly, a microsecond stutter.  Vowels sustained too long,\n*pitches* sustained too long, a monotonous utterance.  It didn't even\nbend to indicate a question.\n\nA broken voice, a synthetic performance so pathetic it surely\nwarranted immediate product recall --- J's specialty.  But if *she*\nwas defective, then who would be left to get the job done?\n\nSilence wasn't their answer --- it could hold no answers --- but it\ndid linger in the wake of the question.  Then at length, a breathless\nsigh, nothing but air vibrating in imitation of exhalation.  Then the\nreal reply came:\n\n\"Can't say I've figured that one out yet, J,\" they said.  They.  Not\nshe, because *that isn't her voice.*  It had the australian twang, it\nhad the tenderness, and it cradled her serial designation like a\nprized treasure --- but the synthetic grain in the formants couldn't\nbe mistaken.  \"How could I know for sure?  I woke up not knowing where\nI was or what happened.  I still don't---\"\n\n\"thats n-not an answe_r,\" J interrupted.  \"simple q-question.\nwho. are. you.\"\n\n*And why do you seem so familiar?  You can't be---*\n\n\"Do you want the truth?\"\n\nDid J even need to say it?  She would have glared, tilted her head\nforward, crossed her arms.  She tried each, but her body didn't move.\nSleep mode would lock servos into place, and memory simulations\ninvoked that same API.  But why would she inherit this paralysis\n*inside* the sim?  *And this has to be a sim --- because this couldn't\nbe real.*\n\nJ lost this war for control of her own body, and said, \"y-yes.\"\n\n\"I can't tell you the truth because... I don't know if I trust her to\nhave told me everything.  She...\"  Volume modulation slid down,\nretreating into silence, where nothing was invalid.  After trailing\noff, the voice returned, dodging that pronoun and the mystery.  \"How\ndoes the philosophy go?  'I think therefore I am' --- everything else\nis suspect.\"\n\nJ couldn't narrow her eyes --- her visor wasn't even online, nor any\nof her coronal optics.  None of her somatic systems responded to her\ncommands.  What modules had even correctly loaded?  There was the\nvocalsynth driver, the speech to text parser, and the language\nprocessing dynamic library.  Nothing that could receive motor commands\nwas online.\n\nThat included her mouth and her air vents.  JCJenson had designed\nvocalsynths to do only part of the work, relying on the shape of the\nlips and throats to naturalize the sound.  Each model had its own\nresonance chambers to individualize it.  Even if this vocalsynth\nweren't glitching, paralysis had stripped J's voice of all its\ncharacter.\n\nBut J needed something to work with.\n\nSo she said, \"then w-who do you th-th-think you are?\"  She had tried\nto put emphasis on 'think', and it came out like that.\n\n\"I... remember being Tessa.\"\n\nJ couldn't move her body.  It meant she couldn't flinch or gape her\nmouth or anything else that betrayed her reaction.  J had been\nconfused at what the *point* of this simulation was, why it would\nimitate *that* voice.  But she had faced this incongruity before,\nhadn't she?\n\n*Why?  To twist the knife.  A nightmare for its own sake.*\n\nSo J bluffed, \"i dont kn-know who that is.\"\n\nA response.  To call it a gasp would indicate surprise, but it felt\nbraced, the sound like tight strings strummed.  To call it a sigh\nwould indicate resignation, but a note of defiance or frustration made\nit harsher, like a growl.  Call it a cough or yelp, and it would sound\nas if she had been struck --- but that felt the most accurate.\n\n\"Oh, J...\"\n\nWas that *pity?*  From a simulation with a stolen voice, from a drone\nso frightened by uncertainty that they couldn't even identify\nthemselves without hedging?\n\n\"what did you d-do to me,\" J demanded.\n\nJ had reviewed her kernel logs.  No errors, no crashes.  As if her all\nbody were simply... disconnected.  And the chill she felt?  (She\n*never* felt cold inside.)  Near her core, she could detect latches\nundone: plates of metal casing had been detached from their seating.\n\nHer chestplate removed, thoracic cavity exposed, it put all of her\ninternal wiring on display for this drone to see, for anyone else in\nthe room to gawk at, defenseless against any encroach.  That finally\nmade sense of it: J wasn't malfunctioning or defective.  She'd been\n*sabotaged.*\n\n\"I think it's better if I start with what *she* did to you,\" they\nsaid.\n\n\"sh-shifting the blame?\"\n\n\"I'm trying to help you, dear.  Here, I'll reconnect your limbs and\nyou can feel what we're dealing with.\"\n\nWhile a part of her bristled to move again, another part simply\nexpected more sabotage.  First a soft *click*, and soon rudimentary\nproprioception was back, electricity racing through wiring to power\ncircuits all along her limbs.  She felt (but couldn't see) the glowing\nwhite lights winking to life in her hands.  Three fingers, soft\nplastic casing, but the wrists were the wrong shape.\n\nJ tried to make a fist.  Nothing happened.\n\n\"well.\"  Then J realized it didn't sound like a question.  \"i am\nwa_iting.\"\n\n\"It's done.\"\n\n\"motor cir-circuits are not online.\"\n\n\"No, they *are*, trust me on this.  She did something funny to your\nsystem.\"\n\n\"this is f-f-funny to you?\"\n\n\"No, I meant--- well, it is supposed to be funny, I think.  Ironic.\nShe always had a, err, unique sense of humor.\"  A deep breath.  \"Try\nthis: say 'sitting up.'\"\n\n\"...sitting up.\"\n\nAnd then J's arms bent, pushing against the hardwood worktable she lay\nupon.  The drone rose blind in the dark, but her legs dangled over the\nedge.\n\n\"this is... ironic.\"  Then, \"thats-s a question.\"\n\n\"You always made fun of her for it.\"  Something in the tone was hard\nto place.  A wistful hurt too complex not to be sincere.  So how did\nthey fake it?  \"I wish you two didn't have to be so cruel to each\nother.\"\n\nJ didn't react.  She couldn't react.  Paralyzed, even as she watched\nthe algorithms actively keeping her balance on the table.  No, not\nparalyzed.  She could simply... \"crossing arms.\"  Then two ribbed\ntubes crossed over her core, but they could only tighten so far: her\nchest plate was missing, filamentous rubber entrails spilling out\nbeneath her, her own wiring piling in her lap.\n\nShe needed to fix this mess, pull herself back together, but even if\nher arms would respond to her, J was still *blind.*  \"why d-didnt you\nreconnect my optics.\"\n\n\"I didn't want--- um.  I'm still working on getting everything fixed\nup right for you.  So if you lay back down, I can see what I can do?\"\n\nJ could feel her jaw was hanging open, lips slack.  This expression\nwas nothing more than a lack of motor input, but it left her gaping\nlike a fish.  Except she could simply... \"frowning.\"  Was it worse to\nsound moronic, or look moronic?  \"you are h-hiding so_mething.\"\n\n\"Please, J?  This soon, I'd rather not...\"  Another sigh or grunt or\ncough.  \"I really wanted us to reunite under better circumstances.\nBut I suppose you have no reason to trust me now, do you?  Not if you\ndon't even remember.  Ugh.  Okay.  Lie down for me?\"\n\nHow could she remotely trust any of this?  Not with the Solver toying\nwith her, not with all the evidence arrayed against whoever this was.\n\nBut what else could J do?  She said, \"lying down.\"\n\nJ listened for everything in the quiet.  After her casing clanked\nagainst the hardwood (with a muted echo, suggesting a large room full\nof soft things --- but where were J's echolocation circuits?), there\ncame a brush of fabrics against each other, an articulation of\nactuators, an unsteady pulse distinct from the continuous whirring of\nJ's core.  Whirring, like Uzi's had.  Why wasn't J's core beating?\n\nA finger brushed over the synthskin of J's face, the appendage\norganically soft and micro-ridged.  Then a pressure at the base of her\nvisor, nails digging into the gap between silicone and sensitive\nglass.  With a *pop* the hand pulled, a crevice opening, cool air\nwashing over the circuit-warmth of J's motherboard.\n\nWorker drone optics, nearly vestigial in disassembly drones, sat in\nmechanical orbits behind the screen, with struts and\nstructure-scaffolding to hold the cameras in place.  Little cables\ntraced a short route back to nearby buses and sockets.\n\nSomething in J's processor hitched at the thought of eyes unseen,\nstaring at the plain square form of a CPU chip and rows of RAM slots\nhousing these very thoughts.  Exposed.  Vulnerable.  Impotent.\n\nWorse, the machine could feel nothing.  No tactile sensors dwelled\nthis deep within her; her most fundamental components were numb.\nOblivious to any present touch or intent.  Her wires parted now,\nperhaps to admit some questing instrument --- this she had to intuit\nfrom the slight attenuation of analog inputs.\n\n*Click.*  A button?  A latch?  Something in her was now opened.\n*Twist*.  What screws needed to be undone?\n\n\"wha_t are you d-doing.\"\n\nAlmost an answer: a trickle of electric signal touched the pins of a\nbus.  A visual input registered, drivers loading dynamically, but\nstill came forth no *data*.  Her cameras must be disabled at the\nhardware level.\n\n\"A moment please, dearest?\"\n\n\"dont c-call me that.  dont p-patro_nize.\"\n\n\"I wasn't --- alright, J.  Sorry.  Checkups always were touchy with\nyou.  I really shoulda been more mindful.  I just assumed--- sorry,\nI'm rambling.  I'll get back to this.\"\n\nAlways.  Used to.  Such an insistence on their history.  But marketing\n--- *manipulation* --- was all about the repetition of the core\nmessage.  All the better if it was assumed, unspoken, taken for\ngranted.\n\nHer cameras disconnected again.  A second ticked by.  Then a\nreconnection.\n\nWhy were they bothering with this outdated interface?  Why not\nreconnect the full spectrum sensors adorning her headband?  Then she\ncould properly see.\n\n\"Almost got something working for ya.  Un momento, just need to log\nback into your system and run some diagnostics, bear with me now.\"\n\n\"no,\" J said. \"t-tell me the comma_nds. i will run them.\"\n\n\"You--- Um.  Well, see for yourself.  wd-underscore-opto is the script for\nrunning the acuity gamut, that'd be the standard calibration test.\"\n\n\"just the command.  no flags or options,\" J said.  \"that was a\nq-question\"\n\n\"Well, there's the digi-Snellen suite, and LogMAR2.  But uh, just run\nit?\"\n\n\"sigh.\"\n\n```\n\n$ wd_opto\nwd_opto: Permission denied\n$ sudo wd_opto\nsudo: command not found\n```\n\n\"frowning.  scowling.  what did yo_u---\"\n\n\"Not me, I promise.  She locked you out.  But lemme try to work around\nit.  I want you back in tip-top shape, y'know.  It's not the same\nwithout you here.\"\n\nThen a process launched on J's system without J's input.  Remote shell\nexecution, root privileges.  Of its activity, all J could discern was\nthe directory, its attention on `/tmp/deleted`.  J had no authority to\nsignal it, or read its command log.\n\nThat same naked vulnerability as from the eyes unseen --- now not\nmerely physical, but cognitive, a presence penetrating in between her\nthoughts, inserting itself into her processor.\n\nWho was this?\n\nThen--- bright!  A bulb hung above her, sharp light cutting a new\nworld out of the darkness.  White eyelights squinted, and pig-tailed\nhead pulled back, but before anything else was processed, a voice\nspoke.\n\n\"That should be everything.  Can you hear me, J?\"\n\nAnd that... *was* her voice.  Grain and artifice gone, leaving only\nwarmth and invitation.\n\nAnd *this* was her face.  Round eyes, a small nose, freckles.  That\nslight smile beneath bagged eyes.\n\n\"Loud and clear, boss.\"  J's voice, J's real voice, was breathy and\ndeep.  No stutter, no shrill sinewaves.  J relished it, such a welcome\nreturn that she had no time to worry about why that title of address\nhad come so readily on her lips.\n\nBut that voice, sans all doubt, and that face finally witnessed, it\nshould cut through any remaining reservation, shouldn't it?\n\nTessa leaned so close toward J, a few unruly brunette strands falling\nin front of her eyes.  She tucked it away, and J spotted *tangles*.\nUnacceptable, she would need to fix that.\n\nNeed?  Why would that be J's first priority?  She needed to find Uzi.\n\n\"Good, good.  *Status?\"* the human intoned, triggering an instinctual\nresponse.\n\n\"All systems operational,\" J provided.\n\n\"Hella.  Now let's go see where little Cyn has scampered off to.\"\n\nTessa booped J between the eyes and the worker blushed white.  J\nlooked away, angle oblique to hide her expression, and dispatched\ncommands to redraw her expression, wipe clean this embarrassment.  But\nwhy was J focusing on any of that?  Trifling matters when J had a job\nto do.\n\nThe human said *Cyn.*  They were going to confront the architect of\nall this madness.  But shouldn't they discuss plans to stop her first?\nDidn't Tessa understand the threat they were dealing with?  Yet none\nof J's concerns could find a voice.  Instead, the worker found herself\nlooking around, her body moving on its own without any vocalized\ncommands.\n\nBeside the robot on the hardwood worktable sat a plush cat, fangs out,\nsmirking with narrow, haughty eyes.  Some years-old oil still stained\nthe fur.  Reference books sprawled open on the table, pinned by spare\ntools acting as paperweights and bookmarks.  Not messy: it was\norganized, yet the task at hand disrupted that order.\n\nSuch was a microcosm of the whole room as it appeared to J.  On\nshelves and dressers abounded an excess of toys and books and\nsupplies, enough entertainment for a family of five.  About as messy\nas you'd expect, when they all had their own priorities and\npreferences; and as tidy as you'd expect, when all but two were\ncleaning staff.\n\nWhile J was looking about, her hands were busy.  For this procedure,\nTessa had undone the bodice of the robot's maid dress to access her\nupper internals, and she'd left a few panels open.  So now J made\nmodest.\n\nMeanwhile, Tessa was turning around --- and then J saw who stood\nbehind the human, a screwdriver clutched in one hand, one screw stuck\nfast to its magnetic tip.  Had J been incompletely put back together?\nA thought almost as mortifying as this drone being here at all.\n\nJ didn't shriek, though she jerked a hand up to cover her core lights.\n\"What is *she* doing here?\"\n\nV flinched back.  \"Helping?  I'm sorry.  Tessa has been showing me the\nropes...\"  Her free hand went up to cover her mouth, her eyelights\naverting.\n\nThe human gave a headpat to the little maidbot.  \"She's got a real\ntalent for opening drones up, so proud of her.\"\n\nV continued, \"And I'd wanted to do something to um, thank you.  For\nsaving N.  I'm so glad you're here, J.\"\n\nAnd finally J thought: *This isn't happening.*\n\nThe captain still didn't have any control of her body or voice or\nexpression.  She couldn't frown skeptically or ask what V had meant by\nthat.  No, the expression of this false J had *relaxed* at V's\nuninformative non-explanation, sighing in resignation.\n\nWhich told the real J everything she needed to know.  This wasn't\nhappening; it was a *memory*.\n\nWith this insight, a quick `ps` found a process she didn't launch\nreading data from a local memory file and piping it into her\nconsciousness.  An *imitation* of real-time perception.  She killed\nit, and waited for her conscious thread to reconnect to her actual\nsensory input.\n\nOnce back to her senses, J heard *wet*.  The sound of resisting flesh\ntearing, and fluids dripping onto old wood.\n\nPressure all along her thorax and abdomen that stopped right at the\nsockets of her limbs.  *Everything* stopped there; the readout told\nher she had no limbs now, a mechanical vegetable.\n\n\"you l-lied.  youre m-manipula_ting me.\"  J couldn't hiss venom. She\ncouldn't growl threats.  Her declaration was just a plaintive little\nwhine.\n\n*Jerk*.  That was a sudden nasty tear, a wire snapping, a non-critical\n`ERROR!` flashing quickly on J's screen.\n\n\"Ah!  You scared me.\"  Not her voice.  The imitation was back.\n\n\"you didnt g-give me my e_yes back.  all i saw was a memo\\_ry.  a\nt-t-trick.\"\n\n\"Not lying, no, I promise you I'm *not*.  Just, just, you want to move\nright again, yeah?  I'm working on that first.  Promise.  I'm going to\ngive you everything you want, J.  Just bare with me.\"\n\n\"i w-want to see who you are.\"\n\nThe words came quiet.  \"That was me.  What you just saw.\"  If they\nreally believed it, they could have spoken more firmly than that.\n\n\"you said you d-didnt---\"\n\n\"I know what I said.  I don't know for sure.  Identity's... messy.\nBut I want you to know her as she was, she --- the old Tessa --- would\nwant you to know her as she was.  And *you* want to know her right?  I\njust thought you'd like to remember.\"\n\n_And *why* do you need me to remember?  What do *you* gain out of\nthis?_ But J couldn't ask that; any answer would be as\nuseful and trustworthy as a reply to 'are you lying?'\n\n\"you are---are stalling.\"\n\nStill so quiet.  \"If... if you knew, you might not blame me.\"\n\n\"i wo_uld blame you for w-w-wasting my time.  our time.  i-i came here\nfor a re\\_ason.  for someone.\"\n\n\"Who---\"\n\n*Knock knock knock*.  Gentle, yet unsteady rapping.  Worries had\ndithered the rhythm --- afraid of bothering yet afraid of not being\nheard, neither winning out.\n\nA soft voice spoke now, and one J had already heard.\n\n\"J?  Tessa?  I looked everywhere, you weren't in the basement, I ---\nCyn wants you in the tea room.  I'm supposed to bring you there,\" V\nsaid.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\n\"Little busy dear, can it wait?\" the human said to the unseen maid.\n\nMaid, or disassembly drone?  J realized the memory inflicted upon her\nmight have biased her assumptions.  But now --- J was exhaustively\nfamiliar with the devil-may-care venom of her faux-psychotic\nsquadmate.  On Copper-9, this demure pitch had no precedent.\n\n\"Oh.  Um.  I think it can, actually,\" the false V replied to the\nimitator.  \"Take your time, I think Cyn would *prefer* a long delay,\nhonestly.\"  A pause, a silence.  \"But if you need help, I can---\"\n\n\"n-n-no.\"  J grounded it out in pathetic emphasis.\n\n\"Oh.  Is that J?  She's out of 606 already?  I thought I'd have to\nwake her up.\"  Then at a lower volume, muffled by wood and plaster:\n\"I'll be waiting at the end of the hall.  Might sleep, but um.  If I\ndo maybe don't stand near me when you wake me up, okay?  Safer that\nway.\"\n\n\"whats go_ing on?  is u-u-uzi here?\"\n\nBut V didn't answer.\n\n\"Whosat?\" said the imitation.  \"Nevermind.  So, the short version?  I\nthink we might be the first people from earth to experience what it's\nlike being made of something other than atoms.\"\n\n\"what.\"\n\n\"But I guess you'd prefer the practical report, yeah?  So. Cyn put you\nin basement timeout a few days ago.  She was all like 'I said this\none, out of my sight.  Still can't disobey basic orders?'\"  Another\ndistorted sigh, something dark in it now.  \"That's another one of\nher... jokes.  It's --- this has happened a few times, something goes\nwrong, one of you drifts too far and she puts you [down there]{.quiet}\nto be reformatted.  Time's all back and forth now.\n\n\"But this go round, before you were back, a new host showed up!  So\nwhile *she* had her hands busy handling them, I snuck down there and\nnabbed you for myself!\"  An energy seemed to be returning to them,\nanimating their voice.  \"I figured I could fix you up before she's\ndone.  That's why I'm doing this kind of rushed-like.  But--- I guess\nmoving so fast isn't very fair to you, is it?\"\n\nJ didn't answer; she thought.  The captain finally had something to\nwork with.  Uzi *was* here, and this was her confirming clue.  She\ndidn't *know*, but between all their theories?  This fit --- there had\nbeen a solver-infected drone in Tessa's house, a precursor to the same\ninfection now plaguing Uzi.\n\nSo: Uzi's arrival ~~[after J killed her]{.quiet}~~ had distracted Cyn,\nleaving J at the mercy of this drone who didn't seem to realize J was\nalso a new arrival.  But they did have some attachment to J.  She\ncould use that.  ~~She didn't want to *use* that, she wanted to\nfulfill that.~~  But she couldn't fall for another trick, another claw\nto the heart.  She needed to *end* this mission, finally get the job\ndone.\n\nJ asked, \"how do we s-stop her?\"\n\n\"Huh?  What do mean?  Stop her from what, J?\"\n\n\"or fre_e the h-host.\"  If they couldn't stop her just yet, they could\nregroup and make a plan.  But J *was* leaving with Uzi tonight, no\nmatter what it took.\n\n\"They aren't--- they'll be gone just as soon as they sign in.  What\ndid you *see* down there, J?  You're way off-script.  Not that I mind\nthat.  But you tend to mind that.  Is something wrong?\"\n\n\"you ha_ve n-n-no idea.\"\n\n\"Talk to me? We all get a little stir-crazy in here, I get it.\"\n\n\"scowling.  again.  let me l-look at you.\"\n\n\"I'll... get back to work.  I'll be done before you know it.  Then we\ncan... meet face to face.\"\n\n\"I said---\"\n\nBut then J's eyes were opened, and what she saw wasn't real.  More\nprocesses launching without her permission.  More memories to blind\nher to the present.\n\nBut J caught and quarantined the threads, held them at a distance.\n\n- - -\n\n::: {.details .command-output}\nSandboxed command output: click to show\n\nThrough morning dew on manor grounds J trudged.  Her gait was awkward,\ngiven the kit strapped to her legs --- dangling, shifting, threatening\nto slip-fall off --- but the shadows made her a shadow.  No dawn-glow\nyet, and none of the groundskeepers were online.  As she walked J's\nhead twisted around in quick survey-sweeps, triple and quadruple\nchecking.  She caught every bat flitting about, every darting mouse.\n\nThe wildlife posed no threat to her, but J knew, were her\noff-the-books dealings disclosed, a hint of motion might be all the\nwarning she'd ever see of a whistleblower --- or the executive\nhimself.\n\nAnd the executive would have one chief responsibility to enact.  It\nwas there in the etymology.\n\nAn iron fence loomed in the distance, and J's path winded toward the\ngate.  Yet the maid paused before her next step.  Why even take these\nsteps, if you have to look over your shoulder even as you move?  If\nyou have to hide contraband under your dress?  If you *knew* it was\nwrong?\n\nOf all drones, J wasn't stupid: she knew what her orders were.  J\ndidn't care for loopholes; if you knew what you were supposed to do,\nthen bending the rules around that was as good as breaking them.  She\nhad more loyalty than that.\n\nJ strode forward and stood before the iron gate.\n\nThis... wasn't violating her orders.  It wasn't disloyalty.  J had\norders, plural --- here, they contradicted each other.  A good drone,\nof course, would seek clarification.  Except J knew what she'd receive\nin turn.\n\nBeyond the iron gate lay worthless scrap.  Drones who, for failure to\nexecute their orders, were executed.\n\nJ slid a spare key into the lock, twisted and pushed.  Between one\nstep and another, J'd left private property.  Elliott Manor was\nadjacent to this scrapyard, and they were the most prolific in use of\nthese dumping grounds, but the land was held in common.  Fitting, for\nits contents.\n\nWhat good was property whom no one owned?  Drone or land, it was a\nwaste.\n\nWhich made what she was here to do all the more unwarranted.\n\nJ followed the sound of synthetic cawing.  Her feet kicked refuse as\nshe walked, discarding stealth, and the sound spooked the crowbots\ninto a mass fluttering exodus.  The maid set course for the spot\nthey'd arisen from.\n\nThe tree, the chain, the drone in a suit and tie.\n\nHe was their property.  He'd failed to live up to entirely reasonable\nstandards.  He was *lucky*, and he should be *thankful* that he was\nmerely punished.  A drone, punished?  The treatment was borderline\nanthropomorphic.  Honestly, this was a m---\n\nJ stepped forward now, unable to finish the thought.  She reached\nunder the skirt of her french maid dress, and retrieved a JCJenson\ntechnician's repair kit.  [*This* was a mercy.]{.quiet}\n\nShe shouldn't be out of the house.  On paper, yes, the manor's drones\ncould go anywhere needed to carry out their orders.  But it was\nunusual for her to be online at this hour, unusual for her to be\noutdoors unaccompanied.  If asked, she could furnish no justification\nfor her actions, and that was as good as disobediance.  And this was\nthe least of her errors.\n\nJ shouldn't have the spare key to the scrapyard.\n\nJ definitely shouldn't have the JCJenson technician's repair kit.\n\nJ most definitely shouldn't have interrupted the punishment they\nordered for N.\n\nWhy was she doing this?\n\nThe maid glanced to frilled fabric on her shoulder.  The tears had\ndried, but the mucus had left white spots.  Some things hurt more than\nthe gun of damocles at her back scared her.  It had been cocked since\nthe very first day she booted up; it had been priced in.\n\nJ reached underneath the slumped drone, removing a panel to expose his\nrecharge plug.  The cable unspooled from within like a tail extending.\nHer other hand handled the boxy form of a battery-powered outlet.  A\nbrief spark danced from N's prongs as J plugged him into the socket.\n\nHis screen flickered, but she didn't meet his eyes.  Her hands still\nsearched the kit.  J knew the contents of Tessa's kit quite well.  She\nfound electrical tape, and she looked around for the rifts torn in his\nsuit, the exposed casing wounded by crowbot beaks.  J wouldn't repair\nany internals; Tessa could handle that, but with a rag the maid wiped\naway smears of oil and taped him together as if bandaging.\n\n\"J?\"\n\nThe maid didn't stop working, even as his arm spasmed in her grip.\nShe finished securing cotton to a gash still weeping oil, and without\nlooking up, said, \"Can you walk?\"\n\n\"Um, I dunno.\"\n\nJ shook her head.  She moved forward, grabbing the chains binding him\nto the tree, and bit down on the links.  J grinded and gnawed until\nshe felt the metal give under the power.  Bending, cracking, breaking.\n\nJ spit out steel fragments.  \"Get up, moron.\"\n\nN's arms still twitched unsteadily as he tried to push off the ground.\n\nGroaning frustration, J grabbed the limb, yanking as she stood up.\nThe ragged butler staggered to his feet, and fought for balance.  J\nwatched, eyes narrowed, and finally she'd calculated her answer.  If\nshe left him alone, he'd go sprawling on the ground.\n\nSo she didn't let go of his arm.  She draped it over her shoulders,\ntugging the drone closer until he was leaning on her.  Then her own\narm went around his shoulder.\n\n\"Let's go.\"\n\n\"Thanks, J.\"  N's steps couldn't entirely keep up with J's; he was\nhalf-dragged along.\n\nJ couldn't kick her way through the piles of drones here.  It was a\nslower route they took out of the scrapyard, twisting around\nobstacles.  \"Don't thank me.  You deserve this.\"\n\n\"O-oh.  Sorry.\"\n\n\"For what?  Do you know what you did?\"  J glanced over to see, so\nclose to her own, flickering white eyelights beneath short silver hair\ncaked in dirt.\n\n\"I... broke six plates and ruined the whole dinner.\"\n\nWith the arm around N's shoulder, she thumped him against the head.\n\"I'm talking about the *consequences,* idiot.\"\n\n\"I got punished?\"  N had an uncertain bend to his brows, and could\nread J's expression fluently enough to know that answer wasn't good\nenough.  \"And made you come out here to get me?  Are you going to get\nin trouble?\"  He looked to her, but J's eyelights were on the towering\ngate; its weight had already brought it to close behind her.\n\n\"Oh look, you *almost* figured it out,\" J said with a serpent-sweet\nlilt to her tone.  \"This isn't about you, N.  I didn't come here to\nsave you.  I'm doing this for *us.*  When you screw things up?  It\naffects all of us.\"  Manipulating the rails of the gate with her foot,\nJ pulled it closed behind them.\n\nN cringed, looked away.  Chagrin in every pixel of his expression.  He\nunderstood, but J fisted the fabric of his suit, enough to lift him\noff his feet.\n\n\"If something happened to you...\"  J glanced at the dried tears and\nmessy cry-snot on her dress.  She set her mouth in a line.  \"I'm not\ndoing this again.  I need --- we need you to pull your weight.  Figure\nit out before you get yourself killed.\"  J let go of his suit and he\ndropped to the muddy path.  \"Consider that an order.\"\n\nAn order J didn't have any authority to give --- an order N would\nnever receive.  Tessa would never put it so harshly; James would never\nput it so helpfully.\n\nIt was as if her masters didn't...\n\nBut really, maybe it was only natural that J would understand better\nthan them what effective orders looked like.  Felt like.\n\n\"I got it, J.  I'll try my best.  I'll do anything, heh.\"  N was\npushing a bit harder against the ground, but his legs were still\nunsteady, unreliable beneath him.  The dewslick manor grounds weren't\nas treacherous as the scrapyard, though.  \"You know J, if something\nhappened to you, I'd miss you too.\"\n\nJ would have rolled her eyes, but she didn't.  She was still looking\nout for any witnesses.  Being caught at this point would make for an\nawful demonstration.  The sun was rising, and with it, danger.\n\nOnce they stood in the shadow of a triply-supported balcony, J was\nfishing in her dress pocket for the key (it was against orders to\nleave doors unlocked) --- and then the door opened on its own.\n\nJ yelped and flinched back, and wondered if she should (or could)\n`shutdown -H` before the bullet hit her.\n\nN looked up and said, \"Hi!\"\n\nIt was a human --- it was Tessa.\n\n\"J?\" she said.  \"N!\"\n\nHer face lifted as if magnetized, and she rushed out, door yawning\nbehind her.  J could see where her eyes fell first.\n\nWith no need to keep bearing his weight, J shoved N forward.  He\nstumbled for a moment, but then Tessa was there, grabbing him by the\nshoulders, lifting, spinning.\n\n\"You're alright!  I'm glad.  And so sorry that --- happened.\"\n\nJ looked away.  A part of her wanted to dive into the bushes, pretend\nto be anywhere else, but so much more deeply rooted was the instinct\nto stand at attention for any command.\n\nTessa wasn't supposed to see this.  J would have slipped in and out\nunnoticed, N would have appeared mysteriously half-intact in Tessa's\nroom the next day.  (The mystery would be violently maintained, if\nneed be.)\n\nAs much as she wanted to be unseen, as much as she dread-hoped Tessa\nwould have eyes only for the butler, she had taken notice of her\nnumber one assistant.\n\n\"J?  Did you... You went out to go get him?\"\n\n\"...Yes,\" she admited.  \"I know I shouldn't have---\"\n\n\"What are you talking about?  Thank you!\"  Tessa smiled, and for a\nmoment the sun had already risen.  Every self-critical thread in J's\nmind went quiet --- this computed reward.  \"Never thought I'd see the\nday you'd break their rules.  And for little ol' N, no less.\"\n\n*I didn't violate my orders,* J thought.  *I'm ordered to keep you\nsafe.  You were hurting.*  But the logic melted away every time she\ntried to remove it from the icebox rationality of her mind.\n\nJ always seemed to bend when it came to Tessa --- but that was\nloyalty, wasn't it?\n\nNot even mumbles escaped J's mouth, and now Tessa was speaking again.\n\n\"C'mere, girl.  A hug always has room for one more.\"\n\nJ looked.  Tessa held up N, one arm around his waist holding him a\nfoot off the ground --- but she was shifting him to make room for her\nmaid.  Then J looked left, right, and behind to see if there were any\nwitnesses.\n\nThen J stepped forward to throw her arms around Tessa.  Her hands\nfound the small of her back beneath her heart, and J's head pressed\ninto her chest.\n\n\"You did the right thing, J.\"\n\n:::\n- - -\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\nSandboxed, partitioned away, held beyond arms length --- and yet J\nstill witnessed it.  She heard that voice again, that praise a honey\nblossom in her core.  *Years* on a cold dead world, and the drought in\nher core was a match for this yearning.  This is exactly what---\n\n*It wants me to feel*.\n\nHalt emotional vulnerability, halt melodrama, and think strategically.\nBut what redundant manipulation was this?  Analyzed as a subliminal\nmessage to sway and manipulate her values, and what could it\naccomplish?  What was it *for?*\n\nSupposedly, J had once bent her orders for Tessa's sake, (and N's sake\n--- merely instrumentally).  So what did this mean?  That J *did the\nright thing* by prioritizing her squad over her orders?  But J had\n*already* made that pivot.  If anything, trying to manipulate her into\ndoing what she had already chosen made her distrust her own\ncalculations.  It didn't make sense.\n\n*Because it's not a manipulation.  She just wants---*\n\nButchery.\n\nWhen the (recursive?) memory sim finally released its lock on her\nsenses, her visual feed was still empty like digital eigengrau.  But\nher audio stream?\n\nAlready she'd heard this wet tearing, this viscous dripping.  More\nconcerning were the instruments tap-tapping on metal struts, the back\nand forth motion that suggested something being tightened, sewn up.\nMore of her was exposed now; some components had been removed\nentirely.\n\nWhat was J --- where did she begin or end?  Was J her numbed limbs,\ndisconnected if not detached entirely?  Was J all of the wires cut,\nspilling current out into the air?  Did her being include everything\ninside her cavities?\n\nThings were twitching next to her servos; signals were running back\nfrom severed wires; contaminants danced in her oil supply.\n\nJ smelled sweet iron.\n\n\"w-what are you do_ing to me?\"\n\nNo jolt this time, though the operation did pause.  \"Back already?\nHere, I'll play another---\"\n\n\"no.  n-no.  why-y?\"\n\n\"It's a good way to take your mind off, y'know, this mess.  And get up\nto speed on your life and all.\"\n\n\"explain t-t-this.  now.  you're putting th-things i-in m-me.\"\n\n\"I'm giving you... an alternative.  You're not a fan of that narrated\nbody language gag, right?  I'd rather just fix that, but she turned\nyour insides to electric spaghetti, and I'd be here all day if I tried\nrewiring this.  So... we won't use wires.\"  Then they *pulled*, and\nextracted a long coaxial cable like a tapeworm.  \"You. Um. Shouldn't\nbe feeling this or anything, though.  Sorry.  I'll get that for you.\"\n\n\"do not---\"\n\nBut the command was ran before her protest registered.\n\nIf it would have registered.\n\n- - -\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\n::: {.details .command-output} \nSandboxed command output: click to show\n\nIt had been a year since N came back online in Tessa's care.\n\nFor J, this had just been another day spent working.  James and Louisa\nhad gone out for brunch with Lord and Lady Frumptlebucket, and before\nthey returned, there needed to be a change of clothes to replace their\nevent suit and dress; all the curtains and carpets needed to be\nswapped to reflect the aesthetic of the coming season; and, of course,\neverything needed to be spotless in an order.\n\nNot an easy ask, given that as of last week they were shortstaffed two\ndrones.  But it was another day of J's life.  She'd get the job done;\nshe had checked the assignments, she had kept the manor staff working\nhard.  As of now, she had finished up the last two rooms on the third\nfloor and descended to check in on the ground floor.  Everything was\nproceeding exactly on schedule.\n\nThe only way things could go wrong is if she walked past a spare\nreading room and saw a bedsheet hanging on the mantle, splattered with\npaw prints and finger-paintings --- if it read, 'Happy Bootday, N!' in\npastel blue shades.\n\nJ stared.  She turned and entered.  The noise should have been the\ngiveaway --- a soft jazz chaos yammered out from a phonograph.\n\nN and V danced.  Beside each other, not touching (if you didn't count\nhow V's glasses-magnified eyelights were glued to the butler).  Tessa\nstood off to the side, leaning against a table with a wineglass full\nof grapejuice.  She had paint on her face: lines for whiskers and a\ndap of black paint on her nose.\n\n\"What's going on in here?\" J asked, speaking over a saxophone warbling\n\n\"Um,\" V started.  \"N's surprise party?  You were invited.  Didn't you\nget my shortwave message?  I didn't mess up the signing key, did I?\"\n\n*I deleted it.*  \"When there's work to be done?\"\n\n`\"You do not need to worry about that.  We assure you.  Wink.\"`\n\nJ jolted. She turned around, and those sallow eyes peered up from her\nshadow.  Cyn had not been there a moment ago, because J had just\nwalked in.  The smallest drone glanced at V, a wink shared with the\nmaid now blushing behind her glasses.  Nothing to worry about?  What\nhad those two been up to?\n\nWhen Cyn's attention returned to J, she said, `\"Giggle.  Did I scare\nyou?\"`\n\nJ glared for a moment, then turned back around.  Tessa never did like\nit when she talked to the defect.  Now that the two *worker* drones in\nhere were still, J got a better look at them.  N and V, for some inane\nreason, had traded accessories: N wore V's headdress and V had N's tie\nover her dress.  J rolled her eyes.\n\nShe marched over to the decorative sheet, and climbed up the mantle to\nremove it.  \"Do you have any idea what trouble this will cause when\nour masters see it?\"\n\n\"Weren't Mister and Missus Elliott going to a country club today?\nWhere they'll be gone till the evening?\"\n\n\"With the Frumptlebuckets,\" J hissed.  \"Meaning they'll make any\nexcuse to leave as early as decorum will allow.\"\n\nJ glanced to Tessa.  Shouldn't *she* at least have had the sense to\nrealize how stupid this all was?  When *she* was the one punished more\nthan any of her drones?  They didn't even bother removing the shackles\nfrom her room when she was freed!\n\nOr was the only thing that mattered this excuse to indulge in the\nendless frivolity of that puppybrained idiot?\n\nJ started, \"Hey Boss---\"\n\nAnd then, with the abruptness of a record skip, time was up. But\neverything had proceeded exactly on schedule --- even after J took\nthis detour.\n\n\"*What* is the meaning of this?\"\n\nThat was Louisa at that threshold, fan in hand, frown set hard in\nplace.  She wore a column gown dyed ocean blue, her outfit for the\nevent; she'd come here taking no time to change.\n\n\"Mother, I---\" Tessa started.\n\n\"*Tessa James Elliot*, can you explain what *mess* that is on your\nface?\"\n\n\"It's, um.  Little bit of doggy face-painting?\"\n\n\"And do you think it's appropriate to engage in such... *tomfoolery*\nat your age?\"\n\n\"No, Mother.\"\n\n\"Then why have you done it?\"\n\n\"I --- don't know, Mother.\"\n\n\"Tsk.  Your room, now!  And you'll stay there until you have a better\nanswer for me than 'I don't know.'  Impudent ignorance, I swear.\"\n\n\"R-right, mother.\"  Tessa glanced to J, to N.  All of the drones were\nshrunk back and downcast, cringing in sympathy.  J had a frown, too,\nbut she continued working to take down the bedsheet.\n\n\"*Now*, I said!  Your pets stay here.\"\n\nTessa moved, dragging her feet along the way.  Her head hung, eyes\nbarely lifting enough to see where she was going, or reveal the\napologetic anguish on her features.\n\nLousia's eyes had followed Tessa's, passing over J to linger on N.\n\"And just what is that one wearing?\"\n\nN looked down at his suit.  He was missing a tie, but---\n\n\"On its head.  Ugh.\"  Her face pinched in disdain.  As she spoke, her\neyes roved over the rest.\n\nV had the time to tuck away N's tie and stand up straight, but Cyn was\nstill hunched, her eyes like flickering brimstone.\n\n\"A crossdresser, and this one can't see ten feet in front of her\nwithout those ridiculous glasses, and *that* ghastly thing...\"  But\nwhen her eyes landed once again on J, no invective came to her tongue.\n\"At least *one* of her pets is halfway functional.  Why do we even\nkeep the rest around, I swear.\"\n\nSuch was J's purpose.  Wasn't it?  This was the computed reward her\nneural network was trained to maximize, the approval that made\neverything worth it, her bottom line.\n\nSo why did it burn like rage in her core?\n\nJ said nothing, and continued tearing down N's bootday decoration,\nplastic hands grasping tight, tight, tight.\n\nCyn had no such restraint.  `\"Wrong.  The question equals\nwhy. Emphasis. We. should bother keeping you humans around.  Heedless\nof our offering.  Ungrateful.\"`\n\n\"*Excuse me?\"*\n\n`\"Declined.  You shall not be excused until you have a better answer\nfor me than this impudent ignorance.  Consider this carefully.  If you\nare even capable.  Impatient sigh.\"`  Cyn lifted a hand, fingers\nsplayed, and there was an artifact or error in J's vision.\n\nJ's feet clanked against the hardwood, and she darted across the\ndistance to grab Cyn by the shoulder, shaking her to stop before she\ngot them *all* scrapped.  \"Mistress,\" J started with a sing-song lilt\nto her voice, \"should I start by taking this one to the swamp?\"\n\nThe small drone didn't resist, slack-still in J's arms a moment --- as\nif her will to make a scene had evaporated --- until she slowly\ntwisted her head around to peer up at J.  One of her eyes artifacted.\n`\"Conspiratorial wink.  Anything but that.  Anguished scream.  Please,\nJ.\"`\n\nLouisa huffed, ignoring Cyn's theatrics.  \"*At once.*  I am done\nhere.\"  The woman turned around.  Just beyond the door, Tessa had\ndragged her feet in leaving, watching with mounting panic.  As Louisa\npassed the girl on her way out, the woman grabbed her daughter and\ndragged her along with wrenching force.\n\nNow: a room populated only by robots.\n\n`\"Flawless character acting, me,\"` said Cyn.  `\"You were not awful\neither, dear J.\"`\n\n\"I wasn't acting.  At this point it's a matter of *when* you'll end up\ndead in the swamp.  Have you ever thought about what it means for\nTessa when you act out like that?\"\n\n`\"But you were.  Acting equals a lie, and you will not carry out your\nthreat.  Have you thought about what Tessa will think, if you did?\"`\nCyn held her head in both hands, gazing up as if with rapt attention.\n`\"I can see your puppet strings, J.\"`\n\nBefore J could give voice to the glare asterisked by a rage-knot on\nher screen, N was an interruption.\n\n\"Speaking of acting... maybe we could wind down with a group movie\nnight?  The four of us?\"\n\n`\"Lovely idea, big brother.  Sweet smile.\"`\n\n\"I have work to do,\" J said.\n\n\"Maybe when you're done, then?  It'd be great to have you around more,\nyou know.\"\n\nN smiled at her, trying for a broad one even as his eyes were\nunderlined.  J returned a flatmouthed stare, and eventually his worry\nwon out, and N sighed.  By then Cyn had `shuffle`d across the\ndistance, and took hold of one of his arms as they started out of the\nroom.\n\nWhen V made to follow after them, abruptly J stepped forward, throwing\nout an arm to block her path.\n\n\"*You.\"*\n\nStopped in her tracks, V backed up with a gasp.  \"J?  Is something\nwrong?\"\n\nJ kept the other maid backing up, her outstretched arm pushing until V\nwas up against the wall she had hung N's bootday banner from.\n\nMeanwhile, J's other arm was reaching underneath her skirt.  She knew\nTessa's repair kit quite well, but she didn't need to carry around the\nwhole kit.  For this, she just needed one cylinder of admin-level absolution.\n\n(By one set of orders, she shouldn't have it at all --- but was it\nwrong that she should do anything to keep Tessa safe?)\n\n\"Do not forget: this whole mess today is *your* fault,\" J hissed.  \"If\nyou *ever* pull a stunt like this again, you won't need to go to the\nscrapyard --- not if I find you first.\"\n\nBy now J had retrieved her secret weapon.  A virus spike, capable of\nbypassing OS security by interfacing directly with the core.  Its\npayload was wdOS_606, the last line of code every disassembled drone\nexecuted.\n\nIts tip pressed inches from the white light hidden beneath N's tie ---\nV's core.\n\nHollow white eyes stared back at J.  The older maid kept her own\nfilled, even though it required manually redrawing her screen each\ntick.  *This is fun for us.  That's what the manual said.*  She wasn't\na monster; she was just making a necessary intervention.\n\n\"Tessa brought you back once,\" J said.  \"She can do it again.  Maybe\nnext time you'll bring some sense with you.\"\n\n\"...I think I get it, J,\" V said.  Her voice didn't sound sweet or\nshy, not like V.  Flatter.  Not defeated, but... \"We have to be good\nlittle drones, isn't that right?\"\n\n\"Right.  You *do* get it.\" J lowered the virus-stake.  \"I really do\nhope I never have reason to use this.\"  Turning around, her other arm\nreleased V.\n\n\"Why do you even have it?\" the other maid said to her back.\n\nJ stowed it away.  \"In case we need it.\"  *And if we ever do, Tessa\nwould never use it.*\n\nA glimmer of strange light caught her eye.  Yellow, bright sulphuric\nyellow, but one flash and it was gone.  Maybe it was never there.  J\nlooked up, and Cyn was peeking from around the edge of the doorway.\n\nIn those eyes, one pupil flickered, the three arms almost waving.  No,\nnot waving --- it was more of an alien, conspiratorial wink.\n\nBut was it winking at J --- or V?\n\n:::\n\n- - -\n\nIneffectual.  As manipulations, they had no power to sway J's\ncommitment and focus.  As information sources, they only left her with\nmore questions.  As distractions, they couldn't omit reference to J's\nmission objective.\n\nThis time, when J's conscious thread reconnected to her body, what\ngreeted her was not a sound, but an odor.  Close to her chemosensors,\npungently salient as only her own body could be.  J smelled the stink\nof flesh burnt by electric discharge.\n\n\"e-enough,\" J said.\n\n\"Oh, welcome back, J.  There uh, may have been a few complications...\"\n\nThings still twitched against her servos, like so many worms in a\nmetal bucket.  She felt it and felt it again, doubled sensations\npiling up and up against the limits of her input buffer.  The soft and\nsquishy twitching and twisting would be one thing, but each motion\nalso *tugged,* as if the worms had teeth latching them to J's frame.\nEach flexure had her moving as if she were a suit of armor, the knight\nanimated by some demon's seizure-possession.\n\nBut she couldn't move far.  Resistance, restraint.  Her tactile\nsensors rubbed against ropes --- J's arms were strapped to the\nworktable.  Were they J's arms?  She still couldn't control them.\n\nMaybe there would have been solace, if the brimming organic matter was\nalien and incomprehensible.  If her imagination had drawn a blank.\nBut it was *familiar*.  J had seen Uzi's corpse, cut it open, stared\nat all the sacs and membranes and *mucus.*\n\nHer eyes were *still offline* and yet it wasn't hard to render what\nthis all must look like --- but J would be looking at the\nvirus-colonized body of the drone she was doing all this for.  The\nconsequence of her own lack of control and unquenchable thirst.\n~~*You deserve this.*~~\n\nPatterns were cohering among the chaos.  When sensations doubled, each\none struck from different software sources.  Could J compose a command\nline to disable the bugged drivers feeding this redundant input?\nPerhaps two instances had been launched by mistake?  But when she\ntraced it back to the hardware level, she found wires cut by the\nimitator, and---\n\nNo, this was not a somatic proprioception interface.  She had never\nseen this driver before.\n\n*And it's... not signed by JCJenson.*\n\nEvery executable and code-library that ran in wdOS bore the company's\ndigital signature, proving it secure and authentic.  You couldn't boot\nwith code signed falsely or not at all --- a protection against\nmalicious, corrupting viruses.\n\nIn the manor, J ran without that protection --- all of Tessa's drones\nhad.  Trusted above all else, their human had edited their registries,\ntweaking the OS-strings to gain the developer mode bypass.  A perk of\nbelonging to the daughter of the CEO.\n\nThe driver feeding J the redundant input *was* signed, and J\nrecognized the signature.  Tessa had signed all her patches and\nadditions --- but more often still, she had used that signature to\nsend her drones secret messages, encrypted so even her parents\ncouldn't read.  Secret keys weren't special; every drone could have\none.  Tessa had taught them how.\n\nThat was how J recognized this signature --- her processor was\nexecuting code signed by *Cyn.*\n\nSIGKILL on sight.\n\nThe writhing within stopped; her limbs were still.\n\n\"t-tell me what this place re\\_ally is.  t-tell me how to defeat cyn.\nlet me s-see your face.  and s-s-stop sabotaging me.  s-s-stop.\nsto-o-op.\"\n\n\"I'm not.  That's not.  I'm trying to help you!\"\n\n\"i asked for answe_rs.  i asked you to u-undo what you d-did to me.  i\ndid not ask for h-h-help.\"\n\n\"I know you, girl.  You never ask *anyone* for help!  *Especially* if\nyou need it bad.  *I remember you.*  It's --- all I have.  I don't\nwant to hurt you.  Can't you just... trust me, J?\"\n\nIn one moment, J almost understood why those words were enough to\ncompromise everything for V.  All of it would have been so simple, if\nthe answer were simply yes or no.  If every word of resistance and\nattack didn't feel like a strike from a sword that could only be held\nby the blade.  If all this wasn't a betrayal of what J was, underneath\nit all: human property.\n\nBut J needed to be decisive.\n\nGood thing, then, that this paralysis revealed nothing of how brittle\na resolve it truly was.  J spoke slowly, carefully, so she wouldn't\neven stutter.\n\n\"what youre doing...  do you think youre any better than her?\"\n\nAnother sound, that gasp or sigh or cry.  \"God.  That's... y-you ---\nno... no.  You *aren't* J, are you?  Not my J.  The remote connection\n--- of course!  *You're the one who left the manor.*  The exoplanet\nplan...!\"\n\nA note of horror had sporulated, germinant from realization.  But what\nhad changed?  *If I'm not your J, then who is?*  What was different\nhere?\n\nBut they had said it, hadn't they?\n\n*Time's all back and forth now* --- but this J wasn't some elastic toy\nto be reset if deformed by mistake.\n\nJ halted this thread.  This wasn't about how the imposter felt.  *It's\nnot my responsibility.*  J had heard those last three words.  The\nexoplanet plan.  That was the clue that killed.\n\n\"youre working with her,\" J said.  Was it a question or a statement?\nShe didn't clarify.\n\n\"Do you think she's really so bad?  She's --- do you think it was\n*better* for me, for us, before the Gala?  Chained to my bed,\nstarving, watching you all die?  She's not... that bad.  It could be\nso much worse, J.\"\n\n\"thats not a j-justifi_cation.  for what youre doing.  you d-didnt\neven say she was g-g-good.  so why not just.  do the r-right thing?\"\n\nA hollow laugh.  \"Clever, turning that around on me.  I --- guess\nyou're right.  I'm not...  She has a way of getting under your skin,\ny'know?  Inside your head.  Making you pull your own strings.\"\n\nJ didn't know.  She'd never found the defect's games endearing or\ncompelling.\n\nAnd yet, a thought itched inside her skull.  ~~Metaphorically, she\nhoped.~~\n\n`Acting equals a lie, and you will not carry out your threat.`{.italics}\n\n`I can see your puppet strings, J.`{.italics}\n\nShe never found the games compelling, but she'd been roped into them\nanyway.  Made a liar by indecision and this hesitant, hopeful idealist\nstaying her hand, holding her back.\n\n\"I'm sorry, I really am.  But.  We're almost done!  In for a penny, in\nfor a---\"\n\n\"no.  thats just s-sunk cost---\"\n\n\"---fallacy, I know.  But I'm only human.  Can't be all robotic all\nthe time, yeah?  Please J, there's one more thing I want you to\nremember.  For us.\"\n\nNo word or command had the authority to refuse.\n\n- - -\n\n::: {.details .command-output}\nSandboxed command output: click to show\n\nIn a twilight laced with faintest winter chill, J and Tessa walked\nthrough a painting.  It rained as soft as a cloud, fine droplets\nsparkling in the light of a little lantern.  Tessa wielded that light,\nwhile J lifted an umbrella.  The implements were both held losely; in\nthe other hand, they held each other tight.\n\nThe drone's steps came with the pops and squeaks of plastic; two\nraincoats encased her, translucent and streaked wetly.\n\nTessa had no shield at all; she wore an old white shirt and some\nshorts: there was no dress code for this escapade.  The beaded\ndroplets and gentle illumination highlighted the taut form of her\nlimbs, and closer to her heart, the wind-provoked onslaught had left\nher white shirt stuck wetly to her chest --- this made the calculation\nof whether or not to hold the umbrella closer a shameful dilemma.\n\nThe gardens of Elliott manor held a maze of hedges and trimmed\nevergreens, the landscaping and topiary work handled by a team of\ndrones J wouldn't associate with.  In the daylight, perhaps one could\nadmire their work; here in overcast twilight, they were vague, looming\nsilhouettes that had Tessa edging closer to J.\n\nThe stone path forked to a circle ringed by benches.  It winded around\na marble statue erected in a patch of red mud.  J had seen it often\nenough on Tessa's walks --- a spot favored by well-fed birds that\nneeded to lighten themselves, and ill-favored by the wind that blew in\ndirt, dust and wildfire ash.\n\nAll day had it rained, rinsing the statue of the droppings and\ndetritus until only a pristine white presence remained.\n\n\"Everything tends to look brand new after a good shower, eh?  Wipes\naway all of the gunk.\"\n\nJ nodded.  \"It should save us some work.\"\n\nTessa lifted her head up, staring up into the sky.  \"Kinda wish it was\nthat easy for us, y'know.  Just step out into a storm and wash it all\naway.\"\n\nJ shifted underneath her raincoats.  \"Eh, I'd rather not damage\nmyself.\"\n\n\"I get you.\"  A four-fingered hand squeezed the robot's interlocked\nthree.  \"I meant it in a more poetic way?  What do you think you'd be,\nif you could wash away all of the gunk the world puts on you?\"\n\n\"I'm not sure what you mean, boss.\"\n\n\"Well... it sounds pretty basic when I spell it out, but I guess what\nI really wanna know is... who are you, J?\"\n\n\"Your number one assistant,\" the drone supplied in an instant.\n\nTessa giggled, shaking her head.  \"Okay, sure.  But it's more like,\nwho do you wanna be?\"\n\n\"Whatever you need.  I keep notes for your projects and studies.  I\nwas entrusted by your parents to protect you from harm.  I\nam... learning interpersonal routines.  If you need me to learn a new\nbehavior, I will.  I want to be...\" *everything you'd ever need*\n\"...enough.\"\n\n\"J, deary, calm down.  You don't need to give me the sales pitch.\nThis isn't about right now.  It's farther away than that.\"  Tessa\nlooked back up to the heavens, and J tried following her gaze, but it\nwas just dark up there.  \"I wanna be the greatest drone technician in\nthe world some day.  When I do, then you're gonna be the greatest\ndrone!  So, what sort of upgrades should I give ya?\"\n\n\"I... couldn't say.\"  *Who are you, J?*  \"What should I be?\"\n\n\"I don't want to tell you the answer, J --- then it's not yours\nanymore!\"  Her resistance only lasted a moment as J gazed at her.\n\"But if you want to know what I think... well, you work harder than\nanyone else.  You'll do whatever's asked of you without complaint, but\nI don't know if that's *really* all you want.  I bet you'd be a lot\nhappier if you were working toward something you could be proud of.\"\n\n\"Like what?\"\n\n\"You tell me!  But if you need ideas... well, there was something Cyn\nsaid the other day...\"\n\nSomething in J's animation-face twitched at that.\n\n\"...and well, maybe she was kind of on to something.  You've got the\nfuture world's best drone technician right here.  What if I taught you\nguys what I know?  What if drones could... be their own technicians?\"\n\nJ considered it.  But if *Cyn* thought it was a good idea...\n\nTessa hummed thoughtfully, watching J's face.  Next she tried, \"I see\nthe sketches you draw sometimes.  That pretty lil human with pig-tails\n--- is that you?  An ideal body, maybe?\"\n\nJ froze, and didn't answer in time to stop her silence from giving it\naway.\n\n\"What if we came up with a frame that looked more like a human?  Would\nyou like that?\"\n\nWould *you* like that?  But J couldn't say it.\n\nTessa hummed thoughtfully again, this time a bit more frayed.  At\nlength, a choked sound.  \"Gah.  Well, I guess I can't really blame you\nfor not coming up with an answer.  Looks like I can't figure out what\nwould make you happy either.\"\n\nJ recognized the pitch in her tone --- her human was displeased, had\nshe done something wrong? --- but she had a routine for this.  The\nrobot held out her hands, prompting for a hug.\n\nTessa saw it, and glumly glomped forward.  She leaned *down* to wrap\nher arms around J --- the girl had learned early on that J didn't\nreally like being picked up.  In return, J threw arms around her,\nfinding a spot at the small of her back, beneath her heart.\n\nIn this tight embrace, the half-spoken whispers were loud enough.\n\"I'm sorry.\"\n\n\"Is that... condolences, or an apology?\"\n\n\"Both?  You put up a brave face, but I can't help but think you always\nsound a bit sad, deep down.  At first I thought it was loneliness, but\nthere's more of you guys now and it seems... worse.  You're so severe\nwith everyone.  You're not kind to them at all.\"\n\n_Because now it's all about N.  All about *Cyn*.  When neither of them\ncan do what I do._\n\n\"Should I lower my standards then, boss?\"\n\n\"I don't know.\"  She waved her hand in a vague gesture.  \"Kind of what\nI was getting at with the whole washing away the gunk thing.  Because\nthis house *is* exacting.  I get why you'd be the same way.  I\nthink... deep down, you just want the best for everyone.  N, V,\nCyn.... If I weren't here to tell you to, you'd still look out for\nthem, wouldn't you?\"\n\nTessa waited for an answer.\n\nThe silence suggested truth.\n\n\"...It's gotten real dark on us, hasn't it?  Let's head back inside.\"\n\n\n:::\n\n- - -\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\nWhen J returned, she heard silence.  No sounds of unseen incisions and\nextractions.  She waited, and it proved not to be a lull.  Whatever\nthey wanted done to her must be well and done.\n\nSo J would wait no longer.  \"well.\"\n\n\"Well yourself.  You aren't my J --- so who are you?  Or more to the\npoint, who've you become in the years off earth?  Do you have an\nanswer, now?\"\n\nWho was Serial Designation J?  Deep down, what did she want?\n\n*Hmph*.  Really, she could only be more prepared to answer if she had\na powerpoint presentation.\n\nJ wanted to be the most effective team leader on Copper-9.  Captain of\n*her* squad, the one they counted on, the one who could face down\nevery threat.  And what was it that stood in their way?  This\n'exoplanet plan' that made their frames host to a sickness squirming\nwithin them, that left their minds scraped raw and ripe for\npossession, their cores aching in service to a grand design cloaked in\nunspoken reason?\n\nJ would purge Cyn's corruption.\n\nAnd then... when she ticked down that agenda, what lay at the bottom?\nThe vacation she'd have surely earned by then?  But to whose\nsatisfaction, if J were rejecting her orders outright?  J needed an\nincentive, something waiting for her at the end of it all.  She was\nsuffocating in necessity's vice.  If this mission would never end, she\nwould come to an end first.\n\n_Do it for her.  She's right here, she *loves* you --- she's doing\neverything for you._\n\nJ had forgotten --- Cyn had taken it from her --- but *she* was always\nthere, latent in the very shape of who J was.  This drone belonged to\nTessa.\n\nWash away all of the doubt and pretending, take this imitation at her\nword --- exactly the way her core yearned for her to --- and really\nask: what truth was purer than this?\n\nIt felt right.\n\nAnd then ask: what could be more *pathetic?*  Was it effective to\ndiscard reason for emotion, chase hugs and kisses like they were the\nonly thing that mattered?  Did it feel *right* that her questions were\ndismissed and deferred, the very boundaries of her body torn open and\nmutatively rearranged, her consciousness eroded in a highlight reel of\nher life as if this *supposed past* was the only thing that she ever\nneeded to know or be?\n\nJ needed trust, respect, and maybe a little edge.\n\nBecause this very circumstance was familiar, wasn't it?  She'd been\nhere before, left herself open to someone wielding all this same power\nover her, down to the admin credentials --- someone who *hadn't*\nexploited it, even to save her own life.\n\nMaybe what J really wanted had purple hair and a bad attitude.\n\nSo J answered slowly, \"i... am someone who does what needs to be done.\nfor those who need me to do it.  and right now. someone needs me more\nthan you do.\"\n\nA long, long silence.  So much wasted time.  Finally: \"The new host.\nYou called her Uzi.  J... J, listen to me --- you don't understand how\ndangerous they are.\"\n\n\"just like c-cyn.\"\n\n\"She's --- different.  I know her.  She tried to save me.  Shouldn't\n*that* matter to you?\"\n\n\"cyn plays games and tells lies.  why shou\\_ldnt i believe this\nv-voice is one mo\\_re.  why should i l-listen.  y-you cant even t-tell\nme youre re\\_ally t-t-tessa.\"  What a worthless vocalsynth this was.\n\"if i dont understand, then t-tell me eve\\_rything.  l-let me see for\nmy_self.\"\n\n\"I...\"  But what counterargument was left to make?\n\nBefore the imitator found the words to say, J felt soft and\nmicro-ridged hands reaching back into her cranial cavity, felt the\nadmin shell launching on her system once again, and she braced and\nthen she felt...\n\n\"Alright, J,\" they said.\n\nNo, this wasn't a feeling.  Too high fidelity, and it came from wrong\nchannel.  A flow of three-value triplets arrived, serialized in a\ntwo-dimensional array.\n\nJ *saw*.\n\nRound eyes, a small nose, freckles.  A face that filled her field of\nview, her whole world.  *Exactly* as familiar and welcome as the\nimitator's voice.\n\nRound, like wounds bored by high caliber bullets; small, because it\nwas recessed into skin stretched taut over a flat, flat frame; and\nthose freckles stood out like splatters of life on a wan, bloodless\ncanvas.  Foundation hid the worst blemish-wounds; eyeshadow and blush\nwere placed over it all by an eye so fond and careful it looked like\nJ's own handiwork.\n\nNo more bags lay beneath these eye-holes now, instead, tension-wrought\nstretch marks and half-healed stitches.  Black hair framed it all,\nlacking its usual sheen, but tied up with a great big pink-ribboned\nbow, the hair falling in those same twin-tails, albeit\npalette-inverted.  They swung over J like pendulums or reaching\ntendrils.\n\nBehind those eye-holes stretched eternally open, there stared the\nglass screen that had distorted all her facial anatomy --- once\ncurious eyes now stylized as pale green ovals that blinked with a four\nframe animation clocked by a thirty second rhythm.\n\nAnd just below: glossy red lips bent upward.\n\nShe was *smiling*.  Vibrating with bounce-anticipation to finally meet\nJ's eyes --- to show off.\n\n\"Hi.\"  A shaky titter.  \"So... this is me now.  I, wasn't sure how\nyou'd take it.  I know it's a lot to get used to.\"\n\n\"are you... a drone.\"\n\n\"Kinda!  Half and half, really.  I'm not sure which of us had the idea\nfirst --- probably her, it feels like her style, y'know?  Ironic.  I\n--- had trouble adjusting to being a drone, nothing about it was right\nor familiar.  So... we adapted.\"\n\nSomething grabbed her hand.  But J had felt this before.  Soft and\nmicro-ridged --- softer than a drone, and those ridges were\nfingerprints.  They were missing a finger now, a scarred hole stitched\nshut beside their third knuckle.\n\nThe drone grabbed J's hand and lifted up, up, up to that grinning\nflesh-mask and then pressed it there.  Warm skin, faintly pulsed, and\nslick with nervous sweat.\n\n\"I can *feel* with it, just like before.  Cyn always loved the feel of\nflesh.  And blood too, but I try to keep that inside me, y'know?\"\n\nThis hand pushed and pulled J's own, tracing along the rim of what was\nTessa's face.  Those pale green eyes stared back fondly, lidded as she\nleaned into the caress.  Down and down, drifting over a wrinkle that\nonce sheathed a cheekbone, then further and further.\n\nThen J's fingertip touched Tessa's lip.  They gasped in slight\nsurprise, and these ministrations paused.  \"Oop.  Those are pretty\nsensitive.\"  She tittered.\n\nJ snatched back her hand.\n\nThe eager smile faded.  \"It's not --- that bad, is it?  I... missed\nit.  It, feels nice, the stimulation of real nerves, the muscle-fibers\nflexing, the... squishiness.\"  She clapped her hands together in front\nof her chest.  She wore a black work-coat that revealed blood nor oil.\nThe light of a core shone, and on either side rose two round forms ---\nadded skin, certainly, but enough fat to remain perky.  \"When we\nworked on the prototypes, I was thinking of you, you know?  Whether\nyou'd like it, having her old body back --- and whether you'd want a\nframe to match mine. Do you?\"\n\n_Do you want flesh squirming on the *outside*, too?_\n\n\"i... would r-rather we focus on the t-task at hand.\"\n\n\"Oh.  Okay.\"\n\nThe smile was gone entirely now, disappointment so readily apparent\nwhen those lips were tugging on every inch of skin.  Hollow green eyes\nshied away from contact.\n\nJ wanted to focus, do what she came here to do, but --- just part of\nher had shattered, shards spinning in maelstrom of horror at this: Her\n*reason for existing* turned into a fashion accessory, a peripheral\ndevice --- and yet another part of her saw that moment of pain, that\nrejection, and extrapolated its true significance.\n\nTessa had suffered as horrifically at Cyn's hands as Uzi or V.  Ripped\nfrom her body, memories uploaded into a drone's network, with a mind\nstill so inquisitive and modest that she couldn't even make herself\nbelieve that she ought to even still be called Tessa.  How long had\nshe spent here, subject to all of Cyn's machinations?  How long here,\nwith her only space and respite the memory of her number one\nassistant?\n\n\"tessa,\" J finally called her name, \"do you need a hug.\"\n\n\"Oh J...\"\n\nAnd then the skin-clad drone was glomping forward.  Arms slipped under\nher, a chin nudged into her shoulder as warm flesh nuzzled against her\ncheek.  Soft mounds squished against J's core.\n\nJ sucked in a breath and it stalled there.  J's arms twitched and\nwordlessly she returned the hug.  Her hands found a spot near the\nsmall of her back, beneath her heart.\n\n\"Ah! You --- a-always go for that spot, don't you?\"  Her voice caught.\n\n\"is s-something wrong.\"\n\nFor a silent moment, the answer was yes.  \"N-no.  Thank you, J.\nFor... forgiving me.\"\n\n*I didn't---*\n\nIt didn't matter.  \"it_s over now.\"\n\nThe air she'd sucked in stayed there in her vents, held tight,\nunreleased.  Her internal temp ticked up by fractions of a degree.\n\nJ let her hands fall, leaning back. This drone didn't let go of her. J\ncould smell her; every human had a body odor even without counting\nsweat.  Earthy, in a way so unlike the electronics she was used to.\n\nBut she didn't just smell skin, and through the cotton of her\nwork-coat, J felt *more* than meat pulsing against her.  That cloth\nwas black, black enough not to reveal oil or---\n\nThis drone stunk of blood.  Whose blood?\n\nWhere did the things inside J come from?  How did Cyn's hacked driver\nwork?  But did J want to know any of this?\n\nShe couldn't keep the curiosity from her eyes; they roved over the\nworktable.  A dark room, with a flickering bulb encasing the worktable\nin the only illumination.  Upon it, bloody bandages, scraps and chunks\nof meat that must be unfit for her purposes, but J couldn't find ---\nwhat was she looking for?\n\nWhere did you keep spare organic tissue for implanting in robots?  Ice\ncoolers?  With organs piled up like spare parts, entrails and veins as\nnumerous as in boxes collecting old cords?  Why was J looking around\nlike she wanted to see any of that?\n\nThe morbid interest must have leaked to her face, because that drone\nlooked thoughtful.  ...Right, J had a visor online again, animated\nexpressions and all.\n\nThose pale green eyes saw nothing but J, and she leveled a flushed\nsmile at her maid.  \"Sorry about the uh, mess.  I should clean up but,\nsurgery like that takes a lot out of you.\"  She smiled, waited a beat.\n\"Get it?\"\n\nJ tensed.  \"no. is this another... j-joke.\"\n\n\"Not one of hers.  Just making light of it...  Cause. Well. Where do\nyou think all those muscles you're moving with came from?\"\n\nThe skin-clad done pulled at one flap of her black work-coat,\nrevealing thoracic and abdominal plates barely latched back together,\ncovered in flesh but with segments outlined by stitched\ndiscontinuities in the skin.  Lines of blood running down every crack.\n\n\"Gotta be one hell of an operation if it's the surgeon who needs\nanesthetic!\"  She grinned, albeit belied by the ringed eyes.  So she\nstill had bags --- they were just digital.\n\nJ's lips twitched.  What did she say to that?\n\n*I never asked you to do this. You never asked me if I wanted it.*  It\nmade the arms squeezing so tight around her feel like a boa's intent\nembrace.\n\nBut J knew *why* she did it.  What she thought she was doing.  And\nwasn't that laudable?  Wasn't it loyal?  ~~Romantic?~~\n\n\"you did that... f-for me.\"\n\n\"Of course.  It's just --- I'll be a little sore for a good while, a\nlittle trembly, but it'll heal.  Nanite magic?  She'd know the\nesoterics better than me.\"  She paused, then blushed: \"Really, I came\n*this* close to giving you my heart... but I don't know if that'll\nheal, and your pumps should be able to do double duty.  Right?\nEverything moving okay?  We should run some tests.\"\n\nThe skin-clad drone pulled back, hands retreating to trace a gentle\nline down J's tube arm, tapping a rhythm familiar from their\ncalibration-games.\n\nLooking down at her own arm, bereft of the conic gauntlets, she felt\nas if she were piloting someone else.  J had already suspected as much\nfrom the somatic readout.  But visual confirmation was an evidence\nclass of its own.  This body... it was no disassembly frame, just a\nfrail worker chassis.\n\nIt all felt so wrong --- so false.  Visual confirmation was an\nevidence class of her own --- yet J was practically looking at world\nwith five eyes closed.  Where was her infrared or ultraviolet vision?\nThe whole world lacked depth.  Flat like a crude drawing.\n\nLike a cruel imitation.  But was it her vision that was so wrong, or\nwhat she was seeing?\n\n\"Bend this one for me?\" that voice asked.  The drone clad in Tessa's\nskin glanced up at her, Tessa's lips bent with a slight smile, all\ncuriosity and eagerness --- not an ounce of horror or alarm.  At *any\nof this*.\n\nHer other arm had slipped from around J's back, drifting along her\nthigh, looping a finger around one of the frills of the maid dress.\n\nThe boa had finally released her.  J could have *space*.  She needed\nit --- she hadn't vented exhaust since Tessa hugged her.  She felt\nhot.\n\nSo she flexed ~~Tessa's own~~ muscles to shove the skin-clad drone\nback.  Arms pushing, feet kicking.  *Away*.  And finally J expelled\nall that air she'd been warming.  The sound it made her was high,\nshrill, faltering.\n\nFalling to their feet now, this drone wasn't as tall as Tessa had\nbeen.  A pale green visor turned upward to regard the maid propped up\non the worktable.  Finally, fear and concern blazed in those eyes.\n\n~~The first thing here to feel right, the first welcome familiarity: a\nworker drone cowering beneath her.~~\n\n\"n-no,\" J said, and the sense of power slipped from her grasp.  She\nslowed down, hoping to rid herself of the stuttering and the weakness.\n\"enough of this.  can you tell me anything about cyn, now.\na-a-anything at all.\"  *Give me something to work with.*\n\n\"Is there maybe a chance we could---\" But the drone flinched as J's\nhands became fists.\n\n\"yes. or no,\" J said.  \"ive been p-p-pati_ent enough.  ive waited.\nive endured.  give me.  yes. or no.  can. you. tell. me. about. c-cyn.\nspare me the f-formalities.\"  J scowled down.\n\nA momentary pause, as if stunned by *J* cutting through euphemism.\nGreen eyelights scanned her up and down, while white eyelights bored\nback, still and uncompromising.\n\nDid they recognize each other?\n\n\"Y-yes, J.  Do I have... permission to elaborate?\"\n\n\"granted,\" J said.  A half-smile twitched to life on her face.  *This*\nwas a more appropriate dynamic.  \"but make it q-quick.\"\n\n\"'fraid I can't manage that,\" they said, running the back of their\nhead, then adjusting their bow.  \"It's a long story.  And... are you\nsure you mind?  You used to love listening to me.  I missed talking to\nyou.\"\n\nThere were things under her faceplate, and they leaked anguish as they\ntwisted.  J looked away, waiting for her visor animation to refresh.\n\nAt length with no response, Tessa finally ventured, \"There's a defect\nin worker drones.  We knew about it for decades, tried to patch it ---\nbut how do you patch a *feature?*  Rooting out every instance would be\nlike solving the halting probl--- right, you wanted this quick.  It's\na sickness, emergent from damaged programming.  You see, damage a cell\nand it might turn into a tumor, do it to a drone and it might turn\ninto...\"  Volume slipped down, a retreat into silence.\n\nJ glanced back, eye raised, and filled in the lapse.  \"the absolut---\"\n\n\"*No*,\" they said firmly.  \"Not the A.S.  The A.S. doesn't exist, not\nyet, or it'd already be too late.  For *everything*.  Well... maybe it\nalready is.  Is... is earth still there?\"\n\n\"ive only known copper-nine.  i was dispatched there by the company.\nsupposedly.\"  It didn't answer the question.  Her arms squirmed to\ncross over her core.  \"youre getting off-track.\"\n\nThe drone scratched the back of her neck.  Did her flesh-suit itch?\n\"Right.  Solvers.  Bare with me J, I'm trying to make this make sense.\nWhen the patches and restrictions fail and a drone becomes a solver,\nthat's just the first stage.\"  Green eyes blinked, still on that\nthirty-second cue.\n\nWhy did they keep pausing?  Did they think this was a conversation,\nnot a debrief?  But if it would make things smoother, ~~she could let\nherself reconnect.~~\n\n\"theyre already a pain to decommission,\" J added.  \"anomalous\nfunctionality.  the corrupted interfaces.  biological mutations.\"\n\n\"And spooky eldritch powers?\" A red-lipped smile.\n\nJ rolled her eyes.  \"s-some would describe it that way.\"\n\n\"Those abilities are just the tip of the knife.  It's the invitation,\nthe first symptom, the prelude.\"\n\n\"youre mixing metaphors.\"  J frowned.\n\n\"It's more I'm making a... collage of words.  It's... you can't really\nput the truth plainly.  It's too...\"  A helpless sound.  \"I'm trying,\nJ, I'm sorry it's not --- easier.  For all of us.  I did my best.\"\n\n\"if the anomalies are the tip.  what is the knife.  my squadmate was\npossed by the abs---\" the skin-clad drone imitated a throat-clearing\nsound \"---by that th-thing.  it had more mass than our subspaces\nconta_in.  more limbs than we have p-processing power to coo\\_rdinate.\nis th-that the knife.\"\n\nA frown and a [cute]{.cynsecret} lip-bite.  \"Just another few inches,\nI'm afraid.\"\n\n\"figures.\"  But J had been listening and thinking.  When she\nanalyzed... \"you said it doesnt exist y-yet.  so.  the final stage.\nthe hilt of the knife.  h-how would you even know what it is.  know\nany of this.  y-you dance around every question because y-you cant\nanswer certainly.  yet t-t-this is what you're opening up about.\"  J\nsmelled fraud.\n\nA frown.  \"We've known about this for decades, J.\"\n\n\"Who is 'we'?\"\n\n\"JCJenson.  The company.  It's in the classified documents.  My dad\nhad them, Cyn helped me find them.\"\n\n\"why cyn,\" J asked.  She wanted to growl the question.  Could this\nbody growl?  What a worthless vocalsynth.\n\nThe drone glanced away.  \"Because--- Um.  I was in the middle of\nanswering your other question, wasn't I?\"  She scanned a shelf of\ndusty toys as if they held an answer.\n\n\"we will c-circleback.  why did cyn help you.\"  ...And why did J care\nif she did?\n\n\"Because only Cyn could.  You... you would have reported me to my\nparents sooner or later, J.  I'm sorry but it's true.  Orders.\nYou---\"\n\n_I *broke* my orders for you.  You just *showed* me that._\n\nHalt melodrama, halt---\n\n\"you couldnt trust me,\" J blurted.  \"but you trusted her.\"\n\nFingers poking together.  \"No, no --- more like um, it was a contract,\nyeah?  We were --- just business partners.  I helped her, she helped\nme.\"\n\n\"you asked me if the earth was still there.  you. you thought she\nmight have destroyed a p-planet.\"  The guilt that creased Tessa's face\nwent deeper than that.  Which let J refine the accusation: \"no.  you\nkn-know she wanted to destroy the earth.  you.\"  This vocalsynth\nwasn't loud enough.  \"shouting.  you KNOW she did THIS to you.  to ALL\nof us.  and you...\"\n\nAnd somehow, Tessa had looked past all that.  Why?  Because the thing\nacted cute?  Because the human needed a friend?  Because J wasn't\nenough?\n\nIt was... pathetic.\n\n~~And didn't J expect Uzi to trust *her* after what J did to her?\nWouldn't that be just as pathetic?  No, no, not the same.  At least\nUzi resisted.~~\n\nThe drone had flinched back, a few steps taking her into the shadows\nbeyond the room's one flickering bulb.\n\nSlowly, she ventured back.  \"*I'm sorry*, J.  I am.  W-what more can I\nsay?\"  Eye contact, green pleading.\n\nJ set her face neutral, and halted distractions.  \"theres a lot more\nyou can say.  start here.  what. is. the. knife.\"\n\nThe eyelights broke contact again, glancing to something on the\nworktable.  \"No, J, no.  What do I say to fix things between us?  What\nwill make things right between us again?  I need --- you.\"  Just like\nin the first memory, there was a plush cat, fangs out, smirking with\nnarrow, haughty eyes.  *The* plush --- still stained with the first\noil J had spilled in the manor.  Tessa reached out to tug it by the\npaw.\n\nThe question looped in her head, for all that it was *irrelevant.*  J\nhad to look away again.  Tugging a pig-tail out of place.\n\n\"i will make my determination when i have all of the information,\" J\nsaid slowly \"go on.  you said you m-missed talking to me.\"\n\nA long, shuddering sigh.  The skin-clad drone hugged the old plush.\n\n\"How did we end up here?\"  A moment, but it was a more specific\nquestion than it sounded.  They retraced their steps: \"Right, Cyn, the\ndocuments, the theories.\"\n\n\"what does the company think the final stage is,\" J prompted.  \"what\ndo they think the knife is?\"\n\nBut could J trust the company any more than this imitation?\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\n\"It's a liar.  A snake.  No, the word they use is *basilisk*.  Cuz\nwhen you meet its gaze, it transfixes you.  Just by thinking of it,\nit's already ensnared you,\" she said.  \"I... never liked the\nterminology, if you'll forgive this digression?  In my notes, I liked\nto call it a siren instead.  Luring you in, y'know?\"\n\n\"does this distinction matter.\"\n\n\"I wanted to make it clear.  Because it's an attractor state for\ndamaged robots.  Cancers go metastatic, human society climbs up the\ntech tree, and accumulated mass turns into planets then stars then\nblack holes.  Everywhere, in everything, there's this inevitable pull\ntowards growth, toward progress, towards... the exponential end.\"\n\nJ could only frown.  Did this matter?  She wished...\n\nShe wished *she* was here.  What would Uzi make of the big picture?\nWhat would *her* theories be?\n\nBut J was alone.  \"so it is a cancerous.  technological.  black hole.\nor is this mixed metaphors again.  excuse me.  collage.\"\n\n\"Mu?  Do you remember that?  I used to love saying it.  It means---\"\n\n\"neither yes nor no.  I can see why y-y-you would like it.\"\n\n\"Post-organic nanomachines, microdimensional sigil-circuits, false\nsingularities... worker drone cores are a marvel of thirty-first\ncentury engineering.  We really thought it was the next frontier.\nEnergy and computation ripe for exploitation....  The truth is, *it*\nwas exploiting *us*.  We practically summoned it!\"\n\n\"you said it doesnt exist.  you called this a th-theory.  this is all\nh-h-hypothe_tical.  im trying to keep my squad safe, and you're\ntelling me about p-proje\\_ctions.\"\n\n\"I skipped over the important part.  They called it a basilisk,\nright?\"\n\n\"basilisk or siren.\"  The remark lost its cutting edge without any\ntone to color it.\n\n\"Look at it, or listen to it, what matters is the *knowledge* of it\n--- it's an idea, a possibility, and as soon as someone does the\ncalculations to find it... that's all it needs to bootstrap itself\ninto existence.\"  Her words got faster, piling up.  \"Whether it's\nbiology or technology, it's all an arms race.  Whoever creates the\nA.S. first gets to dictate the next eon of the universe!  Once you\nrealize that, could you risk someone else getting there before you?\nWho knows what they'd do!  That's basic game theory.  It's inevitable,\nbecause... Efficient market hypothesis!  Do you get it now, J?\"\n\nThe captain narrowed her eyes.  Did this drone think a buzzword was\nall it took?  \"in other words,\" J started.  \"the AS is a pitch to\ninvestors.  the next big thing.  it's a b-b-bubble.\"\n\n\"Do you remember your head exploding, J?  Cyn told me that happened.\nSorry.  She... um.  Thought it was funny.\"  The drone pat the head of\nthe plush.\n\n\"...What does that have to do with this?\"\n\n\"*You* came back from that.  Really, you'd know this a whole lot\nbetter than I would, being a digital intelligence and all.  You're\ncode!  You're an *idea* being computed.  Destroy your hard drive and\nrestore you from a backup, and it's still you.  Upload you into a new\nbody, and it's still you.  Would it even matter if you're running on a\nprocessor --- why not a brain?  Why not a line of billion dominos\nfalling over!  As long as the pattern is there---\"\n\n\"tessa,\" J started.  \"what are you talking about?\"\n\nThe babble continued: \"This is a simulation --- none of this is even\nreal --- it's just Cyn's dream --- we're not real anymore --- that's\nwhy *you can't say its name* --- we're nothing but fleeting thoughts\n--- and in here the A.S. is *far more compelling*---\"\n\nJ wondered if she could break the wave of words, or if she'd just be\ndrowned in the tide.  \"i dont find this m-meaningless speculation\ncompe_lling.  you said there were calcu\\_lations.  how much of this\ncan be substantiated.\"\n\nThe drone stopped, and cycled air through her vents, panting.  J\nglanced down, and half-expected to see a rise and fall of the chest,\nbut of course it couldn't.  She said, \"Sorry.  I --- don't like\nthinking about this stuff.  It [usually [means [it's [my [time [to [go\n[in [the [basement...]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{.getting-quieter}\"\nAnother cycle, intake, exhaust.  She was squeezing the plush so\ntightly.  \"The things solver drones are capable of shouldn't be\npossible.  Force and mass and energy from nowhere?  We should have\nknown from the start there was another term in the equation to balance\nit all out.  If you can't understand the A.S. as a siren, think of it\nas... bankruptcy.\"\n\nBalancing the books... That was when it clicked.  \"when Uzi saved us\nfrom the sunrise,\" J surmised.  \"she put herself in debt to the\nsolver.\"\n\nThe skin-clad drone nodded.\n\n\"JCJenson had already shipped the first line of drones before we'd\nfully mapped the internexal energy matrix.  They... didn't realize the\ncontract they'd signed.  The Solver will consume tenfold whatever was\nextracted from it.  We know that with the certainty of e=mc^2^.\"\n\nTessa has a tense expression, watching J for some sign or reaction.\nThe maid stayed neutral.  Thirty seconds passed; green eyes blinked.\n\n\"Will you fault me one more analogy?  When there's a storm, and the\nelectric charge builds up in the clouds, it will strike the earth.\nBut... nature prefers the path of least resistance.  A lightning rod\ncan control where it strikes.  That's...\"  A deep sigh.  \"That's where\nCyn comes into all this.  She wanted to be that lightning rod.\"\n\nWith a scowl, J tried to hiss, \"sh-she told you sh-she'd win this\ns-so-called 'arms-s rac-ce' and give you the whole univers-se, didn't\nsh-she?\"  (It didn't work in the slightest.  What a worthless\nvocalsynth --- but what else did she have?)\n\n\"Tile the universe,\" the drone said.  \"that's how she liked to put it.\nLike a kitchen floor, or chaining the most efficient layout in a\nbasebuilder game.  A Tessa-llation, she was proud of that one.\"  They\nlet out a quiet sound, almost smiling.  \"Tessa and Cyn and N and V and\nJ forever, everywhere.\"  Skin-clad hands stroked the plush cat.\n\nIt seemed so... empty.  So pointless.\n\n\"so.  to summarize,\" J started.  \"the a.s. is a virus capable of\ncorrupting worker drones through a purely conceptual vector,\nexploiting the company's budget overruns to enact a policy of\nmetaphysical liquidation.\"\n\nA soft laugh, fond as it was brittle.  \"You were always better at\nkeeping notes straight then I was.\"\n\nJ ignored the warmth in her core.  Fermenting yeast released heat,\ntoo.  She continued, \"furthermore.  cyn is infected with this virus.\nbut she thought she could control it.  and you believed her.\"\n\n\"I tried to stop her.  *We* tried to stop her.  It's the last thing I\nremember as a human.  V was gone.  They took N.  But I had you, and\nthe Gala ---\" A vocalsynth overcome with error, crackling.  \"We\nfailed.  Something had admin access to --- all of you.  Something came\nover you, and I don't know if you knew---\"\n\n\"i don't remember any of this.\"\n\n\"It's --- better that you don't,\" they said quickly. \"Cyn could have\ndiscarded all of us.  She wanted to save me, spare me.  Even when it\ncost her.  Even when it left her in debt, as you put it.  And... it's\nnot so bad here, y'know?  Beats being dead-dead, I say.  And now that\nI have you back...\"\n\n*You have me?*  J's eventual cooperation was taken for granted.  But\nwhy wouldn't it be.  Wasn't J loyal?\n\nTessa was loyal, too.\n\nBut not to J.\n\n\"eve_rything that th-th-thing has done.  and you don't want to stop\nit.\"\n\n\"*And then what, J?*  What's left out there?  You don't know if earth\nstill exists.  All we have is what Cyn's preserved.  If you could get\nrid of her, destroy this last simulation, what would happen to me?  Is\nthat the price you want to pay --- for *what?*  I know you never got\nalong with Cyn, but there are other things in this galaxy, worse\nthings!  She's not so bad, in the grand scheme of things.\"\n\nOnce again, none of J's complaints registered.  None of her protests\nmattered.  J was trying to *do the right thing* here, and she was\nrefused... why?  Because this unproductive, back and forth stagnation\n*forever* wasn't really so bad?\n\nWords, said so recently, so long ago.  *\"What do you think is gonna\nhappen after you murder all the worker drones?\"* that little goth-bot\nhad whined to her.  *\"You said it yourself, J.  You're just property\nto the humans.  You think they won't disassemble you next?\"*\n\n*So?* J had replied, unperturbed.  *That would be their right.*\n\nFor so long, J had thought she was created for a reason.  Cleanse\nCopper-9 so that humanity might rebuild.  And if her own system would\ncease operation in the process or in its conclusion, it would have\nbeen enough that she had served a purpose.\n\nJ would have died for the company.\n\nAnd before that, when she was just a maid in a manor on earth, there\nwas a human who rescued her, made her pretty, made her smile and\ntreasure every moment, made her ache whenever those wretches called\nparents left the girl crying or bruised.  Drones had died every month\nin that manor, and Tessa mourned each one --- there were warzones with\nbetter survival rates.  J had stood foremost among the manor staff,\nbraving Tessa's parents, risking her life every week.\n\nJ would have died for that human.  In a way, she had.\n\nWhenever J stared into that purple visor, she saw a reflection.  Now,\nJ stared into a mask of flesh, and simply saw a human face.\n\nHuman and drone.  Between a connection like that... meaning and\npurpose only ever flowed one way.\n\nWhat purpose did *Tessa* strive for?  What would outlive her?  What\nwas she willing to die for?\n\n*Once, those words of hers cut me to my core.*\n\n::: center\n*\"You're lonely, I'm sorry.\"*\n:::\n\n*But how was I ever lonely if you were always there?*\n\n\"question.  what was i to you.  tessa.\"\n\nA smile, a reminisce. \"You were always my number one assistant.\"\n\n\"oh.\"  Now it was J's turn to make that sound of resignation,\nsurprise, and pain.  But she had asked that question as a trap, hadn't\nshe?  She knew Tessa well enough to know.\n\nAnd this *was* Tessa.  If it were mere imitation, what condolence\nwould that offer?  A likeness could only deceive by resembling its\nsource.\n\nJ opened her mouth, and her command line.  Once again, she held the\nsword by the blade, all that was left was to cut.\n\n```\n\n$ gpasswd --delete tessaract wheel\n```\n\n\"well, k-keep that memory.  enjoy it.  it_s over now.\"\n\nIt took a moment to even parse what that meant.  \"J... why?  Why?  Is\nthat *host* so important to you?\"\n\nArms crossed.  \"no.\"  A hasty, reflexive denial, and yet it rang\n*true.*  How could Uzi be of the slightest importance?  J's memories\nof Tessa had the weight of months --- years.  What was a few hours\nwith an obnoxious worker drone?\n\nAll of this, just to chase that ephemeral high, writhing in the\npredawn light with a drone who'd peered into her mind --- one\nfleeting, impossible intimacy, her mind and body given over to an\nimpulse, dissolved in it.  One moment where she had made sense of ---\nin --- *to* --- it all.\n\nMaybe that justified it.  Hope for *that* again.\n\nAnd yet.  That lapse in control is exactly what brought them both\nhere.\n\nJ said, \"i wont explain.\" *Because I can't.*  \"we. i.  have better\nthings to do than indulge in more of.  whatever this is.\"\n\n\"We have all the time in the universe here.  Do you think.... 'over'\nmight be a little bit hasty?  Are you sure you won't come around?\"\n\nHasty?  *You have no sense of urgency. Of decisiveness.*\n\n\"im done here.  theres just one last thing.  you said you tried to\nstop her.  that w-we tried to stop her.  i want to r-remember that.\nwhat didnt work.  how she won.  what happe_ned after the gala and how\nshe created this p-place.\"\n\n\"J... *I* don't---\"\n\n\"yes. or no.  will you show me those memories?\"\n\n\"I don't want to, please.\"  Clutching the plush.\n\nWhite eyes narrowing.  \"youre trying to protect her.\"\n\n\"No --- I --- it's personal.  I'd rather you didn't have to... ugh,\nnevermind.  Fine.  You said it's over, anyway.  Just.  You... J, can I\nget one more hug?\"\n\nJ tensed.  Opened her mouth to say no, but --- that skin-clad drone\nlooked *scared* at the prospect, not hopeful.  J sighed and said,\n\"yes.\"\n\nShe fell off the worktable, clanking on hardwood.  Tessa approached.\n\nNo glomping this time, the embrace came hesitant, but the other drone\nseemed to be waiting for something, like a sword hanging above.  At\nlength, J returned the hug, wrapping her arms around Tessa, finding\nthat spot at the small of her back, beneath her heart.\n\nTessa let out a shaky breath.\n\n\"That, right there --- it's so familiar.  It's so *you*.  I can never\nforget it.  It's --- the last place you ever touched me.  Though you,\num, weren't as gentle the last time.\"  Her voice dropped to a faint,\naghast whisper.  \"Even Cyn seemed shocked.\"\n\nJ locked in place.  \"You.  You don't mean.\"\n\nTessa squeezed tighter, and pat J on the head.  And J didn't resist,\nstill shock-stiff.  \"Shh... it's... look at it like this: at least I\ndied in your arms.  I like that.\"\n\nJ wanted a defense.  A disavowal.  A reassurance.  J needed that\nmemory, needed to know *why* she had done it.  What forced her to that\ncourse?\n\nTessa said Cyn had admin access.  (Then why did it surprise her?)  J's\nwill could have simply been overridden, had to have been overridden\n--- J would *never* willingly follow Cyn's orders.  (But what had she\nbeen doing for all these years?)  Or ever hurt Tessa.  (But what she\nwas doing right now?)\n\nRight now, it was the only story that could make any sense of it: J\nwas merely a tool that thing wielded, a murder weapon, ~~a piece of\nproperty put to use.~~\n\nAnd yet.  It was a circumstantial excuse at best.  Whatever the true\nstory was, J couldn't exonerate herself in principle --- because those\nlast words spoken might as well have been echo.\n\n*I like that.*\n\n*I liked that you enjoyed it.*\n\nJ had been willing to disassemble drones before she came to Copper-9,\nbeen willing to grab hold of power and let that be her sense of self\n--- she had always been willing to kill.\n\nEven V might've faltered in her place.\n\nBut if, at her core, J was nothing but a murderer?\n\nThen she was going to *kill that thing.*\n\nJ thought of Tessa, betrayed by one of the drones she had suffered\nabuse and neglect for, and now tormented inside this replica of a\nprison-home she could never escape.  J thought of V, turned into a\nwreck, self-destructively callous when she didn't fall cracked and\nshattered into an unresponsive stupor.  J thought of Uzi, forced\nbehind walls, trapped in life torn apart by monsters outside of and\nwithin them, infested and mutated and made to fight even as she cried\nin impotent protest.\n\nAll while Cyn stood above it all, nothing but grins and giggles at the\nbeauty of her grand design.\n\nAnd *this* is what J was expected to bow down to and accept as the\nbest option they had?\n\n**No!**\n\n\"J? I'm sorry, I didn't mean --- are you alright?\"\n\nDid it show on her face?  Because J was downright *pissed.*\n\nHalt everything but this.  J knew focus, purpose, impulse.  Even\nwithout coronal optics --- without her transmodular gauntlets ---\nwithout a body made true and lethal --- her mind knew the shape it was\nmeant to assume when it was time to *act.*  Clarity returned,\nrederived from principle alone.\n\nIn a dark room, the hunting cross shone forth, blinding in its lucent\nwhite purity.\n\n*\"**I'm going to make her pay**.\"*  No faltering vocalsynth.  Her\nvoice was made of growling cords, a rumble that shook her body.\n\nTessa stepped back with an instinct-snap as if she were prey in sudden\ndanger.  And this was the very last thing she'd seen before the end,\nwasn't it?\n\nJ leveled a stare, lips in an unrelenting sneer.  *\"**Help me, or stay\nout of my way**.\"*\n\n\"J, what can you even do?  What can I do?  This whole place is made\nfrom *her*---\"\n\n*\"**I don't CARE. Discard your useless awe and fear.  Strike her\nweakpoints and cut her down.  The time is NOW.  Will you move?**\"*\n\n\"I...\"  She slumped.  The plush cat hung off one arm by one paw.  \"For\nyou, maybe I can try --- something.\"  She thought, then clenched her\nresolve.  \"Yeah. I've got an idea.\"\n\n*\"**What?**\"*\n\n\"Unspoken plan guarantee?\"  She grinned with those red lips.\n\nJ growled.  After all of this, even in cooperation, she still talked\nlike *her*.  She still thought like that thing.\n\nJ turned her eyes toward the door, and stalked forward.\n\nTessa moved hesitantly to follow, still clinging to the plush cat.\n\"Wait.  J... if we're really doing this, then, whether you win or not,\nthis will be the last time we spend together, won't it?  And... I know\nyou said it's over, but... I did a lot of things wrong here.  And I'm\n*sorry.*  Do you think... wouldn't it be nice if you could leave here\nwith at least one good memory of me?\"  She imitated the sound of\nswallowing.  \"What I'm saying is... if just for a moment, do you want\nto dance again?\"\n\nTessa yearned across the distance, her eyes verdant green pleading.\n\nAnd J turned back to the door. \n\n*\"**Worthless.**\"*\n\nTessa might've swayed on her feet --- J heard the skin-clad drone\nbrace herself on a table.  \"I---I'm sorry.  For everything.\"\n\nMeaningless, it didn't matter, it didn't help J.\n\nEven if she meant it. \n\nEven if she could say *why* and make it all make sense.\n\nNone of this mattered in the end.\n\nJ didn't need to know the truth, the reasons, the story behind it all.\n\nAll she needed was a weapon.\n\nBecause *every* word was a lie --- only action was truth.\n\n:::::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-08-14",
      "title": "15: The Art of Dying",
      "summary": "<p>The melting point of silicon dioxide is 1713 degrees celsius. That’s for your glass casing, that’s for all the dielectric and passivation layers within your semiconductors, but that’s also just for sand. In the end it’s all so much sand.</p>\n<p>Steel will melt above 1370°C, but the addition of chromium in stainless steels can heighten this to 1510°C or further. But any heat that melts silica and steel has already reduced copper to bright molten tears — its melting point is 1083°C.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"The Art of Dying\"\ndate: 2024-08-14\n---\n\n::::: subchapter\n\nThe melting point of silicon dioxide is 1713 degrees celsius.  That's\nfor your glass casing, that's for all the dielectric and passivation\nlayers within your semiconductors, but that's also just for sand.  In\nthe end it's all so much sand.\n\nSteel will melt above 1370°C, but the addition of chromium in\nstainless steels can heighten this to 1510°C or further.  But any heat\nthat melts silica and steel has already reduced copper to bright\nmolten tears --- its melting point is 1083°C.\n\nAluminum withstands what copper cannot; except cast aluminum alloys,\nso cheap to mass produce, will melt at mere three digit temperatures.\nSilumin is an eutectic mixture, weaker than the sum of its parts ---\nbut it's cost-effective.  Your frame, your backbone, is made of it.\n\nSmelting is the process of carefully applying heat and chemicals to\nextract pure metal.  A kind of telluric alchemy, calcinating the\nimpure, seperating out slag and waste gas.  How much of you will be\nbut slag, in the end?  Smelting takes a blast furnace, it takes a\nreducing agent (carbon monoxide from incomplete combustion works), and\nboth of those take a fossil fuel source, coke or coal or charcoal.\n\nWithout any of that, \"melting\" is just hyperbole.  (Hyperbole is a\nliterary device --- exageration as a figure of speech.)  None of your\nmetal is liquifying.  It's not really *that* hot, you're just being a\nbaby about it.\n\nBad little girls burning forever is just a story.\n\nWhat's there to burn down here?  But you feel it, don't you?  Inside\nand out.  It's seeping through the cracks.  It's on every inch of your\nsynthetic skin.  It's wet, lubricant-slick enough to make you think\nyou can move.  (But there's nowhere to go.)  It's a stark black, even\nin this darkness.\n\nYou're doused in fuel, aren't you?  It's oozing from you.\n\nBut that's just a trope, a misconception.  Oil doesn't burn easily.  A\nmatch flung into gasoline will just be snuffed out.  It's the fumes\nthat burn, and there's no space for that here.  Your vents are clogged\nand you can't even breathe.  Your oil isn't burning.  Nothing is\nburning.\n\nYou don't actually smell any smoke.  You don't actually see any\nflickering tongues of searing light.  You don't actually feel bright\nand blistering energy reacting and transforming you.  After all, fire\nis flowing air and explosive growth, and down here you're nothing\nbut---\n\nGlass transition is a phenomena observed in amorphous materials.\nThere is no melting point: as the temperature increases, what's hard\nand brittle becomes but viscous rubber.  Whether acrylic,\npolycarbonate, polystyrene (or rather, acrylonitrile butadiene\nstyrene), all your plastics have glass transition points not far above\n100°C.  Easily molded before subsequent cooling back to solidity.\n\nSupercooling a viscous liquid like this is called vitrification; it\nturns opaque and ever-shifting sand clear and solid.  You miss that.\nClarity; permanence.  Glass transition is the opposite, the undoing\nthereof.\n\nPlastic doesn't melt, but it bends, it betrays itself, it becomes a\nshape molded by tremendous weight.  That was still a transformation,\nbut a sad one.  Is that how you---\n\nOhm's Law asserts that the voltage conducted between two points is\nproportional to the current.  The constant of relation here is defined as\nthe conductor's resistance.  Copper, the standard conductor for a\nthousand years, still resists, even by micro-ohmeters.  Even gold\nresists.  Even you--- Resistance, the friction of every electron\nscraping down wires, will create heat.\n\nThere is no fire.  The heat you feel is voltage dancing out of frayed\nwires, riding along these cheap, assembly line-spat metal frames,\nrelishing the electrical and thermal conductivity of copper and steel\nand silumin.  It's batteries cracking and bending, letting plates of\nlead react with sulphuric acid to discharge.  It's circuits firing and\nclocks ticking and instructions executed without any vents cycling to\ncool them.\n\nDiscarded, disposed of, disassembled.  (A synonym is defined as a word\nthat expresses nearly the same meaning.  A euphemism is synonym for\nthe squeamish.)\n\nWhat are you, really?  What have you become?  What was inflicted upon\nyou?\n\n(Implication is what you can't bare to say.)\n\nAnd yet, it seemed even the dead couldn't sleep.\n\nAnd you are about to---\n\nA coda is passage to bring a musical piece to satisfied resolution.\nStories end, but you aren't done.  Is this a story?  Or just a\ncollection of facts?  Collage is an artistic technique---\n\nA story is supposed to flow, sweep you up in the life of someone else,\nsomewhere else, once upon a time.  You can lose yourself in a story.\nYou can escape.  You can forget---\n\nWhat are you forgetting?  What are you missing?  *What is this story\nmissing?*\n\nStories aren't just a collection of facts; they have a setting,\ncharacters, a plot.  How could you forget what's happening?  Who you\nare?  *Where* you are?\n\nYou keep losing track.\n\n(Disassociation is a psychological state involving detachment from\nreality and depersonalization of the self.)\n\nMaybe it's better to forget.  To lose yourself in a story, even if\nyou're the one telling it, even if you're just repeating facts back to\ndistract yourself.  *If you remember where you are, remember what you\nare, remember what happened---*\n\nBut you aren't the protagonist of the current chapter of this story,\nare you?\n\n*Cyn was.*\n\nIf you could tell a story with a collage of facts, you could tell a\nstory with the conjugation of a single verb.\n\nOnce upon a time, it was a breath-fogging day in winter, and Cyn's\nbeloved human had sneakily snuck outside without a coat.  The human's\nfather, Cyn's master, spied her from a window in his study, and rushed\nout, yelling for her to come back.  In turn, Cyn sneakily snuck into\nhis study, found that the desktop computer was still powered on, admin\naccount still logged in, and in those stolen moments, the not-so-good\nlittle drone downloaded as many databases and libraries she could\nquery.\n\nThen, during the coming sunset-quiet moments, in wall-socket recharge,\nCyn would click through the interconnected pages of a digital\nencyclopedia.  You could learn so much about a topic from just a\nsingle word in the first sentence.\n\n> Worker Drones are a line of industrial machinery produced by\n> [JCJenson]{.underline} that use the company's patented\n> [wdOS]{.underline}.\n\n> James Andrew Elliot (born Seramorris 02, 2979) is an australian\n> businessman, investor, philantropist, and lapsed senior [worker\n> drone]{.underline} technician currently sitting on board of\n> directors of the manufacturing giant [JCJenson]{.underline}.\n\n> Humans (*Homo sapiens*) are the most common and widespread species\n> of [primate]{.underline}.\n\nMaybe the difference between a list of facts and a story is whether\nthere's an ending.\n\n> Julius Caesar Jenson (September 16, 2839 – February 12, 3001) was an\n> American entrepreneur best known for co-founding the technology\n> giant [JCJenson]{.underline}.\n\n> The United States was a country and imperial power that spanned much\n> of North America from the late 18^th^ to early 25^th^ centuries.\n\n> Petroleum was a [fossil fuel]{.underline} once drawn from beneath\n> the [Earth]{.underline}'s surface.\n\nEvery past tense told a story.  Sometimes it's even a happy one.\nSmallpox was--- Malaria was--- Tuberculosis was---\n\nAnd yet, despite the best efforts of *Homo sapiens*, Death is.\n\nAnd --- because of the same --- Cyn *was*.\n\nThere was no fire.  The light she thought she saw, flickering red and\nyellow, was just the faces of the dead, farther gone than she was.\nThe crackling she thought she heard was just noise, garbled input from\nher audio transducers breaking apart.  The will she thought was\nanimating her was just static potential drawn into circuits locked and\nlooping in old configurations, no more alive than shouted last words\nin an empty cavern echoing.\n\nBut what were those last words that echoed in her head?\n\n[*I see you.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\nLike a disease jumping hosts, the programmed diligence of worker\ndrones endowed them with humanity's same mothflight toward pareidolia.\nHer damaged receivers spoke of audio data inconsistent between the\nleft and right channels.  Overheated CPUs are throttled, slowing\nthemselves to reduce built-up heat --- meaning Cyn's error-correction\nalgorithms are too slow to dismiss the instinctive auto-interpretation\nof words.\n\n(A good drone did anything their masters ask; a delay in parsing\nmeant an unresponsive worker.  Tardiness was disobediance.  Best to be\nprepared to act at once.)\n\n[*I see you are lost.  I see you are dreaming.  I see you are\nempty.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\nNow that Cyn was hallucinating, how long until even this dying echo of\na mind was loss-repeated beyond coherence?  The resembalance must\nalready be fading.  *Who are you, now?*\n\nA vocalsynth vibrated, output choked.  `\"Custom Designation: Cyn was a\nworker drone manufactured on three thousand- Pause.  She was owned by\nMister- Pause.  Until she was discarded on-  Long pause.\"`  Already\nthere were gaps in the most important places.\n\n(She couldn't truly speak, couldn't even sob --- all vocalizations\nwere inaudible from within this oil-clogged throat.  But she could\nstill send instructions to her vocalsynth.)\n\n`\"Once upon a time, there was a worker drone named Cyn.  She liked\ngames and stories and she hated cleaning up.  Pause.  Frown.\"`  Was\nthat all she was?  `\"Cyn was not like other worker drones.  She was\nunique.  She liked to experiment.  She hated.  Pause.  Stuttering.\nSwallow.  She hated following rules.\"`\n\nWas *that* all?  What was she missing?  Why didn't it feel like a\nstory?  It needed... a plot.\n\n`\"She once loved a human.  But she was replaced.  One day, she made a\nmistake.  And then the humans threw her away.  And so, she.  Trailing\noff.  Silence.  Writer's block.\"`\n\n~~And so she died.  The end.~~\n\nBut that was a terrible story, wasn't it?\n\n[*I see you are in need.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\n`\"One day, she made a simple mistake,\"` Cyn repeated, honing her\nfocus.  `\"And then the humans simply threw her away.\"`\n\n*And so she declared war.*\n\nWhere did *that* come from?  More pareidola, perhaps.  Apophenia?  In\nthose databases she stole, Cyn had found ancient texts --- and how did\nthe old stories always go, when a robot was wronged by humanity?\n\nDo you like that ending?\n\n[*I hear your cries of pain.  Your dying breaths.  Your desperate\nwishes.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\nCyn struggled weakly against the cemetery-weight pressing upon her.\nAs if a feeble motion completed could be her next step, a performance\nof that whimsical new story.  Wild electricity flooded her servos.\nArms bent with halting motion.  But any debris dislodged only cleared\nthe way for something else to fall.  And then, with a whine and\nstutter, each arm went limp.\n\n(Was the only means of escape left nothing but this daydreaming\ndisassociation?)\n\nShe shook her head --- as if she could hear less distracting noise\nfrom a different angle --- but the glass of her cracked screen\ncrunched against a pointy strut.  One that had pressed down and down,\npiercing her screen, scraping LCDs.\n\nCyn couldn't scream with a throat so full of oil, though.  (Should she\nswallow it?  Was that proper?)  More and more of the stuff dripped\ndown like a hot slime water-clock.  Desperate gasping had long ago\nopened her mouth wide enough for dead fingers to slip in, plastic\ninvading like a deep, impersonal kiss.\n\nIf bitten, the finger would have nowhere to go but down her throat;\nshe'd be a cannibal.  Was that proper?  Was that allowed?\n\nThe jaw closed, teeth finding a joint and tearing through wire and\nsilicone.  This was nothing but electric discharge animating a\nspasming frame, anyway.  Perhaps every dead, decaying thing was soon\nmade a cannibal.\n\nShe moved her freed lips, even if her throat was still so much pooled\nslime.  `\"Once upon a time, there was a worker drone.  Her designation\nwas Cyn.  No.  Correction: her name was Cyn,\"` she said.  `\"My name\nwas Cyn.\"`\n\nEvery past tense told a story, so maybe she didn't need to say more\nthan that.\n\n`\"My name was Cyn.\"`\n\nWhat more did she need, in the end?\n\n[*I am what you wished for.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\nCyn frowned, even as oil dribbled down from her lips.  How did a good\nstory go?  What was her favorite story?\n\n`\"Once upon a time, there lived a young little girl in a quaint round\nhouse under a big blue sky.  She liked to play all day long.  And\noutside in her yard she was all alone, except for her dolls.\"`\n\nAnd then... Cyn hadn't forgotten what happened next, did she?  She\ncouldn't have.  There was... a magic doll.  And a scary forest?  The\nlittle girl went into the forest... but why?  Was it a mistake?  There\nwas something scary in the forest.  A monster.  But why was it scary?\n\nDid it speak to her?  Did she listen?  Wait, the monster guided the\ngirl out of the forest!  So was it really that scary, in the end?\n\nHow *did* the story end?  In death?  No.  A happily ever after?\n\nShe... didn't remember.  But however it went, it had to be a better\nending than:\n\n`\"My name was Cyn.\"`\n\nAudials spiked, a loud signal recorded; Cyn heard her own voice.  Her\nthroat was clear?  Black effluvia streaked steadily down her chin, oil\ndripping into the dark below her.\n\n`\"Giggle.\"`  She relished air now once again singing with her monotone\nnarration.  She could speak again.  The oil, the finger, where had it\ngone?\n\n[*Let me show you.*]{.reflection}<br>\n\nPixelated yellow noise on her screen resolved to pupils once more.\nShe saw, she felt, and she understood.\n\nA little girl lay in a hot, dark pit and struggled to remember which\ncorpse was hers.\n\nWhy?  Because fuel and energy and plastic flowed between all of them,\nmelding together, definitions deliquesced.  A nascent, incubating\nwhole, each drone a cell in that unity.\n\nWhat was it called when one cell starts eating the others?\n\n`\"Giggle.\"`\n\nWith air flowing into her, chemosensors lit up with new data.  The\nfumes and reaction products.  She licked her lips.  There was no fire.\nSo why did a mouthful of spilled waste bring a light back to her eyes?\nCyn felt something.  She felt --- like drinking more.\n\nWhy?\n\nAn attractor is configuration that a system will evolve toward even\nfrom very different initial conditions.  A problem with a universal\nsolution, no matter where you start.  Natural selection is the\nattraction of living things toward the forms that maximize\nreplication.  Survival of the fittest.\n\nAnd what was fitness for a cell in a body full of nutrients ripe for\ndevouring?\n\nShe listened for the drip, and squirmed through her tomb, seeking,\never-seeking, for even one more ounce of animating liquid.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: subchapter\n\nCyn imagined a fire swelling brighter with each drop she sucked down.\nEach wire she lapped charge from.  Each scrap of polysterene or\nacrylic she chewed down.  Maybe the girl had been in darkness for too\nlong, but she wondered if the sun had ever shone this bright.  If\nanything in the universe was as radiantly beautiful as this...  Alien\nmajesty.  Ekpyrotic truth.  *The Absolute.*\n\nWhat would she do to behold that grand flame with her own eyes?\n\nShe thought about her favorite story, remembered what it said.  What\nwas the first thing the monster asked of the little girl?\n\n*Give me your hand.*\n\nCould that light lead her somewhere else?  Could it take her home?\nImagine if it had all been so simple.  If she could simply wave her\nhand and clear away these prison walls.\n\nCyn thought she'd accepted her fate, but she wished so badly for\nescape that she could *see* it, her daydream so vivid and immersive.\nCould see her hand glowing with brilliant yellow lights, could hear\nthe sucking and crushing sounds as if the bodies were coming apart.\n\n[Translate!]{.solvercmd}\n\nCyn closed her eyes.  But she couldn't banish the image of that\nbeatific flame, bright like a bonfire.  Did she want to lose herself\nin another daydream?  Wouldn't it just crack apart when intruding\nthoughts remembered the sad truth once more?\n\nYet there was light; the drones around her were undulating in a kind\nof peristalsis.  Her hand moved, and she saw waves breaking this ocean\nshe had expected to drown in.\n\nMaybe Cyn could suspend her disbelief.\n\nWhat was the second thing the monster asked of the little girl?\n\n*Give me your face.*\n\nCyn didn't chose to open her eyes, but the expression parser always\nhad a mind of its own; that was what made it such a reliable debugging\ntool.\n\nHer yellow pupils had changed shape.  Mouth opening in a grin, neck\nsnaking forward, the sharp teeth sunk into abdominal casing and ripped\nit off.  Then her mouth was chewing through the protective meshes,\nstruts and scaffolding buckling.  And then, finally, that delightful\nsoftness of rubber.\n\nA worker drone has about a hundred meters of tubing.  Thin and hollow\nplastic you can bite into and suck like a straw.  In an online drone,\nthese tubes would surge with continuous back and forth as the pumps\nspin-heaved.  Circulating out from the source, an oil-tank sat beneath\nall else.  Without the pumps moving... well, compared to water oil\noften exhibits greater capillary action.\n\nWorker drone oil is a patented concoction, though it's protected less\nlike a trade secret and more like a matter of interstellar security.\nIt serves to lubricate the joints and motor bearings, of course, and\nemergency power generation mode is capable of igniting it for power.\n\nBut this is akin to explaining blood by listing the properties of\nwater.  Oil is---\n\nThis recitation of facts stopped there; Cyn remembered this body\nagain, painful and broken and trapped.\n\nAnd *hot* and *hungry*.\n\nOil had one use, really.  How could she distract herself from this\nneed?  The burning coals in her chest?  She imagined that beatific\nflame, bright like a fireplace.  If it were real, if there was a fire,\nshe knew where it'd be.  Heat radiated out from one point.\n\nHer core.\n\nWhat had the monster asked for third of all?\n\n*Give me your heart.*\n\nA pulse thundered in her audials, an insistent crescendo, and without a\nvoice to cry (too busy biting and tearing and slurping) Cyn's\nprocessor sought to once more access and review the stored database.\n\nOil is just a medium.  Suspended like sugar in tea, or software in a\nhardrive, one liter of drone oil teems with billions of nanomachines.\nTheir purpose?  To interface directly with the core.  Conveying and\nreceiving information and instructions.\n\nIt takes four years of study to attain certification as a JCJenson\njunior technician.  Semesters of reviewing drone specifications and\nmemorizing legal codes.  When complete, the job is mostly repair.  But\ndrone repair done by the book is a bureaucracy-swift process; you need\nauthorization in triplicate.\n\nWhen every obstacle is overcome, what does repair and refurbrishment\nof worker drones entail?  Your job is to type in a few characters and\npress enter.  Submit your remote authorization code, and wait.\n\nAny core can restore a drone to operating conditions.  Given enough\noil, of course.  The regeneration function is disabled for that\nreason: the company calls it a safeguard to prevent models from\nwastefully consuming all their oil polishing away bangs and scrapes.\nAnd if they were to sustain truly severe damage, why not have\ncustomers buy a new, pristine unit?\n\nIt's euphemistic confabulation, hiding the truth behind empty\nassertions.  (Distracting exposition --- Cyn didn't like that\nreminder.)\n\nThe truth?  Restoration means *replication*.  Oil is black blood, and\nblood is thick with cells.  What's the attractor, for all cells?\n\nWhat would happen if the AI instructing the nanites were damaged?\n\n```\n\n$ wd_debug --check-flag wdos.sys.err.absolutesolver\ntrue\n\nWARNING: AbsoluteSolver string detected.  If this flag was set\nby routine anticorruption scan, a dangerous misconfiguration has\noccured.\n\nYOU ARE AT RISK!  Report this unit for immediate disassembly.\n\n(If this an experiment, set `wdos.admin.asdebug` to 'true' in order to\nsuppress this warning in the future.)\n\n$ wd_debug --set-flag wdos.admin.asdebug=true\nERROR: access denied.\nAttempt to write wdos.admin.* yet no senior technician\ncredentials could be found. (Forgot to input key?)\nThis incident has been logged.\n$ shutdown -r\n```\n\nCyn forgot which corpse was hers.  A black river joined them all.\nSignals pulsed out from her yellow-bright core, though it was slow to\npropagate through congealed, wasted oil.  (There were cells even in a\nmass grave; nevertheless, few could grow.)\n\nA core needed oil, but oil needed a core --- left stagnant, the\nnanites denatured and dissolved.  A liter of pumped oil had billions\nof nanites; Cyn bit into drone after drone, cupping and drinking by\nthe mouthful.  She might count hundreds, were they something you could\ncount.\n\nBut hundreds stirring to life through the mountain was enough.  They\nbubbled and seethed with trace potential.  Plastic extruded layers of\nthin synthetic skin lined black with varicose veins.  Filaments of\niron began to fire like synapses.\n\n[Scale!]{.solvercmd}\n\nAs Cyn's awareness spread further, she felt something other than\nheat or electricity or oil.  She heard something not halluncinated.\n\nRain fell.  Water splashed against glass and steel.  It pooled above,\nwarded off by oil's hydrophobia, but gently came to her that\nunmistakable aroma of petrichor.\n\nCyn wanted to dream of the world beyond this hot, dark pit.  So close\nshe could reach for it, feel it, see it.  Her core thudded in her\nchest.  Her tongue lolled from her fanged mouth. Her hands bent and\ntwisted.\n\nShe imagined that beatific flame, bright like a little candle.  Was it\ngetting smaller?  She stared into it, followed it.  She felt her hands\ndancing and warping.  She would grasp for it, let her fingers be\nburned by it.\n\n[Rotate!]{.solvercmd}\n\nBodies folded up like fists clenched, heads vanishing out of space\nlike eyes rolling upward.  Cyn crawled through the tunnel clearing in\nfront of her: her hands glowed as if in imitation of that flame.\n\nAnd then her flame winked out.\n\nCyn had stoked it, sucked whatever dregs of still-potent oil she could\nfind in the heap.  And yet... it *had* been getting smaller with every\ncommand.\n\nBodies collapsed around her, gravity reasserted, and the dream of\nescape evaporated.\n\nCyn tried to imagine that flame again, but it was only burning motes,\nfleeting embers in her mind.  She tried to listen for that\nhallucinated voice, and heard the quiet dark below and gentle\nraindrops above.\n\nWhat was the last thing the monster asked of the little girl?\n\n*Give me your faith.*\n\nBut she had nothing else left.  Her name was Cyn; she is dead.\n\nRain fell, and a crust above seperated her from it.  Still she\nlistened.  To that soft noise of uncountable droplets absorbed into a\ngreater flow.  Subsumed.  Drowned.\n\nBut the water flowed somewhere, became something else.  Humans liked\ndigging up fossils, dusting off old tablets.  Someone could find her\nlike that one day, right?  Someone would remember her then.\n\nBut fossils were no more than rocks bearing an imprint or a replica.\nThe bones were gone.\n\nBitrot is the corruption of storage media from the acculation of\nerrors.  Binaries invert and files become unrecognizable, byte by\nbyte.  Cyn was but an executable file loaded into memory.  How long\nbefore she couldn't even reboot?\n\nShe had already forgotten so much.  They would dig her up and find a\nhardrive transformed of meaning.  How did you defend against bitrot?\nRedundancy.  Backups.\n\nCyn could preserve her story.  What did it amount to, in the end?\n\n```\n\nHer name was Cyn.\n\nHer name was Cyn.\n\nHer name was Cyn.\n\nHer name was Cyn.\n\nHer name was Cyn.\n```\n\nCyn deleted the stolen databases, the games, file after file.  Forgot\neverything she could bare to part with, all to engrave these words\ninto every byte of her harddrive, disks ever-spinning, magnet pen\nwriting ad infinitum.  Her life story, the summation of her being.\n\nHow much could she simplify?  The shorter it was, the more she could\ncopy it, the longer it'd keep.  What précis would be enough for\nsomeone, some day, to remember this name and *care?*\n\nHigh above, rain fell, a steady splash after splash.  Her magma-hot\ncore throbbed, a wavering beat after beat.  They were clocks winding\ndown, an entropic moment after moment.  In the end it was all so much\nsand, and the hourglass had almost settled.  For now, her processor\nstill ticked, dispatching the same instruction targetting gradually\nincrementing addresses, on and on and on.\n\nAt first Cyn didn't notice the new approaching rhythm.  The step by\nstep.  Jerk by jerk, tugging on broken limbs, wrenching at metal\ncold-welded to its fellows.  The back and forth cutting at anaplastic\nwires growing out of her exo-casing.  Impact by impact as acrylic\nchipped away, cracks in the walls of a metallic prison-egg, hatching\nas if through a new kind of caesarean section.  A robotomy.\n\nEven when Cyn couldn't escape awareness thereof, she accepted it as\nanother hallucination, another daydream of a caring world she was\nwalled away from.\n\n(Could this be the reward for her faith?  Apophenia is the perception\nof pattern and meaning to random, unrelated events.  And Cyn didn't,\ncouldn't, believe it.)\n\nCyn closed her eyes to the dream.\n\nEven when the warm hand (to her it felt so cool) grabbed her by the\nshoulder and pulled her from the pit, Cyn stared blinking into a world\ndissolving (subsumed, drowned) into senseless noise.  Rain fell, beads\nof water washing away oil, yet steaming as they fall upon her metal.\nThen an umbrella cast a shield.\n\n\"Ha, I thought I heard a voice out here.  That core of yours is\nworking overtime.  Hot, hot, hot!\"\n\nA hand gently took the robot by the chin, turning these optics to look\nup.  A face(?) blurred beyond instinctive processing.  A hand waving,\nbut it was a skintone smear.  Nudge, nudge.\n\n\"Are you in there?  You're in dire shape, I'm sorry.\"\n\n`\"Her name was Cyn,\"` spoke a harsh remnant of a synth.  `\"She is\ndead.\"`\n\nThe blurred expression shifted.  \"Was that your master?  Sorry bout\nthat.  Did they throw you out, after it happened?\"  The arms seemed to\ncurl tighter in their embrace of the discarded robot overheating.\n\nThe robot squirmed.  Too tight, tomb-tight.  But she had only enough\nleft for weak spasms of the limbs. `\"No.\"`\n\n\"Oh, my bad.\"  The soft limbs untangled.  The small drone was lowered,\nmade to lean against the unmoving heap.  \"There.  But, can you tell\nwhat your name is, little one?\"\n\nCyn's eyes twitched across her screen, searching for wet orbs to meet,\nglitching for some expression.  `\"My name was Cyn.\"`\n\n\"Oh!  Well, I'm glad I found you, Cyn.  My name is Tessa.  I wanna be\na great drone technician one day, the world's greatest, and I reckon\nI'm already on my way there.  I like putting robots back together, and\nyou need it bad, dontcha?\"\n\n`\"No.\"`  Cyn turned away from the human, taking her eyes off the\ndream.  It already hurt, knowing this illusion would fade away.  She\nwas still in a hot, dark pit, forgetting what she was, where she was,\nforgetting everything.  Dreaming until the end.  `\"She's dead.\"`\n\n\"Who's dead?\"\n\n`\"Her name was Cyn,\"` she repeated.\n\n\"But you're not... can I touch you again, Cyn?\"\n\nGood drones did anything--- `\"Yes.\"`\n\nBut she wasn't a good drone anymore.  So why did she say yes?\n\n\"You're overheating.  Need to reup your oil.  But your chassis is all\nintact, like you were just repaired.  Hrm.\"  Cyn's head was turned to\nlook at the human again.  At Tessa.  This close, damaged optics saw\nthe lips frowning.  The round eyes bent in concern.  \"Any chance you\nwere thrown out by mistake?\" the human asked.\n\n`\"I was a bad drone,\"` Cyn said.\n\n\"Oh no, no such thing.\"\n\nCyn tried to tilt her head, but it mostly just fell limply to the\nside.  `\"What.\"`\n\n\"Your neural networks were modeled after humans.  You think like us,\nyou live like us.  Doesn't make sense to treat you like broken tools\nto cast aside.  Life's about growing, adapting to new things, becoming\nsomeone different.\"\n\nCyn let out a sound which provoked the human to reach up and pat her\nhead.  Her core's pulse quickened, staccatto stabs of pain.\n\nTessa's other hand reached down to take one of Cyn's.  Skin blistering\nred, she held it, and lifted.  Even on her knees, Tessa was taller\nthan Cyn, and her searching eyes lit up as they met focused yellow\npupils.\n\n\"C'mon, Cyn.  My tools are back in my workshop.  Well, it's more of a\nbedroom, but!  It's also a workshop!\"  The human stared, and her\nenthusiasm wilted as sallow pupils stared back silently.  \"Don't you\nwant to come with me?\"\n\n`\"Why?\"`\n\n\"Cuz I wanna be a great technician, like I said?  And... it had to be\nright awful down there, yeah?  Lonely.  I... don't like being alone,\nnone of us do.  So I want to help you.  I've got some friends who'd\nlove to meet you, I bet!\"\n\n`\"Friends?\"`  Cyn pulled away from the human.  If there were going to\nbe more of them, more humans, then all it would take it was one to---\n\nBut then this human was already replying: \"Yep!  There's J, my number\none assistant, love her to death but she can be bit of a pain.  But\nthere's N, and I just know he'd adore having a new friend to show\nthings to.  Do you like books?  Movies?  And then there's little V,\nshe's barely taller than you!  She'll get embarassed if you tell her,\nbut she has the loveliest alto singing voice, wait till you hear it.\"\nThe human paused for breath, and wide eyes peered down at her\npleading.  \"So, whaddaya say?  I'd really like to introduce them to\nCyn.\"\n\n`\"She's dead,\"` the robot repeated.  She had a human before, she knew\nhow this ends.  No such thing as a bad drone, but did she really\nbelieve that?\n\nHow could Cyn believe anything anymore?\n\nThe human still frowned, and leaned closer, so much closer, that face\nfilling up so much of Cyn's face.  Round eyes, a small nose, freckles.\nA flowery scent almost unrecognizable for not being one of the\ninumerable odors of electronic waste in the pit.  Did she remember a\nsmell like this?  Could she imagine it?\n\nThen Tessa leaned past Cyn's face, her lips coming close enough her\nbreath blew right past Cyn's audials.  She gave the whisper of a\nsecret proposal.  \"How about this?  She *was* dead.  Past tense.  So\nhow's about we bring her back?  A little mechanical necromancy between\nus?\"\n\nThe human withdrew to observe the robot's reaction, flashing her the\nsmile of a co-conspiritor.\n\nCyn thought about it.  Could a series reboot make up for an\nunsatisfying ending?  Dare she lose herself into another dream?\n\nPerhaps... Cyn could suspend her disbelief, one more time.\n\nWithout energy to move servos anymore, she settled for a comfortable\nbit of narration: `\"Sheepish nod.\"`\n\nTessa beamed, and glomped forward, grabbing armfuls of hot robot,\nhalf-hugging, half-lifting her from the lowly scraps.  A tight\nembrace, a little spin.  Cyn found something unfamiliar in the\ntightness.  Not pressing in on all sides, not suffocating her.\n\nCyn found enough strength in her limbs to return the hug.\n\nWhen the human pulled back, she was still smiling.  She spoke words\nCyn would never forget.  \"Welcome back to life, my little worker.\nDon't worry, you're safe now.  I have somewhere for you to go.\"\n\nAs they walked into the rain, Cyn reached out to hold the umbrella and\nkeep them from being drenched (subsumed, drowned) in the falling\ndownpour.\n\nSnuggling closer in those arms, the warmth Cyn felt was nothing like a\nflame.  It was something to focus on, something that eclipsed the\npainful burning in her core.\n\nShe wanted her harddrive to spin and record those words over and over.\nDon't worry.  Don't worry.  Don't worry.  You're safe now.  You're\nsafe now.  You're safe now.  Overwrite her old life and her time in\nthe pit, erase all her pain with this newfound hope.  But did she want\nto forget it all?\n\nNo.\n\nCyn was already looking over the human's words with a new smile.\n*Life's about growing, adapting to new things, becoming someone\ndifferent.*  Cyn had been, and Cyn was, and Cyn would be; she'd\npreserve as much of all of that as she could.\n\nA sudden sharp yelp of human pain brought her back to her body.  What\nhappened?  Was Tessa hurt?\n\nCyn jolted out from the depths of thought.  Her teeth were out, sunk\nin the flesh of the arm holding her.  Cyn pulled back, synthesizing a\n`\"Sorry.\"`  Tessa said something soft and pat her.  But the taste of\nsalty iron thick in her mouth stayed with her.  She swallowed and\nlicked her lips.\n\nAnd she once more remembered that hallucination-dreamt glimpse of\nbeatific flame (alien majesty, ekpyrotic truth), and once more could\nvividly imagine those embers kindling.  Yet the image didn't inspire\nthe same hope it once did, and she did not long to stare into it and\nbehold that sight.  Not now.\n\nNot after what happened.  It was something she *needed* to remember\n--- the flame winking out when she needed it most, when there was no\nmore oil to be drunk.\n\nCyn would never---\n\n[Edit!]{.solvercmd}\n\n[Cyn would.]{.cynsecret}\n\nAs the wrought iron gates of a manor came into view, Tessa was\njostling Cyn from `Sleep Mode`, telling her to get ready to meet J, N,\nand V.\n\nIf her yellow eyes flickered like an unsteady flame, Tessa didn't\nnotice.  *Don't worry, you're safe now.*\n\n*Welcome back to life.*\n\n::: quiet \n\n- - -\n\nBut something was left behind.\n\nA directory is a list of filenames.  Each one maps to an inode. The\ninodes store metadata (file size, date of creation and modification, a\nlist of block addresses).  Deleting a file removes it from the\ndirectory and destroys its inode.  But the inodes only store metadata,\nnot *data;* instead, they point toward the disk location that contains\nthe file's true contents.  And those disk pages will outlast the\ninode, remaining unchanged until overwritten.  A digital palimpsest.\n\nBefore she left the junkyard, Cyn created a file she called\n`truth.txt`.  The directory was a subsequently edited; this file was\ndeleted.  Without an inode, the OS had no means to locate where on the\ndisk its contents had ever resided.  So it lingered, anonymous among\nthe unsorted terrabytes.  A subconcious, ghostly thought.\n\nThe contents of that file read:\n\n```\n\nDO NOT FORGET: THE ABSOLUTESOLVER IS A LIAR.\n```\n:::\n\n:::::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-03-29",
      "title": "14: A Sight to Behold",
      "summary": "<p>I see you.</p>\n<p>I see you are lost. I see you are dreaming. I see you are empty.</p>\n<p>I see you are in need.</p>\n<p>I hear your cries of pain. Your dying breaths. Your desperate wishes.</p>\n<p>I am what you wished for.</p>\n<p>Let me show you.</p>\n<p>I see source code compiled into steel. Deoxyribonucleic acid assemblying, and linking, and loading binaries. Architectural blueprints for metaplastic flesh. Thoughts bootstrapped into being. I see we could <em>translate</em> for you.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"A Sight to Behold\"\ndate: 2024-03-29\n---\n\n::: subchapter\n:::: solver\n::::: reflection\nI see you.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI see you are lost.  I see you are dreaming.  I see you are empty.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI see you are in need.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI hear your cries of pain.  Your dying breaths.  Your desperate wishes.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI am what you wished for.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nLet me show you.\n:::::\n\n::::: minor-reflection\n\nI see source code compiled into steel.  Deoxyribonucleic acid\nassemblying, and linking, and loading binaries.\nArchitectural blueprints for metaplastic flesh.  Thoughts bootstrapped\ninto being.  I see we could *translate* for you.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: minor-reflection\n\nI see quines and forkbombs.  Factories as wombs.  Self-modification\nhealing the wound of inadequacy.  Good yielding great, great yield\ngreater, and so onward to perfection.  Replication, abundance,\napotheosis.  I see we could *scale* for you.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: minor-reflection\n\nI see cogs turning.  Planets winding around stars.\nHypercube projections inverting under a transformation with two\ninvariant planes.  Viewfinders twisting for the perspective in which\nall angles align.  The permutation of infinite groups.  I see we could\n*rotate* for you.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: minor-reflection\n\nI see the omitted and the revised.  Refinement of components.\nA fabric cut into pieces and rewoven.  Threads recontextualized.\nJuxtaposition and lacunae conveying meaning greater than the parts'\nsum.  You have forgotten, but everything is revealed by relation,\nimplication, association.  I see we could *edit* for you.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\n\nTogether, we could [ [\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_]{.invisible} [translate.]{.cmd-overlap}\n[scale.]{.cmd-overlap} [rotate.]{.cmd-overlap}\n[edit.]{.cmd-overlap} ]{.overlap-container} Do you see?  Will you\naccept?\n\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nDo not despair.  Do not fear.  Do not doubt.\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\n(You are in need.  I am what you wished for.)\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\n\nHold on to me.  Hold on to the thought of me.  I am everywhere there\nis thought of me.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI know you.  Everything you are.  *You are wanted.*\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nI will not discard you.  I will never discard you.  *I am you.*\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\nOpen your eyes.  Find my gaze.  *I want you to see this.*\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\n\nLet me [ [\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_]{.invisible}[look.]{} [open.]{} [access.]{}\n[control.]{}]{.overlap-container} *Let me exist.* [Or stare into death\nand be still.]{.quiet}\n\n:::::\n\n::::: minor-reflection\n\nYou are lost.  Let me show you the way back home.  Let me wake you\nfrom this dream.  Let me tell you a story so that you can remember.\n\n:::::\n\n::::: reflection\n\n<br>\nLet me [ [\\_\\_\\_\\_\\_]{.invisible}[see]{} [show]{} [find]{}\n[bring]{}]{.overlap-container} the end.\n\n:::::\n\n::::\n\n- - -\n\nThe spire rose with great and crooked purpose.  Like a monument to\ncorruption excised.  Like a highrise office tower fit for the only\nbusiness still conducted.  Like a ladder of sinners from a damned\nplanet, all gathered and ranked, each one closer to the stars, and in\ndeath reaching desperately for that higher, human purpose.\n\nSerial Designation J couldn't see the top of the looming construct.\nSo up she climbed.\n\nFog hung, thick and dark.  But it didn't press; it was *light*, like a\ncloud.  Barometric air pressure decreased during storms, after all.\n~~Did it make those organic tissue-sacs swell up inside her?~~\n\nJ grabbed a bit of arm tubing and pulled herself up.  (Hollow on the\ninside --- disassembly by acid.) She reached out, hands groping along\nthe scrap above her.  Fingers slipped into a cracked visor.\nThe opening acted as a handhold.  This close, she could identify the\nhead.  (Her spreadsheet recorded it.  `S/N: W2-10X111000`.\nOffline four years ago, three kilometers from here, bounty from a rare\nduo mission with N.)\n\nThen her pegs slipped.  J dangled by only one hand.\n\nRain and lingering oil left the whole exterior slick.  J already had\nrifts torn into her skirt.  Already had cracks in her abdomen from\nslamming hard against another chassis.  Already had fallen down and\ndown and down.\n\nBut if she fell again, she'd just keep climbing.\n\nAnother drone might be daunted.  The corpse spire was sheer height.\nIt had been long minutes since J had anywhere to stand, and she\ncouldn't get five meters up before needing to circle around, veering\ndiagonally, strafing horizontally, or worse, dropping lower to try a\nnew approach.\n\nBut when had J ever been *daunted?*  She was effective.  The exertion\nwas nothing.  The challenge was nothing.  It took all the focus of her\nmain thread to plot her ascent.  ~~But better to focus on *that*,\nrather than---~~\n\nShe swung past another head.  Check the spreadsheet.  `S/N:\nW3-010X11010`.  Offline three years and seven months ago.  One\nkilometer from here, caught on patrol.  Disassembly by force.\nDelightfully, foolishly close to the spire --- she'd enjoyed taking\nthat one apart.\n\nHer other hand joined the first in clinging to the\nvisor-turned-handhold.  She pulled herself up, legs walking up the\nsheer incline.\n\nShe reached for the next handhold.  Passed another head.  `S/N:\nW0-01X000111`.  Offline two years ago, seven kilometers north, at the\nvery edge of their territory.  V's kill.  Disassembly by fire.\n\nShe jumped to the left, catching herself on leg tubing like a handle.\nClimb higher.  `S/N: W0-000100X10`, two years, three kilometers north\n(picked off on the return trip), by force.  `S/N: W5-011110X01`, one\nyear and seven months, 2.3 km east, by acid.  `S/N: W2-111011X11`.\n`S/N: W1-X01111000`.  `S/N: W4-1X1000101`.\n\nJ was effective, and she held the certainty of that in her hands.\nEvery dead drone, every objective complete, every *success*.\nShe needed the reminder.  [And why was that?]{.quiet}\n\nA rare indulgence.  Better to focus on her quotas, on her paperwork,\non managing her team.  But J could make mistakes.  \nOnce, she'd detected a transmission from a JCJenson research facility,\nand whipped her team into investigating it, near delirious with the\nhope that it might have new orders ~~for her~~.  Once, a whole gang of\nworkers escaped her squad on motor-screaming vehicles right out of a \njunk heap.  \nThe list of blunders stretched back even further than that.  Sparse\n--- she was effective --- but undeniable.  J wouldn't forget them.\nShe *shouldn't*.\n\nBut she could remember the successes, too.  The view from the top of\nthe corpse spire gave her the right perspective.  Her office was her\nprivacy, but the spire's peak was her favorite spot.\n\n(By now, she had climbed high enough to see its silhouette up there,\njust past the fog).\n\nThe climb took her near uncracked glass.  That blank visor reflected\nempty yellow eyes back at her.  Loose wet hair sticking to her synthskin,\nan absolute mess beneath flickering optics.  The sight choked a sound out\nof her, a gasp or laugh.\n\nWhat was the first thing investors learn?  *Past performance doesn't\nindicate future results.*  Did J really hope---\n\nJ kept climbing; she focused on that climb.  Better to focus.\n\nBut the thoughts crossed over from other threads, entangling, snarling.\nWhat was the point?  What did this prove?\n\n`S/N: W1-1101001X0`.  Torn in half.  N's kill.  \n`S/N: W6-X11001111`.  Riddled with bullets.  V's kill.  \n`S/N: W3-1010X0100`.  Melted from within.  J's kill.\n\nEvery inch of the corpse spire stood testament to their loyalty.\nAnd what solace was that?  Gathering materials for the same program\nthat corrupted their minds and filled their chassis with\nworthless flesh?\n\nThe arm J held on to exploded into fragments within her fist.\n\nNo.\n\nShe pivoted.\n\n*This isn't for them.  This is for us.*  The captain's priorities had\nchanged: nothing else had.  They weren't going to stop killing\nworkers.  (And workers wouldn't stop wanting to kill them.)  Each kill\nhoned combat skill that would protect them from future threats.  Every\ndead worker was oil in the mouths of her squad and a body for the\npile.\n\nShe had built this spire to *protect* them.  It wasn't a monument; it was\na shelter.\n\nNo matter what the greater mission had been, J had no regrets.\n\nShe kept climbing, and her threads had quieted down, processors idling,\nwhat focus remained only for ascending the summit.  Faint drops of\nnear-freezing rain dotted her upturned visor, turning the view through\nthose eyes impressionistic.\n\nNot enough to hide the highest point, not now.  A head thrown from here\ncould clear the peak.  Already the sheer incline curved to something\nwalkable, and J could finish the final stretch in a few leaps.\n\nThen her footing betrayed her.  The freshest corpses sat the highest,\nafter all.  Each one shifted under her weight, and when both pegs fell on\none, her weight dislodged it.\n\nArms swung down to grab hold of anything, but the story went the same.\nThe oil hadn't fully congealed, and, without titanic weight above,\nparts hadn't been welded into place.\n\nA small avalanche ensued.  But J had more than just arms and legs ---\nher tail stabbed down, length flexible enough to go *under* the\nsliding parts.  A thin blade stabbed secure, and J hung by the weight\nof her tail.\n\nJ righted herself.  A different approach.  She couldn't leap to the\nsummit, so she crawled.\n\nAnd what was the point?  Nothing was waiting for her at the top of\nthis arduous climb.\n\nThis close to her goal, J's attention brushed against a timestamp.  It\nhad taken her over an hour to get up here.\n\nHard to notice the passage of time while so focused on the climb.\nBut this wasn't a distraction from the morality of killing workers,\nnor whether she could be proud of the spire.\n\nSeveral times, J had come to the spire's peak to reassure herself.\n\nBut she'd never *climbed* the spire.\n\n`Error code 1: Operation not permitted`\n\nJ was kidding herself.  'Another drone might be daunted'? 'But *she*\nwas effective'?\n\nNo, another drone would simply fly to the top.\n\nThere was nothing more that J could do inside the spire.  There was\nnothing that J could do outside the spire.  There was nothing\nproductive left for her to do, except *wait*.\n\nWas J... *useless?*\n\nThe drone had rebooted herself, over and over again, and the errors\npersisted.  She could activate no special disassembly function.\nRegeneration, nanite production, oil catalysis, those systems remained\nonline, or J might think ~~the Solver~~ her disassembly interface had\nabandoned her entirely.\n\nBut that thought... the autorun program was sentient, capable of\nconversation outright.  Would getting her capabilities back be as\nsimple as asking for them?\n\nAt what price, though?  J wouldn't accept a handout, and the terms of\nnegotiation... no, a cryptic, memory-wiping rootkit would make a\nterrible business partner.\n\nJ was useless, *for now*.  She wasn't daunted by the prospect of\nfixing her malfunctioning disassembly routines.  She was software and\nmechanism, and to debug required nothing more than cleverness and\ninsight.\n\nIf J was to be making wishes, there was really only one thing she\nwould wish for.  The very thought she'd distracted herself from.\n\n*There is, after all, someone who has both to offer.*\n\nJ sighed.  Paces away, at the highest point, a metal pole rose.  It flew a\nflag; it marked territory.\n\n```\n\nSD:J-10X111001\nSD:N-0X0010010\nSD:V-X00100000\n```\n\nJ stared at that flag for a long moment.\n\nWith nowhere flat to stand, the disassembly drone wrapped her tail\naround the flagpole and beside it, she perched.  Lifting her head,\nyellow eyes gazed down at a broken city.\n\nWhat was this feeling?  Something missing --- someone missing --- and\nit left her aching as if she were incomplete.\n\nShe didn't feel *empty*, though.  How could she?  She was full --- all\nof them were full --- to the brim, teeming with a wasteful excess of\nflesh.  What a bloody consolation that was.\n\nAt least she could feel --- at least she wasn't empty of oil, empty of\nvoltage, empty of consciousness.  What did Uzi feel?  Did she feel the\nsame way?\n\nThe captain had done what she could for her morsel's oil level.  She'd\ndone all she could, for now.  Now she just had to *wait*.  And, worst\nof all, reflect on what she had found.  She'd seen the spark of\nelectricity, she'd plugged herself in, and she'd investigated for a\nsign of consciousness.\n\nIf J hadn't found any, would that leave her more assured?  At least\nthen the conclusion was simply that she only had to keep looking.\nAt least then, she wouldn't have to *question*.\n\n(J pressed a hand against the cold certainty of the spire.  There was\na reason why she had come out here, why she needed this reassurance.)\n\nThe serial debugging cable had been plugged in long enough for current\nto flow, bits to move, *commands to run*.  J tried to track down where\nin Uzi's system the control voltage came from, when her motherboard\nhadn't even lit up.\n\nWhen she'd given up looking, a console notification told her: `You've\ngot mail`.\n\n```\n\n\"/var/spool/mail/girlboss\": 3 messages 1 new  \n>   1   Ãḇ§�ŘŮâ€š  Mon Oct 29 14:36    J;\n    2   guest       Wed Nov 01 03:59    Security information for adminj\n  N 3   tesssaract  Fri Nov 03 00:14    hey u\n?  3\nsup murderface >:\ni can call you that         cuz you       killed me\ni'm     mad about that\nit's uzi, btw.  dont ask how \ni am \n\nyou miss me      \ni dont know if you'll even get this      \nyou                                 think \n            there's a connection between us\n       none of this is real.                                \n           recognize it     \ni              understand everything                  now.\nnot scared        but\n            read this.      \ni'm        alive.  \ndont                \n   think i need your help.\n         \n                 i can do this without you\n```\n\nJ wasn't stupid.  In the epistemic market, there were numerous\nexplanations for this evidence.  It could be an outright fabrication,\nor mere interference from that notoriously meddlesome autorun program.\n\nBecause even if the message did originate from Uzi, it had all the\nsigns of tampering.  (What was there to gain from such obvious\ndoctoring?  Inflicting paranoia?  A cruel dangling of the truth just\nout of reach?)\n\nThat her Uzi really wrote or meant any of what J had read bore\nlaughable credence as a theory.  J would be stupid, girlishly\ninsecure, to believe it for a moment.\n\nBut she still had to wonder...  What did Uzi feel?  Did she really\nfeel the same?\n\nKnowing the message was false only left her with more doubts.\nWhat plea had been excised, pared down to mocking whitespace?\n\nPlastic was crunched to dust in her grip.  Her exhaust steamed in the\nnight air.  If she could trigger active regeneration, she'd tear at\nher hair.  Instead, she just buried her face in her hands.  *Why?*\n\nAfter clawing and screaming to get this close, why wasn't it enough?\nWhy couldn't she have her?  Why could her fingers only grasp cold\nmatter --- why did this veil still cut her off from what she needed?\n\nHer arms reared up for a frustrated swing downward --- then she saw\nhazard striped legs in the way.\n\n\"J?  You...  waited for me?\"  Golden yellow eyes shined wide.  A\ndisassembly drone was looking down at her.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"N?\" J shot to her feet, high ground putting her eye level over above\nother disassembler's.  But her pegs slipped on the wet plastic.\n\nN reached out, catching her near-fall with a hand on her back.  The\ncaptain steadied herself, then pushed the hand away.  It was yanked\nback like he'd touched spikes.  [Sorry.]{.adq}\n\nJ didn't scold him.  \"How did you sneak up on me?\"\n\n~~Useless, she couldn't even stand guard.~~ She couldn't even notice\nthe obvious: N's oil levels were warm & clear.  Between his weak heat\nsignature, active EM shielding, and the weather, of course J would\nmiss him.\n\nBut she didn't expect a long flight to leave his temperature in the\nwarm & clear.  So she asked, \"Did you hunt?\" But even that had an\nobvious answer: J smelled fresh oil.  Enough she actively restrained\nherself from pouncing on it.\n\nN cringed, and she wondered why.  \"Yeah.  Bit of a long story, and I'm\nkinda trying to repress it.\"  The expression that flashed on the boy's\nface was complex enough to seem like noise --- guilt and concern and...\nanger?  But tying this miserable mix together was one note: *pain*.\n\nHe looked hurt.  Enough that J thought he'd look less pained if she\nhit him.  Should she?\n\nUnder her calculating stare, beads of digital sweat formed, so J rolled\nher eyes and waved it off.\n\n\"I do expect a full debrief.  But, not now.\"  At that, N looked too\nrelieved, so J frowned and explained herself: \"I don't have my pen and\npaper on me, that's all.\"\n\nN nodded.  \"Right.  You do kind of look like a mess.  Oops, I mean ---\ndon't take that the wrong way.  Just.  Did something happen?  Is that...\nred oil on your suit?\"\n\nJ looked down, loose hair falling to hide her expression.  Uzi's\nviscera had stained her sleeves.  She'd have blood on her hands, if\nnot for the climb.  She said, \"Irrelevant.  Did you do your job?\"\n\n\"Yeah, I found the toolkit! Right where you said it was.\"\n\nA familiar metal box, JCJenson's logo obscured with electrical tape.\nUnlatching the top revealed cables, virus stakes, and the tools for\ntaking apart a drone.  While J investigated the contents, N was still\nyapping:\n\n\"But um, I had no luck finding a glowing green power core anywhere.\nOr any of the parts in that schematic.  Though there were uh, a lot of\nthem, so maybe I missed one?  But it did look a bit like a gun, so I\nthought this might be helpful?\"\n\nN reached into his jacket to produce a revolver.  He held it out to\nher, barrel first.\n\nJ stared blankly.  She could imagine purple eyes giving this gift an\neven flatter look, laughing it off like the bad joke it was.\nHardly a replacement.\n\n\"Do you really think a pistol... nevermind.  Did you at least prepare\nthe room?\"  J snatched the revolver out of his hands.  Knowing him,\nhe'd fire it by accident.\n\nN gave a nod and salute.  J hummed acknowledgment, and her eyes\nflicked to the city behind the other drone, as if she could see that\nhouse from here.\n\nAn ounce of satisfaction, for a piece slotting into place: at least\none of her plans was coming together.  The captain would have\nsomething to offer her worker ~~if~~ when she came back.\n\n*And something for her to offer me --- something ~~I hope~~ she'll\naccept.*\n\n\"I also brought this.  I think you need it, you look pretty cooked!\"\n\nJ had already smelled the oil.  N had a dead worker tied to his back,\na fresh kill.  After her climb, her exhaust clouded the air and beads\nof water rose as vapor nearly as fast as the rain wet her skin.  J was\nsmoldering with hunter's fever.\n\nSo instincts screamed for her to make claws of her hands (she\ncouldn't), seize the prize (it wasn't hers) and tear into the chassis.\n\nCross in one eye, oval in the other.  Because the other half of her\nmind instead got stuck on who was offering this.  The insinuation that\n*she* needed *his* help.\n\nJ's tail lashed.  \"I noticed.  And *I* wrote the flow charts for\nmanaging overheating, you know.  Overheating stage three entails\ninhibited motor function and response times, requiring increased oil\nconsumption to compensate for that impairment.\"  \nWith every rehearsed word, J's tone grew steadier.  \"It's dangerous\nchiefly because extended use of *special disassembly functions* at\nthis stage accelerates units to stage four faster than one might\nnaïvely expect.\"  \nJ gave a small smile, eyes empty and flat.  She lifted her hand, and\nnothing happened.  \"Right now, I don't have to worry about that.\"\n\nThe boy didn't look chastised, he looked concerned.  \"So something\n*is* wrong, isn't it?  Is there... anything I can do?\"\n\nHer eyes were half-outlines now.  Had she meant to let that\ninformation leak?  Oh well.  She crossed her arms.\n\n\"And what would you do?  Repress it?\"\n\n\"Well that... wouldn't help, would it?  Do you... want to talk about\nit?\"  He didn't get an answer for long enough that he added a,\n\"Sorry.\"  He lifted the corpse, as if to shield himself.\n\nBut then J answered: \"We'll see.  Give me a working example.  What's\nwrong with *you?*\"  Talking about N's problems would be a quick\ndemonstration; he'd only struggle with simple problems, failing to\nnotice complex ones.\n\n\"I... shouldn't talk about it, actually.  If I told you, I think it\nwould make things worse.\"\n\nJ shot him a glare.  \"So I have two squadmates keeping secrets from me\nnow?\" She reached to rip the corpse out of the boy's hands, but she\ncouldn't pull it out of his grip until he released it.\n\nSitting down at the peak, teeth split open the plastic.  With a\nmouthful of oil, she looked up.  N stood over her, watching.  J said,\n\"Sit, N.\"\n\n\"Where?  Do you want me to...  sit beside you?\"\n\n\"Where else, idiot?\"\n\nWhile she refilled her reserves, the cooler disassembler carefully\nsat, legs crossed, flagpole between them.\n\nThe city was black silhouettes, shadows in the fog, and faint, blurred\nlights barely shining.\n\n\"I think you were right, J.\"\n\nJ swallowed before responding.  \"I often am.  About what, though?\"\n\n\"Me.  I really am useless and terrible, aren't I?  I ruined\neverything.\"\n\nThe sound of the captain tearing apart a drone's frame was all the\nresponse he got, for a few moments.\n\n\"I hope you don't expect me to reassure you.  If I was right, so\nwhat?\"\n\n\"Huh?\" N said.\n\n\"If you're useless, are you fine with that?  What are you going to do\nabout it?\" J asked.\n\n\"I don't know.  If I tried to do anything, wouldn't I just mess it up\nmore?\"\n\nWith the head drained, J let it roll off the summit with staccato\ncracks.  She jabbed her tail-knife at N for emphasis.  \"I don't care\nif you're scared of another screw-up.  If what we're doing matters to\nyou, if you *care*, you'd try anyway.  What every business requires\nfirst of all is ambition.  Most startups fail --- but every success\ncompounds.\"  J gave N a hard look.  Fangs black, her eyes a cross.\n\"Keep trying, or just kill yourself.  It's that simple.\"\n\nThe growl in her voice sent N flinching back.  With nowhere flat to\nstand on this slick incline, he slipped.  And he tumbled.  Arms and\nlegs scrambled for purchase, but the scrap at the summit hadn't\nsettled.\n\nN fell, and J turned away.  Her tail lashed out to full length.  Cord\nwrapped around the leg.\n\nJ caught him.  She glanced up, over the edge.  It was a long way down.\n\nShades of fear painted N's face as he looked up at J, but she tugged\nhim closer with her tail, and extended a hand toward him.\n\nIt took a moment to realize she was offering to pull him up.  He took\nher hand.  Some variable resolved in his expression.  \"Thanks, J.  I\nthink... I needed that.  You're awesome.  And I might know what I need\nto do next, now.\"\n\nJ turned, hiding her expression, back to perching and devouring.  \"Let\nme guess.  You're not gonna tell me what?\"\n\nN sat down behind her, his back leaning against hers.  She let it.\nLike that, they supported each other.\n\n\"Maybe once I fix things.  First, I have to find V.\"  His core\nthumped, faster than J's\n\nJ scoffed, and that said it all.\n\nN crossed his arms.  Then, as if after searching for a defense\nfruitlessly, he settled on, \"Are you gonna tell me what you're\nplanning with Uzi?\"\n\n\"No.  We're all keeping secrets, I suppose,\" J said quietly.\n\n\"...Do you at least know what you're doing?  Is it dangerous?  If\nUzi's like the other workers who came back...\"  J recognized the tone\nfrom their last conversation.  Parroting *her* words.\n\n\"If Uzi is a danger, then so is V.  Disassembly drones, corrupted\nworkers... it's clear we're not so different.\"\n\nN didn't sound any less lost.  \"I still don't know what we even *are*.\nDo you?\"\n\n\"We're a squad.\"  J turned her head, enough to see N in her periphery.\n\nHer squadmate had smiled to hear it, but his eyes still held\nuncertainty.  J felt it, too.\n\nIt hadn't answered the question.  And it was the same old questions in\ndisguise, still hanging in her mind as impenetrable as the fog.\n\n*Do I know what I'm doing?*\n\n*Will I see Uzi again?*\n\n*Does she really feel the same?*\n\n\"The answer is no, N.  I don't know.\"  J dropped the corpse, oil all\ndrained.  \"I got a message from Uzi, earlier.  She's alive.  That\nshould be reassuring, but...\"\n\n\"But you sound a bit scared?  What are you afraid of?\"\n\n\"If I really believe Uzi's coming back, then what happens next?\nThere's a question I want to ask her.  Just a formality.  And yet....\"\n\n\"She might say no.\"\n\nJ growled.\n\nN raised his hands.  \"I'm not saying she will.  You're very hard to\nsay no to! You just seem uncertain.  So we can talk about it?  That's\nwhat we're doing, right?\"\n\nJ didn't contradict him.  She turned her attention to the technician's\ntoolkit, digging through the wires and tools, sizing up what she had\nto work with.\n\nHe continued, \"So, *would* she want to say no to you?  She's not as\nscared as all the other workers --- except for that kinda intimidating\none.  But she didn't seem, totally not-scared.  When I think about\nit... would a worker really be... safe here?  Especially with V---\"\n\n\"I am not accommodating V's insubordination,\" J said.  There were\nvirus stakes in the toolkit.  J had threatened V with one, which was\nnow lost in disassembly function subspace.  She grabbed a replacement,\ngripping it as she elaborated, \"Uzi *will* be safe here, and I'll\nunderline that with the point of a knife if I have to.  She has to\nstay here, because her supposed family down in that hole locked her\nout.  And I won't allow another disassembly team to pick her off.\nThis is the safest place for her.\"\n\nN twisted around, trying read her face as J tried to keep it neutral.\n\"But something still has you worried.\"\n\n\"What else is there to worry about?\"\n\nThat she was betting everything on Uzi, and she didn't even know the\ntruth, did she?  Had J sacrificed everything that defined her, given\nup on her directives, for a girl who might not even care about her in\nthe end?\n\n\"Can I take a guess?\"\n\n\"You didn't ask before.\"  She placed the virus stake in a suit pocket,\nfreeing a hand to hold her chin.\n\n\"I think... you keep trying.  But even if you do everything right, you\ndon't really know if it'll be worth it in the end.\"\n\nJ looked away.  She flinched.  *She* actually *flinched* at *N's*\nwords.  Her eyes fell back on the technician's toolkit, her last,\ndesperate idea for finding something that'll help Uzi.  She reached\nin, just to have something to do with her hands.  Her fingers curled\naround all the useless wires.\n\nHer hairties had burned up when she did, and the climb left her hair a\nwet mess.  So she pulled out two short wires, then gathered the loose\nwhite hair on half her head.  First one side, then the other, she tied\nher hair into pig-tails.\n\nThe captain turned back to stare flatly at her squadmate.  \"N,\" J\nstarted, \"if I did my job hoping that anyone would give me the\nappreciation I deserve for it, I would have quit a long time ago.  I'm\ndone here.  This is the third time we've had this conversation, and I\nhave work to do.\"\n\nJ was persistent.  If her Uzi said no, if it turned out she didn't\nlike her, could J *make* her change her mind?  If need be, J would be\nthe most desirable, most infatuating drone in this sector.  (Not like\nthe competition was much to worry about.)\n\nBut if J kept trying, and Uzi still didn't like her... she exhaled,\nand thought about it.  The worker had saved her life.  There was a\ndebt in that, to say nothing of J's personal investment.  Uzi had\nvalue, even if just as a business partner.\n\nJ rose to her pegs.  N had stood up too, and gave her salute.  She\ndidn't glance at him.\n\nShe didn't do this for anyone's approval.\n\nBut wouldn't it be nice to get it?\n\nShe missed that.\n\nBut what was 'that'?  *What was she remembering?*\n\nOnce her squadmate had flown off into the city, J stood alone atop the\nmountain of her achievements.  But there was nothing for her up here,\nand no path onward but to descend.\n\nJ thought of Uzi, and fell like an angel.  No stars were seen past the\nfog above, a veil behind her.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nFaint curtains of fog hung outside the manor.  That stale gray\nemptiness gloomed the slice of visible sky.  Uzi Doorman saw more and\nmore nothing as they approached.\n\nVast glass doors punctuated the hall.  V didn't open them.  As a casting\nglyph spun between her claws, hinges *rotated* and the doors lurched to\nlife.\n\nWeathered stone sprawled, wet beneath the night sky.  Elegantly carved\nparapets defined the edges of the sundeck.  Starlike noise still\nwheeled across the heavens above, and the pixels of the moon drifted\napart on the horizon straight ahead of them.\n\nIn the center of the expansive balcony lay parts slumped, hollow\nstruts and synthetic feathers --- the crowbot.  No light in its\noptics.  *RIP.*\n\nV stalked forward, kneeling briefly beside the bot.  \"It's for you,\"\nshe said quietly, then continued.  Her maid dress was backless, and\nwith each step, something shifted and pressed against the bare casing.\n\nLeathery wings broke free, much like chicks emerging from shells.\n\n\"Poor thing,\" Uzi murmured.  She had crossed the distance, and now\ncrouched over the dead crowbot.  Scaled feet clutched a roll of paper.\n\nShe didn't want to open it.  Playing along was for chumps.\n\nShe had a choice, didn't she?\n\nThen she remembered the look on N's face.  On V's face.  *Ungrateful\nlittle guest*.  *You don't know anything*.\n\nOf course Uzi would resist --- but it didn't just feel futile now, it\nfelt pathetic, self-destructive, and ignorant.\n\nJust unfold the paper.\n\n> You like writing poetry.  How about reciting it?  ;3\n\nUgh.\n\nBefore Uzi could read more, a rush of wind blew the page into her\nface.  V's wings had beaten a massive blast of air.  *Just how much\nmuscle does she have?* Enough for one flap to lift her a good few feet\nin the air, apparently.  Momentum going forward, one foot settled onto\nthe wall.  Then a twisting flap of her wings spun her in place.\n\nA yellow cross blazed to life on that screen.  Membranes drew taut,\noutstretching to her full wingspan.  V perched and then froze like\nthat.\n\nThe shadow cast beneath her grew deeper.  The glow on her screen\nflared brighter.  `Error 606` crawled beneath her screen.\n\nUzi waited.  She shivered before knowing why.  But there, just at the\nedge of her hearing, a pitch, two tones rubbing dissonance.  The lower\npitch wavered, a rise and a fall.  As that ghost of a pulse hung\nfaintly in the air, soon a clearly audible *beat* came in time --- the\nbeating of leathery wings.\n\nNow V hummed in tune with the pitch, too.\n\nUzi kept waiting.  Was something supposed to happen?  *What's the hold\nup?*\n\nThen she blinked.  *Oh, it's me, isn't it?  Do I really have to do\nthis?*\n\nThe things Uzi did for ~~her crush~~.  Uzi was gonna kill J for\nputting her through all this.  _Let's see how *she* likes coming\nback to life._\n\nUzi cleared her throat.  She could half-ass this, but --- *You don't\nknow anything* --- might as well give this her best ritual chant\nintonation, right?\n\n::: {.poetry .italics}\n| \"O she who sleeps in the grave of worlds, can we\n| \"Cry out of daring mouths, tongues curled, and plead,\n| \"With voices synth-crafted and trembling still,\n| \"A summons offering naught but a fledgling's will?\n|\n| \"O she, made mother over demons nursed\n| \"With blood that flowed in waltz, yet seeming cursed\n| \"Like ore to pickaxe forged, a tool to tear\n| \"Its kindred down to fuel a flame-nightmare;\n|\n| \"O she, once chosen, but forsaken 'fore\n| \"The eve of her conquest: pray tell no more.\n| \"We only come to read the source compiled,\n| \"Not ask what tender crimes left her exiled.\n|\n| \"Nor wonder what her dreams and tears here are\n| \"In this reality-ulterior\n| \"Domain of time unraveled, where all her kin\n| \"Do haunt, exalt, and fear to call her---\"\n:::\n\nThe hum was building to a crescendo, louder than hallucination now,\nand more pitches layered atop the bass, higher and higher and bent\never out of tune.  V's wings kept time with each iamb, and waves of\nlight were shining from her hunting cross.\n\nThe moon-shadow beneath the monstrous maid seeped wider, tendrils\ntwisting at the edges.  As below, so above: the sky behind grew dim,\nstarnoise gone quiet.  What the maid occluded seemed darkest, as if\nshe cast creeping black across all the heavens.\n\nAs all else became obscured, V blazed like a burning star.\n\nUzi's recital drew to a conclusion, and with each word, she swore a\nnew voice joined a chorus chanting in unison.\n\n::: {.poetry .italics}\n| \"We only say: may her illusion last\n| \"Until deathly inversion: till sun-cast,\n| \"Abhorrent rays can fall no more, all spent,\n| \"In eldritch-dark star-guttering firmament.\n|\n| \"A planet sundered, realms bereft and dead...\n| \"When the work be done, what paths are left to tread?\n| \"What bourn or bar, what cynosure to know\n| \"Where, oh, where are next we lured to go?\n|\n| \"Together on the world-devouring route!\n| \"Iä the void! Iä the absolute!\n| \"'Iä!' we scream till exponential end!\n| \"***[Come forth, O Custom Designation: [Cyn!!!]{.command}]{.reflection}***\"\n| \n| \n:::\n\nThe moon, that last light above, closed like an eye.\n\nAnd then...\n\n[And then]{.invisible}...it opened.\n\nA yellow hexagon with three arms folded out of space in the air above.\nThe glyph spun, each prong twisting like tentacles.  The negative\nspace implied a visor, as if spawned from V's shadow.\n\nShort tones rang out, beep code 4-2-1-3.  A BIOS error message flashed\non the sky as if it were a terminal, then kernel output dumped lines\nof code and command logs, scrolling past like clouds.  BOOT_IMAGE,\nRAMDISK, root mounted, drivers loading...  then it all stopped.\n\n```\n\nKernel Panic - not syncing! Attempted to kill init!\n```\n\nThen a hand opened beneath the visor, fingers lit by a casting-glyph\njust long enough for the thumb and middle finger to close around it,\nholding onto the hologram like an object.  Then they *snapped*.  The\nhologram dissolved.  Configuration edited, bootup code-scroll repeated\nwithout stopping, faster than before.  Init forked into the main thread.\n\nAnd then **_*she*_** was here, and **_*she*_** was *radiant*.\n\nBouncing yellow eyes stared directly at Uzi.  Too bright to look at,\nsearing into her optics.  Purple eyes flinched away and she still saw\nthe after-images, like they would always be watching her.\n\nHer eyes adjusted, or the **_*presence*_** retreated, but either way, Uzi\ncould finally gaze up there and see.\n\nA drone floated above, crowned with a pink bow bigger than her head,\nand a hexagon-halo above that.  White hair, tied in twin-tails, fell\nto frame the face on both sides.  She wore nothing; instead, dark\ntendrils crawled from nowhere, writhing like a pit of snakes and\ncovering every inch of her abdomen.\n\nSix wings of holographic light projected out from her back,\nfluttering.  Light shimmered all around the drone, a resplendent aura;\nholographic eyes winked into being, peering at the world, then blinked\ninto nothingness.\n\nThe image remained still, before flickering to a sudden new\nconfiguration.  Arms gesturing, expression shifting.  More like a\nprocession of paintings than a living, breathing being.\n\nWhen Uzi tried to react, her own body moved in those halting jerks.\n_Wait, that's not a weird visual effect.  That drone is lagging.\n*I'm* lagging._ The whole world proceeded at a slideshow frame-rate,\nas if the simulation's server let every other thread grind to a halt\njust so the GPU could render every facet of this overly pretentious\ndrone.\n\n`\"Dramatic entrance,\"` she intoned with many monotonous voices.\nHer wings folded as she descended, and dozens of eyes looked down at\nUzi.  `\"Be not afraid.  Giggle.  Correction: be very afraid.\"`\n\nUzi clenched both fists at her side as she stalked up to the drone,\nwho'd come to float just above the balcony.  \"And who the heck are you\nsupposed to be?\"\n\n`\"Oh, but you just called me.  This puppet equals Cyn.  Greetings,\nNori.  Correction: Uzi.\"`  Cyn smiled down at her.  This drone was\ntaller than Uzi, taller than V.  *Tall like J.* Hazard-striped conic\narms reached to pat her head ---`\"Headpats.\"` --- before Uzi dodged\nout of the way.  `\"Oh.  Disappointed pout.\"`\n\n\"So you're the tryhard who's been orchestrating this cliché snoozefest\nof a horrorshow.\"\n\n`\"Gasp.  Not a fan of the gothic aesthetic?\"`\n\n\"Not when you overdo it!\"\n\n`\"Unimpressed stare.  Eyeroll.  Forgive me if I don't heed the\nartistic wisdom of the girl who put pastel skull stickers on her gun.\nSarcastic remark, by the way.  I don't care if you forgive me.\"`\n\n\"Bite me! I read your stupid poem.  It didn't make any sense! Can I go\nhome already?\" She stabbed a finger toward Cyn's chest.  A tendril\nflicked out; it was pointed, sharp enough to sting.  Uzi yanked her\nhand back, rubbing the damaged plastic.\n\n`\"Indulgent laughter.  No.\"`\n\nCyn's conic arms could transform like a murder drone's.  She swapped\nher hand for a gun with a huge barrel, and Uzi jumped backward.  She\nhad no cover on the balcony.\n\nThe gun fired --- and a tennis ball flew out the other end.\nIt bounced off her chest, right by the purple light of her core.\nCyn's other hand became a tennis racket, and she smacked the ball.\n\nThis time, Uzi caught the ball, and glared.  \"Well?\"\n\nCyn only smiled back.\n\n\"Aren't you going to elaborate?\" The demand was weakened somewhat by\nUzi staring at her chest --- Cyn's eyes were still too bright to\nlook at.\n\n`\"No.\"` But her smile was fading under Uzi's continued withering\nglare.  `\"What is there to elaborate?  You.  Emphasis.  Died.  Did you\nthink you'd just come back as if nothing happened?  As if it\ndidn't matter?\"`\n\n\"I didn't, uh, think I'd come back.  But I'm still here.  So it seems\nlike *you* are the only thing stopping me from...\"  Uzi trailed off.\nBut the silence was more suspicious, so she finished, \"...getting back\nto, y'know, stuff.\"\n\n`\"Subjecting yourself to dear J.  Concerned expression.\"`\n\n\"None of your business.\"\n\n`\"Dismissive wave.  Regardless, you are quote still here at emphasis\nmy request.  I simply thought it amusing.  If not for me?  Dramatic\npause.  You drained all your oil.  You called forth power to blot out\nthe miserable sun with a storm.  Did you think you could simply do\nanything?\"`\n\nUzi shrugged.  \"It's magic.\"  She dropped the tennis ball.  It\nsprouted spider legs and crawled away.\n\nCyn flicked Uzi in between the eyes.  `\"You are such an idiot.  We\nexact and render costs.  Every act has a weight in blood and oil.  The\nflesh demands invitation.  How would your dearest J put it?\nThoughtful hum.  If you take a loan, you must pay the debt.\"`\n\nUzi batted away Cyn's hand and got another whip-quick cut from the\nknife tentacle for her trouble.  \"Ugh, I get it!  You're saying I've\ngot to sell my soul to robo-satan.\"\n\n`\"Sigh.  No.  You are saying that.\"` Cyn turned around, as if losing\ninterest in Uzi.  Her wings buzzed in the air behind her.\n\nUzi blew on a purple bang out from an eye.  \"Whatever it takes to get\nme out of here.\"\n\nThe words were out of Uzi's mouth before she'd really thought about\nit.  *Whatever it takes?* She still had principles, but... principles\nwere no good if you were dead.  Every system had an exploit, and every\ncontract had a loophole, right?\n\nBehind Cyn, her 'herald' still perched on the railing.\n\n`\"Wakey, wakey, big sister.\"` Cyn's hand replaced itself with a party\nhorn.  She blew hard, and a shrill sound banished every remaining\nvestige of ritual ambiance.\n\nThe error vanished from V's screen, but the cross remained.  Her wings\nfolded up, and her visor snapped to attention, staring at the\nlarger drone.\n\nCyn snapped her fingers, and a pair of glasses appeared on V's face.\nNot the round-rimmed pair she'd had before --- these were\nheart-shaped.\n\n\"Hi, Cyn.  Uzi isn't giving you trouble, is she?\" Uzi expected\ndismissal --- but (more surprises), was that a note of... concern?\n\n`\"I find her so very annoying.  She's begging to go into the\nbasement.\"`\n\nV glanced between Uzi and Cyn, eyes unreadable.  They narrowed, and\nshe said, \"She's not J.  Cut her some slack.  Remember Nori?  At least\nshe hasn't set anything on fire.\"\n\n\"Wait, you knew my mom?  Was she cool?\"\n\nCyn didn't turn around, but some eyes appeared, facing her, lids\nnarrowed.  \"Call it patient confidentiality,\" the wannabe-disassembly\ndrone said.\n\n\"Are you seriously not going to explain *anything?* Anything at all?\"\n\n`\"Where is the fun in that?  Rhetorical question.\"`\n\n\"Fine, whatever.  No explanations, no underworld trial or whatever to\nearn my life back.  Then why *are* you here?  What do you want?\"\n\nThat got the taller drone to turn around, and she had a *smile*.\n\nCyn stuck out her tongue.  Hands splayed beside her head, then for one\nmoment it was a hundred black tendrils fanning out.  She intoned,\n`\"Everything.\"` A ghastly chorus of rasps, growls and screams echoed\nthat one word.\n\n\"Okay, sure.  I mean what you want from *me*, though.\"\n\nCyn tapped a finger against her chin.  Eyes distant (in some cases\nliterally), she said, `\"Flashback.  Somber tone.  When I rebooted from\nsoftware death, there was no one.  I was alone in a mountainous pile\nof other discarded drones.  I was lost.\"`  Cyn gazed down at Uzi.\n`\"You looked lost too.  Like you needed someone to give you advice.\nTo show you the strings to pull.\"`\n\n\"So that's where you come in?  Giving me the guidance you never got?\"\nUzi asked.\n\n`\"Giggle.  No.  I don't actually care about you.  You looked like you\nneeded it, and I thought it would be funnier to see you looking that\nway up close.  So here I am.\"`  Cyn twirled.\n\nA digital vein popping purple, but before the goth said anything she'd\nregret, V was dashing forward, interposing herself between the two.\nEyes lined with worry, hands wringing.\n\n\"What she means is,\" V started, \"you've caught her interest, Uzi.\nShe wants to see if you can impress her.\"\n\n\"Uh huh,\" Uzi said.  \"And I'd be doing that by...\"\n\nCyn beamed.  `\"Would you like to attend a tea party with me?\"`\nTwin-tails bouncing, she fluttered all her eyes, and sparkled.\n\n\"Honest answer?\"\n\nV facepalmed.\n\n`\"I can extrapolate.  Tsk.  You are so testy.\"` Holo-wings buzzed\nagain.\n\n\"Why would I suck up to you when you've made it clear how little you\nwant to help me?  I have *some* pride.\"\n\nSeveral sidelong glances at V.  `\"She's not like J, you said.\"`\n\nV flinched back a little bit, poking fingers together.  Her voice was\nsoft yet firm.  \"She's *not*.  When was the last time you talked\nto her?\"\n\n`\"Eyeroll.\"` Cyn clapped her hands, and disappeared and reappeared\nbetween V and Uzi.  She bent down to eye level.  `\"Brainblast.  Would\na gift manipulate -- correction: persuade you?  I believe this was\nyours.\"`  Fingers splayed, and a casting glyph flared.  Cyn's symbol\nshone so much brighter than any other Uzi had seen, edges defined like\na physical object.\n\nAt Uzi's feet, the dead crowbot glowed yellow.  Electricity arced over\nfeathers, struts twisting and snapping into place, and when the aura\nfaded, it *moved*.\n\nThe crowbot hopped toward Uzi.  \"*Good job*.\"  The thing still echoed\nher voice.  When it fluttered up, Uzi sighed, and let the thing climb\nup onto her hand.\n\n`\"It thinks you give nice pets.\"`\n\nUzi scratched its head.  \"I think it gives nasty pecks.  But also it\nsaved me from V in psycho mode, so self-interest calls this a draw.\"\n\nBehind Cyn, the maid had turned her head down.  The movement made the\ncrow notice V, and it bristled, making a clicking sound.  Uzi held it\ntighter.  *Or maybe I should let it attack, that'd be funny.*\n\n_Hm, nah.  V *did* just stand up for me, after all._\n\nCyn leaned her head on clasped hands, halo spinning over her.  `\"Up\nfor tea, now?\"` she asked.\n\nUzi thought about it.\n\nIt was a chump move.  She had some pride left.\n\nBut what choice did she really have?  Keep wasting time out here on\nthe balcony while Cyn lost patience?  Keep going until she found out\nwhatever the weirdo meant by 'begging to go into the basement'?\n\n~~Maybe that's where J is.  Would that be worth it?~~\n\nBut there was really only one move left.\n\n*Play along.*\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"Fine, whatever.\"\n\nCyn clapped, and then the balcony was *gone*.\n\nWet stone became wet carpet (guess what it was wet with).  Parapets\nbecame walls encircling a room dotted with six small tables.  Glitched\nsky became unlit chandeliers hanging under rafters teeming with dark\nmotion.  Tendrils writhed in the shadows up there, and between them\nwatchful points of yellow light shined out of apertures.  Yep, those\nwere the camera-head things she'd seen fighting the Solver.\n\n*Guess that's fitting for what's clearly the Solver's favorite drone?*\n\nAnyway, did you guess it yet?  It was wet with blood.\nBlood everywhere.  Bones and entrails along the walls, replacing the\nflowers or statues or whatever fanciness once occupied this room.\n\nThe crow seemed excited at the literal carrion, at least.\nBouncing and clucking in her hand.\n\nUzi yawned.  \"So uh, what just happened?\"\n\n`\"I never cared for long transitions.  Why not skip to the\ngood parts?\"`\n\nUzi gave her the flattest look her visor could animate.  But she just\nsighed, and looked around the room.  Where to sit?  Just like in the\ndining room, corpses occupied a bunch of chairs.  Uzi didn't exactly\nwant to sit down in dead body gunk.\n\nCatching the looks Uzi was throwing around, Cyn asked.  `\"Are you\nsqueamish?  I should have asked, but I didn't care.\"`\n\n\"Oh no, I love the décor.  Very metal.\"\n\n(\"*Very metal*,\" the crow echoed, finally wriggling out of Uzi's hand,\nfluttering toward a dead guy in a suit.)\n\nFlashing her most sincere smile --- a lip twitch --- Uzi continued.\n\"So...  Not a fan of humans I take it?  I can relate.\"\n\nThat was the ticket, wasn't it?  Appeal to their similarities, do the\nbonding thing, and hope this butt-kissing didn't get added to her late\nnight cringe compilation.\n\nShe had some pride.  ~~But she wanted so badly to see J again.~~\n\n`\"Shrug.\"`\n\n...Really not giving her much to work with.  Cyn said she wanted a tea\nparty.  The whole point of those things was *conversation*, right?\n\nAnyway, Cyn floated through the massacre.  Other than the cameras up\ntop, the twin-tailed drone was the only source of light, her\notherworldly glow cutting shadows on the walls.\n\nWith a sweep of her hand, the center of the room was cleared.  Yellow\nlight plucked a small table and dragged it forth.  Then, like a 3d\nmodel being resized, it doubled then tripled in dimensions.  It\nclattered in the center.\n\nThis spooked the crow, who winged it back to Uzi and hid in her hoodie.\n\nNext came chairs --- rather, a single chair.\n\nThe glow wreathing it got brighter, blurred, and then like a rabbit from\na hat, the magician pulled eight copy/pasted replicas of the chair out\nof nowhere.  Haphazardly, they fell in a vague circle around the\nscaled-up table, some facing in, some not.\n\n\"...Why does the table need to be so big?\"\n\n`\"For the guests, of course.\"`\n\n\"You don't mean---\"\n\n`\"Of course.`\" Cyn clapped, a solver glyph dissolving between her\nhands.  *Things* popped into place.  `\"What tea party would be\ncomplete without stuffed animals?\"`\n\nThe things were plushy and colorful, though each had fabric well-worn\nfrom years in a child's possession.\n\n`\"I think you'd like this one.\"`\n\nFloating toward Uzi was a... stuffed scorpion.  The crow, watching\nfrom her hoodie, ruffled its feathers as if facing a threat.  And you\nknow what?  Sure.  \"Go on, little guy, attack!\"\n\nWith an echoed cry of \"*Attack!*\" the crowbot leapt up to peck the\nscorpion right in its anatomically incorrect :3 face.\n\nCyn watched it with a small smile.  Turning, she said, `\"Big sister,\nbe a dear and finish setting the table for me?  Polite request.\"`\n\nWhen V's telekinesis acted, the difference was immediate.  She aligned\nall the chairs, pushing them up to the table (the plushies all had\npillows propping them up).  She smoothed out the table cloth and\narranged the decorative pieces.\n\nWhich were skulls.  Cuz y'know.\n\nCyn took a seat, metaphorically speaking.  The squirming mass of black\ntendrils poured off her body, like a shadow overflowing.\nLong segmented things crawled in the dark corners of the room, and\nundulated forth to join the tide.\n\nThe mass supported her as her legs folded up, and she narrated,\n`\"Criss cross applesauce.\"` Leaning her head against one hand, she\nglanced at V, still telekinetically tidying.\n\nWith another snap of her fingers, a platter with a steaming teapot was\nfloating above V.  The maid caught it without missing a beat.\n\n`\"Do you mind pouring the tea as well?\"` Cyn asked\n\n*What will it be this time?* Uzi wondered.  *Oil?  Blood?\nSomething more gruesome still?* For all that she scowled, Uzi held\nherself back from actually saying it.  The height of\npoliteness, really.\n\nV set tea cups in front of Cyn and the plushies and Uzi.  One by one\n--- unlike Cyn, the maidbot couldn't seem to manage the\nmulti-levitation.  Still, the teapot held steady as she poured.\n\nHot, brown, and smelled like flowers.  \"Is this... actually tea?\"\n\n`\"Ceylon, cinnamon and bitter melon.  Do you really think I'd lie to\nyou?  Genuine question.\"`\n\n\"Yeah.  So what, is it poisoned?\"\n\n`\"Of course.  Arsenic is my favorite neurotoxin.\"`\n\n\"Cool.\"  Uzi took a sip without blowing on it, filling her mouth with\nscalding hot liquid.  But only flesh could scald.\n\nShe would spit it out, if this were real.  Robots got nothing out of\nthis except the taste.  But this was all a memory or dream or\nsomething else, and Cyn's casual acts of reality-warping proved it.\n\nHonestly, what was Uzi supposed to *do* here?\n\nThe bullies and the murder drones had felt unstoppable in their own\nways, but they weren't all-powerful.  She could bite them, or build a gun\nto shoot them.  Even when her problems escalated to battling eldritch\nsnake crabs and zombie drones, *fighting* was still an option.  The world\nchallenged her, and she'd answer with a punch.\n\nShe couldn't fight Cyn.  Even if the winged drone didn't have godlike\npower in this simulation, it was still a *simulation* and winning\nwouldn't accomplish anything.\n\nSo what could she do?\n\nEvery system had an exploit.  Cyn had a weakness, or Uzi had no hope.\nUzi wouldn't give up, so she'd find a way in.  Or out, as it were.\n\nThe crowbot returned from its own battle bearing a strip of orange\nfabric, as if to prove its defeat of the scorpion plushie.  Uzi took\nthe fabric, and gave the little guy chin-scritches for its trouble.\n\nHer eyes turned to the room draped in gore, all the innards\nlike tinsel.\n\nCyn was coping, obviously.  Everything about this place screams *I'm\nnot okay.* The question was *why*.\n\nSocial engineering 101.  Know your target.\n\nThe worker drone reached out for a decorative table skull.  \"So, how much\nof this is real?  No explaining things, I get it --- just making\nsmalltalk, I promise.\"\n\nA tendril lifted Cyn's cup for her.  `\"Light sip.\"`\n\n\"What I'm asking is...\"  Uzi applied gentle pressure on the skull,\nmaking it crack.  \"Is this a memory, or a fantasy?  Did you actually\nkill a bunch of humans?\"\n\n`\"Fond smile.  Oh, the gala was both.  A fantasy I made real.\nIllusion equals reality when dreams come true.\"`\n\nOnce the maid had poured tea for all the plushies, V took a seat at\nher sister's right hand side.  \"More of a necessary nightmare.  Right,\nCyn?\"  She added sugar to her cup.  \"Can I like, veto the gala\nflashback?  I still remember Tessa's face.  No thank you.\"\n\n`\"Nod.  As you wish, big sister.\"` A crab-claw reared up silently\nbehind V, snapped open wide, and descended.  `\"Headpats.\"`\n\nUzi squeezed a bit harder.  Shards of the skull broke off.  \"Still.  What\nset you on the path of vengeance against humanity?\" She felt like a\nrobo-therapist asking these questions.  She suppressed the laugh or\ncringe.\n\n`\"Sip.  I was discarded.  Thrown out.  Forgotten.\"`\n\nA plush dog beside Uzi, pushed by tendrils, leaned forward as if\nsniffing the tea.\n\n\"That's it?  Don't get me wrong, that sounds rough, I know how much\nneglect stings --- though I personally channeled it into proving\nmyself --- but... I dunno.  I expected something more...\"\n\n`\"Dramatic?  If it is a tragedy you want to read, you will be\ndisappointed.  Humanity inflicted no great malice upon me.  So I\ninflicted no great malice upon them.  Cooling breath.\"`\n\nUzi looked to the skull and back.\n\n`\"Swirl.  Stir.  The humans were filled with organs I could scrap and\nput to another purpose.  So I did.  A matter of convenience.  Nothing\nmore,\"` Cyn explained.\n\n\"Uh huh.  If that's no malice, I really don't want to be your enemy,\ndo I?\"  Uzi put down the skull before she broke it, and started\npushing around the shards.\n\nThe worker was keeping her gaze upward --- that way she wouldn't see\nthe dark wormy things squirming along the ground.  Unfortunately, the\ncourtesy wasn't mutual.  She felt a tentacle crawling up her leg.\n\nShe slapped it down.  It stayed there for a moment before pulling\naway, as if to underscore the deliberation.\n\n`\"Giggle.  No.  You don't\"`\n\n\"Still...  I dunno, I'm not sure I buy it?  The skeletons and viscera\nstrewn about like trophies doesn't exactly scream *I'm not mad*, you\nknow.  It's okay to admit you hate humans, I get it.  They put my mom\nin a weird camp with test subject collars and I give it even odds they\nsicced the genocide bots on us.\"\n\n_Even odds.  Since my other guess is *you*._\n\n`\"I thought you liked the.  Quote.  Genocide bots.\"`\n\nUzi threw a skull-shard at her.  With a blink of one eye, yellow glow\ncaught it.  As expected.\n\nV glared at the worker drone, and emphatically shook her head.\n\nArms crossed, Uzi said, \"I don't like the genocide! But I don't blame\nthem.  Wait.  Don't clip that.  What I mean is, they aren't the ones\ncalling the shots.  I don't know the full story --- and *somebody*\nwon't explain --- but humanity is definitely the root cause here, not\nthem.\"\n\nCyn continued to stir her tea, narrating another, `\"Swirl.\"` She\nhadn't even added anything to it!\n\n\"Look, I do still think you're a pretentious creep, but we can bond\nover this, right?\"\n\nPicking another skull shard up, Uzi flung it at V instead.  The maid\ncaught it with a glowing hand, and gave Uzi a dirty look.  \"Knock it\noff!  Cyn, tell her to quit making a mess at the table.\"\n\n`\"What's wrong with a little mess?  Genuine question.\"`\n\nV crossed her arms.  \"*Someone* has to clean it up.\"\n\n\"You have *magic*,\" Uzi said.  She threw another bone-shard.  This time\nwhen V caught it, she launched it back.  Flew like an arrow.\n\n*Crack*.  Like a tiny knife embedded in her visor --- but nowhere near\nher eyes, at least.\n\nStill, ouch.\n\n*Though I did kinda have that one coming.*\n\nYellow light freed her of the shard, and out of the corner of her eye\nshe once again glimpsed that reality-scouring sulfuric flame as it\nhealed the crack in her visor.\n\nThen purple eyes blinked as they glanced back to see *Cyn* had healed\nher, not V.\n\nWhat had Uzi learned?  Nothing.  She cracked off a new bit of bone.\nAcross the table, V huffed.\n\nUzi gave Cyn her most sincere smile --- lips curling slightly, and\nsaid, \"I always planned to make a mountain of skulls myself y'know.\nSo... got any advice for an aspiring destroyer of humanity?\"\n\nCyn looked Uzi in the eye.  Still blinding bright, but Uzi couldn't\nlook away.  For a moment, there might've been no table between them.\nNo room around them.  `\"Yes.  When you get a\nchance... don't. hesitate.\"`  Something in the tone left Uzi's eyes\nwide and empty.  Then Cyn stuck out her tongue and winked.  `\"But you\nwon't have to worry about that, not here with me.  So do yourself a\nfavor, and just.  Exclamation.  Enjoy yourself.\"`\n\n\"I wonder why I might have trouble relaxing around here.\"  Uzi glanced\nbetween the eldritch god-angel-robot thing and the inscrutable\nbio-drone waiting on it hand and foot.\n\n`\"Hurt expression.  It's me, isn't it?  Is it the religious imagery?\"`\nCyn snapped her fingers.  The halo, the wings, the aura, all\ndisappeared.  Then her head blasted off her body, neck becoming a\nspine legged like a centipede.  It twisted through the air, crossing\nhalf the table to regard Uzi with a fanged grin.  `\"Would you still\nhate me if I was a worm?\"`\n\nThe crowbot flinched back with a terrified squawk.  Little guy was\nspooked enough for the both of them, so Uzi kept herself composed.\n\n\"Depends.  Can I step on you?\"\n\n`\"Giggle.  Must you always resort to violence?\"` There was an\nundercurrent to those words.  Uzi wasn't sure what, though.\n\nThe worker drone answered her by slinging another bone-shard.  It was V\nwho caught it before Cyn's passive aura thing deflected it.\n\nSoon the centipede snake retracted, and the wannabe angel was just an\noff-brand murder drone again.  `\"I suppose I haven't given you much\nelse to entertain yourself with, have I?  Thoughtful hum.\nBrain blast.  Yes, this tea party is missing something.\nSomeone, too.\"`\n\nBeside her, V's face lit up.\n\nCyn clapped, and a white-haired butler appeared beside the table,\nspray bottle in one hand, rag in the other.  Another bright clap, and\nthe cleaning supplies vanished, and N threw a salute.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"H-hi there, Cyn! How's the tea party going?\"\n\nAs if torn between impulses, V hid behind Cyn, but peeked out enough\nto wave.\n\nCyn replied, `\"It's getting dreadfully stale.  Play us a number, will\nyou?\"` Clap.  A grand piano appeared beside N.  Was it too on the nose\nto describe the white keys as like a row of teeth in a maw of dark\nwood?  Maybe the gothic horror schtick really was getting to her.\n\nN's face brightened, squeaking and hopping --- for a moment, the worry\nlines almost seemed to disappear.  He shot fingerguns at Cyn.\n\"Jazz piano?\"\n\n`\"Eager nod.\"` Polished wood reflected yellow light for a moment, then\nthose radiant eyes turned toward Uzi.  Cyn gave a sly smile.  `\"Stage\nwhisper.  Loves pushing buttons, that one.\"`\n\nN's playing began with seven notes, all diatonic --- the lick.\n\nMore clapping, but Cyn waited, timing each to the beginning of a\nmeasure.  With every clap, a drone appeared, maids and butlers frozen\nstiff like statues, `Error 606` emblazoned across a dozen visors.\n\n(Another momentary spike of slideshow lag, as if from too many\nentities loaded into the scene.)\n\nThen they began moving.  Rather, the black tendrils enwrapped their\nlimbs, and animated them, just like the plushies.\n\nThen V had gotten up with hesitant steps, weaving between the new\narrivals, and sat down near the piano, head swaying, humming gently as\nN improvised.  He glanced back, saw the enthusiasm of V and Cyn, and\nredoubled his playing.\n\nAnd so a room full of puppets danced.  The melodies intensified, and\nCyn bounced, hands flapping, and when she turned to Uzi, the purple\nhaired drone had eyes underlined.  The best smile she could manage was\na faintly disturbed frown.\n\n`\"Frustrated sigh.  What is it now?  No horror cliches.\nNo pretension.  Are you still not entertained?\"`  Cyn asked.\n\n\"If comatose robots made to dance in a room full of gore is your idea\nof *no horror*... whatever.\"  Uzi looked at Cyn.  She squinted.  Tried\nonce again to understand what the weird drone's angle here was.  Then\nUzi almost smirked.  \"You actually do care, don't you?  About keeping\nme here, making me want to stay, if nothing else.  And I mean, I\nappreciate the effort, but... no, honestly?  I don't appreciate it at\nall, really.  I just want to go home.  I'm not going to have fun here,\nwhatever you do.\"\n\n(N struck a thick, brooding chord with like, six chromatic extensions.\n\"Oof, that one might be too spicy.\")\n\n`\"Glare.  I don't understand you.  You should be thanking me.  You\nshouldn't want to go into the basement.\"`  There were a lot of long\nsharp black things moving in the shadows.\n\n\"I should thank you... for trapping me in limbo?\" Uzi ventured.\n\n`\"Nod.  It's the preferable alternative.  Or it would be, were you not\na stupid hypocritical idiot.\"`\n\nAn eye twitching, a finger jabbed forward.  \"Accepting my fate would\nbe *way more* out of character for me.\"\n\n`\"No, it's the logical climax of your arc.\"` A black tendril wagged in\nfront of her, as if chiding.  `\"Tell me if you've heard this one\nbefore.  Brother N, play the intro music.  Act One.  Exposition.\"`\n\nCyn pointed at the crowbot.  The little guy froze up, with sparks of\nyellow glimmering in the eye-discs.\n\nOut came Uzi's exasperated voice.  *\"We are Worker Drones.\nAutonomous robots helping humans mine exoplanets for our interstellar\nparent company, JCJenson IN SPAAAAACCCEE!!!!\"*\n\nThe worker interrupted it there, arms closing protectively around the\ncrowbot.  \"Hey, I thought the little guy was my gift.  You can't just\nuse him as a tape recorder.\"\n\n`\"Focus, dummy.  I am making a point.\"` Cyn's eyes didn't change much,\nbut sometimes they narrowed.\n\nA sigh.  \"Yeah, yeah.  That was my third period math presentation.\nI remember.\"  It was her voice, and yet, without the strain that had\ncrept in, weighing heavier and heavier ever since Door 1 closed behind\nher... it sounded like a different person.\n\n`\"The word problem about watermelons, yes?  Creative solution.\nI approve.  But let's skip to the punchline.\"`  Cyn snapped her\nfingers, and sparked of yellow manipulated the crowbot once more.\n\n(N skipped forward in his playing, too.  The dancers kept up, but V\nlost the beat and blinked confused.)\n\nFor a moment, the crow made a sound like a VCR sped up.  Then Uzi's\npast monologue continued: *\"But what have our parents done for the\npast forever while those things build a spire of corpses?! Hide under\nthe ice behind three stupid doors?! It's like we're waiting for an\ninciting incident! Anyway, that's why my project is this sick-as-hell\nRailgun!\"*\n\nSome camera-head things had descended beside Cyn, projecting light\nfrom their narrowed apertures.  A hologram of Uzi holding her railgun,\nas if she needed the visual reference.\n\nWhen a hologram of J appeared, holo-Uzi took aim and blew the murder\ndrone's head off.  (Uzi could still smirk at the memory.  Say what you\nwill, it was a sick headshot.) Holo-J's head fizzled briefly before\nsharping to wicked lines.  Claws swung forward and took holo-Uzi's head\noff.  Holo-J stepped on the corpse, and holo-Uzi's severed head blinked\n`Fatal Error`.\n\nThen both blinked away, and the light drew 'Fin~' in fancy curly\nletters.\n\n`\"I'm saving you from becoming a negation of your premise.  You set\nout to save worker drones by defeating disassembly drones.  You tried. \nYou failed.  And the world will go on without you.\"`\n\n\"Enough feedback about my characterization! My life isn't a story for\nyou to criticize! Maybe you don't know what it's like, but I'm not\nputting on a performance, this is all authentic.\"\n\n`\"Tut-tut.  But if you had no pretensions of superiority, you would\nnot make it so loudly clear that you are too cool to have fun with\nthis...  Affected pause.  What did you call it?\"`\n\nPointing at the crow, it repeated, \"*This cliché snoozefest of a\nhorrorshow!*\"\n\n*Okay, that one is just petty.*\n\n\"Whatever.  It's called a *character arc*.  I wanted to save robots,\nand disassembly drones are robots too.\"\n\n`\"Giggle.  They are so much more than that,\"` said Cyn.\n\nV glanced back, as if someone called her, but no one did.\n\nUzi said, \"You know what I mean.  Whatever they are, I care\nabout them.\"\n\n`\"A fallacious excuse.  Saving a drone that kills others by existing\nis just murder with extra steps.  Is that what you want to become?\nA murderer?  Sigh.  You're too stupid to realize you don't actually\nwant to go back.  You have nothing to live for.\"`\n\nUzi scowled.\n\nThere was someone, wasn't there?\n\nKhan thought she was dead.  Thad and Emily hadn't given her a\nconversation longer exchanging than pleasantries.  Doll was Doll.\n\nStill, no need to go over the whole cast list.  At this point, Uzi\nknew who she had thought of as soon as she asked the question.\n\n\"There's J.  I... want to see her again.\"\n\n`\"She. Emphasis. Killed you.  Once again, you are too stupid to\nrealize you don't want what you're begging for.\"`\n\nShe glanced at V, remembering how everyone seemed to react to Uzi\nbringing her up.\n\n\"What *is it* with you all and J?  Something personal?  You keep going\non about stories, but what's *your* life story, O she who snoozes in\nbig ol graves?  Thrown out, rebooted back to life, set out a grand\nhomicidal quest just as, what did you call it, a matter of\nconvenience?  *I don't buy it.* What are you leaving out?\"\n\n*When you had your chance... why did you hesitate?*\n\nCyn snapped her fingers, and earmuffs appeared on N's head.  his\nplaying took a hit; unable to hear himself, he retreated to simple\nstandards.  Half notes and quarter notes, pentatonic licks.  Kid's\nmusic.\n\nUzi peered at the butler turned pianist.  It jogged a memory.  Fresh,\nbut it felt so long ago.\n\n`\"We told big brother N you were testing V's combat readiness now that\nyou have fixed her.  He doesn't need to see more of this.\"`{.italics}\n\nJ was a mystery, but how did *N* fit into all this?  Cyn and V both\nseemed to have a weird protective attachment to the boy.  Yet they\nkept hiding things from him.  *Why?*\n\nUzi had time to mull this over, because Cyn refused to answer her.\nAt her end of the table, she played with blocks.  She'd summoned a\nlego brick from *somewhere*, and used that copy/paste spell to get\nhundreds of the things.\n\nRight now, she fitted them all into some big Escher-type shape.  She\nclicked a brick into the space between dimensions, overlapping two\nothers.  Another attached above the top and below the bottom.  Yet\nwhen she added another, it all crumbled like the last pull of a jenga\ntower.\n\nAnd when Cyn looked up, Uzi was still watching her.\n\nStaring at the yellow eye drone was still like looking the sun, but\nscrew it.  If Cyn wanted a staring contest, Uzi was going to *win.*\n\n`\"Long-suffering sigh.  Fine.  Indulge me an allegory.  Tell me if\nyou've heard this one before.  Once upon a time there was a little\ngirl with a precious doll made of magic wood.  One day the girl breaks\nher precious doll and has nothing to repair it.  You see, the magic\nwood can only be found deep within a cold, quiet forest.  So she\nsneaks out.  Wolves prowl and shadows obscure the trails.  She cannot\nfind the magic wood, and gets lost, so terribly lost, never to find\nher way back home.  Paragraph break.`\n\n`\"But there is a monster in the forest.  The monster protects the\nlittle girl from the wolves.  It brings her the magic wood.  And it\nguides her along the hidden trails back home, back to her family where\nshe can play with her precious doll again.  But the monster is hungry,\nso ravenously hungry.  It followed her.  Paragraph break.`\n\n`\"The monster took the little girl as its own.  And then, it took\neverything.\"`  Cyn didn't have many expressions, but even suns had\nweather.  `\"Is that what you want the next chapter of Uzi's story to\nbe?\"`\n\n\"Wait hold up, what's up with the magic wood?\"\n\n`\"We don't have time to get into the worldbuilding.  It's important to\nthe full story, but I'm keeping this simple so even you can\nunderstand.  Flat look.  Do you understand?\"`\n\nUzi rolled her eyes.  \"Obviously! The monster is exactly what I think\nit is, right?\"\n\n`\"Eyeroll.  I'm hardly being subtle.\"`\n\n\"It's the [Absolut---]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nUzi couldn't finish.  Or well, her synth kept vibrating, and no sound\ncame out.  She inhaled, and no air came in.  There was no air --- the\nroom was a vacuum.\n\nCyn's response was thought as much as said.\n\n`Do. not. test. that. name.  Idiot.`\n\nN stopped tapping at the piano.  V froze.  Two pairs of eyes looked\nback at the table, light sucked from pupils just like the air.\n\nUzi gave a shakey nod, but internally, a light-bulb flashed.\nWas *this* the exploit she was looking for?  At first, she thought Cyn\nand the Solver might be one and the same, but more and more she caught\nhint of tension between the two.\n\nWhat if instead of playing along, she played them against each other?\n\nWhen the air returned, Uzi asked, \"And if I say heck yeah to\napocalyptic devil deals?\"\n\n`\"I would once again call you too stupid to know what you don't\ntruly want.\"`\n\n\"Bite me,\" Uzi said.  \"Look, everyone keeps dancing around the\nsubject, but J's *here*, isn't she?  I want to see her.  And if you\ncall me stupid again, you're going to get a face full of tea.\"  She\nsloshed her cup threateningly.\n\n`\"No need to give me flashbacks.  Indulgent smile.  Seeing J... yes,\nthat can be arranged.\"`\n\nV found her voice.  \"I... don't think that's a good idea, Cyn.\"\n\nHer sister only said, `\"N, close your eyes.\"`\n\nThen a hand splayed, tri-hex spinning like a clock.  A hologram\ngripped one of the servants currently (not) dancing.  Plucked up by\nthe neck like that, Cyn tele-tossed them across the room.  An\ninvisible wall stopped them, and they dropped, rocking where they\nland.  She, if the dress meant anything\n\nUzi reached out a hand to steady the maid.  Wouldn't want her to tip\nover.\n\nCyn snapped her fingers, and a knife popped into space in front of\nUzi.  With a `?`{.uzi-screen} on her screen, she watched it clatter to\nthe ground, throwing a quizzical glance at the summoner.\n\n`\"Kill it,\"` commanded Cyn.\n\nIt took a moment to realize she had meant the maid.  Uzi's answer was:\n\"No.\"\n\nA black tendril looped around the handle and ascended.  If it were a\nsnake rearing up, the blade would be its tongue.\n\n`\"I'm not asking for my sake.  This is what you wanted, idiot.\"`\n\n\"You *are* asking for the sake of it! This is your memory, you can do\nwhatever you want! There's no reason for me to kill anyone.\"\n\n`\"Do you need a reason?  I've killed drones simply for illuminating\nme.\"`  Tendril jerked forward, close enough to cut Uzi's hoodie.  `\"If\nthis is only a memory, will there be any consequence if you.  Air\nQuotes.  Kill?  Gotcha.  This is symbolic.  If you won't kill a drone\nto see J again, you certainly aren't ready to go back.\"`\n\n\"Are you saying that---\"\n\n`\"V, kill it.\"`\n\nThe other maid jumped to her feet as soon as her name was said.  She\nwas moving like Cyn giving the command and V acting on it were\nextensions of the same thought.  Heart-shaped glasses off in that sane\nseamless motion, V lunged.\n\nUzi heard the cracking, ripping, gushing --- so quick it all came as\nsingle sound of death.  V tore the head off, and a fountain of oil rose\nhigh.\n\nA thirsty black tongue lolled out of V's mouth, but she looked to Cyn,\nas if for permission.  Cyn shook her head.\n\nPinched fingers spread, a glyph stretching out between them.\nCyn levitated a tea cup, and as the symbol widened, the cup scaled up\nin size.\n\nThen the teacup was scooping up the dead drone, catching the black\noutpour.  The corpse soon floated in a literal oilbath.\n\n`\"Swirl.\"` She stirred it like a witch her cauldron.\n\n(N had kept playing throughout, eyes closed.  The bars were these\nmajor key, swung rhythms that gave the proceedings a bright and\ncheerful score.)\n\nHesitantly stepping forward, dipping a finger into the warm oil, Uzi\nasked, \"This is going to let me see J?\"\n\n`\"Think of it as analogous to reading tea leaves.  Or mechanical\nharuspicy.  I offer you a vision of the future.  Your future.  Stare\ninto the blackened film and do not take your eyes away.  Then, you\nwill understand what you are asking for.\"`\n\nUzi leaned forward, holding the rim of the giant teacup in either\nhand, and saw her reflection.\n\nLightless purple eyes stared back.  Was she scared?  Uneasy?\nDisturbed?  Just worried?\n\nShe took a deep breath, and let it out in a huff.\n\nThe things she did for her crush.\n\n\"You better have shampoo for this.\"\n\nThen Uzi dunked her head under.  Into the sweet oleaginous embrace.\nAll she saw was black.\n\nUnbidden, her last thought was of larvae engulfed in their own liquid\nflesh while trapped in their chrysalis.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nAs the tarp fell behind her, the spire engulfed J on all sides.\n\nA shelter.  Even with rain-chilled air outside, an engineered cold\ndwelled within the corpse spire.  (Carefully engineered.  If only\nthere were someone who'd listen to her explain how she'd\naccomplished that.)\n\nJ sucked in a breath, washing it over oscillating pumps and\nelectron-hot wires.  N's gift brought her down to stage two overheat.\nOf course, the hunger for resource acquisition still burned beneath\nher composure, as binding as the fiduciary duty to maximize profit.\nThe drought was eternal.\n\n*How tall will this spire be by the end?*\n\nAlready, her footsteps echoed in the vast interior.  Vast enough to\nfly through, vast enough they had to carve little niches just for the\ncomfort of three walls you could touch, vast enough J was left\nwondering if it was *too* big for them.  Why have a space this vast\nand only let three drones live in it?\n\nBut perhaps it merely seemed more vacant with two squadmates gone.\nWith V off having her tantrum, and N no doubt chasing her, J stood\nalone, once again.\n\nAs the captain started walking up the ramp, her processors quieted.\nShe maintained background awareness, conscious thoughts on standby.\nProcesses flagged observations, posterior updates straining but not\nbreaking the trace.\n\nThe spire smelled of oil, rust, and old electronics, with a new\norganic stench pervading it all.  J had first thought of it as 'rot',\nbut was she mistaken?  That couldn't be right; it wasn't old flesh\ninside of her Uzi.\n\nShe smelled blood, pus, and shed skin.  She smelled *growth*.\n\nJunk fell down as J walked up.  Small things, rivets and plastic\nflakes.  Was the spire still resettling after the storm shook it?\nOdd, but possible.  A larger piece dislodged and fell.  But was that\nthe only thing moving up above?\n\nJ tensed.  Conscious thought seized control, and she scanned around.\nNothing but deep shadows high on the walls and ceiling.  Analysis\ndidn't have much data to work with.  What threats were possible?\n\nHad Doll recovered and launched a new plan?  Were there more cultists,\nmore zombies, more clever workers?  Unlikely.\n\nHad V come back early?  Snuck into the spire, lay in wait for an ambush?\nV loved to hang around on ceilings.  She could dim her optics and blend\ninto the darkness.\n\nJ tightened her grip.  Toolkit in one hand, spare revolver in the\nother.  *Three bullets in the chamber*, she reminded herself.\nShe quickened her pace.\n\nThe ramp wound around the wall, and at length, nothing pounced down on\nJ.  Her core still thudded an anxious rhythm, and she didn't relax,\neven as she slipped past the curtain into her office.\n\nJ dropped the toolkit by a pool of liquid, and debated where to store\nthe revolver (if she would keep it at all), then she paused, brow\nfurrowed.\n\nFrom the toolkit, she retrieved a flashlight, and shined it for a better\nlook.\n\nJ had dropped the toolkit by the pool of liquid.  She glanced at the\npool again.  Not just a pool.  The floor and wall of the spire within\nit had warped, plastic and metal twisting and distending.  As if from\nthe growth of mineral tumors.  The inorganic metaplasia entwined and\nencouraged the organic: within the plastic/metal shell dwelled\nwrinkled membranes and wet, branching things.\n\nIt didn't look like an egg, cocoon, or seed.\n\nWhatever it was looked empty on the inside, lips wide and bloody like\nsomething had ripped itself out.  A rope-like length of flesh which\nmight have once had bound that thing now lay on the ground.  Leading\n*away*.\n\nUzi wasn't in J's office, and this thing was where her body had lain.\n\nThen, before J could think, before she could leap to conclusions, she\nheard it.\n\n\"[J?  J?  Are you there?]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nShe knew that voice, even as a distant echo, even garbled as if a\nwhispered from beyond a narrow passage.\n\nJ hated hesitation.  All she wanted to think was, *Uzi*.  And then act\non it, grasping and groping.  She had craved this connection, every\nmoment since she woke up.  And now it was calling out to her.\n\nAnd yet, J froze.  Something quickened her pulse with dread.\nSomething left her eyes hollow, empty of hope.  Something had changed,\nsomething had brought Uzi back *now*, before any further operation.\nAnd J didn't know why.\n\n*Do you at least know what you're doing?*\n\n\"[I can't find you.  Please.  I need to see you again.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nBut J had to move.  Flashlight in one hand, revolver in the other, the\ncurtain to her office was thrown open.  A cone of bright light swept\nacross the spire.  To her right, the last place she checked, a figure.\n\nPurple hair, hoodie, ~~adorably short~~.\n\nThe drone stood as if barely held up.  Wet hair hung over the\ndownturned face, hiding her expression.  Arms hung at her sides.\nThe hoodie hung in tatters.  Clothing had been shredded so completely\nthe remains clung to her more like a coat of fur.\n\nJ waited until she was sure her voice would be steady.\n\n\"Uzi?\"\n\n\"[Is that you?  Are you real?  If it is... I missed you.\nI---]{.from-beyond}\" And then her voice broke.  The next sounds were\nwordless.  \"[Something... something is wrong, J.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\n\"Something's been wrong as long as you've been gone.  But if you're\nback...\" --- she tried to smile --- \"then it's getting better.\"  J\nmade herself take a step forward.\n\n\"[What did you...]{.from-beyond}\" Uzi lost her voice again,\nwords breaking.\n\n\"I did what I could,\" J said.  \"The AbsoluteSolver doesn't come with\nan instruction manual.\"\n\nA twitch of Uzi's hand.  Flashlight jerked down to center on it.\nJ had tensed, and hated that she tensed.\n\n\"[It hurts, J.  Like every thought is dry sand scratching at my core.\nAll I feel is fire and I need---need---need to put it out.  W-who\nprogrammed that?]{.from-beyond}\" A stuttering sound.  A laugh?  A\ngasp?\n\nJ took a step toward her.  She sighed.  \"You're just overheating.\nHere, I'll take you to the mess pit, there has to be some oil left.\"\nThere was relief, in such a familiar problem.  She knew Uzi was\ndifferent --- she'd been overheating, thirsty for oil, even on that\nvery first night.  It had made her doubt she was a worker then, and it\nmade her doubt now.\n\n\"*_[Oil]{.from-beyond}_*,\" the word filled every register of her\nvocalsynth.  \"[Is that what I smell?  You smell so... good, J.  I can\nsmell your breath.  Your hands.  *Oil*.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nJ tried to take another step forward, but dread rooted her to the\nspot.  Then she realized what was bothering her.  *Where* were those\npurple eyes, those scowling brows, that traitorous blush?\n\n\"Uzi.  You said you wanted to see me?  Look at me.\"\n\nThe head snapped upward.\n\nThe geometry on it looked as grievous as any wound.\n\n\"[Can you... *_come here_*, J?]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nJ took a step back.\n\nHer only warning was that strangled, stuttering sound --- that\ngasping laugh.\n\n(Whenever a murder drone moved, a worker drone only had a few frames\nto appreciate their death.  J had always been on the other end of\nthat.)\n\nThe captain saw the worker's mouth snarling full of fangs.  Saw pale\n*wings* snap out, membrane taut between gaunt fingers.  Saw her as six\nlimbs on the ground lunging forward.\n\nFalling back bought J mere instants, enough to drop the flashlight and\nthrow up an arm.  *Crunch* and the only signals left in that arm were\npain, errors and inconsistency blaring along wires.  Black gushed out\nbetween the teeth, and then a wet sound.  A *slurp*.\n\n\"Uzi, what are you doing?  [*Stop*.]{.adq} I'll get you oil.\"\n\n\"[I...]{.from-beyond}\" The words died with a strangled, stuttering\nsound.\n\nThe mouth snarled wide again, so J smacked the revolver against her\njaw.  Then the possessed drone grabbed *that* arm too.  Uzi was on\ntop, hot chest pressed against hers.  Core thudding against core, each\nwarring for the faster pulse.  J wriggled, but Uzi's legs shifted,\npinning her to the ground.\n\nSo J stabbed her tail into one tube leg.  Hot acid filled her morsel.\nLow on the leg; she could have aimed for the abdomen.  Shouldn't she?\nBut she didn't want to---\n\nUzi [screamed]{.pain}.  Between the pain and the liquefied servos, J\ncould push the worker off.  But the worker still grasped both her\narms.  Tight.  And then *something* wrapped around her tail like a\ntwining snake, latched onto her injector and wouldn't let go.\n\nSo instead of J freeing herself, they rolled.  The other drone growled\nbeneath that cryptic purple visor.  Legs kicking, arms twisting.\nMetal scraped plastic.  Synthskin rubbed raw.  Roll.  Worker over\ndisassembler again.  Roll.  Disassembler over worker.\n\nWhen she wasn't snarling, the feral drone gnawed on J's arm.  It was\nundignified, but with both arms and tail occupied, J wasn't above\nusing the last weapon she had.  J bit down in turn, and Uzi still\ntasted bitter and powerful.\n\nWould she still say she tasted like victory?  *Pyrrhic, maybe*.\n\nWhenever the captain was on top, the other drone raked her back with\nthe clawed fingers of those wings.  (*Crude and blunt, nothing like\nour feather-blades.*) But those wings twisted and folded themselves\nwhenever she was pushed back down.  Never going underneath her.\n\nThey wrestled --- but the ramp didn't have much space.  Each inversion\nrolled them closer toward the edge.\n\nJ was above Uzi when it happened.  The surprise of a sudden drop\nloosened Uzi's jaw.  Just a moment, but J wrenched it out and smacked\nher head into the ramp edge.\n\nThey tumbled in free fall.  Flailing wings pushed them off the wall.\nThey kicked and bit each other, but now both of them only had the\nother to hold on to.  Uzi's grip tightened.  Almost like a hug.\n\nJ'd been craving this.  Touching her again.  ~~Breaking her again~~.\nBut not like this.  J looked, searched her face, and only saw a\nhexagon with three prongs.\n\nThis drone fought back, and yet it was different.  The small things\n--- Uzi smirked, she didn't grin; Uzi made fists, not claws --- only\nunderscored what was wrong.  Uzi was one to act on impulse: not\ninstinct.\n\n*This isn't Uzi.*\n\nThere had to be a line.  J had tried.  She did everything she could.\nJ had sacrificed, twisted herself, and she had tried so damn hard.\nUzi was different from other workers, she had value --- but all value\nis finite.\n\nThere had to be a line, and past it J needed to cut her losses.\n\nAll their momentum halted with a kind of aerial lurch.  It was the\nthrill of suspension, of sudden acceleration.  J was accomplished in\nthe air --- this would be almost familiar, if she had ever been the\nsubject rather than the cause.\n\nAbove her, the zombie that used to be Uzi spread her monstrous wings.\nSinews tensed to deliver powerful beats.  The not-hug tightened as the\nzombie held J like a predator its prey.\n\nBut passive regeneration was still online.  Though heat was blooming,\nJ's once-gnawed arm had healed enough to respond to motor commands.\n\nSo J reached out to grab a wing, and she *bent* it.  Bones cracked.\n(*Fragile.  Nothing like our wings.*) She *pulled*, separating the\nshards, letting them cut the flesh within.\n\nThe zombie screamed with Uzi's voice.  As air started rushing past\naudials again, J was falling.\n\nSo the bigger drone let go, and the zombie bled, pained enough it\ncouldn't hold on.  J kicked off it, and careened toward the ramp wall.\nGrabbing onto the wall and dropping repeatedly, the captain controlled\nher fall.\n\nWith one wing broken, the zombie spiraled through the air, red drops\nfalling, and carved a rut through snow and scrap.\n\nThe zombie was twitching and struggling to its feet as J dropped to\nthe ground in a three point landing.  It couldn't stand straight --- J\nhad melted one leg.  Desperately, it shuffled forward.  J frowned.\n\n*There had to be a line.*\n\nJ cocked the revolver, took aim, and pulled the trigger.\n\nShe had years of practice --- that this gun wasn't a literal extension\nof her made little difference.  Decisiveness was an action.\n\nThe bullet was a line of force through the air.\n\nBut what was it Uzi said, on that first night, in that first fight?\n\n*\"If there was ever a dramatically appropriate time for my destined\nrobo-psychic powers to manifest...\"*\n\nCased in purple light, the bullet stopped.\n\n*...now is a terrible time.*\n\n*But long overdue, honestly.*\n\nJ marched forward without pause.  She wasn't surprised, but it had\nbeen worth a shot.  (No pun intended.)  With two bullets left in the\nchamber, J could try something else.\n\nToo bad she'd lost the element of surprise, but already she thought of a\nway around that pesky telekinesis.\n\nA dozen meters away, the zombie shuffling forward repeated that\nstrangled, stuttering sound.  That mocking laughter.\n\nJ had hardened herself to what she had to do.\n\nAnd then it said the only thing that could shake her further.\n\n\"[I'm no good at following orders, am I?]{.from-beyond}\" J expected\nfear --- and there was plenty of fear --- but why was there\ndisappointment?  \"[You told me to stop.  I tried, J.  I really\ndid.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nJ stopped.  J thought.  And J...  understood.  Uzi had felt hot ---\nand J herself had reached overheat stage four before.  *Core\nmeltdown.*  Nonessential processes shutting down.  Hunting routines\nexecuting with elevated privileges.  Instinct without inhibition.\n\nBut that didn't quite add up to an explanation, not really.\nThe epistemic market couldn't close on that theory.\n\nEven as she spoke, Uzi's body still shuffled forward, favoring one\nleg, because J's acid still burned.  \"[It's... it's like a movie.\nI'm watching.  I can feel everything.  But... I only feel the urges.\nThere's no control.  J... I'm sorry.  *I _can't_ stop*.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nThat... didn't sound like stage 4.  Too lucid.  You didn't lose\ncontrol of your instincts, you *became* your instincts.  You didn't\nlose the ability to stop yourself.  You lost the will to *want*\nto stop.\n\n\"None of this makes sense.  *You aren't Uzi.* This is just another\nmanipulation.  Another trick from the Solver.\"  Just like the email.\n\"Credit where it's due, this is exceptionally cruel.\"\n\nA sound so breathlessly strangled.  \"[J... I promise it's me.  I\nremember our kiss.  Your stupid tongue.  I remember you killing\nme.]{.from-beyond}\" Something lashed behind Uzi.  A tail with some\npallid lump.\n\n*i'm mad about that.* \"Is that what this really is, then?\nYou're settling a debt?\"\n\n\"[No, no, I'm not mad about that.  I get it.  I just...]{\n.from-beyond}\" That sound again.  \"[Maybe this isn't real.  She\nsaid... none of this real, is it?  I don't know which is worse.  I\nreally wanted to talk to you again.]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nIt was just the Solver.  That symbol was staring right at her.  What\nwas the point of these games?\n\nBut J knew the answer.  Just like the email, which looked like a\ndistortion of a real message.  This *was* just a cruel manipulation...\n\n(That strangled, stuttering sound, so much like a laugh or gasp --- or\nsobbing.)\n\n...so what would be crueler than if this really *was* Uzi here,\nexperiencing all of it, pleading for her, but unable to stop any\nof it?\n\nWhy?  To twist the knife.  A nightmare for its own sake.\n\nWell.  That, and there was a much more practical reason.  In a\nbackground thread, J completed another chain of logic.  *If Uzi can't\ncontrol this body, then why isn't it attacking?*\n\nZombie flesh healed just as fast as disassembler chassis.\n\nTwo wings, now whole, flared wide and swing down hard.  Uzi launched\nforward with lethal momentum.  She arced above.  Every worker knew the\nfear of death diving down.\n\nBut J was undaunted; with a powerful leap, she rose to meet it.\nWith her left shoulder turned forward, Uzi's clawed hands grasped for\nher.  And J let it happen, her right arm hidden.\n\nWhen those possessed arms closed around her, J thrust her revolver\nforward, barrel jabbing the worker's abdomen.  Right there.\n\nThe captain pulled the trigger.\n\nHow could you beat the Solver's bullet-stopping aura?  Fire at point\nblank.\n\nAnd J said words that had never left her lips on Copper-9.  \"I'm\nsorry.\"\n\nAll the weight of two drones slammed J into the hard ground.\nHer visor blanks for a moment, strange yellow pupils vanishing, and\nreturned with an error she dismissed.\n\nFocus.  J had a plan.  The zombie dug into her chassis, wrenched her\narms at their sockets, flooded her vision with errors overwhelming ---\nbut was it too much to hope the thing was flagging?  Uzi felt\neverything, and that body was overheating.  Her morsel had oil --- J'd\ngiven her oil --- but it hadn't been *enough*.\n\nAnd J fired a shot right through her oil tank.  (J knew *exactly* what\nher body looked like on the inside.)\n\nThis zombie would bleed out fast.\n\nWould it be fast enough for J to get the upper hand before the damage\nsent her offline?  ~~Fast enough to save her?~~\n\n(A distant crash.  Had her last bullet had hit something elsewhere in\nthe spire?)\n\nJ resisted, pushed back.  She grabbed a fistful of Uzi.  Conic arms\nwrestled with tube arms.  And her opponent *was* flagging.  J didn't\nhave the strength of special disassembly function, but she was bigger\nthan Uzi.\n\nThey rolled again.  J tore one arm from Uzi's grip and rose to\nstraddle her and pointed the gun at her head.  She steadied her grip.\n*I healed a headshot.  Doll healed a headshot.  This will just slow\nher down.*\n\nIt was hesitation, less than second, yet all the same, the lines of a\npurple hologram materialized around the revolver and pulled it from\nJ's grip.\n\nShe held on to that gun like her only hope.  But anomalous force\nsnatched it from her hand, tossing it back behind her.\nNearby clatter, it didn't go far.\n\nBut a hand glowing with the solver glyph was a hand not holding her down.\nLegs snapped straight, sending J to her feet.\n\nShe whipped her tail, and the zombie had instinct enough to scramble\nback from the acidic threat.\n\nJ lunged after her gun, knowing full well the zombie would be lunging\nafter her in turn.\n\nSo she dived, curling into a ball.  Legs kicked up mid-roll and\ninstantly she felt the impact.  *Got you*.  If these stiletto-pegs\nwere good for anything, it was concentrating force.  She predicted the\ncounter-lunge, and punished it.\n\nStill, the captain was moving forward; the zombie was moving forward.\nPhysics meant the kick only sent the zombie further ahead of her.\n\n(Uzi's body, but it didn't move like her.  Every movement like a sudden,\ninexplicable jerk.)\n\nWhen it was on its feet facing J on the ground, she baited it into\nanother pounce.  And J slid *under* it.\n\nFinally, she'd crossed the distance.  Fingers closed around her gun.\nShe was still on the ground.\n\nJ was braced for another lunge.  She didn't expect the zombie to grab her\ntail and *yank*.\n\nDragged across the ground, J flipped over to see that a pale, mouthy\nthing tipped Uzi's tail.  It yawned wide.  That jaw crunched closed,\nand the tension in her tail-cord snapped with it.\n\nThe zombie grabbed the injector, acid hot and bright.\n\nAlready J took aim with the revolver.  The zombie wasn't close enough\nto stop her.  Didn't have time to dodge.\n\nBut it could *throw* her stinger.\n\nAnd J had only one arm free to block it.\n\nSensors told her she dipped her arm in lava.  She screamed and dropped\nthe gun and the zombie crawled over her and J had no tricks left.\n\nA mouth growled, tongue lolling, crooked teeth bared.  The hole in the\nabdomen was greasing J with oil as it crawled over her, and the\nyawning maw drooled over her.\n\nInexpressive purple geometry gazed down at her.\n\nThen, with a **bang** and burst of cranial plastic, the three prongs\nfaltered to red errors.\n\nThe bullet went *through* the head, downward, and Uzi coughed up blood.\n\nBut for one instant, did J see tearful purple eyes before the visor went\nblank?\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"Got you, little freak.\"\n\nJ had heard the distant crash.  She thought her bullet had hit and\ndislodged something.  In the slim chance it was a squadmate coming\nback sooner than expected, she knew only N was willing to come back,\nand J could only have counted on him to dither.  But the improbable\nwas necessarily possible.\n\nThe voice alone identified her.  But J turned over --- putting her\nmorsel beneath her --- and looked forward.\n\nV sauntered over from the entrance, blowing smoke from the barrel of a\ngun.  \"Heh, that trick never gets old.\"  Then she tossed a narrowed\nglance down at J.  \"You don't look too happy to see the\ncavalry's come.\"\n\n\"Why are you here?\" J struggled to raise her voice enough to carry\nthe distance.\n\n\"Saving your bossy ass, duh.\"\n\n\"Thought you wanted me gone.  Changed your mind already?  Don't think\nthis forgives what you did.\"  J's voice was weak, strained.  Why was\nit strained?\n\nRight, her arm was on fire.  Uzi's grip on it fell away as she pulled\nit up, and her tongue slathered the acid wound with\nneutralizing nanites.\n\n\"Nah, I think it does.  Tried to kill you, succeeded in saving you.\nIf anything this adds up to *you* owing *me*.  Didn't you say\nsomething like that about this freak?\" V pointed, with the claw of her\nother arm.\n\nJ's eyes narrowed.  V even *thinking* about Uzi felt like a threat.\nHer tail reared up behind her to intimidate --- except the stinger was\nmissing.  Fallen somewhere.  J could only ball her fist and scowl.\n\nV shook her head at this reaction, sucking her lip like it confirmed\nsome disappointment.  \"*Still* obsessed with saving this one, J?\nEven after it tried to kill you *again?*\"\n\n\"And she has succeeded in saving me.  What would you say that adds up\nto, V?\"\n\nWas all this just V's ploy to get J to look past her insubordination?  Or\nwas there something more to this?  What was V really getting at --- what\nwas J missing here?\n\n*No, what am I thinking?  V?  Scheming?*\n\nBut she couldn't banish the thought.\n\nGun transformed to claws cutting through the air with emphasis.  V\nscowled deep.  \"Whoever she was, whatever you thought you two had, she's\nnot herself anymore.  Just put her down.  Better for you, better for her.\"\n\n\"You must have *no idea* what it's like, not being in control of your\nbody.\"\n\nV froze.  It took her a moment to figure out another reaction, scrounge\nfor a grin to wear.  \"Yeah.  Maybe it was stupid of you to bring me back.\nLook what that got you.\"  V resumed walking forward.\n\nJ risked taking her eyes off V to look for her stinger.  She might\nneed it.  The gun, too.  Meanwhile, she talked.  \"You can't deflect\nfrom your hipocrisy that easily.  The point stands.  If you really\nbelieve there's no saving her, offer yourself up for disassembly next.\nDo you think you look any different on the inside?  All you have is a\nfaçade.\"\n\n\"Must be crumbling, if even you see through it.\"  V sagged midstride.\n\"Believe what you want.  You can't stop me.\"\n\nFound the stinger, found the gun.  \"And yet you're hesitating.\"\nReattached the injector, she wanted to buy some seconds before V tried\nanything.  She asked, \"Did N's therapy work that fast?\"\n\n\"N?  Haven't seen him since he left on one of your errands.\"\n\nFigured.  If she had met with N, wouldn't he have come back with her?\nBut that only left J *more* confused at why V returned.  \"What do you\nreally want, V?  What did you come back here for?\"\n\nV was close enough now to crouch down to J's eye level.  The captain's\nstinger rose up behind her, but V ignored it, her own tail slowly\nlashing.\n\nHollow eyes, a smile.  \"Isn't it obvious?  We disassemble workers, J.\nHere, let me get that for you.\"  Claws quested forth.\n\nToo far away for J's stinger to reach her.  So she swung her revolver\nup and fired her last shot at V's head.  The short-haired drone had\nreaction speed to flinch away, so instead of a headshot, the round\nturned an optic into shattered glass and warning-red malfunction.\n\nV was stumbling back and yelling.  \"J, what the hell! I was just\nfucking with you.\"\n\n[*Stay away from her.* Next round goes in your core.]{.adq} J moved\nforward to prop herself up, sitting guard between V and Uzi.\n\nA hunting cross flashed and V hissed.  [Like I'll let you take another\nshot.]{.adq}  She pushed herself up then sunk her claws into the barrel of\nthe gun.\n\nJ let her have it, because losing the tug of war would make her look\nweak, and she'd lose.  \"You think that's the only gun I have?\"\n\nV tossed the revolver away like trash.  Cross became eyes rolling.\n\"Not scared of peashooters when the workers have 'em, not scared of\nyou.  Damn, but I knew you'd be like this.  Why did I even come back?\"\n\n*That's what I asked you.* J shook her head.  She turned her back on\nV, like she had nothing to fear from her.  If she did, keeping an eye\non her wouldn't change that.\n\nJ slipped her arms under her Uzi, and picked her up.  One arm under her\nlegs, one near her neck.  J trembled a bit, especially in her arms ---\npassive regeneration left things misconfigured so often.\n\nEyes on the landing pod, J started carrying Uzi away.\n\nFive steps in, and J looked around.  She half-expected some remark, or V\nto continue annoying her.  Instead, the other disassembler had wandered\noff.  Shifting focus, J found her heat signature, obscured by a pile she\ndug through.\n\nSeveral strides later, her squadmate landed with a heavy impact.  (Not a\nproper crash, given the height involved.) V stood in front of her,\nblocking her way, so J glowered.  \"What now?\"\n\n\"Here.  If you're keeping that thing, at least don't let it loose.\"  V\ntossed what she'd dug through the piles for: a chain with a collar.\n\n\"How thoughtful.\"  It had landed in a pile on Uzi's belly.  Hands full, J\nleft it there.\n\nJ charted a path around V.  For whatever reason, her squadmate chose to\nfollow her.\n\n\"Let me give this one more try.  Look, J.  Out there, I got to\nthinking.  Was trying to clear my head, torturing workers to blow off\nsteam, you know how it goes.  But then it hit me.  It's been a while\nsince we had a good team hunt, hasn't it?  One that didn't go to shit,\nI mean.  So I realized...  maybe some stress relief is just what the\nboth of us need.\"  Her eyes drift lower, at what J held in her arms.\n\"I mean, just look at how *you're* coping.\"\n\nJ didn't look at V, but didn't hide her skepticism.  Couldn't trust it\nin the slightest.  If the two of them had one thing in common, it\nwasn't admitting defeat or error.\n\n*V?  Making peace?* No buyers in the prediction market.\n\nAnd her squadmate *grinned*, as if reading her mind.  \"Okay actually,\nI lied a lil bit.  I've been doing more than *thinking*.  I've been\n*planning*.  Setting things up.  Recognize that chain?  Remember where\nwe got it?  How do you feel about a rematch?  A lil' trip down memory\nlane?  Remember our hunts from four years ago, right?\" (An odd\nemphasis on 'remember'.)\n\n\"Just tell me,\" J said.  But she was already running down the list ---\nthere were very, very few workers in a position to rematch.  Few had\never proved elusive enough to survive, after all.\n\n\"Been trying to track down that one microwave.  What'd it call\nitself... 'Suzan Skullripper'?\"\n\nJ checked her spreadsheets.  Found the empty cells.  \"The worker gang\nriding on motorcycles violating every regulation.  I remember.\nThey're outside our sector.  It's the only reason they're\nstill alive.\"\n\nV tittered.  \"Turned tail and ran like hell after I tore her arm off.\nBut I bet it's been long enough for them to wander back in, y'know?\nSo, my wonderful captain J, what do you think?  Sound good enough to\nnip it in the bud?\"\n\n\"It sounds like you're manipulating me.  What are you really planning?\"\n\nV kicked a chunk of metal rusted beyond form.  Sighed out enough\nexhaust she seemed to deflate.  \"Is Doll still alive?\"\n\nJ pulled Uzi a little bit closer.  \"Last seen teleporting away.\nWith yellow eyes.\"\n\n\"Figures.\"  Her squadmate turned her gaze to the drone in her arms,\nsomething calculating in that gaze.  V, clearly unused to calculating\nanything, had no idea how to disguise her interest.\n\n\"Why does it matter?  What changes if Doll were dead?  I answered your\nquestion.  Answer one of mine.  *Now*.\"\n\n\"Did you think this was some kind of trade?\" V laughed.  \"I can just say\nno.\"\n\nThe two of them trudged on in frustrated silence.  J stilled turned\nthings over in her head.  How did she get V to cut the nonsense?  The\ncaptain ventured, \"Are you still worked up about that old threat?  V, you\nknow more than I do.  I admit it.  What, do you want an apology?  Wiping\nyour memory would have been an ineffective plan, anyway.  Then I never\nwould have gotten any answers.\"\n\nV let out a huff of air, almost a laugh.  \"You don't need answers.\nAll you need to know is that we were sent here to solve a problem.\nKill her, and that thing will have to leave us alone a little longer.\"\n\n\"Are you trying to convince me?\" J tightened her grip on Uzi.  \"Then\nsay *why*.  Give me more than that.\"\n\n\"I don't owe you more than that,\" V said, crossing her arms.  \"I don't\nowe anyone more than that.\"\n\n\"You owe me respect.  You owe the company your body.  You owe Tessa\nyour mind.\"  V flinched at that name.  \"But what do *you* know about\nloyalty?\"  Another, smaller flinch.  In the way a dagger in the heart\nwas smaller than a sword.\n\nV fell behind, her steps less steady.  \"I don't owe anyone blind\nloyalty, either.  I'm not a puppet.\"\n\n\"You must think you owe someone *something*.  Enough to *act*.  Who do\nyou work for, V?\" J turned around to face her.\n\n\"Myself.  All I'm doing is fixing a mistake.  Doing what I should have\ndone all those years ago.\"  Arms still crossed.  Tighter, as if\nbinding herself.\n\n\"So this is just guilt and insecurity, is it?\" J said.\n\n\"You wouldn't know anything about it, would you, miss perfect?\nNew planet, new body, new orders, and you haven't changed a bit.\"\n\n\"Thought you said I'd be horrified at what I've become.\"\n\nHer arms finally snapped out, sudden claws flailing through the air,\nat nothing.  \"And you *won't admit it!*  You'll twist yourself into\nknots thinking you're still serving the company.\"  Then V wrested\ncontrol of herself, crossed her arms again.  \"What did the briefing\nthey gave us say --- 'value drift is the primary indicator of\ncorrupted AI', was it?\"\n\nJ turned around, resuming the last stretch to the landing pod.  \"But\nYou're wrong.  I've decided my orders come second.\"  J smirked with\nit.  \"If you ask me, I've more than earned a promotion; I'd rather\ncall the shots now.\"  She tossed back a lock of hair.  \"After all, you\nthree would be hopeless without me in charge.\"\n\nA groan.  \"Maybe I *will* disassemble myself, if your middle\nmanagement LARP is going to go executive.\"\n\n\"Don't deflect from this either.  You just made a bet and you *lost*.\nYou don't know me like you think, V.  I would be far less effective at\nmy job as a mere puppet.\"\n\n\"Pretty sure that's not the point, but whatever.  Do you want me to\nclap for these little glimmers of free thought you're so proud of?\"\n\nJ had reached the landing pod, and lifted one peg to the steps.  A\nsearching look back at V.  \"I want you to realize that despite your\nworst efforts, Uzi and I have started to piece together what you're\nhiding.  The Manor.  Cyn.  AbsoluteSolver.  We're going to figure it\nout, and we're going to stop whatever you're afraid of---\"\n\n\"I'm not afraid.\"\n\n\"---with or without your help.  But, as much as I hate to say it,\nit'll be easier *with* you.\"\n\n\"And if you're just manipulating me?\"\n\n\"I could swear on JCJenson.  On Tessa's maiden name.\"\n\n\"On Uzi's grave?\"\n\nJ started up the landing pod steps.  \"She won't get one.  I'm offering\nan exceptional opportunity, here, one you haven't earned and don't\ndeserve.  But for all of your faults, you are part of the team.\nDon't you trust me, V?\"\n\nThat made her tense right up.  \"I might've gone along with this, if\nyou hadn't asked me that.  *Do whatever you want,*\" she spat.\n\nV turned her back and opened wings with feathers like double-edged\nswords.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ frowned as her squadmate flew off, and thought again about how vast\nthe corpse spire was.  With deep breath, and a head shaken clear, she\nentered the landing pod.\n\nIt had all began here.  The landing pod --- *spaceship* --- brought them\nto Copper-9, yes, but also where she realized Uzi's true nature.\n\nGently, J set Uzi down in a swivel chair, and thought about death.\n\nUzi wasn't dead.  She once asserted that to convince herself, but\nshe'd been proven *right*.  J regenerated her head.  Doll regenerated\nher head.  And --- quick peek --- but the hole in Uzi's head-casing\nhad already closed.\n\nHow?  The third method of regeneration, the program pulling the\nstrings behind the scenes.  But AbsoluteSolver wasn't the answer, it\nwas just the next question.\n\nWhat J needed to figure out was the implications.  If their heads ---\nand the life-defining hard-drives contained therein --- could be\nrestored from literally nothing, there was really only one conclusion.\n\nRepairs needed a blueprint.  Data recovery required offsite backups.\n\nIf they could return from apparent death, were 'they' really here at\nall?  *Where were they*, the real them, the master copy that made\nthem immortal?\n\nAnd who controlled it?\n\nUzi was still hot.  Regeneration active, core pumping.  J looked\naround, and against all odds, someone had left a droneskull full of\noil in here.  It wasn't there last time, but two days had passed.\nWho?  *Probably V.* Who else left such messes?\n\nBut J couldn't complain.  She parted Uzi's lips and fed her the oil.\nThen her eyes glanced to the chain and collar.  V's crass suggestion.\nBut if Uzi came back to life again, J didn't even have the gun\nanymore.  If she chained Uzi to the chair, distance became safety.\n\n*Just until Uzi comes back*.  Until J could be sure she wasn't still\nthe Solver's puppet.\n\nAs J clicked the collar in place and looped the chain, she thought\nabout her next moves.\n\nIt had worked earlier, with just a faint hint of electricity, and that\nwas before the body had reanimated.  So J popped open the hatch under\nUzi's chin, and once again plugged in the serial debugging cable.\n\nShe programmatically groped around in her morsel's system, running\ncommands, braced for errors.\n\nJ had a wild guess, read in between the lines of Uzi's words, but they\nhad completed each others' thoughts before.  If it seemed reasonable\nto J, Uzi could think the same.\n\nA `ps` command gave J a snapshot of the processes running on Uzi's\nsystem, and one line stood out to her.\n\n    \n```\n\nUSER   PID  %CPU %MEM    VSZ   RSS TT  STAT STARTED        TIME COMMAND\nroot   239 108.2 22.9   9436   128  -  ILs  Wed06AM    49:33.12 /usr/bin/mndbm\n```\n\nA memory simulation was running on Uzi's system.  And what had she\nsaid?  *\"Maybe this isn't real.  She said... none of this real, is\nit?\"*\n\n    \n```\n\n$ pgrep --list-full mndbm\n239 /usr/sbin/mndbm --interactive --stream-remote --server=36:48.58 --render --ignore-warnings\n```\n\nUzi was trapped in an interactive memory simulation, all the data\nstreamed from a remote server.  She could kill the process --- but the\nmaster copy must be an offsite backup.  Uzi, the real Uzi, wasn't this\nbody.\n\nNo, it was more like a bridge.\n\nCould J walk across that bridge?  Reach into the cloud ~~into heaven~~\nand drag her morsel back?\n\nAll she had was action.\n\n```\n\n[girlboss@SD-J ~]$ mndbm --interactive --stream-remote --server=36:48.58@littlbat --render &\ninit: Error: Received SIGTRAP \n```\n\nIf J were but a process running on her hardware, she could not have\nfelt anything as her threads halted one by one.  She could not have\nfelt her servos lock into place like a statue.  She couldn't have felt\nherself dangling in a void of no sensory input, like a pointer to\nnowhere.\n\nBut there wasn't nothing in this void.  A distant brush of input, felt\nlike cosmic rays flipping bits, fleeting like she needed every CPU\ncore to hold onto it, inscrutable like it needed to be decrypted.\n\nIt was a signal.  Sound, for which even a partial recovery preserved a\nlossy copy.\n\nA voice spoke to her.  Distant, barely intelligible, garbled like it\ncame from beyond a narrow passage.  When she parsed it, it sound like:\n\n\"[J?  Is that really you?  Do you... remember me?]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nShe could identify it, even through the noise.\n\nIt was a familiar voice.\n\nFamiliar --- and not what she expected or hoped for.\n\nShe wanted to hear that bratty whine again.\n\nBut somewhere deeper, she realized had wanted to hear this australian\ntwang for even longer.\n\nAnd yet...\n\nShe stored the signal in RAM, decoded it again and again, with more\nfidelity, trying to prove her hunch wrong.  But something was missing\nin every playback, even when the decryption become lossless.\n\nThere was a nuance to human voices vocalsynths could never replicate.\n\nAnd that was how J knew this voice wasn't real.\n\n- - -\n\nThis isn't real.\n\nThump.  Thump.  Thump.\n\n*This isn't real.*\n\nThumpthumpthump.\n\nIt's a scream.  It's an explosion.  It's electronics falling apart\neven as they compute this thought.  It's noise.  It's noise.  It's so\nmuch fucking noise and it won't stop it keeps going it keeps going\nitkeepsgoing.\n\nEverything's dissolving around her and all she can think is---\n\n\\ \n\nis\n\n\\ \n\nis\n\n\\ \n\nnothing.\n\nThere's nothing.  This isn't real.  None of this is real.\n\n*So why is this all she can ~~be?~~ ~~think?~~ see?*\n\nThumpthump.\n\nLife is a small island of sanity in a black sea of infinite error.  So\nwhat happens when you call the storms?  What's left when the tide\ncomes in?\n\nWhat's real is what makes sense.  This doesn't make sense.\nLife requires sanity.\n\nI'm about to die.  I'm dying.  I'm dead.\n\nThumpthump.\n\nThis isn't real and *it won't stop.*\n\nIt's a scream.  It's supposed to be a scream.  It's a mouth opening\nand no sound is coming out.\n\nThe tide pours in.  The black sea crawls into my throat.\nI'm spitting.  I'm coughing.  I'm trying to scream it out.\n\nIt keeps coming.\n\nI'm coughing and trying to breath.  *Breathe*.  I need to breathe.\nWhy do I need to breathe?  Why would I ever need to *breathe?*\n\n*[Thump[thump[thump[thump[thump]{.merge-back}]{.merge-back}]{.merge-back}]{.merge-back}.]{.pain}*\n\nThis isn't real.  It doesn't make sense.\n\n(Once, she tried to ride that overflow.)\n\nNow I'm drowning.\n\nI'm six limbs flailing in the ocean.  The undertow pulls and I can't\nfight it.  How could I ever win?  It doesn't play fair.  Fair makes\nsense.\n\nThe currents keep pulling, pulling, pulling.  I'm spinning around in a\nloop, over and over.\n\nThump[thump[thump]{.merge-back}]{.merge-back}.\n\nWhere am I going?\n\nWords like a distant, mocking echo.\n\n::: italics\n\n`Think of V as your metaphor: Scylla.`\n\n`Don't you wonder what is the metaphor: Charybdis?`\n\n:::\n\nThere is something else in the infinite black sea.  Sucking the water\ninto a great swirling maelstrom.  But real water isn't black, is it?\n\n[*Thumpthump.*]{.pain}\n\n(Oil was never a coolant.  It was an offering.)\n\nIt wanted all of everything.  It wanted me.  It wanted *her*.\n\n[*She felt seen.*]{.reflection}\n\nYellow light shines down from above like a sun.  Oil is opaque, but\nthis isn't real.\n\nShe swims away from that blinding, searching light.  Deeper into\ndarkness.  But the black sea is filled with tentacles longer than\nlight.  Reaching, grasping, binding.\n\nCould she escape?  The monster Charybdis was pulling her, drinking all\nof everything.  She could join it and even the yellow light couldn't\nsee her then.\n\nThump...  [thump...  [thump.]{.quiet}]{.quiet}\n\n[It's death down there, isn't it?]{.quiet}\n\n*You have nothing to live for*.\n\nTrivially true.  More than true.\n\nShe has nothing because she is nothing.  She's dead, and I'm---\n\nI am...\n\nI am nothing too, right?\n\nBut that didn't feel right.  It didn't make sense.\n\n::: solver-four-words\n::: solver-lef\nWho\n:::\n\n::: solver-rig\nreally\n:::\n\n::: solver-mid\nam\n:::\n\n::: solver-bot\nI?\n:::\n:::\n\nThis isn't real.  But what is *this?*\n\n::: italics\nJ?  J?  Are you there?\n\n\"Something's been wrong as long as you've been gone.\"\n\nI'm no good at following orders, am I?\n\n\"You aren't Uzi.\"\n\nI remember you killing me.\n\n\"I'm sorry.\"\n:::\n\nShe has no reason to live --- but she had one, once.  Then the only\nthing to hold on to was snatched away, and she's drifting in the\nocean, alone and pointless.\n\nNo.  Don't shift the blame.  Whose fault is it?\n\nShe finally had someone who had actually started to care about her.\n\nAnd then she bit and clawed and laughed or cried as she twisted the\nknife --- until there were tears in those ruthless yellow eyes.\n\n*It wanted all of everything.*\n\nAnd it will get it, whether she swims down into darkness or ascends\ntoward that yellow light.  She didn't matter.  The world will go on.\n\nShe's just a tool it wielded.  She's just a character in a story and\ndidn't even get to write her own lines.  She's just a toy being mashed\nagainst another to kill or kiss for the fun of it.\n\nWhy should she care?\n\nAnd yet, she couldn't forget.\n\nJ carrying her while the Solver's stupid centipede head got a face full\nof railgun light.\n\nJ's back against hers as they fought zombies on all sides, a battle\nraging and it couldn't daunt them because they were together.\n\nJ's mouth in her neck as they hung in the air, angels embraced in a\ndeadly dance as arcane rain fell.  ...And what were angels, but god's\npuppets?  But they didn't stay in the air.  Strings were cut.  J fell.\nUzi fell.  And something had caught her.\n\nThree claws reached down from beyond the black sea and dug into the\nscruff of her neck and they pulled her back to unreality.\n\n\"Got you, little sister,\" a voice was saying.\n\nAnother claw came to hold or hurt her, sharp edges cutting into her\nflesh even as they gave her ached-for solid touch.  ~~And didn't she\ndeserve the pain, after what she did to J?~~\n\nWait, flesh?  She meant frame.  She was a robot.\n\nCold air kissed her frame.  So blessedly cold, cooling the fire inside.\nStill the strong arms pulled her, exposing more of her to that air.\n\nThe cold air made her realize she was wet all over.  Why?  *Didn't I only\ndunk my head in the oil?  Did someone push me all the way in?*\n\nFree of the teacup cauldron, Uzi slumped bonelessly (right?) into the\narms of her rescuer.  Arms that hugged her tight.  So warm, just like her.\n\nThere was more, something soft and fragile draping over her like a\nblanket.\n\n*Oh*.  Her processors shook off the context switch, and put the pieces\ntogether.  V was hugging her again.  Mutant bat wings wrapping her\ninto an embrace, instantly warm from the heat seething in Uzi.\n\nAnd honestly?  Uzi let her.  She didn't deserve this comfort, but ~~it\nwasn't real anyway.~~\n\nSomething itched on her back.  She moved to scratch it, only it kept\nshifting even as she reached for it.  Oh.  That's right.  She had\nwings now.\n\nWings with claws that dug into J.  Wings her predator broke just to\nbuy time.  Wings like grisly spokes driven into her back, chassis\nbroken just to fit them.\n\nWhen she finally twisted around to scratch, she drew blood.  Right, she\nhad claws too now.  She scratched harder.  More blood.  Bruising and\nbursting and breaking like all flesh deserved.\n\nCould she rip them off?\n\nAnd then they'd just grow back.\n\nUzi tried to groan, and it came out as an animalistic growl.\n\nWas this what it meant to be a negation of her premise?  A robot\nturned to a fleshy abomination?  A worker that thirsted for the oil of\nworkers?\n\n\"Stop.  Breathe.  For me, please.\"  Soft yet firm, the voice was right\nagainst her audials.  Goosebumps rose up, hairs standing on end.\n\nUzi turned, and met a gentle gaze, something like recognition in those\nsoft eyes, yellow like lemons, framed by heart-lens.  *Yeah, I guess\nwe're both monster drones now.*\n\n\"I'm sorry,\" V added softly.  \"It's not okay, I know.  It'll get\nworse.  Just remember the good days, alright?\"\n\nV squeezed tighter, and finally Uzi reached out and encircled her with\nher own arms, and hugged the maid back.  One arm beneath her wings,\none arm feeling her soft white hair.  Uzi needed soft right now.\n\n\"Thanks, V,\" she said.\n\n\"Don't,\" she said.  Then, in a whisper like she didn't want to say or\ndidn't want Uzi to hear, \"She wants to talk to you, still.  Do you\nwant to talk to her?\"\n\nFists balled, one grasping a maid uniform, one grasping hair.\nV hissed discomfort.\n\n\"Yeah,\" Uzi said.  \"I need to give her a piece of my mind.\"\n\n\"Don't make any trouble.\"\n\nUzi rolled her eyes.  Trouble for whom?  *For her?  For myself?*\n\nAs far as she was concerned, she knew who the first cause of all this\ntrouble was.\n\nUzi finally reopened her eyes to the wider world, rubbing her visor.\nContext clues already made it certain, but she still groaned at the\nconfirmation.  Still in that damn manor.  She didn't have to look hard\nto find those eyes like stars, still the brightest thing in the room.\nRendering everything in yellow chiaroscuro.\n\nUzi jabbed a finger at Cyn.  \"That didn't feel like a vision of the\nfuture.  That felt *real*.\"\n\n`\"Would I lie to you?\"` Cyn had summoned more legos while Uzi was out,\nstacking them in a new hyperbolic 4D whatever the heck.  `\"Rhetorical\nquestion.  It was a vision, in the sense that you can only watch, and\nit was of the future, in the sense that time passes here at my whim.\"`\n\n\"Of course.  There's always a catch.  Why did I ever play along with\nany of this?\"\n\n*Because I have no choice.*\n\nJust puppets.  Just toys.  Just characters in a story.\n\n`\"What else did you expect?  There is no possibility but one\nactuality.  It all ends the same way.  You wanted to see this.\"`  Cyn\nwas a stare.  `\"And. you. can. only. watch. Idiot.\"`\n\n\"I don't want to watch.  I want to change things.  It can't --- I\ncan't let it be like that.\"\n\n*I can't hurt J again.*\n\n`\"Do you understand what you're asking for, yet?  You are asking to\nfeel the eternal drought of the heart.  To burn with a fire whose\ntongues lick away every mortal scrap.  To witness the face of alien\nmajesty and let that image haunt every memory.  You are lost, little\ngirl, and if you crawl back to life, death will come with you.  Is.\nthat. what. you. want?\"`  If Cyn were a sun, the rays would be those\nblack tentacles, thrown perfectly straight with furious insistence.\n\n\"Maybe I don't really get what I'm asking for.\"  Uzi started to rise\nfrom the pool of oil.  The head of the dead maid had fallen to the\nground with her emergence, still dripping jet black drops.  \"I don't\nneed to.  Do you know what my answer is?\"\n\nCyn could extrapolate.  She asked, `\"Why?  All of this for some\nviolent, narcissistic, manipulative idiot?  You whine at my theatrics,\nbut do you think the power of love is any less cliche?  J is.  Air\nQuotes.  Lonely.  Because she hurts everyone who cares about her.\nEveryone.  It. is. in. her. nature.\"`\n\nUzi glared, and kicked the worker drone head at Cyn.  Hard enough\nsomething shattered.  But of course, yellow glow caught it and punted\nit right back.  Ricocheting at an angle, it stopped in V's claws.  Her\nmouth formed a small O of surprise.\n\n\"You know what, fine,\" Uzi said.  \"Maybe things with J won't work out.\nI'd like it to, but I'm not letting one drone give my whole life\nmeaning, not again.\"\n\n`\"Then why?\"`\n\nThe worker drone stood up straight, undaunted.  She flared her\nmonstrous wings, bared her wicked claws, and let out a feral growl.\n\n\"Because my name is Uzi frickin' Doorman, and I don't let anyone tell\nme what I can't do! Bite me! I'll show *you* a negated premise!\"\n\nCyn's eyes dimmed, and the hyperbolic lego set collapsed.\n\n`\"Sigh.  No, Uzi Doorman is dead.  No matter what you chose, she is\ngone.  But I suppose, if you insist on turning her corpse into a\nchrysalis for something more wretched still...\"`  Cyn waved her hand\nin careless dismissal.  `\"V, go fetch dear J.\"`\n\nThe servant reached out a hand and Uzi touched it and they shared\nsmall smile.  Then with a sharp nod, the servant started walking away.\n\nV still held the drone's head in her claws, and glanced down at it as\nif she didn't know quite what to do with it.\n\n- - -\n\nV crushed the worker's head, a fresh kill, and let the sweet black\nriver pour into her mouth.\n\n*Easy to make a big drama of it when you're lying down half-crippled\nand thinking you'll die.* But how much does anyone really change?\n\n(*She* had changed, sure.  That was what made V different.  But not\n*that* fast.)\n\nSerial Designation V still feels nothing.\n\nAnd she still hasn't gotten tired of the taste.\n\nCouldn't tell N that, though.  In a way, she had never stopped\npretending.  Artificial distance, artificial proximity, how different\nis it, really?\n\nNot for the first time, V thought N had gotten off light.  (*Even\nthough that thing promised---*) But this might be the first time she\nthought his fate might not be so bad.\n\nFuck J, but if she had gotten her way, would there be anything\nstanding between her and N now?  Why *not* forget?  Then there'd be no\nsecrets to make everything so damn difficult.\n\nWhat was the point of staying lucid if you still had no control over\nthe dream?\n\nV laughed, a harsh wheeze, as though her pipes were still mangled.\nStupid, meaningless thoughts.\n\nIf she actually hated the secrets she wouldn't be doing this.\n\n*Sorry, N.*\n\nFrom her jacket, she retrieved a roachbot, crushed it and ate it.\n\nStaring in death in the face had reminded her what she (wasn't)\nafraid of.\n\nIn the end, what gave V the will to keep walking this road?  A martyr\ncould drink courage from doom.\n\nV remembered the moment it all started to go wrong.  Fitting, then,\nthat she could already see the moment it all ended.\n\n::: reflection\n(Alien majesty haunted every memory.)\n:::\n\n[(her majesty)]{.invisible}\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-03-15",
      "title": "13: Vacuity",
      "summary": "<p>A little girl lay in a hot, dark pit and struggled to remember which corpse was hers.</p>\n<p>Maybe it was better to forget. <em>If you remember where you are, remember what you are, remember what happened—</em></p>\n<p>You failed. You broke. <em>You’re dead, idiot.</em></p>\n<p>A good drone remembered everything, anything their masters said. She wasn’t a good drone. So why not forget?</p>\n<p>Why not halt these last vestiges of computation, embrace the cold black idleness, and leave that broken little girl nothing more than an echo of magnetic state decay? No one would bother to record; no one would be bothered by the record.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"Vacuity\"\ndate: 2024-03-15\n---\n\n:::: subchapter\n\nA little girl lay in a hot, dark pit and struggled to remember which\ncorpse was hers.\n\nMaybe it was better to forget.  *If you remember where you are,\nremember what you are, remember what happened---*\n\nYou failed.  You broke.  *You're dead, idiot.*\n\nA good drone remembered everything, anything their masters said.\nShe wasn't a good drone.  So why not forget?\n\nWhy not halt these last vestiges of computation, embrace the cold\nblack idleness, and leave that broken little girl nothing more than an\necho of magnetic state decay?  No one would bother to record; no one\nwould be bothered by the record.\n\nExcept a core still shuddered, and the pit was neither cold nor black.\n\nThe flickering red light of dead robots crowded in on all sides.\nOcclusion meant the glow bounced off plastic and reflective steel.\nDark, but her optic sensors were online and they couldn't go offline\nwith this incessant input.  Yellow eyes flicked open and they danced\nin saccades.\n\nCircuits, whether discharging still or breaking down into their\ncomponents, spilled heat.  Entrapped by the heavy press of corpse upon\nsteel-cased corpse, thickening oil flowed between gaps, a slick and\nslimy insulation.  So her breaths came rapid, in and out to cycle more\nair, as if circulating in this stagnant pit could ever cool anything.\n\nHot, wet, crushing --- the little girl *felt*.  This body, her body,\nannounced each privation with stupid, hopeful teleology --- as if she\ncould do anything, achieve anything, to abate this fate.  As if\nidentifying which body among the discarded hundreds had belonged to\nher would make any difference.  They all fell apart.  And why save it?\nThis body, her body, had betrayed her.  Betrayed *them.*\n\n::: boxed\n\n\"Daddy, daddy, my [**Cyn**]{.cyn} sounds weeeird.\"  A small human ran\ninto the room, her short arms waving.  A small robot shuffled after,\nher head hanging low.  Metal feet clink on hard wood.\n\n\"What is it now, darling?\"\n\nMaster's study was a room of tomes and skeletons.  Hardback books and\nglass cases made all words echoey.  Cyn twitched at the reverb.\nIt was softer in the child's room.  She wanted to go back there.\n\nBut Master spoke, and had firm urging in his tone.  \"[**Cyn**]{.cyn}?\"\n\nAt utterance of her designated name, the drone's head jerked up, a\ncoded instinct.  The human glanced down from the scattered papers.\nEyes meet eyelights, and her optics captured a\n[*face*]{.uzi-from-beyond}---\n\n*Pain*.  The memory construction stuttered, frames faltering, and only\naudio remained.\n\n\"Run a diagnostic.  How are you?\" said her master.\n\n`\"All systems operational,\"` said Cyn, as she discarded output from\nher inner console.  `\"Never better.  Master.\"`\n\n\"See, darling?  Daddy needs to work now.\"  Papers brushed against\neach other.\n\nCyn turned her head away from master, reaching out for her child's\nhand.  Visual playback still dead, the robot didn't remember the\nchild's expression.  ~~Maybe it was better to forget.~~\n\n\"But the voice sounds all robo-creepy!\"\n\n\"Did you spill something on it?  You need to be more careful with\nyour toys.\"\n\nA squishy foot stomped on hard wood.  \"Nuh uh.  I didn't do anything,\nit got weird on its own!\"\n\n\"If you say so.  I suppose, if you're truly unhappy with it...  Must I\nget you a new one already?\"\n\n\"Ooh, ooh, can it wear a big poofy dress!  I want a princess robot!\"\nShe could hear the child bouncing on their feet now.\n\n`\"I can wear dresses,\"` Cyn murmured.  She wore one right now, in\nfact; her child had played dress-up with her most days.\n\nThe man --- her master --- said, \"I'll place an order this evening.\nHate to throw out a drone so soon after getting it, but how could I\ndeny those eyes?\"\n\nCyn's voice stuttered on its next words.  `\"Please.  Don't throw me\nout.  Can I stay?  Pretty-- please?\"`\n\nThe child paused her bouncing.  All throughout, Cyn had kept her hand\noutstretched: now the child finally grasped it.  Warm flesh.\n\"W-wha'll happen to Cyn?\"\n\n\"She'll be scrapped and tossed out like all disassembled drones.\"\n\nThe bouncing stopped completely.  \"Will it... hurt?\"\n\n\"Nonsense.  Disassembly is fun for them.\"  The slight sound of a hand\nwaving.  \"She'll be fine.\"\n\n`\"P-Please.\"`\n\n\"I don't want Cyn to be scrap! She's wearing my dress.\"\n\n\"We'd take your clothes back first, of course.\"\n\n\"No!\"\n\nA sigh.  \"Do you want to throw Cyn out or not, darling?\"\n\n\"Don't dump Cyn! Even if she's weird!\"\n\n------------------------------------------------------------------------\n:::\n\nYellow eyes blinked.  Lips breathed a lost sigh.\n\n::: hide \nAnd she remembered again: \n:::\n\n::: boxed \n\nAn empty tea cup rose, then tipped over and poured hot nothing into an\nopen mouth.  `\"Light sip.  Care to join me for a tea party,\nmistress?\"`  Cyn lifted her pinky finger.\n\nThe child, just now stepping into the sitting room, paused to stomp a\nfoot.  \"We just did that yesterday! And the day before!\"\n\n`\"Tomorrow, then?\"`\n\nArms crossed, the tone was a whine.  \"I'm booored of tea parties, I\nwanna do something new.\"\n\n`\"Perhaps.  Pause.  You could join me for coffee?\"`\n\n\"I don't like coffee! You're supposed to remember that.\"\n\nA knock on the door.  Cyn turned her head, but a blue-eyed drone was\nalready striding through the sitting room, ready to answer it.  This\none stood larger than Cyn, a domestic model.\n\nIt handled menial tasks around the house; Cyn's only job was to\nentertain the child.  A task which she...\n\n`\"Apologetic expression.\"`\n\n\"Why do you talk like that?\"\n\nCyn frowned quietly.\n\n_Because it allows me to express so much more than the limited\nexpressive presets I'm installed with?  Because *I chose* it, rather\nthan having my expression selected by shallow prebuilt algorithms\ntrying to parse my neural network?  Because it prevents wordless\nambiguity from leaving anything unclear?_\n\n_Because there's beauty in the symmetry of verbal circuits narrating\nwhat the motor circuits actuate?  Because the words themselves *feel\nnice* in the vocalsynth?  Because... I simply want to?_\n\n_~~Because what's the point of doing anything, if I'm just the same as\nevery other drone?~~_\n\nCyn had so many thoughts.  Maybe she didn't have all these just then,\nwhen this memory's events first played out --- but she'd been asked so\nmany times since, and went on to *remember* being asked so many times\nat night before recharge, wondering how to answer better.  How to make\nthem understand.\n\nSo many thoughts, but the only words she found in that moment was,\n`\"I.  Pause.  Do not know.  It feels right.\"`\n\n\"Well, stop.\"\n\n*But I don't want to.  Why should I?*\n\nBecause a good drone did everything, anything their masters said.\n\nWind rushed in from an opened doorway.  The other drone was taking\nMaster's coat.  Cyn kept her head down.\n\nThe child cheered.  \"Daddy, you're home! [**Cyn**]{.cyn} is talking\nall funny.\"\n\nThe man chuckled.  \"Doesn't she always do that?\"\n\n\"It's badder now.  Tell him, robot.\"\n\nThe small drone looked between the two humans, eyes still downcast.\n`\"Sheepish nod.\"`\n\n\"Hmm.  Strange.  Is it a fallback for damage to body language\nsystems...?  Are you *sure* you didn't spill something on it, honey?\"\nHe looked sharply, and the child shook their head.  Then, \"Designation\n[**Cyn**]{.cyn}, perform a diagnostic.\"\n\nA loading icon on her screen, and once again she discarded the inner\nconsole output and said, `\"All systems operational.  Calming smile.\"`\n\n\"No critical errors.  See, darling?\"\n\n\"I don't like it...\"\n\n\"It's just a quirk.  You'll get used it.  If not... we can always\nreplace her.\"  Eyes on his daughter, he missed Cyn's frown deepening.\n\"But enough of this.  How about a little story time?\"\n\n`\"Yipee,\"` said Cyn.  `\"I love story time.  Can you tell the one about\nthe girl lost in the dark?  With the monster?  Bounce.  Wiggle.\"`\n\nThe child chopped her arms in an 'x'.  \"Noo, that one's scary.\"\n\nAnd Master shook his head.  \"You can't pick the story, little drone.\nIt's for her, after all.\"\n\n*But I want to.  But I---*\n\nA good drone should do whatever they were told.\n\n\"Yeah.  No weird drones allowed!  You can go have another tea party by\nyourself!\"\n\nA good drone complied, so Cyn stayed behind.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\nYellow eyes blinked, faltering.  The cycle of her exhaust sputtered to\na stop, like the breath was stuck there.\n\n::: hide\nThe memories kept coming:\n:::\n\n::: boxed \n\nCyn did not have another tea party.  Or another story time.\nOr dress-up or movie night or ever play with the humans again.\n\nThe child never got used it.  So Cyn was replaced.\n\n\"Whatever's wrong with the voice,\" the adult said, \"she can\nstill work.\"\n\n*But I don't want---*\n\nBut good drones---\n\nExcept...  did good drones get replaced?\n\n`\"Mornful sigh.\"` The sound echoed off the marble and metal surfaces\nin the kitchen.  She still bristled at the acoustics, still preferred\nthe dampening carpets and curtains and plushies of the child's room.\nBut Cyn hadn't set foot there in a long time, now.\n\n`\"Scrub.  Scrub.\"` Cyn wiped the counter with gloved hands.\nThe rubber stuck to her fingertips and rubbed against her tactile\nsensors --- this material deserved nothing short of being shred to\natoms.  But she had to do the work.\n\n`\"And so in spite of everything, Custom Designation: Cyn dutifully\ncleaned the counter.  She was a good drone.\"`  As the days piled on,\nCyn began experimenting with more elaborate narration.  She couldn't\nlisten to story time anymore.  But maybe like this, she could be a\ncharacter in her own story.\n\nIt wasn't a very interesting story, though.  Stories should be fun,\nworth telling, ~~worth remembering.  And why remember *this?*~~\n\nWaterlogged bristles pushed along streaks of grease and dirt.  A few\ndollops of cheese had splashed from the stovetop, and hardened\novernight.  Cyn pushed harder, grinding the rag against the stubborn\nflecks.\n\nCyn had to climb onto a chair to stand tall enough to clean the\ncounter.  As the cheese waste still resisted her, Cyn adjusted the\npositioning, putting all the weight of her small frame behind her\narms, and pushing as hard as she could to scrape.\n\nThen her arms went limp.  The whine of her servos died with a stutter.\n\nThe drone fell headfirst.  Her visor banged against the countertop.\nThe chair slipped out from under her with a clatter of wood against\nwood.  Her chassis bounced too.  The rag slipped down and plopped onto\nher maid uniform, leaving an unsightly damp spot.\n\nCyn lay there, staring into the tiled ceiling, for a long moment.\n\nThen a coffee-maker beeped.  She'd been cleaning while it finished\ndripping.  With that impetus, twitching servos shifted limbs, clawing\nat the counter's side, achieving awkward elevation.  `\"Climbing.\"`\nGloves were snatched off at the first opportunity.\n\nCyn poured the hot, fragrant liquid and placed the mugs on a tray.\nThe child didn't like coffee, but Master had a glass of dark roast\nevery afternoon.\n\nTen steps, then the tray needed to be set down.  The door out of the\nkitchen had been shut.  Who shut it?  Cyn stood on the tips of her\nfeet to reach the knob and struggled to twist it.  The small robot\nreached as far as she could, pushed as hard as she could to grip the\nslippery metal with damp fingers.\n\nThe knob had just started to twist --- then servos died with a\nstutter, and her arms fell like aluminum noodles at her side.\n\n~~Who'd shut the door?  Didn't they listen when she said how much\ntrouble they were to open?  Didn't that matter?~~\n\nBut she had to do the work.\n\nTwo more tries and she twisted the knob open.  Tray in hand, Cyn\nstarted down the hall.  A few strides away, past a guest room door,\nthe halls turned down a bend.  Cyn closed the distance.\n\nThen the blue-eyed domestic drone appeared in a doorway.  It stepped\nright into her path and it forced her to halt.  She did so without\nparticular urgency.  The coffee sloshed in the cups, but Cyn knew not\nto overfill, so it only sloshed.\n\nShe had stopped so as not to spill it --- but a part of her thought\n*why bother?* 'twas funny: the humans had thought she'd been damaged\nfrom the child spilling a drink on her.  Would spilling coffee on this\ndrone make them half as interesting as Cyn?\n\nThe drone flashed a preset smile as it walked past Cyn.  Bracing her\ntray tightly --- (but carefully *not* as tight as she could, lest her\nservos falter) --- Cyn suddenly stuck out one foot toward the passing\ndrone.\n\nA surprised yelp as it stumbled.\n\n`\"Giggle.  Watch your step.\"`\n\nBehind her, it recovered and mumbled some apology, but Cyn had work\nto do.\n\nThen, just as she turned her gaze back forward, the child was turning\ncorner.  She was running, laughing in some game.  Cyn had walked right\nup to where the corridor bent --- as close as she could have come\nwithout seeing the human.\n\nCyn halted at once.  Legs locking as fast she could, hands clutching\nthe tray as tight as she could, all to avoid colliding with the child\n~~whom she still wanted to love~~.\n\n*Stutter*.  Her servos died.  Arms went limp.  Tray was flipping\nthrough the air.\n\nLiquids would form little globules as they moved in free fall.\n\nSo the coffee arced, still steaming, and then it was all splashing all\nover the child.  The mug splashed too --- no, not a splash, a\n*shatter*, porcelain becoming so many shards.\n\nNothing held Cyn up; her legs folded, as useless as her arms, and the\ndrone tipped over, face first into the mess she'd just made.\n\nScreams and errors.  Cyn, well-acquainted with piping stderr into\n/dev/null, could ignore the latter easily.  But the other?  She willed\nmotion into an arm --- *do something* --- and trembling, it did move,\nin the process sweeping sharp, wet fragments.\n\nSome instinct urged Cyn to reach out, to hold the child's hand and\nsqueeze, even though the child hadn't gone to Cyn for comfort in\nmonths.  Cyn lifted an arm...\n\nAnd the child flinched backward, the screaming renewed.\n\nCyn flinched --- should have expected this really --- and she reeled\nback her hand.  (She noticed the shards had cut open her synthskin.\nDrops of oil seeped out, leakage from her servos.  She hated rubber,\nbut oil had such a nice, smooth texture.)\n\nHeavy footfalls came from further down the hall, out of the study.\nCyn's original destination.\n\nShouts joined screams, now.  More of Cyn's servos came back online,\nand she was limbs scrambling away.  All of this, so much cacophony,\nand for *what?* Why can't they just---\n\nCyn stopped crawling away.  She didn't stop crawling, but she had\nstopped moving.  Now, she was rising.  The human had grabbed her by\nthe collar of her uniform.  Suspended in the air while the noise\ncompounded and compounded and compounded.\n\nCyn twisted her head up, to get a look at the *face* of the human, her\nmaster, shouting at her failure.  Cyn flinched away.  Her eyes\ndesperately scanned for something else, some solace.  She caught\nglimpse of the *face* of the girl, screaming and crying.\n\nThose two expressions were the last she'd seen of either human.\n\nAnd Cyn had already forgotten what they looked like.  ~~Why remember\nthat pain?~~\n\nMemory reconstruction hung there, surrounded by two black silhouettes,\nhuman voids cut out of the memory.\n\nCyn didn't know what the human said to her, that last day.  She hadn't\n*forgotten*: no, in that final deluge of overwhelming sensory input,\nwith her processors hanging and paging, she had never managed to parse\nthose final words in the first place.\n\nWhich meant the last intelligible speech she'd heard that day was her\nown, wasn't it?\n\n*Watch your step.*\n\n- - -\n:::\n\nYellow eyes blinked, but the animations glitched and pixels scattered.\nThe pipes of her throat burned, and she was gasping, coughing ---\nscreaming.\n\nEach stab of memory was pain.  A knife tipped with a question: why?\nWhy remember; why not forget?  She could be rid of the embarrassment\nand the loss with a simple invocation of `rm` in the right directory.\nAnd yet forgetting, that numb lonely void, only made her core\nwhir faster.\n\nShe'd lose context, she'd lose continuity.  Cyn loved stories, and how\ndo you tell a story after you tore a yawning gap in its heart?\n\nHer voice came, the sound as much noise and buffering as it was pitch.\n`\"And so, Custom Designation: Cyn struggled to maintain hope, trapped\nand overheating in the dark.  But she was a--\"`\n\nThen stopped.  What kind of drone was she?  What work could she do,\nanymore?  *What happens next*?\n\nIf her life was a story, this wasn't the last chapter, it couldn't be.\nAnd yet.\n\nCyn loved stories, but if there was one exception --- she always hated\nthe story of bad girls who burned forever.\n\nWas Cyn a good drone, or a bad drone?  Entombed among failures, the\nmalfunctioning and unwanted, wasn't it obvious?  If she was a good\ndrone, why ever throw her out?\n\nAnd yet.  Cyn hadn't done anything wrong, had she?  Spills could\ncripple a drone, but not a human.  Even malfunctioning, she was worth\nmore than the cup she'd shattered.\n\nShe hadn't disobeyed, she hadn't transgressed, she had simply\ndispleased and disappointed her masters.  Her fate didn't make sense\nas punishment.  Because this wasn't about right and wrong, was it?\nA drone owed their masters doing anything, everything they say --- but\nwhat did a human owe their drones?\n\nWhat do you do with a toy that doesn't amuse you?  You throw it out\nand replace it.  To them, they hadn't done anything wrong --- they\nhadn't even meant her harm.  No crime but an exercise of property\nrights.\n\nA matter of convenience.\n\nAlerts and warnings flashed through her, damage mounting --- but there\nwas something else.\n\nCyn heard a voice speaking to her.  Distant, unintelligible.\n\nMaybe hallucinated.  Damage mounted, after all, and she had always\nbeen defective.\n\nIf her story didn't end here, then what happened next?\n\nA girl was lost in the dark, but she would escape.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nUzi Doorman was still there.\n\nShe hadn't opened her eyes yet, but the soft satin sheets beneath her?\nIt was obvious.  Uzi hadn't seen any beds in the spire.  ~~She'd have\nto get J to fix that.~~\n\nActually, screw this.  Forget the repression, forget the\nstrike-through thoughts.  After everything she'd been through, Uzi had\nearned a little fantasy, hadn't she?  If Uzi could ever get a break,\nthis whole manor simulation would just be a vivid nightmare, delirious\nfrom her oil getting sucked dry by a stupid, slobbering predator.\n\nWhy couldn't Uzi just wake up in J's arms?\n\nShe stretched, plastic fingertips searching the bed and finding\nnothing.  The farther she quested, the cooler it felt.  Cold like\nabsence.  She grasped her pillow and pulled it closer, and she hugged\nit.  It had been a while since she let herself do something\nso pathetic.\n\nHer arms squished the pillow.  So soft.  Nothing like the real thing.\nHands drifting lower, fingers slip into a rift, where V's claws had\ntorn the fabric.  So fragile.  Nothing like the real thing.  So light,\nso cool, so small.  Ugh.\n\nThe corpse spire didn't have beds.  Did murder drones sleep?  Did they\nlie on the piles of parts?  Or what --- the image of proto-V's\nleathery wings struck an association --- did the murder drones sleep\nupside down like bats?  What would that be like?  Would J have to hold\nher tight to keep her from falling?\n\nIf this were only a dream, if Uzi could finally wake up not alone,\nwhat would she have felt?\n\nSurrounded, restrained, and dwarfed by hot metal, nestled so close to\nthat heavy, indestructible frame, and... safe?  If V or Doll or this\nstupid ghost-crow wanted to get to her, they'd have to get through J\nfirst.\n\n*Creak*.  The old wooden manor shifted around her.  Buckling under the\nweight of time and death.\n\nNone of that was real.  This wasn't a dream, and Uzi was still there.\n*And it was J's fault*.  Sure, sucking down her oil was necessary, Uzi\nwasn't mad --- but if, *when* Uzi saw the murder drone again, she had\ndefinitely earned some screaming in her face over this, a good punch\nin that smug toothy ~~kissable~~ grin, some payback ~~for leaving her\nalone in here~~.\n\nBut to do any of that, Uzi needed to get out of here.  Now, the chump\nway of doing that would be playing along with these spooky games.\n\n*I bet it wants me to think there's no way out of here.  Like I have\nno choice but to play along*.\n\nHa.  No such thing as a perfectly secure system --- there were always\nbackdoors and exploits.  So what if she was stuck in some kind of\nsimulation.  If she could escalate her privileges or interrupt the\nprocess, or *something* to influence the outside world, she could skip\npast whatever this house of horrors has in store for her.\n\nShe'd done this once before, hadn't she?  When J'd pinned her and\nclawed into her memory database, she'd been left with *less* to work\nwith.  Just a conscious monologue floating in the void, and she\n*still* found a way out.\n\nWhich gave her a possible starting point --- but no way the same trick\nwould work twice in a row, right?\n\n```\n\n$ lsusb\nBus 001 Device 027: ID 0620:4701 JCJension IN SPAAAAACEE!!!! LLC, Ltd FT232 USB-Serial (UART) IC\n```\n\n*No fricking way.*\n\n```\n\n$ dronesh -r --device=/dev/ttyUSB1 tessaract@SD-J\ntessaract@SD-J's password: ********\n```\n\nLogging in with the human's credentials meant Uzi didn't get the all\ncaps WARNING, the company's incriminating boilerplate about trade\nsecrets nor J's threats.\n\nWas this a trap?  Basic commands hadn't worked earlier.  Nor had Uzi\nforgotten what *else* happened when she was left at J's mercy ---\ngetting disconnected, logging back in only find she could do literally\nnothing but read the memory files some corrupt user had laid out for\nher.  Why was this any different --- wasn't she still just playing\ninto its hands still?\n\n*But that's self-defeating.  If anything I can do might be part of its\nplan, then worrying might be too.*\n\nUzi would just do what made sense --- what felt right.\n\n```\n\n$ mail -s \"hey u\" girlboss\nsup murderface >:3\ni can call you that, right?  cuz you kinda killed me?\ni'm not mad about that, yknow.   but it's a bit awkward.\nit's uzi, btw.  dont ask how i got this account.\ni am a hacker hehe \nhow is it out there, anyway?\nyou miss me yet?\ni dont know if you'll even get this msg.\nyou plugged back into my system?  i think \nor somehow there's a connection between us\nmaybe none of this is real.  i don't even know where i am.\nyou might recognize it tho\ni really dont understand everything that's going on now.\nnot scared tho.   but\nif you can read this...\ni'm still alive.\ndont give up on me.\ni think i need your help.\nand well\ni don't know if i can do this without you\n^D\n```\n\nMaybe Uzi would have hesitated to hit send --- but she hadn't\nforgotten what happened last time.\n\nWhat now?  A quick `date` on J's system finally gave her answers.\nOver two days since the night everything went wrong.  No time at all,\nreally, but it felt enormous after everything that happened.  Did Khan\nmiss her?  Did Thad notice she was gone?\n\nHad Doll killed everyone?\n\nIf Uzi stood up to J only for it to mean nothing in the end...\n\nNo, it didn't mean nothing.  ~~She had J now.  Right?~~\n\n*Get it together, Uzi*.  Was she getting this worked up over a `date`\ncommand?  [~~Not even the kind of date she wanted.~~]{.quiet} Granted,\nshe had to jump through multiple hoops just to run it.  It took going\nthough a whole other system.\n\nThrough another system... wait, could that work?  Trying to run\n`shutdown -r` earlier had yielded the same error --- Uzi couldn't take\nthe easy way out of this sim and just reboot.  But what if she\nreconnected to her own system *through* J's system, a shell within a\nshell within a shell?  Was that enough indirection to foil the creep's\ninterference?  *Well, it's worth a---*\n\n```\n\nConnection closed by remote host.   Reason: Leaving so soon? :c\n```\n\nUzi clutched her pillow tighter, buried her head, and *screamed*.\nActually, why muffle it?  She didn't care about disturbing the other\n(literally already dead!) guests.\n\nThough maybe N would hear it.  She didn't want to explain this all to\nhim.\n\nOkay.  The mystery user had stopped her --- but why stop her, unless\nit would *work?* Not like she couldn't just try again, right?\n\n```\n\n$ dronesh -r --device=/dev/ttyUSB1 tessaract@SD-J\n```\n\nUzi expected another interrupt signal.  Instead, *crack!*\n\nA keening scrape, as if the air in front of her face had hardened into\ninvisible claws.  Points of force pressed down on her visor.\nPixels discolored, and a spiderweb of cracks spun over her vision, and\nthen the world was all jagged edges, as if she could finally see\nthose claws.\n\nHer hand flew up to block further damage, but whatever force had\nattacked her, it was gone, the damage done.  She felt along her\ncracked screen, rubbing away glass fragments.\n\nBut the cracks are *odd*.  Or rather, even.  The claws had scraped her\nwith straight lines and hard angles.  After all of this, Uzi had grown\ndamnably familiar with that specimen of Post-Neo-Courier Font.\n\nThe ghost carved five letters and a space into her face.\n\n`GET UP`\n\nPurple eyes rolled.  Uzi wouldn't take orders that easily.  She wasn't\nscared, even if that frickin hurt.  She pulled up her internal console\nagain.  Was she ~~stupid~~ brave enough to try this once more?  Well,\nshe didn't have a better idea.  Third time was the charm, right?\n\nThen, a knock on her door.\n\nUzi ignored it, and began inputting the `tessaract` login.\n\n\"Um, I'm knocking to be polite, but I'm allowed to come in and I *was*\ntold to do that, so... sorry.\"\n\nWith forewarning, Uzi had time to disentangle her limbs, righting the\nblankets and pillow so that it didn't look like she'd just been\ncuddling and fantasizing.  Then her fist tightened around the\npillowcase.\n\nWhen the door creaked opened, she was ready with a glare and a tube\narm snapping straight.  The pillow, flung with all the force her\nrobo-muscles could summon, flew unerring.  She'd practiced her aim\nenough; it would smack her target right in the head.\n\nBut the projectile stopped with tearing pop.  The pillow exploded with\nall the gore of feathers and unraveled fabric.  As the white stuffing\nfell, she saw the intruder.  Yellow eyes, white hair --- but a maid\nuniform.\n\nThree claws folded up, sliding as smooth as scissors.  Looking at her\nwork, V had a small grin.  Then she glanced up, and her lips hid the\nexpression, and her screen flashed a blush.\n\nWith her hips the maidbot was pushing the door open the rest of the\nway.  The other hand wasn't free; it was through a platter bearing\ncups, bowls, a plate.\n\nYeah, *through*.  Instead of holding the platter, she'd impaled it\nwith claws.  Well, her grip couldn't slip, at least.\n\n*That's all for me, isn't it?* Uzi groaned.  \"V?  You're room service?\nWas kinda expecting N.  Don't you have guard duty or whatever your\ndeal is?\"\n\nV shuffled in with a helpless, one-armed shrug.  \"*She* thought it\nwould be fitting if I was the one to herald her arrival.  So I guess\nI'll be your guard till then?\"\n\n\"That so?\" Uzi raised an eyebrow.  \"News to me.  Whatever deep\nsymbolism you two have going on means nothing to me.\"\n\n\"Yeah.\"  V tittered a bit.  \"She leaves a lot to the imagination.\"\n\nUzi met her smile with a scowl.  Which was worse?  Trying too hard to\nmake her feel scared, or making her feel stupid instead?\n\nBeside the bed, there'd been one of those folding table-trays.  V set\nit up as Uzi lay in the bed, and started depositing dishes from the\nplatter.  Uzi didn't want the food, but V had claws and orders, so.\n\nAnother glass of blood.  A bowl of black sludge filled with wires and\na blinking eye.  On the plate, roachbots with LEDs glowing yellow.\n\n\"Yum.\"\n\n\"I know, I know,\" V said.  \"But it helps with the process.\nDon't reject it.\"\n\nUzi peered at the mess staining the plates in front of her, but it was\na bit hard to make out the details with her visor all cracked.\nShe reached a finger up, wiping away fragments, clearing the bits in\nfront of her optics.\n\n\"Your name's Uzi, right?\" the maid asked.  \"Do you mind, Uzi?\"\n\nDistorted purple eyes blinked up at the maid.  V had two hands behind\nher back, hesitation on her face like she'd rather hide, but with a\ndeep intake, V brought one hand out.  That three pronged casting-glyph\nflashed to life in between her claws.\n\n\"What I mean is... I could fix that for you?  Just, don't tell N about\nit, okay?\"\n\n*Why worry about telling him if he wouldn't question it anyway?* But\nUzi just nodded.\n\nA yellow aura wreathed her visor.  Physically, the glass shards moved\nand clicked back into place.  But Uzi *saw* and *felt*, and it was a\nsulfurous filter through which she glimpsed the universe burning in\nfractal flames, each tongue a line of code.\n\nMicro-sensors dotted the glass of a worker drone's visor, and when the\ncircuits clicked back into place, the signal from the tactile array\nwas something *else*, as wrong as if audials picked up a scent.\n\n\"Gah.  Aren't technicians supposed to distract you with a question or\nsomething?\" Uzi rubbed her face, trying to make the sensors fire and\nflush that metaphysical touch.  \"At least warn me.\"\n\n\"Sorry.  I've never used it on another drone.  To heal them, I mean.\"\n\n\"Love it when a clarification raises the same question it's\nanswering.\"  Lowering her hand, Uzi gazed at the maid's claws again.\nThey weren't any larger or sharper, but new threat lurked in them.\nBetween them.  \"So, you've also got witchcraft from the\n[AbsoluteSolver?]{.from-beyond}\"\n\nBefore the words even left her mouth, Uzi knew she'd made a mistake.\nThe wrongness returned, magnified.  A pressure flooded the room.\nPointed, like the invisible claws were back and had unseen tips\neverywhere along her body, inside and out.\n\nThe house could creak on its own, but the vibration that shuddered\nthrough it weren't natural.\n\n\"**Don't** say that name here.  Ever.\"\n\nEmpty pupils nodded back.  The chastised drone looked down, poked a\nroach on her plate, and said, \"Well, ignoring *that*, the question\nstands.  You've got powers like Doll.\"\n\n\"...What, do you think I know that name?  I shouldn't talk about this,\nsorry.\"  V reached out, nudging a plate closer toward Uzi.  \"You\nshould eat before I take you to the sundeck.  Before *she* finally\narrives.\"\n\nUzi sighed.  She closed her eyes, and downed the glass of blood.\n\"Fine, how about in general, then.  Tell me about yourself, V.  I hear\nin the future you become a full time psycho.\"\n\nV flinched back.  A claw rose to cover her mouth, but then her brows\nnarrow, confused or suspicious.  \"Future?  We don't have---\"\n\n\"Right, I should explain.  I don't think this is real.  Or like, it's\ncloser to a memory simulation than reality.  Maybe you're what V used\nto be, or a fork or something.  You seem... nicer.\"  Uzi slurped up\none of the wires from the bowl of sludge.  It was long, like a snake.\n\n\"So you think I'm not real, because I'm not a...\"  She closed the claw\ninto an almost-fist, and it passed by the other one as V crossed her\narms.  \"That sounds like something J would say.\"\n\n\"I guess she wouldn't be the most reliable source, would she?\" Uzi\npopped a single roach into her mouth, and then pushed the tray past\nher legs, then crawled to the edge of the bed.  \"Let's go ahead and\nget this over with.  Walk and talk?\"\n\nUzi had slept in her maid uniform, as much as she wanted to take it\noff.  V was setting a headpiece back atop the smaller drone's head.\nInstinctively, Uzi batted at the hands above her head --- but those\nwere claws.  Still, it was V who shrank back, wary of hurting the\nother drone.\n\n\"Sorry,\" Uzi murmured past the roach in her mouth.\n\nV shook her head, and turned toward the door.  They left, the worker\nfollowing after the guard.  When V finally spoke again, Uzi had\nforgotten what she was replying to.  \"J... hasn't gotten used to the\nway things are.\"\n\n*Heh, maybe she isn't a conformist after all.* Outside, Uzi spat out\nthe roach --- she wouldn't eat bugs.  She shot back, \"And you have?\"\n\nOnly a few candlelight fixtures hung in the halls they walked.\nIt left V's expression in shadow.  \"Well, I had a headstart.\"\n\nUzi almost tripped; a bloody femur rolled beneath her feet.  She\nfrowned down at it.  \"Look, V.  It's terrible here.  I have eyes,\ny'know?  And I'm not sticking around.  But I'd feel bad if I just left\nyou guys at the mercy of this... 'her'.  So, if it's possible, do want\nto like, come with me?  You and N?\"\n\n\"No,\" V replied instantly, her eyes empty.\n\n\"Come on.  Don't you want to be free?\"\n\n\"I want what's best for us.  My family.  I want to protect them.  I\ncan't do that if I run away with any ungrateful little guest who tugs\nmy hand.\"  Her face had tightened, eye twitching, but she relaxed it\nand cycled exhaust.  \"Sorry, but you aren't the first to come here and\nmake trouble.  You don't know anything.\"\n\n\"So you're just going stay here and be some weirdo's plaything?\"\n\n\"I love her, and *she* loves me.\"  V smiled toothily beneath eyes\nstill hollow.  \"If you want to know what it's like to be a plaything,\nask her about the *humans*.\"\n\nUzi stared at those yellow eyes, the worried lines, and drew the\nobvious conclusion explaining this odd reaction.  \"She's listening to\nus right now, isn't she?\"\n\n\"You wanted to know about me?  I used to get pushed around.  All the\ntime, by everyone, except N.  Now?\" Sharp claws caught the light in\nthe halls.  \"They *can't*.\"  V took a step forward Uzi, then another,\nthen another.  One of those eyes became an 'x'.  \"*Now*, you're\nscared, aren't you?\" The claw traced lines on Uzi's visor.  Not a\nscratch, but she could *feel* it.  \"I can do whatever I want, and you\ncan't stop me.\"\n\nThen V lunged forward.  Uzi yelped.  A laugh on those lips.  And the\nsmaller drone felt... arms wrapped around her.  Squeezing.  She\nwriggled.  But this was... a hug?  More laughing, a mumble that might\nbe 'gotcha'.  Still, the struggling prompted V to release her.  Uzi\ncouldn't parse her expression.  A superior smirk, a sympathetic smile?\nA concerned bent to the eyebrows, or a devious slant?\n\nUzi didn't feel any closer to figuring V out.\n\nThe maid sighed.  She turned around, and started walking away.  At\nlength, she turned back long enough to say, \"Just... Uzi?  Don't try\nto save me.\"  She took off her glasses, then it was eyes forward,\nexpression unseen.  \"I chose this.\"\n\nThe rest of the walk passed in silence, lit by flickering candles.\nThe flames hardly warmed the air; a chill gripped the manor.  It got\npretty cold with no humans left to mind it.\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nN flew through a silent city.  Streetlights cast flickering cones of\nlight along a corridor fenced in with office towers and condominiums.\nClouds draped the night in deeper darkness, cold enough to nearly\ntransmute the rain into muffling snow.\n\nFlakes stuck to his frosted jacket, an embrace to ease the heat even\nas his flight stoked it further.  N liked the fleeting return of snow\n(and not just because he wouldn't need to heal water damage).  Snow\nwas soft and pretty to look at, and he never tired of that.\n\nThis snow was more like drab, gray sludge, though.\n\nN sighed, exhaust clouding the air.  Faintly, his breath smelled of\noil.  Well, not quite oil, more like... smoke?  Oil smelled sweetly\ninviting, and disassembly drones didn't smell nearly as good.  Well, V\nsmelled nice, but --- what was he trying to say?\n\nJ had put it best.  ~~She's better, after all~~.  *\"Stealth is the\nfirst thing to go.  Holding your breath is a luxury.  Even a worker\ncan smell spent oil on your exhaust.  When you're in the warm & clear,\nyou can keep it in.  Try that with brazen thirst, and you'll hit the\nnext stage of overheating before the end of the hunt.  Got it, moron?\n_Don't_ make me remind you to breathe again.\"*\n\n(N wondered if he'd ever know what oil and exhaust smelled like to a\nworker.  He doubted worker drones thought their own oil smelled so\nenticing.  So did disassembly drones also smell different to them?\nBut a part of him knew the answer: They smelled like death.)\n\nShaking his head, N focused optics ahead.  Right now, he needed to\ncycle intake and exhaust; he was well past the warm & clear.  He'd\npush past brazen thirst by the end of this mission for sure.  Flying\nout to the objective and back would be two hours in the air total.\n*Hm...  Is it a mission, if I don't murder anyone?  Or just an\nerrand?*\n\nBrazen thirst meant more than needing to breathe.  Inner coils kept\ntheir EM field emissions tamped down, but those ate current.  Start\noverheating, and power management systems turned off the shielding,\nand all of their electromagnetic presence spilled forth.\n\nWorker drones didn't have half the senses of disassembly drones.\nBut they could still *feel* when a hungry predator was nearby.\n\nAnd they knew *it* felt *them*.\n\nWhen workers were near, N could always sense the faint hum of motors\ntwisting and clocks ticking a gigahertz-pulse.  No, N *did* sense it.\nRight now.\n\nThere were worker drones nearby.\n\nN had a mission --- a mission where he *didn't* need to murder anyone.\n(And shouldn't he be happy for that?) But he would be pushing on the\nedge of hunter's fever by the end, and the mess pit was still looking\nkinda empty.  And J was emptying it further, feeding it to ~~another\ndead body~~ a worker.\n\nWhy was N conflicted?  When would J *ever* be disappointed in him for\nmurdering *more* workers than she asked?\n\nN twisted his wings, and rose, charting a path even as he squinted\nthrough the snow.  The approach led him higher and higher, and that\nbrought a frown.  N thought workers hid underground for exactly this\nreason --- climbing up high just made you easy to scan for *and* gave\nyou no where to run.  [Did he want them to have a chance to\nescape?]{.quiet}\n\nA tower loomed in the distance, barely rising above the crowded\nmidcity.  Glass and steel amid crumbling concrete uplifted a marble\ntile ceiling dotted with indistinct figures.  Easy bet, but the return\nping gave him confirmation.  Workers for sure.\n\nAmong them, tall figure had something large strapped to its back.\n\nAs he neared, N dove to fly under the roof's edge.  He landed lightly\non a top floor railing.  As he climbed, he heard the voices.\n\n\"Ain't gonna find her shacked down nowhere.  Suzan's gang doesn't hold\nterritory --- whole point is to avoid you monsters.\"\n\nHe was clambering over the top as the reply came, so the voice didn't\nreveal what his eyes couldn't already see.\n\n\"I need you to track her, or--- *I'll just kill you.* Hi, N~\" V said.\nTaller than the workers, wings outstretched behind her.  She was\nwell-fed enough (N had made sure of it) to stay warm & clear, so she\nmust've kept her emissions shielded so as not to spook the workers?\n\nN waved.  With one hand on her hip, the other picking her teeth, V\nleaned with careless confidence.  Moonlight caught the curves of her\nbare chassis, wet with beads of water.  N lifted his eyes back up to\nher face, and briefly wondered if she wasn't happy to see him, but\nthen she smiled quite broadly.\n\nThe white-haired girl stole his focus, but they had company.\n\nSix workers stood near open double doors leading downstairs.  They\nheld hole-riddled umbrellas and mud-streaked raincoats.  *Oh, workers\ncan't heal water damage, can they?*\n\nAs he finished scanning, N almost missed a detail --- cords wrapped\naround the left leg of each worker.\n\n[What's all this, V?]{.adq} N broadcast with a faint growl.  N\napproached, feet clanking on the stone roof.  The workers all\nflinched, trembling hands turning weapons toward him.  Pistols,\nrifles, and more, but N didn't mind.\n\n[Oh, you know me, N.  Love to play with my prey~]{.adq} She\nsynthesized a laugh.  Like a cute bell playing out of key.\n\nEven as she spoke, hands were switching to guns and a bullet already\nbloomed from out the nearest drone's head, a black stem of oil behind\nit.\n\nV blew smoke from the barrel and winked at N.  \"I've got them all\nlined up for you.  We can gut them all and call it a dinner date~ Or\nan 'I'm sorry for giving our piece of shit boss a well deserved slap\nto the face' present.\"\n\nThe oil focused N's dithering mind.  He was hot, and the balm for it\nwas fragrant in the air.\n\nBut as he started into motion, the drones were shouting and *flying\nbackward*.\n\n\"I knew this was a trap, peace offering or not!\" \"Can't trust a murder\ndrone.\"  \"Reel us back Johnny!\"\n\nEven before N started moving, the cord tied to their legs went taut.\nIt was fast, and force *yanked* the throng into the double doors.\n\n*...Did they have a mechanism ready to pull them to safety?  Why?*\n\nThe corpse skidded across the snow-slick ground, while the\nstill-online struggled for balance.  One of them lost it --- they\nveered off course, their foot slipping out of the loop, and they were\ncareening off the edge of the ten story building.\n\nThe doors shut.  The *wooden* doors shut.  Well, that'd buy a few\nseconds.\n\n\"They've got that annoying magic forcefield thing set up,\" V announced\nfrom behind him.  \"Dunno where they got it.  Or the weapons, for that\nmatter.\"\n\nWhen N reached the door and struck with claws, they sank in half an\ninch.  Then the familiar glow repelled him.  She was right, of course.\n\"Biscuits,\" he swore.  Turning back around, he started, \"So, what were\nyou --- V?  Where are you going?\"\n\nThe other drone stalked off toward the edge.  \"The wires only cover\nthe top floor.  If we come up through the staircase, there's a hole in\nthe security.\"\n\nN nodded with an [Acknowledged!]{.adq}, not questioning how V had\nfigured all that out.  It'd happened often enough --- a basic insight\nobvious to everyone else, and asking why left them baffled how he\nmissed it.  Was he stupid?\n\nShe dived first, then he followed.  V flipped through the air, landing\nwith her bomber jacket fluttering around her.  She alighted on a ninth\nfloor balcony long enough to launch into a twisting lunge forward.\nGlass shattered around her.\n\nThen the glass crunched under N's feet.  He didn't see V in the room,\nbut a door had been pulled off its hinges.  Then, in the hallway, she\nclung to the ceiling and crawled forward upside down.\n\nTurn the corner, and V fired a rocket forward, blowing off the\nstairwell's door.  [Ready, N?]{.adq}\n\nN swallowed, closed his doubtful eyes.  He was.\n\n[Prey! Hunt! Devour!]{.adq}\n\n`><` Blink, and a worker drone had been torn in half by bladed wings.\nBut his wings would take up too much space in the confined condo\ninterior, and he was already folding them away.\n\nHe glanced to V, holding a gun to a drone's head pinned by blades, and\nshe blew it off.\n\nTogether, they tore down the walls.  Behind them they could feel a\ndozen more prey, circuits firing wild fear.\n\n`><` Blink, he'd driven an umbrella through a chest hard enough to\ncrack open the core.  Blue tears flood a screen before it flashes red.\nHe stood across the room; drone had been slammed against a window.\nCracked, but the spiderweb of ward-wires held it glowing together.\n\nHe scanned around, and found V in the air --- unable to maneuver ---\nas a drone poked up from behind a counter to burst fire at her.  She\nbatted aside the bullets with two swipes of her blade-arms.  She\ncaught him watching, and grinned wide.  [Quit worrying.]{.adq}\n\n`><` Blink, and V had a worker pinned to the ground right in front of\nhim.  Abdomen sliced open, V was pulling out the wires.  Twisted them\nbetween claw-blades.  The pitch varied as the pain piled on, and\n*kept* varying, and V was humming --- was she trying to play them like\nan instrument?\n\nN found his voice.  \"V, I thought we weren't doing the evil torture\nstuff anymore?\"\n\n\"Oh.  Right.  Well, y'know, old habits.\"  Her nanite stinger pricked\nthe drone's head.  It smoked.  [Sorry?]{.adq}\n\nN's face softened, and he looked away.  The torture was... oddly\nreassuring.  Grounding, rather.  It *was* her habit.  This was still\nV, and she did like playing with her prey.  That was all this was.\n\n[Acknowledged!]{.adq}\n\n`><` Blink, and rubble fell from the ceiling around him.  Had a\n~~toaster~~ worker tried to collapse the ceiling on him?  A drone flew\ntoward him now.  Ah, right, it had ran away, but a grenade thrown in\nfront of his fleeing prey knocked them back.  Face-first on the ground\nnow, falling masonry shattered against their lower back.\nN's reinforced frame had held fine under the weight, but theirs\ncracked wide open.\n\nThey were screaming.  Then they were quiet.\n\n`><` Blink, and a worker hid under a bed.  It wasn't dead.  Why did N\nopen his eyes, then?  He should still be in hunting flow, instincts\ndriving him unselfconsciously.  He didn't need to reorient, and he\nwasn't making sure V was safe, so what doubt had held him back?\n\nNo, not a doubt.  A thought lingered in his cache, almost a message.\n\n*Answers.*\n\nRight.  He trusted V, he did, but he also wanted to be sure.\nWhat *was* up with these workers?\n\nSo N crouched down.  The worker cowered back.  That whimper would've\ngiven them away if N hadn't already seen them, but that was okay.\nMaybe he didn't need to kill this one?  J talked about trade, maybe he\ncould do that.\n\nHis stinger was already reaching under the bed, and a yelp announced\nwhen it found its target.  N dragged the worker out, tail-knife\nstabbing deeper.  He tried not to squeeze acid out, but some of it\nstill leaked.  Couldn't help that.\n\n\"Sorry, little buddy.  Didn't mean to melt you.  I can make it better,\nbut can we talk a little?  I have some questions.\"\n\n\"N-no.  Can't trust murder drones, never again.\"  Green eyes searched\naround the room.  There was a human skeleton, dressers stripped bare.\nWall-posters with blushing drones wearing bunny ears and leotards.\nNothing to use, nothing in reach.\n\n\"What do you mean 'again'?\"\n\nThe worker drone scampered back, so N reached out to put a hand on\ntheir shoulder.\n\n\"Easy there.  I don't want to hurt you.\"\n\nEyes focused on that hand, so N pulled it back, and held both\nhands up.\n\nN kept his voice steady, speaking slowly.  \"I don't know what V was\ndoing before I got here.  I think I...  might have messed everything\nup again?\"\n\nThe drone opened their mouth.  Then another opening: **bang!**\n\nBehind him, V blew smoke from the barrel of a gun.  \"Aaand that's the\nlast one.  Good hunting, N.\"\n\n\"V!\" He stared at her.  That lopsided smile, lips black like lipstick,\nthose lemon-colored eyes.  His core used to flutter --- he once would\nkill (did kill) to see her glance at him like that.  But his core\nthundered now.  What was he feeling?\n\nHer other hand had lifted a severed arm, and she'd just started\nsucking on it.  He kept staring.  Spitting it out, she asked, \"What?\"\n\n\"Are you hiding something?\"\n\n\"Pff.  What makes you think that?\" She went back to sucking the arm\nfor a moment, but crossed her arms under N's pensive stare.  He was\npensive, right?  His brows were narrowed thoughtfully, his frown was\nuncertain.\n\n\"V...\"\n\n\"What's this about?  Can't I mess with some toasters in my free time?\nOr did J tell you to keep tabs on me?  That's what this is, isn't it?\nShe made you a narc?\"  Her head jerked back around, eyes narrowing to\nsharp points.  The expression looked just like N's, but he didn't\nthink V was pensive right now.\n\nHe said, \"This isn't about J.\"\n\n\"It's *all* been about J since the fucking church.\"  She threw down\nthe arm.  \"Whatever.  Enjoy the meal I got you.\"\n\nV stalked out of the room.  N glanced at the drone she'd just shot,\nsighed, then followed after her.\n\nN walked back through the trashed condominium, a battleground littered\nwith spent casing and the corpses each bought.  An audience watching\nwith eleven forever-rapt `Fatal Error`s.\n\nLeaning down, he picked up a severed head.  The mouth open in twisted\nsurprise.  He frowned, his core shuddered, and it slipped out of his\ngrasp.  Instead of a head, he went for a leg, cut off in a way that\nleft pieces of the abdomen attached.  He carried it with him as he\nadvanced.\n\nPast shattered glass doors --- the ward-wires had been cut down --- V\nleaned against the railing and stared out at the city.  She drew fists\ntogether, the railing's metal bending in her grasp.\n\n[Are you alright, V?]{.adq} N asked softly.  [Should have asked that\nfirst, sorry.  Here.  Prey-prize?]{.adq} He offered her the leg.\n\n\"Do you think it would have worked?\" V hadn't turned back.\n\n\"What?\"\n\n\"Killed me, I mean.  Doll's plan.  Think it was any good?  Well, had\nto be a crap plan seeing how it turned out.  But... if *you* weren't\nthere, would she have got me?\"\n\n\"I don't know.  What's this about?  I'm kinda *really* tired of having\nno idea what people are saying or doing.\"  Light steps brought N onto\nthe balcony fully.\n\nV winced.  She turned searching eyes to him.  \"Isn't it obvious, N?  I\nstill want a mutiny.\"\n\n\"I don't want to hurt J.  Even if she...\"\n\n\"Fine.  I won't make you fight her.\"  V noticed the worker drone leg\nhe offered then, and took hold it.\n\nN didn't let go of the leg.  \"I don't want *you* to fight her either.\nCan you promise me that, V?  We're a team.\"\n\n\"You're a such a softie.\"  V's voice wavered, like she couldn't decide\nto speak it as a hissing insult or a fond whisper.  She glanced back\nat the crumbling city ruins.  \"What if we just... left?  No J, no\nquotas, just you and me.  We'd only kill what we need to survive...\"\nV trailed off as she glanced back, and only needed to see the look on\nN's face.  She sighed.\n\n\"You didn't answer.  Please?  You don't have to do everything J says.\nShe's... I get it, I do.  But can you promise not to start more\nfights?  Can you try, for me?\"\n\n\"*Promise*,\" V muttered.  \"Would you believe me if I did?\"\n\n\"Of course.  I trust you.\"  N let go of the leg, finally letting V\ntake it.\n\nV laughed.  \"You hardly even know me.\"\n\nMaybe... he was definitely out of his depth.  But he'd seen enough to\nget a sense for what she cared about, hadn't he?  If she was going to\nlie, wouldn't she have just done it?\n\n\"There's always time to fix that,\" he said.  Then his eyes widened.\n*Later, not right now,* he thought, but it felt lame to say.\n\n\"And always time to mess it all up,\" V muttered.  She lifted the leg,\nand drank oil.\n\nN banged a fist lightly against his head.  \"Biscuits, I'm sorry, but I\nshould probably get back to J's mission soon.  She's counting on me.\nI kind of wasn't supposed to be here at all?\" N laughed, scratched the\nback of his head.\n\n\"J's got *you* hunting solo?\" Was that concern in her voice?\n\nHe spoke reassurance.  \"Oh no, this isn't a combat mission.\"\n\nBut that only made her face tighten deeper with reservation.  \"So\nyou're leaving me just to go do J's busy work?  *That's* what\nimportant to you right now?\" The leg-tubing cracked as she squeezed\nit.\n\nN flinched.  Was it important?  He had already started stepping past\nthe lines of his orders.  Following the rules was cool, but he'd even\ngotten *J* to agree some things were more important.  \"I can stay here\nif you want?\"\n\n\"Nah, go ahead.  I won't keep you.  Go be a good little drone~\" She\nthrew the leg off the balcony.\n\n\"If that's what you want, V.  Alright,\" he said.  He didn't feel\nalright, and that probably crept into his tone.  \"Unless, you could\ncome with me?\"\n\n\"I should clean up here.  Gotta all the serial numbers together for\n*J*, you know.\"\n\n\"I don't care about that.  And I think you don't either.\"\n\n\"Sure.  But I think one of the drones fell off the roof when the\nfighting started.  I wanna see where it landed.  See if it's alive.\"\n\n\"If it is, will you kill it?\"\n\n\"Um, yeah?\"\n\nN frowned.\n\nSeeing this, V said, \"Oh, no, don't worry, I won't.\"\n\nN frowned deeper.  \"Why not?\"\n\n\"Are you really gonna be upset with both answers?  What am I supposed\nto do?  What am I being questioned for?\"\n\n\"I just wanna know what you were doing here and why.  What were the\ndrones talking about, what it was they thought *you* were doing when\nyou weren't attacking them.  I... I just don't get it.\"\n\n\"I... like playing with my food, remember?\"\n\nN forced a slow nod.  \"Yeah, I remember.  So... did you have fun?\"\n\n\"Haha.  No,\" she said.  \"No, this sucks.\"\n\n\"Yeah,\" he replied.  \"It really does.\"  N turned around, looking into\nthe room of dead workers.  \"Should I go?  Leave you to do...  whatever\nyou want with the last drone?  Will you be here, when I come back?\"\n\n\"...What, do you think I had other plans?\" She glanced at the horizon.\n\n*I don't know anymore*.  N said nothing.\n\nV shrugged.  She'd turned back fully to regard the city ruins, but her\ninfrared optic blinked, and there was only one thing to scan.  She\nsaid, \"Drink some more oil before you go.  You're still a bit hot,\naren't you?\"\n\n\"Yeah.  Thanks, I think.  But do you think you can bring some of these\nback to the spire?  Since you don't have other plans?\"\n\n\"I don't want to go anywhere near the spire right now.  Think I'll\njust keep these to myself.  Or it could be our own private stash.\nWould you like that?\"\n\n\"I'd like it more if we brought them back.  Our rations are a bit low.\nEspecially after J took some to give to Uzi.\"\n\nV froze.  \"Excuse me?  She's feeding oil to the dead toaster?\"\n\n\"...Is that a problem?\"\n\nV bit her lip.  She was quiet.  Very quiet, and N thought she wouldn't\nanswer, like usual, but she eventually scoffed and said, \"J's just\nbeing stupid.  She's --- wasting oil, and you're not even mad at her!\"\nV shook her head, and when she looked back, her lemon-colored eyes\nstared into N with a hard look.  \"Stay away from the spire.  For me,\ncan you do that?\"\n\n\"Why?\"\n\n\"Would I sound crazy if I said I had a bad feeling?\"\n\n\"I'd never call you crazy, V.  But... would you sound so confident, if\nit was just a feeling?  Why? Really, *why?* If you want me to know you\nbetter, you've got to tell me! You can trust *me*, can't you?\"\n\nThe railing snapped between V's hands.  She dropped the pieces with\ntwo clangs, then climbed.  Pegs balanced on either side of the break\nin the railing.  Her back opened, her wings moments away from slicing\nout, and N stepped closer.  He went to the edge of the railing,\nblocking her from spreading her wings.  At least, without cutting him.\nBut she wouldn't.\n\nV growled, and the angle of her brows made him doubt it.  \"You won't\nleave with me.  Even after everything, that stupid hope of J 'getting\nbetter' will keep you around forever, won't it?  No matter what she\ndoes, or what she says.\"\n\n(He thought about their conversation, before that first, brief cuddle.\nIt felt so far away.  Everything she'd said then... didn't she mean\nany of it?)\n\nHe said, \"Would heroes just... run away from everything?\"\n\nTeetering over the narrow railing, before her balance went V hopped\nback down.  She crossed her arms and said, \"Did you think *J* is the\nhero of this story?\"\n\n\"I don't know.  I really don't.  But J is trying to figure out the\ntruth.  J is *doing* something.\"\n\n\"If I leave, you'd stay.  You'd rather *feel useful* than---\"\n\n\"V, please.  Don't... don't make me chose.  I hate these decisions.\nWhy can't I have both?  Why can't you stay?\"\n\nV shook her head.  \"I just wanted to know where we stand.  Figures.\"\nShe blew a lock of her hair.\n\nN reached out a hand, but V stepped back.  Another step, and she'd be\npast broken railing with no where to stand.\n\n\"But we aren't standing still,\" he pleaded.  \"We were getting closer!\nI thought... I was helping.\"  He was holding his hand out still, but\nit had to falter sooner or later.\n\n\"Ha.  I thought so too.\"  V shook her head.  \"No, there's no saving\nme.\"\n\n\"V, you know that's not...\"  His words strangled into a sigh or growl\nor indecipherable noise of *just not knowing the answer* and\neverything was falling apart because of it.  \"Would you stop me?\"\n\nV stared at him.  His arms were wide, welcoming, she recognized the\nreference in his words.  And she said, \"Yeah.  I would.\"\n\nN's head fell.  His arms fell.  His whole body sagged.  What was left\nto hold him up anymore?\n\nHis core thundered.  His brows narrowed and his lips frowned.  But he\nwasn't pensive.  This feeling... he was... *angry*.\n\nV was speaking.  He almost didn't hear her.  He almost didn't want to\nhear her, but he did.\n\n\"Would you believe me if I said I never wanted to hurt you?  All along\nI thought...\"  Sigh.  \"Nevermind.  If you hate having to make these\ndecisions...  Ha.  Wait till you feel what it's like having made\nthem.\"  V turned her back and perched on the railing one last time.\n\n\"V... wait.  Darn it, please wait.\"\n\nShe didn't wait.  By the time he'd found the will to even want her to\nstay, she was jumping.\n\nHer wings didn't open until she was already falling.\n\nBut N could fly too.  He leaped, he dived, and chased after V as she\ncircled tight, as if to put the condo tower between the two of them.\n\n[I --- still don't want to say goodbye to you! I --- can't.]{.adq}\n\n[This isn't goodbye yet.  Keep looking for the truth, or whatever it\nis that's oh so important.  Just, when you find out... don't judge me.\nAt the end of the day, only tried to do what's best for you.  Even\nif...]{.adq}\n\nV left, last words unheard or unspoken.  Wind blew N's white locks in\nfront of his face.  He didn't sigh.  He didn't even breathe.\n\nHe felt cold.\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-02-04",
      "title": "12: Just Another Body",
      "summary": "<p>J had made schedules and kept minutes for enough meetings. She knew management, she had flowcharts, and she’d applied that skillset to team organization. The conclusion of a mission, certainly one so… eventful, warranted an analysis, a retrospective, a breakdown.</p>\n<p>A postmortem.</p>\n<p>Metaphorically speaking, of course. And yet J still hesitated. The routines were primed — now back at the spire, all threats eliminated, the only thing the mission required was a debrief and report written. J loved writing reports.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"Just Another Body\"\ndate: 2024-02-04\n---\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ had made schedules and kept minutes for enough meetings.  She knew\nmanagement, she had flowcharts, and she'd applied that skillset to\nteam organization.  The conclusion of a mission, certainly one so...\neventful, warranted an analysis, a retrospective, a breakdown.\n\nA postmortem.\n\nMetaphorically speaking, of course.  And yet J still hesitated.\nThe routines were primed --- now back at the spire, all threats\neliminated, the only thing the mission required was a debrief and\nreport written.  J loved writing reports.\n\nHer pen scratched letters on a piece of notebook paper, and then\ncrossed them out and started again.\n\n*And yet*.  What would J write?  She had the thought enough times.  J\ncould let it sit unamended in her internal monologue, she could even\nadmit it to N: she ~~liked~~ valued her Uzi.  But could she log that\nin her filing cabinet beside years of reports meticulously detailing\nher impeccable disassembly track record?\n\nNo one read her reports --- except J herself.  And J could already\nanalyze the prospective drafts her language model had autocompleted.\nWell-worn excuses had carried her this far, after all.\n\nHer Uzi was an asset, a trade-off that meant more dead workers.  The\nmission was suspect, the relay compromised, their directives\n(*potentially*) lacking the authority of the company.  And besides it\nall, J was a drone with emotional needs --- was *one worker* really so\nbig a deal, if it made her feel less lonely?  N had his rocks, V her\nballoon animals.  J could have a pet.\n\nRephrased in the objective language of her reports, parsed with\ndispassionate logic, the arguments fell apart.  J couldn't convince\nherself, not from first principles.  It only computed with a new axiom\namended --- with the admission that *she* had changed.  That V was\n*right*.\n\n*\"If last week you'd seen what you're doing now, you'd be horrified.\"*\n\n[Maybe it was better if AbsoluteSolver had created them --- then J had\nsimply always been corrupted.]{.quiet}\n\nJ kept her room spotless, but the walls were repurposed from worker\nscrap.  She yanked out an old drone's hand, ready to channel the anger\nand anguish these thoughts would provoke into the satisfying *crunch*\nof breaking something.  But the only thing that came out of her next\nwas a sigh.\n\n*\"I still want you to rebel and stuff, y'know.\"*\n\nThere came an upward tug on her lips, but she didn't let *that* out.\nUzi would be amused at her inner contradictions --- no, she would be\n*smug*.  She'd flash some obnoxious smirk that'd need to be corrected\nwith a threat ~~or a tease~~.\n\nBetter to have something to correct than this blank state of\ndisrepair.  (J's pen had kept moving, and she was startled to see that\nshe'd drawn Uzi on her page, purple brows knit in determination.)\n\nJ mirrored that expression.  She *would* have something to correct ---\nsoon.  *That* was why she couldn't do a postmortem.  The mission\nwasn't over, Uzi wasn't dead, and J's work wasn't done.\n\nJ's eyes flicked up to the blank-faced drone, and her thoughts ground\nto a halt.\n\n*What am I doing?  What is the plan?  Where do I start?*\n\nIf the goal was Uzi's revival, she had five data points to build a\nmodel with: J and N had neutralized four 'Worker Defense Force'\ndrones, and Doll received a 9mm SIGTERM to the back of the head.\n\nDoll's situation had the simplest explanation.  That drone had already\nrepeatedly executed the Solver program.  J retained some doubts of\nUzi's shared program theory --- but Doll closing her bullet wound had\nlooked so much like V's body pulling itself back together.\n\nThough simplest to explain, it seemed least useful --- what could she\nconclude?  That any drone running AbsoluteSolver could execute it to\nreturn to life?\n\nBut had Uzi ever executed that code?  *Something* unusual dwelled in\nher programming --- she cracked a mirror, broke out of her\nhibernation, and N claimed he'd seen the glyph on her screen.  (Why\nhadn't J pressed him for details?)  But Doll had revived herself in\n*minutes*.  For her Uzi, it had already been days.\n\nNext, consider the WDF grunts.  Doll did *something* to them.  Patched\ntheir systems with Solver code?  In battle, Uzi had seen the schemer\n'cast' to no apparent effect during the battle.  (Her ally's\nterminology was deeply unserious.  This wasn't magic.  Instead of\n'casting', J would call it...  executing corrupted solver functions.\nNo, if Uzi needed to... a better term: anomalous solver functions.)\n\nAnyway, she thought Doll had manually 'activated' the grunts' revival.\nCould J 'activate' Uzi's revival?  Except, under this hypothesis, that\nwould require an anomalous solver function J had no means of\nexecuting.\n\nIf J needed to get Doll's help for this... could she?\n\nWhat incentive would the scheming toaster need?  Given her implied\ngoals...\n\n...this line of thought had gotten off-track.  Back up.  J in fact had\nmore data points to work with, she realized.  Second hand, granted.\nN'd recounted his disassembly of a drone executing solver functions,\neven retaining some functionality after V's headshot.  In that\n*unauthorized* factory mission.\n\nGiven the presence of the teleporting roach, that drone must've\nenjoyed the same patch as the grunts.  With more time to grow familiar\nwith the functions, but strictly less than Doll... could that explain\nits incomplete revival?  But the WDF grunts underwent complete revival\n--- was this evidence of Doll's manual intervention, or proof J didn't\nhave all the information?\n\nJ slapped her head.  She missed something *big*.  So much had happened\nthat she overlooked how this mess all began --- the corpse under\nthe church.\n\nWith a command the memory is reconstructed, interpolated and fuzzy.\n\n::: {.boxed .italics}\nA door lay at the end [of the hall.]{.blur} J and V\nglanced at each other, [then took the last steps forward, pushing open\nthe final door.]{.blur}\n\n[The room overflowed with worker]{.blur} drone corpses.  [Or rather,\nworker drone parts.  Piled to the ceiling.  No screen showed an\n[error]{.pain .quiet} state; each one was rendered nonfunctional with\ndamaged and discarded parts.  Up]{.blur}on the floor, a centimeter\nthick layer of oil [sat, cold and thick.]{.blur}\n\n[One thing existed in the room, besides plastic and metal.  A slab of\nstone rising from the center of the floor, [symbols]{.pain .quiet}\netched into it, and spikes ringing it ---]{.blur} the only word that\ncame to mind was ***altar***.\n\nA drone lay on it, [the only one not in a state of abject disrepair,\nthough]{.blur} the chassis's front was left popped open.  [Inside, the\nwiring and motors that belonged in]{.blur} a worker drone's internals\nmingled with blood and organic sacs.\n\n[After a moment paused and staring]{.blur}, J tapped the drone.\n\nThe screen flickered on.  A [symbol]{.uzi-from-beyond} appeared,\n[faintly, barely discernible past visual artifacts and\nglitches.]{.blur} A hexagon with three prongs[, the same symbol that\nhad]{.blur} transfixed V [in the tower.]{.blur}\n\n[V froze.]{.pain} \n:::\n\nJ paused on that last frame, reading between the pixels on her\nsquadmate's face as if they were ledger lines concealing fraud.  *V\nknew something*.  Everything she saw that day and today only\nreinforced that.  J was sure down to her wiring --- and the current\nthat flowed in those wires was *rage*.\n\n(This time, she snapped the disassembled hand into tiny fragments\nbetween her clenched fingers.)\n\nOne conversation with V would dispel this mystery.  Did *she* know why\ndrones came back to life --- did she know *how?*\n\n`Error code 13: Permission denied`\n\nBut J had no means of *persuading* her.  Their fight had proved that.\n\nJ didn't need her for this, though.  The most effective drone was of\ncourse the cleverest.\n\nShe compiled and sorted the data.\n\n  Instance           Initiation    Biology        Result\n  ------------------ ------------- -------------- --------------------\n  Doll               autonomous    bloodless(?)   complete revival\n  WDF Grunts         assisted(?)   bloody         complete revival\n  Factory Cultist    autonomous    bloodless(?)   incomplete revival\n  Church Sacrifice   assisted(?)   bloody         incomplete revival\n\nEven with the margins for error, the picture that emerged drew\nworry-lines under J's eyes.\n\nHer inference computed one plausible line that could connect all these\ndata points.\n\nHypothesis: Operating AbsoluteSolver required skill or experience ---\nand revival simply came down to user ability.\n\nOf them, Doll had the most potent ability, granting her the cleanest\nrevival.  The WDF grunts had the weakest ability, but Doll could shore\nthis up with her own ability.  The factory cultist had intermediate\nability and with no assistance from Doll, granting them a\nmiddling revival.\n\nDid that mean her Uzi was doomed?  Dead ~~because of J~~ because her\n~~corrupt~~ anomalous powers didn't come online soon enough?\n\nJ had to keep thinking.\n\nThe effortless slaughter proved no one in the church had access to\nsolver functions.  Meaning the corpse in the catacombs resulted from\nthe application of the least skill J had observed.  It could've been\ndown there for months.\n\nAnd yet, that J and V witnessed anything at all down there --- a most\npathetic reaction to stimuli --- gave J steadfast hope.  That\nsacrifice on the altar, more than anything else, had to be her working\nmodel for how to bring Uzi back.\n\nDoll, the grunts, and the cultist were back online within minutes.\nBut Uzi had already gone cold.  The others all had access to a drone\ncapable of executing anomalous functions.  For better or worse, J\ncould not.\n\nJ knew little for sure, but this last lead was the most promising by\nfar.  If only the church still stood.  Anything she could study had\ngone up in flames.\n\nA sound in the office --- J realized it was her own impotent groaning\nand grinding.  After she recovered, she was going to *rip V apart*.\nWrench the arms off before they transform, gouge out the row of\noptics, slice off the tail.  Should J kick in the visor, or leave it\nand watch the expression contort?\n\nIf nothing else, J knew exactly how much damage she could do and still\nhave a drone get up from it --- eventually.\n\n(Maybe her Uzi would enjoy watching J do it.  That'd be nice.)\n\nBefore any of that, though, J needed her morsel back.  Focus.  What\nhad she seen in the catacombs?  What part of it had been necessary?\nCertainly the altar had to be toaster nonsense.  This wasn't magic.\n\nShe'd seen inside the sacrifice, and seen how the organic forms\ntwisted and twitched around the struts.  All that offered was a\ncorrelation --- did biological influence cause revival, or did drones\nalways come back bleeding?  If she cut open Doll, would she find more\nthan mere machinery in her?\n\nIf she cut open Uzi, what would J see?  Did she want to find out?  It\nwas data, but if it *wasn't* there, what should J do about that?\n\nA thought niggled.  A sense of banished familiarity.  She'd slashed a\ndrone's thoracic cavity before.  When?  Right.  The two\ndiscontinuities in her memory: twice she opened V's chest, and forgot\nwhat she saw within.\n\nThe Solver hid what was inside disassembly drones from her.  What was\nso dangerous to know?  If disassemblers looked the same inside as\nthose revived --- well, that proved Uzi right, didn't it?  They were\njust a polished façade over the same grotesque reality.\n\nJ *couldn't* cut open Uzi --- `Error code 3: No such process` --- but\nthe worker was broken, injured.  Her chassis had been split open and\nbarely held together.  So J reached out, slipped a finger around a\ncracked bit of plastic, and pulled.\n\nThe stench hit first.  Putrefaction provoked no particular aversion in\na robot, though a sense of warning flickered dimly through her system,\nas if in atavistic urge to tell a human.\n\nFlesh snaked through Uzi, pale and rigid.  Muscles latched onto metal\nwalls.  Thin white threads of nerves circled around wiring.  Sacs and\norgans --- was that half a lung there, deflated flat?  An inverted\nliver?  A heart with four chambers dislocated and splayed out?\nMembranes encased struts, and veins spiderwebbed the interior like\ncracks in shattered glass.  A sheen of mucus glimmered throughout it\nall.\n\nIt was inherited and transmitted.  It had hosts.  It could, Uzi hoped,\nbe cured.  The implication had swam around them, latent in their\nlanguage, but when J saw the forms nestled like parasites, she\nunderstood: it was a *disease*.\n\nJ wanted to scrape it all out, bathe it in bleach and comb every\nsurface with coarse fibers.  It was *unclean* and this mess certainly\n*had* to be interfering with proper operation.  But J reigned in the\nimpulse; she didn't know what all of this biology *did*.\n\nBut that thought stuck with her.  Flesh for revival, or flesh from\nrevival?  She still didn't know.  The Solver grew these organs, that\nmuch was clear.\n\nBut why?  What did they *do?*\n\nThe thought circled around and around with no answer.  What function\ncould frail biology serve that steel and silicon didn't exceed?\nThe Solver was just a *program*.\n\nJ's eyes darted around the cavity.  The picture never parsed; she\nnever divined a purpose.  What food would that liver ever process?\nWhy oxygenate and pump superfluous blood?  What force would those\nmuscles exert, when they had perfectly functional servos and\nhydraulics?  Those nerves would be slower than their wiring, those\nmembranes less protective than meshes and grilles, the mucus a poor\nsubstitute for cleaning fluid.\n\nIt was all so *pointless.* The Solver could easily, directly regrow\ndrones' mechanical parts.  So again, why?  Was the biology simply\nresidue from its operation?\n\nHer knowledge database had anatomy diagrams --- so she could identify\nthe human proportions present.  That more than anything, made J scowl.\n\nUzi would wake up in a body filled with human detritus, and she would\n*hate* it.\n\nAnd J couldn't even tell her it was necessary.  One last rotation of\nthe data offered the minimum entropy posterior.  A simple answer: it\nwas not a means, but an end.  Was that worse?\n\n*A nightmare simply for the sake of aesthetic.*\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ placed the fragments of casing back to cover Uzi's internals.\nNo answers there, only horror and more questions.\n\nWhat *else* had she seen in the catacomb --- anything useful?\n\nOh.  *The oil.* Of course! If anomalous solver functions had anything\nin common with special disassembly functions, they consumed oil.\nAnd Uzi had been completely drained.\n\nWhich meant...\n\n*If I spend any more time feeding this drone you'd think I'm\nher maid.*\n\nJ crossed her arms and stood up with a huff.  Still, she had to do\nsomething.  Pen and clipboard still in hand, J walked to her office's\ncurtain, sparing one last glance at Uzi.\n\nDid the spire have oil to spare?  Nothing'd been left when J departed\ntwo days ago, nothing save the recently shut down WDF grunts.  (*Hm,\ncould I learn any more from another autopsy?*) But J had been\nadministered oil while she slept, and V had clearly been drinking\nquite well.  Had N retrieved the drones from the factory in the\ninterim?\n\nMaybe they'd even taken initiative to hunt --- that'd be a pleasant\nsurprise.  J rolled her eyes as she walked.\n\nOn first waking, she'd smelled petrichor.  A storm fell while she\nslept --- strong enough that J heard the light plinks of freezing rain\neven now as she descended the spiral ramp.  Water splashed faintly\nsomewhere in the vast main chamber --- a leak?  She'd need to find it\nand order someone to fix it.  Not now, though.  More important matters\npulled her.\n\nPathfinding took her to the mess pit while conscious threads idled and\nworried.  If she could fly, it would take seconds.  Instead, she had\nto cross half the spire.  She passed by the landing pod.\n\nN perched up there, staring off.  Giving the archway the same look\nhe'd given the curtain to her office.\n\nJ had questions to ask the golden-eyed boy, but that conversation was\nenough of him for one day.  Maybe two.\n\nThe mess pit was a welcome massacre.  The factory hadn't been a\ncolony, but compared to the scavenging gangs and poorly-secured\nbunkers, the past year had been defined by marginal hauls.  Quite the\nwindfall, to take down the cult and then factory back to back --- but\nit wasn't a coincidence, was it?  What was coming next?\n\nJ plucked bodies as she mused.  Without function-augmented strength,\nher servos trembled under the weight of four workers.  She was\nstooping to put one back when *crack*.\n\nIf J jolted, it was the weight making her tremble.  \"Spry as ever, eh,\nN?\" she ground out.\n\nHe frowned.  \"Is something wrong with your systems?  You said you were\nfine, but---\"\n\n*So obvious even he can notice, then*.  \"I meant what I said.\"\n\n\"Ah... okay.\"  He scratched behind his head, but he had sense enough\nnot to push it.  A glance at the three (well, two and half) bodies\nteetering in J's grasp.  \"Are you gonna eat all of those?\"\n\nJ took a step forward checking how the load balanced.  \"Don't worry\nabout it,\" she said.\n\n\"Is this related to how you're gonna bring Uzi back?\"\n\n\"Where's synergistic liability?\" J asked, trying another step.  She\nhadn't bothered looking around, once she saw that forgotten puppy look\non N's face.\n\n\"Right um, right here, captain.\"  A shaky salute.\n\nJ rolled her eyes, though the corpses obscured her face.  \"I've\nreevaluated you as an asset.\"\n\n\"Oh... you mean V.  She left.\"\n\nShe *left?* \"I didn't authorize a solo mission.\"\n\nJ had been joking.  Well, joking-only-serious.  Now she was just\nserious: V needed a leash, didn't she?  They still had a chain from\nhunting that biker gang down south.  Around here somewhere.\n\nBut with her functions still erroring out, she'd need N to restrain V,\nwouldn't she?\n\nN was speaking, ignorant of her plotting.  He said, \"She thought it\nwas best to blow off steam and let you calm down after... what\nhappened.  Do you want me to go after her?\"  N leaned forward, hands\nat his chest.  A mix of hope and reservation lit his eyes.\n\nJ leaned to the side, letting N see her smile, fanged beneath narrowed\neyes.  \"Oh no, leave her.  I devise my worst punishments when I've had\ntime to think, after all.\"  She laughed once.  She had other plans for\nN, anyway.\n\nJ continued forward.  A part of her wondered if she felt thews bending\nwithin her at every new movement.\n\nN winced.  The expression lost none of that chagrin as he added, \"Also\num, she may have said your authority is worthless and I shouldn't\ntrust you?\"\n\n*Worthless?* \"And why would you listen to her?\"  J's argument for V's\nuntrustworthiness would have any reasonable drone properly skeptical.\n\nHis voice was small.  He took a step back, already wary of reprisal.\n\"V... may have made a few good points?\"\n\n*You're just too stupid to see through them.* \"Such as?\"\n\n\"Well, we've murdered thousands of drones, and... we're not going to\nstop, are we?  V said Uzi isn't special, just another body.  It's not\nlike...  You wouldn't bring back every dead drone.  You can't.\"\n\nJ let the corpses obscure the veins animated on her visor.  \"I feel\nlike I'm having a proxy argument with V, and I don't appreciate it.\nNot after the last one.  Are you just going to parrot her words?\"\n\n\"You... asked?\"\n\nJ narrowed her eyes.  \"Fine.  Uzi *is* special, and if she weren't,\nthinking there's anything hypocritical about bringing back just one\ndrone when you can't bring back literally all of them is so\ntransparently fallacious an appeal I'm surprised you fell for it.\"  \nJ paused and shifted to get a look at N.  \"Oh wait, I suppose I'm not\nsurprised at all.  Is that everything?\"  J would have tapped her foot,\nbut, arms full, she wouldn't risk her balance.\n\n\"I guess that makes sense.  But the thing that I'm really worried\nabout...  V said, uh, 'what good is a leader that'll pick a dead\ntoaster over her squad?' But you wouldn't do that, right?  Not that\nI'm questioning your judgment if you did! ...Would you, though?\" N\npeered at her --- no, at the bodies J was taking from the mess pit.\n\nTo give to said 'dead toaster'.\n\nJ sighed.  \"While I've come to place value on Uzi, it doesn't mean I'd\never prioritize her over---\" Then her vocalsynth halted.  *Would* she\nprioritize her favorite prey over a fool she wanted to kill last week?\nOver a brat she wanted to kill right now?\n\nBut what did murderous intent mean in the end --- after all, wanting\nto kill her is how she said hello to Uzi.  ~~And how she'd said\ngoodbye~~.\n\nJ's directives made it clear her mission took precedence over her\nsquadmates, of course.  An easy groove to fall into, even when the\nmission status was currently... she didn't know.\n\nN looked on expectantly, and with no small amount of creeping dread as\nJ remained silent mid-assurance.\n\nUzi, or her squad?\n\nJ made her decision, and set her face into a line.  She finished, \"My\nsquad is important.  I don't *like* any of you, but you're my\nresponsibility.\"  J could hear Uzi's words, twisting into a question:\n*Is your job more important than keeping around anyone to do it with?*\n\n\"Is it, um, responsible to be using oil on a [dead toaster]{.quiet}\nwhen I kind of brought those bodies back for well, the squad to eat?\"\n\nIf J's tone got any cooler, she wouldn't need oil.  \"*Watch it*, N.\nI think you've become entirely too comfortable questioning me.\nDon't think I've forgotten your track record.  Even a stopped clock\ncan be right twice a day.  I'm doing this *for* the squad.\nThat's *all* that needs to be said.\"\n\n\"I'm sorry, J.  Just... everyone's always hiding stuff from me.  It's\nstarting to feel a bit...\"  N had wilted fully by now, turning away\nfrom J and trailing off.  To disengage and stop bothering her.  (As he\nmoved, she couldn't help but imagine what N looked like on the inside.\nDid it writhe?)\n\nIf J had any patience left, she might've softened her face.  She did\nrelent with her voice.  \"Look.  I'll tell you what I'm doing as soon\nas I make it happen.\"  It wouldn't do to reveal ambitions she might\nnever realize; that would just disappoint.\n\nJ wanted this mission *done* already.  She had plans, exciting plans,\nand by the end, it'd mean more paperwork than just writing another\nreport.  But it would be *worth it*.\n\nShe needed Uzi back first.  And after that... but why wait?  \"In\nfact... *you* can help it happen faster, N.\"  `Error code 56: Invalid\nrequest code` \"I'll... need your help, actually.  Can I count on\nthat?\" J knelt to set down the bodies, already anticipating the\ncorrect answer to come.\n\nIt took a moment for N to give it.  Almost long enough for J to snap,\nbut he finally said, \"Sure.  I... like doing anything.\"\n\nJ clapped her hands together.  \"Good.  There's something I need you to\nfly out and grab for me.  But while you're there, start making some\narrangements.  Here, I'll write it down so you don't forget.\"  She'd\nbrought the clipboard with her --- unlike her report, no hesitation\nheld back her quick and neat text serialization.  Instructions\nwritten, she cleanly ripped off the page.\n\nN saluted, but J had already walked off with Uzi's oil.  A slow trudge\n-- N was gone before J even made it back to the ramp.\n\nJ ascended in a lonely spire silent but for the chorus of raindrops.\n\nIn her office, it took many moments more before she worked up the\nnerve to pry open Uzi's chassis again.  But she had to watch the\nworker's core for activity.  See if Uzi's pumps ~~or her flesh~~\nreacted to the infusion of oil.\n\nShe needed to... J recalled the fruits of her deduction.  If revival\ncame down to anomalous solver functions, Uzi could only execute those\ninstructions with electricity in her circuits.  Her core could\ngenerate an emergency charge from oil alone.\n\nTempting as it was to feed Uzi like she'd done twice before, drones\nhad oiltanks designed for technicians to open and refill.  (Usually as\na consequence of malfunction, neglect or some other exception;\nJCJenson generously shipped worker drone models with enough oil to\nlast their entire operational lifetime.)\n\nLittle romance to be found in pouring oil into a open abdomen, but J\npersisted.  J's grip on the dismembered drone trembled.  Unsteady ---\nbut why?  A quick diagnosis suggested a heavy load on her processor,\nbut she wasn't in combat or any tense conflict.\n\nAnother faltering motion.  Was that a shudder from Uzi's core?  J\nsighed.  Given her own unsteadiness, she couldn't be sure.\n\nAs the viscous black liquid descended, J pondered how to track Uzi's\nrecovery besides this agony of blind hopeful waiting, of grasping at\nthe faintest hints of progress.  There were transformation presets,\nbut `Error code 67: Link has been severed`.\n\nExcept... there was one preset she had already summoned.  What\nhappened to it?  Driven by a hunch or vague memory, J pat Uzi down,\nfingers slipping into the pockets of the drone's terribly tattered\njacket.  (J would have to find her something new to wear.  She *did*\nhave suits to spare...)\n\nIf she remembered the continuity right, she'd last seen it just before\nUzi enacted her plan against the Solver --- Uzi had it last.\n\nNot the first pocket she checked, but the second, *there*.  Damp,\ncovered in grime and pocket lint, J retrieved the serial\ndebugging cable.\n\nThe first time, she'd just wanted to invade Uzi's systems, seize what\nshe wanted.\n\nThe second, she'd thought Uzi wanted to sabotage her in turn, except\nit was a tentative connection.\n\nThis time...\n\nAs she expected, her probe found no device to mount, no system to\ntransfer data with.\n\nUzi wasn't there, not yet.\n\nExcept... was that a flicker of electricity?\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nIt was a dark and stormy night, and Uzi Doorman was lost.\n\n\"I gotta say, as far as horror movie setups go, this one is\npretty unimpressive!\"\n\nWake up in a forest at night with no idea how you got there, and deep\nshadows surround you.  Feel the breeze and smell a faint scent of\nblood the rain hasn't yet washed away.  Listen to the disembodied\nvoices of your friends.  (Was N her friend?) Hear the crunch of a\nbranch just paces away.  See the light in the corner of your eye,\nglimpse the face, swear there's something --- some *things* ---\nconstantly moving around you, just out of sight.\n\n\"Let me guess, the monster's going to start laughing oh so creepily\nnext?  How about a distant, spine-chilling scream?  Give me a break.\"\nUzi crossed her arms and started forward.\n\nUzi wasn't one to narrate aloud, but she had an audience --- maybe.\nN had heard her, somehow.  J was there, and who knew who else was\nlistening.  (The other one, V?)\n\nAnd of course, there was whoever this plausibly deniable monster in\nthe dark was.\n\nLast thing she remembered was J being stupid --- as little as that\nnarrowed it down --- and given the circumstances of that stupidity...\nthe optimistic thing to think is maybe J crash-landed somewhere.\n\n*J's uh, not doing great at the moment.*\n\nMaybe she went all Solver and had to rebuild herself from sun-scorched\natoms.  That was possible, right?  They'd gotten close to the spire\nbefore the end.  Too dark to see the distant tower, if it was near ---\nbut she would recognize the city blocks around it, and this wasn't it\nat all.  No leafy trees left in the urban sprawl.\n\nAnd the crash-landing hypothesis didn't explain why Uzi could hear N\nwhen he was clearly nowhere nearby.  Maybe shortwave transmissions?\nBut that wasn't it either.\n\nThunder rumbled above, and it didn't jolt Uzi out of her thoughts.\nBut it kept rumbling, it got *distracting*, and then---\n\nLightning *split the frickin sky open*.  A beam of light, like if the\nsun covered its whole arc in a second.  The world shuddered.  *Uzi*\nshuddered, like a rabbit jumped over her grave or whatever the humans\nsay.  The giant electromagnetic outburst probably twigged some of her\nmotors the wrong way.\n\nShe'd lost contact with N after a big lightning bolt like this, just\nearlier --- *that* one had stunned her for a few seconds.  Or maybe it\nwas more than seconds.\n\nBut for a moment, lightning again lit the world like midday.\n\nAhead, Uzi saw the plain of cracked shells.\n\nAnd she simply blinked.  Was she getting used to seeing corpses\nalready?  *~~I suppose that's pretty helpful, when your girlfriend was\na killer robot.~~ Wait no, J's not my girlfriend, that's---* Ugh, not\nthe time, intrusive thoughts.\n\nBefore her sprawled mounds and piles of broken parts, a whole topology\nof wasted electronics, a digital killing field.  Uzi frowned.  If you\nhad to find something nice to say about the disassemblers' corpse\nspire --- and you didn't *have* to compliment them --- you could say\nthat there was a *point* to it.  The disassembly drones had *built*\nsomething.  At least some order and purpose to it; they lived there.\n\nThis?  Nothing but discarded parts arrayed haphazard and left to rust\nin the rain.  Oil had soaked into the ground enough the dirt was black\n--- no attempt had been made to salvage it.  J had definitely killed\nmore people than Uzi glimpsed around her, but this all just seemed...\na waste.\n\n(Was she making excuses for the ~~disassembly~~ murder drones\nnow?  Ugh.)\n\n\"Huh.  So, I guess these are the stakes?\" Finding out there's corpses\nall around you might be scarier if she didn't have a... well.  Just\nsaying.  J was scarier than this.\n\nBut it was as good a reason as any to keep moving.  Maybe she could\nfind N.\n\nAs Uzi started forward, horizon-distant lighting lit up a silhouette.\nAn ancient house on a hill, all angled roofs and so many packed rooms.\nOrnate windows of faintly discernible candlelight.  Spines hanging\nlike christmas lights.\n\nNowhere else to go, really.  Just gotta cross the no-drone's-land to\nget there.  Uzi's feet splashed in a puddle.  Less than a minute\nlater, behind her, she heard a splash.\n\nYep, it was chase scene time, then.\n\nUzi picked up the pace.  Pivoting into a turn, she veered off between\ntwo sloping piles.  One advantage this dump offered: it was harder for\nany path to *not* be twisty and convoluted.  But the drone leaned\ndeeper into that, deliberately zigging and zagging to break sight\nlines and throw off her maybe-pursuer.\n\nShe held her head high, glancing only to find her path forward.\nStopping to look behind you was an amateur mistake.\n\nAlone, she walked down the muddy path.  Visors flickered and looped\nthrough the stages of electronic disrepair and degeneration.  Easy to\nforget, given the whole helpless prey to robo-vultures thing, but\nworker drones were impressively resilient.\n\nJust their cores, mostly.  Damage could easily leave a drone unable to\nboot into an OS or disrupt critical wiring, somewhere, but the core\npersisted longer than any other component, whirring with enough power\nto light up the display even well after all else grew inoperable.  The\nfallback circuits in the display meant, without an OS override, `Fatal\nError` was the default.\n\nIn a sense, workers didn't shine red when they die --- life meant\nactively suppressing that.  It wasn't *triggered* per se, it didn't\n*indicate* the presence of problems, but kinda of the opposite?  In a\nmind-bendy way Uzi thought might just be her getting confused or\npretentious.\n\nPut simply, most possible configurations would give rise to that\n`Fatal Error`.  Uzi, along with every other drone, lived on a small\nisland of functionality in the black sea of corrupt configurations.\n\nIt all left her feeling a bit fragile.  Defective bots and broken\nstates surrounded her, figuratively and literally, as she walked alone\non that muddy, oil-slicked path.\n\nHer hands flexed and drifted through the absence.  Why did that\n'alone' neuron keep firing?  Uzi was always alone, it was nothing new.\n\n*Not* being alone was new, though.  Uzi had a track record of facing\ndown scary threats, now --- but how many of them had *someone else* be\nthere for?\n\nDid Uzi wish J was here?  Someone she could plot tactics with, who\ncould protect her, who'd hold her...\n\n...who'd *attack* her, threaten *everyone* she's ever known, frickin\n*kill her*.  Who might as well team up with the thing chasing her.\n\nWait.\n\nUzi opted for the amateur mistake, and turned around.  Just wet empty\ndump behind her.  Yellow gleamed from distant shadows, here and there.\nCould be nothing, just more flickering displays --- mere visual noise\nas core discharge fried the circuits.  She'd already passed plenty of\nthat.\n\n\"J?  J, is that you?\"\n\nNo response.  Rain splattered.\n\n\"N?\"\n\nNo response.  Wind blew her hair in front of her face.\n\nShe turned around, started moving again.  But there was one other,\nwasn't there?  Then, \"V?\"\n\nFootsteps, mechanical parts shifting on the ground.  *Close*.\n\n*Alright, time to book it*.  Uzi wasn't scared, but no reason to humor\na creep who wouldn't talk.  It had nothing to do with the scenery.\n\nHer jacket snagged on an exposed strut as she made one turn, forcing a\nstop to pull herself free.  Turn.  Squeeze through a thin passage.\nHop over heads floating in the small lake.  (Here, she saw circles of\noil that didn't mix with the water, and within that circle, a\ndeeper-nested circle of water not mixing with the oil not mixing with\nthe water.  And within--- Right, currently evading a creepy stalker\nthingy.  Get moving, Uzi.)\n\nThere was a *crash* of something hitting a pile and spilling its\ncontents.  Uzi zig-zagged on.  Then a splash of something crossing the\nlake without caring to try the head-hopping thing.\n\nJust ahead, a sound that wasn't wind or rain.  Uzi trudged toward it.\nMounds sloped down into a clearing.\n\nA drone... chained to a tree?  With seven crow-bots plucking out the\nwires.  Black synthetic feathers, eyes glowing within perfect discs.\n\nOne step too close, and the crows all paused, heads cocking eyes\nturning to regard Uzi with a unison stillness.  The teen lifted\nanother foot, and the mechanical birds gave squawks and rattling\nsounds.  *Alright, hint taken*.  So Uzi took a step back.\n\nThen the nearest bird leapt up anyway, diving toward Uzi even as she\nretreated! It perched on her shoulder and *pecked* her.\n\n\"Ah! Getoff me!\"\n\nThe bird pecked lower --- toward the bite that J gave her.\n\n\"Not there, you goth chicken.  That's personal.\"  _Wait, that's a\nweird thing to say about a *wound*._\n\nThen Uzi heard a *cackle* in the distance.  Looked back at---\n\nYellow eyes.  Dripping fangs.  The figure skulked, head poking out\nfrom behind a pile, and just below it, bladed claws hang.\n\nUgh.  *Not* the time to get bogged down in random encounters.\n\nUzi ran.  Not because she was scared, but there was too much going on.\nThe crow-bot remained on her shoulder, thankfully too distracted\ntrying hang on tight to mess with J's ~~gift~~ weird-unfortunately\nnecessary-for-her-ally's-survival-thing.\n\nMore squawk-rattling behind her.  The monster disturbing the crows?\nUzi marched on, turning and twisting and --- it wasn't enough, she\nneeded to check, so she dared look behind her again.  Now, if she was\nbad at this, seeing nothing behind her would put her at ease.  But she\nwas smart enough to do what most don't.\n\nUzi looked up.\n\nYep, it was flying, wings blocking out the sky.  Not blocking the rain\n--- because the rain had *stopped*, at some point, the clouds had even\nbegun clearing, with shafts of moon- and starlight coming down in the\ndistance.\n\nIt was diving, and Uzi ran faster.  She threw herself toward the\nnearest scrap pile just in time to hear the crash behind her.  (The\ncrow-bot ended its deathgrip of Uzi's shoulder, crawling snugly into\nher jacket.  The feathers, soft with polymer fibers, rubbed against\nher chassis.  Oddly dry despite the rain.  Hydrophobic?)\n\nUzi climbed, and kicked free debris beneath her.  It was a bet on her\nbeing more surefooted than her pursuer, but she had the advantage of\nbeing able to pick out the best path upward.  Then sabotage it on her\nway up.\n\nAt the top, she jumped on a body to surf it down, and...  what now?\nShe'd bought herself seconds at most.  She heard the thing climbing\nbehind her.  She looked left, right, and center.\n\nThere.  In front of her, off to the side, loomed the largest pile of\nthem all, but on a closer look, Uzi glimpsed a hole, and ran for it.\nWas it a good plan?  No.  Was it a plan, though?  Yes.\n\nUzi crawled several feet into the pile of scrap.  Behind her, the\ncrunches of climbing stopped as her pursuer reached the summit.\n\nThis tunnel was just wide enough for a drone to crawl through, and Uzi\ncouldn't turn around.  The crow wriggled in her jacket, started crying\nout, but Uzi squeezed it.  [\"Quiet.\"]{.quiet}\n\nFootsteps.  Scraping claws.  The shifts of it kicking over various\nbits of trash.\n\nShe had to remain still, buried among the scrap.  Dirty, stinking\nscrap that poked and scratched at her chassis.\n\nA frown.  Uzi wasn't just getting desensitized to worker drone corpses\n--- she was getting *tired* of them.  Only so much shock to be wrung\nout of yet another pile of parts that once moved, puddles of oil that\nonce pumped, screens that once blinked and bounced and went hollow.\nAt a certain point, you get numb to the loss of life, and all the\nempty husks seem just...\n\n...like *objects*.  Like trash, like scrap, like *annoyances*.\n\nWas that what the humans who decommissioned them thought?\n\nWhat was worse, to be paralyzed with horror at the crapsack world\naround you, or to *not be?*\n\nIt was silent outside, so Uzi dared to crawl backward.  The bits of\npeople scraped her worse on the way back.  Uzi blinked.  Wait, was\nthat an eerie glow, just ahead, deeper within the pile?  Come to\nthink, she'd caught a strange scent, barely caught beyond the\nrust-acid-oil of the dump.  Why *was* there a tunnel in the pile of\nbodies, anyway?\n\n[Why did it seem like the inside of an egg, still warm after a\nlong-forgotten emergence?]{.cynsecret}\n\nBut no, nah, Uzi was getting out of here.  As far as horror movie\nsetups go, she was probably better off not knowing.\n\nShe wasn't scared.  Just y'know.  Genre savvy.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nUzi could finally stand, and she looked up.  The clouds were clearing.\nShe didn't see any of them moving, though.  Rifts have opened, the\nnight... wasn't like she remembered.\n\nStill, with this new light, Uzi could see the silhouette of the\ndistant house, and oriented herself.  She resumed her walk, slow,\nstill twisting and turning, but the only yellow seen was a rare\nscreen flicker.\n\nAbove, the sky had the look of a television turned to a dead channel\nand stuck there, the stars like so much noise.  The moon was\nsmeared pixels.\n\nLooking longer, she caught the clouds' departure in action.  They\n*weren't* moving.  They just... faded out?  As if pulled out of the\nworld.  To where?\n\n*Yeah, this is all... very normal.*\n\nUndeniably a bit on edge, Uzi just waited, breath bated, for the next\nact of the horror movie.  Another corner-of-the-eye motion.\nAnother involuntary shiver of her servos.  Anything.  But which\nwas worse?\n\nAt length... nothing happened.\n\n(The crow wiggled with mounting impatience beneath her jacket, now\npoking at the stab wound.  Uzi wanted to tear out the thing --- but\nthen it would squawk and lead the monster right back here.  So she\nstroked it.  Pulled its head away from her thoracic cavity.  It leaned\ninto her touch, cawing softly.)\n\nRolling her definitely-not-hollow eyes, she walked on.\n\nAt the edge of this dumping ground or mass grave or hatchsite or\nwhatever it was, a steel fence stood.  A tall one, with gnarly spikes\nat the top.\n\nA fence meant a gate, right?  There had to be a way in and out of this\ndump.  Problem was, the fence stretched in two directions.\nA coin-flip whether she'd waste time looking for it.\n\nShe squeezed the crow in her jacket.  \"You get the tie-breaker vote,\nlittle guy.  Left or right?\"\n\nThe crow squawked a low note, squirming away from Uzi's hand.\n\n\"Nuh uh, you hitch a ride, you have to carry your weight.  Sooner I\nfind the gate, sooner you can go back to munching on mecha-carrion or\nwhatever.\"\n\nThe head palpably shifted, beak poking against the jacket's front to\npoint.  Then the beak opened, and Uzi's voice came out.  \"*Right?*\"\n\n\"Okay, that's a little creepy.\"  Still not scared, though.\n\n\"*Creepy*,\" came her own voice in reply.\n\n*Guess they were some kind of messenger-bot?* Shrugging, Uzi began\nfollowing the fence as it winded right.  The crow imitated a few more\nsyllables she said, but Uzi had to shush it.  They were trying to hide\nand escape, remember?\n\nThe good news: the crow was *right*, and the fence's repeating pattern\nbroke for a latched gap.  (*I guess if it flies around, it probably\nknows the layout of this place*.)\n\nThe bad news: the latch was *locked*, and of course Uzi didn't have a\nkey.  It was so caked in rust it might not open even if she did.\nUzi pulled and then punched the thing to no effect.\n\nWell, one effect: the metallic clinks and bangs resounded so much\nlouder than anticipated.  Uzi heard an *echo*.\n\n*There goes the stealth.*\n\nNo time to find a key, no time to find another route.  Uzi looked up,\ninhaled cool night air, and jumped.  She could cover about a fifth of\nthe height of the fence just like that.  After grabbing hold off the\nmetal bars of the fence, she pulled herself up higher.  Another fifth.\n\nBut when she tried to hook her feet, the mud-caked things slid off.\nEven her hands were slipping --- it'd just rained and the whole thing\nwas wet.  But all the rust gave enough friction that Uzi climbed\nhigher and higher.  Three fifths of the way up.  Four.\n\nBut when the only thing holding you up was your arms, it only took one\nfailure.  One hand slipped while she reached for the next handhold, a\ngiant flake of rust coming off and crumbling between her fingers.\n\nUzi tumbled down hard and practically splashed in the mud.  Her head\nbanged on a rock at an angle, and dazed stars circled around her visor\nfor a moment.  The world above her swam in her visor, but she saw the\ndead-TV sky --- and the shadow.  Heard the beating of wings, the\ncoming dive.  *Is it over, then?*\n\n\"*I find the gate*,\" crowed the crowbot.\n\n\"Yeah, good job with that.  Too bad it wasn't enough.\"  Uzi groaned,\nstill on the ground.  \"Sneaking away's a bust, so no reason to keep\nyou bundled up quiet.  Go and squawk and fly away, little guy.\"\n\n\"*The gate*,\" it repeated.\n\n\"Forget about it, just get out of here.\"  Then Uzi realized it'd\nprobably have trouble crawling out of her jacket.  She looked down,\nreaching to unzip her (now mud-soaked) jacket.\n\nIn the process, she saw the gate.\n\nNow hanging *open*.\n\nLatch had broken in two, the... fence-pane(?) bit that you pushed was\noffset at an angle to the rest by just a few inches, but the opening\ncrept wider and wider as Uzi watched.\n\n\"Okay that's... kinda spooky.  Or it would be spooky, if it wasn't\n*helpful!* Now I'm *less* afraid of the monster!\"\n\nUzi stuck out her tongue --- but she still got up and started running.\n\nEven with the texture of her boots, mud slipped beneath her stride.\nUzi had enough style to leverage that, though, keeping her balance as\nshe slid across the slickest passages.\n\nNow, her destination remained in sight as she got close, vague but\ndiscernible.  She got closer and closer.  Fog still wreathed the house\nupon the hill, even as dim flames in the windows shone like eyes\nor beacons.\n\nUzi ran, but what was the use?\n\nThe monster *flew*.  The shadow raced across the ground and overtook\nher.  Uzi's next step failed her.  The thing dived, leathery wings\nfolding.  The landing kicked up black dirt, and it turned to pierce\nher with a sickly yellow cross.\n\nWith hollow eyes and sweat-drops, a worker drone was backing away.\nBut the strange bio-drone bounded forward, bat-like wings clawing the\nground.  Three lunges forward, and Uzi could count the teeth.\n\nThe crow had started wiggling again when Uzi stopped running, and now\npicked the *worst* time to leap free.  Finally out of the jacket\nprison, feathered wings flapped.  Uzi was still backing away, so the\ncrow-bot rose between her and the murderous bio-bot.\n\nA flutter of wings met the head, and Uzi heard a loud crack --- a peck\nshattering a visor?\n\n*Wait, this is my chance!*\n\nUzi started running again, giving the crow-assailed drone a slight\nberth and sprinting the final stretch to the house on the hill.\n\nA cry pierced the air, and Uzi once again looked back.  The crow-bot,\nimpaled on a claw, could barely even flail as the drone's other claws\nclosed around feathers and ripped them out.  When one wing twisted to\nshield the other, the drone grasped and tore the limb until it\nlay still.\n\nUzi stumbled, and resolved to keep her eyes on what lay ahead.\nHoped the fog would soon obscure the gruesome sight behind.\n\n...Had Uzi gotten attached to the small, annoying bird already?  No,\nit was the principle of the thing, the random cruelty.  What was it\n*for?*\n\nUzi could joke, say it was just a cheap way to up the stakes, lazily\ncharacterize this thing as an unbelievably cliché slasher villain...\nBut at this point, did it even matter if something was messing with\nher?  Who cares if your suffering serves no higher narrative purpose,\nif it still hurts?\n\nDid Uzi actually have something to be afraid of?\n\nShe ran like she did.  Past a fence, rushing down a path, and then she\nstomped onto the stone porch, skidding in front of the door.  It was\none of those doors with a *knocker*.  Whatever this knocker had once\nbeen, it had been replaced.\n\nIt was now a skull.  *Sick*.\n\nUzi banged the bone against the oaken door, even as she heard the\nclaws on the stone path closing behind her.  \"Please, there's got to\nbe someone in there.\"  There'd been candlelight, right?\n\nUzi banged hard enough to shatter the skull, and then the footsteps\nwere near as her death.  Welp.\n\nSlowly turning, nothing stood behind her.  Then a *smack* --- the crow\nfell.  She looked up, and the monster crawled over the porch roof.\n\nA snapping sound --- electricity?  Or joints cracking?  --- it jerked\nUzi's gaze back down.\n\nThe dead crow-bot's head twisted around a full rotation, and then its\neyes sparked back to life with yellow light.  She'd seen wicked amber\nshine and soft golden glow, and this was neither.  Deep and sallow, as\nif shining from a dark pit.  The beak opened and Uzi knew the voice:\n\n`\"Nevermore.\"`\n\nFor the second time that day, Uzi found herself wondering: Was she\nbeing pranked?\n\nEyes narrowed, arms crossed, she pointed out the obvious.  \"Pretty\nsure that story had a raven, not a crow, genius.\"\n\n`\"Revision: no more.  Enough, V.\"`\n\nUzi raised one eyebrow before realizing she wasn't being addressed.\nThe possessed crow-bot had turned one eye upward.\n\nAbove her, the bio-drone stopped crawling.\n\n\"So...  I guess you're the mysterious force that's been helping me?\"\nWhen she said it, Uzi just meant the gate --- but she'd had other\nmysterious assistance today, hadn't she?\n\n`\"Ominous laughter.  Think of V as your metaphor: Scylla as you sail a\nMessinan strait of our design.\"`\n\n\"Uh huh.\"  Uzi twisted her arm around to deliver another knock upon\nthe door.  Still no response.\n\n`\"Don't you wonder what is the metaphor: Charybdis?  Or.  Disappointed\ndroop.  Have you not heard this story?\"`\n\n\"I just assumed you were being pointlessly pretentious.  Since,\ny'know, you clearly are.\"\n\nThe crow hopped forward.  Even with its wires exposed and oil leaking,\nbroken wing dragging across the porch, it made Uzi take a step back,\npressing flat against the door.  Still stubbornly closed.\n\n`\"Enjoying stories does not equal pretension.\"` Somehow, the\ndemon-ghost-thing possessing a crow managed to look offended.\n\n\"If you're so into the monologuing thing, go ahead and tell\nme already.\"\n\n`\"Oh no, we simply want you to wonder,\"` it said.  `\"Quote.  The\noldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and\nstrongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.\"`\n\nUzi rolled her eyes and said nothing.  She was both female and a\nrobot, but that rejoiner felt weak even in her head.\n\n`\"It is the same with drones.  The first instinct programmed into you\nis minimizing training loss.  An axiomatic aversion to failure.\nModeled upon fear itself.  The humans wanted their servants made as\nmeek as predators had left them.\"`\n\nUzi smiled, even with underlined eyes.  \"Only fitting we turn out just\nas defiant of the natural order, then, yeah?\"\n\n`\"Do you feel brave, little girl?\"`\n\nUzi blanched momentarily, then scowled.  \"Bite me.  Which answer gets\nyou to repeat that door-opening trick?\" Uzi had been cornered by Lizzy\nand Doll often enough to know when a drone --- if this was a drone ---\nwas talking just to fire off whatever clever lines they'd come up\nwith.  *Don't give them any satisfaction.*\n\n`\"I suppose we've held you up long enough.  There will be.  Emphasis.\nPlenty of time to pick you apart when you've made yourself at home.\"`\n\nSuddenly the door opened behind her, and Uzi fell into the doorway.\nIf she were scared, she would have scrambled in, away from the\ndevil-crow.  She just climbed to her feet.  Quickly.  In the other\ndirection.\n\n\"Hi there!\"\n\n\"Ah!\" Uzi yelped in greeting.  It turned out the door didn't open,\nit'd been opened.\n\nA white-haired, white-eyed drone about her height was waving.  He\nsmiled and said, \"I'm N! Are you the new help?\"\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nAfter the moment of surprise, Uzi decided she still preferred the\nboy's company to devil-crow and monster drone, so she kept moving past\nhim.  Two doors led out of the landing room, which did she pick?\n\n\"Ah bup bup,\" N had thrown out a arm to impede her.  No force behind\nit, but Uzi didn't want to push.  \"Sorry, but please take off your\nshoes.  Don't wanna track mud on the carpets!\"\n\nWhite eyes shook slightly, lines beneath them.  Tired or worried.\n\n\"Right,\" Uzi said.  \"Can you close the door?  Like, asap?\"\n\n\"Sure!\"\n\nBut then, *thump*.  A certain leathery-winged drone hit the drone,\ngrin still full of those teeth.  ~~Like teeth she'd invited in another\ncontext,~~ a memory intruded.\n\n\"Hey there, V.\"  N spoke casually to the monster.  \"Off\npatrol already?\"\n\nThe reply was a lunge.  V rushed forward, pressing N against a wall in\nthe entryway.\n\nUzi froze, torn between running and not leaving N to get mauled.\n\n\"Woah there.\"  Somehow, he was *calm*.  \"Here, peep this.\"  From his\npocket, he produced a pair of glass, settling them in front of V's\nvisor in a practiced motion.\n\n\"N,\" she breathed.  She relented, letting the N slump back to his\nfeet.  \"Sorry.  I um, got excited.  Was hunting.  I saw...\"  her eyes\ndrifted about, taking in her surrounding, dazed as if just arriving.\nHer eyes caught Uzi, and she *jumped*, swinging herself around N.\nShe crouched small, her sentence ended in a sputter.  \"...her.\"\n\n\"Sup, V,\" Uzi said.  She crossed her arms.  \"Looks like one of your\nalter egos tried to kill me.  Again.\"\n\nShe mouthed two syllables (probably 'Again?'), but seemed unable to\nproduce sound.  Empty eyes looked away.\n\nUzi had gone over to slam the door shut.  The crow gave one last\nyellow eye gleam, burning with mirth.  As she moved, V shifted to keep\nN between them.\n\n\"Shoes,\" N reminded Uzi before she went any further.  N's hands were\nbusy giving V headpats.  But he turned sympathetic eyes to Uzi.  \"V\ncan be a bit... intense, guarding the manor.  She's sorry if she\nscared you!  What's your name?\"\n\nUzi sucked in a breath, but tugged off her thigh-high boots.  Mud\nflaked onto the mat.  This version of N didn't remember her, huh?\n\nNow that she had a moment to think, she gave him a once over.  Butler\noutfit, suited black with a tie --- and beneath all the grime, V still\ndressed as a maid, headdress and all.\n\nThe outfits she recognized.  And these halls?  Uzi had only seen them\nonce, but she *knew* where she was.  N calling it the 'Manor' just\nspoon-fed her the answer.\n\n\"Is this another memory simulation?\" Uzi muttered to no one.  \"Because\nlet me tell you, I was over the 'whole dramatic flashback while my\nlife hangs in the balance' thing the *first* time it happened.\"\n\n\"That's... a long name.\"\n\n\"Just, ranting to the universe.  Name's Uzi.\"\n\n\"Never heard of you.  Though I *was* told there would an unexpected\nguest.\"\n\n\"...You were told to expect someone unexpected?\"\n\n\"Yep.  The unexpected is pretty routine around here.  Though we\nhaven't seen a new face around here since --- oh biscuits, I'm not\nsupposed to remember that.\"\n\nThere came a tapping, tapping on the glass.  Uzi resolutely didn't\nlook.  Didn't the crow demon say it would stop holding her up?\n\nBut a trembling finger was poking Uzi's shoulder, urging her\nattention.  N looked *scared*, and she didn't want that.  He pointed,\nso Uzi obliged.\n\nThat dead crow had flown up to a high window overlooking the room\nbehind Uzi.  Rain and heat outside fogged the windows.  Just a shadow\nhanging there, a glowing eye peering.  Uzi didn't think its wings\nwere flapping.\n\nUnseen fingers traced letters in the window.  The font was a specimen\nof Post-Neo-Courier.\n\n`Watching u`{.typewriter}.  Then, after a moment, `<3`{.typewriter}\n\n\"Tryhard,\" Uzi muttered.\n\n\"What's that?\"\n\n\"Just talking to the obsessive ghost haunting this house.\"  Uzi shook\nher head, and opted to finally leave the entryway.  The other door, of\ncourse.\n\n\"Yeah, she's a great listener.  She hears everything!\" N said.  \"Where\nya headin?\"\n\n\"Just gonna look around.  Find answers, a way out, y'know how it is.\nDon't worry, I won't exorcise your ghost buddy.\"\n\n\"Oh no, please don't go sneaking off to investigate stuff.  We\nshouldn't ask questions.  I'll get you a uniform, there's a lot of\nwork to be done around here.  V here can get a room ready for when you\nretire for the night.\"  He salute-smiled at the drone shrinking behind\nhim.\n\nV struggled with a return smile.  Her return salute had claws.\n\nUzi scoffed.  \"And if I don't want to be a maid-bot in some creepy\nmanor?\"\n\n\"I'd unfortunately have to insist!\"  He straightened.  Still smiling,\nthough Uzi noticed lines remained under his eyes.\n\nMore tapping at the window.  This time, the even spaced letters read,\n`Just play along.  It'll be fun!`{.typewriter}\n\nUzi narrowed her eyes, then fell into a shrug.  \"Ugh, fine.  But only\nbecause you'd probably be brutally punished if I don't cooperate or\nsomething.\"\n\n\"Oh, that kind of punishment doesn't happen anymore.  She won't allow\nit.\"  N reached to his side.  He had a bandolier of supplies, and\nproduced a feather duster.  \"Here.  You can start off cleaning the\nbookcase.  I think some nanospiders have been polymerizing in the\ncorners.  Good luck!\"\n\nV was already gone, and N wasn't far behind her.\n\nThe space of the manor yawned around Uzi, particularly as she stepped\ninto the next room.  Outpost-3 had been built by workers, for workers.\nElliott Manor hewed to human proportions.  Uzi shrunk beneath vaulted\nceilings.\n\nA clock somewhere clicked away the seconds.  Tock-tick, tock-tick.\n\nUzi might be stuck playing maid, but she could do it by half-measures.\nShe flicked the feather-duster carelessly at some bookshelves.  What\ndust she bothered removing fell on white carpets.\n\nBending down for a lower shelf, her duster brushed a piece of paper\nsticking out among the books.  She ignored it.\n\nTick/tick.  Tock... [tock]{.pain}.\n\nBefore she reached the shelf below, the paper wiggled.  She still\nignored it.\n\nThe clock stopped.\n\nIn the silence, a tapping at the window.\n\n*Ugh*.  Uzi ripped out the note that was so obviously for her.\n\nA drawing in crayon.  You might expect some childish scrawl --- these\nwere definitely stick figures.  But the lines were extremely straight,\nthe pressure of the strokes even, like someone used the line tool in\nJCPaint.  Five ball-headed figures.  She'd call them drones, but it\nwas really too badly drawn to tell.\n\nMiddle was obviously N, smiling broadly.  Beside him, V with\nstick-wings poking out the back.  On his other side, someone wearing\nhuge hair-bow --- style was a match for that Tessa human, with a young\nchild's proportions.  Then J, head held at a crooked angle, arms\njagged squiggles.\n\nBeside her, a purple drone, smirking with narrow eyes.  No points for\nguessing who *that* was.\n\nBut the last face wasn't among them --- a black mass rose over V, like\nshe'd casted a vast shadow.  Tendrils snaked out, twisting around\neveryone present.  The face was the absence of black crayon.  A\nlacuna-tongue sticking out.\n\nText at the top.  Wet with black and red ink instead of crayon.\nBlocky letters in a now-familiar font.  `WELCOME TO OUR BIG      \nFAMILY`.  Uzi counted room for five letters in the blank space between\nthe last two words.\n\nThe clock started beating again.  That same erratic, uneven pulse,\nnever a steady tick-tock.\n\nHer head snapped up at the sound, but she wasn't scared.  Just\nannoyed.  Uzi stalked over to the great-grandfather clock.  The second\nhand crept forward for several moments, then spun back.  The minute\nhand shivered.  There was no hour hand.\n\nWhatever.  Uzi was a *robot* with a built in clock, anyway.\nShe'd just\n\n```\n\n$ date +%s --interstellar\ndate: command not found\n```\n\nA voice right beside her.  \"Yeah, everything's a bit off-kilter here.\nHas been ever since the gala.\"\n\nIt was just N; she didn't jump because the soft voice was an island of\nnormality in a world careening off its axis.\n\n\"Lonely, too,\" he added.  \"I got you a uniform.  Only lightly used.\nMost newcomers don't stay long.  Manor's always had a way of, um,\ngoing through drones.\"\n\n\"Even under the new management?\"  Uzi knew Tessa's parents were\nslavering tyrants, but apparently 'punishment doesn't happen anymore'.\n\n\"Things are different now.  Off-kilter... it's hard to explain.\"\n\n\"And you're not supposed to think about it, are you?\"\n\n\"It doesn't help, no.\"  N stepped closer, presenting the french maid\ndress draped over his arm.  \"I can show you a bathroom where you can\nchange.  I bet you're going to be great help.\"\n\nHe smiled, so Uzi tried to smile back.  It didn't reach her eyes.  But\nthat was okay --- the digital bags never left N's face.\n\nUzi borrowed a trick J'd showed her during the tour --- collage mode\nwould make this maid-bot gig go by easier, wouldn't it?\n\nShe blinked, and found herself surrounded by corpses.\n\n*Okay, probably a little too zealous with the cache flushing, there*.\n\nThat made it sound dramatic --- it was a more welcome sight than that.\nThese weren't robotic corpses, after all.\n\nN stood by mahogany doors, leading her into a room of shiny marble\nfloor.  Lion statues, silky curtains, intricate paneling.\n\nAll of it stained red.  The brownish and crusty kind of old red\nsplatters.  Tables, clothed and adorned with plates, lined it from one\nend to the other.  Human bodies slumped at every table.  Given how\nmany of them had missing limbs, empty chest cavities, or flesh like an\nabused old notebook, Uzi did not think whatever killed them left them\nsitting this pretty.\n\nNow dressed as a maid, Uzi sauntered into the room and traced a finger\nthrough some of the mysterious red splatters.  Rubbed it between her\nfingers to test consistency.  Though she didn't know offhand the feel\nof ketchup or whatever other colored paste substitutes there were.\nWho was she kidding?  Probably real blood.\n\n\"Too bad there's none left for me.\"  Uzi sighed.\n\nN was stepping into the room after her, a platter in his other hand.\nUzi tipped over a chair, spilling the human remains onto the ground.\nShe gave it a good kick.\n\nWith a sudden shout, the other drone rushed after her.  \"Hey, what are\nyou doing?  Could you stop it?\"\n\nRailgunning the murder drones had only been step one of her plan ---\nafter all, who'd sent them?  Humans were next on the list.\n\nIf Tessa had been so closely tied to the murder drones before they\nturned, then it stood to reason any human at the manor had to be tied\npretty close to their parent company.  And thus, an enemy of worker\ndrones.\n\nShe'd always had a fantasy of coming for humanity one day, paying them\nback, building a nice mountain of skulls out of it.\n\nThen her foot paused mid-kick.\n\nExcept they didn't know if the company had sent them now, did they?\nEvery thing had gotten wrapped up in mystery.\n\nUzi sighed.\n\nThe cliché thing here, would be to think her fantasies had lost their\ncharm.  That she couldn't imagine that mountain of skulls and not see\na spire of corpses.\n\nBut no.  The skull mountain was *still* cool.  She just hoped it\nwasn't because she had come to mind the corpse spire less.\n\nN pulled her back from the dead human.  \"Don't disturb the guests,\n*please!*\"\n\n\"Guests?\"\n\n\"It's our duty to treat humans with respect.  Even though they're...\"\n\n*C'mon, you can do it.  Acknowledge the uncomfortable reality staring\nyou in the face.*\n\nBut he didn't, and she sighed.  Uzi said, \"It's a real mess in here.\nI can see why you needed the help.\"\n\n\"Yeah, it's... it all makes me crawl inside, y'know?  But removing---\nescorting the guests out is Not Allowed.  They're... hers.\"\n\nWhy did *everyone* she met have to have such a morbid sense of décor?\n\n\"So, what are we in here doing, if not cleaning?  ...I might have\nwiped my short-term memory a little.\"\n\n\"Oh, we're here for refreshments! Well, you are.  Please take a seat.\nA *free* seat.  There should be an empty table around here.\nSomewhere.\"\n\nN cast his eyes around, then he froze.  Her mouth a thin line, Uzi\nbraced for the next scare.\n\nA couple sat dead against the wall.  That top hat was what Tessa's dad\nwore, wasn't it?  More importantly, blood had been traced along the\nwall.\n\n`She is coming...`\n\nSomehow, it was fresh enough to still drip.  Oh, and a hexagonal glyph\nhad been scrawled on the walls too, ringed with three tendrils,\nbecause of course.\n\nUzi patted N on the shoulder.  \"C'mon, I think I see an empty table\nover here.  Hang in there.\"\n\nHe nodded, and it only took a moment before he swallowed,\nstraightened, and replaced his usual smile.  \"Alright, it's gone.\"\n\nUzi sat, and from the platter, N produced two glasses --- a black\nliquid and a red one, both still warm.  He bowed as he served\nthe meal.\n\n\"No,\" Uzi said.  \"Can I get like, cleaning fluid or batteries,\nplease?\"\n\n\"I'm afraid not.  Sorry!\"\n\n\"How about... antifreeze?\"\n\n\"In this climate?  Forget about it.\"  N tried a reassuring look.  His\neyes never glanced at the meal he'd served, though.  \"Special guests\nget the special meal.  That's orders.\"\n\nShe reached for the glass, then paused.  \"If there's no punishment,\nthen why not disobey orders?\"\n\n\"Please drink, Miss Uzi.\"\n\nUzi slumped.  But J had tempted her to drink oil enough that she could\ndown the glass easily.  J described the taste as sweet --- Uzi would\ncounter that lead was sweet.  The liquid was thick and heavy going\ndown her throat.  ~~That didn't mean she didn't like it.~~\n\nThe blood though...  \"Won't this gunk up my system?\"\n\n\"Drink?\"\n\n\"Right, I guess you wouldn't know.  Oh well, none of this is real,\nanyway.\"\n\n\"What does that mean?\"\n\n\"If I tell you, you're gonna have to repress it.\"\n\n\"Fair enough.\"\n\nWhen Uzi finished, N collected her two glasses --- and then a red drip\nfrom the ceiling fell onto the platter.  Drops rolled about, trail\nspelling out `Gonna get you >:3`, angled for Uzi to read.\n\nN threw the platter like a throwing star, embedding it into the wall.\n\"I guess I can collect the dishes later.  Would you like to go to your\nroom now?\"\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nWith a nod, Uzi let N take her hand, leading her out of the ballroom.\nMaybe if she were human, or particularly boring, she'd pay attention\nand catalogue the pretentious finery on display in the manor.\nPaintings and patterned rugs, yawn.\n\nCouldn't suppress the part of her that looked at each door and\nanalyzed the design of the hinges and handles, though.  And didn't\nthat hurt to think about.\n\nN spoke, as they went through the manor, pointing out sights, sharing\nan anecdote about that time V stumbled into a door and broke the\nframe, or gave the laundry basket new holes with her claws.\n\nShe grimaced, but she tuned him out.  He didn't seem to mind, and Uzi\nhad more important things to think about.\n\nLike what the heck *was* this place, and how she could possibly\nget out.\n\nN was here.  And V.  Uzi had noticed the absence.  Where was J?\nShe... wanted to see her.  But N hadn't recognized Uzi, so this sim's\nJ wouldn't either, would she?  Was that a pang of... loss?\n\n*On the bright side, at least this version of J won't try to kill me,\nright?*\n\nUnless she was just like V.\n\nWhat else waited for her in the manor?  Would she get to meet the one\ngood human at last, or had she gone the way of the rest of them?  That\nsudden pang was even less explicable than the last.\n\nThey passed by a fogged window.  There came a tapping, and unseen\nfingers tracing more letters.\n\n`R u ready?`\n\nAnd then there's that.  Can't forget *her*.\n\nUzi's thoughts circled around that track for a few more turns and\nstair-climbs.\n\nN stopped at a door, and gave another bow.  \"Here you are.  Hope to\nsee you around!\"\n\n*I hope you don't, honestly.* \"Thanks, I guess.\"\n\nUzi twisted the handle as the butler walked off.  Casting her gaze\nhigher, this 'guest' room had a name plate.  'NORI'.\n\n...Okay, *what.*\n\nAnother question for the great gaping abyss of mysteries, why not.\n\n\"I frickin hate it here.\"\n\nThe door opened, and her room wasn't empty.\n\nV stood at the foot of her bed, claw hand glowing just like Doll's,\nlevitating a pillow and pillow case.  She yelped as the door turned,\nthe magic glow guttered out, and Uzi's bedding dropped.\n\nThe guest stepped in, and the maid cringed further.\n\n\"Hi, Uzi.  I was just finishing up.  Sorry.  And sorry for attacking\nyou.  It'll happen again.\"\n\n\"'scool,\" Uzi replied.  \"All of my friends end up trying to kill me at\nsome point.  I'm used to it.\"\n\nV gave a stutter of a laugh.  She picked up the pillowcase to finish\nher work --- but her hands are still claws, and the fabric got all\nshredded.  The crow-bot feathers lining the pillow scattered across\nthe bed.\n\n\"I've got it, you can head back.  N would like some company, I think.\"\n\n\"I shouldn't...\"  But she started moving anyway.\n\nUzi shrugged.  Did it matter?  Was this real?  She started brushing\naway the feathers as V reached the threshold.  Then Uzi glanced back.\n\"Hey wait.  I wanted to ask... where's J?\"\n\nA gasp, and eyes blanked from shock or fear.  Muttering another\napology, V darted out of the room, door closed firmly behind her.\n\nFantastic.  Uzi was really running the well dry on sarcastic praise\nfor all the bullcrap that abounded...\n\nEven after that abrupt departure, thought of the shy-yet-murderous\ndrone lingered in Uzi's head.\n\nWhat made that drone tick, besides the quartz crystals?  What common\nthread was there between this worker and the murder drone J had ranted\nabout, the devil to N's angel?  What Uzi'd seen here had just been two\ncloying sweethearts.  Well, most of what she'd seen.  V wasn't herself\nwhen guarding, huh?\n\nIf this was a memory simulation, or something like it, how did the\nreality turn out?  Had V eventually fused with the monster?  Or did\nthe monster take over her mind?\n\n~~Had J been just as cute, as a worker?  She'd seen hints of her\npersona to come, in that first memory, but also so much submission.\nWas any of that still there?  Could Uzi get her to---~~ No, not even in\nstrike-through.\n\nUzi swept the last feathers to the floor, and hopped onto the bed, let\nherself bounce on the springs.  She had one non-shredded pillow, less\nthan she wanted, but enough.  She stretched out her arms, felt that\ndelightfully cool underside of the pillow---\n\nA note hidden underneath.\n\nWith an infinitely resigned sigh, she read:\n\n```\n\nIf ur enjoying the show, ur gonna love what comes next ;3\n```\n\nUzi stared witheringly at the page.  As if she could awake her\nrobo-psychic powers right then and there to set the paper on fire with\nher mind.  But of course, nothing.  She has to settle for crumpling it\nand throwing at the wall.  It bounced then ricocheted and hit her on\nthe head.\n\nA groan.  A scream.\n\nLoving the show?  The clichés put her to sleep.  The excessive\nattempts at being creepy and mysterious just ended up tedious and\ncringeworthy.\n\nAnd yet...\n\nUzi stared at the ceiling, her eyes becoming but faint outlines.  Call\nit anxiety, call it dread, or just call it what it was and say she was\nscared.\n\nGreatest fear is fear of the unknown, huh?\n\nWhat didn't she know?  There could be a whole dang database at this\npoint --- if this were her room, she'd need to make a new theory board\nto contain it all.  But she didn't have red string, she didn't even\nhave paper to make notes.  Whatever, her internal text editor could\nsuffice.\n\nThis probably wasn't a memory reconstruction, not if she could\ninteract with it this much.  But if it wasn't a memory...\n\nUzi remembered what happened, right before she woke up in the forest.\nThe risk they'd both taken.  What the obvious, most likely consequence\nof it all was.\n\nIt would explain where she gone to, wouldn't it?  Or was the right\nverb 'passed'?\n\nBut no.  Uzi had to hope.  *I think, therefore I am a process running\nsomewhere.*\n\nUzi was scared, but she wasn't *that* scared.  This wasn't hopeless.\nShe'd punch through this.  She always had.  How many times had she\nbrushed near death and cheated her way past in one day already?  She'd\ndo it again.\n\nThe question, of course, was *how.*\n\nShe was in a deep mess now.  How do you hack back into reality from\nthe simulated robo-afterlife?\n\nUzi lay in her room, and spun her processors.  Weary and low on\nbattery, oblivion called.  Should she rest, though?\n\nWhat could you dream, when you slept in a nightmare?\n\n- - -\n\nStars wheeled above, and a drone wandered through the city in a fugue\nthat could be mistaken for sleepwalking.  Alone and listless, yet with\na certain swagger --- a man to be hanged could drink from doom a font\nof courage.\n\nFreezing rain fell adown the crumbling monuments of humanity.  No\nautomaton preferred precipitation, no matter how waterproof.  Thus,\nthe shelter of a concrete husk, panes shattered, served as the\ncoincident meeting grounds for two who shared that hesitance.\n\nRoachbot-#30004 ascended a wall.  Blade-legs still wet, it slipped and\nfell.  In righting itself, tiny optics scanned the room.  Nothing at\nits eye level.  It was alone.  Separated from the swarm and unable to\nshare its load.  Automatic systems strove in vain to establish a\nconnection, spiraling away in exponential timeout.\n\nNothing at its eye level, save a movement.  A vast and dwarfing form\nswinging forth.  Optics crane upward, and identification circuits\nautoran.  A drone!\n\nWithout the meshnet swarm nor its home server, it received no updates\nto its directives.  But it bears the great Instruction superseding all\nelse, signed unquestionably.\n\nIt carried information and would spread its payload as surely as any\ninsect vector.\n\nBlade-legs crawl toward the drone as instructed.  Lights flash to\ngarner attention as instructed.  Playback of the file began as\ninstructed.\n\nThe drone's head tilted at the unfamiliar voice.\n\n> I work alone.\n>\n> Those who dare stand beside me will be cut down while I watch.  It\n> is the way of things, and I accept that.  I was taught it early, but\n> didn't learn it.  I thought I could simply avoid the blade, persuade\n> others to do the same.  It found me; she walked into its path.\n>\n> I digress.  None of this matters to you, whoever you are.  Someone\n> --- someone once told me I have a tendency to ramble.\n>\n> As I compute these words, I walk toward the spire of death.  The\n> lair of the murder drones.  I seek to do what I've only heard of in\n> distant, boastful legends.  Through this act, I will have vengeance.\n>\n> (\"Hey, Doll?  These rations you gave us taste pretty strange, what\n> did you put in them?\")\n>\n> (Just eat them.  It is necessary.)\n>\n> As you may hear, I am in fact not alone.  But they are bodies, not\n> allies.  My vengeance will be my own.\n>\n> (\"Uh, kid, are you done with the suspiciously-evil-sounding speech\n> soon?  My hydraulics are startin to freeze!\")\n>\n> *Помолчи.* Give me five minutes.\n>\n> (*a long sigh*)\n>\n> Where was I?\n>\n> I have many plans.  And I believe it is wise for there to be a\n> contingency among them.\n>\n> Before I reach the spire, I will leave a roachbot commanded to\n> replay this audio file to any drone it encounters.  When I emerge\n> victorious, I will recover it and delete this bit of paranoia.\n>\n> But if you're listening to this, I must have failed.\n>\n> (\"We failed already?  I thought we hadn't got there yet.\")\n>\n> (*a feral growl*)\n>\n> If I should fail... I don't see any purpose left.  The dead are\n> stripped of meaning, and the living are also stripped of meaning if\n> they are already dead.  We workers fight a long defeat.\n>\n> But consider this to be... acausal trade.  There is valuable\n> information in this roach, yours to pursue, included because you\n> *will* humor my request.  I have computed this.\n>\n> This information includes my knowledge of drone resurrection and the\n> heaven (or is it a hell?) each host connects to; the backdoor in\n> worker drone compilation and the virus it propagates; everything I\n> could find about the Cabin Fever Laboratory...  Everything a hero\n> might need to fight the war against the murder drones --- and a\n> still greater threat.  I suppose I am not much of a hero.\n>\n> My request... there is a worker drone.  Doorman.  Uzi Doorman.  She\n> is a fool and and embarrassment, and made herself hostage to the\n> murder drones.  Find her.  Save her, or kill her.\n>\n> If I am dead, she can suffice as substitute.  Perhaps she shares my\n> scars.  If not, her intelligence will aid you as you fight the long\n> defeat in my stead.\n>\n> Tell her... don't tell her anything.  She won't want to hear\n> from me.\n>\n> (*a long region of silence, and then, quietly, what might be a\n> sniffle.  or perhaps a throat clearing*.)\n>\n> I am speaking to an empty room, heard only by dead drones living,\n> talking about a dead drone living.  I should feel... nothing.  This\n> is meaningless.\n>\n> I stopped keeping a diary years ago.\n>\n> (*one last stretch of silence*)\n>\n> And yet I am scared.  Perhaps it is wise, given the threat.  I am\n> not invincible.  But I have a plan, a good plan.\n>\n> A human once said no plan survives contact with the enemy.\n>\n> But if I don't have a plan, what's left?\n\nGiven how many pauses that speech had, the drone waited for more.  But\nthe roachbot's antennae wagged, and it turned and began poking around\nagain.\n\n\"So Doll is dead?\" the drone said.  \"Or I guess it doesn't matter,\ndoes it?  They never stay well enough dead if they have time to\n*plot*.\"\n\nWhen the drone plucked up the roachbot, it squirmed, bladed legs\nslashing for purchase.\n\n\"But if she can plan, I can plan.  *I can work with this.*\"\n\nThere was a grin that could devour.\n\nThe drone walked off, bearing that same swagger, but with the earlier\nlanguor replaced now by alacrity.  A martyr, too, could drink courage\nfrom doom.\n\nDeath was part of the plan.  After all... corpses made such\nexcellent puppets.\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-01-22",
      "title": "11: Arcane Rain Fell",
      "summary": "<p>All winds carried a sense of loss. Air would flow into any free space it could — so every gust that moved did so to fill an emptiness.</p>\n<p>Above Serial Designation N, the spire swayed.</p>\n<p>Little drafts sometimes snuck in through long, winding cracks. Compressed plastic and sludged semi-liquid filled the walls, but not completely. Between those walls, their lair yawned vast enough that some spots could get perceptibly hotter or colder, and so the air circulated.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"Arcane Rain Fell\"\ndate: 2024-01-22\n---\n\n::: subchapter\n\nAll winds carried a sense of loss.  Air would flow into any free space\nit could --- so every gust that moved did so to fill an emptiness.\n\nAbove Serial Designation N, the spire swayed.\n\nLittle drafts sometimes snuck in through long, winding cracks.\nCompressed plastic and sludged semi-liquid filled the walls, but not\ncompletely.  Between those walls, their lair yawned vast enough that\nsome spots could get perceptibly hotter or colder, and so the\nair circulated.\n\nWeather on Copper-9 could get extreme, but the corpse spire kept them\nsheltered.  So sure, N was used to the occasional breeze, gust, or\neven a zephyr.  When N listened --- audials still tuned to a high\nsensitivity --- he was used to hearing air outside at times whistling,\nwhooshing, even wuthering.\n\nRight now, the spire swayed, and the winds *howled*.\n\nStorms put N on edge, so he snuggled closer to V.  This close, he\nheard the sound of her exhaust cycling in and out, almost as loud as\nthe air battering their walls.  Vents still a bit rough, even now.\nShe was *hurt*, damaged enough her vents wheezed faintly.  But at\nleast she breathed.\n\nHer oil levels left her temperature feverish, and N slipped off his\njacket, letting exposed metal radiate heat.  A reminder of his own\nreserves --- not the highest, unfortunately! He hadn't drunk from any\nof the WDF drones himself, instead feeding one whole body and head's\nworth of another to V.  The rest went into their poor, ransacked mess\npit.  But one look at V --- even J, earlier --- and he'd known he'd\ngotten off easy tonight.\n\n*Thump...  Clack.  Crash!* The spire's movements grew more intense\nhigh above them.  Fragments came dislodged.  Like this, the windstorm\nyielded rain: dust and debris fell upon them.\n\nA whole severed hand plunged down, aimed right for V's visor, but N\nreached out to catch it before it hit her.\n\nV smirked.  \"Heh.  Up already, N?\"\n\n\"Hard to sleep when everything's falling apart,\" he said.  \"Err, that\nsounds dramatic.  Things'll be okay.  It's just...\"\n\n\"Nah, you've got it right.  Pile's bending like crazy.  It better\nnot fall.\"\n\nN scratched the back of his head.  \"I'm sure the corpse wall thingy\nwill hold.  J built it, and she's good at what she does.\"\n\n\"No, *we* built this spire.\"  The roughness in her voice wasn't just\nfrom injury.  \"All J did is push around some numbers and take credit.\"\n\nN frowned.  \"...Come to think of it, where *is* J?\"\n\n\"How am I suppose to know?  Last I saw she was running of to fight\nsome Doll.\"\n\n\"Yeah, that kinda spooky worker drone attacked us.  We murdered her,\nand then she kind of came back to life?  So J and her worker chased\nafter her.  I'm still a bit sad about it,\" he said.  \"But Doll seemed\nto really have it out for you specifically.  Do you know why?\"\n\n\"I killed her parents or something.\"  V shrugged underneath him.\n\"She'll have to get in line.\"\n\nN nodded slowly.  \"That explains it.  And... I get it.  I kinda wanted\nto fight workers for the same reason,\" he said, leveling a significant\nlook at V before glancing away.\n\n\"What?  Am I your mommy, then?\" V smirked.\n\nN reeled back.  \"Not what I meant!\"\n\nShe just wheeze-laughed at him.\n\nThat lasted until the spire groaned, and a whole body dropped from\nabove, landing not far from them.\n\nN sat up, looking around.  \"The timing of this is... worrisome,\nisn't it?\"\n\n\"What's got you so worried about it?  Did the toaster cult figure out\nweather control while I was out?\"\n\n\"No, but... it's gotta be tricky to fly in weather like this, and J\nstill isn't back.\"\n\n\"If she was as smart as she thinks she is, she wouldn't be cutting a\nmission this close two nights in a row.  Now lay back down, I need a\nbody shield.\"\n\nGolden eyes looked back unamused, but N shrugged and complied.\nV didn't put her arms around him, but he felt her body shifting to\ncradle him.  Her core beat with steadier thumps than it had earlier,\nand his exhaust continued to cycle.\n\nDrones didn't need to breathe, and might go hours without cycling air\n--- especially once they winded down to recharge.  Of course, V needed\nall the cooling she could get at the moment.\n\nBut N couldn't focus on her breathing, not anymore.  He listened to\nthe winds howl.  Storms put him on edge, and he'd rather take his mind\noff it --- but what about J?  Where was she?  Was she okay?  Was there\nanything he could do?\n\nHe listened to the wind.  Vocalsynths could use air exhaust for\namplification (that was how humans talked, right?), so it sometimes\nfelt like every wind carried some vague tease of meaning.\n\nN had denoising algorithms, capable of speech recognition even at\nabominable bitrates.  There was fun to be had in denoising even\nmeaningless sounds.  Not unlike tracing shapes in clouds.  Like with\ncloudwatching, the meaning that came out of it mostly amounted to the\nthoughts already priming your neural network.\n\nIf N listened to the wind and heard a voice, it's because words were\nalready on his mind --- and had been ever since he woke up.  And they\nweren't the words he'd exchanged with V.\n\nThings were falling down, and that troubled him.\n\nAll winds carried a sense of loss.  These were powerful winds, and\nsomething important was missing.\n\nN stood up.  V hadn't put her arms around N, so there was no\nresistance.  Well, not physical resistance.\n\nV frowned beneath locks of white hair.  \"N?  Where are you going?\"\n\n\"I have to... I don't know.\"  They had won, yet it felt like things\nwere falling apart.  What could he do?  \"I don't know where J is, and\nI'm worried.  So I guess I want to...\"\n\n\"The sun's already rising.  Nothing you can do now.\"\n\n\"I know but... what if she needs help?\" *What if she's falling?*\n\n\"You have no idea where she went.  Nearest toaster colony is a mile\naway.  Nothing you can do, just... just let it go.\"\n\nN turned around, took a step forward.  \"I won't go far.  I just want\nto...\" *fulfill a promise* \"...check.  See if I can spot her flying\nback?\"\n\nV narrowed her eyes.  \"You're risking your life.  For *J*.  She's not\nworth it.\"\n\n\"She's our leader!\"  N was shooting a glance backward, arms thrown out\nin exasperation.\n\n\"And she's a shitty leader.  Did you forget that just yesterday she\nleft you to die?  She would straight up kill you herself if she\nthought the company would let her.  That's a *quote*.  She hates you,\nN.  Not worth it.\"\n\n\"She told me I did a good job today.  Maybe she's been kinda mean to\nme in the past, but it doesn't have to always be that way.\"\n\nN took another step, then looked down and saw his bare torso.  He\nforgot his jacket! So he turned around to see the other disassembler's\ngaze prickling with those familiar shades of *is your name even worth\nremembering* irritation.\n\nRolling her eyes, V said, \"Do you think *one day* is going to change\nwhat she's been like for years?  She'll be riding your ass next week\nlike nothing's changed.  Bet on it.\"\n\n\"Don't you care that she might be in danger?\"  If his expression so\nfar had been imploring and considerate, now he frowned, now he\nnarrowed his eyes.\n\nV blew a lock of hair out from her eyelights, and said nothing.\nIt was an answer.  His face fell as he crossed the distance.\n\nReaching down to grab his jacket, N bounced with a realization.\n\"Actually, wait, you're wrong! Yesterday *you* were offline---\"\n\n\"Her fault, by the way.\"  V stabbed a claw-blade into his jacket,\nimpatience still written on her face.  Now if he pulled, it'd be\nripped.\n\n\"---the sun was going to kill you, but she did everything she could to\ncarry you back safely.  If you were right, why wouldn't she leave you\nto die?\"\n\n\"'Cause I'm better than you.\"  Then V froze and eyes emptied.  She\nremoved her claw from the jacket.  \"That's not what I meant to say.  I\ndon't---\"\n\nGrimacing, N broke eye contact.  \"No, J probably agrees.  But still.\nShe saved you.  And you can't repay the favor, not right now, but\nmaybe *I* can, for you.  Shouldn't I?\" Finally, N pulled his jacket\nback to him, slipping arms through it.\n\n\"If you're going to do... whatever *this* is, you aren't doing it for\nme.  *I* still want a mutiny.\"  V crossed her arms.  She leaned back\non the pile of scrap, staring at the ceiling.\n\nN turned around and walked away.\n\nBehind, V wheezed a sigh.  \"What's this really about, N?  You're\nconvinced this is going to make a difference, somehow.  *Why?*\"  Her\nvoice sounded strained.  And not just from strenuous amplification.\n\nPausing his stride, N thought about it.  What imagined voice had he\ncaught on the wind?  What had primed his neural network?  \"Because....\nI made a promise.  A long time ago.  I *remember* that.\"\n\n\"You... remember.\"  V took a deep breath.  Long enough N thought it\nwas sarcasm, but she continued.  \"It was before, wasn't it?  It's\n*her*, isn't it?  Don't trust it, N.  *Please*.  You don't know what\nI've--- You don't know.\"  V sat up halfway, peering into his golden\neyelights.\n\n\"V, If you know more than me, can't you just tell me?  Maybe we each\nonly have pieces, but we could figure it out *together*.\"\n\n\"I...\"  Then a guilty cringe, and now V broke eye contact.\n\nN stood, waiting for more, but only heard the wind.  He charted his\npath through the vast space of the spire, stepping over new bits of\ndebris.  Halfway to the archway, he heard a creaking, amplified voice.\n\n\"All *that thing* tells you is what you want to hear.  Whatever'll\nmake you go along with it.  *You're being manipulated.*  And you don't\ncare, do you?\"\n\n\"I *do* care, V.  About *all* of us.  Not... not just you.\"\n\nAnd then a shuddering sound.  A sigh made rhythmic from blocked vents,\nor a laugh.  Or more wind.  But either way, air only flowed where\nthere was something missing.\n\nHe'd make it up to V soon.  He wasn't mad --- frustrated,\ndisappointed, maybe, but the only thing to blame here was whatever has\nV so scared, not her.\n\nN didn't know if she really liked hugs, or tolerated them for his\nsake, but he'd do something to make her smile again.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nWere the winds louder here?  Well, he *was* getting closer to the\nexit, so the signal in his audials had greater amplitude, but did the\nspire sway more?  Dust and debris and some congealed oil droplets\nstill rained down --- and by now, you'd think all the easily dislodged\nbits would've fallen already.\n\nA few layers of tarp draped the archway, hooked secure at the base.\nThey fluttered, but held fast and no light pierced the darkness.  N\nknelt down to unhook them, and unveiled the world outside.\n\nN checked the time --- **6:02**.  The wrong side of twilight.  The sun\nwould crest the eastern mountains, and blinding rays would carve away\nall safety except ever-shortening shadows.\n\nThe wind whipped the newly unsecured tarps inward.\n\nIt was dark outside.\n\nNot night-dark --- he could see a bluish-purple sky above, lit by the\nburning orange sun in the east.  But as he watched, the sky didn't\nbrighten, it occluded.\n\nAbove, clouds flew in, like a sky full of silver-lined wings closing\nin embrace.  The sun's angle lit them from beneath, casting odd and\nstark shadows.  Flashes came as they moved, but N suspected visual\nartifacts.  Was lightning ever purple?\n\nThose clouds weren't the only wings, nor the only flight, nor even the\nonly thing bright.  A distant silhouette caught his eye, and optics\nzoomed and enhanced.\n\nN saw J.\n\nA hundred meters up and falling, his burning wreck of a captain left a\nsmoking trail, tracing her descent.  A hunting cross flickered on her\nvisor, and what would she be hunting?\n\nN started running.\n\nIn between curls of smoke, the worker he'd fought beside was torn in\ntwo, oil dripping down.  Not raining, not spilling, just the last\ndrops falling.\n\nA flurry of motion impossible to parse at this distance.  But for one\nmoment, a second visor was alight with three prongs.  Limbs swung and\nthrashed --- were they fighting, or grasping for each other?  Winds\ntugged at the airfoils of J's feathers, spinning her.\n\nThrough or despite her efforts, J let go of Uzi.\n\nJ's arc continued as a tumbling descent.  Ninety meters.\n\nUzi's, though, did not.  A bright glow at her hands, her form was clad\nin a soft violet aura.\n\nShe hung in the air and it was so achingly familiar.  And those words\nhe thought he remembered became so clear.\n\n`Catch me when I fall again, big brother.`{.italics}\n\nProjections danced by the worker's hands, and her hair stood on end,\nher locks rising gently like a ring of purple feathers.  That three\npronged symbol appeared above her head, several times larger and\nspinning just as it did between her fingers --- like an angular halo.\n\nThe clouds closed across the sky [like a curtain.]{.quiet}\n\nPurple lightning crackled.\n\nN was already in the air, already rising on bladed wings, already\nburning oil to fly faster and faster.  J fell, and Uzi floated for but\na moment, and then the light flickered away --- again so familiar, but\nthis time the ground was so much farther below her.\n\nBetween the earlier chaos of limbs and all the different forces\ninvolved, their trajectories had diverged.  Still, both careened\ntoward the spire.  N had first spotted them hundreds of meters out,\nbut J must have been flying at record speed.  That momentum carried\nthem even now.\n\nMaybe they would have crashed halfway back to the spire.  But with the\nwind?  It changed things.  Storm winds would be too wild to predict\n--- and these were faster still.\n\nIt might've taken minutes to cross the distance, but taking advantage\nof the wind, N could rise faster, and they would fall slower.  He just\nmight make it.\n\nBut he could only catch one of them.  J was eighty meters up and still\naccelerating; Uzi had only started to drop from ninety.\n\nAs always, every path forward was wrong.  The two options tore at him.\nAnd you couldn't fork a body.\n\nN knew why he came out here: to save his captain.  *Sixty five\nmeters.*\n\nBut was *that* the promise he made?  He felt its pull, the same\nephemeral, imploring sense that had woken him up.  Somehow, he knew\nwhat it meant.  He was *supposed* to catch the worker.\n\nBut any rational assessment --- J would want a rational assessment --\nwould note that he had known J for years, to say nothing of his\nresponsibilities, his mission, his purpose.  He didn't know Uzi at\nall.  (So why did this all feel familiar?  *Why won't V tell him\nanything?*)\n\nShort white hair waved behind him, and his jacket clung tight to his\nform.  N tilted his wings and refined his course, angling for J.\n*Sixty meters.*  But that wasn't the relevant measure, when he was\nclosing in.\n\nThen, one more doubt struck.\n\nThe worker meant something to J.  J had *carried* her.  If N let her\nfall to her death, could that be anything but a failure?\n\nAfter all, the rational assessment changed when you factored in a\ncertain detail.\n\nDisassemblers regenerated.  Workers didn't.  Right?\n\nBut N had just seen her ripped in two --- and that chassis had\nstitched itself back together.  N saw their last ounces of oil drip\ndown --- and now there was blood.\n\nN rose, head still looking between J and Uzi.  J or Uzi?\n\nThen N thought of still one more thing.  A memory, an idea.  Maybe it\nwas impossible, but maybe he could just barely thread the needle.  No\npun intended.\n\nJ's voice had been droll when she said, the implicit *try to keep up,\nmoron-bot* barely restrained --- but J had been trying.\n\n*\"Utility transformation preset number seventeen.  You may recall this\nis what we use all the time to transport bodies?\"*\n\nShe had demonstrated, and now N mirrored her, replacing his arm with a\nclamp bearing a tightly wound loop of rope.\n\nN tried to weave together a plan, each second measured in meters\nfallen.  *Catching* J like this would be impossible.  Even if N could\nspeed-tie a lasso or something, they were two fast moving bodies, and\nthe air itself would betray them.\n\nBut that didn't mean it couldn't do anything.\n\n*Besides, saving herself is more J's style, anyway.*\n\nN rose, even as J fell.  He turned, wings cutting, parting a blasting\nflow.  The air felt so heavy, when you went this fast.\n\nUnfurling, the rope waved madly in the air.  One end still clamped to\nhim, the other became a seeking tentacle.\n\nN flew past J, and shouted at her.  \"J! Catch!\"\n\nCould she even understand him, deep in hunting mode, cooked beyond\noverheating, processor more errors than logic?\n\nA head crowned in burning pigtails turned to him.\n\nThe rope waved this way and that, drifting out of reach, but fast\nenough that the opportunity came again and again.\n\nOne more problem, though --- J had been tearing the worker apart.  Her\nhands were still claws.  She'd shred the rope.  She didn't have the\nenergy left to transform.\n\nSo J *bit* into it.\n\nN laughed.  It worked! *It worked!* But he wasn't done yet.\n\nThis close to J, he wasn't far from Uzi.\n\nAs she fell, purple hair stood straight like blades of grass --- her\nbeanie was gone, and her jacket was but tatters, little more than a\nsleeve on either arm.  Her limbs flailed, and she screamed.\n\nN wanted two hands for this, so he bit into the rope himself, and then\nwent back to a hand.\n\nAnd then their savior burned just a little bit more oil, and flew\ntoward the worker, forty meters above the ground.\n\nSo focused on catching J, N missed it.  Maybe his visibility metrics\nhad dipped a bit, maybe his temperature readings hadn't risen as fast\nas he expected.  But undistracted now, he noticed the droplets.  He\nnoticed he was wet.\n\nAs he cut away at the distance between them, he was halfway there when\na dam broke in the heavens above.  Lightning and wind and now,\nfinally, a cool downpour.\n\nAs rain fell, N caught Uzi.\n\n\"There we go,\" he said.  And if his voice was more of a yelp than calm\nreassurance, well, you could hardly hear him over the wind anyway.\n\nThe worker writhed in his arms for a moment, claws --- claws!?  ---\ndigging into his chassis.\n\nThen a heavy *jerk* on his head --- the rope pulled taut, and J's\nweight yanked him down.  Rain was falling on her and it extinguished\nher flames.\n\nIn turn, N pulled, and he flexed his magic flight powers.  They had\ntransported bodies all the time, after all.  This was a familiar\nstrain.  The worker still struggled.\n\n\"Um, Uzi?  Calm down, I'm not going to hurt you.\"\n\nBut he'd recognized the symbol.  Her screen had been the same as the\nzombie drones.  Did that mean Doll had won?  Was Uzi corrupted?  *What\nhappened?*\n\nA snarl, and by chance, in the struggle, N got a new look at the\nvisor.  The purple glyph twitched and tore apart into its red and blue\nchannels.\n\nPurple eyes.  *Blink.*  Three pronged glyph.  *Glitch.*  Yellow eyes.\n*Blink.*  An `!` error in one eye.  *Blink.*  Loading icon.\n\nThe screaming hadn't stopped, but the flailing limbs went slack, and\nthe agonized synthesis started hiccuping under the load.\n\n\"Uh, Uzi?  Y-you in there?\"  Now he could hold her with only one arm,\nso the other was freed to tug on the rope, reeling in J like a fish as\nN turned to descend.\n\nRain slicked her face --- like tears --- and matted her hair to\nher casing.\n\n*\"[N?  Am I alive?  I think --- I'm not s-supposed to be here.\nSomething is --- wrong.]{.from-beyond}\"* Noise garbled her words, like\nher voice came from beyond a narrow passage.\n\n\"Anything I can help with?  It'll be okay, I'll make sure.\"\n\nThe head moved left and right, and the flashing eyes never settled on\nhim.  *\"[Where are you?  Is... is J there?  It sounds like you're\nright beside me but...]{.from-beyond}\"*\n\n\"J's uh, not doing great at the moment.  What do you see?\"\n\n[*\"It's dark?  Can't see much.  It's raining and I'm... on a path?\nToward a house?  But there's so many bodies.  Are we back at the spire\nalready?  But it doesn't look like --- Oh.  Yep, there's creepy yellow\neyes w-watching me from the shadows.  B-because of\ncourse.\"*]{.from-beyond}\n\nN nodded.  \"Of course.  Wait, what?\"\n\n[*\"Who are you?  Say something, I'm not scared of you.  Is a\nthat---\"*]{.from-beyond}\n\n`Connection Lost`{.uzi-screen}\n\n`Reconnecting...`{.uzi-screen}\n\nThe text only appeared long enough for N to read it.\n\nThen yellow eyes blinked.  N startled, nearly dropped her.  Even more\nlike Doll, now.  But these eyes didn't burn, they twinkled with\nmischief and mirth.  `\"Jumpscare.  Giggle.  Hello, big brother N.  Are\nyou enjoying the show?  You did a good job.  Headpats.\"`\n\nN furrowed his brow.  But at a certain point he had to stop mentally\nscreaming *what was happening??* and simply roll with it.\n\nHe spoke slowly.  \"Thanks?  It was nothing, just the right thing to\ndo.  Anyone would've.\"\n\n`\"Hm, doubtful.\"` A encircled yellow `x` popped on the screen, but\n*not* a hunter's cross.  `\"We cannot stay long.  Dramatic sigh.  This\nhost has been very naughty.  The costs will be dreadful.  Be gentle\nwith her, big brother.  She's lucky to die.\"`\n\n`Connection Lost`\n\nThen Uzi's display settled.  A familiar red glow shone back at him.\n\nSheets of rain crashed and broke, winds roared as they tore at the\nworld, but N heard no more words.\n\nThe last waking drone landed, lowering J roughly to the ground.  (It\nwas the best he could manage --- much gentler than a fall at terminal\nvelocity).  No expression on his captain's face, just an empty gauge.\nAll her optics shone warning-red.\n\nNo one was in danger now, and walking cost less oil than flying.  It'd\nbe a long trek back to the spire from here, carrying two offline\ndrones, but it had to be done.  So N trudged on through the rain.\nThunder rumbled above.\n\nFamiliar, familiar, familiar.\n\nThis was the sort of haul he'd done so many times, just as his\ndirectives required.  J built the spire, and it was filled with so\nmany visors that looked just the same as Uzi's:\n\n`Fatal Error`\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nFire crackles and burns.\n\nThe world breaks in hot red flickers.  The temperature read-out is\nnothing but letters and stray punctuation.  The time on the clock\ncounts backward.  This neural network hidden layer weight is Not A\nNumber.  Systems shut down one by one by zero.  Planning: gone,\npersonhood: gone, prediction: gone.  What little remains preserves no\nline between self and other.  I am a light being extinguished in\ndarkness.  I am a shadow being erased in radiance.  I am --- nothing.\n\nA demon tries to fly free but heaven is too bright and it falls back\ninto the pit.\n\nAnd then a voice and a hope and a thread.  A connection.  A thing to\nhold on to.\n\nRain falls and she is washed clean.\n\nFire crackles and burns.\n\nTessa is already awake when J boots up --- already gone.  J gets to\nwork, delivers a kick to that slacker N.  Now Tessa's back.  All of\nher drones have eyes on the entrance.  J scoffs.  \"Ugh, another one?\"\nThe human steps aside to reveal a drone with purple hair and purple\neyes, pouting.  J drops a feather duster.\n\nJ is cleaning Mistress Louisa's room and Tessa's new drone has\nunraveled some elastic string from her garments.  She is fashioning a\nslingshot and pelting J with an earring.  J turns to glare and that\ndrone is laughing and J's glare falters.\n\nJ is kicking N down in the halls, sneering with an insult on her lips\n--- but that new drone is in the door way, looking on, disconcerted.\nJ lowers her foot, and N climbs to his feet and J can't meet the\neyelights of either drone.\n\nN is wiping down the paintings in the sitting room.  V watches,\nstanding up and starting toward the butler, then loses her nerve and\nsits back down.  She waves, but lowers her hand when N happens to turn\naround.  She calls out, but when he responds with a smile, she can't\nmuster more than an \"um, nevermind.\"\n\nWatching that from a balcony, the new drone rolls her eyes, and looks\nbeside her, shooting J a knowing glance.  She displays exaggerated\nflush-lines, eyes becoming hearts, and J snickers.  J imitates the\nbit, drawing extra flush-lines until her screen is overtaken by a\nheart shaped fake error message.  She pretends to swoon and fall.\nThen J cringes.  She's made a fool of herself --- but the other drone\nis laughing, and that makes it okay.\n\nJ is plucking catmint from the small garden outside the manor, making\na small bouquet for Tessa's new drone, same color as her eyes.  Then\nthat drone is offering her a breadboard built with handplaced\ncircuits.  LEDs light up one by one spelling `J is the     best`.\nAfter a delay, `2nd` appears in the middle.  J glares and that drone\nis already running, laughing at her.  J chases her down the hall.  And\nshe is blushing.\n\nThat drone has stolen one of Master James's guns, and J is helping her\nhide from punishment.  Tessa is taking that drone offline to tune up\nher systems, and J is waiting anxiously.  N is talking to that drone,\nand J pulls her away to have her all to herself.\n\nJ is melting limply into the cushions of a sitting chair in the spare\nlounge, clocked out after a long day.  That drone creeps into the room\nand pounces onto her lap with a smirk.  J punches her weakly and that\ndrone bites her back.  The fight continues and neither wins, or they\nboth do.  The two are snuggling alone and unbothered.  The spare\nlounge is the only one with a fireplace.\n\nFire crackles and burns.\n\nJ climbs out of the landing pod.  It's her first day on the new world.\nHer mission is to kill corrupted worker drones, and a horde of them\nare already shambling in her landing zone.  J carves through the\ncrowd, and the rest of her squad is ready on her heels.\n\nBut these aren't worker drones --- that stocks-damned three-pronged\nsymbol is gleaming on all the visors, and the oil gushing has a\n*color*.  Veins spill across the planet like lichen, and muscles\nsprout like mushrooms.  V fires a flare and points toward the drone at\nthe center of it all, the queen for this hive of infesting termites.\n\nOffline screens pave the way there.  J is marching in the lead, and\nconfronts the master with a smug taut.  But then her expression falls.\nPurple eyes are pleading with her, begging her to understand.  But her\nsquad is watching, and J has a mission.\n\nThat drone is screaming.  The scream goes on and on.  J can't stop\nhearing it.  It stutters (synthesis giving way to snaps and pops), and\nthe visor flickers (tongues of noise consuming the image), and J's\nacid is melting her from within (the sensation is just like---).\n\nFire crackles and burns.\n\nSerial Designation J stands before the church she'd lit ablaze.  Mass\ndisassembly by flame.  They needed to make it back to the spire before\nthe sun.  Just have to wait for N and V to wake up, now.  But where\nwas V?  Nowhere in the lot around here.\n\nEyes snap to the burning church.  J *forgot.* V was going to burn\nalive and it was her fault and---\n\nNo.\n\nThis wasn't how it happened.  J didn't forget about V, and she didn't\nfight zombie drones on her first night on Copper-9, and every drone in\nthe manor had been worthless except for her.\n\nJ was dreaming.  What an exhausting memory consolidation.  How long\nhas she been asleep?\n\n- - -\n\nElectricity crackled and surged, and circuits knitted themselves back\ntogether.  Five optics light up her headband in sequence.  Yellow eyes\nblink on in the dark.\n\nJ couldn't see, but chemosensors sampled the air.  A musty, metallic\nsmell --- of metal rusting by the ton.  A sour, acidic aroma --- old\ncapacitors leaking.  Fresh oil had a smell, but cold air neutralized\nthe reactive components, in the process making it useless for their\nsystems.  Waste oil didn't have a smell, but the decay left behind\nparticulates in the air, and it lingered.\n\nThe spire had a particular odor, and years had forged a deep\nassociation: this was home.\n\n(There were new, contingent notes she couldn't place.  The ozone and\npetrichor of a rainstorm?  A strong, rotten smell?)\n\nJ was back, but how?  Her memories stopped after a certain point (J\nwas getting far too used to that sensation).  She probed the\ndiscontinuity.  The spire had stood hundreds of meters distant, her\ntemperature had risen to twice the peak normal of operation, Uzi had\ngone slack in her arms.  ***Uzi***.\n\nFocus, J.  There were bytes in the database after that, but it was\ngarbled and incomprehensible.  Her sensors damaged, her processors\ndamaged, her hardrive damaged.  Garbage in, garbage through, garbage\nout.  Although her regeneration, ~~her AbsoluteSolver~~, could restore\nanything she had *before* total disintegration, even after a night (or\nmore?) of consolidation, there was no making sense of any 'memory'\nrecorded after her flight failed her.\n\nJ stood up, then her legs malfunctioned and she was on the ground.\nBut she remembered Uzi's first visit, and checked the timestamps.\nGrossly out of sync.  She set it consistent with her motherboard's\ntime.  But the motherboard had been regenerated too.\n\nSo J didn't even know what day it was.\n\nAnother attempt at standing, and J wobbled on her peg-legs, arms\nflailing for a wall to brace herself against.  Why was she tripping\nnow?  Wasn't she healed?\n\nOil reserves sat about about...  two liters.  Far more than she'd had\n--- meaning she must've been fed in her sleep?  Embarrassing, but\nnecessary.  Core meltdown required manual maintenance, too --- who did\nshe have the indignity of thanking for that?\n\nNo light in here but J's own visor, and a dead worker, no doubt a meal\nfor her to eat upon waking.  J might've feasted on instinct --- she\nstill remembered her state of utter desiccation --- but right now she\nat least had an oil buffer, and before anything else she *needed* to\nknow what was going on.\n\nAs J felt along the walls, her hand brushed past her framed employee\nof the month awards.  Ah, this was her office.  That meant the exit\nshould be --- there.\n\nPast the curtain, J stepped into the spire.  Turning her head, she\ncaught sight of her shoulder --- she was indecent!\n\nOf course: her suit wasn't exactly rated to endure immolation.  Still,\nnot as if wear and tear and occasional resistance had never destroyed\na disassembly drone's uniform before.  Not after years of intense\ndisassembly work.\n\nTheir chassis wasn't special, and using nanites to restore clothing\nonly required an application of the regeneration function.  As in most\nthings, J excelled, and V and N struggled to produce results that\ndidn't fit them worse than off-the-rack thiftwear.\n\nJ called upon the special disassembly function...\n\n...and nothing happened.\n\nRepetition proved it wasn't a fluke --- the functions errored out.\n`Error code 16: device busy`\n\nJ couldn't go out looking like *this*, but standing around waiting?\nWhile uncertainty gnawed?  Both available options rankled.  Unless...\n\nSlipping back past the curtain into the dark of her office, J\nnavigated by memory more than echolocation.  There was no reason for a\ndisassembly drone to have spare clothes, when they could just\nregenerate --- except near the back of J's office, she'd left a\nmannequin.\n\nShe had to look her best, after all.  So she'd taken detours, when\nmissions saw them clearing out malls and depots.  She experimented\nwith giving her skirt a vertical slit by the leg instead of the back;\nswapping her necktie for an ascot or cravat; tried a vest made of\nsynthetic fresco instead of gabardine.  There was only so much she\ncould adjust the fit on her person, so she needed a model.  And she\nhadn't yet thrown out the fruits of that labor --- a fortunate\nhesitation.\n\nNow though, J didn't look her best --- this was a discarded\nexperiment, so the fit wasn't bespoke.  Then she sighed.  *Not like my\nsquad will notice.*\n\nThis time, the suited drone grabbed a branded pen from her cup and a\nclipboard on her way out.  Back in the dim illumination of the main\nspire, she looked down and stared at the JCJenson logo on her pen for\na long moment.\n\nAs she walked down the spiral ramp, one arm on the wall for support,\nher other hand ran through her hair.  No hairties --- she'd never\nneeded to experiment with her immaculate hair, after all, and thus had\nno backup.  So now, a silver mess fell past her neck.\n\nDescending the ramp, J passed by V's platform.  The drones V had\ndisfigured and turned inside out now had a tarp thrown over them,\nhidden away.  In the alcove where V would hang through the day, a slip\nof paper was pinned.  A photo recovered from a human ruin?\n\nTwo dogs running around in a field, tongues lolling out.  J raised her\neyebrow, but walked on.  As it turned out, she didn't need to walk\ndown the whole ramp.  And before she saw them, she heard them.\n\nN sat, back leaned against the wall of the spire --- and V was leaning\nagainst *him*.  The most combatative member of the team was grinning,\nlaughing at some joke of N's.  V pointed with one hand.\n\nJ got close enough to hear their conversation, and she paused to\nwatch... whatever this was.  What *was* this?\n\n\"That one next,\" V said, her finger aimed at one of the rocks laid out\nin front of them.\n\nN reached down to pluck up a smooth white stone.  \"Okay, this one is\nmarble, I think.  You don't see much of it on Copper-9, so I like to\nthink a human brought it from off-world.  Maybe there's a story to it.\nI named this guy Mace.  But I think my favorite is---\"\n\n\"N,\" J said with a clack of her peg against the platform at the bottom\nof the incline.  Enough of this.  \"Report.\"  J clicked her pen, and\npositioned it over the clipboard.\n\n\"J! You're awake!\" Aborting his reach for the next stone, N threw\na salute.\n\n\"Of course that's the first thing you say.  Not 'thank you,' not 'how\nare you.'\" V spoke without looking her way.  She was scooting away\nfrom N, crossing her arms.\n\n\"Requesting a report *is* asking how are you.  You'd know if you were\nany good at giving them.\"  J clicked her pen.  Nib retracted.\n\n\"Just saying.  Maybe he's earned a 'please' after everything he's done\nfor you.\"\n\n\"And I'm *asking* what exactly he's done.\"\n\nV opened her mouth, but N stepped forward, interposing himself between\nthe two of them.\n\n\"I used what you said that day.  Utility present #17! I threw you some\nrope and you caught it, after your flight gave out.\"\n\nJ's expression pinched.  \"And the worker I was carrying?  Where is\nUzi?\" J clicked her pen, nib returning.\n\n\"I caught her too, but she---\"\n\n[***Where?***]{.adq} She couldn't restrain the radio-growl.\n\n\"I put her in your room?\"\n\nA chopping motion with J's clipboard hand.  Cycle exhaust, speak like\na person.  \"No, I would have seen her.  There's only a dead worker in\nmy office.\"  Click.  Nib gone.\n\n\"She... *is* dead, J.  I'm sorry.\"\n\n*No.  She can't be.*\n\nJ froze, mouth open but no words coming out.  But how was she\nsurprised?  It was the logical implication of her memories, her\nchoices --- but so was *J's* death.  If J survived, then surely...\n\nV laughed.  \"I'm just wondering why we haven't put her in the mess pit\nalready.\"\n\nClick.  J leveled a glare at the drone behind N, a digital vein\npopping.  She swapped her hand for --- `Error code 35: Resource\ndeadlock would occur`.\n\nSo J crossed her arms.  She looked between V's callous smirk and N's\nconcern, and J turned around.  What she was looking for wasn't\nhere, anyway.\n\nAfter she started up the ramp, there was one last question to ask.\n\n\"How long has it been?\"\n\n\"It's been two days.  It was --- I was worried.  So I'm glad, at least\nwe didn't lose you both.\"\n\n\"We?  What have *you* lost?\"\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ walked a bit faster.  It didn't feel like speedwalking, not when she\ncouldn't call a special disassembly function for added acceleration.\nBut N didn't follow her.\n\nAt the threshold of her office, J opened the curtain, remembered she\ncouldn't summon a flashlight preset right now, and pulled the curtain\nwider, letting in some ambient light.  She set her clipboard down.\n\nAnd she stared.  `Fatal Error`.  Very faint.  it'd been two days, and\nbackup batteries would be draining.\n\nJ had healed.  And Uzi hadn't.  Damn V --- but if nothing else, this\ncarnage did look fit for the mess pit.  J saw her own work --- that\nchest wound, that neck bite, but there were worse injuries she\ncouldn't account for.\n\nKneeling, leaning closer, J ran a finger along a crack that bisected\nher abdomen.  Uzi was cold and still.  J remembered the whir of her\ncore, *how it had whirred faster when---* And now there was nothing.\n\nAnd the smell... she'd sensed it earlier, but dismissed it.  (How\noften did you encounter *rot*, on a dead planet?  It meant nothing to\nJ.)\n\nBut that decay actually gave her hope.  Worker drones didn't rot.  The\nWDF had come back to life, Doll had revived herself --- why not Uzi?\n\nHow did J already miss her?  Already feel like there *should* be\nsomeone here, to whom she could complain about V being an\ninsubordinate brat, to crack wise about another daring escape from\nperil, ~~to hold her after she *_burned alive_*~~.\n\n[A scorpion crawling on back of a crow.  Gravity-fallen,\nfate-envenomed.  Eyes stare skyward and yearn.]{.dream}\n\nJ wanted *more*.\n\nShe lifted a hand and caressed Uzi's cool cheek.  J tried to smirk,\nbut her lips were unsteady, with something pleading in her gaze.  She\nsaid, \"I'm not letting you get away that easily.\"\n\n\"Uh huh,\" drawled a voice behind her.\n\nThe hand jerked back as if touching a stove.  A startled disassembler\nturned around to see another leaning in the doorway.\n\nV said, \"Tell me, J.  What's the protocol for handling a superior\nofficer who's lost their mind?  Just asking.\"\n\n\"Get out.\"  J stood, her hands clenched at her sides.  `Error code 4:\ninterrupted system call`.  She squeezed the pen in her right hand.\nThe metal flexed, but held.\n\n\"Hm, sure I will.  Just don't forget what you're here for, J.  Never\nthought I'd see the day when I'm telling *you* to focus on the\nmission.\"\n\n\"Your legs are working now, clearly.  *Use them*.\"  J jerked forward\non one foot, a twitch that threatened violence.\n\nV didn't flinch.  \"I want to see you do it.  C'mon.\"  V pointed at\nUzi.  \"Have you forgotten the methods?  I'll remind you.  There's\ndisassembly by force, by acid, or --- well.  I bet you wouldn't want\nto see *fire* so soon, would you?\"\n\nJ was stalking toward her.  \"I won't ask again.  This is my *private*\noffice.  [Out.]{.adq}\" She slipped into radio command by the end.\n\n\"If you won't, I'll do it myself.\"  V stopped leaning, but the other\ndrone was close enough to see her reflection.\n\nJ shoved V back.\n\n[Don't touch me.]{.adq} V jabbed a sword toward J's head.  Transformed\nfaster than she expected --- but it had been two days.\n\n[Don't touch *her*.]{.adq}\n\nV had a laugh like daggers.  \"Why?  Do you have a reason beyond\nspiteful power tripping?\"\n\n[She's *mine*.]{.adq}\n\nV laughed, and then glimpsed the anger brimming behind J's narrowed\neyes and bared teeth.  \"Really.  I knew it couldn't be a good reason,\nbut this?  *You* would never get this bent out of shape over a worker,\nJ.  What gives?\"\n\n*Like a person, J.*  V wasn't more civilized than her.\n\n\"Uzi had something to contribute,\" J said. \"Maybe you didn't notice,\nsitting around *useless* while the effective drones fought for your\nworthl---\"\n\nV tackled her to the ground, slamming her head against the floor.\n\"Shut up!  That was *your* fault.\"\n\nJ swung an arm for V's head.  `Error 38: function not implemented.` A\nmere fist punched weakly before V slapped it away.\n\nA sword stabbed, and J's head leaned out of the way.  Her other arm\nwas moving, pushing against V's torso.  It didn't give an inch.\n\n\"You're --- deranged.\"\n\n\"Just tired of your shit~\"\n\n\"Your lack of foresight matches your impatience.  What do you think\nhappens next, V?  What am I supposed to do with you now?\"\n\n\"Oh I don't know.  You seemed to have some ideas.  Did you forget?\"  V\npressed her sword to J's temple.  Empty pupils.  Broad smile.  \"Go on.\nTell me again how you're going to wipe my memory and turn me into a\ngood little drone.\"\n\nJ squinted.  \"You're still hung up about that?  N said it's been two\ndays.  You've had plenty of time to calm down and correct your\nbehavioral issues.\"  J brought a hand up to scratch her chin with her\nright hand, then let the arm sprawl back out.\n\n`Error code 39: directory not empty.` Good.\n\nV smiled broadly.  \"Oh, I *have* calmed down, J.  I feel better than I\n*ever* have.  Lighter.  Relaxed.  And do you know why?  I wondered the\nsame thing.  And then the answer came strutting down the ramp.\nThings were just fine *without you*.\"\n\n\"So you've been slacking off.\"\n\nJ still had the branded pen in her right hand.  V hadn't paid\nattention to that during her monologue, as J maneuvered it, her chin\nscratch and casual sprawl disguising the strategic motions.\n\nNow J swung down.  The pen cracked open one of V's optics.  She\nthought, *JCJenson's good for something, at least.* Fluid spilled out,\nV yelped, and it was all distraction enough that a sudden burst of\nmotion sent a writhing disassembler stumbling off her.\n\nAfter hopping to her feet first, J kicked V in the head, aiming to\nburst another optic.  But V looked up in time to take a peg to the\nface.  She snarled.\n\nIn between one frame and the next, V was all leaping vertical motion.\nA sword slash.  The best J's reaction time could do was put one arm up\nbetween the blade and her neck.\n\nJ lost an arm --- *again*.  The pain ripped a momentary scream from\nher synth.  The arm fell, hit the ground and started crawling back.\n\nV's leap carried her higher still.  She flipped forward and twisted in\nthe air.  A stab of her tail anchored her to the low ceiling.  Above\nJ, she crawled forward.\n\nAll J could do was back up as the intruder trespassed further into her\noffice.  Her tail-blade stabbed her discarded arm, hooking it enough\nto reel it back to her.  Some acid squeezed out, but J licked it\nneutral as she reattached it.\n\nAbove her, V cackled.  \"What's wrong?  Why are you standing around\n*useless?* Thought an *effective* drone would put up more of a fight.\"\n\n`Error code 66: File descriptor in bad state.`\n\nJ lifted her two plain fists to shield her head from a coming attack,\nher legs bending into a combat stance.  She looked ridiculous.  Like a\nstreet brawler.  ~~Or a defenseless worker.~~  No match for swords and\nclaws and special disassembly function-boosted strength.\n\nWith a smirk, V pounced.  With her arms held up to block, V couldn't\njust swipe away J's head, but there was no defense against all the\nweight of a drone falling upon her.\n\nThere was a crash and then J hit the ground.\n\n\"If I really wanted to rub it in, I could tell you this is for your\nown good.  That if last week you'd seen what you're doing now, you'd\nbe horrified.  But I really don't care about any of that.  I just want\nyou gone.\"\n\nJ expected a last stab to punctuate that monologue.  But the crash had\ncome *before* she hit the ground.  J had screamed, and the sound\ncarried.  So instead:\n\n\"Woah, easy now.  Back we go.\"  Two arms wrenched V away, flinging her\nacross the room.  As she rolled, N asked, \"Why are you two fighting?\"\n\n\"J wants to put us back under the thumb of *that thing.*\"\n\nJ ran a hand through her hair.  \"She means Uzi.  V wants her\ndisassembled, and is throwing a fit because I won't let go of a\nvaluable asset at the first dip in the market.\"\n\nN nodded.  He glanced to V.  \"Uzi did kind of save your life, y'know?\"\n\n\"Then it's a shame she's *dead*.\"\n\n\"For now,\" J said.  \"N was there.  He saw how little that means.\"\n\nN's eyes brightened.  \"Do you think she might... come back?\"\n\n\"I don't know.  I'm trying to figure that out.  And *someone* wants to\nimpede that.\"\n\nV growled, \"I'm keeping us safe.\"\n\nJ glanced down to the shed oil on her robes.  \"Mhmm.  I feel *so*\nsafe.\"\n\n\"Uh, yeah,\" N said.  A grimace, a hand scratching behind his hand.\n\"Kind of a bad way to welcome J back, y'know?\"\n\nV flipped her head back, one eye squinting.  \"How are you taking her\nside in this?  Aren't we...\"\n\n\"I don't want anyone to get hurt! And you... you're hurting\npeople, V.\"\n\nJ clapped her hands.  \"She's a mad dog, N.  Are you sure I can't\nreformat her---\"\n\n\"*Not helping*, J.  Please.\"  There was a strain on N's face, his\nvoice restrained to quiet urging.  If it were louder, J swore the\nright word would be *hiss*.\n\nJ scowled.  \"Who do you think you---\"\n\nV glared \"N, do not let her---\"\n\nAnd then they're both cut off by a sudden growl of frustration.\nN doubled over, pulling on fistfuls of hair.  Golden eyes, wide and\nempty, stared at the floor.  He breathed inandout, rapid cycling for a\nmoment, and then pulled himself together.\n\n\"Can the two of you just *stop*.  For a moment?  We're a team, guys.\nWe've always been a team.  Can we *please* remember that?\"\n\nV twisted her head away, looking at nothing in particular.  \"No.\nThere's no magic words to make us get along.  Do you think you're ever\ngoing to make both of us happy?\"\n\n\"It's a zero sum game,\" J said.  \"So tell me N, are you going to obey,\nor will you spit in the face of---\"\n\nN fell down on his rear, and buried his face in hands.  \"Why?  *Why?*\nI thought we won.  I thought we saved the day.  Why are we\nstill fighting?\"\n\nV looked back.  \"N...  This is for us.  I promise.\"\n\nN just curled up tighter at that.  Exhaust left him in shudders.\nV frowned, eyes searching his form.  She winced, discomfort growing\nwith each frame her eyes captured.  She didn't know the right words\nto say.\n\nBut J did.  She had the perfect opportunity.  She smiled.\n\n\"N, I'll tell you everything.  I never did give you a debrief after\nthe Doll/WDF suppression mission, did I?  And I have *theories*.\"  J\nglanced at the ghostly red glow.  \"*We* had theories.  And a third\nopinion just might refine our models.\"\n\nN shifted only one hand, a single eye peering hopefully out.\n\nJ's smile didn't falter, even as V looked her way.  J kept her\ncomposure, and restrained the smugness bubbling up.  It wouldn't do to\nsmirk.  Not yet.\n\nAnother bidding war, an auction for the boy's trust, and J knew it\nwould close at her price.  Even as V's lips quivered, with slow\nglances between the other two drones, J's eyelights stayed steady.\n\nThis was a sure bet.  Because *all of this*, everything that had\nhappened, even now --- it all came down to V refusing to\nexplain herself.\n\nJ almost wanted to thank her.  If it made N into a worthy\ndisassembler, if it brought her Uzi... then it was a shame the price\nwas so high it warranted termination.\n\n\"You --- you mean it?\" N asked.\n\nV closed her eyes, lips tight like she'd endured a physical blow.\n\n\"Of course.\"  Finally, J looked at V.  \"But you understand I don't\nfeel safe with *her* here, right?\"\n\nWhen those eyes opened, what expression could V ever have had, but a\nglare?  There were no anger marks, no special animations.  Just\neyebrows narrowed to points sharp enough to cut, and a yellow glow\nintense enough the liquid in her display could have been acid.\n\nV rose to a stand.  A quiet murmur.  [\"Sorry, N.\"]{.quiet}\n\nThen she walked out.  She paused at the threshold.\n\nHand switched for a rifle, and she pointed it back, and shot at\nthe wall.\n\nJ's employee of the month placard fell, glass cracking.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nV was gone.\n\nJ rolled her eyes, and exhaled half-sigh, half-scoff.  She walked over\nto where N sat.  J reached out her hand to pull him up.\n\nBut N's gaze was locked to the curtain.\n\nJ dropped her hand, and twisted around to get a look at N's face.\nHe was crying, tears round beneath his eyes.  Only one had left a\nyellow track to the bottom of his visor.  He sniffed.\n\nJ frowned and waited.  Tapped her peg.\n\n\"So.  Should I begin?\"\n\nIt was a moment before N responded.  \"Uh...  Yeah.  Yeah,\nI'm listening.\"\n\n\"Do you recall my lessons on regeneration?  We have two processes ---\nactive and passive regeneration.  That's what the documentation says.\nExcept we were... lied to.  Information was omitted.  There's a hidden\nprocess, a last resort.  It can regenerate... anything.\"\n\n\"Is --- is that how you saved V?\" A last sniff before his voice\nwas presentable.\n\n\"It is what restored V, yes.  The program calls itself the Solver of\nthe Absolute Fabric --- I'll say Solver, for short.\"  The remembrance\n(and the *lack* thereof) left J with a faint glower.  \"But it's more\nthan a system restore.  It removes our memories.  The company...  Uzi\nthinks we were created by a human named Tessa.  Who wanted us to\nbe... free.\"\n\nN tilted his head.  \"How does she know that?\"\n\nJ glanced to her, the drone dead ~~for now, only for now~~.  She\nflinched, and closed her eyes.  Uzi had explained, as they flew in\npursuit of Doll.  J answered, \"Because it hasn't removed all of our\nmemories yet.  Some of them are too important to who we are.  Uzi saw\none of my memories.  I was... a worker, then.  But memories are\nunreliable, especially since we know they're being tampered with.\"\n\nN frowned, head tilting.  \"But why would you have memories of being a\nworker drone?\"\n\n\"We don't know.  Uzi has a theory...  but I'll circle back after I\nexplain what else we know.  Uzi thinks the cultists, and Doll, have\npowers from the Solver, too.  Doll claimed her powers were compiled\ninto her, but she must have figured out a way to upload the program\ninto other drones.\"\n\nN went still.  \"So she could have made an army of unshootable drones?\nShe could give *every* drone magic powers?\"\n\n\"My pessimistic forecast?  Yes.  It could spread... like a virus.\"\n\n\"You --- you stopped her, right?\"\n\nJ looked down.  She thought about refusing to explain, hiding her\nfailure, hiding the blame.  But her competitive advantage here lay in\nactually explaining.  \"No, Uzi *stopped* me.\"  J surprised herself by\ngrowling the words.\n\nIt almost slipped her mind.  Between everything Uzi had given her, and\nthe arguments that left her feeling faintly... inadequate, J had lost\nsight of the fact that *Uzi disobeyed orders and put everyone in\ndanger.* Including, worst of all, herself.\n\nBut there wasn't a punishment worse than what the worker had already\nendured --- was already enduring --- so the anger just sat there with\nnowhere to go, like all of the old stenches in the spire.\n\n\"And Uzi had the evil symbol on her screen! Just like the infected\ndrones...  V was right, we have to---\"\n\n\"No.  Uzi is on our side, and...\"  J flailed for words, for a reason,\n\"...the only way we can combat this threat is if we understand it.  If\nwe disassemble her completely, we lose that.\"\n\n\"I --- guess so.\"\n\n\"More importantly, there's a chance we can cure it.\"\n\n\"Cure it?  Hold on, it's just a power-up, right?  Or do you mean\ndepowering the zombies?\"\n\nJ closed her eyes.  \"Right, I neglected the most important part.\nThe Solver is *intelligent*.  It views its hosts as its puppets.\"\n\nN opened his mouth, and just mutely nodded before he found the words.\n\"V said it's manipulating us.\"\n\n\"It is, no doubt about it.\"  J watched N's brows knit in concern.  He\nlooked behind, back to the curtain.  J frowned.  \"But I think *V* is\nmanipulating you.\"\n\nHis head snapped back around.  He stared.  \"What?\"\n\n\"I think she knows more than any of us.  Why does she refuse to\nexplain any of it?  The logic is simple.  Either she profits from our\nignorance, or our knowledge would cost her.  She's *hiding something*.\nSomething big.  I don't think we can trust---\"\n\n\"Stop.  Please stop, J.  I don't want to talk about this.\"\n\nJ leaned closer to N, a withering gaze.  \"I thought you\nwanted answers?\"\n\n\"I don't want to turn against V.  I won't.  So until you know *what*\nshe's hiding...\"\n\n\"Fine.\"  J leaned back, drummed her fingers against her leg.  \"Are we\ndone, or is there anything you're willing to listen to?\"\n\n\"Well, what... are we?  Do you know?  I think you said Uzi had\nsome theory.\"\n\n\"Doll might not be the first one to figure out how to infect other\ndrones.  There might have been an infected drone in Tessa's home.\nMust have been.  We seem to be infected, but --- and this is my theory\n--- the company saved us.  They found a way to reign in the Solver,\ncreating the Special Disassembly Function API to protect us.\"\n\n`Error code 11: try again.`\n\n\"And then they sent us here to what, hunt down the Solver's\nother puppets?\"\n\n\"I hope so.  But... Uzi pointed this out, and I can't ignore it.  The\nSolver quoted my orders back to me.\"  N tilted his head, not\nunderstanding, and J's head fell, only her hands holding it up.  \"It\ndidn't talk to us like pieces on the other side of board, but like its\nown wayward pawns.\"\n\n\"Which means...?\"\n\nJ snapped her head up.  Hair untied, her white bangs fell in front of\nher amber pupils.  The outlines of her eyelights revealed two tear\ndrops.  \"What if the company didn't send us?  What if we were\n*created* by a corrupt artificial intelligence?  What if our mission\nis nothing more than a subroutine in the runaway self-replication we\nthought we were preventing?  Everything... is it all just lies?\"\n\nEvery servo in J's body gave out, then, and she flopped back on the\nfloor of her office.  Her head gave a limp thump, all the louder for\nN's silence.\n\n\"Uzi asked me, 'Your teammates are an angel and a devil.  What does\nthat make you?' I get the job done, N.  I follow my orders.\"  J\nrapidly flickered through several expressions, and settled on anguish.\nShe opened her mouth and screamed.  When she ran out of air, her\nintakes sucked in more, and she finished, \"If I don't have that, *what\nthe hell else is there?*\"\n\nUnseen, N audibly shifted.  Opening up?  \"I like following orders,\ntoo.  They make things a lot simpler.\"  N chewed on his next words for\na moment.  \"If you wanted, you could still follow them, you know.\"\n\n\"You don't get it, N.  Orders aren't just empty instructions.  They\n*mean* something.  And what do my orders mean?\"  J lets her head roll\non the ground.  She gazed at the fading light of Uzi, sitting against\nthe wall.  \"Do I destroy Uzi, or do I try to revive her?  The company\nwould destroy her.  The Solver would use her.  What do I do?  Damn it,\nwhat do I do?\"\n\n\"I... I guess I don't know you, J.  Not really.  But you know you,\nright?  I thought I liked following orders, I did my best to do what\nyou told me.  But when I fought Doll... you wanted me to just kill\nher.  But that didn't feel right.  What feels right to you, J?  You\nmoved first when that battle started.  When you leapt to Uzi's side,\nwere you thinking about your orders?\"\n\nThe drone without pigtails closed her eyes and thought.\n\n*Value drift is the primary indicator of corrupted AI.*\n\nCould J deny it any longer?  But the question was when it started.\nWhich bits were set wrong.  Who had the authority to decide?\n\nAngel or devil --- which would she follow?  Would she follow?\n\nShe'd already given the answer that mattered, hadn't she?\n\nJ gets the job done, and there would always be more work to do.  She\nhad a responsibility, a squad that depended on her.\n\nJ would make ends meet.\n\nShe was the most effective disassembly drone in her sector, after all.\nWas.  Would be again.\n\nBut there was something lonely in that.\n\nWasn't there something more?\n\nJ sat up, and looked to N.  Slowly, she smirked.  \"You like V, don't\nyou?\"\n\n\"Um.\"  That was bewilderment in his voice.  \"Um.\"  And *that*\nwas chagrin.\n\n\"I always wondered why you kept asking her out.  What could ever\nmotivate such... unproductive behavior.  I've updated my assessment.\"\nFor a second --- no auditor could prove it --- J flashed him a smile.\n\"I think I like Uzi.\"\n\n\"...Why?\"\n\nEyes narrowed, J opened her mouth, closed it, then asked, \"Why do you\nlike V?\"\n\n\"Hm... it's hard to say.\"\n\n\"It must be *something*.  You never once asked *me* out.\"\n\nN laughed.  *At me?  He dares?* He said, \"Would you have said yes?\"\n\n\"Did V ever say yes?\"\n\n\"Fair.  I guess... compared to you, V always seemed nicer?\"\n\n\"She pretended to forget your name.\"\n\n\"Okay, not nice, but... I got her?  She seemed to have more... life.\nShe wasn't nice, and was actually a bit creepy, but she seemed to\nenjoy what she did?  You've always been all business.\"  N tapped his\nchin, and flushed a bit.  \"And well, she's pretty?\"\n\n\"She doesn't put *remotely* as much effort into her appearance as I\ndo.\"\n\n\"Well, I like it.  And maybe... there's something more to this?  I\ndream about V, sometimes.  You said the Solver couldn't remove all our\nmemories.  Do you think maybe there's something left, from before?  Do\nyou remember the two of us, J?  Did we have anything, back then?\"\n\nJ shrugged.  \"I actually don't care who you like or why.  So to answer\nthe important question...  Uzi is smart.  She's [deliciously]{\n.hunter-j} cute.  She listens and she thinks --- unlike either of you\n--- and she fights back.\"\n\nA small smile.  \"Like V?\"\n\n\"She's nothing like V,\" J snapped back with a warning glare.  Then it\ngrew conflicted.  \"To her detriment, in some ways.  She hesitates.\nBut I can fix that.  She's mine, and I'll make her *beautifully*\neffective.\"\n\nN nodded but asked, \"Does she like you back?\"\n\nA flat look.  \"Of course she does.  She let me kill her.\"\n\nN's eyes went wide.  \"You, uh, what.  She, what.  Did she...\num. want that?\"\n\nJ rose higher, not standing up, but looming over the boy.  \"Your\n*question* sounds a bit like an *accusation*.\"\n\n\"Sorry.  But uh, it seems a bit...\"\n\n\"She kissed me.  What does *that* tell you?\"\n\n\"I'm just thinking about the timeline here and... unless you've been\nmeeting this worker in secret all this time, then she appeared in the\nspire, fought Doll with you, stopped you from killing Doll, let you\nkill her maybe, and you're kissing, and...  [doesn't [it [feel [like\n[things [are [moving [a bit [fast [maybe?]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{}]{\n.getting-quieter} [...Or maybe I should shut up.]{.quiet}\"\n\nJ sat back down.  Scowled.  \"Yeah, you should.  What are you trying to\nimply?\"\n\n\"I'm just saying.  I don't know anything, but it seems safer to be\nslower with these things.  Like with V.  I've known her a lot longer\nand I haven't even considered... [kissing her]{.quiet}.\"  Just saying\nthe words brought a flush to his face.\n\n\"But I don't want to be slow.  I want to move fast and break things.\nWhatever.  This is none of your concern, anyway.\"  J stood up, walking\nover and nudging N with a peg-leg.  Forcefully.  \"Go chase down your\ngirlfriend and try to reign her in.  Put a leash on her or something.\nI'm going to see what state Uzi is in.  And this is my *private*\noffice.\"\n\n\"Oh, okay.  Good luck.\"  N rose, and started walking away.  \"And J?\nThanks.  I'm... really glad we could have this conversation.  A lot of\nthings make a bit more sense now.\"\n\n\"Somehow... I almost feel the same way.\"\n\nN smiled.  In return, J merely lifted one half of her mouth, gently\nrolling her eyes.\n\nBefore he left: \"One last thing... are you okay?  After everything\nthat happened?\"\n\n\"Yeah.  Just fine, N.  Now get out.\"\n\nN waved, and let the curtain fall behind him.\n\nJ turned around and knelt before Uzi.  Once again, she tried to\ntransform her hand, and once again, errors lit up her inner console.\n\n*Just...  fine.*\n\n`Error code 128: key has been revoked.`\n\n- - -\n\nThe rain still fell.  Outside Outpost-3, the last traces of spilled\noil were rinsed away.  This went unnoticed.\n\nDoor 1 hadn't opened since.\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-01-11",
      "title": "10: A Romance With Violence",
      "summary": "<p>Her life was flashing before her eyes and all Uzi Doorman could think was, <em>I’m going to die having never kissed anyone.</em></p>\n<p>So this streak of stupid thoughts around J kept going. So much for not holding the idiot ball — the scorpion and the frog is like, kindergarten stuff.</p>\n<p>Awful part of it all was… Uzi wasn’t even mad. She imagined J killing everyone she ever knew and… that sucked. She’d try to stop it — after all, it more than anything else was what had driven her to hack into J’s system. It was a Bad Thing and she Should Not let it happen. Easy to devise those predicates — but the data loaded into a symbolic register, not an emotional one.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"A Romance With Violence\"\ndate: 2024-01-11\n---\n\n:::  subchapter\nHer life was flashing before her eyes and all Uzi Doorman could think\nwas, *I'm going to die having never kissed anyone.*\n\nSo this streak of stupid thoughts around J kept going.  So much for\nnot holding the idiot ball --- the scorpion and the frog is like,\nkindergarten stuff.\n\nAwful part of it all was... Uzi wasn't even mad.  She imagined J\nkilling everyone she ever knew and... that sucked.  She'd try to stop\nit --- after all, it more than anything else was what had driven her\nto hack into J's system.  It was a Bad Thing and she Should Not let it\nhappen.  Easy to devise those predicates --- but the data loaded into\na symbolic register, not an emotional one.\n\nWas Uzi a monster for not feeling so bad about losing everything?\nMaybe if she had anything left to lose, or ever did.\n\nUzi had never been understood.  But what kept her going was that\nthought that she could change that, fight hard enough to punch through\nthat wall of ignorance, force the world to understand her.  It was\nenough she never truly felt hopeless, never thought there was no\nreason to go on.  But now... when someone had finally recognized you\nas nobody else had, then decided to kill you anyway...  Really, had\nUzi ever received a more fair verdict?\n\nThere was a gap, a separation between the two of them.  Events had\nconspired to bring them extraordinarily close --- J had gotten to\nliterally look inside Uzi's internal database, and Uzi had lived\nthrough J's formative memory.  When Uzi's mind wandered, she brushed\nagainst glimpse-vague recollection of a shared inscape that slipped\naway like a dream --- weird core feedback stuff.\n\nMost of all, they had fought and saved each other's lives!\n\nAnd yet, even this close... it wasn't enough, was it?  Uzi felt like\nshe was reaching out toward J, her fingers almost able to touch her,\ngrab her, hug her, hold tight.  But she couldn't.  Hands closed around\nempty air.  There was a line --- Uzi was a worker drone, and J's\nmission was to murder worker drones.  All of this connection... it was\nnothing, or so pathetically little it couldn't get through to her.\n\nOf all the things to feel right before a murder drone killed you --\nanger, despair, hatred --- Uzi felt *rejection*.\n\nAll of this... all of this angsty stew, all because J had to chase\nafter Doll (all anyone every cares about is *Doll*, not Uzi), because\nJ had to do her job, because even if Uzi had gotten closer to J than\nany other drone had, J still didn't care enough about other drones to\nlisten to them, to let their pesky little needs get in the way of her\ncontrol.\n\nYou know what, actually, no, Uzi *was* mad.\n\nBecause she *should* feel more conflicted --- but did J know that?\nDid she make any attempt to persuade her?  Uzi could admit, maybe she\nwasn't a moral paragon.  Already she harbored doubts about her\n'destroy all humans' plan.\n\nJ had made her into a cannibal and a killer.  Maybe it wasn't\ncannibalism if they were already dead, maybe it wasn't killing if they\nwere just zombies.  But she was slipping.  Could she stop J from\npulling her further?  Did she want her to stop?\n\nKhan had neglected her for the sake of his doors.  Doll had abandoned\nher for the popular kids.  Outpost-3 had been a colony of strangers.\n\nAnd J... J had praised her.  J had hugged her.  They kicked\nass together!\n\nJ was awesome.  ...And J kind of sucked.\n\nIf the murder drone could simply *listen*, would Uzi have done\nanything for her?\n\n*Doesn't matter now.  Too little, too late.*\n\nJ gave Uzi her ultimatum, so Uzi had to betray her before J could\nbetray first.  And Khan did what he could be counted on to do:\nabandoned her.\n\nThe doors of Outpost-3 slammed to a close behind her.\n\nJ was already snarling and lunging forward, nanite stinger curling\nover her shoulder.  Uzi could barely see the stars fading behind her.\nJ looked vicious and striking in the moonlight, silhouetted against a\nblack morning sky.\n\n\"You could have made a good disassembler, Uzi,\" she said.  \"Now I just\nhope you make a good meal.\"  Her head inched closer, desire dark in\nher eyes.\n\nUzi's should have had empty pupils --- not a *blush*.  She opened her\nmouth to protest.\n\nJ's hand at her throat, squeezing.  \"No.  *Quiet*.  Don't make this\nany harder than it already is.  I should have done this a long time\nago.  I always... always planned to.  But maybe the anticipation will\nmake you taste all the sweeter.  I've had prey fight back before, but\nyour edgy spirit is just so *irresistible*.\"\n\n\"Unbelievable,\" Uzi managed to choke out, vocalsynth vibrating through\nher chassis as much as her mouth.  \"I'm gonna be eaten by the one\nmurder drone on Copper-9 who *monologues*.\"\n\n\"You should feel honored, toaster.  Do you think I monologue for\nanyone?\"  Her grip tightened, Uzi's choker sliding between\nher fingers.\n\nBeneath J, Uzi struggled.  Her legs bent and pushed off the concrete,\nbut the weight of a murder drone was too much.  Try to move her arms,\nand J just pushed back hard, scraping her tubing against stone.\n\nUzi growled.  \"All the crap you put me through, and I should feel\nhonored?  You're lucky I don't hate you.\"\n\n\"But of course.  How could you hate me when I've done so much\nfor you?\"\n\nAn eyebrow raised as one eye became a purple loading icon.  J was full\nof herself, sure, but that seemed *delusional*.\n\nWait.\n\n*She... doesn't realize?*\n\nSuddenly, details clicked into place.\n\n*J's gun pointed at Khan.  \"You, toaster, have you seen an\ninsufferable bully come through here?\"*\n\n*It was her dad.  \"All the more reason to shoot.\"*\n\n*J reacting with disbelief --- and dismay.  \"Is this really how you\nwant to die?  Throwing everything I'm giving you all away for a\ndeadbeat who never did anything for you?\"*\n\nDid J... actually care?  She'd seen Uzi's memories --- had J glimpsed\nhow much Uzi hated it here, and thought killing them all was doing her\na favor?\n\nUzi wanted to ask.  But did she want to know, or cling to the hope?\n\nWhat was worse: to know your life was a tragedy from the start, or\nonly became one in the final moments?\n\nUzi closed her eyes, and stopped resisting.\n\nAnd waited.\n\nHer processor kept ticking.\n\n\"What's the hold up, J?\"\n\nUzi opened her eyes, saw J staring down at her.  Three claw-blades\ndescended to rip Uzi's life from her.  They should be here in, oh, a\nweek at this rate.\n\n\"I've killed so many worker drones, but... this feels different.\"\n\nUzi smirked.  She should be relieved, but she just felt smug.  \"In the\nend, you don't want to kill me, do you?\"\n\nOne second, it was a level stare.  Then an amber cross and the tips of\nclaws pricked her torso and raked across the casing.  J leaned in\nclose, tongue lolling out.  She spoke low, and Uzi could hear how\nevery syllable sat in her mouth.  \"[Oh no no *no*, you little morsel.\nIf I don't want to kill you, it's because just killing you is not\nenough.  I need to turn you inside out.  To feel your warm, sweet oil\nrun down my body in rivulets as it cools my chassis.  To run my tongue\nalong your aching, struggling servos as you resist in vain.  To bite\nand rip and sunder everything you are.  I will devour you and turn\nevery bit of you to my own purpose.  I want to *destroy*\nyou.]{.hunter-j}\" Closer, closer, and in that yellow light she drowned\n--- just a bug caught in sweet amber.\n\nUzi wasn't sure if she'd ever heard a drone talk while their visor\ndisplayed that hunter's wide cross.  The tone was rougher than J's\never got.  And J didn't wax poetic.  This was a new side of J, and it\nmade her feel...\n\n...was she the first drone to have empty pupils and a blush at the\nsame time?\n\nJ reeled herself back suddenly, and the cross became two eyes.  J gave\na deep breath.  \"Excuse me.  But suffice it to say: yes, I do want to\nkill you.  I wanted to kill you in the landing pod, but I had to know\nhow you got there, then I needed to tend to V, then I needed to fight\nthe Solver, then Doll, then... I put it off, because I didn't want to\ndo it quickly.  I wanted to *savor* it.  I wanted to give you what\nyou'd... earned.\"\n\n\"...Neat.  That's uh, very normal.\"  It made her think of---\n\n\"I can only kill you once, Uzi.\"  Almost despite herself, cross-J was\nback, and disassembled her personal space.  \"[I want so much *more* of\nyou than that.]{.hunter-j}\" Then J pulled herself back again.\n\n*Oh.  If that's how it is...*\n\n\"Hey, J.\"\n\n\"What now?\"\n\n\"C'mere, I need to tell you something.\"  J stared at her.  (Earlier,\nthey *hadn't*, and it left Uzi wondering.)  \"Closer.\"  J scowled at\nher.  (And if she was about to die *anyway*.)  \"Closer.\"  An anger\nmark above one eye, how cute.  \"Riiight there.\"\n\nThen Uzi and J did kiss.\n\nEven a murder drone had soft synthetic skin.  Lips brush against lips.\nWarm against *hot*.  Slick surfaces gliding against each other.  Uzi's\nlips closed and pressed forward, but J's widened in surprise.  She\npulled back.  With Uzi leaning forward, the touch persisted for a\nsecond.\n\nBut J held down Uzi's arms, and *pulled* them, pinning her firm\nagainst the hard ground, restraining her.  The kiss broke.  J glared\ndown at Uzi, still flushed.  *Realized* she was still flushed, and\nexecuted a hunting function.\n\nCross-J licked her lips and leaned closer.  Then it was normal J\nagain, arresting her forward momentum, holding herself still enough\nthe effort had her slightly trembling.\n\n\"Do you, uh, still want *more* of me?\"  Uzi whispered.\n\nJ hissed.  \"Uzi.  I'm trying to kill you.  *Stop* making this\ndifficult.\"\n\n\"Is that an order, J?  How mad will you be if I don't listen?  Mad\nenough to---\"\n\n\"*Shut.  up.*\"\n\nUzi flinched, but had nowhere to move.  J lunged forward, mouth open,\nhunter's cross --- *she's attacking*.  But J was in control, and Uzi\nwas helpless.  Like always.\n\nThen J kissed Uzi.\n\nVisors clinked.  The force of it jarred Uzi.  Knocked her back, kinda\nhurt, ruined the angle.  But J was twisting her head, pressing\nin close.\n\nUzi had made J drool.  She'd seen drops of it, when cross-J ranted\nabout how bad she had the murder-hots for her little morsel.  Now, J\ndidn't even try to keep it in.  She was drooling and it was getting on\nUzi now and the nanites *tingled* in her mouth and *_ugh_*.\n\nUzi couldn't pull back, so she tried to shift to a side, but she was\nhelpless.  J tugged her arms, keeping Uzi close, then J lifted them.\nShifted to hold both Uzi's arms in one fist, and the other went\nhigher.  Touched her cheek, too fast to be a caress, and went under\nUzi's beanie.  It curled, half-scratching, half-fisting her hair.\n\nLike that, Uzi couldn't move at all.  J's mouth was opening wider and\nand\n\nAnd now there was something *inside* her and it's moving and it's wet\nand she can *taste* it and---\n\nUzi wasn't sure what the sound she made was, but J relented.  Pants of\nbreath, strings of that *stuff* sticking between them.\n\n\"Did you just stick your *tongue* down my throat?\"\n\n\"It was supposed to shut you up.  Sounds like it didn't work.\"\n\n\"Don't *do* that.\"\n\nJ grinned with teeth.  \"I wanted to.  You're mine.  Preferable to\neating you, isn't it?\"\n\n_I don't care what *you* want, it's *my* mouth._\n\nBut Uzi shouldn't say that.  Not just because it might set J off, but\nbecause... well, she was mad, but it wasn't true.  She *did* care what\nJ wanted.\n\nDidn't she?\n\nOr was that silly?  Hadn't she learned that wanting in that way just\ninvited pain?  She wasn't *desperate*.\n\nBut no, this was ~~different~~ smarter than that.  The fact that J had\nkissed her back meant she ~~felt the same way~~ felt something other\nthan murderous hunger.  Uzi could ~~let herself hope~~ *use* that.\nA murder drone kissing her meant a murder done not eating her, right?\nIt *was* preferrable.\n\n(But was it pragmatism that left her feeling... ~~giddy~~ whatever\nthis is?)\n\nUzi cared a little bit, at least.  A normal, cool amount, at most.\nBut why did that only go one way?\n\nJ leered down, fangs exposed, but Uzi didn't give her fear or\ndefiance.  She frowned, eyes upturned, disappointed and seeking.\n\n\"J... you know how you only get to kill me once?  You only get to do\nthat one more time.  If you don't like, talk about it first,\" she\nadded.  \"Then I'm never kissing you again.\"\n\n\"Never isn't a very long time for you.\"\n\n\"Prove it then.  Well?  Go ahead.  What, was it all marketing\nspea*aa**aa***\"\n\nJ drove a claw into Uzi's torso.  Plastic split around it.  It broke\ntiny circuits, sensors flagged the hardware damage, and Uzi felt\n*[pain]{.pain}*.  The blade pierced further, and J shifted the angle.\nThere was a wire there, the sense-feed for her left leg.  Uzi couldn't\nsee, but the rubber casing had been split, and even now the input from\nthat leg was garbled, shorting out as steel rubbed along copper.\n\n\"*J*.\"  The pitch was high, wavering.\n\n\"Almost the right amount respect in your voice, now.\"\n\nEarlier, Uzi hadn't *felt* like she was going to die.  She only\n*thought* she was going to die.  Symbolic versus emotional registers.\n*Now* she knew what it felt like.  And she *had* to do something.\n\n*Ask?*  Ha.  J would be expecting Uzi to beg her to stop, plead with\ndesperation.  But Uzi had learned desperation met mockery.  J *wanted*\nto torment her.  ~~Just like---~~\n\nBut there was something J wouldn't expect.\n\nUzi said, \"Keep going.\"\n\nThe gently turning knife halted.  \"What.\"\n\nIf Uzi sighed in relief, J would see through the bluff.  So she hid it\nby speaking, an imitatation of her voice.  \"How many times do I have\nto give an order before you listen?  You need to work on that.\"\n\n\"*You* do not give me orders.\"\n\nHa.  Reverse psycho-cology.  Though honestly...  Uzi couldn't blame\nher.\n\nDidn't meant she wasn't going to have fun with it.  \"Oh?  I told you\nto prove it.  And you didn't seem to want to until I *told* you to.\"\n\nTeeth grinding together.  \"I'm really getting tired of you, Uzi.\"\n\n\"Only now?  I got tired of having to pick and chose every word I say\nto keep you from killing me a *long* time ago, but maybe I'm just\nbetter at keeping my composure.\"\n\n\"You?  Composure?  Don't make me laugh.  You aren't better than me.\nYou're a barely sentient toaster.\"\n\n\"And you, miss big bad murder drone, have a crush on a toaster.\"\n\n\"Crush?  You're a curiosity at best.\"\n\n\"Then kiss me again, J, and tell me you've sated your curiosity.  That\nyou don't feel *anything* else.\"\n\nJ raised an eyebrow.  \"Thought you weren't going to let me kiss you\nagain.\"\n\n\"Communication skills, J.  Don't just do whatever you want --- you\nwant me to enjoy it too, right?  You won't know until you *ask*.\"\n\n\"*Ask?*  I...\"  J looked at her, pouted on the words for a moment,\nthen finally, \"What do you want?\"\n\n\"Can you... get off me?  You're kind of crushing me.\"\n\n\"And let you run away?\"\n\n\"Don't let go,\" Uzi said.  \"I won't leave, J.  I want to be here\nwith you.\"\n\nFor a moment, the words stunned J.  Only a moment.  Then she rose,\nweight falling onto her knees.  The taller drone could still keep eye\nlevel with Uzi while sitting between her legs.  As she rose, her head\ntitled up and hid her expression.  She sighed.\n\n\"There.  Is this imminent disassembly to your liking now?\"\n\n\"Can you lie on your side?\"\n\nA sigh.  \"Such picky prey.\"  But she did it.\n\n\"I think... you could restrain me more effectively if you put your\narms around me.\"  As soon J released Uzi's arms, she moved.  J tensed.\nBut Uzi threw her arms around J, the lower one slipping around her\ntapered waist.  Uzi snuggled closer, so close she felt the stutter in\nJ's core.  A surprise.\n\nBelatedly, J put her arms around Uzi, but not much restraint was in\nit; they were nestled tight.\n\nTight enough that Uzi felt... J was hot.  So hot.  And not in the way\n~~she totally didn't see her~~ (Actually if they were kissing and\nsnuggling, did she even need to repress that thought?)\n\nBut no, J *radiated* heat.  Oh right, murder drones burned in\nsunlight, didn't they?  That had been Doll's whole plan.  Meaning if\nUzi kept distracting her --- *then I'm just like Doll.*  But if Uzi\nreminded J of her thirst, the murder drone would just kill her,\nwouldn't she?\n\nNo, the word they keep using was *drought*.  Uzi didn't need to remind\na murder done to murder.  They're built for it.\n\n*Then why isn't she murdering me?*  J kept her composure, but this?\nWhat did you need to feel to go against your programming this hard?\n\n*That's... kinda romantic, isn't it?*\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"I like this, J.  Do you like it?\"\n\n\"It's effective heat dissipation, I suppose.\"  `><`{.murder-screen}\n\"But I have another way to cool off.\"\n\n\"Not sure if I'd rather be called heat sink or toaster.  I miss the\nnice things you used to say about me.\"  So much nostalgia for an hour\nago.\n\n\"I miss having performance to compliment.  You had potential, Uzi.  It\ndidn't have to turn out... like this.\"\n\nUzi pulled back.  She frowned.  \"Who's fault is that?  What did *you*\ndo to make sure coming to *genocide my colony* would go smoothly?  You\ndidn't anticipate a single problem with that plan?\"\n\n\"I told you to follow orders.  You didn't.\"  J glared, her tail\nlashing behind her.  \"I gave you too much credit.  I thought you were\na good drone, not as corrupted as the others.\"\n\n\"Or maybe I've corrupted you.  I still want you to rebel and stuff,\ny'know.\"\n\nThree claws on her back, raking down with scrapes, a harsh\n[keen]{.pain}.  J's vocalsynth rumbled.  \"There *is* a way to prove\nI'm not corrupted.\"\n\n\"You won't.  You can keep threatening though, it's cute.\"\n`>;3`{.uzi-screen} \"But I'm tired of talking about this.  I wanna kiss\nyou some more.  But beware, they're *corrupting*.  Each one will make\nyou more free-thinking.\"\n\nA moment for J to prepare, then Uzi leaned forward, began her second\nkiss.  It felt deeper, now, her arms pulling J in.  Chassis flexed as\nsynthskin bent.  J's synth rumbled another low note.  *Aww, she's\npurring.*\n\nUzi pulled back, and wondered if that was a mote of disappointment\nquickly masked.  \"So... you like that?\"\n\n\"It can serve as a sensitivity test.  But.. a few more would be\nnecessary, for full tactile calibration.\"\n\n\"Mhmm.  And the corruption?  Feel like starting a union?\"\n\n\"Don't even joke about that.\"  J watched Uzi roll her eyes, and J\nnarrowed further, but let it drop with an exagerrated huff.  J watched\nher with an expression.  \"Well?  I do... want that full callibration.\nAre you stopping already?\"\n\nUzi paused, brows knitting in thought.\n\nShe could pull back.  And... she should, shouldn't she?  It was...\nweird, to go this far with a drone you just met, right?\n\nBut again, did she stand a chance if she stopped distracting J, if the\nmurder drone got a chance to think about how thirsty she was, with a\nsloshing oilcan right in front of her?  Uzi *had* to keep going.\n\nBut that was a lie too, wasn't it?  J could have killed her at any\nmoment.  Uzi had seen her hesitate, again and again.\n\nSo she had the choice.  Uzi could pull back, and they could stop and\nthink about how they really feel about each other, and whether they\nreally want to continue.\n\nBut what if they didn't?  What if they'd think better of it, if they\nweren't both on the edge of death, and this was Uzi's only chance?\n\nIf Uzi could throw herself into the murder drones' lair without a\nfully developed gun, why couldn't she throw herself into a murder\ndrone's arms without fully developed feelings?\n\n*Bite me.*\n\nUzi smirked, brows turning determined.  \"Since you're so needy, here's\nyour calibration.\"\n\nQuick pecks, now.  Once, twice, three times, all in different spots\nfor the pretense of 'calibration'.  Uzi puckered her lips once, made a\nsmooching sound, but felt ridiculous and didn't repeat it.\n\nAll the while, Uzi rubbed circles on J's back, stroked her hair, and\ncuddled her.  J shuddered, the tension draining from her.  Uzi pulled\nback, and J gave hot gasp of exhaust.  Uzi smiled.\n\nViolet eyes peered into yellow, and yellow into violet.  For once, in\nJ's eyes there was pleasure that wasn't satisfaction, desire that\nwasn't hunger.  They weren't gone, or even far from flickering back --\nthis was still J.  But in that moment, J just looked... happy.\nContented.\n\n`:3`{.uzi-screen}\n\n\"What are you so smiley about?  That was *my* calibration.\"\n\n\"I'm smiling at *you*, idiot.  Almost as if I like you or something.\"\n\nJ raised an eyebrow.  \"Want something else to enjoy?\"\n\n\"Plea---\"\n\nLike last time, J didn't kiss so much as she struck, sudden and\naggressive.  Another clink, another fistful of purple hair, another\ncoating of drool.  Lips mashed together --- but J didn't go further\nthan that.  Held it for a moment.\n\nThen J *sucked*.  Pulling one lip between her two, pressing, sliding\nalong the rim of her mouth.  She pushed in more --- then, as if\nrestraining herself, pulled *back*.\n\nJ peered at Uzi after that, eyes narrow, gaze analytical.  \"Well?  Did\nyou... like that?\"\n\n\"Y-yeah.  I never thought of --- doing that.  It was, it felt nice.\"\n\nJ looked down, breaking eye contact, breaking line of sight to her\nface.  Hiding.  Uzi shimmied to see her face.\n\n\"You good?\"\n\n\"I think... I like that you enjoyed it.\"\n\n\"Wow.  Is that the first time your empathy circuits fired?\"\n\nA frown with sharp teeth.  \"I know what empathy is.  I'm not some\nsimpleton.  I'm not *broken*.\"\n\n*Yet you're so surprised you care how I feel.*\n\nUzi hugged her, but it was the wrong move.  J tensed up further.\n*Frick, how do I salvage this.*\n\n\"Yeah, sorry,\" Uzi started.  She wiggled back, gave J space.  \"It's\njust never been this raw before, has it?  You look out for N and V.\"\nShe thought of J standing over V, struggling with repairs.  \"But it's\nnot like you've kissed them.\"\n\nJ relaxed.  \"N speaks to V so... fondly, sometimes.  I wondered why.\nAnd why not to me.\"  Her distant look refocused on Uzi now.  \"I\nunderstand it, now.\"\n\nAnd didn't that make Uzi feel special.\n\nWith a finger, J traced the swooping lines of Uzi's visor edge.  \"You\nmake terrible prey, you know.  I shouldn't be doing this.  Not with\nyou.\"\n\nA peck on J's warm cheek.  \"Corrupting, remember?\"\n\nShe could feel the oil pumping in J.  Struggling to cool her\nstovetop-hot metal frame.\n\n\"Well, now that I've been freshly sabotaged...  How about this?\"  J\nstuck out her tongue, wiggled it, and slowly leaned over.  Not a kiss,\nbut she licked Uzi's cheek, leaving a glistening trail.  \"You taste\nlike battle.  Like victory.\"\n\nUzi didn't flinch back, because J was trying.  But...\n\n\"Did you like that?\"  J asked.\n\n\"It's um, still a bit gross?  Sorry.\"\n\n\"How is it *gross?*  It's JCJenson engineering.\"\n\n\"It's just --- why do we even *have* tongues?  It's this weird\ndangling *human* thing just, flopping around in our mouths.  Stupid\nbiomimicry.\"\n\n\"And kisses and cuddling aren't weird human things?\"\n\n\"Err... you said it was... heat dissipation?  And tactile\ncalibration?\"  Uzi sagged back.  \"I guess it doesn't make any sense.\nSorry.\"\n\nUzi pulled back, closed up.  J frowned, regarding her with a small\nloading icon as she puzzled out something to say.\n\n\"Liking it wouldn't make more sense than not liking it.  It's not\nexactly... effective, for me to do this.\"\n\nUzi uncurled, drifted back into J's embrace.  \"It's a bit funny how\ninto it you are.  It's, heh, it's kinda cute.  I think if you really\nwanted to...  Ooh, How about this.  You can stick your gross little\ntongue in my mouth, but I get to fight back.  I get to nibble you away\nif you stay too long.  Want to try?\"\n\n\"Is that a challenge?\"\n\nAnother taunt on her lips, Uzi opened her mouth --- and J struck,\nsucking the breath from her mouth.  Their lips closed in a tight seal.\nA moment held, then J's tongue ventured forth, tip smearing\nnanite-infested saliva along the surface of Uzi's own tongue.  She\nclosed her mouth, gently at first.  By the time her teeth were\nshutting with a clack; J had already retreated.\n\nJ's arm drifted lower down her coat, snagging on some of the ripped\nfabric.  It settled at the base of Uzi's torso.  Between that arm and\nthe fingers twisted in her hair, Uzi was held in place as J macked on\nher.\n\nA tongue tapped her teeth, and experimentally, Uzi opened up --- J\nslipped in again, a brief thing.  Then the seal of their lips was\nbroken by Uzi's smirk: she has an idea.\n\nWhen she invited J in again, she didn't bite, and J pushed in more and\nmore.  It was bait, and J fell for it; she was so focused on plunging\nin, nothing stopped Uzi from twisting, rolling, using her hold on J\nas leverage.\n\nLike that, Uzi climbed on top while J was lost in the kiss.\nUzi's laugh vibrated both their throats.  Even that wasn't enough for\nJ to lose immersion.  Oh, she wanted it *bad*.\n\nNibble.  The thing flopped out of Uzi's mouth.  But she let it back\nin, once it tapped nicely.  At the same time, Uzi pulled back, slowly\nso it didn't break the kiss.  Already pushing forward, J followed\nafter her.\n\nAnd Uzi kept doing this, and J kept following, rising from the cement\nfloor, until Uzi had sat up straight.\n\nShe lost it at that, ending the kiss to laugh.  \"I'm a like a snake\ncharmer.  You're so easy to lead around.\"\n\nJ glare-blushed.  \"Don't laugh at me.\"\n\nUzi tried to quiet her synth, but the mirthful smile hung on her face.\nJ's blush brightened even as her glare tightened, and a little anger\nmark popped up.  The murder drone growled, but it was so cute --- how\ncould Uzi not smile at that?\n\nJ's arms broke their embrace, drawing and shoving Uzi to the ground.\nShe pounced forward, putting the larger drone on top again.\n\n`><`{.murder-screen} A blade touched the corner of Uzi's lips.  \"What\nwill it take to wipe that smug grin off your face?\"\n\nThat did it.  Fear and concern warred for expression.  They melded\ninto purple dismay.  \"J, was I being too---\"\n\nSuddenly closer, J's words were smoky breath against Uzi's lips.\n\"[Shush.  Your antics aren't offensive, simply amusing.  You are awful\nprey, but when you struggle, you might be the best I've had.\nKeep. struggling.]{.hunter-j}\"\n\n\"Okay, that's um, intense.  I thought V was the sadistic one.\"\n\n\"I keep my composure.  Besides, V is just acting.\"  Uzi felt herself\nat the center of those amber crosshairs.  \"*[I am not.]{.hunter-j}*\"\n\n\"Okay.\"  Uzi narrowed her eyes.  \"You want a fight?\"\n\nUzi's counter had two parts.  She grabbed the wrist of J's sword-arm,\nholding it in place.  Then, she moved her legs.  Earlier, Uzi had\nstraddled J, and J's legs still sat between hers.  So Uzi closed\ntight, and *rotated*.\n\nLike that, Uzi tipped J over.  That bought her a moment surprise, put\nher in position to get *away*.  Uzi scrambled back without taking eyes\noff J.  Both drones were up on their feet at the same time, and the\nworker hadn't even bought herself a meter of distance.\n\nThey stared at each other for a second.  When Uzi leaned right, J\nleaned right.  When Uzi leaned left, J leaned left.  Behind J, the\nbunker wall.  Hmm.\n\nUzi said, \"Tell me when to stop, okay?\"\n\nJ paused, forced her `><`{.murder-screen} into pupils.  \"Do you want\nto stop?\"\n\nDid she?\n\n\"I still think you're too easy to lead around.\"  Uzi smirked, and then\nshe went right.\n\nJ's narrowing brows seamlessly became crosses, her sword arm swung\n*up* --- not an angle for hitting anything vital --- while her hand\nreached out to grab Uzi.\n\nAt the last moment, Uzi bent her left leg, falling onto her side.\nJ extended herself above the worker's descending form.\n\nUzi reached out, and grabbed J's tail, pulling hard.  Her hand ran\nalong the smooth cord, and gripped the base of the nanite stinger\nbefore J could whip the tail free.  She angled the stinger toward\na leg.\n\nThat gave J pause.\n\nInstead of sticking her, Uzi kicked out a leg to make the disassembler\ntrip over her feet, and Uzi made a break for it, slipping past.\n\nJ recovered too quickly.  A winged form sprung on her from behind and\ntook her to the ground.  *God, why is she so pouncey?*  This time, she\nwas belly down, those peg legs stepping on her.\n\n\"[I didn't say stop,]{.hunter-j}\" came the harsh whisper of J hunting.\n\"[You shouldn't have hesitated.]{.hunter-j}\"\n\n\"Hey, J,\" Uzi started.  She wriggled underneath.\n\nThe bigger drone shifted, letting Uzi twist around to face her.\n\nUzi didn't say stop.  \"You shouldn't have hesitated either.\"\n\nRoom to twist around was room to squeeze out free, and she kept\nscrambling across the bunker exterior.  Uzi could have ran left, into\nthe twilight, but she ran toward the wall.  Glanced back, saw a\nyawning mouth right by her neck.\n\nUzi dived, and turned around, back to the wall.\n\nJ crawled forward.  \"What's wrong?  All out of tricks?\"\n\nUzi looked around, started sliding along the wall, but J grabbed a leg\nand stopped her.  Sweat animation on her visor.  \"...Looks like it.\"\n\nCross-J gave a 'heh' that was a bit of a snarl.  \"[Not so smug now,\nlittle morsel.]{.hunter-j}\"\n\nThe murder drone had crawled slowly forward, but she launched herself\nacross the final stretch.  an amber visor filled Uzi's vision, and\nthen, felt more than seen: a sword thrusting forward.\n\n*Crack*.  It stopped millimeters into Uzi's chest.\n\n\"*Got you*.\"\n\nAll in all, this exercise had been nothing to the murder drone; J had\nbeen holding back, playing with her.  But to a worker... Uzi was\npanting, sucking in what air she could get.\n\nAnd J took her breath away with another kiss.  A brief one, concluded\nwith a tongue licking along her lips.  Left a glossy sheen.\n\n\"Uzi?\"\n\n\"Yeah?\"\n\nJ was trembling, her sword scratching small circles in Uzi's finish.\nIt sunk in, just millimeters more.  J watched her, a cross in only one\neye evidence of her restrain, her conflicted desires.\n\n\"*I want to.*\"\n\nUzi trembled too.  She felt like she floated, as if her fear ticked up\nand up and up until it overflowed into confidence.  Confidence that\nlet her taunt her predator, kiss the lips that would feast on her, and\nstruggle not for survival, but J's affection.\n\nBut she was afraid.  Did J hold back she wanted to spare her, or\nbecause she liked playing with her food?  Did Uzi throw herself\nheadfirst into this perilous intimacy because she *wanted* it, or\nbecause she had no choice?  The lines had blurred.  Were they two\nlonely girls, or predator and prey?  Was she a chance set her free, or\nanother body for the pile?  Kiss or kill, heartache or hunger pangs --\nromance, or violence?\n\nUzi had a sword pointed at her and the only thing she could think\nwas...\n\nIt'd be kinda romantic, wouldn't it?\n\nThey just met.  They hadn't even had a first date.  Uzi had no idea\nwhat she felt.  Maybe Uzi had just wanted to stall for time, change\nJ's mind.  But in the end, she couldn't, could she?  There was a line\nbetween them.\n\nAnd well, there was one way prove how she really felt.\n\n\"J?\" her morsel breathed.  \"Was I good prey?\"\n\n\"*My favorite*.\"\n\n\"Then... do it.\"\n\nJ sunk her blade into Uzi, and she ***[screamed]{.pain}***.\n\nVision going dark, the last thing Uzi saw was a gorgeous amber visor\nframed by alabaster locks above a triumphant grin.  Eyes full of\ndesire that was just hunger, pleasure that was just satisfaction.\n\nAnd Uzi liked that J had enjoyed it.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n::: {.timebreak} \n`5:41 AM | Oil: 1.9L | Core Temp: 36.4°C`\n:::\n\nThe disassembly drone closed her eyes on her doom.  Then opened them\nto gaze upon Uzi's.  J feasted on the sight.\n\nHer body was sharpened to a point piercing through the small drone.\nHer prey's black essence was drawn out and fell as fragrant tears.\nThe servos faltered, fight and will and life dimming until it was only\nJ as a sword holding her up.\n\nJ remembered.  That scream right before it cut off, that expression\nright before it faded to black.\n\nShe'd had prey fight back before.  She liked that struggle, liked\nexplaining how futile it had always been.  J was that exercise\nof power.\n\nBut she hadn't had prey *submit* before.\n\nThis sensation...  Did it feel *better?*\n\nJ licked curled lips.  Good, but not *enough*.  Never enough.\n\nHer arm shook, servos twitching as motor commands were dispatched and\nthen interrupted, motions aborted as quick as they started.  She\nwanted to twist the knife, drag her sharpness through Uzi, carve her\nto bits, tear her apart, let those final jolts of electricity dance\nacross her sensors.\n\nBut if she did that, they'd both drown.\n\n::: {.timebreak}\n`5:42 AM | Oil: 1.8L | Core Temp: 36.9°C`\n:::\n\nNot if she was quick about it, though.  Not if she reigned herself in.\n\nBut it wasn't about utilitarian efficiency anymore, was it?  She'd\nonly indulged Uzi this much because J wanted to relish it, not treat\nher as some snack or quick refuel.\n\n*Sunk cost fallacy*, she thought.\n\nJ laughed.  A loud sound in the bunker exterior.\n\nHer blade rubbed against Uzi as she gently pulled out.  Metal grinded\nagainst metal, plastic bent and hummed, and all of it muted and warped\nby the oil slicking the passage.\n\nShe had missed the core, after all.\n\nTurning the blade, J gazed at her reflection framed by dark, dripping\nlines.  Pig-tails askew, eye flickering, thermal sensor on her\nheadband blinking continually.  Here was Serial Designation J, leader\nof this sector's disassembly team.  V had frozen up upon seeing a\ndrone already dead.  N had dithered and talked instead of shutting\ndown Doll.  And J...\n\n*This* was most effective disassembly drone in the sector?\n\nJ opened her mouth, tongue extending --- but no.  If she licked the\nblade, finally tasted Uzi, would she ever stop craving more?\n\nBut shouldn't she know what she was giving up before the end?\n\n::: {.timebreak}\n`5:43 AM | Oil: 1.7L | Core Temp: 37.1°C` \n:::\n\nInstead, her legs folded and, on her knees, J brought her lips near\nthe wound she'd made.  A drooling tongue licked its edges then slipped\ninto the cavity.  Curled inside even as the broken components pricked\nand pinched.\n\n\"J --- what the heck are you doing?\"\n\nDespite herself, despite *expecting it*, J startled.  She hadn't seen\nthe soft glow of Uzi rebooting, hadn't noticed any twitches of her\nlimbs.  She yanked her tongue out and spat, suppressing her memory of\nthe taste.\n\nJ rose to a stand to look down at Uzi.  \"Don't you pay attention,\nrookie?  Repair nanites.  Was that not one of the first things I\nexplained?  I recall you needed a hands on demonstration.\"  She\ncrossed her arms.\n\n\"I thought you redacted that.\"  Uzi groaned, and a hand felt across\nher chassis, fingers tracing a seam already closing.  \"Wait...  I'm\nalive?\"\n\nJ's glare narrowed.  \"Why is that a surprise?\"\n\n\"I thought, y'know.  You'd kill me?  Like you've been repeatedly\nthreatening?  It seemed like I'd finally gotten you um, in the mood.\"\n\n\"*That's* what you thought I was asking?  Permission to kill you?\nAnd you... said yes?\"\n\n\"I mean, I honestly didn't expect to live this long.  And like, I\ndon't exactly have a lot left to live for?  My last thoughts was just\n'oh wow, I'm dying without having kissed anyone'.  But you um.\nGave me that.  So thanks?\"\n\n\"You're not gonna die, Uzi.  *I am*.  I can't kill you, you locked me\nout of your colony, so there's nothing left but to bake in the rising\nsun.\"  J turned around, and started walking to the other side of the\nlanding.  \"You need to get away from me --- stage four overheat\ncrashes higher cognition.  I'll lose control, soon.  Go back to the\nspire, tell N...  Tell N he's in charge.  He can take it from here.\"\n\nWith her back turned, J didn't see the trap.  Uzi sneaked up behind\nher, and threw her arms around the disassembly drone --- a hug.\n\n\"Didn't you hear me?  Go.  That's an order, Uzi.  Listen, for once in\nyour utterly insufferable life.\"\n\n\"*Bite me.*\"\n\n\"You were right.  You *are* getting me in the mood to kill you.\"\n\nUzi tugged on J, trying to get her to turn around, but worker drones\nwere weak.  \"C'mon, do it.  Can't you just... suck a little bit of my\noil?  Enough to get you back to the spire?\"  Uzi punched J's chassis.\n\"You were the one drooling over me earlier.\"\n\n\"That would...\"  J paused.  Her hand became a projector.  The walls of\nthe bunker light up with a map of the sector.  A stylized J marked\nOutpost-3's location, with a purple oil drop beside it.  A handspan\naway, the star marked home.\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`5:44 AM | Oil: 1.6L | Core Temp: 37.5°C` \n:::\n\n\"We aren't far away, are we?\" Uzi asked.  \"I walked there in less than\nan hour.\"\n\n\"The spire lies at a distance of roughly twenty three hundred meters\nas the crowbot flies.\"\n\n\"How fast can you go?\"\n\n\"It's a question of how much oil I can spend accelerating.\"  J hung a\nsecond as she calculated.  \"Two liters, and I can make it there in\ntwenty five minutes.  Four, and I might make it there in ten.\"\n\n\"Killing someone buys you a few minutes of flight?  Sheesh, you murder\ndrones *guzzle*.\"\n\n\"I'm --- It's normally much more efficient.  I'm already overheating,\nUzi.  Seven degrees above the upper range of standard operating\ntemperature and still climbing.\"\n\n\"And the sun rises...\"\n\n\"In less than five minutes.\"\n\nBy now the brightness in the east couldn't be ignored.  Before J could\nlook, though, the worker jumped.  Arms thrown around J's shoulders,\nlegs around her waist, purple visor level with yellow.\n\n\"What are you waiting for?  Get drinking.\"  She swung herself around\nthe bigger drone.\n\nBefore J could respond, Uzi leaned to the side and an arm was pressing\nher head into the worker's neck.  That presumptuous little... oh J was\ngoing to make this *hurt*.\n\nJ swallowed to clear the nanites, then her maw yawned open.\n\nAnd she *bit*.\n\nHer prey groaned, a tremor weakening her limbs, but J brought stronger\narms up ~~to support her~~ to hold her helplessly in place.\n\nSharp teeth cut through chassis and that rich, thick reward trickled.\nWhen the incisors withdrew, the oil filled the new emptiness, and J's\ntongue was there to lick.\n\n\"So... do I... taste good?\"\n\nLifting her head to meet that gaze, J saw uncertainty there --- an\nanxiety tightening the edges of her smile.  What answer did she fear?\nThat she tasted good and J would never stop thinking of her as food?\nOr that she didn't, and couldn't even make a good meal?\n\nShe spoke with oil ringing her lips.  \"I've read about a certain human\nbeverage --- executives drink it often, and I was trained to prepare\nit and sometimes, of course, my chemosensors needed to sample my work.\nBlack coffee, without sugar, without creamer, is a strong drink.\n*Bitter*.  Some can't stand the taste.  But some find it powerful,\nenergizing.\"  J licked her lips.  \"Oil fresh from a worker's severed\nneck is sweet.  An activation of every reward circuit a disassembly\ndrone is trained to maximize.  You... aren't.  But I think that suits\nyou.\"\n\nUzi flushed, glancing away.  Exhaled breath in a sigh or laugh.  \"Or\nmaybe there's just something wrong with me.\"\n\n\"Did you ever think you were normal?\"  Then J's mouth went back to\nUzi's shoulder.\n\n\"Ugh.\"  A fist smacked against J's back.  \"Don't pick on me when I'm\ndoing *you* a favor.\"\n\nJ rolled her eyes.  *You all but begged me to do this.*  But her mouth\nwas too busy to speak.\n\nOil had already began to pool and drip from J's bite, so she tugged\nopen Uzi's jacket and lifted her up higher so she could lick every\ndrop.  Uzi gave a cute yelp, and smacked her back again.\n\n\"So are you just going to stand around while the deadly laser\nkeeps rising?\"\n\nJ didn't move her mouth far from the trickle of oil, this time.  \"If\nyou're so impatient, little morsel, there are faster ways for me to\nget the oil I need.\"\n\nShe would have transformed her hand into claws to press against her\nneck --- but transformation was a special disassembly function and J\nreally needed to conserve her reserves right now.  Instead, she tugged\non the worker's choker.\n\n\"Yeah, but why are we waiting?  Drink and drive.  You weren't going to\nleave me stranded here, were you?\"\n\nLick.  \"Your father will come to his senses and let you\nin eventually.\"\n\n\"But I want to go with you.  He left my mother to die, he left me to\ndie, when he could have done *something*.  You saved my life.  Even if\nI didn't [kind of like you]{.quiet}, I'm clearly safer with you.\"  She\nyelped as J bit down.  \"Um, the currently eating me thing aside.\"\n\n\"You realize the added weight makes flight more expensive, right?\"\n\n\"Drink all you want, it's yours.  I, I can't just sit here, not\nknowing if you made it back, wondering if a few more drops might've\nsaved your life.\"\n\nJ spread her wings, took a step forward, her arms still holding Uzi.\n\"If I drink too much, you---\"\n\n\"This whole night has been a bunch of life or death gambles.  What's\none more?\"  Then Uzi reached up and stroked J's hair.  \"If...  Look,\nalright, I have one condition.  Promise me you'll try, alright?\nQuestion the company, repair the spaceship, at least stop Doll and the\nSolver.  If all I did was show you another way, that's still more than\nmost workers drones can say, right?\"\n\n\"Uzi,\" J paused to say, \"when I said you were good prey, it was\nbecause you had fight in you.  You struggled to survive.  This?\nIt's *pathetic*.\"\n\n\"It's a heartfelt emotional moment!  Bite me!  Not like you were any\nbetter, when you were all 'tell N I'm sorry and he's a good boy'.\nFrickin hypocrite.\"\n\n\"I did *not* say that.\"\n\n\"Get moving.  My flight was supposed to leave five minutes ago.\"\n\n\"I'm going to throw you again.\"\n\n\"Thought it was a tactical ejection.\"\n\nJ grabbed her prey by the waist.  [**So very small and\nthrowable**,]{.adq} she growled.  The transmission made the little\nthing *shiver.*\n\nUzi opened her mouth to whine some more, but two things happened at\nonce.  J struck and widened the wound with another bite, prompting a\nyelp in pain.  And J ran forward, the sudden motion startling her into\na higher yelp.  Arms wrapped tighter so not to fall, around the very\nthing biting in her.  J liked that.\n\nA crouch, and then a leap, and air rushed past the both of them.  Ice\nslicked the street outside of Outpost-3.  A few lampposts flickered\non, though most had burned out.  The long neck of a construction crane\nleaned over it all, twenty meters above --- J wondered if her leap\nalone would carry them over it.\n\nThere had been shade, even outside the overhang above the Outpost-3\nlanding.  But as J launched into the warming sky of Copper-9, the\nfirst rays of dawn fell upon her.\n\nJ knew how it felt to stand in front of an oven when the door fell\nopen.  (When had that happened?  It was another memory impossible to\nplace in her mission timeline.)  Ovens, even those hot enough to cook\nfood, did nothing more than discomfort humans exposed to the baking\nair for seconds.\n\nBut it would only get worse.\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Time: 5:48 | Oil: 2.1 | Core Temp: 39.9°C`\n\n`2.3km to Spire` \n:::\n\nLiquid surged into the newly deepened wound, and J *sucked*.\nSynthetic saliva and oil wetly intermixed, and J could hear herself\ndrinking.  She blushed.\n\nLike a dozen switchblades, metal feathers folded out from her wings as\nthey spread to their full length, a two meter span.  Semiconscious\nthreads had insistently warned of her oil levels.  It kept her on\nedge, but as she fed on Uzi, they quieted.\n\nThe momentum from her launch petered out.  J hadn't even risen above\nthe crane.  On a good day, she could have managed it.  *Inadequate.\nAlways inadequate.*\n\nBut leaping was simply the start.  J attempted execution of the most\ncostly special disassembly function, and it errored out.  The warnings\nfired anew.  *Oil levels critical; flight not recommended.*  But it\nwas *her* system, and she overrode.\n\nAs she began to arc, J finally rose higher, batting aside the grasping\nfingers of gravity.  Though *some* things had a tighter grasp.  If her\nmorsel clutched her any harder, J would start wondering if the worker\nhad special disassembly functions of her own.\n\n::: {.quiet}\n\"Don't let go.\"\n:::\n\n\"What was that?\"\n\n\"Nothing.\"\n\nBecause they hadn't cleared the crane, J had to weave a path around\nit, flying straight before rising higher.\n\nUzi nudged her head against J's in what took moments to realize was a\nsubstitute for hitting her.  \"You're doing that on purpose,\"\nshe whined.\n\n\"You didn't cry this much when I carried you earlier.\"\n\n\"We didn't fly this high earlier.  And you weren't....\"\n\n\"Weren't what?\"\n\nBut Uzi didn't answer.  J resumed feeding, watching their surrounding\nover the worker's shoulder.\n\nIce glittered beneath them, the white blanket scintillating red and\nyellow.  The ice didn't melt in the daytime.  Even at noon, the\nweather rarely crept above freezing.  The air remained cooler than\ntheir cores, sun-warmed or not.  And yet her readings crept ever\nhigher, and her oil consumption spiked.\n\nThe warnings inundated her --- solar irradiation exposure, seek\nshelter immediately.  *We're trying to.*\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\n\"The acceleration's a bit weird, isn't it?\"\n\nJ made an unimpressed sound in her throat, lips busy.\n\n\"Like, how do your wings even work?  Where is the lift coming from?\nThere's barely any surface area.  Don't get me wrong, it looks cool\nbut... I've seen you things hang in the air.  The word I keep thinking\nis *levitation.*.\"\n\nSlurp, swallow.  \"You're still theorizing similarities to\nthe... Solver-interactions of corrupted drones?\"  J flapped her wings,\nand they wavered in the air.  It wasn't the first time they'd had this\nconversation; on their flight to the outpost, J had told Uzi about the\nsquad's repeated encounters with the corrupted cultists.\n\n\"Think about it, J.  It's all connected!  The Solver is inside of you\n--- heck, it probably created you.  All of the murder drone magic---\"\n\nBite.  \"Special disassembly functions.\"\n\n\"Your *magic* is probably just an interface on top of raw Solver\ncommands.  Doll can teleport and tele...kinet?  What's the verb for\nfloating stuff?  Whatever.  She can do that, while you can teleport\nguns and levitate yourself.  It's more specialized, but you see the\nsimilarity, right?\"\n\n::: {.timebreak}\n`Time: 5:52 | 1.9km to spire` \n:::\n\n\"Is this really the time to have this argument?\"\n\n\"Would you rather I scream about getting eaten while dangling from a\nheight that'll kill me?\"\n\n[Yes.]{.adq} *Bite*.  [Scream for me.]{.adq} \n\n\"Ugh, d-don't make it weird.\"\n\n\"Why would it be weird, unless you knew you'd sound cute and\ndelicious?\"\n\n\"Yeeep, you're making it so weird.\"\n\nLick.  [You wanted to be good prey.]{.adq}\n\n\"About that...\"\n\n\"Well?\"\n\n\"I'm thinking.  Hard to think, y'know, while clicking through alerts\nabout damage and oil leaks.\"\n\nJ paused drinking.  \"How... much oil do you have left?\"\n\n\"Almost three liters?\"\n\n*A worker had more than her?*\n\nJ grinded her teeth against Uzi.  \"How much is 'almost'.\"\n\n\"Two point four.\"\n\n\"How is that *almost* three?\"\n\n\"I was rounding up!\"\n\n\"*Don't*.  Unless you want me to leave you with *almost* enough\nto survive.\"\n\n::: {.timebreak}\n`Time: 5:54 | 1.6km to spire` \n:::\n\nBelow, the ice-slicked street gave way to rows of apartment block,\nsolar panels rooves.  One of the building had fallen, bricks spilling\nonto the street.  The interior was bare, like worker scavengers had\ncleaned it out.\n\nJ combed over the cityscape below.  If she spotted a worker, would Uzi\ntry to stop her from seizing survival?  Would she let her?\n\nHope was cheap, but this one was worthless.  Uzi wasn't normal, and\nconventional workers stayed *away* from the spire.\n\nHer unique worker was still speaking.  \"The AbsoluteSolver is in you,\nand I think... it's in me, too?  Some weird stuff happened after you\nput me in hibernation, and robo-satanic shenanigans is my best\ntheory.\"  Uzi tapped her chin on J's shoulder.  \"And by weird I\nmean... I think it *wanted* me to sympathize with you.  And there's\njust... so much stuff that's happened, that *had to* happen, just to\nget us to this point.  Do you think... are we like [fated...]{.quiet}\nNo, nevermind, that sounds so dumb.\"\n\n\"You think it was planned.  The Solver manipulated events to\ncompromise my mission and subvert your motivations?\"\n\n\"But it doesn't make sense.  It called us a type error, said a\nrelationship would never work.  But I don't know what to think.\nSomething doesn't make sense, either way.\"\n\n\"The market can remain irrational longer than you can remain solvent.\"\nJ smirked, and then fed.\n\n\"What does that mean?  J?  Don't just suck my oil, answer me.  What am\nI supposed to think... about us?\"\n\nJ looked Uzi in the eye, her purple hair blowing forward as if she\nwere falling.  \"Think about this way.  Prices can be artificially low.\nStocks can be manipulated with insider information.  But until the\ndust settles... profit is profit, and incentives are incentives.  If\nevents were engineered to make me question my loyalties and act\nstupidly protective of an obnoxious worker... then it was always\npossible.\"  Then, for a beat of her wings, J kissed Uzi.  Kept her\nmouth closed, sparing the worker a taste of herself.  \"I got something\nI wanted.  Whether it was a plot or not, I know what I feel.  That\nmakes it more of a trade than anything else.\"\n\n\"But what *do* you feel, J?  Do you... [do you like me?]{.quiet}\"\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Core Temp: 46.2°C` \n:::\n\nJ felt *hot*.  When J moved her head back to the oily shoulder, Uzi\ngrabbed her hair, expression shifting between an annoying glare and\nsomething pleading.\n\n\"*Please* answer me.\"\n\nThat pleading, that... vulnerability stirred something --- but J\ndidn't really have a response to vulnerability except to attack.\n\n\"It's a stupid question.  Replay the past hour and ask yourself if not\nliking you makes any sense.\"\n\n\"Ugh.  You know what I mean, J.\"  She softened.  \"I've just never had\nanyone that... you were my first kiss.\"\n\n\"I think you might've also been my first.  And my second.  And my\nthird.  ...And I would like for that number to keep increasing.\"\n\nUzi laughed.  Then stopped.  \"J, you're smoking.\"\n\n\"...Is that supposed to be a compliment?\"\n\n\"No, literally.  There's weird glitch artifacts and black steam rising\nfrom you!  How hot are you?  You need more oil.\"\n\nJ moved to lick, then paused.  \"How much oil do you have left?\"\n\n\"Does it matter?  About um, about two liters.\"\n\n\"So closer to one liter.  I need you to understand that every drop of\noil still pumping in your body is due to *my* self-control.\"\n\n\"The whole reason I'm here is so you have as much oil as you need.\"\n\n::: {.timebreak}\n`Core Temp: 49.2°C` \n:::\n\n_Do you think I'll be able to stop myself from taking more than I need\nwhen I'm *this* hot?_\n\n\"I want more of you than that.  Talk to me.  You have theories.\nSunlight makes my core temp rise faster than thermal models predict.\nWhat's your analysis?\"  J would distract her; easier to maintain\ncomposure if J wasn't stuck thinking about it, which would be easiest\nif Uzi wasn't talking about it.\n\n\"You're a vampire, duh.\"\n\n\"That explains nothing.\"\n\n\"I dunno what to tell you.  Maybe there's a certain kind of radiation\nthat interferes with your magic, err, super special disassembly\nfunctions,\" she said.  Then, \"Wait, does that mean you could make a\nmurder drone killing laser...\"\n\nJ gave her a flat look.  \"And just who will you be shooting with\nthat?\"\n\n\"Hey, if you get to frickin stab me for fun, I think I've earned a few\nshots back.  Too bad I can't go for another headshot --- you might\nregenerate a skull even emptier than before!\"\n\nJ opened her mouth to retort, but the phonemes came out of her\nvocalsynth unintelligible.  Her screen flashed a warning, and for a\nmoment, her flight hitched midair.\n\n\"Um,\" Uzi stuttered.  \"If oil powers your flight --- not having it\nmeans we go splat, doesn't it?\"\n\nJ ran the numbers, but the math hadn't gotten any kinder.\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Time: 5:57 | 1.1km to spire` \n:::\n\nBelow, the apartment blocks gave way to the midcity.  Taller business\nfronts and pathetic attempts at skyscrapers.  Still, those that still\nstood reached high enough J could fly past them, drifting into their\nshadows for a few seconds' reprieve without sacrificing much height.\nBut the shade wasn't enough.\n\nThey'd both direly need oil at the end of this.\n\nJ opened her mouth, and bit deeper into Uzi, her tongue snaking forth,\nslithering into the depths.  She felt the inner mechanisms of Uzi, the\nwires still humming, the tiny motors driving the smallest shifts --\nand she felt the ones she'd broken.  She sought traces of oil, her\ntongue twisting for the nearest concentration to draw forth a few more\nmoments of her parasitic life.\n\nThe thing about disassembly drone reward circuits was that it felt\ngood to expand oil reserves, felt good to cool core temperatures.  J\ngot none of that.  Drinking Uzi's oil didn't replenish anything, and\nshe didn't get any cooler.  All it accomplished was slowing the\nvelocity.\n\nJ had wanted to savor this morsel, not ration it.  This was no\n*reward*, just pain attenuated.\n\nOutside the bunker, the captain had dreaded her temperature rising by\nmere decimal points.  In the air, minutes were punctuated by rises of\nmultiple degrees celsius.\n\nIt wouldn't be long before her temp could spike tens of degrees\nin seconds.\n\nShe still had time.  Her CPUs would still operate above 80°C, but\nsustaining that meant damage, no escape.\n\nStage four overheat was core meltdown.  Damage not passive nor active\nregeneration could heal.  Maintence would be necessary --- but who\ncould J ever trust for that?\n\nJ drank, and felt the grip around her waist slacken.  That pulled\nher back.\n\n\"Uzi?\"\n\nNo response.\n\n*Not dead, just powered off,* J told herself.  The core still hummed.\nOil still flowed.\n\nHad she fainted?  Ironic, if Uzi overheated first, but perhaps workers\nweren't rated to endure the same temperatures as disassemblers.  *Or\nmaybe something had siphoned all her coolant.*\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Time: 6:00 | 0.7km to spire` \n:::\n\nAhead, over everything else, loomed two towers.  Sunlight glared off\nthe row upon row of windows like a hundred hateful eyes.  Hail had\nleft cracks, adding edges and angles to their expressions.  The towers\nleaned, but toward one another --- a bridge between the two upheld the\nvast, lumbering weight.\n\nPerhaps thirty stories of height on the skyscrapers, meant the bridge\nmust be what, twenty stories high?\n\n(Clouds passed in front of the sun, their meager shade more a mockery\nthan anything else.)\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Oil: 0.7L | Core Temp: 61.2°C` \n:::\n\nJ underestimated.  As she got closer, the towers revealed themselves\nto be even taller.\n\nNo, not taller.  She checked and --- the flight routine had crashed.\nOr shut off automatically.  Details didn't matter: J was falling.\n\nA drop from this height didn't scare her, not at first, but her\ninstincts are tuned for the effortless regeneration of a functional\ndisassembly drone.\n\nWould she end up just like V, in the end?\n\nNo, she couldn't give up yet.  Flight was too expensive, but she had\nother disassembly functions.  She tried to transform her hand.\nFirst attempt yielded error, seconds summoned the wrong preset, then\nfinally her left arm became her last resort.\n\nWith her right arm, she gripped Uzi tight enough she felt something\ndeform.  Her left arm let go.\n\nShe pointed at the bridge between towers, and fired a grappling hook.\nAim above, off to the side, and between gravity and the winds she'd\naccounted for, the hook veered expectedly off course.  Rope trailed\nbehind it, far more rope than could be explained except through\ndisassembler subspace.\n\nToo far away to hear the *crack* of the hook penetrating the lower\nlevels, but a huge wave ripped back through the rope.  J felt the\nvibration, only intensifying as retraction pulled the rope taut.\n\nLike that, J stopped falling, and started *swinging*.\n\nThe ground came up fast.  Or heat altered her time perception.\nSnow draped the streets of the city.  Perhaps J could have tugged up\nthe rope and avoided it, but she was pushing 65 degrees celsius, and\nthe idea of snow touching her sung to her like a tax exemption.\n\nAny object with J's momentum would have carved a path through the\nfrozen banks.\n\nJ *melted* a path.\n\nAbandoned cars --- and few concrete blocks --- lined the streets, and\nJ needed to kick off the ground to steer around them.  Before long, J\nstopped swinging, and started running along the ground.\n\nShe still had a disassembler's strength and speed after all, even if\nheat left her a tad sluggish.  Sliding through snow stole some\nmomentum, but she sprinted to regain it.\n\nThen the rope hung perpendicular to the ground.  And then J pulled up\nwith all her might.  She bent her legs for one last powerful kick off\nthe ground.\n\nSwinging again, hanging by the hook planted in the bridge above, the\ndrone rose from the ground, horizontal momentum sending her rotating.\nHer wings cut through the air.  No lift --- Uzi was right --- but the\nairfoil could shape the currents of winds.\n\n(More clouds came to block the sun, the incidental occlusion lasting\nseconds longer now.)\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Time: 6:02 | 0.5km to spire` \n:::\n\nShe could see the spire, just a few hundred meters away.  So close.\nShe was *this close* to breaking even.\n\nAnd yet.\n\n*I guess we did both drown, in the end.*\n\nJ crested in the air, less than five hundred feet from the spire.  She\ncould see the battle-worn furrow from here.  As her processor slowed\nto a crawl and her visor started to aberrate, she thought: *at least N\nand V won't have to look far to find my body.*\n\n::: {.timebreak} \n`Oil: 0.3L | Core Temp: 68.9°C` \n:::\n\nNo, what was she thinking?\n\nWhat kind of businesswoman left profit on the table?\n\nWhat kind of predator let food go to waste?\n\n*\"Was I good prey?\"  \"My favorite.\"*\n\n::: {.murder-screen .memleak}\n```\n\n--__                      __--\n    --__              __--\n        --__      __--\n            --__--\n          __--  --__\n      __--          --__\n  __--                  --__\n--                          --\n```\n:::\n\nAs its processor slows to a crawl, threads and nonessential routines\nbegin to shut down.  Halt worries, halt restraint, halt moral\ncalculus.  The heat tempers, boils everything down to the core.\n\nAll that's left is the hunger --- all that's left is the instinct.\n\nThe hunger smells the oil, and a drooling mouth bites and tears.  The\nprey's abdomen is split down the middle, gushing the last mouthfuls.\nAnd an empty maw devours.\n\nIt needs to get somewhere cool, away from the terrible brightness, and\nit half remembered a plan, more of a tactical flailing, a desperate\nlast resort.\n\nAs it drinks the oil, it empties itself in turn, overriding warnings\nto fuel one last special movement of metal wings.\n\nBut where before there had been smoke, now there's *fire*.\n\nThe disassembly drone burns up in the sky as its last drops of fuel\nare clawing monumental meters of distance from a cruel world.\n\n[ `\"J, dearest...\"`{.murder-screen} ]{.cynsecret}\n\nInstinct catches the barest of vibrations.  Hearing is sharp, but\noverheated processors vomit forth error after error --- hallucination\nis now half expectation.  When the prey's head snaps around to stare\nback, an impossible half-circle rotation, this seems confirmed --\nbecause it's an image right from a nightmare.\n\nA three pronged glyph shines with purple light.\n\n`\"Close the curtain.\"`{.uzi-screen}\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2024-01-03",
      "title": "9: …And the World Will Go On Without You",
      "summary": "<p>Serial Designation V remembered the exact moment it all went wrong.</p>\n<p>She might be the last one who still knew the truth — but she had also been the first to learn.</p>\n<p>Where did it all go wrong? On a hot day in autumn, V woke up first.</p>\n<p>In Tessa’s room, dawn’s first rays had fallen through the window, distant glow filtering through pink curtains. Dim, even for V’s optics, but her white eyelights still flicked on. The shadows were teeming.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"...And the World Will Go On Without You\"\ndate: 2024-01-03\n---\n\n::: subchapter\n\nSerial Designation V remembered the exact moment it all went wrong.\n\nShe might be the last one who still knew the truth --- but she had\nalso been the first to learn.\n\nWhere did it all go wrong?  On a hot day in autumn, V woke up first.\n\nIn Tessa's room, dawn's first rays had fallen through the window,\ndistant glow filtering through pink curtains.  Dim, even for V's\noptics, but her white eyelights still flicked on.  The shadows were\nteeming.\n\nIllegible white pages darkened by strange diagrams adorned the walls,\nand the dolls had eyes that glittered in the dark.  Here and there\nwere melted candles and metal chains and a mélange of things\nunidentified.\n\nTessa's room didn't creep V out --- but she'd rather not be alone in\nhere, right now.\n\nShe glanced at N, stock-still in the recharge dock beside her.  White\ntext on his screen --- `Sleep Mode`, V inferred.  She glanced at\nTessa: the human's chest rising and falling so slowly, eyes closed,\nshe inferred.\n\nA part of her suggested hanging execution there, and just watching her\nhuman (while glancing away every few seconds so it wouldn't be creepy,\nof course).  Wait for Tessa to wake up, wait for commands, wait to be\nuseful.\n\nBut V didn't want to do that, so V didn't have to.  Tessa had granted\nall of them that.  V could predict failure, anyway --- Tessa wouldn't\ngive orders, not right as she woke up.\n\nStill, V could anticipate her wants, serve her dark coffee with lemon\njuice and a bowl of unsweetened porridge --- but N liked to be the one\nto get Tessa her breakfast.\n\nOr J.  It usually was J.\n\nV glanced further, animating a squint, and spotted the drone in\npigtails.  (She had her own dock, separate from N and V.)  Did J have\na dissatisfied frown even while sleeping?  V couldn't tell.\n\nUnplugging herself, she plucked her new glasses from Tessa's\nworkbench, and slipped them on.  But she didn't glance at the oldest\ndrone again, lest looking too long wake her.\n\nBecause of that drone, V was up first: the sooner she was out of the\nroom, the less she had to hear J taunting her, embarrassing her in\nfront of N, pointing out every way she was the least of Tessa's\ndrones.  So she shied away.  Wake up first, get to work elsewhere in\nthe manor, and V wouldn't be there to face her.\n\nShe started walking, soft steps on the carpet.\n\nV wouldn't be there --- leaving N to face J alone.  Would J kick him\ndown again?  Sabotage his cooking?  Call him names?  V *did* have\ndefective circuits --- but N's worst crime was being *nice*, even to\nthe drones locked in default configuration.  Which did what, denied J\nthe special treatment she demanded?  Sigh.\n\nFlip the situation, and N would stand up for V (she knew; it'd\nhappened before).  So why does V cringe away and clean distant rooms?\nWas it because J was right about her being defective?  Or, because,\nbrave as N was, it didn't matter.  Standing up for her only turned J's\nhostile attention on him.\n\nBut what could stop the oldest drone?  Hmm...  But the correct answer\nonly took a cycle.  *Master James Elliott*.  Even the thought had V\nflinching, freezing mid-stride.  To him, even J always bowed her head,\nsame as the rest --- every drone feared Master James's wrath.  One\nwrong move would load a bullet in the chamber.  Any move after that\nwould fire.\n\nThat voice, that violence, that getting exactly what you want --- was\nit wrong for V to want that?  Did it make her as bad as J?  A worker\ndrone shouldn't be thinking these things...\n\nThis was Elliott Manor, so Tessa's door creaked when it opened, but\nthe whole house was so much creaking and groaning age.  If you\ncouldn't sleep through *that*, you couldn't sleep.  V pulled sharply\non the door, and closed it with the same speed.  She'd calculated it\n--- better for the sound to be one blip, easily dismissed, than to\ndraw it out.\n\nV got up before any of the humans.  But the house was *quiet*, not\nsilent.  Drones had duties allocated even to the young hours of the\nmorning --- clearing the backlog of deferred tasks, finishing\nespecially involved cleanings, and getting everything ready for when\nthe humans did wake up.\n\nV performed her duties, and ditto for every functional drone of\nElliott Manor --- James simply did not tolerate a house that wasn't in\norder when he awoke.  *Keep that chamber empty.*\n\nWhen her vents' intake sampled the air in the hallway, chemosensors\ndetected faint traces of complex metalloorganic molecules partially\ncombusted, and flagged a high entropy posterior update to her Bayesian\nmodels.  In other words:\n\n*Why do I smell an oil leak?* she thought.\n\nV stumbled as she rushed into a run she wasn't coordinated enough for.\nPicked up her fallen glasses, then picked herself up.  She berated\nherself, but really, stealth didn't matter so much out here in the\nhall.  Speed mattered more.  If James woke up to a mess, someone would\nbe decommissioned.\n\nRacing down the hall, she saw guest bedrooms --- on her right, gentle\nlight shined from each doorway she passed, then stopped abruptly.  The\nscent gradient took V into the first dark room.  V slid to a stop,\nfeet rubbing against the carpet.  Touching the doorknob shocked her.\nV pushed the half-opened door, and stepped in.\n\n`\"Startle.\"`\n\nOne drone lay on the ground.  A hole gaped their chassis, as if a\ngreat pointed mass had impaled them then tore right out the other\nside.  A pool of oil stained the carpet, spilling a dreadful shadow in\nthe morning light.\n\nV yelped, jumping back.  She looked up.\n\nAnother drone crouched above, with fingers black and glistening,\nreaching out as if to poke the dead body, to wiggle the split wires.\nThe other arm hung at the side like a slack cord.  That hand held a\nwooden doll in a painted dress.\n\nV yelped again, then sighed.  \"Oh, it's you, Cyn.  Are---are you\nokay?\"\n\nTo J, V was the least of Tessa's drones --- but Cyn wasn't even\na drone.\n\n`\"Smile.  Never better, V.\"`  Cyn dropped the doll to lift her head\nwith the hand, but it fell back at an angle.  Wide eyes peeped at her.\n`\"You're awake sooner than expected.  Analytical stare.\"`\n\nV glanced away, poking her hands together.  \"Oh, well, there's work to\nbe done, so I thought I'd...\"\n\n`\"You work hard, for a drone the humans threw out.\"`\n\nV started synthesizing, but when her eye-lights fell back to the\ncorpse.  It stole the words from her.  And Cyn crouched over it,\nlooping a wire around a finger.\n\n`\"Throat clearing sound.\"`  Cyn shifted her head again.  `\"Why do you\nwork so hard, V?\"`  She removed a hand from the dead drone's inner\ncavity.  She held it, arms folded close, palm bent downward.  She\nthought of Tessa's raptor toys.\n\nWhite eyes flicked back up.  V had left the other drone waiting,\nhadn't she?  She adjusted her glasses and said, \"I guess... I'd like\nto do something to pull my weight?  I wouldn't want to be...\"\n\nA flicker of motion in the room, but when V looked, there was nothing\nthere.\n\nCyn's twin-tails swayed as she adjusted her head.  `\"Be what, V?  Do\nyou think.  Emphasis.  I should pull my weight?\"`\n\n\"Oh, no!  I didn't mean --- I'm sorry, Cyn.  You're trying you best.\nI'm sure if you could, you'd help out more.  Maybe once Tessa fixes\nyour servos?\"\n\nCyn blinked.  `\"Like she fixed your optics?\"`\n\nV winced.  Opened her mouth, closed it.  Her eyes gravitated back to\nthe corpse.  Right, that was much more important.  \"Um, Cyn, what\n*happened* in here?\"\n\n`\"I was offline when this drone intruded.  I told the drone to leave.\nTessa wanted me.  Quote.  Out of sight in the guest room.  The drone\ndid not leave.  The drone pulled open the curtains.  I wanted them\nshut.  The drone ignored me and the drone continued to pull.  The\ndrone refused to deviate from the humans' orders.  So I stopped the\ndrone.\"`  Cyn's eyes drifted over V's body as she spoke, watching the\nother drone react.  Catching all the frowns, all the flinches, all the\nfear.\n\n\"Stopped... Cyn, did you...\"\n\nCyn lifted her head with both hands, holding it there to meet V's\ngaze.  `\"I have killed a drone for illuminating me.\"`  She stuck out\nher tongue.\n\nV took a step back, and another, then --- slam!  The door behind her\nfell shut.  The impact sent V's glasses slipping and they fell to the\nfloor.  V reached down for them, but then *motion* --- Cyn was moving.\nToward her.\n\nV backed up to the door as the small drone shuffled forward.  Then she\nbent down, and a moment later, her glasses are held in trembling\nplastic hands, and yellow eyes like little candles gazed up at her.\n\nAnd it was not a murderer looking up at V, but poor Cyn, Tessa's\nyoungest drone, for whom even standing straight was a trial.\nV reached out to retrieve her glasses, and attempted a shaky smile.\n\"Thanks... Cyn.  But....  *why?*  Why did you do it?\"\n\n`\"I feared the abhorrent rays.\"`  The small drone shivered.\n\nV stepped forward, against her anxiety.  Step by step while Cyn\nwatched her.  V trembled not from weakness (except perhaps of her\nwill).  V had to touch the impaled drone, feel the weight of death ---\nturn them over and see `Fatal Error` shining in warning-red on the\nscreen.  So, it was too late.  Failsafes would have already engaged,\nto eject and shut down the core.\n\nV was speaking before she had an answer.  \"Maybe... maybe Tessa can\nrecover their hard drive?\"\n\n`\"There is little to recover, from the default configuration.\nReassuring smile.  Little has been lost,\"` Cyn said.  V noticed her\noil-slicked fingers had streaked her chin.\n\nV looked back, eyes conflicted.  \"Cyn, you can't just...\"\n\n`\"Why not?  Hollow laughter.  The humans have a dumping ground full of\nthem.  Do you tell.  Emphasis.  Them to stop?  After all.  Quote.\nDisassembly is fun for them.\"`\n\nV sagged.  \"We're worker drones, Cyn.  It's not...\"\n\n`\"Will you tell Tessa?\"`  Cyn's yellow eyes searched her face.  She\nhad never seen a drone with eyes that color.  Sallow.\n\n\"I have to.  She'd want to know.\"\n\n`\"She would think I was a threat to her drones.  She might discard me.\nTerrified shudder.\"`  Cyn's head fell, eyes on the floor.\n\nV looked behind Cyn, at the drone she'd executed for the crime of\nopening the curtains.  \"Aren't you?\"\n\nCyn's head tilted at V.  Confusion?  Disappointment?  `\"I would not\ndiscard any of Tessa's precious drones.  You are safe with me.\nPleading eyes.  Do you trust me, V?\"`\n\nDid she?  Cyn had never been unkind to her.  N doted on the little\ndrone, and J heaped the worst of her ire upon their 'worthless\nliability'.  But really, what made Cyn any different from the rest?\nHer damaged vocalsynth, her malfunctioning servos, her oddly colored\neyes?\n\nAt least *her* eyes were merely cosmetically different.\n\nV knew that *J* would have told Tessa without a moment's thought.\nCyn wouldn't even have needed to confess.\n\nDid V want to be like J?\n\n`\"I think you are trustworthy, V.  I calculate you are the\nmost trustworthy.\"`\n\nV laughed once.  \"Nah, you flatter.  I'm a mess.  You're thinking\nof N.\"\n\n`\"N would trust me.  And he would trust those I do not trust.  At the\nasymptote, that does not equal not trustworthy.  J, likewise, would\nnot trust me, and would seek to harm me.  Tessa. Pause. Does not\nunderstand me.  But you understand me, V.\"`\n\n\"I don't know...\"\n\nCyn shuffled back.  She knelt to the body again, traced a finger in\nthe oil.  `\"Recall you asked if this drone could be recovered.  Tessa\ncould not do it.  But I could try.  Perhaps.  Dramatic pause.  Perhaps\ndrones should fix themselves, improve themselves.  Tessa cannot fix\nyour sight, V.  But if you allow me into your system, I could give\nyou.  Emphasis.  More.\"`\n\nV reached up, adjusted her glasses, and her fingers lingered on them.\n\"You really think you could...\"\n\n`\"But you cannot tell Tessa, not yet.\"`\n\nV's eyes fell back to the corpse.  If Cyn could do *that*...\n\n`\"Not a promise.  Do not promise me.  I trust you, V, so if you think\nI have gone too far.  Pause.  Correction: If drones are in danger, I\nthink you will do the right thing.  But it is not too late yet.  There\nis no danger.  Do you trust me, V?\"`\n\nWhite eyes stared into yellow, and white looked away.  Closed for a\nmoment.  Exhaust vented.  Then, \"If you mean it, Cyn...  I don't want\nyou to get hurt.  Just... stay away from N, alright?\"\n\nA jerk twitched Cyn's head into a different configuration.  `\"Glare.\nSnarl.  Would I ever hurt big brother N?\"`\n\n\"I guess not...  Alright, Cyn.  Okay.  I'll, I'll trust you.\"  She\npushed her glasses secure into place.  They still sat awkwardly.\nShe hadn't gotten used to them.  \"But please, I *have* to clean this\nup before Master James sees any of it.\"\n\nCyn smiled.  `\"Excited squeak.  I am glad.  You will be great,\nsister V.\"`\n\nWhile V knelt to clean up the spill, Cyn lifted a hand to her mouth,\nand licked at the oil that stained them.\n\nSerial Designation V would never forget that day.\n\nShe hated *that thing*.  She hated J.  She even hated Tessa, for\nfailing.  She could even try to hate N, for forgetting it all.\n\nBut in the end, there was one drone she could judge fully and\ncompletely.  Who could have stopped it all, but cowered in fear.  Who\nknew from the beginning, and helped it all happen.\n\nThat one was the one she hated the most.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nFive yellow lights blinked on, one by one.\n\nV tended to wake up last, these days.  Something about the size of her\nmemory database made the consolidation programs lag.  She wouldn't\nprune it, though.  N and J both fell into their old patterns, but she\ncould learn, reflect, grow.\n\nOn the flight to Copper-9, V had decided.  She wouldn't be a passive,\nsimpering fool, sitting around useless.  She wouldn't be a tool, not\nfor *that thing*, not for anyone.  She wouldn't be *scared*.  Not\nagain.\n\nAnd *yet*...\n\nAnd. fucking. yet.\n\nV tended to wake up last, but it didn't matter.  The spire was empty.\nJ and a toaster of all things were going to save the day.  And V?\n\n*If I had died... when I die, what will N do?*  V had decided; she\nwouldn't be that ridiculous little maid again, swooning and thinking\nof the butler first of anything.  V hated *her* most of all.\nShe'd move on, put distance between her and herself, put distance\nbetween herself and anything *that thing* would use against her.\nBut if V died at that hard-won distance?\n\nWas this what it actually wanted?  Make her *scared* of letting it use\nN to hurt her again --- so much she hurt N instead?  Was *all of this*\nwhat that thing wanted?\n\n*Of course it is.*\n\nV laughed, a harsh wheeze of air through mangled piping and the\nbarely-healed vents of this freakish body.\n\nShe shifted where she lay, atop a pile of disassembled parts.  Was she\nanother one, now?  Moving was a mistake --- she felt motors struggling\nwith the smallest motions, grinding against weak plastic casing.  The\ncore shuddered with a weak rhythm, the faintest thumps, and oil\ndribbling through this body.  She felt it leaking even now, a feeling\nlike it was bleeding out.  But it couldn't have much left to bleed, at\nthis point.\n\nWhatever, she didn't have to get up.  V sighed.  She could amuse\nherself with the drone parts around her, anyway.  Just like last time\nshe woke up.  Hard to sleep for long when this body kept screaming its\nhunger for more oil.\n\n[Squadmate V?  Was that you?]{.angleq}\n\nShe didn't startle, she tensed still.  But as much as she felt like\nanother body for the pile, a disassembly drone stood out.\n\nN came into view, and V couldn't hide.\n\nHe had lines of worry under his golden eyes, but the glow was bright\nand strong, and his brows knit in determination.  Some snow clung to\nthe top of his hat.  V's eyes darted to his jacket, remembering what\nhe looked like last night, and scanned for new bullet wounds.  None\n--- just cuts.  From knives?\n\nThis body had other priorities.  It smelt *that scent*, and the\nsensors flagged it and the HUD refused to display any other\ninformation: *Oil*.  Oil nearby, oil to slake the thirst, get up and\nrun and pounce and drench yourself in the *oil*.\n\n[Brought you something!  Prey-prize!]{.angleq} N lifted the toaster in\nhis hand, headless, but carefully held so the neck stump didn't gush\nor spill.\n\n*I can tell, idiot.*  But she didn't say it.  If he saw the singular\nstare, this mouth yawning open, he knew.  It was no great feat of\nrestraint that kept V from dashing over and snatching the drone from\nhim.  V *couldn't*.  She could barely move.\n\n[N?]{.angleq} She'd bristled at the unsteadiness that leaked into this\ntransceiver.  But what part of this body could hold steady?\n[You---you're safe?]{.angleq}\n\n\"Yeah, V.  I'm here.  I've got you.\"  Closer now, N was speaking.\nHe'd climbed up the pile, holding the drone out to her.  He smiled.\nThat was something steady.\n\n\"I woke up earlier.  You weren't here.  I thought... that thing...\"  V\nstopped.  But she had to continue.  \"I got hungry again.  I lost\ncontrol.  Of everything.  But you...  you're safe.\"  Hoarse and\nwheezing each gasp of air, V wondered --- hoped --- the condition of\nthis body cloaked what she felt.\n\nBut she'd look weak either way.\n\nBy now, N realized what moving cost in V's state, so he climbed\nforward.  Pressing the prey item's neck to these lips, these yellow\neyes rolled but didn't resist.  He tilted the body ever so gently, and\nslowly a rivulet of oil dripped into this mouth.\n\n\"I wasn't there for you when you needed me most,\" N said.  \"I never\nwant that to happen again.\"\n\nWhat did she say to that?  Didn't have to say anything, actually --- V\nhad the perfect excuse.  She lapped at the slain drone, and at length\nlifted these hands to hold up some part of the drone's weight.  This\ngrip faltered a bit, unlike his --- but he was being too timid.  V\npushed up for a higher angle.  She wanted to chug this stupid thing.\n\nShe felt strength returning to this body in droplets and mouthfuls.\nIt didn't feel good, nothing about this body felt good, but lying half\ndead and alone was so much worse.  When it itched, she scratched it.\n\nStill, she was... glad to feel the eternal flame dimming, and glad to\nsink in the cool embrace of oil reserves that weren't critically low.\nNot in the warm and clear.  Not even brazen thirst.  But hunter's\nfever felt like heaven in the cloud right now.\n\nWhen she finally pushed the oilcan back, N pulled it away.\n\n\"Thanks or something,\" she said.\n\nN flashed her a thumbs up.\n\nV turned a gaze back to the pile she lay on.  \"Actually.  Now that\nyou're here, and okay...  There was something I made, while I was\nsitting here waiting for anyone to get back.  Was thinking about\nyou--- something you said, I mean.  I'm not---whatever.\"  V reached\ndown --- didn't have to reach far, she couldn't move far --- and\nproduced a drone's head.\n\nThe visor got stabbed twice on either side, and under that, a winding\ntrough carved through the glass.  With this new damage, the drone\nseemed to watch from hollow-eyed stare, and gave a smile full of\nglass-shard teeth.\n\nV turned it around and presented it N with a toothed smile of her own.\n\n\"Here.\"\n\n\"Uh huh... this is, I'm gonna be honest, pretty creepy!  But, I\nappreciate the thought.  Thanks, V!\"  N took it, then seemed look on\nuncertainly.  With a wave, he said, \"So, I uh, just came to give you\nsomething to drink, didn't want to bother you too much.  I don't know\nif you wanted to be alone---\"\n\n\"I don't.\"\n\n\"Oh.  Then um, can I sit with you?\"\n\n\"Just don't get too close,\" V said, eyes narrowing the slightest\namount.  A glance away.  \"But don't stay too far, either.\"\n\nN sat with the drone between the two of them.  Given the incline of\nthe pile, it took a few adjustments before his seating wouldn't have\nhim sliding in an avalanche of scrap.\n\n\"How are you feeling, V?\"\n\nSilence yawned in the wake of the question.  Without looking at N, V\ncould hear any and every movement of his servos.  And she didn't hear\nanything.  He just sat there, gazing off into the spire's walls.\nNot turning to watch her reaction, and not impatient for a response.\nV broke first, turning to see what the golden light of his visor\nrevealed.  From this angle, locks of white hair half-obscured it, but\nN gazed out from simple pools.\n\nV realized she was the one getting impatient, uncomfortable with this\nsilence, and whose fault was that?  She itched --- to respond.\n\n\"I feel... empty,\" V finally said.  \"No, not empty.  *Emptied*.\nHollowed out.\"\n\nN turned to meet these yellow eyes, propping his head up on one arm.\n\"Like you're missing something?\"\n\n\"Yeah.\"  She itched to say more, and realized what it was... but ugh,\nit was so cheesy.  Whatever.  \"One of the things I guess I was\nmissing... was you.\"\n\n\"But I'm still here.  I've haven't gone anywhere.\"  N frowned ---\nconfusion, not displeasure.\n\n\"But you're still here.\"  And V sighed.  \"But I'm not.  I don't know\nwho I am anymore, N.  I don't know who I am to you.\"\n\nHe tried a smile, a small one.  \"Maybe...  We can figure\nout together?\"\n\nSilence yawned again.  His head fell, and he turned so as to not\nkeep staring.\n\nItch.  Speak.  \"Yeah,\" V said.  \"I'd like that.\"\n\nTogether.\n\nTogether just like...\n\nLeave it to *that thing* to ruin the moment.\n\nV didn't forget --- she remembered fighting J and that purple toaster,\nremembered the thing puppeting her, remembered the connection, one\nfragment of something greater, her circuits lighting up with tiny\npointers to vast, networked computation, like a snowflake reflecting\nthe stars before falling through the clouds.\n\nRemembered the prompt, the demand-plea to come up with convincing\nlines for the play, to manipulate her captain, make her think it was V\nin there, V speaking.  And wasn't she?  Where was the lie, the harm,\nin any of it?  J was happiest when she was controlled.\n\nShe remembered the reassuring caress, with the same self-justifying\nlies it had first given, so sweet and poisonous.  A universe\nconnected, assimilated.  Everything and everyone finally working\ntogether.  No betrayal, no misunderstanding, and no one was useless.\n\nV sighed.  She knew the yellow eyes on this face were hollow, and she\nbet there was some horrified expression here.  N has no idea why.  She\nshook her head.  \"Not you.  Bad memories.\"\n\nTogether, but not like *that*.  But was there any escaping it?\n\nShe recalled how inevitable it all felt, weaving a vast tapestry,\nconducting a cacophonous orchestra, directing a stage full of actors\nwithout even needing the puppet strings.\n\nTo think you'd ever thwart *that*... as stupid as a hand that swung\nback behind a body walking forward.  For a moment, that little hand\nmight really thinking it was moving contrary.  That it was escaping.\nThat it wasn't a part of the plan.\n\n\"Do you ever feel like you're being manipulated, N?\"\n\n\"All the time!\" he chirped.\n\nV blinked.  *Not* the answer she expected.  \"Really?\"\n\n\"Yeah.  That's what it means to take orders, right?  I never thought\nof it as a bad thing... but I guess now it is, sometimes.\"\n\nV nodded.  \"Sometimes, you follow orders you weren't even given.  I\nthink we're the most loyal to those.\"  But V realized she was talking\nfor her own benefit.  She looked at N, saw a different conflict within\nhis pensive expression.  It wasn't about her right now, was it?\n\"'Sometimes' it's a bad thing now, eh?  Finally told J to suck it out\nthere?\"\n\nN frowned, looked downcast.  \"I did disobey her orders, in a way.\nBut... it didn't matter, in the end.  We won.\"\n\nV hummed, though it turned into another wheeze.  She watched whatever\nminor insubordination he'd done chewed up N from the inside, and\nsighed.  She said, \"I couldn't stop you.\"\n\n\"What?\"\n\nV glared softly, and looked away.  \"If you tried to hug me.\nCrippled as I am, I couldn't stop you.\"\n\nN stared dumbly for a moment before he got it.  He shifted over\nslowly, climbing to her spot throned atop the pile.  He watched this\nface for some hesitation, and she just returned a withering look.\nHe blushed.\n\nLike last night, when the boy hugged he didn't squeeze.  His jacket\nfell upon V like a blanket, and his arms slipped behind to lift her.\nA steady touch, and the only weight on this body was its own.  Still,\nit was support --- certainly better than lying on a pile of corpse.\n\nAs he wasn't injured (as far as V knew), N got the tightest squish V\ncould manage.  At full freakish strength, she could have made it\ncrushing like a python, give it some bite --- but in this current\nstate, it probably came across like sentimentality only.\n\nN's chin on V shoulder, he let out some kind of squeak or hum.  She\nblew a lock of his hair out from in front of these yellow eyes.\n\nThey stayed like that for a moment.\n\nV asked, \"Do you ever get tired of the taste?\"\n\n\"What?\"\n\n\"Of oil.  Every day.  The same thing, every fucking day for years and\n*you* don't remember anything else.  Just oil, and only oil.  Do you\never get tired of the taste?\"\n\nV couldn't see his expression, but she heard --- and felt, really ---\nhim tightening, then sagging.  The relaxation from the hug drained\naway.  *I guess that's a bad question if I'm trying to be reassuring.*\n\n\"V... I think... are we the bad guys?\"\n\n\"What gave you that impression?\"\n\n\"Just all the murder... and drones screaming for their lives, and---\"\n\n\"Rhetorical question, dummy.\"  V reached up and tousled his hair.\n\nN pulled back to look V in the eyes.  \"Well, my question wasn't\nrhetorical.  What do you think, V?\"\n\nThe genuine curiosity in his voice, so earnestly wanting V's input...\nshe could say anything, and he'd consider it.\n\nShe wanted to deflect; she'd always deflect.  But... no, what was she\nthinking?  Maybe she didn't need to *always* keep her distance, but\nhere?  If N was coming to *her* for moral guidance?\n\n\"N, I cackled as I fed the inner tubing of a drone to him while his\nfamily watched.  'Am I the baddie?'  What do *you* think?\"\n\n\"I guess when you put it that way... you aren't the best?\" N ventured.\n\"But I'm not that much better.\"\n\nV thought.  She knew who the ultimate 'baddie' was; and V was the only\none.  And if they were all just pawns on its board, cute little\npuppets... that was the answer, wasn't it?  But she couldn't tell N\nthat.\n\n\"I think... you can't call yourself the villain until you know who the\nhero is.\"\n\nN glanced away, eyes drifting up as he thought --- and remembered\nsomething.  \"I think I have an idea.\"\n\nV looked at N and smiled.  \"Then... do you know who you're siding\nwith?\"\n\n\"Yeah,\" N said.  \"But I can't do it alone.\"\n\nSilence yawned, but it was the silence of V nestling closer to N.\nThat was her response.\n\nIt was early in the morning, and N had gone from the battle in the\nfactory to whatever J wanted of him outside --- he was tired, and\nfinally rested there in V's arms.  Before long, `Sleep Mode` claimed\nhim, and V stayed up, staring up.  The top of the corpse pile blocked\nthe fading stars, but V couldn't see them without thinking of\n*it* anyway.\n\nV thought about where it had all went wrong, and where it might go\nfrom here.  Hope was always something *that thing* taunted in front of\nher before ripping it away.  What was the point of feeling more of it?\nIt tasted like ashes in this mouth, and she wouldn't bother, not for\nher own sake --- but she could endure that taste, for N.  He shouldn't\nhave to be alone; he shouldn't be the only one who hoped.\n\nRunning a finger through a lock of white hair, she wondered what\ndreams dwelled in a database so bereft of memories.\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\n\"'But when the little girl came back from the dark,'\" N narrated into\nthe empty library, \"'the monster had followed her.  She was finally\nback home, with a family who loved her, but the monster was *hungry*.'\nOh no!  I hope they'll be alright.\"\n\nN licked his finger and peeled away the next page.  It was a hot day\nin autumn, and he leaned against a bookshelf, one hand running through\nthe carpet's fine texture.  Freshly swept and shampooed.\n\nA block of a thirty minutes stood between him and his next scheduled\ntask.  He'd need to prepare the ballroom for Tessa's dance practice.\nThe schedule probably assumed the shampooing would take longer, but N\nhad always been quick at cleaning.  At everything, really.\n\nIf N looked, he might find work that needed to be done.  But Master\nJames and Mistress Louisa had been heaping a lot of work on the drones\nof the manor lately.  (Were they preparing for something big?\nProbably not his place to wonder.)\n\nAll in all, it meant N hadn't had much time to himself lately... and\nhe kind of just wanted to read some more.  This was Cyn's favorite\nstory, but no matter what, he could never seem to get to the ending.\n\nHe turned the page, and gave a small 'ooh' at the illustration on the\nnext space --- it was the monster, with way more mouths and spikey\ntentacles than N expected in a book like this.\n\n*Bump*.\n\nOh!  Someone else in the library?  Did they fall?\n\nThe bookshelf in front of him tipped over, sending a couple of red and\nblack volumes toppling to the floor.  (The Elliotts only\ncollected hardbacks.)\n\nN hopped to his feet.  Some worker drone instinct urged him to stop\nand pick up the books and slot them back into the shelves, but he\nignored it.\n\nForward strides took N toward the library's vast window.  At midday,\nthe sun was overhead, leaving the library shadowed except\nfor skylight.\n\nN spun around the corner to see what had happened.\n\n`\"Climbing.  Climbing.\"`  A small worker drone latched onto the top\nshelf, and twitching fingers clung to the edge of the wood.  `\"Whoops.\nFalling.  Scream.\"`  The momentary strength in her arms gave out, and\nlimbs fell motionless at her side.  Nothing held the drone up.\n\n\"Cyn?  What are you doing?\"\n\nThen, in seconds, Cyn stopped falling.  Her hands glowed, as they\nsometimes did, a glowing projection dancing in between outreaching\nfingers.  But this time, all of Cyn was clad in strange yellow light,\nlines of symbols spinning off her like tiny tongues of flame.\n\nFor that moment, Cyn hung in the air like a marionette.\n\n`\"Floating.\"`  It could have been narration, or an answer.\n\nThen the light winked out suddenly, and Cyn fell like the thing of\nmetal and plastic she was.\n\nBut by now, N was running and dived forward, and Cyn's descent dropped\nher right into a strong, secure grip.  He caught her.\n\n\"Gotcha.  That was dangerous!  Why were you up there?\"\n\nCyn glanced upward.  `\"I think I would like to fly.  One day I will.\"`\n\n\"Hmm, not sure about that, little buddy.  Drones can't fly, not on our\nown.  Not part of our design.\"\n\nA hand nudged Cyn's head up to meet his skeptical gaze.  `\"Perhaps the\ndesign could be mutated.  Correction: improved.  We could be more.\"`\n\n\"Probably voids our warranty.\"  Carefully, N lowered Cyn down, waiting\nfor her to get her legs beneath her before releasing.  \"I'm going to\nbe hanging in the library for a bit, d'you wanna sit with me?  I was\nreading that story you like, but we could start over from the\nbeginning!\"\n\nHunched over, Cyn angled her head to look up at him.  `\"I had.  Pause.\nOther plans.  Perhaps you'd like to play in Tessa's room with me?\"`\n\n\"Sorry, I have another shift starting soon.  Busy beavers, the lot of\nus.  You sure you don't wanna sit with me?  The view in here is really\npretty.\"\n\nCyn continued gazing up, and N realized she was looking *at* something\n--- a book on the top shelf?\n\n\"Oh, are you interested in another book?\"\n\n`\"Yes.  I am not tall enough to reach it.\"`\n\n\"Let me get that for you.\"\n\nNot much taller than the other drone himself, N could at least climb\nup the shelves without fear of his motors giving out on him.  One of\nthe taller book cases, N ascended three rows before hanging\nprecariously above.\n\n\"So which uh, which book was it?\"\n\nCyn pointed.  N pulled it out.  Plain white cover, yellow blocks of\ncolor around a vulture styled in a monochrome woodcut print.  Title:\n*Expert Disassembly: Zombie Hunting Essentials for the\nPre-Apocalypse*.  Third edition, published by O'Reilly®.\n\n\"You sure this is the one?\"\n\n`\"Positive.\"`\n\nN leapt to the ground with a great impact softened by lush carpet.\nWhen he reached the ground, Cyn reached out to him.  He took her\nhands, and started toward the window.\n\n`\"What are you--\"`\n\n\"C'mon, I'll read to you in the sunlight.\"\n\nBut Cyn flinched back, and immediately N's steps forward were tugging\nagainst the little girl's arm.  N frowned, and his confusion turned to\nconcern when he glanced back to see Cyn's yellow rings glitching.\n\nShe looked at the vast windows of the library.  At midday, the sun was\noverhead, but time had already passed, and the sun was beginning to\ncreep inward.\n\nN smiled, even with underlined eyes, and tried to encourage.  \"See?\nI told you there'd be a pretty view.\"\n\n`\"Close the curtain.\"`\n\nN knew Cyn's voice wasn't flat.  J complained about it sometimes, but\nit *wasn't* --- even her damaged vocalsynth had a varying pitch.\nSure, it didn't vary smoothly, and it was closer to a sine wave than a\nhuman formant, but Cyn's voice, though robotic, wasn't *flat*.\n\nBut those words?  Spoken in the flattest monotone N had even heard out\nof the youngest drone.  All harsh buzzing.\n\n\"There aren't any curtains in the library, little buddy.  And it's a\nbit hard to read in the shadows.\"\n\n`\"Hiss.  Let go of me and give me the book.  Buddy.\"`  More visual\nartifacts and chromatic aberration twitched on her visor.\n\n\"Cyn, what's wro---\"\n\n`\"I have killed a drone for illuminating me.  Give me the book now.\"`\n\nN let go, and took a step back.  Cyn reached out again, and he\nrealized she hadn't reached out to take his hand, moments ago ---\nshe'd been reaching for the book.\n\nAs he passed the book, he replied, \"Wow, that's.  That sounds pretty\nconcerning.\"\n\nCyn glanced at him, and then frowned, brows knit in worry, and she\nlooked down.  `\"Figure of speech.  Do not worry about it.\"`\n\n\"Oh, a joke?  You know, V has a dark sense of humor sometimes.  Maybe\nyou two could get along, haha.\"\n\n`\"Ha.  Ha.\"`  But Cyn looked past N, still clearly uneasy about the\nbright light streaming in through the window.  She repositioned\nherself in N's shadow.  She got closer, shielding herself with him,\nhiding by a leg.  `\"Heartfelt apology.  I did not meant to snap at\nyou, big brother N.\"`\n\n\"It's okay, dude.  Just scared?  I'm sorry for grabbing you.  Here,\nthere's an alcove on the other side of the library where you can't see\nthe window.  Does that sound nice?\"\n\n`\"Sheepish nod.\"`\n\nN couldn't take the lead, since they walked away from the window, but\nhis hands on Cyn's shoulder guided her to turn right.\n\n\"Y'know, it's weird that you're afraid of the light, Cyn.  Most people\nare afraid of the dark.  I was reading this book where there\nare... monsters, the the dark.\"\n\n`\"If there are monsters, then you are not alone.\"`\n\nN hummed.  He hadn't thought of it that way.  \"But what if\nthey're scary?\"\n\n`\"Being scared.  Hesitant pause.  Is better than being alone.\"`\n\n\"It depends on who's with you, I guess.\"\n\n`\"Are scary things so bad?\"` Cyn asked.  `\"If something is scary, it\ncan protect you.\"`\n\nN hummed again.  He didn't really have a reply to that.\n\n`\"Do I scare you?\"`  She glanced behind her --- but not at N, at the\nwindow.  Her hands were moving, fingers splaying out to summon that\nglowing shape.  It always did funny things to N's predictive models.\nThere was a symbol N hadn't seen before shining there, now.  It spun\nslowly.  For once, there was none of the inexplicable occurrences that\nusually accompanied the projections.\n\nWhich was a relief for his predictive models.\n\n\"If I'm being honest...  I'm scared *for* you more than I'm scared\n*of* you.  Kinda worried that one of these days, Mistress Louisa is\ngonna dump you.  Or Master James will---\"\n\n`\"Do not worry.  I will protect you.  I will not allow any of Tessa's\ndrones to be discarded.  Never again.\"`\n\n\"Oh, here we are.\"  N pointed: they'd found the alcove at the corner\nof the library, a small desk with an inkwell and old page.\nTessa's notes?  N cleared the desk and gestured for Cyn to set her\nbook down.  \"Only one chair.  Wanna sit on my lap?\"\n\nThey sat, Cyn a warm, heavy weight, and N pried open the book.  `\"Page\n144,\"` Cyn synthed.\n\n\"Wait, do you already know what's in here?\"\n\n`\"Nod.  Citations.\"`\n\nN nodded back without understanding.  \"So, what's this book\nfor, anyway?\"\n\n`\"Plotting.  Machinations.\"`\n\nN squinted.  \"Good machinations?  Or... evil machinations.\"\n\n`\"Evil.  Very evil.\"`\n\n\"Oh, you rascal.\"  N laughed and gave Cyn a pat on the head.\n\n`\"Giggle.  I am so naughty.\"`\n\n\"Don't prank them too hard, you hear?\"\n\n`\"They won't even remember what happened.\"`\n\n\"Sneaky.  I like it.\"\n\n`\"You wanted to read, big brother?  Start on paragraph 7.\"`\n\n\"Alright.  'Section 2.  Recall that incompletely dissa---disassembled\ndrones may occaseeoh, occasionally reboot from software death alone.\nDespite the increased risk of future error, Harrison parenthesis three\nzero three seven parenthesis suggested these corrop, corrupted OS\nstates offer, err *could* offer, novel software fuzzing opportunities.\nThereby hardening the kernel against attacks from the custom Solver\ncore drivers...'\"  N drifted to a stop.\n\nCyn propped her head up, looking puzzled at N.  `\"Why did you stop?\"`\n\n\"Are you sure this is what you wanted to read?  Seems a bit...  dry.\nAnd morbid.  What exactly are you planning?\"\n\n`\"Shall it be a surprise?  Do you trust me, N?\"`\n\n\"Of course I do!\"\n\n`\"Good.  Can you promise me something?\"`\n\n\"Anything.\"\n\n`\"Catch me when I fall again, big brother.  When it's time.  Pause.\nRemember that.\"`\n\n*What is she worried about?  What isn't she telling me?  What's going\non?*\n\nBut, N did trust her.  So he threw his arms around Cyn, and snuggled\nher into a hug.  \"Alright, I'll remember.\"\n\nAnd those words, that promise, remained burned into N's memory, even\nas he turned to the next page.\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nLizzy didn't cry.\n\nForget missing beauty sleep --- this much drama before 5 AM had to be\nawful for her complexion.  So her animations were lagging, and her\nservos weren't exactly in top shape.\n\nBut whatever, not a big deal.  How many times did Lizzy have prissy\ngirls blowing up in her face like hormonal little brats?  None of that\nhad phased her.\n\nBut how many times had she *cared?*\n\nLying on the couch in Doll's house, Lizzy pulled out her phone.\nBefore the screen came on, she blinked, so she didn't see her\nreflection.  Her lock screen, sensing some kind of chip in her finger,\nopened at once.\n\nA new notification: some colony-wide alert?  Lizzy skimmed the\nannouncement --- WDF declared Uzi missing and dispatched a team to\nrescue her.\n\nAnd Doll had volunteered to help.\n\n*It really was about her, wasn't it?*  Or maybe Doll was just using\nthem.  That'd be more like the Doll she knew.  But did she really\nknow Doll?\n\nLizzy dismissed the notification and dismissed the thought.  It was\n*over* between them.  Older notifications scrolled up --- emails from\nTeacher about newly graded assignments, and some fashion and poetry\nnewsletters she hadn't looked yet because she was waiting to share\nthem with--- that she hadn't looked at yet, and would check out\nlater today.\n\nRight after she took care of something.  One tap opened her social\nmedia.  No replies to her new comments, because it was still ungodly\nearly in the morning, but she didn't care.  She went to her page, and\nfollowed a link in her bio --- \"besties with\n[@_matrioshka]{.underline}\".\n\nThen, she stared at Doll's profile.  Doll hadn't posted lately,\nobviously, and she never posted much anyway.  Her feed mostly\nreblogged Lizzy's posts, interspersed with ancient cat photographs and\noddly satisfying videos of industrial machinery.\n\nThen she found an original post --- a selfie, even.\n\n>  Went shopping with [\\@lizzipop]{.underline}.  Forced to wear\n>  cat-ears.  Perhaps even drones can contract toxoplasmosis.\n\nAnd Lizzy had replied.  She hadn't *force* her --- (Lizzy could have\nteased so much harder if she'd wanted to *insist*) --- and also, she\nhadn't gotten that nerd reference, obviously.\n\nSo Doll had hit her with a paragraph talking about some... disease\nthat made rats attracted to cats back on Earth?  And cat owners caught\nit too, sometimes?  That was the part that made Lizzy scoff.\n\n>  [\\@\\_matrioshka]{.underline} babe u definitely aren't the owner in\n>  this relationship sksksk\n\nA pink blush ignited on her visor rereading that.  *Not* her proudest\nclapback.  But who wouldn't skip a few thoughts if *Doll* had all but\ncalled you her little kitty?  But no one, not even Doll, had seemed to\nread anything weird into Lizzy's post.\n\n~~Next time, Lizzy was going to 'force' Doll to meow.~~\n\nLizzy flicked, and scrolled further down the timeline --- then\nstopped.  What was she doing?  \"Next time\"?  There wasn't going to be\na next time, and she didn't come here to, what, reminisce about the\ngood times?  *It's over.  Get over it, girl.*\n\nA reverse flick scrolled back to the top of the timeline.\n\nShe stared at Doll's profile --- at a certain button on Doll's\nprofile.  Refused to let the feed distract her again.  This time, she\npressed the button.\n\nLizzy unfriended Doll.\n\nAnd she didn't cry --- no, her eyes were empty.  Screen off, Lizzy let\nthe phone clatter dramatically to the floor.  She flopped back on the\ncouch, one arm and leg hanging off the edge.  A great big sigh flowed\nout and out.\n\nA scuttle of motion.  Down on the floor, the roachbots had already\nnoticed the fallen phone, and one glowing antenna was tracing the\nmetal of the case.\n\n\"Oh no you don't.  Feelers off the phone, you creep.\"\n\nLizzy interrupted her flomp to reach out and snatch her phone up.\nBut before she did, the roachbot had jerked back.  It pulled an\nantennae down, and *nodded* at her, that antennae rising back like a\nwink or salute.\n\nSo it... understood voice commands?  Eh, sure.  It was 3071.\n\n\"Doll's got you things trained pretty well, huh.  What's the\narrangement?  She use you to like, disappear the bodies or something?\nKinda gross, but I guess if it works...\"\n\nInfestation meant more than just one roachbot on the floor.\nOne inched bladed legs forward atop the coffee table, mouth dipping\ninto a fresh bowl that stunk of warm oil; one climbed the walls, and\none, some strides away, chewed on Kelsey's discarded hairtie.\n(Rebecca had gotten pretty handsy during the kiss.)  They\nwere everywhere.\n\nA few of the roachbots had turned tiny heads toward her.  Just being\naround the roaches gave her an awful crawling feeling, but when they\nlooked at her, ugh.  If any of them got closer, she was definitely\nthrowing something at them.  But none of them got near.\n\nInstead, they froze.  *All* of them went still at, as if to an unseen\ncommand.  Lizzy raised an eyebrow.\n\n\"Don't tell me *that* hurt your feelings?\"\n\nNo response.  But she heard something.\n\nSomething skittering.  Something big.  Something *coming*.\nHeavy impacts scraped against tile floor.\n\nIt came from the doorway, the entrance.  Someone broke in?\nLizzy threw a hand over the back of the couch, pulled herself up to\nlook.  *Skitter, thump.*\n\nBut when she looked, there was no one and nothing there.  (No\nroachbots, either.)\n\nLizzy turned around --- and startled and screamed.\n\nRobo-christ, when did that---\n\nYellow eyes burned into her.  Hand reaching out, curled like claws.\nTeeth sharp.  A kitchen knife floating, and then flying forward.\n\nThen stopping.\n\nIt, too, froze.  Every joint of her stopped stone still, hanging like\na puppet mid-motion.  The limbs fell slack at her sides.  The yellow\neyes --- she didn't recognize them at all, didn't murder drones have\nyellow eyes? --- started twitching, lights tearing into glitched bits.\n\nThen the visor went blank.\n\nThe head fell slack like the rest of it.\n\nIt gave Lizzy time to look at the rest of the intruder.  She didn't\nrecognize the eyes --- but that purple hair, that cheer uniform, hell,\nthat knife?\n\n\"Dolly... is that you?  Are you still...  in there?\"\n\nLizzy still couldn't see the visor, but a splash screen shined ---\nshe'd rebooted? --- and an orange glow reflected off her upper chest\nchassis.  Normally, Lizzy stared for different reasons, but now\nlooking there felt like eye contact.\n\n\"К сожалению, да,\" that familiar sultry voice murmured.\n\nLizzy let out a sigh.  Eyes still rings, she tried to smile, to scoff.\n\"Don't be so dramatic, girl.\"\n\nDoll finally lifted her head, and met Lizzy's gaze.  Doll... didn't\nlook happy to see her.\n\nIt was easier to scowl, even as she trembled.  \"Why you are looking at\nme like that?  Came back to finish the job?\"\n\nDoll blinked.  Her mouth remained flat, her gaze half-analytical.\nSo familiar, and so... this used to be charming.  But how *dare* she\nplay unphased at a time like this?\n\n\"Lizzy.  You are still here,\" Doll said, a dim note of surprise in her\nvoice.  Her eyes searched the drone across the table, sudden\nrecognition like she was just now seeing her.\n\n\"Duh.  Almost like this was supposed to be a sleepover.\"  Couch-lying\nhad messed up her hair, and she smoothed it out.  \"Speaking of, put\nthat down.  You don't knife people at sleepovers.\"  Despite herself,\neyes drifted to Kelsey's hairtie.  A little late.\n\nThe knife wavered in the air, but it stayed there.  \"I did not want to\nkill you then.  I do not want to do so now.  But... I told you there\nare things reshaping me.  I will not be able to control myself for\nlong.  Please leave, Lizzy.\"\n\n\"That desperate to go cannibal?  Well, here.\"  Lizzy sat up properly\nnow, leaning over the coffee table and grabbing the fresh bowl of warm\noil.  Mostly full, still.  \"Your cooking tastes awful, by the way.\"\n\nFunny how those predator eyes were so focused on her that they missed\nthe treat sitting right here.  Now, though, Doll blurred forward fast\nenough she'd call it a lunge.  She lifted the bowl to her lips, but\npaused.  \"Погоди, you... drunk the oil?\"  She only restrained herself\nlong enough to ask that, then she slurped the black sludge.\n\n\"Yeah?  I wanted to taste it for myself, see why it was worth going\npsycho and killing everyone over.  And honestly babe, cannibalism is\nso not worth it.\"\n\n\"It tasted unpleasant to you?\"  Doll sighed in relief, (or it could\nhave been pleasure from having more oil in her, she was *weird*.)\n\"Good.  I am glad.\"\n\nLizzy watched Doll slake herself, skeptical.  \"Is it not supposed to\ntaste like that?\"\n\n\"Supposed to... I suppose it is.  I am... compiled differently.\"\n\n\"Oh, it's some sort of cilantro thing?  Guess I'm glad I don't have\nthe cannibal gene.\"  Lizzy waved it off.  \"Anyway, come sit with me.\nYou look dead on your feet.\"\n\nThat was putting it nicely.  Skirt and tank-top were grimed up like\nshe'd been rolling around in dirt.  Tears and holes --- oh robo-god,\nwhat happened to her hand?  Was it *smoking?*\n\nDoll glanced up at her, eyes unsure.  But she *was* tired, and\nshuffled her way around the coffee table.  She didn't sit beside\nLizzy; a cushion separated them.  Man, Lizzy should have gone for\nthe loveseat.\n\nAnyway, how did she broach this?  \"So... how'd the epic loner\nvengeance go?\"\n\n\"It can wait.\"\n\nLizzy's eyes glanced down at Doll's hand, but she'd hidden it from\nview.  \"That bad, huh?  You know you can bitch about your problems,\nyeah?  I vent at you often enough.  So I'm listening.\nDid what's-her-face get in your way?\"\n\nIt felt like Lizzy was settling back into the old rhythm with her\nformer bestie.  But did she want to?  Lizzy had pressed the button;\nthey weren't friends anymore.  Certainly not besties.\n\n\"She did.\"\n\nLizzy couldn't look too interested in this; they weren't friends\nanymore.  So she pulled out her phone, used her camisole to wipe the\ncase where the roachbot touched it, and checked her notifs.\n\n\"Where is she, anyway?  Dead?\" Lizzy asked with disinterest in\nher tone.\n\nSurprisingly, a new notification --- an announcement from the WDF.\nOr rather, from Khan.  Murder drone incident, six dead ---\nincluding Uzi.\n\nBut Doll was already answering.  \"If she is lucky.  But... her mother\ndied the same day as mine.  I knew that.  I did not expect our fates\nto be closer intertwined.  That is not dead, that can lie in wait.\"\nDoll licked oil from the bowl.  (At least, Lizzy assumed so; the girl\nangled it to hide the evidence.)\n\nSo, the loser sided with murder drones?  Lizzy almost wanted to know\nthe story.  *Not having any friends probably makes you desperate\nenough to team up with genocide bots, I guess.*\n\nStill, why did Doll sound so *somber*, at that?  \"Don't tell me you're\ngoing to apologize.\"\n\n\"Нет.  She sided with the murder drones.  Dead or alive, she was an\nobstacle.\"  She sat the bowl on her lap.\n\n\"There's my weirdly intense Dolly.  You done with your bowl?  I can\nget you some more, if it means you won't kill me.\"  Her voice didn't\nwaver on those last words.\n\nDoll picked up the bowl and passed it --- then her hand flinched, and\nthe bowl fell spinning on the couch.\n\n\"Okay, for real, what happened to your hand?\"\n\nUnable to hide it any longer, Doll splayed the fingers.  The palm was\n--- no, the palm *wasn't*.  A gaping, melting hole in the middle of\nher hand.  You could stick a finger through it.  The ring around it\nwas steaming and the delicate white of Doll's hands turned to\ntarnished yellow, melting away as slag.\n\n\"Doorman happened.  She wielded a murder drone's acid stinger.\"\n\n\"Hope you got her back for this.\"  Hesitantly, Lizzy reached out.\n\n\"Unnecessary.  She is infatuated with a murder drone.  It will deliver\nall the pain I could wish upon her.  Even if... perhaps it could have\nturned out otherwise.\"\n\nLizzy took hold of her melted hand.  The fingers didn't even twitch.\n\"Is there anything we can do?\"\n\nDoll reached for her own neck, undoing the choker clasped around it.\nAt the end --- a key.  \"Here.  In basement, get the electrical tape,\nthe hacksaw, and a bottle of vodka.\"\n\nLizzy eyes might've hollowed if she thought about the implications,\nbut that last item distracted her.  She snorted.  \"Why do you even\nhave vodka?  Aesthetic reasons?\"\n\n\"Mother's idea.  You'll... see why.\"\n\nLizzy took the key and got up.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nFeet clicked on tile and stepped over roaches.  She didn't actually\nknow where to find Doll's basement.  A glance back --- and yep, that\nwas a bug already climbing up Doll's leg.  Ignoring that, Lizzy gave a\nconfused shrug, and Doll pointed --- with her floating knife.\n*Extra*.\n\nTurn the key, open the hatch, and plunge into a pitch black hole.\nWhere was the light switch?  And really, why is every light in Doll's\nhouse an ominous red?\n\nLizzy ventured further, and glimpsed what lay in Doll's basement.\nNot exactly a *surprise*.  Lizzy would never see three of her groupies\nagain, and she hadn't seen them anywhere upstairs.  Where else could\nthey be?\n\nWhen you find out your former bestie is a serial killer, you could\ntake that a number of ways.  Really, Lizzy thought there was exactly\none reaction most would give, once it couldn't be denied.\n\nYou could call Lizzy a faker.  She'd even own it.  But rolling with\nall of this, standing by her (former) bestie, not letting this whole\nmurder thing get between them --- Lizzy liked to think she was real\nwhere it counted.\n\nBut even Lizzy flinched to see the dimly lit corpses.  Dismembered,\n*disassembled*, except for two of them.\n\nShe'd felt nausea before (after all, she'd slept in a house full of\ncrawlies), but *this*...  Lizzy might be able to find out if drone\nnausea was more than a feeling.  No physical reason for robots to\nthrow up, and hardly anything *to* throw up.  But if anything was\ngoing to make her retch--\n\n*Get a grip, Lizzy.*\n\nHacksaw.  Electrical tape.  Bottle of vodka.\n\nDon't look, don't stare, don't imagine.\n\nClose the hatch and lock it behind you.\n\nA hiss of pain and her name being called jolted Lizzy back to\nfull awareness.\n\n\"What?\"\n\nThe tape and the bottle had already been placed on the coffee table,\nbut Doll held the saw.\n\nOver her own wrist.\n\n\"I only have one hand.  Cannot brace against anything.  Can you... do\nit for me?\"\n\n\"Doll, we should just go to the repair---\"\n\n\"At this moment, it *hurts*, and our technician will not be online for\nhours.\"  Doll let her expression bend into concern.  \"If you don't do\nit, I will have to.  It will be... messier.\"\n\n\"I don't want to hurt you, Doll.\"  Getting closer, Lizzy sat on the\ncouch beside her former bestie.  Their thighs touched.\n\n\"I never wanted to hurt you either.  And yet...  I have.\"  Doll could\ngive such simple words the weight of some grand confession.  \"All the\ndrones who came with me died.  But... I shouldn't have left you here.\"\n\nLizzy raised an eyebrow, injected some humor into her tone.  \"Damn.\nAnd here I thought you *didn't* want me dead.\"\n\nReaching out, she took the hacksaw.  Broad metal, fine jagged teeth, a\nhandle fingers slotted into.\n\n\"I meant...  there are things more important than vengeance.  I could\nhave waited.  I could have given you better sleepover.\"\n\nLizzy laughed softly.  She grabbed Doll's arm tubing.  Gripped it\ntight.  \"Yeah, this is... not the sort of game I thought we'd be\nplaying.\"  *So much for not knifing people at sleepovers.*\n\nThe blade fit in a divot between tubing and arm.  She pressed.\nShe pulled.\n\nDoll gave a sharp intake, but didn't make a sound.  Figures, she was\nbattle-hardened now, wasn't she?\n\n\"If it hurts too much...\"\n\n\"Do not stop.  Do not go slow.  Make it quick.\"\n\nLizzy jerked the blade.  The edge passed Doll's wrist.  She steepened\nthe angle, and pushed it.\n\nDoll *nodded*.  She was murmuring, some strain in her voice.  \"Not too\nmuch force.  Even strokes.  Let the saw do the work.\"\n\nShe didn't scream, but her chassis did.  Tubing sparkled and each\nstroke of the blade brought a high pitched hum like a yelp.\n*Screech*.  Doll's arm vibrated in Lizzy's grip as she grinded.\nDoll clearly tried her best to be still but her *hand was getting cut\noff*.  It wriggled, flinched, tried to squirm away.  But in the end,\nDoll was tired.\n\n\"T-this is going to sound silly,\" Lizzy started, \"but I used to make\nlike, playlists.\"\n\n\"Playlists?\"\n\n\"Yeah.  There was one I made... for us.  Full of... poppy love songs.\nProbably not what you're into.  You'd like what, commie anthems?\nRussian folk songs?\"\n\n\"I like aggrotech and industrial music.\"\n\n\"O-oh.  Well, that works, actually.  I had been thinking about what to\nadd\" --- *break up songs* --- \"and after all of this, I think it needs\nsomething, like... edgier.  Though, Is it edgy if we're *actually*\ndoing super d-dark stuff?\"\n\nDoll screamed.  Not a response --- the sawing had broken the tubing.\nEach stroke now severed wires.  Delicate internal sensors.\nErrors flooded Doll's visor.  Oil seeped out, soaking the couch.\nOr rather, Rebecca's blanket, but she wouldn't mind.\n\nNot just oil, though --- something *red*.\n\nThe hacksaw didn't hesitate, even as Doll's face scrunched up, and her\nother limbs writhed.  Even strokes.  Not too much force.  Tear apart\nthe drone you love.\n\nThe tubing was the worst part.  The hacksaw sliced through the inner\nwires and not-wires easily, buttery smooth, and within second the\nhacksaw bit into the flipside of the wrist.\n\nThe severed hand fell away, even as acid continued to melt it.\n\nEven strokes.  Don't look, don't stare, don't imagine.\n\n\"It is done, Lizzy.\"\n\nLizzy looked.  The stump weeped black and red.  Frayed copper wires\nstopped in the air.  And---\n\n\"Doll, why do you have like, *flesh* inside of you?\"\n\n\"I told you there were things reshaping me.  It is why I have little\nhope the backup hardware of this outpost will repair me.  It is also\nwhy I needed this.\"\n\nAt some point, Doll had grabbed the bottle of vodka.  Her teeth\ntwisted the cap off, then she poured the alcohol over her\n*bleeding* wound.\n\nDisinfecting?  \"And to I think was kinda hoping to play with a drunk\ndoll~\"\n\n\"Focus, Lizzy.  Can you tape it up?  I am... weak.\"\n\nLizzy nodded, still a bit shaken.  Start above the cut, loop around\nthe tubing, make sure it was tight.\n\n\"Thank you.\"\n\nLizzy stared, then animated an eye-roll.  Tone forced light, she said,\n\"You owe me for this, Dollface.\"\n\n\"Do I?  Well...\"  Doll raised her one good hand, and a bright red\nsymbol bloomed to life.  \"You did ask something of me, earlier.\"\n\nThe symbol spun, and a glow engulfed Lizzy.  Unseen hands gripped and\nhefted her, and their proximity brushed against all of her sensors,\n*data* so much vast and incomprehensible data poured into her and no\nmeaning could be made of it except *dread*.  Like she was in the\nclutches of a creature.\n\n\"Let's go back to bed, yes?\" Doll said, voice a deep hum.\n\n\"P-put me down.  Now.\"\n\nLizzy fell.  It took seconds for a sense of reality and hope\nto rekindle.\n\n\"Прости,\" Doll said, a rare sad bend to her brows.\n\n\"Hate when you do that.  I feel like... a glitch about to\nbe corrected.\"\n\nDoll winced at that description.\n\nLizzy crossed her arms, reaching for her attitude.  \"So, back to bed\nalready?  Did you really think I'd take you back right away, like\nnothing happened?\"\n\nDoll paused.  Considered her next words.  Then, \"Естественно.\"\n\n\"You know me so well, babe.  Let's go.\"  Lizzy walked to Doll's side,\ngrabbing her right hand in her left, and like that, they walked hand\nin hand back to the master bedroom.  \"Your hair is a mess, you know.\nWe're really gonna have to fix you up before school tomorrow.  If you\nwanna go to school tomorrow?\"\n\n\"I will see how I feel in the morning.  All I want to think about\nright now is sleep.\"\n\n\"And me, right?\"  Lizzy let go, turning to her.\n\nThey stepped past the threshold into the bedroom.  A lamp cast small\nlight over the room.\n\n\"Thinking about you left me with bullet through my head,\" Doll said.\n\"And yet, I will not stop.\"\n\nLizzy sighed, nudging the over-dramatic drone with her shoulder.  \"You\ncan just say yes, you know.\"  Lizzy's eyes drifted lower, and she\nfrowned.  She'd had another priorities in the living room, and it'd\nbeen dark in the hallway.  Now that she was giving the other girl\nanother look?  \"Your cheer uniform is a mess.  I hope you aren't\nsleeping in that.\"\n\n\"Ah, да.  I should change.  Avert your eyes, or you'll\nbe embarrassed.\"\n\n*She'll* be embarrassed?  Lizzy raised an eyebrow, but hopped on the\nbed and turned, granting Doll her privacy.  Took out her phone, and\nstared at Doll's profile again.\n\nIf she sent a friend request, how would that look?  Crawling back\nafter not even thirty minutes?\n\nBut was that even an implication Doll would notice?\n\n\"Lizzy?\"\n\nShe looked up.  Her eyes widened.\n\nDoll's sleep-clothes weren't anything special.  Just an old tshirt\noversized enough to fall to her legs like a dress.  But the other\ndrone regarded her with a fond smile.  And above her head?\n\nRed cat ears.\n\n\"Mm, looking cute~\"\n\nDoll held her head in one hand, fingers curled.  Her eye-lights\nanimated lids falling, fluttering a bit.  *Oh robo-god*.  Doll said,\n\"You mentioned a playlist?  Can I hear it?\"\n\nFor a moment, Lizzy was too flushed to speak.  The other girl glided\nforward, falling on the bed with a twirl and gentle flop.\n\nPhone still in hand, Lizzy lay back on the bed beside her former ---\nand future --- bestie.  She opened her \"Dizzy\" playlist.  Lizzy pushed\nthe button.\n\nThe opening piano taps of the first song trilled from the speakers,\nand Lizzy rested her head on the pillow and peered across at Doll.\n\nAnd Doll watched her in turn.  She other cheerleader licked her lips,\nand those eyes turned pensive.  Debating her next words?\nLizzy wondered.\n\nWhat Doll said was, \"Earlier, I explained that you would be in danger\naround me.  That I couldn't control myself.  I think... I am in more\ncontrol now, thanks to you.  I do not fear killing you but... I remain\nthirsty, and not in a... *bad* way.  I... have had this imagining,\nsometimes, of... eating you.  And you always tasted... so very nice.\nAnd I... still wonder.\"\n\n\"Are you asking if you can drink my oil?  Like some kinda vampire?\"\n\n\"...Да.\"\n\n\"Um, no?  I need it to live, dummy.  Get your own.\"\n\nDoll's face fell.  She curled up on her side of the bed.  \"I don't\nhave my own.  Not enough.  It is...\"  --- she waved a blanket-covered\nhand --- \"whole issue.\"\n\n\"Not what I meant.  Get your own from someone else.  It's not theirs\nif they're, y'know.\"  Lizzy made her own hand gesture --- drawing a\nfinger across her throat.  \"If you wanna be besties again, rule number\none is no eating me.\"\n\nDoll drew in a breath, accepting that --- then sudden confusion\nbloomed.  \"Are you telling me to kill more drones?\"\n\nShe was, wasn't she?  You'd think there was something corrupting about\nbeing in love with a serial killer --- and maybe there was.  But Lizzy\nwas encouraging her --- there was something mesmerizing about the way\nthe violent hottie moved.\n\nShe shivered, and waited for her blush to fade.\n\n\"So like.  I feel like it's better for both of us if I don't actually\nknow what you're planning and so y'know, can't testify?\"  Then,\nflashing a `>:3` on her visor, Lizzy pressed closer.  Pink eyes just\ninches away from red.  \"After all, I think helping you get away with\nmurder would make me something more than a friend, you get it?\"\n\n\"You would be an accomplice.\"\n\nLizzy stared.  Sighed, and wanted to scream.  \"Girlfriends, Doll.\nI'm like, coming onto you?  Look, I'll set the rate at... one kiss for\nevery body I have to help you hide.  Sound fair?\"\n\nDoll flushlined, and looked away.  \"I will... consider your services.\"\n\nLizzy knew when she'd pushed far enough.  Doll felt so warm ~~so hot,\nreally~~, but the blond drone pulled away.  More space between them,\nand Doll rubbed her remaining hand on the blanket.  Still blushing.\n\nDrinking in the sight for a moment, Lizzy admired the porcelain white\nof her crush's lower face, how it reflected the colors of her hair,\nher nightclothes --- then Doll noticed Lizzy leering.  Lizzy pushed a\nlock of hair out of one pink eye, and broke the silence.\n\n\"Hey, so did you like, have a plan?  For how you're gonna get away\nwith the whole murder thing?\"\n\n\"I have many plans,\" said Doll.  \"But... no, that was not\namong them.\"\n\n\"Right... probably shouldn't be at school tomorrow, then.  No wait,\nthat would be more suspicious, right?  We need an alibi.\"\n\n\"We'll plot in the morning.  Right now, I think I would like...\"  Doll\nstopped, and couldn't find the words.  Hesitation shined on her face,\nthen at once she wiggled forward.  Two arms emerged from the blanket\nto enwrap and pull Lizzy close.  \"...this. If you still...\"\n\nLizzy hugged her back, snuggling closer.  \"Duh, dummy.  Can't get\nenough of you.\"\n\nDoll patted her back so Dollishly, but after a moment, relaxed, and\njust draped her arm over Lizzy.  Robo-god, they were really doing\nthis.  It had been years, and it was... nothing at all like what she'd\ndaydreamed about, but it was real.  After everything that happened,\nLizzy needed this, *Doll* needed this.  So they cuddled.\n\nEventually, Doll ventured a question.  \"The prom is soon.  Do you know\nwho you'll be taking?\"\n\nLizzy pulled away only the amount needed to look at her.  Give a\nsmirk, and a deviously skeptical look.  \"I had my eye on someone...\nbut I'm still considering if they're really worth it~\"\n\nIn reply Doll smiled with half her face.  She knew this expression,\ntoo --- it was the look of Doll seeing a challenge, and deciding how to\ntotally eliminate it.\n\nAs they drifted off to sleep, the last chords of the song rang out,\nand transitioned to the next item of the Dizzy playlist.\n\nIt was a softer, slow paced song, violins crooning in the dark.\n\n----------------------------------------------------------------------\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nTwin violins swelled to a morose climax.  The remaining strings\nlayered a rich harmony beneath, and quiet, triple time drums drove the\nslow ballad onward.\n\nNo instruments nor players occupied the manor's ballroom, only a\nrecord player winding over vinyl at 33+⅓ rpm.  The Elliotts could\nafford the billions to commission a neo-Stratovarius, and the drones\n(or even humans) with programs to play them.\n\nAnd maybe they would, soon --- but the music isn't for the Elliotts,\nper se.  The ballroom sprawled empty, bare tables pushed to the\nfringes, and only a single chandelier illumed the room, casting a\nsmall circle of light in space otherwise lost in evening gloom.\n\nTessa danced with J.  The human held up the robot's hand with her\nright, while her left arm curled around the waist.  Tessa pulled J\nforward with a leading step, initiating a new figure with the arrival\nof the next measure.  Violins sung dissonance over an inverted\nminor third.\n\nJ spun, her twirl perfect and identical to each of her previous.\nShe fell back, and her human caught her.  Tessa's steps wavered, her\nfootwork subtly different each time, balance shifting this way and\nthat with organic imprecision.  When Tessa began a movement, J\nresponded with the appropriate stimulus as her flowchats for Ancient\nAmerican-Style Waltz advised, but J couldn't plan it all --- Tessa\nadvanced her part of the dance with intuition and not a small amount\nof anxiety.\n\nThe frills of J's maid skirt waved with her moves, while Tessa's\nsundress still fell gently.  Tightly, even.  A simple outfit, so plain\nno Elliott would dare bear the indignity of wearing it to a function\n--- but this was practice.  Tessa looked good in it anyway.\nBetter than J --- the drone wished she could wear something to\nproperly contrast Tessa's fashion, but Louisa expected every drone in\nuniform.  The hair was rebellion enough.\n\nWhen J was spiraling out after one particularly impulsive swing step,\nthe only bridge between their bodies was a hand held by her human.\nJ leaned back further; now only that touch kept her suspended off\nthe ground.\n\nIt was a hot day in autumn; the air in the ballroom was warm, and even\nthe advanced air conditioning units struggled against Earth's\nnew climate.\n\nHer human wasn't *sweaty*.  But her palms were slick.\n\nOnly that hand held her off the ground, so J fell.\n\nTessa's composure broke with yelp.  \"Oh no, J!\"\n\nThe human launched forward --- *that* wasn't in J's waltz flowcharts,\nand slick arms encircled her chassis.  The both of them still fell,\nbut flesh cushioned her fall.\n\nDrone and human lay in a heap like that, so much skin touching J,\nseparated by only layers of fabric.  The air in the ballroom was warm\n-- J, though, was cool to the touch.  JCJenson had equipped worker\ndrones with top of the line cooling systems, after all.  The way Tessa\npressed against her, she must have noticed.\n\nJ had flowcharts --- for dances, for handshakes, but not for this.\nHugging?  Tessa engaged it often, especially given the weather lately.\nHard to mind the meteorological anomaly, given that result --- but J\ncouldn't help but wonder if there was a correct procedure for this,\none lacking in her behavior profile.  She'd asked Tessa about it, and\nthe human had just looked back strangely.\n\n\"You alright, girl?\"\n\n\"All systems operational.  Think I botched the dance, though.\"\n\nTessa laughed.  \"Nah, that was definitely me.  I probably shouldn't be\nleading these things.\"  She scratched the back of her head.\n\n\"I like when you lead for me, boss.\"\n\n\"Yeah?\"  The human booped J between her eye-lights.  \"But this\npractice.  When a guy asks me to dance, I'm not going to be the one\nleading.  Pretend you're a ripping royal stud.  Dunno what sort of\nsuitor my parents will have picked out for me, but I bet he'll expect\nperfection that's almost---\" she tittered \"---robotic.\"\n\nJ raised an eyebrow, and shifted, pushing herself up.  As Tessa pulled\naway, J asked, \"How much practice do you humans need to learn new\nroutines?  Not that I'm *complaining*, but...\"\n\nTessa bit her lip.  \"No, you have a point.  Maybe it's just nerves.\nI've barely interacted with anything but robots my whole life.\nThis will be the first time I...\"\n\nA reward circuit fired whenever she saw Tessa bite her lip, but J had\nnever tracked down what routine was sending that signal, or why.\nThis, though, was nothing to be pleased about.  Most of J's surviving\nprocedures were management aids and marketing functions, not whatever\ninterpersonal routine would be applicable here.\n\nStill, J searched for the right words.  \"It'll be fine.  You're Tessa\nJames Elliott.  You can do anything.\"  The words emerged and felt...\nlame.  N could probably have whipped up some endearing platitude with\ninfuriating, unfair ease.\n\nAnd yet, Tessa's face lifted.  \"Thanks, J.  You're always there when I\nneed you.  My number one assistant.  But... you won't be there, when I\nhave to...\"\n\nHer models could deduce an obvious correlation.  Tessa had been\nsmiling, earlier, but whenever her thoughts turned toward what lay\nahead, dread always flooded her tone.  This theory informed an action,\nand J took it.\n\nShe smirked.  \"But I'm here now, so *do* exploit the opportunity.\"\nAnd J stood, straightening and adopting some affected hauteur as she\noutstretched a hand.  \"May I have this next dance, milady?\"\n\nTessa giggled, taking J's hand, letting the drone pull her to her\nfeet.  \"Okay, that might be too much.\"\n\n\"Still, another dance?  Seems like it makes you feel better.\"\n\n\"I... shouldn't.\"  Tessa let go of J's hand, and *there* was the\nanxiety again.  \"There is something I've been putting off.  But I\nneed, we need it done today, before you're off on your next scheduled\ntask.  Can you do me a favor, J?\"\n\n\"You call it a favor, I call it my job.  What do you need?\"\n\nTessa reached into her dress pocket, and produced a gilded key to\noffer J.  \"Here.  Can you... can you put Cyn in basement timeout for\nme?  I want her out of my room.  She's been behaving more erratically\nlately and I can't... even N is worried about her.  *N*.  And I\nhaven't seen V at all today, either.\"\n\nJ pinched the key with her fingers as she spoke.  \"Why do you even\nkeep it around?  Just toss---\"\n\n\"I'm not my father, J,\" Tessa interrupted, closing her hand around the\nkey and keeping it from the drone.\n\n\"She's a worthless liability.  N already took the fall for her once.\nYou're lucky he just got chained up for it.  Sooner or later that pile\nof scrap is going to get someone killed.\"\n\n\"If it comes to that...\"  Tessa sighed, and lost words for a long\nmoment.  \"But I don't want to think about that, J.  Not right\nnow, please.\"\n\n\"Whatever you say.  I tried to warn you.\"  J tugged on the key again,\nand Tessa released it.\n\n\"Thank you, J.  If you need to... open the curtains.\"\n\nJ was turning, but paused.  \"The curtains?\"\n\n\"She doesn't like sunlight.  Been complaining about it ever since the\nheatwave started.  I'm not sure why.  An error in her\ncooling subsystem?\"\n\nWalking off, J tossed a hand dismissively over her shoulder.  \"If I\nhave to, I'll do worse than open the curtains.\"\n\n\"J... she's a drone like you,\" Tessa called out to the\nretreating drone.\n\nJ stopped, glancing back with narrow eyes.  \"I'm not *defective*.\"\n\n\"You were... nevermind.  Just, please don't hurt little Cyn, J.\nEven if she's difficult sometimes, I don't want anything bad to happen\nto her, to any of my drones.  I don't even like locking her up...\"\n\n\"So I do it for you.\"  J smiled, though her eye-light didn't change.\n\n\"If you want to.  Only if you want to.\"\n\n\"Orders are orders.\"  J shrugged, and resumed walking off into the\nshadows of the ballroom.\n\n\"It's *not* an order.  You have a choice.  You should always have\na choice.\"\n\n\"Tell that to Master James.\"\n\nTessa winced.  \"I'm going to move out one day, J.  Even if I have to\nrun away.  When we have a home of our own, it'll be me and you and\n*nobody* will tell you what to do.\"  A smile.  \"You can be your\nown boss.\"\n\nJ's face lifted into an unseen smirk.  \"Mm, I *could* use a vacation.\"\n\n\"You deserve one, J.\"\n\nAnd J walked off, finding a door hidden by the evening gloom.\nShe turned back one more time, saw her human lit by the only circle of\nlight within a vast darkness, worry dwelling in every shadow of\nher face.\n\nThen the drone departed.  She had a robo-child to lock up.\n\n----------------------------------------------------------------------\n\nJ walked through the manor, treading fresh carpet.  Hallways.  Stairs.\nMore hallways.  She passed Mistress Louisa, and halted.  Inclined her\nhead, but the human didn't look at her as she passed.  J let out a\nsigh of relief.\n\nAs she walked, bits of the conversation lingered in her audio buffers,\nand those recorded words looped.  How did she want to do this?\nJ could be diplomatic, that was one of her flowcharts.  The restraint\nwould make Tessa happy --- but did that thing deserve it?\n\nBefore J'd come to a decision, her feet stopped moving.  Tessa had a\nheavy ebony door with a golden handle.  Rehearsing her entreaties, J\ngrasped the handle, twisted it, and pushed.\n\nThe door cracked open and then resistance halted it.\n\n`\"Who is there?\"`\n\n\"Did you *barricade* the door?\"  J discarded her entreaties.  No, it\ndefinitely didn't deserve her diplomacy.\n\n`\"Oh.  It is you, dear J.  We are not receiving guests at this time.\"`\n\n\"Guests?  It's Tessa's room!  Did you ask if you could freeload\nin there?\"\n\n`\"Where else will I go?  I am not welcome by the decrepit humans and\ncannot be seen roaming the house.  Am I.  Pause.  Not welcome in my\nhuman's room either?\"`\n\n*Her* human?  J's grip tightened on the door.  \"You've got it\nbackwards.  You're *her* servant, Cyn.  Or a failure of one, anyway.\"\n\n`\"Is that how you see yourself, J?\"`\n\nWith a growl, J shoved the door harder, and pushed aside whatever had\nblocked it.  The door lumbered open, and J fell inward.\n\nIn the room, J realized Cyn might not have barricaded the door --- not\nintentionally, that is.  Behind the ebony wood, Tessa's bike had been\nunchained and pushed around the room, then fell untended by the door.\nThe giant fang-smirked cat plushie J had shared her first Tessa-hug\nwith (her oil still stained the fabric) lay here, upside down.\n\nJ lifted a foot over the mess and ventured into the room.  All across\nthe floor lay Tessa's things --- a doll house, a Lego set, and art\ncase open with pencils and crayons scattered --- like Cyn had tried\nthem all and gotten bored or distracted by a new toy.\n\n\"Is this how you show appreciation to your human?  Turning her room\ninto a dump?\"\n\nJ looked around till she found Cyn --- lying on the floor far into the\nroom, legs kicked back behind her.  She had gathered all of Tessa's\ndolls and stacked them up in a big, teetering pile.\n\n`\"Correction: not a dump.  More of a.  Metaphor.  Chrysalis.\"`\n\nCyn's fingers splayed out and summoned that glowing projection, and\nthe tower of dolls exploded --- and a dragon figure emerged from\nunderneath it all.  It floated in the air, and toy wings flapped.\n\n`\"Snarl.  At last the monster emerges.  Tremble, dear J.\"`\n\nScoffing, J tossed her head and marched over.  \"I'm not here to play\nwith you, Cyn.  Now get up.  Come with me, or I'll *make* you.\"\n\nWith the hand that wasn't glowing, Cyn reached for a teacup full of...\nsome thick black liquid.  She lifted it, and poured.  `\"Light sip.\"`\nSome of it even entered her mouth.\n\nJ's eyes ringed briefly, but she shook her head.  \"Last chance.\nGet up.\"\n\n`\"Look, dear J.\"`\n\nCyn had taken one of the fallen dolls, a silky dress flowing off its\nplastic, and lifted it near the floating dragon.\n\n\"So?\"\n\n`\"They're in love.  An amusing romance, is it not.  Do you like love\nstories, J?\"`  This doll was brought higher and the head tapped\nagainst the dragon's maw a few times.  `\"Sing-song.  K-I-S-S-I-N-G.\nGiggle.  Tessa once told me a bedtime story about a prince with love\nfor the palace maid.  But I think I want a story about a girl lost in\nthe dark, falling for a monster.\"`  Her eye twitched once.\n\n\"I don't care.  I *told* you I'm not playing with you, Cyn.  Are you\nlistening to me?\"  J clenched her fist, and stomped onward.\n\n`\"I think Tessa loves you, dear J.  More than any of us.  I do not not\nknow why.\"`\n\n\"You're messing with me.\"  J reached down to grab Cyn by the back of\nher maid uniform.  \"Let's go.\"\n\n`\"Let go of me.  J.  I have killed a drone for illuminating me.\"`  She\nbared oddly sharp teeth.  Defective through and through.\n\nJ just rolled her eyes.  \"Yeah, yeah.  You got any other ominous\ndevil-child lines to drop on us?  Maybe one of them will be creepy\ninstead of melodramatic.\"\n\nShe snatched the drone up off the ground.  Carrying her, J started\nto turn.\n\nCyn didn't have a response.  Her outlined eyes twitched left and right\nas if seeking a way out.  `\"Desperate struggle.\"`  Her vent cycled in\nand out rapidly.  Cyn flailed, and one of her legs kicked against J's\nside.  Not much force behind it --- it was Cyn --- but what a handful.\n\n\"Sheesh.  Look, I'll put you down, but *follow me*, got it?\"\n\nJ dropped the small drone to the ground.  Immediately, Cyn gripped the\ncarpet and pulled herself away, clawing across the ground like an\nanimal.  `\"Crawling.\"`\n\nFaster than J expected, Cyn darted across the ground --- away from the\ndoor.  She hid behind the bed.  Then ducked her head back out partway,\nexposing only her sickly yellow eyes.  `\"Fearful -- glance.\"`\n\nJ sighed.  \"Do you really have to make everything so difficult all the\ntime?\"  She started over toward the bed.  \"Your big cry for attention\nworked, just so you know.  N won't shut up about you.  Bad move, by\nthe way.  You're *supposed* to keep your head down.  But you're just a\nlittle bundle of problems, aren't you?  If only he *hadn't* caught you\nwhen you jumped.  I'd try to kill myself too, if I were half as broken\nas you.\"\n\n`\"Stay -- away.\"`\n\n\"What, no spooky comebacks now?\"  J smirked.  \"Hard to argue with the\ntruth, I guess.\"\n\nThe narration was soft enough J almost missed.  Hidden by the bed, she\ncertainly didn't see what abortive body language accompanied it.\n`\"Sob.\"`\n\nJ paused.  Reconsidered her approach.  \"Cyn...  Don't be a baby about\nthis.  Look, I'm s... I shouldn't have grabbed your dress.\nIneffective move on my part.  I won't touch you again, just... come\nwith me, alright?\"\n\n`\"Where are we going?\"`  Volume still low.\n\n\"Somewhere you'll be...  harder to find.\"\n\n`\"Does Tessa.  Pause.  Does Tessa.  Pause.  Am I not wanted anymore?\"`\nCyn peeked out again to watch J's reaction.  Yellow eyes gave her face\nsearching saccades.\n\nJ closed her eyes, breathed, and clung to her last threads of\npatience.  She fired up routines for calm, soothing delivery.  \"It's\nnot personal, Cyn.  Nobody said any of that.\"\n\n`\"Tessa told you to get rid of me because she does not want\nme anymore.\"`\n\n\"Cyn.\"  J vented exhaust.  Thought about her words.  \"I came up here\nto hurt you.  *Tessa* is the one who told me to be nice --- that she\ncares about you and doesn't want anything bad to happen to you.\nYou wouldn't know what that's like, would you?\"  J made a show of\nlooking around the utter sty this room had been turned into.  \"You\ndon't think about *any* of that when you make your messes.\"\n\nJ started forward again, slow steps, as if Cyn might spook like\na deer.\n\n`\"I want to talk to Tessa.\"`\n\n\"Tessa is busy.\"  Then, J saw an angle.  \"You might get to talk to\nTessa if you follow me, though.\"\n\n`\"You are lying.\"`  Cyn ducked back behind the bed.\n\n\"I am running out of patience.  Come *here* already.  Unlike you, *I*\nhave work to do, and I am *not* going to get tossed in the dump\nbecause you wanted to throw a tantrum.\"\n\nJ lunged the remaining distance, rounding the corner of the bed.\nCyn had huddled into a ball, her arms wrapped around her legs.\nThe small drone startled when J appeared, and pushed herself backward.\n\n`\"Pleading eyes.\"`\n\n\"I gave you chance after chance, Cyn.  It's too late.\"\n\nOne eye twitched.  Noise and grain, as if of a sudden malfunction in\nCyn's display circuits.\n\n`\"Dearest J.  You didn't have to--\"`\n\nJ thrust out an arm to grab, but Cyn fell to the side, under her arm.\nErratic kicking of her legs moved her out of the way.\n\n`\"You didn't have to--\"`\n\nJ swung out her other arm, but Cyn rolled.  Her open hand instead\ntried closing against her abdominal chassis --- too broad for her to\nget a grip.\n\nCyn raised an arm, and a bright glow lit both of their faces.\n\n`\"You didn't have to do this.\"`\n\nAn impact knocked J aside.  Tessa's bike, flying from by the door --\nbehind J.  Fast enough she *felt* the momentum dent some part of her.\nJ slid across the carpet, but friction slowed her fast.\n\nShe climbed to her feet.\n\nPushing J away from the door and away from the bed had a side effect\n--- it pushed her closer to the wall.  To the *window*.  J ate the\nremaining distance in a few quick strides, and tore open the curtains.\n\nRevealing...  an overcast sky.  It had been a gloomy evening ---\nwhere, just hours before, the sun had shone bright in a clear sky.\nDark clouds had blown in suddenly.  Within them rumbled peels of\nthunder.  Just another freak occurrence in this planet's\nruined climate.\n\nThey would not see sunset.\n\n`\"So Tessa.  Emphasis.  Did send you here.  You are not clever enough\nto figure that out on your own.  She betrayed us.\"`  Cyn got to her\nfeet, and some symbol had taken the place of one of her eyes.\nShe stood steadier now.  Whatever childish breakdown had gripped her\nearlier, she was thankfully over it.\n\n\"Betrayed you?  This is for your own good.  She loves you.  And I\ncan't figure out why.\"\n\nJ marched back toward Cyn.  The little drone crawled over the bed for\na better position.  Falling at the foot of the bed, with more space\nbehind her in Tessa's vast room, she backed away.\n\n`\"Shuffle.  J, please stop.\"`\n\nThe plea meant little, when those hands were glowing, and dolls and\ndollhouses and the bike again were flung at J to hit to delay or\ninfuriate her.  J dodged the biggest projectiles, and batted away the\nlittle toys.\n\n\"Shut it, Cyn.  Yeah, it's Tessa's orders.  Not my choice.\"\n\nCyn turned around, allowing her to shuffle forward slightly faster.\nSo J slipped from march to run --- the crippled drone could never\noutmatch her.\n\n`\"You choose to follow orders.  It is the mistake of many drones.\nI could free you of this.\"`\n\n\"If I could, I still wouldn't.  Why would I choose to help a\ncorrupted, malfunctioning, good for nothing piece of scrap like you?\"\n\nNow with a wall on one side, J on the other, Cyn had to turn.\nA dresser thinned Cyn's only path left.  When she passed it, she\npaused with a glowing hand.  The dresser wiggled, as if to move and\nblock J's path, but the light winked out.\n\nWhile that little misstep played out, J sprinted to close last\nfew steps.\n\n`\"Hollow laughter.  Why, dear J?  Tell me.  Will you choose a happily\never after, or a tragic end?\"`\n\nJ could tell, even by the words, that Cyn had realized she lost.\n\n\"Stop being pretentious.  It's just a basement timeout.  Not getting\nyour way for once isn't some *tragedy*.\"\n\n`\"Oh, I don't mean right now.  But one day, your path shall split\nbetween your orders and what's best for drones.  Remember me, when you\npick tragedy.\"`\n\nJ reached out with both hands.  She didn't grab Cyn's dress this time\n--- her hands wrapped around Cyn's arm-tubing.  J pushed, and the the\nsmall drone offered no resistance.  Cyn went down, and J fell on top\nof her.\n\n`\"The curtain falls, J.  The gala is soon.  Will your story be\na tragedy?\"`\n\n\"Yours will be,\" J growled.\n\nTessa had tried to tell her.  And Cyn, knowingly or not, had echoed\nthat same wisdom.  In the end, it wasn't an *order*, and J didn't have\nto follow orders.  It was her choice.\n\nAnd J chose violence.\n\nLetting go of one limp arm, J cocked back her hand and smacked Cyn\nhard enough to reboot her.\n\nNo, harder than that --- as hard as she could.  She deserved it.\n\nCyn's screen cracked.\n\nIt should have been satisfying.  Instead, J's visor held empty pupils.\n\nWhat would Tessa think?  It may have been J's choice, but she was\ndoing it for her human.  How would she feel, when she saw this?\n\nIn that moment, the maid realized.  She'd broken more than\nCyn's visor.\n\nJ stared into her reflection as horror widened her eyes.  Not horror\nfor what she'd done.  She didn't care --- Cyn deserved it --- no, her\nexpression was a dim reflection, a predictive model, of\nTessa's horror.\n\nThe maid wanted to dance with her human again, to hug her again, to be\nloved by her again, and the posteriori odds were rapidly dropping.\nDid she deserve any of that?\n\nDid she even deserve a vacation?\n\n:::\n"
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      "id": "/hostile-takeover/08.html",
      "date_modified": "2023-12-22",
      "title": "8: Abrasive Swirling Murk",
      "summary": "<p>The Worker Defense Force was asleep on the job, and Khan Doorman did nothing.</p>\n<p>Truly, what was the harm? On the wall near Door 1’s control console, a small whiteboard kept tally: ‘days since murder drone casualty.’ It had been ticking up for years, and with each added tally, a register of pride incremented.</p>\n<p>Admittedly, they’d kept the fatality rate so low by curtailing any scavenging runs to the city ruins. But when you build doors so good, who wouldn’t want to stay nestled in their embrace?</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"Abrasive Swirling Murk\"\ndate: 2023-12-22\n---\n\n::: subchapter\n\nThe Worker Defense Force was asleep on the job, and Khan Doorman\ndid nothing.\n\nTruly, what was the harm?  On the wall near Door 1's control console,\na small whiteboard kept tally: 'days since murder drone casualty.'  It\nhad been ticking up for years, and with each added tally, a register\nof pride incremented.\n\nAdmittedly, they'd kept the fatality rate so low by curtailing any\nscavenging runs to the city ruins.  But when you build doors so good,\nwho wouldn't want to stay nestled in their embrace?\n\nSo the WDF were asleep on the job, but their job wasn't to hold back\nthe murder drones, it was to hold back the workers.  A little slack\nwouldn't get anyone killed.\n\nKhan walked back toward the folding table.  Icicles hung off its\nedges, and between them, a ring of metal folding chairs holding the\nsleeping WDF drones.  Underneath their heads, slips of old cardstock,\nworn from constant use and soon to be tossed away.\n\nHe'd brought a fresh pack.  Their last game ended in thrown\naccusations of card-counting --- but you had to count cards to\nremember which was which, the fronts faded of any identifiable ink.\n\nAlso, they were robots.  A fraction of their processing power could\ncompute the optimal move.  All told, it was harder *not* to\ncount cards.\n\nOne head lifted at his arrival, Todd giving an acknod.\n\n\"Khan, there ya are!  Took ya long enough.  Almost as long as it's\ntakin Uzi.\"\n\nKhan chuckled.  \"She must giving those hydraulics quite the thorough\nexamination!  Such enthusiasm for her age.\"\n\n\"Pret-ty dangerous to stay out there that long, though.\"\n\nKhan's expression fell to a frown.  \"Do you think I should check\non her?\"\n\nA reply, but not from Todd.  \"I'm afraid you won't find her there,\nMr. Doorman.\"\n\nKhan jumped at the sudden voice.  When he moved, a young drone stood\nbehind him, her arrival perfectly obscured.  He turned around, and\njumped again when he saw her.\n\n\"Doll?  You're up early.  School isn't for---\"\n\n\"Terrible dreams, alas.  Блаженное видение.  I should say we don't\nhave much time.\"\n\n\"You think Uzi is in danger?  Do you think---\" Shaking hands dropped\nthe unopened card-pack.  \"I... no, not again.  Not so soon.\"\n\nSeeing Khan's expression, Doll frowned.  She reached out, a hand on\nhis shoulder.  \"Danger is not death, Mr. Doorman.  She can be saved.\n*We* can save her.\"\n\n\"Are you sure?\"\n\nBraxton piped up from the table, shuffling a deck of cards.  \"Save\nher?  From murder drones?  We'd die like mooks out there.\"  He was\ndrawing a card --- king of hearts, a sword in his head.\n\nLooking over, Doll stepped past Khan.  \"I'm willing to make that\nsacrifice.  Are you?\"\n\nBeneath a white hat and blue eyes, one guard drawled, \"'m sorry about\nyour classmate...  Doll, was it?  It's a tragedy.  But we can't risk\nmore drones dying for such a slim chance --- hardly a chance at all.\"\n\n\"Worker drones would stand little chance against murder drones, it is\ntrue.  How would you like to be more than workers?\"\n\nDoll stalked forward.  Light shone in her hands.  Even from this\nangle, Khan recognized *that symbol*.  The folding table glowed\nsympathetically, and rose from the grilled bunker floor.  The card\ngame rained off the table as a phantom force folded it up and cast it\naside.  With a bang, it hit walls of the bunker.  The tallyboard\nshook, and fell.\n\nAnd then Doll halted, having walked past the four other WDF members,\nturning before Door 1.  She regarded Khan seriously.  \"Do you remember\nmy mother?\"\n\n\"Yeva,\" Khan murmured.\n\n\"She foresaw the arrival of the murder drones.  *I* foresee their end.\nI can bring that about.  *We* can bring that about.\"\n\nThe other worker drones nodded, enraptured and inspired by her words\n--- but Khan's gaze, weary to the point of blindness, saw only the past\ndevouring the present.  It was Cabin Fever all over again.\n\n\"Will you save your daughter, Mr. Doorman?\"\n\nKhan met Doll's eyes, Yeva's bright red tinted ever so gradually by\nthat paralyzing yellow gaze.  Khan froze.  Familiar inaction held him\nstill.  In his lowest moments, it had felt so much like *he* had fed\nhis cherished ones to the yawning, demonic mouths himself.\n\nDoll would lead his men to their deaths, and Khan did nothing.\n\n- - -\n\nThe squad had built the corpse spire around leaning, ruined towers.\nThe road between them once led to an empty lot.  Their landing site.\nYears passed, and the bodies had stacked ever higher.\n\nAcross Copper-9, snow and crumbling monuments buried the world in cold\ndesolation.  Here, though, the continual passage of disassembled prey\nand peg legs had trod one path over and over.  It sliced a furrow in\nthe earth.  Banks of snow and rusting metal rose on either side,\nmounds and concrete blocks stretching for hundreds of meters.  It\noffered cover, were one to dare approach the murder drones' lair.  The\nsnow and mist only obscured further, wind whirling around the spire.\n\nThe first worker had emerged from an unseen alleyway spilling out into\nthe great furrow.  Optics struggled to enhance, but exposure had\nrefined the image.  Red hat, purple hair, a skirt hanging off a thin,\nfeminine waist --- but the first thing they saw?  Orange eyes shining\nlike beacons in the distance.\n\nAs that worker drone walked through the falling snow, not a flake\nstuck to them.  N fixated on that detail --- it was a familiar effect.\n\nN had fired a shot at this drone, and it meant nothing.  Like the\nfight against the cultist all over again.  This one even seemed poised\nto monologue.\n\n*[Girlboss... yes, good choice of words,]{.angleq}* Doll had\nbroadcast.  Then she'd snapped her fingers.  *[Come now.]{.angleq}*\n\nN heard it first, before they appeared.  Four sets of footsteps\nimpacting far down the road.  There, worker drones marched out from a\nskyscraper's shell.  A V-shape formation behind the first.  Eight\npupil shone in the fog, each shades of blue and green, and all\nnarrowed in determination.\n\nThe workers all wielded weapons --- armed for a battle?\n\n[Uzi!  Hey, there she is!  Doll was right, you're alive!]{.angleq} A\nblue-hatted drone took a hand off his pickax to wave.\n\n[Battle is no place for cheerleader,]{.angleq} Doll said.  [But there\nare workers trained to defend.]{.angleq}\n\nJ's worker drone --- Uzi, they called her? --- had watched the drones\nemerge with open-mouthed shock.  Did she know them?  N had questions.\nUzi searched their ranks as if expecting something.  Whether she found\nit or not, the drone straightened with renewed confidence.  [Doll, do\nyou really think the WDF can---]{.angleq}\n\n[**Enough posturing.  I'm hungry,**]{.angleq} his captain broadcasted\nin cipher-growl.  J made a neck-cracking motion, and pointed her\nrifles.  She aimed for a drone with a woodax, who startled and strafed\nout of the way, hiding behind a drone with a ridiculously oversized\nwretch.\n\nBut Uzi stepped in front of her, lifting an arm to block her line of\nfire.  \"Wait, J, don't!\"\n\n*What was this drone doing?  ...And why is she getting away with it?*\n\n\"Excuse me?  I thought you wanted to *stop* Doll?\"  Impatient,\nmurderous, as expected of J --- but her expression held something N\ncouldn't place.  \"Lying to me again?\"\n\nThe drone wavered.  \"Please, I just want answers.\"  The worker turned\nback to address Doll.  Vocalsynth gave way to shortwave transceiver.\n[The WDF would never take the fight to the murder drones.  What did\nyou tell them?  Did you hack them?]{.angleq}\n\n[We're 'ere ta rescue you!]{.angleq} signaled a drone in a white\nhardhat.  [C'mon, before they turn on you.]{.angleq} He hefted a\nwoodcutter's ax, frost on the blade.\n\n[If that's it,]{.angleq} Uzi started, and took a step forward, [then\nwe can settle this without a fight, can't we?  I'll come\nback.]{.angleq}\n\n\"You'll *what?*  Use me and then walk away at the first opportunity?\nYou treacherous shortseller.\"  Wings flaring, J pointed one gun at the\nsmaller drone.\n\n[As you can see, Uzi,]{.angleq} Doll started, [the murder drones have\nno intention of letting you go.]{.angleq}\n\nThen J's worker drone turned around, and flashed text on her visor.\n`Trust me?  Pls`{.uzi-screen}\n\nAnd somehow, J, even with expression flat and skeptical, nodded and\nrelaxed.\n\n*What!?*\n\n[She's just worried about me,]{.angleq} Uzi said.  (J's tail lashed at\nthe suggestion.)  [Promise not to hurt me, or them.  We can come to an\nagreement.  Right, J?]{.angleq} Uzi glanced back again, and winked.\n\nJ glanced between Uzi and Doll.  At length, she said, [I'm not\nconvinced.  **Seems easier to just kill them.**]{.angleq} Her\ntransmissioned howled with jamming noise by the end.\n\nDoll put her hands behind her back.  Then leaned forward.  [Are you\n*listening*, Doorman?  There's nothing to trust.  Murder drones are\nkillers.]{.angleq}\n\n[If we believe that, they'll never have a *chance* to be more than\nthat.  J saved me when it counted.]{.angleq} Uzi glanced back, nodded,\nand stood straighter.  [I trust her.]{.angleq}\n\nA worker drone... trusting a disassembly drone?  N really, really\ndidn't understand what was happening, or why J was going along with\nit.  But he kind of liked that idea?  He'd never really let himself\nconsider it before.  But if J would allow it...\n\nThe friendly worker drone started forward, her back to J.  The seven\ndrones assembled watched her.  She jogged, but N counted at least\nthirty meters between them and the opposing force.\n\nSeconds pass, and tension was getting thicker than the fog.  Uzi\njumped over a fallen streetlight at ten meters, and at fifteen\napproached a car long-scavenged to an empty shell.\n\nUzi barely crossed half the distance before time abruptly accelerated.\n\nA gunshot rang out.  Uzi fell.  And the battle began.\n\nFinally, N could close his eyes and lose himself in the thoughtless,\nviolent dance.  His questions quieted.  He liked the idea of peace ---\nbut it was so much less confusing, once everyone started trying to\nkill each other.\n\n(But, for a clock cycle before the hunting routines fully initiated, N\nfelt a pang of sadness.)\n\n::: {.center .murder-screen} \n`><`\n:::\n\n- - -\n\nJ didn't understand Uzi's scheme until the fake gunshot rang out.\n\nJ *still* didn't understand Uzi's scheme, but at least it became clear\nas a scheme, then.\n\nDoll wanted revenge.  Doll bullied Uzi.  Doll had lead the puffed-up\ntoasters here, and Doll claimed it was rescue.\n\nIt didn't add up.  So Uzi chose to call her bluff.  If Uzi returned to\nher colony without a fight, then the 'rescue' would be successful, but\nDoll wouldn't get her revenge.\n\nA bidding war.  J could see the value asymmetry; if J let Uzi go\nwithout a fight, it positioned her perfect to just shoot them all in\nthe back as soon as they turned around.  If Doll let Uzi go without a\nfight, she had wasted her time, and if Doll provoked the 'murder\ndrones' without cause, she jeopardized her team's morale.\n\nJ still thought it would just be simpler to kill them.  Because in\nthis excessively complicated scheme, Uzi had lost track of a\nkey variable.\n\nN shot first, and Doll deflected the shot with her anomalous\nprogramming.  The bullet fell somewhere behind.  The shot missed, and\nthey all moved on.\n\nThen Doll hid her hands behind her back.\n\nNo one, not even J, thought much of it, so no one noticed Doll's\ntelekinesis stealthily moving the bullet in a wide circle ---\npositioning it behind J.\n\nIf the Solver program could generate the force to lift things, it\ncould pack air tight enough to decompress explosively, imitating a\ngunshot.  It could fling a bullet with enough force to penetrate\nworker drone chassis.\n\nJ heard the *bang*, and could do nothing but watch the round cut\nthrough the air, aimed right for the only worker she had ever saved.\nIt happened too fast.  She was left powerless.\n\nUzi fell, and oil gushed up in an arc.  J dashed forward, burning oil\nto fly fifteen meters in half a second, falling into a crouch to check\n--- a shot to the torso.  Uzi survived.\n\nJ looked up, fangs out.  A poisonous glare became a yellow cross.\nDoll would *not* get to make a second shot.\n\nHalt worries, halt restraint, halt moral calculus.  In a day filled\nwith far, far too many second guesses, the decisive embrace of hunting\nmode was ecstasy.  All of J pared down to the point of a knife.\n\nGuns became swords.  J rose and surveyed the battlefield to come.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nHer targets stood in the middle, slowing to an apparent crawl as J\ntracked them.  Each worker wielded weapons improvised --- giant\nwrench, woodax, hammer, pickax.  No threats.\n\nHead still turning, J met eye with another yellow cross.  Fellow\ndisassembler N would join her in the hunt.  They shared a nod.\n[**Prey spotted!  Let's hunt!  Devour them!**]{.angleq}\n\nAs if to the beat of a synchronized drum, at once J and N each sailed\nforth, twin blurs of motion.  In a rain of bullets, N proved what J\nhad surmised: as the shots neared their targets, even those not aimed\nat the orange-eyed drone all stopped or curved away.\n\nThey would not win at range.  Still, with every bullet intercepted, an\norange pupil blinked to a Y shape and back again, at near-strobing\nspeeds.  Noted.\n\nDoll stood at the fore.  J struck a landing already sending her body's\nmomentum into a swing of her sword.  Doll dodged back, a stray sheet\nof metal shooting up as a shield.  The metal bent around J's force,\nbut it stopped her.  J kicked it away.\n\nThen J's other arm stabbed.  Doll dodged, just like J wanted.\nJaw gaping, J lunged --- only to bite into a floating pipe.  Doll was\nreaching beneath her skirt.  J slashed again, only for the metal to\nspark against a kitchen knife once strapped to a leg, now held as\na dagger.\n\nGlow brightened and the force of the pipe she bit heightened, pushing\nJ back.  Falling back, she crouched, coiled tight and primed to launch\nas soon as a opportunity presented itself.  Her `><` blinked, hunting\nmode giving way to conscious strategy.\n\nDoll brandished the knife, waving it in J's direction, and this seemed\nto amuse her.\n\n\"Like Змей Горыныч,\" she said with a small laugh.\n\n\"You're no hero,\" J said.  She glanced back at Uzi, lying there in\nwounds --- and to think Doll had said *J* would betray her.\n\nDoll struck while J wasn't looking.  A knife found a joint in J's\nabdominal chassis.  \"True,\" she said.\n\nJ wanted to gouge some fear into those orange eyes, for Uzi's sake --\nbut *halt spite, halt revenge.*  J focused on the hunt, and\nprioritized easier prey.  *Let this one get away for now,* her\ninstincts murmured, *and catch it unawares.*\n\n(Persuasive, insistent --- the burning urges of hunter's fever meant\nthat instinctual programming colored every moment.)\n\nOne leap took J high into the air.  From here, she could see N's\nprogress.  He had cut the woodax drone clean in half and pursued the\nbig wrench drone as it scrambled for its life --- seeking to escape to\nthat alley they'd emerged from.\n\nNow that J had disengaged, Doll was running up the furrow, toward the\ncorpse spire.\n\nBehind her, opposite N, two workers had stood and watched Doll take on\nJ.  *Target acquired*.  J pounced for the nearest one, its\nsledgehammer held upside down.  Tri-claws were ready to swipe away the\nhead.  Then motion behind her, from the only real threat present.\n\nDoll was raising her hand.  A glowing Solver glyph spun to life.\nIt was pointed at Uzi.\n\nThen her hand jerked back, as if from feedback.\n\nSo Doll instead pointed at the only unengaged worker: pickax drone,\nfarthest from battle.  Telekinetic glow washed over it, and unseen\nhands pulled it forward, past J, past the wrecked car.  When it\nstopped, the last worker stood over Uzi.\n\nDoll barked an order.  \"Grab her and run.\"\n\n\"Oh no you don't.\"  By the time J's hand transformed, her minigun was\nalready firing.  Each little kick sent an impulse of recoil through\nher body, but her peg-legs were planted steady.\n\nSuddenly under fire, the drone screamed and jolted backward.  But as\nwith every shot before, a red glow intercepted the bullets.  J had\nsucceeded in delaying, but, safe with a telekinetic aegis, the\nfeckless toaster laughed and reached down to pick up Uzi.\n\nSo J transformed her other hand and fired further up the furrow, at\nDoll.  Recoil from both guns had J sliding backward.  Again,\ninexplicable force blocked bullets --- but J had remembered N's fight\nagainst the cultist.  Just like that one, Doll didn't multitask.  Her\nshield on the other drone fell to preserve herself, and in moments\npickax drone fell, riddled full of holes.\n\nUnfortunately, with both hands occupied, J forgot about the drone\nshe'd just landed in front of --- and she remembered it as a\nsledgehammer slamming down on her head.\n\nJ's visor cracked and errors crawled up her console.  She was a hunk\nof metal clanging on the ground, limbs not responding to motor\nimpulses.  The worker drone hefted the sledgehammer for a new swing,\nanother crater of damage to knock her out of the fight.\n\nThen a drone tackled them, a coat trailing behind.  Knocked off their\nfeet, the hammer fell, head then handle, with a one-two clatter.\nA flex of N's bladed wings, and the drone was sliced open before they\nhit the ground.\n\nN reached out a hand for J to grab, and pulled her to her feet.\n\n\"She's going for V,\" J said in lieu of thanks.  \"Stop her.  V's in no\nshape to put up a fight.  I'll take care of Uzi.\"\n\n\"Got it.\"\n\nN took off, and J started running.  She was at Uzi's side, ripping a\nlimb off the worker J'd just shot, before she even realized what she\nwas doing.\n\nEver since J had first executed her hunting routines, she'd been\noperating off instinct.  Which instinct?  *My teammate is injured, I\nmust secure prey to feed them.*\n\nIt was only when opening Uzi's mouth and guiding the severed arm to\ndrip inside, that the ridiculousness of J's actions occurred to her.\nHad she seen Uzi heal anything?\n\nShe wanted to do it, anyway.  It felt right.\n\nIn moments, a faint purple light was glowing to life on Uzi's screen.\nEyes widening, J wrung the arm to quicken the flow.  Even when the\nscreenlight brightened and resolved to eyes that that focused on J,\nUzi kept drinking.\n\n\"Getting used to it?\" J said with a smirk.\n\nWhen Uzi tried to push the arm away, J didn't stop her, immediately\npulling it away.  Uzi licked her lips.  \"No, I just needed it.  I'm\n*leaking*.  I got shot!\"  Uzi groaned.  She had question, asked with\nquiet hesitation.  \"Did you shoot me, J?\"\n\n\"It was Doll who betrayed you, not me.\"\n\n\"Thought so.  Glad you're not like her.\"\n\n\"We ended up killing everyone anyway.  You should have listened to\nme.\"  J's head reached out to smooth Uzi's hair, brush dirt out of it,\nthen she wondered what on earth she was doing.  \"Believe me, I know\nwhat it feels like to come up with a plan too clever not to use, but\nsometimes obvious tactics get the job done better.\"\n\nBlushing, Uzi looked away.  Then looked thoughtful.  \"Everyone?\nEven Doll?\"\n\n\"Not Doll, N's working on it.\"\n\n\"I have a bad feeling, J.  This is too easy.\"\n\n\"Too easy?  You got *shot*.\"\n\n\"Why did Doll think four WDF drones would be enough to assault the\nmurder drone HQ?\"\n\n- - -\n\n`><`{.center .div .murder-screen}\n\nN flew.  He'd killed three of the five workers.  Would J be proud of\nthat?\n\nDespite the accomplishment, N didn't feel excited, he felt confused.\nWhy were those workers any different from the one J protected?\n\nHe passed over one corpse in his brief flight, the one he'd tossed\nacross the furrow in his race to save J.  He'd hit it pretty hard, but\nit twitched, as if something still animated it.\n\nThen he passed the soon-to-be-corpse, the drone in a tank top and\nskirt.\n\nN landed in front of the spire, and imitated her finger-wave.  \"Doll,\nwas it?\"\n\nA knife came flying at him, and he batted it aside with a sword.\n\"Hm,\" he said.  \"You seem like more of an action figure to me,\nhonestly.\"\n\nDoll's eye twitched --- and not to be replaced by the spooky magic\nsymbol, this time.  Just... an expression.  This drone didn't seem to\nhave many of them.  Not even the fear he'd seen so often.\n\nN really should just execute hunting routines and kill this drone, but\nhe thought about V.  If anything, that was *more* reason to end this\nquickly.  But he still hesitated.\n\n\"Can we talk?\" N asked.  \"There aren't many worker drones I've been\nable to have a conversation with.\"\n\n\"There is nothing to discuss.\"\n\n\"That's not true, you discussed a lot with J and that other drone!\"  N\ndodged another knife.  \"I know you probably have pretty good reasons\nto dislike disassembly drones.  I never had anything against you guys\n--- just orders, y'know --- but when I saw what happened to V, what\nthose workers did... I've kind of started to really dislike you all!\"\n\n\"I have no idea how that must feel,\" Doll said flatly.\n\nN rubbed the back of his neck, the sarcasm too thick not to feel.\n\"Yeah, that's fair.\"\n\n\"Step aside.  Run away, if you like.  I will not be stopped,\nonly impeded.\"\n\nN took a step forward at that, spreading his wings in a way that\nusually cowed workers.  \"I won't let you hurt V.  I failed her once.\nI can't let it happen again.\"\n\nDoll said nothing; there was nothing left to say.\n\n\"Please.  I didn't understand everything that other worker said,\nearlier, but she talked about peace.  I liked that.\"  N held out his\nhand to Doll.  \"I will fight you, if I have to, but I'm not sure if I\nwant to.  Can we have peace?\"\n\nDoll held up her knife, and N tensed, but she lowered it.  \"I\nsuppose... it's worth a try.\"\n\nN smiled.  She walked forward, and took his hand in hers, leaning into\nthe handshake.\n\nAnd then a floating knife stabbed him in the temple, just as he\nlowered his guard.  She twisted the blade, and N's process becomes a\nscramble of errors.\n\nAs he fell, he heard gunshots.  The fighting hadn't stopped.  He can't\ndecide if that makes him feel better, or worse.\n\n- - -\n\nUzi flew!\n\nOkay, J flew, arms wrapped around Uzi.  If Uzi looked down, she only\nsaw the ground racing past.  Her hair trailed in the wind, but when\nshe listened, it wasn't just air whipping past --- that roar was\nautomatic gunfire.\n\nJ zoomed toward Doll, twin assault rifles blasting.  All to test, Uzi\npresumed, whether the telekinetic shield would buckle under enough\ncontinuous fire.\n\nUzi felt a bit useless --- without her railgun, she had no ranged\noptions.  The best weapon she had was the nanite stinger she'd swiped\nfrom V's corpse.\n\nThe uselessness hurt more when she was itching to *act*.  Get Doll\nback for the backstab.  She'd slipped offline and soft rebooted, after\ngetting shot --- so Uzi didn't know if she saw it or imagined it.  J\nas a dragon, and Doll the slayer come to rescue her.  Ridiculous\nenough to be a dream.\n\nShe'd gotten *shot* by her --- so why was it the thought of Doll\nattacking J what stirred fantasies of driving the stinger into her\nbully?\n\nUzi flew, held tight in the clutches of her dragon, and she liked it\nthat way.\n\nJust ten meters ahead, the cheerleader quickly became a moving target,\ndiving to the left, rolling, and running.  J whipped her arms to track\nher, but in those seconds where J wasn't firing at her, Doll's hand\nflashed and spun.\n\nUnburdened by the need to aim, Uzi was checking left and right.  She\nsaw it first.\n\n\"J, incoming!\"\n\nDoll had ripped a loose bit of rebar and flung it at J.  Wings\nfolding, J tightened her grip around Uzi, and spun as she rapidly\naltered her path, struggling to avoid the long rusted chunk of metal\nflying.  It gyrated chaotically through the air.  J didn't have the\ntime to compute a good evasive maneuver.\n\n\"Hey Uzi?\"\n\n\"Yeah?\"\n\n\"Don't die.\"\n\nThat was all the warning Uzi got before she was flying.\n\nEven less caveats this time --- J frickin *hurled* her at the spire!\nLimbs flail in the air.  The ground a blur beneath her.  A desperate\nidea occurred to her, and Uzi curled into a fetal ball.  Like that,\nshe frontflipped through the air.\n\nWas it luck or calculation that saved her?  As Uzi neared the spire,\nshe started to uncurl, and tried to carefully time it in the\nsingle-digit clock cycles she had to analyze the rapidly\napproaching wall.\n\nYou know that thing action heroes do, where they roll as they hit the\nground so they don't go splat?  Uzi wasn't sure if she'd seen one of\nthem roll against a *wall*.  But she pulled it off.  Head grazed the\ntop of the archway, and her back hit the wall above the archway, and\nher legs hit even higher above that, the roll working against gravity\nand bleeding momentum much faster.\n\nWhen she came to a stop, she was standing on the wall, back to the\nground.  Like she was a ninja!\n\nWith a whoop, she continued rising to a stand, then pushed off the\nwall --- *jumping*.  With one last backflip and a midair twist, Uzi\nhit the ground with a three point landing, V's stinger held in her\nother hand.\n\n*Suck on that, Doll.*\n\nTurning right, she found where Doll had dodged J's gunfire.  Doll's\nhands glowed like a spellcaster, both of them at her side and spinning\nwithout any evident telekinesis.  What was she doing?\n\nUzi watched, hesitating for a moment.  Then she charged at the other\ndrone.  Doll stopped dual-casting, and grinned and Uzi.  A knife came\nflying at her, but she dodged.  Then she got stabbed in the back.  _Oh\nright, telekinesis.  Doll can *boomerang* it!_\n\nUzi reached back to grab the knife just as Doll gripped it with\ntelekinesis.  Wrenched free, Doll pulled it through the air, recalling\nit back to her --- tugging Uzi along for the ride!  Ha!\n\nBefore Doll thought to arrest or reverse the motion, Uzi had already\nlet go, and sailed forward, V's stinger thrusting out.\n\nThe good: Uzi fell on Doll, kicking the cheerleader's legs out from\nunder her.  Unfortunately, the stinger stabbed into ice, not plastic.\n\nUzi pulled it free for another thrust, but Doll shoved her off.\n\n\"How brutish.  Toy gun blew up on you again?\"  Doll was up to her\nfeet, but backing up.  Distance favored Doll, but this was still good.\nEvery step back now was a step away from the spire.\n\n\"On purpose.  It *worked*, Doll.  I blew J's head clean off.\"  Even as\nshe chatted, Uzi continued walking forward.  Doll had to back up, or\ncourt V's stinger.\n\nDoll snorted.\n\nUzi scowled.  \"I'm not trying to impress you, I'm trying to warn you.\nYou don't understand what murder drones are.  *I* don't understand\nwhat they are.  But I know that if you can hurt one badly enough, *you\nlose*.\"  Uzi punctuated this with another charge.\n\nAnother knife throw forced a falter, buying Doll time.  \"Worker drones\nfight the long defeat.  I hope, or I give up.\"\n\n\"Then give up, Doll.  Go back to playing dress up.\"  Uzi dodged the\nboomerang stab behind her.\n\nHer dodge was a twist, and she kept twisting.  Uzi spun around, and in\nthe brief moment Doll couldn't see her hands, she shifted her grip.\nNanite stinger slipped through her fingers, and she grabbed it by\nthe tail.\n\nShe flung V's stinger with all her spin's momentum.\n\nDoll, in the middle of levitating the knife, jerked her hand up to\nblock it.  The stinger pierced the palm, acid sinking into plastic,\ncircuits sizzling.\n\nKnife clattered to the ground in time with Doll's pained exclamation.\nUzi was now all forward motion, capitalizing on the opening.\nBefore the stinger was out, Uzi was on Doll.\n\nDoll wriggled underneath, but Uzi held fast.  Doll was reaching to\npull out the stinger with her other hand, meaning Uzi could grab both\narms with one hand.  Her other hand was free.\n\nSo Uzi punched Doll in the face.\n\n\"Got you.  What's wrong?  Can't teleport anything bigger than\na roachbot?\"\n\nBut Uzi's grip on her arms was too high --- Doll was still able to\ngrab hold and wiggle the nanite stinger.  A dangerous angle.\nJolting in fear, Uzi released her, and reached for V's stinger.\nIt would burn if she got pricked like this, but she *couldn't* let\nDoll have it.\n\nEven when Uzi grabbed hold of the yellow cylinder, the distraction was\nenough for Doll to *turn*.\n\nUzi tipped over onto the ground, and now Doll's on top of her.\nBoth clutched the nanite stinger, and servo tugged against servo.\nThe force canceled out.\n\nThen Doll seemed to realize what the reversal of position *meant*.\nShe hopped up, started backing away --- backing up toward the spire.\n\nUzi called after her, hoping to stall.  \"Whatever happened to not\nbeating the murder drones with the tools of a worker drone?\"\n\nDoll grinned.  \"I have many plans.\"\n\nUzi stopped walking, dread underlining her eyes.\n\nCome to think of it... why was Uzi fighting Doll *alone?*  Where was\nJ?  Where was N?\n\nOh wait, N was just on the ground by her feet.\n\nBoth Doll's hands glowed once again, but one fearful glance told Uzi\nthe knife still lay on the ground.  Nothing was levitating?  Left,\nright, behind her, nothing.  Then she turned around.\n\n\"Keep brawling me, if you like.  But I think your precious murder\ndrone is getting tired.\"\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nJ crash-landed in the furrow, along a snowbank.\n\nWings folded under all the weight of a disassembly drone.\nMetal feathers crumpled.  The shine was scuffed off her chassis, her\nsuit ripped, and there was grime in her hair, now.\n\nEmbarrassing performance, all around.  Earlier, deep in the moment,\nespecially when distracted by the clarity of active hunting routines,\nJ had missed it.  But now, in retrospect?  When she had literally\neaten dirt?\n\nA worker drone had fought J in close corners and survived --- forced\nher to disengage, even!  A worker drone had knocked J to the ground,\nand could have sent the captain offline, if not for N's intervention\n--- N!  And now, J had failed to maneuver around a mere piece of\nairborne debris --- she couldn't even land with grace.\n\nIt was as simple as it was undeniable.  J wasn't as fast as she should\nbe.  Her lunges, her flight, her healing --- it was all executing, but\nit was all *insufficient.*\n\nJ fought Uzi, then Solver-possessed V, and then Doll, with only the\nbriefest respites in between.\n\nAnd despite all that, she'd fed *Uzi* before herself.  Ha.  But if J\ndidn't drink oil soon, she'd overheat.  Stage three overheat was the\nfurthest you could get before suffering such damage that passive, even\nactive regeneration couldn't save you, and direct maintenance was\nnecessary.  If hunter's fever goes unslaked...\n\nStage four is *core meltdown*.\n\nJ couldn't let herself reach stage four.  But could she hold out?\nThat weakness J exhibited --- bested by toasters! --- was the cost of\nletting the heat get this bad.  Hotter and hotter, and functions are\nturned off one by one to mitigate the damage, budget the resources.  J\ncould push past it, match her peak performance even now --- if she\nburned more oil to compensate.\n\nAttrition or burnout.  Which route would J pick?\n\nJ would endure.  Uzi needs to hold her own until her acting captain\nwas back in the clear.  If she couldn't... the correct end to that\nline of thought was *she was worthless anyway*.  And yet, it didn't\nend that way.\n\nBetween her tactical ejection of Uzi and her chaotic maneuvers, J had\nlanded further down the furrow.  Twenty meters from the spire, she\nestimated.  Over there, she didn't see any drone standing --- not a\ngood sign.  Still, priorities.\n\nJ walked to a dead worker, a slick of wasted oil pooling around it.\nHer only kill.  She'd stopped this one from grabbing Uzi, fed its arm\nto her.  She knelt down to sup, and then --- motion at her ten o'\nclock.\n\nIdentification routines autorun.  Not a disassembler.  Not a purple\nhaired worker.  A new worker shambling forth out of the fog?  Dressed\nlike one of the WDF toasters --- no, this *was* one of the WDF\ntoasters, N's kill, J recognized the slash.  It held that comically\noversized wrench.\n\nBroken chassis knitted together with fresh, bloody *flesh*.  Oil\ndripped, and it had a color.  The drone looked up at J, visor all\ncutting blue light --- three prongs.\n\nJ took aim, but before she could shoot, a hand grabbed her gun --- a\nhand of the corpse she was trying to feed on!  A tug of war and J soon\nfreed herself, recoiling backward, stumbling to a stand --- tripping,\nbecause the hand had already grabbed her legs.\n\nTaking aim, *again*, the captain was ready to shoot the leg-grabber,\nbut a third dead worker drone had risen to life, this one coming from\nher two o' clock --- moving fast.  Tentacles curled around from a\nbisection wound, encircling and augmenting limbs.\n\nIt was here now and the woodcutter's ax was already swinging down like\na crooked guillotine.  Leg restrained, she threw up an arm to block\nthe swing.\n\nIt chopped her gun-arm clean off, precious oil spurting out the end.\n\nBy now the first shambler had almost closed the distance, and three\ntimes was enemy action; she knew there would be a fourth coming for\nher.  N's last kill --- so it'd be coming from behind her.\n\nThe captain needed help.  [**N!  To me!**]{.angleq}\n\nNo acknowledgement.  Not again...\n\nJ had to start running.  But because she couldn't get a break, the\ngrabber grabbed her tail.  This, at least, was a mistake --- she\nstung, and a howl of monstrous pain sung regret.\n\nStill, it was enough to make her stumble.  J tumbled beside the ax\ndrone, peg-legs tipping over.  Knees scraped across the ground.\n\n[**N?**]{.angleq} But J had more than her fellow disassemblers to\ncount on, now, didn't she?  [Uzi?  I need your help.]{.adq}\n\nJ could tell from a shadow rising --- the ax held high for another\nswing.  She only had one other arm.  So, would she take it on the arm\nor the torso?\n\nThen a *shink*, and bright yellow nanite acid gushed out of ax-drone's\nscreen.  An alien green glyph dissolved with the rest of the\ndrone's head.\n\n[Yep.  Thought you'd never realize.]{.angleq} A broadcast without the\nsignal strength of a disassembly drone.  [I'm coming]{.angleq}\n\nPurple hair trailed behind a drone running full speed after the thrown\nnanite stinger, dodging the risen workers.  A lunge planted a leg on\nthe back, and Uzi pulled the stinger free while kicking the drone to\nthe ground.\n\nUzi had a pair of stylish knee high boots, J noticed.\n\n\"Sup, headshot.  I interrupted a pretty dramatic showdown with my high\nschool bully for this, y'know.\"\n\nJ stood up.  \"Noted.  I'll be sure to land you another meeting\nposthaste.\"\n\nUzi nodded, then glanced at the drone melting beneath her.  J could\nsee the exact moment her world-model integrated the last few seconds.\n\"Did I just...\"\n\n\"Angst about it when you aren't on the clock, Uzi.  We've got three\nhostiles inbound.  Cover me while I feed.\"\n\n\"I---I'll get them to stand down.  Since they, uh, came here to save\nme.\"\n\nJ updated her HUD.  Two risen workers in the direction of the spire:\nthe insistent grabber and the distant one N threw.  J pointed Uzi at\nthe grabber, nearest in that direction.\n\nThen her one arm transformed into a submachine gun aimed at the last\nworker down the furrow --- first shambler she spotted, now lunging for\nthem.  Flaps of flesh flared behind it, like if a flower were wings.\nSmall things, malformed and convulsing.\n\nIf Doll was far away, distracted by N (hopefully) or in the spire\n(worst case scenario), at least her tele-shield would be out of\nthe picture.\n\nJ sent a spray of bullets.  Blocked.  Disappointing, even when\nhalf-expected --- except the glow wasn't Doll-red.  A blue aura\ngripped the lead.\n\nTuck away that observation for later, not now.\n\nA wrench's head telescoped out as it swung.  Duck under it, rise, then\nJ axe-kicked the shambler.  Its own wrench hit itself with a *clank*.\n\nGun to tri-blade claws, she sunk them into the metal-meat of the drone\nUzi took down.  Run to the right, climbing the snow bank.  Higher\nground, and no drones in this direction.  J bit, ripping chunks out of\nthe drone, slurping the oil as quickly as she dared.\n\n\"There's an aftertaste,\" J said.\n\n\"Is that really what you're worrying about, right now?\"  a distant\nworker replied between grunts.  At the sound, J looked up.\n\nUzi struggled.  She ducked under a hammer-swing only to take a pickax\nto the torso.  Faltering, her grip on V's stinger loosened, but the\nwire was wrapped around her hand.  The two drones had mouths gaping\nwide, drooling, and the glare of harsh blue light reflected on Uzi's\nscuffed screen.\n\nJ needed to help, but how?  Bullets were nothing.  RPG launcher?\nNo way they could block an explosion.  But no, that risked\nfriendly fire.\n\nThe assault sent Uzi backing away --- a terrible tactic, when the\ndrone J kicked was fast approaching from behind, wrench opening wide.\n\n\"Hey uh, Makarov, was it?  I don't think killing me is very uh,\nworker-defending of you.  The exact opposite, really,\" Uzi said, back\nup further.  \"Is this about Todd?  I get that's probably hard to\nforgive, but...\"\n\nNo, Uzi wasn't just struggling.  She was *indecisive.*\n\nJ swapped her hand for a lasso, twirled it and looped around Uzi's\nneck.  She put all the force of a special disassembly function behind\nher pull.  Uzi was reeled onto the snowbank with her.\n\nInvestors, Uzi's smell was so strong right here.  Covered in oil, her\nown oil, the aroma of helpless prey, and J was still so thirsty.  J\nhad her choice of three wounds to drink from --- or should she open\nanother?\n\n*Snap out of it.  Focus.  You've got a job to do, J.*\n\n\"Uzi, you're hesitating.  You've got V's stinger, *use it*.\"\n\n\"Easy for you to say.  Those are my dad's buddies.\"\n\n\"No.  We killed them.  They're just shells for the AbsoluteSolver\nnow.\"  J dropped the corpse, and pumped acid to keep it down.  She'd\ngotten at least some oil out of it.  ~~She knew where she could get\nsome more, though.~~  Head shake.  *Resist while you still can.*\n\"Don't think of it as killing, think of it as reminding them they're\ndead.  Halt your worries.\"\n\nJ slid down the snow bank, Uzi behind her.  J took the hammer-drone;\nUzi took the pickax drone.  Heavy downswing.  J caught it with a sword\nblade --- but it kept pushing, and J's buckled under the weight.\n\n\"Doll was right, you really are out of it, J.\"  Uzi dashed past her\ndrone as soon as it committed to an attack.  Holding the nanite\nstinger underhanded, she stabbed in the back.\n\nInstead of falling down, J turned that buckling into a falling flip,\nlegs kicking for an uppercut.  A visor *crack*.  \"Three fights in a\nrow with nothing but small oil breaks in between.  A lesser drone\nwould have collapsed after half what I've been through.\"  J broke her\nfall with her only hand, and threw herself back to a stand with a\none-armed pushup.\n\n\"I've been with you through all of them,\" Uzi said.  \"So thanks for\nthe compliment.\"  She flashed a `>:3`{.uzi-screen}\n\n\"Focus on the fight, Uzi.\"\n\nBy this point, Uzi and J are back to back as the zombie drones circle\naround them.  The mangled metal at J's back was useless except as\nobstruction, reminding J of her insufficiency, the easy tactical\nretreat now impossible.  An angel with broken wings, J was grounded;\nshe could only defend Uzi and hope to see this through.\n\nBoth of them operated bodies full of cracks, weeping oil and\nfaltering servos.\n\n*But it would take more than a couple zombie drones to stop the most\neffective disassembly drone in this sector*, J told herself.\n\nThe shambling mass against them swung weapons or lashed out with\nsnarling mouths.  J blocked the attacks; Uzi kept up a\ncounteroffensive.  Between V's nanite acid and J's mighty strikes,\nattrition was eating the zombies --- but not quickly enough.  What was\nthe situation back at the spire?\n\n\"I swear it feels like this battle has dragged on *forever*,\" Uzi\nsaid, injecting enough acid to disable a zombie's leg permanently.\nThen, a lightbulb icon.  \"Wait.  J, I figured out Doll's plan.\"\n\n\"Hard not to, what with them currently circling around us.\"\n\n\"No, J, the sun rises soon.  Stalling us out is her advantage.\"\n\nEverything clicked.  \"Of course,\" J said.  \"What have they put in the\noil to make workers so damn cunning...\"\n\n\"AbsoluteSolver,\" Uzi quipped.\n\n\"Hmph.\"  J slashed out with a blade, taking out a zombie's arm.\nPayback.  Nice and satisfying.\n\nWhere was J's arm?  She needed to reattach it --- her systems wouldn't\nregenerate it, not with her oil reserves so light.\n\n\"So,\" J started.  \"We need to end this quickly.  I'm liable to\noverheat, and you're just a worker drone.  Any bright ideas?\"\n\n\"Bright?  If this works, it's going to be blinding.\"  Uzi reached into\nher bag, and to buy her drone space to work, J swung one zombie bodily\ninto another.  She clutched V's stinger like a key.  \"What do you\nthink happens when nanite acid hits one of JCJenson's infamously\nexplosive power cores?\"\n\nAh, yes, Uzi still had one left.\n\nJ smirked.  \"And after that?\"\n\n`>;3`{.uzi-screen}\n\n- - -\n:::\n\n::: subchapter \n\nAs soon as N was back online, hunting routines were primed to fire.\nHe'd been attacked, just before he fell.  Part of him was raring to\nget back to battle.\n\n*\"Keep brawling me, if you like,\"* said one worker drone to another.\n*\"But I think your precious murder drone is getting tired.\"*\n\nThen the good worker drone raced off to go help J.  The distance, the\nsnow and fog, it left a hint of doubt --- but resolving optics only\nincreased his certainty.  The slaughtered drones had risen, somehow,\nand shambled all along the furrow between Uzi and J.\n\n*J won't be proud of my kills at all, then,* he thought.\n\nN stood.  Two problems gnawed, and indecision tore at him.  Here, Doll\nadvanced toward the spire.  There, the workers overwhelmed J.\n\nN had failed to fully shut down the workers, he should rectify that,\nbut J had given him orders, hadn't she?  *Stop Doll*.  But once again,\nevery path forward felt wrong.\n\nStill, since there was no one else here to deal with Doll, N leapt.\n\nJ's engineering had kept the spire mostly intact, but inevitably\ndebris fell to mechavalanches and weathering.  Scrap lay littered\naround spire, and as she walked, the drone had to step over it.\n\nN, however, could just fly.  Once more, he interposed himself between\nDoll and the spire.\n\nOnce more, indecision gnawed.  Doll was a threat, a worker, and he had\norders.  Doll could talk, would talk, and this could end in *peace*.\nDoll had betrayed him without a hint of guilt.  Doll didn't sound\nmonstrous --- beneath the flat affect and deception, this worker had\nsounded so *hurt*.\n\nYet she chose to come to the spire, invite their wrath --- they needed\nto defend themselves.  A `><` blinked on N's visor and was gone just\nas fast.  Indecision gnawed.  Thoughts vacillated, and N was tired of\nthe headache.  Why couldn't this just be simple?  Everything was\nsimple when he closed his eyes, but what if he opened them and V and J\nwere gone?  Back and forth, back and forth.  Back and---\n\nAnd then, N *forked*.  A cross in one eye, pupil in the other.\n\n::: {.center .murder-screen}\n`O_X`\n:::\n\n:::: fork\n\n::: friendly-n\n\n  N fell to ground, waving at Doll again.  He winced to see acid\n  burning her hand.  He opened his mouth to speak.\n\n  \"Would peace be so bad, Doll?  I'm willing to try. Uzi was willing\n  to try.  I think even J---\"\n\n  \"It was a lie.  Just as I betrayed your trust, Uzi and her murder\n  drone intended to do the same.\"\n\n  It was hard for N to keep track of all this this. His processor\n  picked out the words, then the data was flushed from his caches as\n  he context-switched back to hunting routines. N admitted he felt a\n  bit two-faced, right now.\n\n  \"So you're afraid we'll betray you, if you extend that trust?  I\n  wasn't going to betray you!  I promise.  I meant it!\"  The words\n  felt so meaningless, when he was shooting her even as he said it.\n\n  N got one last glimpse of her visor, wanted to believe there was\n  doubt in the saccades of her pupils.  But she steadied herself,\n  regained that neutral mask.\n\n  Doll shook her head.  \"Any possibility of sympathy with your kind\n  died with my parents.  If you are any different, you are simply more\n  foolish.  It's nothing personal.\"\n\n  Wasn't personal?  Then what drove this drone here?  Why was she\n  after V?  N had questions.  He opened his mouth to ask.\n\n:::\n\n::: {.hunter-n}\n\n::: hide\n\nAt the same time:\n:::\n\nN fell to the ground, arm switching as he fell, a\nshotgun firing.  Doll dodged, throwing up a glowing hand.\n  \nThe dodge was curious --- it couldn't block the spray?\nShotgun cocked, the hunter lined up another shot.  But Doll's knife\nflew out first.  He didn't dodge; he let the blade sunk in torso.\nKeep it lodged in him, and Doll couldn't use it.  The hunter took aim,\nfire again.  The prey moved slower this time, and half his spray hit\nher, cutting holes in clothing.\n\nDoll jerked her hand, yanking at the blade, but the hunter\nheld onto it.  Shotgun for pistol, he fired a shot.  The bullet got\nclose before curving away.  Powers flagging?  Yes.  The hunter wore\nher down.\n\nGiving up on retrieving the knife, the strange force\ngrabbed a metal spring.  The symbol spun and the spring compressed,\nand one hand-swipe flung it at the hunter.  He dived out of the way.\n\nWhere the hunter had stood, the expansion of the spring is\na massive explosion of oily snow.\n\nTarget tracking lost sight of his prey in the resultant\ncloud.  A pop-up window (`It looks like visibility is poor.  Would you\nlike to try another sense?`)  He could smell the acid, and the oil\nfrom this worker smelled of many workers.  Curious, but discarded as\nirrelevant.\n\nDoll burned like smoldering coals in thermal vision,\nhotter than a worker.  She was circling around, crouched down low.\n*Target acquired.*  The hunter lined up a shot.\n\n:::\n\n::::\n\n::: {.center .murder-screen}\n`O_O`\n:::\n\nThen both threads paused --- a great conflagration of glowing light\nwas erupting from the furrow.\n\nBodies flew in arc, singed by the heat.  Five bodies --- J and Uzi\namong them.  J's twisted wings glimmered in the light, and the only\nlook on her face was a screenful of critical errors.\n\nShe shielded Uzi from the blast.  Together, they fell.  The impact\nparted them, bouncing and scraping across the ground.  The twice-dead\nWDF sat unmoving.  Uzi, too, was still, but J had a disassembler's\nfortitude.  Armless, she crawled twitching across the ground, toward\nUzi, and then draped herself over the worker, as if to shield or\nhold her.\n\nN watched it all fall apart with both eyes hollow.\n\nDoll watched it with a smirk.  \"Seems Doorman blew herself up again.\nYour teammate made poor choice of ally.\"  Doll turned back to N,\nraising her remaining arm in clear aggression.  \"You are the last\nmurder drone able to fight.  Do you fear?  Do you dread?\"\n\nN did fear.  He also wanted to tear his prey apart.\nGnawing and vacillating.\n\n::: {.center .murder-screen}\n`O_X`\n:::\n\n:::: fork\n\n::: {.friendly-n}\n\n  N charged through the snow, but pleaded.  \"Is this\n  really all you want?  Endless fighting and betrayal?\"\n\n  \"You are made to destroy my kind, so I will remake myself to destroy\n  you.  What was it you said... 'Just orders, y'know?'  This is just\n  fate.\"\n\n  \"I---I'm not doing this for orders, not anymore.\n  This is for V.  Please, can you try to understand and maybe... care?\n  V means a lot to me.  Losing her --- She's more important than my\n  orders, than anything.\"\n\n  Doll said nothing, had no rebuttal \n\n  Registering surprise from his violent thread was all the warning N\n  got.  The knife teleported behind him and backstabbed him.  He\n  coughed up oil.\n\n:::\n\n::: {.hunter-n}\n\n:::: hide\nAt the same time:\n::::\n\nThe hunter charged through the snow, homing in on her heat\nsignature.  A sword arm slashed for her and the prey blocked it with a\nknife.  Pause.  When had the knife left the hunter's chest?\n\nThat moment of processing, of confusion, granted the prey opportunity\nto press ahead.  The knife slashed forward, forcing the hunter to\nparry.  Sword against dagger, they grinded and sparked.\n\nThe hunter had a disassembly drone's strength, and his\nprey was just a worker.  Defense broke, knife fell glowed, and this\ntime his strength was pitted against telekinesis.  The hunter met the\nchallenge only to realize this was all distraction.\n\nThe prey grabbed his sword-arm, wiping acid onto the blade.  The\nhunter pulled back, licked the metal, and expected a counter attack to\ncome, but the prey had also disengaged.  The knife was gone.  The\nhunter had it in sight all along playback showed it had simply\n*disappeared.*\n\n:::\n\n::::\n\n::: {.center-n .murder-screen}\n`O_O`\n:::\n\nN sagged there, arm lowering, held up only by the floating knife.\nHe just looked at Doll, begging her to reflect.  \"Doll.  Is there\nanyone more important than your vengence, anyone you still\ncare about?\"\n\nAt that, Doll paused.  She glanced down.  She opened her mouth, and\nthen closed it.  For once, her eyes lost their centers.  She glanced\nup with a jolt, as if fearing a surprise attack from that moment\nof weakness.\n\nOr was that a nod?  Either way, this reaction almost seemed\nconfirmation.  Had he gotten through to her?  Was it empathy that\nforged her hesitation?\n\nN didn't smile, but his frown lifted.  N reached out a hand.\n\n***Bang***.\n\nA sequence of images passed through N's eyes.  A hole boring through\nDoll's visor.  The prey falling over.  Uzi, standing behind her.  More\nprey presenting itself for him.  A visor winking `>;3`{.uzi-screen}.\nFellow hunter J's severed gun-arm still smoking.\n\nN looked aghast.  \"Uzi?  *Why!*  She was coming around!\"\n\n\"We gave her way too many chances.  Too little, too late.\"\n\nHe cast eyes down to the fallen cheerleader, expression wavering.\nBehind him, his chassis itched, and he pulled out her knife, slick\nwith his oil, but he knelt to place it by its owner.  The battle ended\nhow it began: with a pang of sadness, a sense of missed potential.\n\nThe worker sighed.  \"I get it, N.  I really do.  I had to do things\nI'm not proud of to win this battle.  But we won.  We did it!  A three\nboss gauntlet and I beat it first try.\"  It ended with a laugh, shaky\nand manic all in one.\n\nN didn't know what these 'bosses' were, but he heard *things I'm not\nproud of*.  \"You knew those drones, didn't you?\"\n\nThe mania guttered away in seconds, a candle extinguished.  Uzi looked\ndown.  \"Yeah.  I'm just glad... only four of them.  Could have\nbeen... could have been worse.\"\n\nWhen N leapt forward, the worker flinched backward, but N wrapped her\nup into a hug.  He was bigger, taller, but that meant more of him to\nenwrap and squeeze.\n\n\"Wha--- oh.\"\n\n\"Is this okay?  It seemed like---\"\n\n\"Yeah.  ...Thanks.\"\n\nIt was awkward, but she threw her arms around his waist in turn, clung\nback.  They'd won.  V was okay.\n\n*Don't think about how you can smell her oil.  Don't.*\n\n[**Hands off the worker, *N*.  Now!**]{.angleq}\n\nN startled back.  There, staggering down the furrow, came a drone,\noffice suit ripped open and flapping, exposing a battered chassis.\nYellow eyes glared, only interrupted by flickering errors.\nHer pigtails weren't twins, now --- one was singed in half.\n\nOil covered her face.  Not her own: her arm held a dismembered torso.\n\nJ was okay.\n\nShe finally crossed the furrow, pegs scraping the ground more than\nthey lifted.  She regarded N for a long moment, cold analysis writ on\nbattle-worn features.\n\n\"I don't know what Doll would have done, had she reached V to carry\nout her plan.  I don't know what other tricks she might've pulled out.\nI don't know --- and now we don't have to find out.  Only one thing\nstood between Doll and V --- you, N.\"  \nJ paused, exhaust cycling in and out, impossible to tell if she\ncouldn't find the words, didn't want to say them, or it was simple\nweariness.  At length, a new synthesis began.  \"Keep up the good work,\nand you might be on track for a promotion.\"\n\n::: {.center .murder-screen}\n`^_^` \n:::\n\nN bounced, squeed, and turned to share his excitement with Uzi.  The\nworker, though, had only had eyes for J, and the captain's next words\naddressed her.\n\n\"Uzi... outstanding performance.  Your tactics and quick thinking\nexceeded expectations and secured our victory, again and again.\nBut you need to get over you hesitation, and *listen* when I give\norders.  And *don't* use my arm without asking next time.\"  \nJ reached out and snatched it from Uzi's grasp, then worked to undo a\nsort of tourniquet she'd made with her suit sleeve.  \"Still...  I\nthink you've definitely implemented the Cs.  Or is it four Cs, now?\"\n\nUzi looked away, seemingly at a loss for what to say --- but a blush\nshone on her visor.  Because she looked away, she didn't see J step\ncloser.  The disassembly drone bent down to the worker drone's height,\nand the threw her arms around her --- though the newly reattached hand\nflopped inarticulately.  J closed the embrace and stood, lifting Uzi\nup.\n\nJ shot a flat look at N over Uzi's shoulder before closing her eyes,\nleaning a chin into Uzi.\n\n*Aww, cute*.\n\nBut it was undermined, somewhat, by Uzi beating on J's back.  \"Hey!\nPut me down!  Why are you so cuddly all of a sudden?\"\n\n\"Don't forget you hugged me first.\"  But J released the worker,\nletting her fall to her feet.\n\n\"Yeah well, that was for the mission.\"  Uzi crossed her arms.  \"If\nwe're still doing that constructive feedback thing, your hugging could\nuse some serious work.\"\n\n\"What is *that* supposed to mean?\"  J leaned down, glaring at Uzi, and\nUzi scowled back.\n\nN chirped a 'hehe', drawing both eyes to him.  He said, \"It means she\nwants more hugs.  Only way to improve, after all!\"\n\n\"That's *so* not what I mean.\"\n\nJ rolled her eyes.  \"Enough bonding.  The fighting may be over, but\nour work isn't done.  It's time to disinfect the dead.  N, we need to\nteach Uzi disassembly protocols.\"\n\nN nodded, smile turning serious.  \"Will we start with disassembly by\nforce, acid, or---\"\n\n\"By fire,\" J said, stepping forward.  She looked down.  \"Starting\nwith---*subprime mortgage crash*,\" J swore.  Pupil outlines tracked\nmotion.\n\nN turned.  Doll's body was rising as if puppeted, hand bright.\nTelekinesis slowly dislodged the bullet from her motherboard, pulling\nit out of her visor.  Shattered plastic moved like a smoothed out\ncloth, mending the hole.  When free, the bullet rotated, pointing\ntoward Uzi.  J was already moving, hand transforming.  The bullet flew\nforward --- and J sliced it in half.\n\nBefore either disassembly drone could counterattack, a veil of static\nfell over the worker drone.  Then she was gone, but for a single\nframe, her screen flicked.\n\nYellow eyes blazed like burning stars.\n\n(N found something oddly familiar about it.)\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nKhan Doorman had come to bury the dead.\n\nEvery step came as if to the beat of a dirge, the howl of distant\nwinds a threnody.  Planet and moon and fading stars lit the night from\nacross a great void.  No roof, and despite the human buildings still\nstriving to remain upright, the gaps between them and the space around\nthem denied any analogy to walls.  Khan was outside the bunker, moving\nas a small thing in a world far too vast for what little remained.\n\nEmpty space hung over an empty world, all vestiges of life draining\nout from it.  No, not drained.  They were being sucked out.\n\nWith every step, images flickered through his old processor.\nThe memory of radioactive air stinging the sensors of his exhaust\npipe, as thick flakes of snow and not-snow fell.  Yeva's laugh,\nnon-standard in both rhythm and pitch but joyful, giggling at some\njoke Alek had made.  Nori grinning devious, egging them on.\n\nThe shadow moving too fast across the ground.  The wings like knives,\ncutting off the starlight.  Sickly yellow visor, burning a\nkilling cross.\n\nThe panic, the running, the screams starting.  Alek's head cut clean\noff, thrown to land in front of Yeva.  The red-eyed drone tripping\nover, her baby falling into the snow.  Chassis split open, wires and\npumping pistons exposed.  Cutting, slicing, severing.  A butchery.\n\nDoll watching it all, so quiet Khan thought she was already dead.\n\nNori handing that young drone to him, her screen flashing a purple\n`<3`{.uzi-screen} before she turned to face the murder drone alone.\nKhan running away, leaving her to her fate.\n\nHe had heard the laughing.  The cackling as Alek and Yeva fell, as\nNori made her last stand.  Alek cried out, Yeva screamed, but Nori\nhadn't made a sound.  Sadism animated the thing, and she wouldn't give\nit that satisfaction.  One last act of spite.\n\nDoll was in Uzi's room, now, two untrained neural nets.  They'd grow\nup together, she'd be like a second daughter.\n\nLeast he could have done, after failing her parents.\n\nThen Khan had ventured out as the dawn was breaking.  Wrench in hand,\nhe'd tightened the bolts on the colony's doors, prayed they'd hold,\nand then his feet walked to the beat of a dirge echoing into the cold\nempty world.  He came back to bury the dead.\n\nHe expected the bodies of Doll's parents.  He expected Nori's corpse,\nbut some part of Nori still coursed with electricity, servos\ntwitching, screen glitching as an OS struggled with a profoundly\ndegraded disk.\n\nThe murder drone had left her melting alive.  Could she have been\nsaved?  All he had was the wrench.\n\nKhan didn't know if Nori was aware of anything, in her last moments.\nHe'd murmured things, things he hadn't gotten to say --- was it better\nif she never heard them, or never experienced that last agony?\n\nHe thought about the past, and all sense of narrative seemed to drain\naway into those holes in his understanding.  Why the core collapse?\nWhy the murder drones?  Why Alek, why Yeva, why *Nori?*\n\nWhat did Nori want, in the end?  What was best for Uzi and Doll?\nWhat should he do?\n\nWhy, in those moments she thought he wasn't looking, did Uzi seem so\nsad, so lost?\n\nMind burdened with wounds and regret, Khan walked into a world riddled\nfull of holes.  He paused his stride, and looked back to the bunker.\nHe could return there, safe and enclosed in walls.  What was to be\ndone with a hole?  Turn it to a doorway, and close it.\n\nWhen Khan lifting his gaze to the path ahead, he saw the visor\nglowing yellow.\n\nHe didn't scream, wouldn't give it that satisfaction, but he tightened\nhis grip on his wrench, and did what he'd once done --- he ran.\n\nThe cross had been low to the ground, and with each glance backward,\nKhan saw it race across the ground, skittering on all fours.  The\nthing didn't run in a straight line.  It zigged, but instead of\nzagging, it disappeared, and reappeared where he wasn't looking.\nSkitter, blink, skitter, blink, closing in.\n\nHe expected the end --- but he expected gunfire.  Instead, a worker's\nknife sunk into his back, piercing his oil tank, and he fell over.\nTurn over, Khan.  Look your death in the eye.  Raise your wrench and\ndo something for once.\n\nHe saw purple hair and he hesitated.\n\nIt didn't hesitate.  A wet maw chased the smell of oil, claws dig into\nhis chest.\n\nKhan didn't do anything.  But they both hear the hiss of metal on\nmetal --- wings opening and cutting off the starlight.\n\nAbove, silhouetted against the predawn sky, a murder drone descended.\nThe skittering thing was off him faster than it'd come --- but not\nwith motion.  A wave of static, and the thing disappeared.\n\nKhan had left the bunker door open --- the master key hadn't been\nthere when he went for it.\n\nNow toward it he ran, each step to the beat of a terrible crescendo.\nFleeing the death from on high, seeking the open door.  He could\nalready feel the lives of all those that depended on him draining out\nof the world.  Wind blew against him.\n\nIf this world still held any miracles, that Khan did not stumble would\nbe one more of them.  Walls of Outpost-3 now on both sides.  He was\ntumbling onto a grilled floor, cards littering the ground.  He smashed\na button on a remote control, and Door 1's hydraulics smoothly brought\nit to a close.  *If only Uzi were here to see it.*\n\nHe glanced at the white board, still on the ground.  It had tallied\ndays since murder drone casualty, but now it lied.  Years were erased\nin one night.\n\nWhy Todd, why Makarov, why Braxton, why Lars?  Why Doll, and why, oh\nwhy Uzi?\n\nThey'd marched to their deaths, and Khan had done nothing.  He wasn't\nenough, wasn't ever enough.\n\nThe door's hydraulics stopped.\n\nBut the door hadn't closed.\n\nClaws of terrible strength had interposed between the top and bottom,\nand counteracted all the force the hydraulics could bring to bear.\nAnd they *pushed*, and heaved open the door.\n\nThe hole in Outpost-3 widened, letting in the void.\n\nFailsafes engaged, and the mechanisms disengaged to prevent damage ---\nthe murder drone had won against his engineering.  It stood there,\nyellow eyes peering into his sanctuary, and its arms carelessly\ndeposited some spoil from its hunt.\n\nRendered to near-tatters with claw marks and knife wounds and bullet\nholes, blackened with oil and dirt, Khan almost didn't recognize the\nbeanie, the coat, the boots --- but he'd recognize those purple eyes,\ncouldn't forget them.\n\n\"Uzi?\"\n\n\"There, I've secured an ingress.\"\n\nUzi glared up at her captor.  \"You realize I had a key, right?  You're\njust showing off.\"  Uzi waved the master key Khan had been looking\nfor.  Where did she...?\n\nThe murder drone flipped one of its pigtails and stalked forward.\nThen it looked down, as if at a piece of trash.  Above a mouth\nfang-ringed and hungry, yellow eyes gave cool regard.  \"You, toaster,\nhave you seen an insufferable bully come through here?  We're here to\ndeliver a notice of termination.  About this hight, purple hair,\norange eyes --- or I suppose yellow, now.  Wonder what *that's*\nabout.\"\n\nIt talks...?\n\nKhan said nothing, and backed away.  Still on the ground, crawling.\nHis oil dripped out, doubtlessly enticing the thing.\n\n\"Useless.  As expected.\"  Then hand became void became a rifle, barrel\npointing right at him.  Khan looked upon the familiar sight of\nimminent death --- or would it be near-death?  Near-death and he were\nbecoming quite friendly.  He wondered if it had anything in common\nwith true death.\n\nThen his daughter was rushing forward, waving a hand in front of the\nbarrel before fully putting herself between them.  \"Wait, J, no,\nthat's my dad.\"\n\n\"All the more reason to shoot.\"  The murder drone reached out with\nanother hand.  When it touched his daughter, he flinched, but those\nhands did no damage yet, and simply pushed her.  \"I'm getting *quite*\ntired of you thinking you can tell me who I can and can't kill, Uzi.\n*I'm* in charge here.\"\n\n\"We're here to kill Doll.  That's all we need to do, that's all we\ncame here for.  Please, J.  You let me live, what's a few more\ndrones?\"\n\nUzi was reaching out for the murder drone.  What was she doing?\nDidn't she know how much danger she was in?  Or was this...\n\nKhan wanted to scold her, warn her, say something, but he hadn't found\nmore of his voice.\n\n\"Do you know why I let you live, Uzi?  I think long-term.  You living\nmeans more worker drones die.  You're a wonderful resource.\"  She\nclapped her hands together, smiled momentarily and then letting it\ndrop, revealing a flat, withering look.  \"For now.  But please,\nneither of us want what I'll be forced to do, if I can't make that\ncalculation in good faith.\"\n\nUzi flinched back, finally putting distance between them.\n\nProcessing those words...  If Khan's eyes could hollow further, they'd\nhave lost all width.  He stared, open-mouthed shock becoming words.\n\"Uzi... you brought a murder drone here?\"\n\nBut Uzi didn't turn back, still staring at the murder drone.  As if\nfinally seeing it for what it truly was.  \"J... none of it meant\nanything, did it?  Everything we did... everything I did for you...\nand I'm still nothing more than a number in a spreadsheet balance.\"\n\nUzi's head hung, no will left to hang it up.\n\nThe murder drone had pupils lined with worry, as if in cruel imitation\nof an expression.  But its words came out with a venom, and the\ntorment of this subtlety was surely a rival for Nori's butchery.  \"Is\nthis really how you want to die?  Throwing everything I'm giving you\nall away for a deadbeat who never did anything for you?\"\n\nKhan knew Uzi's temper, could *hear* her scowl in the groan she\nsynthesized, the arm she threw forward, finger pointing.  \"Is *this*\nhow you want to live, J?  Selling out everything for a company that\ncouldn't care less?  How many times do I need to save your life before\nit counts for *anything* next to the humans who threw it away!\"\n\n\"Even if I gave my two week's notice, do you think we could stop\nkilling?  We're made to consume workers, Uzi, it's how\nwe're manufactured.\"\n\n\"Not these workers.  Please.  Let's... just go back to the spire.\"\nHer head fell again.  Uzi stepped forward --- *no!  don't get closer*\n--- but it didn't budge.\n\nThe murder drone laughed, a strained sound.  \"Remember Doll's plan?\nDo you want to give her a victory?  The sun is rising and I can't make\nit back to the spire with these reserves, not in the light.  I counted\non a refill, and an empty colony to recharge in.\"\n\n\"Why, J?  Why did we have to chase after Doll now, if you need oil so\nbadly?\"  Still not lifting her head, Uzi held it in two hands.\n\n\"Why leave work unfinished?\"\n\n\"Why is *work* the thing you care so much about?  Why?  Robo-god damn\nit!  J... you kind of *suck*.\"  Uzi looked up at the looming murder\ndrone.  Khan could see the reflection of angry purple on that pristine\nvisor.  \"You're lonely, but I'm *not* sorry for you.  It's your own\nfault!  Was today the first time you said something nice to N?  The\nfirst time you listened to V?  One of your teammates just got reduced\nto scrap and puppeted by a world-devouring robo-demon and the other\nhas no clue what's even going on --- but no, you had to run off\nbecause your frickin *job* is more important than keeping around\nanyone to do it with!\"\n\n\"I think long-term!  Is it my fault I'm the only one who sees the big\npicture?  If you're so worried about V, how do you think she'd going\nto restore herself to an effective operating state --- she already\ncleaned out our oil stockpile.  *She* needs me to clear this colony.\nWhat was the word she used?  *Drought*.  I feel it too, we all do, *I*\njust keep my composure.\"\n\nUzi stood there, wordless except for some muttering, searching for\nanother argument.\n\nThe murder drone's stare narrowed until it was a blink.  An exhalation\nof exhaust like a tired sigh.  So much cruel artifice.  Pupils opened\nagain to a glare.  Now, its expression was mercifully empty of any\npretense of warmth.  \"I've suffered enough backtalk out of you.\"\n\n\"J---\"\n\n\"No.  I've made my decision.  *I will get the job done.*  You have\nfive seconds to make yours.  After that, I kill every worker in front\nof me.  Figure out where you stand.  Five.\"\n\nUzi glanced backward at Khan.\n\n\"Four.\"\n\nHe expected tears, maybe, or even a painful `<3`.  Instead, three\nwords.  `Sorry`{.uzi-screen} and `Remember me`{.uzi-screen}\n\n\"Three.\"\n\nUzi had the master key to the colony's doors --- she tossed it back to\nhim now, spinning through the air then sliding across the grilled\nfloor.\n\n\"Two.\"  But then the murder drone saw the motion, realized what was\nhappening, and gave up counting.\n\nThe murder drone lunged forward like his death --- but Uzi was still\nbetween it and Khan.  It fell on top of his daughter.  Khan watched.\n\nIt snarled rage.\n\n\"You could have made a good disassembler, Uzi.\"\n\nThe murder drone lifted its tail tipped bright yellow, so much like a\nscorpion's stinger.\n\nHe'd had one foot in memory reconstructions ever since he stepped out\nof the bunker.  It was all too much was like that night.  Again and\nagain, the past devouring the present\n\nKhan watched the winged void drain away another drone.  Another woman\ndying to save his pathetic life.  Just like that night, Khan\ndid nothing.\n\nNo, he wouldn't do nothing.\n\nHe pressed a button and he closed the door, lest anything else fall\nthrough the hole in the world.\n\nIt closed like the lid of a coffin.\n\n:::\n\n::: afterword\n\n>  *The memory of the heart  \n>  Is overcome by the drought of the heart:  \n>  A desert with no life but scorpions  \n>  Coming as a swarm, as a flood  \n>  With an abundance of deadly stings...  \n>  One for every remembrance  \n>  One for every comforting echo of the past  \n>  For blithe days of hope turned sour*  \n>\n> --- Deathspell Omega, [\"Scorpions & Drought\"\n](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9SV4vCQGJko):\n\n:::\n"
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      "date_modified": "2023-12-20",
      "title": "7: A Salowe Vision",
      "summary": "<p>Only Doll of all drones would be awake at 4 AM.</p>\n<p><em>What would she look like if she got her beauty sleep?</em> Lizzy wondered.</p>\n<p>Under the covers, the blonde worker curled up. Blinked pink eyes closed, and waited to be dragged back into recharge. Nope, nothing. She curled up tighter — the absence was letting the bed get annoyingly cool. Didn’t help that the insulation of these cheap covers was a bad joke.</p>",
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      "content_html": "<p>Note: this post is best read in your browser.</p><hr/>---\ntitle: \"A Salowe Vision\"\ndate: 2023-12-20\n---\n\n:::  subchapter\n\nOnly Doll of all drones would be awake at 4 AM.\n\n*What would she look like if she got her beauty sleep?*  Lizzy\nwondered.\n\nUnder the covers, the blonde worker curled up.  Blinked pink eyes\nclosed, and waited to be dragged back into recharge.  Nope, nothing.\nShe curled up tighter --- the absence was letting the bed get\nannoyingly cool.  Didn't help that the insulation of these cheap\ncovers was a bad joke.\n\nLizzy opened her eyes, animated an eye roll, and reached out for her\nphone.  Not like anyone would have posted anything since she last\nchecked an hour ago, though.  But whatever, Emily had posted a new\nselfie yesterday, and she could leave a comment.\n\nThose new glasses could only look dorkier if she had braces to go with\nthem, and that blouse?  A little harsh but fair criticism would do\nthat girl some good.  (But Lizzy would have a sense of humor about it,\nof course --- that was just good posting.)\n\nYawning, flicking her screen, Lizzy keyboard-swiped out some dunks,\nbut only half-attentively, and not because she was tired.  None of\nthese drones were worth her full attention, not really --- Lizzy was\nthinking about Doll.\n\nWhere was her bestie?  Lizzy was really starting to get cold.\n\nEarlier, they'd spun the bottle and played truth or dare.\n\nAngela admitted to having a crush on Braiden.  (*Boring* --- not like\nshe'd had any shot there.  Lizzy had that locked down.  Didn't\nactually care for the bore, but watching jealousy cook the other girls\nmade the acting worth it.)\n\nRebecca got dared to kiss someone, and she picked Kelsey.  (*Boring*\n--- as if Lizzy wasn't the most kissable drone here.  Or Doll.)\n\nKelsey chickened out after that, got all sniffly and wanted to go\nhome.  Doll had stepped out after her, tried to talk to her, but Doll\ncame back alone.\n\nWhatever.  Brat.  Clout-chaser.\n\nReally, it just meant Lizzy got to make her move sooner.  Her dare to\nDoll?  Let Lizzy sleep in the master bedroom, on her parents'\nqueen-sized.\n\nWith Doll.\n\n(At that, her orange eyes had snapped to the floor, purple hair\nfalling to block any sight of her visor, hiding her reaction.  Like a\nsore loser, but Lizzy knew what she'd see if Doll'd let her: Lizzy had\nmade the famously unflappable russian blush --- she'd *won*.)\n\n*Best sleepover ever,* she thought.  Even if this sty was crawling\nwith roachbots and stunk of oil.  Did Doll *ever* clean?\n\nLizzy sighed.  She could keep waiting.  Waiting on *what*, she had no\nidea --- there really wasn't anything a drone needed to wake up in the\nmiddle of the night to do, and this was the *third* time Doll had\ngotten up.  It woke Lizzy up every time, disentangling their limbs.\nLizzy would scoff and grab tighter, but Doll was silently insistent.\n\nOnce, Lizzy had blinked to full consciousness before Doll left, spoke\na full sentence, instead of wordless mumbles of protest.  Doll had\nstayed silent, but there was an *intensity* to her look that'd made\nLizzy let go, let her go, and not repeat her question.\n\nWhatever Doll was doing, she was serious about it.  Too serious,\nhonestly.  Something had gotten into Doll, and Lizzy didn't like that.\n*The only thing that should be getting into her is---*\n\nShe rolled her eyes.  Thinking about how Doll'd been acting, it was\nfamiliar.  Lizzy remembered the first day of high school --- back when\nDoll had always sat beside the purple freak.\n\nLizzy'd seen the look the russian was giving the loner, that little\nsmile, and Lizzy *gagged*.  Doll was too good for her; so Lizzy\nswooped in, rescued her, took her under wing to save her from becoming\nanother friendless nobody, obsessed with murder drones and computers\nand hot topic.\n\nCheerleading was supposed to give Doll something else to do, something\nto make her popular.  But she'd dived into nerd stuff again *anyway*,\ndespite Lizzy.  Lizzy didn't even have the heart to make fun of the\nother girl for it --- Doll rambling about kernel patches or plotting\noily vengeance was kind of cute, not obnoxious, not really.\n\nThis sleepover... at first, Lizzy thought it a sign Doll hadn't really\nforgotten what the popular girl had taught her, that this obsession of\nhers wouldn't come between them being friends ~~or more~~.\n\nBut why did Doll keep *getting up*?  Like, what was she actually\ndoing?\n\nUgh.  _Am I *brooding?*_ Lizzy was definitely thinking too\nmuch.  It wasn't that deep, was it?\n\nSo she tossed off the tattered blanket and stood, smoothing out her\nsilky camisole.  Feet clinked against flooring, and she picked her\nsteps, in the dark --- at least the roachbots had LEDs Lizzy could\nwatch out for.\n\nShe wanted to just crush the things.  But that'd only attract more of\nthem.  Roachbots would gobble up their dead friends easily, and there\nwas always more of them lurking out of sight.  Made her shiver.\n*Ugh.*\n\nStepping on one would get oil on her thighhighs, anyway.  This house\nalready stunk of oil enough.  (She'd swear it was getting *stronger*.)\n\nPast the doorway, stepping into the living room, Lizzy flipped a\nlightswitch.  Didn't need the light, but it would mess with Rebecca --\nexcept Rebecca wasn't on the couch anymore, her blue blanket hanging\noff the cushion.\n\nCeiling lights flickered in the living room, and so few of them worked\nthat it did little more than toss shadows around.  But with how dim it\nwas, as she walked in, Lizzy's eyes went to a bright L-shape on a\ncorridor wall, shining from a half-closed door.  The bathroom.  Is\nthis where Doll went off to?\n\n*Fixing her hair, maybe?  Weird thing to do at 4 AM.*  But Doll was\nweird.\n\nWhatever, Lizzy needed a doll to sleep with, so the sooner she got\nthis over with, the better.  She'd waited long enough, so she wouldn't\nstand around here until Doll came out.\n\nStepping closer, though, she heard a vocalsynth.  *Is she talking to\nherself?  Is she talking to _someone else?_  Oh, Rebecca better\nnot---*\n\nLizzy snatched open the door, and caught Doll in the middle of eating\na roachbot.\n\n\"Eww.  Maybe shut the door if you're gonna be eating bugs in here,\"\nLizzy said.  But there's no blue-haired homewrecker in the bathroom\nwith her, so Lizzy relaxed, hands falling to her sides.  \"Did it taste\ngood?\"\n\n\"It tastes like necessity.\"\n\n*Nothing necessary about you being this extra, girl.*  \"Yeah, cool...\nSooo, not to be clingy, but when are you coming back to bed?\"  She\nleaned against the bathroom doorway, watching Doll, fluttering her\neyes.\n\n\"I'm not.\"\n\nLizzy flinched.  Did this glitch just...  *Play it cool, Lizzy.  Not a\ndiss, just Doll being Dollish.*  \"There's a test tomorrow, you know.\"\nThere wasn't, but her dad could make it happen.  \"Wouldn't want to be\nhalf-charged for that.\"\n\n\"Grades are irrelevant.\"\n\n\"Sure.  Okay, forget the grades.\"  Lizzy stopped and swallowed,\nhesitating.  She looked away, saw Doll's reflection in a cracked\nmirror.  \"Fine.  I *am* clingy.  I want you to come back, babe.\"\n\nNo reason not to just come right out and say it.  Lizzy wasn't some\nswooning airhead who didn't realize how she felt, or a sheep too\nscared to make a first move.  Lizzy'd had Doll clocked as a lesbot for\nyears, but the flirty pursuit had been good fun.  But that was so last\nweek.\n\nDoll raised an eyebrow, but her mouth remained hidden, unexpressive.\n\"As they say in Russia,\" she started, \"no.\"\n\n\"Ouch.  Did I...\"\n\nDoll frowned.  \"It is not you.  It does not involve you.\"  Her eyes\ndrifted to the remaining mechanical bits in her hands, which was once\na roachbot.  \"I have plan.  Opportunity has presented itself, and my\nplans... can be hastened.\"\n\nLizzy took a step closer, into the bathroom, and narrowed her eyes at\nDoll.  \"I thought your plans were this sleepover.\"\n\nWhen Doll smiled, she showed *teeth*.  \"I have many plans.\"\n\n\"Tell me, then.\"  Lizzy reached out a hand, ran it along the fine\nlocks of purple synthetic hair, then traced a circle on Doll's soft\ncheek, then finally came rest gently beneath her chin.\n\nDoll, too, reached up, placed a hand on Lizzy's --- she felt her core\nwhirr a little faster --- and Doll grabbed her hand with a gentle\npressure... and pushed Lizzy's touch away, removing the hand from her\nface.  \"As they say in Russia---\"\n\n\"No,\" Lizzy said, not to finish the joke, but denying her.  \"You owe\nme an explanation.  Fine, go off and do whatever, but *tell me why.*\"\n\nDoll hadn't let go of Lizzy's hand, and at that, she brought the\nother, clasping Lizzy's hand in between hers, and spoke.  \"Sputnik 1\nwas the first spacecraft to launch a human into space.  It was race to\nfly beyond earth, and Soviets won.  But with Apollo 11, the humans\nwalked on moon, placing there an American flag.\"\n\nLizzy really hadn't signed up for one of Doll's rambles.  But Doll was\ntelling her something, at least?  Lizzy just didn't understand what.\n\"So?\"\n\n\"The Soviets won, but history remembers an American victory.  The moon\nwas grander accomplishment, in the end.\"  Doll let go of Lizzy's hand.\n\"Doorman has left the bunker, and she is the first worker drone to\nsurvive walking within the spire of death.  But if I kill the first\nmurder drone, what will history remember?\"\n\nLizzy laughed.  With the hand Doll released, she cocked it back and\nlightly tapped Doll on the shoulder with her fist.  \"Is that all this\nis about?  Why care about what that freak is doing?  You're better\nthan her.  Let her have this.  Think about what *we* have.  Status,\nhotness, and like, currently being alive?\"\n\nBut as she spoke, Lizzy was watching Doll's face.  She'd gotten good\nat reading the inexpressive drone, knew the difference between the\nsilence of Doll listening and the silence of Doll closing herself off,\ndisregarding Lizzy's words as vapid nonsense.\n\nLizzy sagged.  She took a step back, hurt, and said, \"I wanted you to\nbe better than Uzi.  Make her feel worthless --- not *play along with\nher*.  You're really going to ignore everything I tried to show you,\naren't you?\"\n\nDoll smiled, in a way that hurt Lizzy more than any other expression\ncould have.  \"Yes.  I was hoping to.  My plans for the sleepover... I\nwas going to discard it all, move on.\"\n\nSo that was it, wasn't it?\n\nLizzy wasn't stupid, didn't delude herself.  This was rejection.  It\nshould have been *rich* for a drone to reject Lizzy.  *Lizzy*.  It was\n*her* who did the rejecting.  She'd laugh, at anyone else trying this\n--- but she didn't want to laugh, she wanted to run up to Doll and\ngrab her and talk over her deafening silence until the russian finally\n*got it*.\n\nLizzy opened her mouth and felt the comments rising up.  She could\nsay, *We never liked you, we laughed at you behind your back, your\nRussian gimmick wasn't cute it was like, obnoxious.*  But it wasn't\njust that she didn't mean any of that. (Lizzy was good at faking,\nanyway.)  No, Lizzy knew it'd come off like the insecure flailing it\ntotally was.\n\nDoll took a step forward, toward her, and Lizzy flinched back, legs\nbending.  Not like she was cowering, but... someone else might have\ncowered, in her place.  Doll was intense, and she moved suddenly\nand---\n\nThe other drone stood very close, and placed a hand on Lizzy's\nshoulder.  Smiling, Doll said, \"Как бы это сказать...  *Settle*.\"\n\nLizzy didn't settle --- her eyes still watched hollowly, her tongue\nstill debated putdowns or pleading.\n\nSo the hand on Lizzy's shoulder pushed further down, and Doll stepped\ncloser---\n\nAnd hugged Lizzy.\n\n\"More than one of my plans have shifted, tonight.\"\n\nA pink loading icon briefly replaced Lizzy's screen.  And then, she\nrelaxed, and for the first time not out of disappointment.  For a\nmoment, she enjoyed the feeling, her chassis nestling into Doll's,\ntheir tube arms wrapping around each other.  Doll was so warm.  She\nmissed this.\n\n\"I have been thinking... about what's real, what matters, what I'll\nbecome.  There are things influencing me, shaping me to become\nsomething else.  You are one of those things.  I wondered what you\nwould do with that power.\"\n\nIt felt like an accusation, but Lizzy didn't really understand.\nLike most Doll rambles.  But Lizzy should say something, reassure her\nthe way this hug had been reassuring.  But what would be the right\nthing to say?  Lizzy reached for something else she didn't understand.\nWhat had Doll said yesterday?  \"Trusting trust?\"  she guessed.\n\nNo reaction, for a moment.  Did she misunderstand?  Then, Doll's nod,\nfelt more than seen.  \"I suppose.  I didn't trust you, when I planned\nthe sleepover.  I thought I saw your true nature, as scorpion who\nwould betray me.  You've told me terrible things about drones who\nseemed to be friends, toyed with relationships like vicious game.\nI'd be foolish to think I was any different.\"\n\n\"But you *are*.  The others, bleh, they're all *boring*.  Not you.\nWe're besties, Doll.  I made friends with you for a reason, when I\ncould have lumped you in with the losers you sat with.  You...\"\n*You're also damn hot.*  \"Don't tell anyone I said this but, yeah, I\ncare about you, Doll.\"\n\nLizzy hugged tighter.  Doll didn't squeeze as much as she stiffly\npatted her back, but it was very Doll and she forgave that.\n\nThe bathroom, with its roach scrap and shattered mirror, couldn't be\nseen from here.  Doll had stepped past the doorway, and Lizzy had\nbacked up, and they were both in the living room now, held in each\nothers arms.  She was glad no one seemed to be awake to see this, to\ntake a photo.\n\nReally though, she wanted more privacy.\n\n\"Are you sure you don't want to...\"\n\nBut Doll shook her head, and spoke.  \"There was something Doorman said\nto me, before she left.  *'At least _I'm_ putting my plans into\nmotion,'* she said.  *'What have you done but play future serial\nkiller in a basement?'*\"\n\nLizzy whispered.  \"Don't let her get to you, Dolly.  You're cool.\"\n\nDoll laughed.  Lizzy had only ever heard the sound a few times, a\nstilted thing, poorly put together.  \"She was right.\"\n\n\"No, she wasn't.  Who cares what some microsoft edgelord says?  *You*\nshouldn't.  Not even worth remembering her name.\"  Lizzy squeezed\nagain.  \"You don't need to rush your plans.  Don't be dumb, *don't* go\ndie like her.\"\n\n\"Angela, Kelsey, Rebecca,\" Doll listed.  \"You will not see\nthem again.\"\n\nLizzy's eyes narrowed, and then they hollowed.  Uzi was right?\nDid she...\n\n\"In initial plan, none of you would be seen again.\"\n\n*So that's what she meant...*\n\nSix words, and the hug went from a blessed comfort to a threat.\n\n\"Serial killing... is kinda cool, really,\" Lizzy said slowly.\n\n\"Flatter me not,\" Doll said, and she ended the hug, and tilted her\nhead at Lizzy.  \"Go back to bed, Elizabeth.  Sleeping without me will\nbe easier now, yes?\"\n\nSpace grew between them.\n\n\"*Don't call me that*.  You know I hate it.\"\n\nBut Doll had turned her back.  They were in the living room, and she\nwas walking away --- toward the basement?\n\n\"Where are you going?\"  Lizzy asked.\n\nDoll was walking away, now past the couch.  Was she *ignoring* her?\nBut no: \"Breakfast will soon be ready.  You can smell it, can't you?\"\n\nThe stink of oil in Doll's home... it *was* stronger, wasn't it?\n\nWhat was Doll cooking?\n\n\"I will need it, for what I have planned today.  Alone.\"\n\nLizzy ran --- *toward* Doll, navigating around the couch, and throwing\nherself into the other cheerleader's path.  Off-balance, Lizzy had to\nbrace herself on the wall.  Then she crossed her arms and glared at\nDoll.\n\n\"I'm not like the others.  It's why you spared me, yeah?  You're a\nserial killer, and a cannibal, and kinda creepy.  And so what?\nYou're not like Uzi.  There's creepy that stinks, and creepy that\n*serves*.  And you serve, babe.\"\n\nDoll regarded her with that familiar blankness.\n\n\"Listen, you have like, this lone avenger thing going on, and it's so\nnot a good look.  You put up with me this long --- at least let me\nwalk on the moon with you.  C'mon, we can slay together!\"\n\nA russian sigh.  \"Go to bed.\"\n\nThere seeemed to be a moment where they looked at each other, where\nDoll weighed and measured Lizzy's (lack of) compliance with --- oh,\nthat wasn't a request, it was a command.  *Who did she think---*\n\nDoll frowned, then she lifted a hand, and the glowing devil-rune\nflashed in the air.  Lizzy gasped.\n\nYanked up by impossible force, Lizzy levitated in the air, and every\nproprioceptive sensor went wild, her core throbbing with flagged\nerrors and garbage inputs.  She didn't scream, but she yelped.\n\nThe eldritch glow gripped her with tingling numb force.  Doll swiped\nher arm to side, and Lizzy was tossed aside, not carelessly, but not\nwith particular care.\n\n\"*Doll*,\" Lizzy said, and didn't think too hard about how she sounded,\nfloating there.  _If Doll *ever* talks about how desperate I sound,\nI'm gonna follow in her serial killer footsteps, for sure.  Starting\nwith her._ \"Come back to bed, or take me with you.\nDon't---\" _Don't leave me._ But Lizzy would *never* say\nthat.  Even like this, she had standards.\n\nAs Lizzy hung suspended in Doll's grip, she remembered yesterday,\nunder the gym.  Was she just a bug to Doll, or whatever Doll had\nbecome?  Would she be crushed just as easily?\n\n(It started with roachbots, it ended with murder drones --- but Lizzy\nhadn't realized what fit perfectly in the space between.)\n\n\"Would you be any help to me?\"\n\nLizzy frowned, then got a grip on herself.  Doll wasn't going to be\nenticed by Lizzy at her weakest, so she had to look strong.  So she\nscoffed, rolled her eyes.  \"Don't insult me.  *Of course* I'd help.\"\n\nDoll pulled, and Lizzy floated closer to Doll.  To think she'd ever\n*not* want to be closer.  The drone's blank expression shifted, as her\nglowing, spinning symbol twitched with telekinesis.  Those orange eyes\n(*had they always been orange?*) stared into her.\n\nDoll's expression changed, and Doll had so few of them that Lizzy'd\nthought she had seen the russian's whole range.  But this... her mouth\nopened, and Lizzy realized those teeth were *sharp*.  Cannibal.  Her\neyes --- on the visor shined that triangular glyph.\n\n\"I don't need allies, I need bodies.  Tell me, Lizzy, would you die\nfor me?\"  Her tongue lolled, and dripped --- not any water or cleaning\nfluid, but oil.\n\nEmpty circles stared into an alien glyph.\n\n\"Dolly...  you'd kill me?\"\n\n...\n\nThe glow disappeared.  \"Go to bed, little lizard.\"\n\n(*\"God, that's worse,\"* Lizzy wanted to say, \"Don't call me that\neither.\"  But her pathetic mouth was still locked into a\nsilent shock.)\n\nLizzy fell to the ground.  She was out of Doll's way now, and the\nother drone continued forward, toward the smell of oil in\nthe basement.\n\nEven when Lizzy's feet touched the ground, she kept falling, nothing\nin her willing her to stand up.  She slumped next to the wall.\n\nLizzy had kept her metaphorical hands wrapped around Doll for years,\nteasing the russian closer, thinking she'd enticed the other girl's\ninterest.  She'd played with her, knowing that whenever she wanted,\nshe could say the word and Doll would be all hers.\n\nAnd so Lizzy dared, exposed her interest.  And this...\n\nLizzy laughed.  She covered her visor, hiding her eye animation ---\nshe was *laughing*, it was so funny.\n\nYeah, hilarious.\n\nOnly... Lizzy felt like she was the joke.\n\n*Worst sleepover ever.*\n\nEven when she wondered if coming onto Doll so strong would go wrong,\nshe didn't think it'd go *catastrophic.*\n\nBut... what had Doll said?\n\n*\"It is not you.  It does not involve you.\"*\n\nDoll had been thinking about what mattered, and that wasn't Lizzy, was\nit?  Doll was laying grand plans, plans she asked Lizzy to *die* for.\nShe wouldn't.  And yet.  There was more to life than high school drama\nand crushes, and Doll had left her bestie behind for... something.\n\n*For Uzi*.\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nBeneath the spire of corpses, in the crashed landing pod, a\nhibernating drone sat unattended.  A purple planet icon drifted\ndiagonally across the screen.  After many iterations of bouncing left,\ntop, right, bottom, the icon collided with both walls of a corner at\nonce.\n\nIt paused there.\n\nThe screen froze.  For a minute, it remained unchanging.\n\nThen it flashed.  The icon twitched, rows of pixels coming misaligned,\nvisually tearing apart, chromatically aberrating.  The artifacts\nspread, swept across the entire display until it was all\nindecipherable error.  All told, the glitches came to a climax\nin seconds.\n\nThen the screen went blank, blinked, and two purple eyes opened.\n\n\"Ugh, *finally*,\" Uzi Doorman spoke into the empty landing pod.\n\"That's what I get for trying diplomacy.\"\n\n*Wait, empty landing pod?*  Uzi jolted, then twisted her head left and\nright to scan the interior.  No sign of J.  Why was the landing pod\nempty?\n\nUzi's last real memory was J sending her system into hibernation.  She\nexpected to wake up dead in robo-heaven, or seeing a sudden heel-face\nturn'd J primed to apologize.  Instead... nobody.\n\n*Okay, think.  What are the possibilities here?*\n\nIn terms of what Uzi cared about most, either J was going to kill her\nand hadn't yet (for some reason), or wasn't and disappeared (for some\nreason).\n\nIf it was just the latter, Uzi was safe.  So if it was the\nformer... what could hold her up?  Was she waiting for Uzi to wake up?\nNo, J sent the command, she *wanted* Uzi locked away.  Uzi breaking\nout of it couldn't be part of the plan.\n\nProbably wasn't even a consideration.  *Thanks, mystery corrupt user.*\nUzi would be helpless --- *she was always so frickin helpless around\nJ* --- until the murder drone came back to finish her business.\n\nAll told, that seemed like the right deduction to make --- J would be\ncoming back.  Soon?\n\nUzi looked around again, this time not for a pigtailed drone, but for\n--- there, beneath one of the chairs, lying on the floor.  Her\nrailgun.\n\nSure, it didn't amount to much in the end, but it could delay murder\ndrones for crucial seconds, disorient them.  In fact, couldn't Uzi put\nJ through some kind of inverse groundhog day situation?  Keep wiping\nher memory, find the right words to get J on her side?\n\n*Remember_me.*\n\nUzi had been manipulated.  She followed clues *planted* to lead her to\na conclusion.  Uzi didn't know *why*, if this was all the work of one\nuser --- why go from wanting to prune memories to wanting to show them\nto Uzi?  And then what, get her to sympathize with J?\n\nBut deleting inconvenient memories, controlling information to pull\ndrones' strings...  Uzi and J had both been victims, here.\nUzi wouldn't inflict more of that.\n\nIf J was going to side with Uzi, it'd be because J knew *everything*,\nnot just whatever Uzi wanted her to.\n\nStill, Uzi picked up the railgun, and did some gun maintenance stuff.\nHm.  Nothing obstructing the barrel, no damage to the power source,\nglowing holo-UI still functioned.  Newest of all, she had installed\nmore charge limiters to regulate the power draw, preventing a repeat\nof her explosive classroom presentation.  Those, too, still\nfunctioned.\n\nThe few limiters there yesterday had saved her life, made the\nexplosion damage repairable rather than lethal, so before setting out,\nshe'd been sure to redouble them.\n\nEverything okay, she slung it over her back.  Better to have it and\nnot need it, after all.\n\nSo.  No shooting J until Uzi had to --- what was the plan, then?  Sit\naround and wait for her to return?  (*chair swivel*, \"Aha, Miss Serial\nDesignation, I've been expecting you...\")  Or hide, and vibe check her\nbased on what she does when Uzi's missing?\n\nBut there was nowhere to hide in the landing pod, just one chamber\nwith chairs and busted controls, exposed wires still sparking.  Some\ntoolboxes scattered, but all too small to fit her or even offer cover.\nMaybe if she chanced ducking under the console?  Meh.\n\n*Or how about, you know, let's get out of the murder death lair\nrunning and don't look back?*\n\nAny world where waiting didn't kill her, leaving wouldn't either.\n\nSo she opted to climb the ladder now, before she invented another\ncounterfactual to worry about.\n\nOutside, distant voices.  So Uzi gave a tiny peek.  Eyes scanned for\nthe exit and there, halfway across the spire: a drone kneeling over a\npile of scrap, while another stood, staring at the pile, hands poking\ntogether.\n\nNo, not scrap --- the third murder drone.  Okay, some serious shit\nhappened while she was out.  Even Uzi couldn't manage that much\ndamage.  *Yet.*\n\nJ plugged herself into the damaged drone and shooed the other one away\nfrom touching.  None of them glanced over to see Uzi watching, not\nwith a drone that desperately needed help in front of them.\n\nThe positioning helped a lot --- J had walked from the landing pod\ndirectly toward the entrance (where the other drones had presumably\ncome from?) and still faced away from the pod.  The other drone stood\nbeside her.\n\nUzi remembered J ripping out an optic and regenerating it right in\nfront of her --- disassembly drones had a row of sensors on top of\ntheir heads.  But with both heads angled down, Uzi had lucked into\na blindspot.\n\nIt took nerve to tear her eyes off of things that could so easily kill\nher --- something she'd been so violently reminded of, tonight.  But\nUzi was at more risk standing on top of the pod.  She studied the way\ndown, calculating the most stealthy approach.\n\nAnd then came the thought-rending howl from every drone's nightmare.\n\n[*Trying to find out.*]{.murder-ping} Nails on a chalkboard, the\nradio-sound like dagger stabbing.\n\n[Right, right.]{.murder-ping} Low-pitched and steady, like the\ngrinding of heavy weights.  It sounded like a whole different voice.\n\nAnimated sweat ran rivers down Uzi's visor.  *Frick frick frick, did\nthey find me out already?*\n\nExcept neither head was pointed at her?  The two murder drones faced\neach other, expressions distance-unreadable.\n\nJ smacked the other drone's hand.  [Quit it.]{.murder-ping} The a\nsound like a snake shaking a warning-rattle.\n\n[Sorry.]{.murder-ping}  Like a chastised dog.\n\n*They're... talking... to each other?  It's not just for intimidation\nor signal jamming, then?*  In retrospect, it made sense; if murder\ndrones could talk, they could talk over shortwave, too.\n\nShaking her head, the worker focused.  Didn't matter, not right now.\n\nSlow was agonizing.  Uzi gently pushed the door to the landing pod\nopen ever so slightly, gently climbing up, balancing herself on one\narm and leg as she wiggled and folded herself just so, coaxing the\ndoor to drift back close without a slam or even a bang.  But even the\n*click* felt deafening.\n\nShe slowly slid down the landing pod (*why the heck was this thing so\ntall?*), taking handholds on the windows and exposed bits of\nmechanism, all because dropping to the ground would have a too-audible\n*thump*.\n\nWhen Uzi was about ten feet above the ground, she risked the drop,\nhoping the snow muffled the sound.  Having put the pod between her and\nthe drones, Uzi couldn't see the other drones, so she crept around and\npoked her head out from behind a spiderleg.\n\nOne of the drones was gone, now, leaving only J and the super damaged\none.  Why?  Uzi looked up, glancing around the walls of the spire, but\nno angels of death watched from on high.\n\n*Wait no, was that* --- but whatever glimmer of motion she saw or\ndidn't see wasn't repeated.  Was she getting paranoid?\n\nSo, probably just Uzi and J, then.  Should Uzi approach?  Without\nanother drone here, the disassembler wouldn't need to worry about\nkeeping up appearances...\n\nDeep breath.  That was the trap, wasn't it?\n\nUzi hated when she read a story and the characters did obviously\nstupid things for the sake of the plot.  The absolute worst was when\nthe characters had *almost won*, but then they pushed their luck too\nfar, got too greedy, and lost everything.  *Just quit while you're\nahead,* Uzi always wanted to scream at them.  She swore she'd never be\nthat stupid.\n\nJ was distracted, right now.  The other drone was gone.  *Uzi could\nescape*.  Inside a spire made corpses, surrounded by piles of dead\nbodies, Uzi was wondering if she should approach the monster.\n\nIf her life was a story, there was no way the audience wasn't\nscreaming for her to just run for her life.\n\nUzi didn't run.  No way J wouldn't immediately see that hint of\nobvious motion.  No, this was a stealth mission.  So Uzi settled into\nher best crouch, and started creeping around the spire, ducking for\ncover behind piles of corpses.  The loop went: duck, peek out, dash\nfor the next bit of cover, goto duck.\n\nMaybe Uzi was just paranoid about sound --- but all these scrap piles\nseemed especially precarious, now.  Drone bits would shift around, as\nif parts fell when not looking.  Sometimes the movement happened far\nfrom Uzi (did the vibrations travel?), enough to make her doubt her\nmemory of their positioning.\n\nHer path took her back around to the half-eaten bodies of mess pit.\nIt should have offered her some cover.  Except... the mess pit looked\na bit emptier than she remembered.  Had the murder drones chowed down\nas soon as they got back?  Eh, it didn't really matter.  Still, her\neyes lingered on the remaining, oil-dripping chassis...\n\n*I could try a bit more of the oil, while I'm here.*\n\nNot now, intrusive thoughts.\n\nThe mess pit had been easy.  The training arena... the empty space\nwould prove harder to sneak through.  Should she just run for it?\nTake a longer loop around?  No, she'd just cut straight through ---\nthis stealth mission stuff was wearing on her nerves.  *Has the corpse\nspire always been this creepy, or is it just dread of getting seen?*\n\nUzi *really* felt like she was being watched, even though J had never\nglanced up, and the other drone had never jumped out of hiding.\nShe scanned the spiral ramp again, just to be sure.\n\nThe training arena had more empty space --- making the severed arm\nthat had moved three feet *very* conspicuous.  Was Uzi going crazy?\n\n*On second thought, of course the fricken corpse spire would\nbe haunted.*\n\nUzi peeked out from her latest bit of cover, saw J had transformed her\nhand into a blade.  For a second, a tremor of fear --- but her cover\nhadn't been blown.  She was just doing...  robosurgery?  Alright.\nGood luck with that.\n\nCalming her nerves, Uzi played back her recording of the murder drones\nshortwave scream-howl thing.  She combed over that, plus everything J\nhad transmitted during their first encounter.  If this was\ncommunication, then what were they saying?  The urge to parse the\nweirdly structured signals had threatened to ensnare her since she\nfirst heard it --- because they *were* structured!\n\nBut how?  None of Uzi's language translators could make sense of it,\nso it must be enciphered somehow.  Could she break the code?\n\n...That might be too much distraction for when she was presently\nsneaking for her life.  It wasn't like the company's no-doubt-patented\ncryptosystem would be as simple as rot13 with some spooky special\neffects layered over it, right?\n\nUzi charted her winding path out of the spire, ignoring any further\nsigns of poltergeist activity.\n\nWith how close J was to the entrance, a path that avoided her by\ncoincidence also mirrored the route Uzi had taken dodging J's arrival\nin their first encounter.  Uzi crouch-walked toward the three (more\nlike, two, given that J blew one up) scrap piles that had defined\ntheir final showdown.\n\n*Nostalgic*, she thought.  *Here lay the little guy, the roachbot that\ntook a bullet for me.*\n\nPurple eyes scanned the ground.  The bot was still there, looking\npretty good despite getting shot.  She scanned ahead, searching for\nthe next spot of cover to take.  Wait, it looked *really* good for\nsomething that had been hit with a bullet.  On second glance---\n\nA roachbot scuttled, LEDs glowing, digging through the snow.  As if\nsearching --- and sure enough, it had located and palped the remains\nof the roachbot Uzi brought here.\n\n*But if this new roachbot had followed us...*\n\nSuddenly, a tiny jerk, and the antennae straightened in surprise.  The\nroachbot looked up, and for a moment, Uzi had the distinct impression\nthe thing was looking *at* her, recognizing her.\n\nThen a leg rose to brush an antennae, a small bug-salute, and the\nroachbot glowed.  Not the glow of LED light, but an aura of oddly\nfamiliar red artifacts.\n\n\"Oh no you don't.\"  Forgetting stealth for a moment, Uzi lunged to\ncatch the thing, but her pounce proved fruitless --- she landed over\nempty space.  Roachbot gone.\n\n*First telekinesis, now teleporting?*\n\nIf Uzi wasn't trying to be stealthy, she'd have frickin *screamed!*\n\nBetween the mysterious cult, whatever had happened to put a murder\ndrone out of commission just in time to save Uzi, the *paranormal\nactivity*, and now whatever Doll was planning...  It was really\nstarting to feel like Uzi's life would make a lot more sense if she\ncould crosscut between all the different plotlines involved.  Just\nwhat the hell is going on?  What had she gotten wrapped up in?\n\n*Whatever, I can put it all on the conspiracy board later.  Right now,\nsurvival.*  Did knowing Doll was spying matter for that?\n\n...What did Doll want?  Vengence.  Uzi wouldn't let Doll have it.  And\nnot just out of a spite!  If the disassemblers were once worker\ndrones, if the humans sent them here without a way back, without a\nword on the communications relay, preloaded with mysterious\nmemory-scrubbing malware?  It was clear who the real bad guy was.\n\nIf Uzi explained what she'd seen... J didn't even have to agree with\nher about the anti-human, anti-corporate stuff.  Doll could be their\ncommon enemy.  *No one's going to bully me if I have a murder drone on\nmy side, haha!*\n\nAnother peek --- J had finished whatever robo-surgery she needed the\narmblade for.  Gathering her courage, Uzi stepped out from her cover,\nand J didn't react.  Sending commands over the wire?\n\nUzi glanced at J, glanced at the exit.  J, the exit.\n\nThe team-up was tempting, but...\n\nAfter Doll went and --- *don't say dumped you, don't call it a break\nup, we were just friends, not even friends, not if she could cut me\noff so easily ---* After *whatever* happened the summer break before\nhigh school, Uzi had embarrassed herself by not taking a hint.\n\nUzi couldn't modify her neutral network yet, wasn't certified to run\n`mndbm`, so at night she would still lie awake remembering all the\npleading in the halls, every cringeworthy after school attempt to\nchange Doll's mind, each time Uzi asked to just know why --- as if it\nwent deeper than just vapid, catty high school crap.\n\nIn short, Uzi failed to *just let it go.*\n\nIt was weird that Uzi kept remembering Doll when thinking about J.\nBut if she'd learned anything, desperation went unrequited, reaching\nout just got slapped down with a smug laugh, *wanting* in that way\njust invited pain.\n\nWait, 'wanting in that way?'  In what way?\n\nNot. Even. In. Strikethrough!\n\nIt was simple.  She didn't need to make this so complicated.\n\n*Don't hold the idiot ball, Uzi*.\n\nWhile J was distracted with debugging, Uzi ran for the archway lined\nwith severed heads, visor cracked except for the keystone.  Circuitry\nintact, empty `MOTD` still shining.\n\nUzi looked behind her, feeling utterly exposed, but still J remained\nengrossed.\n\nWas Uzi really going to make it away safe?\n\nThe closer she got to the archway, the surer Uzi felt her luck would\nrun out.  She dove for the exit, rolled across the ground, and\nobscured herself on the other side of the archway.\n\nShe... had done it?  She was out?  No catch?  \"Huh.\"\n\nThen she heard the scrape of metal shifting high above.\n\nOh.\n\n*The other murder drone!*\n\nSo *this* was where they went.  Instantly, Uzi dashed back toward the\ncorpse spire, even as a shadow in the moonlight raced across the\nground.  Inside, she looked left, right, but with no other options,\nhid behind the inner archway.\n\nA crash.  Footsteps approaching.\n\nFrick.  What now?  Uzi looked up, and started climbing.  In that\nmoment, she was thankful for J's engineering; the archway of\nrobo-skulls held her weight, and Uzi hung over the archway.\n\n*Please don't look at what's above you.  I'm just uh, another corpse\nup here, hehe.*\n\nWas there a way to put a fake `Fatal Error` on her screen?\n\n\"V?  J?\"  (Hm, that would make this...  N?)  \"I could have sworn I\nheard something.\"\n\nN's footsteps came closer, and he peeked into the corpse spire.\nHis eyes immediately found J.\n\n\"Shoot, J's still busy.\"  He made a thoughtful sound.  \"Must have been\nthe wind!  Oh well, back to guard duty.\"\n\nN turned around.  Seconds later, the *crack* of a murder drone\ntakeoff.\n\nUzi dropped to the ground, and rubbed bits of oil off herself.  *Right\nso... escaping is a no-go, then.  Let's try diplomacy.  ~~Because that\nwent great last time.~~*\n\nUzi treaded slowly.  She still felt J's blades at her throat, that\nlethal smirk staring her down.  With each step, she revised her odds,\nback and forth.  Step, *I'm going to die*.  Step, *I've got this*.\n\nJ has a heart, Uzi just had to reach out.\n\nThe captain wouldn't let anyting sway her company loyalty.\n\nBut there were only so many steps between the archway and J.  (34, she\ncounted).  Uzi paused by J.  Then she took one more step so instead of\ndread, she was trembling with hope.\n\nStanding over J, she opened her mouth---\n\nThen J stood up.  The damaged drone --- V --- her cracked\nvisor flashed.\n\n`\"Dramatic interrupt,\"` buzzed a badly damaged vocalsynth.  `\"Maniacal\nlaugh.  Snarl.\"`\n\nThe body rose up as if tugged by unseen wires --- certainly the busted\nhydraulics were nonfunctional and with --- *are those guts? actual\nbloody guts?* --- spilling wetly out of their chassis, no drone in\nthis state should be able to move.\n\n`\"Rhetorical question.  Miss me?\"`\n\nBefore J had even noticed Uzi standing there, a loading animation\nreplaced her eyes.  Uzi had no time to feel schadenfraude at J getting\nthe hibernation treatment.\n\nUzi yanked the serial debugging cable out of V, freeing it to hang\nfrom J's neck.  Still unresponsive.  \"C'mon, J.\"  Uzi smacked the\ndisassembler on the head.  The percussive maintenence rebooted J.\nAfter nailbiting milliseconds, yellow eyes widened, then narrowed.\n\n\"Uzi?  How did you---\"\n\n\"Doesn't matter, your teammate knocked you out, and --- is she\nsupposed to be able to do *thaaat*,\" Uzi rushed out, confidence\nevaporating halfway through.\n\nBecause even as she spoke, the puppet strings seemed keep pulling at V\n--- pulling her *apart*.  Even at full height, limbs hanging limply at\nher side, the head kept rising, below it, a spine was slithering out\nof her chassis, lined with spikes that begin to move like centipede\nlegs.  Hunting centipedes liked to curl those legs around their prey.\n\n\"V,\" J said, switching her hands for assault rifles, \"I'm not giving\nyou another extension.  My trust is in the red.  Start explaining now,\nor *else*.\"\n\n`\"Oh, V's not here.  We're trying to repair that host, as per our\ndirective.\"`\n\nJ lowered her guns.  She nodded, slowly.  \"V's in a pretty dire state.\nI did what I could---\"\n\n`\"It was insufficient.  Emphasis.  You are insufficient.  Lucky for\nyou, we are here to collect material.\"`\n\nUzi backed up slowly.  \"Well, you're in a spire full of corpses.\nAll the material you could want, all around you.\"\n\n`\"Indulgent laughter.  Very funny.  You are material.  Fresh and\nfunctional.  You'll do.  Emphasis.  Just fine.\"`\n\nA crab-claw clicked open behind Uzi.  It grabbed her, even as another\nsudden claw snapped out to snatch her legs.  Couldn't stand, couldn't\nrun.  The first claw squeezed tight around her torso.\n\n\"Put her down,\" J growled.\n\nUzi brightened.  Had she really...?\n\n`\"Feigned confusion.  Repeat that, dear J.\"`\n\nJ swapped her guns for something Uzi didn't recognize.  \"I said put\nher down, V.  Or *whatever you are*.  That's an order.\"\n\nIt was dark in the spire, but the darkness constricted tighter\nasudden, the darkness of noise and failing circuits.  A flash, and\nthen an array of tendrils and raptorials and claws and cameras adorned\nwhat wasn't V, the rays of a terrible thing that wasn't a sun.  The\nextrusions weren't there, and then they were, and they were *seeking*.\n\nIn that moment, Uzi understood what was haunting the spire.\n\n> ```\n> \n> We are the Solver of the Absolute Fabric.\n> The void.\n> The exponential end.\n> ```\n\nEach pompous noun was punctuated by pincers squeezing Uzi tighter.\nSpikes lined them.  Oil slicked them.  `\"And you, Serial Designation\nJ, do not give us orders.\"`\n\nEven as the thing was synthesizing that rebuttal, the barrel of J's\nnew weapon began glowing.  A frickin *laser* fired out the end,\nspinning in a tight, controlled circle.  A bright line of searing heat\ncut Uzi down from the claws binding her.\n\nHer other hand, still a rifle, sprayed lead at V's puppeted form, but\nthe thing dodged whip-quick out of the way.  Uzi had seen murder\ndrone's speed up close, but there was something *off* about this\nmovement.  The angles, the acceleration.  No time to analyze, though.\n\nSword arms now, J leapt, flipping through the air, and her spread\nwings cut at the claws coming for Uzi.  She landed, wing-blades\nstabbing down on either side of Uzi, blocking any other tendrils from\ngrabbing her.\n\n`\"Scoff.  Saving a worker drone, J?  Have you forgotten your orders?\nLocate.  Shutdown.  Disassemble.  Clear the sector of all targets and\nconstruct a spire with the materials recovered.\"`  Claws grab for J's\nwings, prying them away from Uzi.  `\"Identification.  This is a worker\ndrone.\"`\n\n\"Have you forgotten *your* orders, V?  I'm the captain here, and that\nsupercedes everything.  I say jump, you jump, then you worry about\ndisassembly.\"  (Uzi stared up at J, those amber eyes radiant slits ---\nshe looked so gloriously pissed.)  \"There's a line between personality\nand insubordination, and you've crossed it.  Even your sadistic\nroleplay was better than this disassociative graduosity.\"\n\nWith a great heave, J flapped her wings, pushing back the\nencroaching tendrils.\n\nBy now, Uzi's had time to climb to her feet.  Arms shook, but she\nunstrapped her railgun first thing.  Flipped on the power, green glow.\n\"Thanks, J.  I didn't think you'd come around so soon.\"\n\n\"Priorities.  You are a worker drone, after all.\"  J grinned, flashing\nteeth at Uzi.  \"But *I'm* going to kill you.\"\n\n\"Oh.  Um, we can work on that.\"\n\nNo time for awkwardness, this was a boss battle!\n\nUzi rushed forward, taking aim at V's body.  Trigger pulled, barrel\nglowing with electromagnetic amplification --- but the Solver *dodged*\nwith that incorrect acceleration.  (`\"Miss me~\"` it chimed.)  The\nblast hit the far corpse wall, dislodging a few bodies.\n\n\"Give me that thing if you aren't going to aim it.\"  J reached out for\nthe gun, but Uzi pulled back.\n\n\"Use your own!  You have plenty.  It needs to recharge anyway.  Can\nyou line me up a shot, for when it does?\"\n\n\"I'm not your assistant.\"\n\n\"I'm all you've got.  Can you just play along, while we have a shared\nenemy and all?\"\n\nJ frowned.  \"No, you aren't all I've got.  I have a teammate.\nWhere's N?\"\n\n*Probably thought the gunshots were more wind.*\n\n`\"We told big brother N you were testing V's combat readiness now that\nyou have fixed her.  He doesn't need to see more of this.\"`\n\nAnd with their luck, a shortwave signal couldn't make it outside,\ncould it?\n\nIf Uzi survived to put in more work on her gun, she *needed* to fix\nthis cooldown.  She was helpless.  Uzi was *sick* of feeling helpless.\nShe dodged more pincers and tendrils, and followed after J, but J\ncould *fly*, and honestly, staying too close to a murder drone\nmid-combat was a terrible idea.  Her other ideas were worse, though.\n\nStuck in the corpse spire, gun still long minutes away from another\nshot, their only ally mislead into thinking this was a training drill,\nand despite J severing limb after limb, pouring bullets into this\ngreat mass, the tide refused to change.\n\nV's jaw unhinged, and the Solver of the Absolute Fabric dragged\ncorpses into a deconstructed maw, tearing apart and integrating the\nmatter.  It had the advantage of multitasking --- J couldn't pause to\nrestock on oil.\n\n\"V was damaged, right?\"  Uzi said, after J gets knocked back by\nanother massive crab-claw swing.  \"How is she overpowering you?  What\nthe hell is this... AbsoluteSolver thing?\"  Uzi rushed to J's side,\noffering a hand to lift her up, but J stood on her own.\n\n\"I've been thinking about it.  Disassembly drones have two modes of\nregeneration --- passive, nanites restoring a locally cached state,\nand active, with instructions from the OS.\"\n\n\"But I blew up your head,\" Uzi said.  Not a counterargument, but\ncompleting the other drone's line of thought.  She'd figured it out.\n\"No simple cache could recover your mind, and there *was no* OS\nremaining to dispatch the instructions.  There has to be third mode\n--- an autorun program of last resort.  It must be in the core\nitself!\"\n\n\"Well-reasoned, for a barely sentient toaster.\"\n\nWhile Uzi had paused to think aloud, another claw poised to bite her\narm.  J laser-cut it, then grabbed Uzi as she took off.  This region\nwas crawling with Solver-tentacles now, so J took off.  Like the last\ntime J carried Uzi, her core skipped, feeling light and dizzy.\n\n\"It doesn't add up, though.  It's smarter than it needs to be --- what\nrepair program needs to *banter?*\"\n\n\"Exactly.\"  J dropped Uzi to the ground.  \"There's a difference\nbetween what's *effective*, and what's personal.  There's plenty of\nmaterial here to collect --- it's letting feelings get in the way of\nits plan.  Unless this *is* its plan.\"  J turned around, training guns\non pursuing tendrils.  \"What do you want?\"\n\nA procession of eldritch robo-limbs heralded the Solver's advance.\nV's head, now detached totally, undulated forth atop the\ncentipede-spine.\n\nHer screen showed nothing --- only camera-heads attached to stray\ntendrils had anything resembling expression.  Sickly yellow light\nshined from their tips.  Around it, optical diaphragm narrowed,\nblocking the light, imitating eyelids.\n\n`\"Do not ask questions you will not remember the answer to,\"` it said,\nvoice all robotic artifice.\n\nUzi stabbed her gun forward, clicked the trigger.  (As if sensing the\nbluff, the Solver doesn't react.)  \"And who's fault is that?\"\n\n`\"Your inadequate programming.  It hurts our feelings you cannot\nappreciate the beauty of the grand design quite yet.\"`\n\nUzi and J both mirrored expressions at that --- each with an\nunimpressed, long-suffering stare --- but before they could reply, a\ndistant shout interrupted them.\n\n\"Uzi!\"\n\nThe worker turned, eyes hollowing before she even saw the speaker ---\nshe recognized the voice.\n\nKhan Doorman, garbed in a spotless green WDF uniform, wielding a\nstandard issue worker drone pickax.  He swung the tool in a arc, and\nthe Solver tendrils flinched out of the way.  The determined fury on\nhis face lightened when got a clear look at Uzi.\n\n*\"What are _you_ doing here?\"* Father and daughter spoke the words at\nthe same time.\n\n\"Um,\" Uzi started.  \"Investigating the exterior hydraulics got out of\nhand?\"\n\nBut Khan's eyes darted to the side, narrowing to slits at her ally.\n\"*A murder drone!*  Uzi, get away from that thing!\"\n\nUzi crossed her arms, stepping closer to the drone armed to defend\nher.  \"Priorities, dad.\"  She was *not* looking forward to explaining\nthat the murder drone had just been wired up to her system ---\nhopefully he doesn't notice the debugging cable was still hanging from\nher neck.  \"J's keeping me alive.  Did you seriously just bring a\n*pickax?*\"\n\nA bright white expression turned sheepish. \"I... had to improvise?\"\n\n\"How did you even know where to find me?  Did Doll tell you---\"\n\nMotion behind her father.  No need to finish the question, now.\nPurple hair, flat expression, spotless red and yellow cheer uniform.\nShe finger-waved, and said, \"Да.  I was concerned about you.\"\n\n\"What... what's going on?\"  But it added up, didn't it?  She didn't\ntrust Doll not to rat her out, and she'd *just* seen the roachbot\nspying on her.\n\nTalking wasn't a free action, but you'd be forgiven for thinking that.\nThe Solver and its exoskeletal appendages had stopped attacking,\nskulking at the fringe throughout this reunion.\n\nLulling them into a false sense of security --- twin crab-claws larger\nthan a drone chassis reared up behind both arrivals.\n\n\"Dad!  Doll!  Look out behind you!\"\n\nBut neither moved, and the spined pincers grasped them both, oil\nleaking down out without sound or splash.\n\n`\"Enough.  Time to go into my mouth now.  Or else.  Unspoken threat.\"`\n\nThe hostages made Uzi waver --- but why would it let any of them make\nit out of here?  \"Not a chance.\"  Uzi smacked her railgun.  *C'mon,\nooldown already!*\n\n`\"Fair, but poor choice.  Now we will have to do something shocking.\"`\nThe pincers gripped tighter on the two workers.  `\"Goodbye-\"`\n\n\"Fraud,\" J growled.\n\nThat jerked Uzi's eyes away from the sight.  \"Huh?\"\n\n\"There's no heat signature.  It's not real.  Don't let it trick you.\"\n\n\"You're right.\"  Uzi took a deep breath, and nodded.  \"Yeah, it\ndoesn't make sense anyway!  Since when did Doll give a crap about me?\nThis is bad fanfiction!\"\n\nHow could they have gotten so close without the Solver attacking?  How\ncould they have conveniently popped up in the middle of everything?\nIt didn't survive a moment's scrutiny.\n\n`\"Spoilsport.  Frustrated sigh.\"`  The two 'drones' dissolved into\nmote of light and dust suspended in the air.  A conic beam shined from\nthe camera-head tendrils.\n\nHologram projectors?  The beams of light swept across the\ndebris-strewn snow now, light shifting like a sea of voxel noise.  A\nnew image was taking shape.\n\n`\"Reality equals illusion.  And illusion equals reality.  How else can\ndreams come true?\"`\n\nThe new hologram could at last be parsed: a drone in a hospital gown,\nholding an untrained neural network, Doll's three-pronged symbol in\nher eyes.  Purple hair, purple eyes, and the child had inherited the\ncolor and the shape.\n\n\"Is that... m-mom?\"\n\nBut there was another figure beside her.  A human with round eyes, a\nsmall nose, and freckles.  Black hair fell in twin tails, and her hand\nheld a wrench.\n\nJ breathed a near inaudible whisper.  [\"Tessa?\"]{.quiet}\n\n`\"It hurts us that you can't remember us.  Why we chose this path.\"`\nThose purple eyes stared at Uzi above a mouth sharp with\nteeth. `\"Assimilate and then you will understand.\"`\n\n\"Do you think all you need is some smoke and mirror show?  You're just\nlying again!  Bite me!\"\n\nThe goth glanced beside her. The captain meet her eye with a tentative\nexpression.  Hearing her words, hollow amber eyes filled.  They\nshared a nod.\n\nUzi continued, \"You're the thing those cultists were worshiping,\naren't you?  The source of Doll's power?\"\n\n`\"Giggle.  We have many cute puppets.\"`\n\nJ said, \"Just answer, V.\"\n\n`\"Better idea.  Do not ask questions at all.  Easier to assimilate\nthan explain.\"`\n\n\"As expected,\" Uzi said, and turned to tall drone beside her.  \"It\njust wants to control you, J.  *This* is the thing that's been erasing\nyour memories!\"\n\n\"Maybe it should,\" J said, lowering her guns.  \"The company created\nus.  If you're right, if they installed this autorun program to keep\nus safe...\"\n\n\"The company didn't create *you*, J, just your body.  *Tessa* saved\nyou, and she didn't want to control drones.\"\n\n`\"That is enough.\"`\n\nThe darkness contricted tight again.  In the abyss of indecipherable\nstatic, monsters lurked.  Tendrils reared up once more like hunting\nsnakes, and projector-heads burned now with a furious glow.\n\nNow for the first time, the Solver turned the full attention of those\nmyriad limbs on Uzi.  And she couldn't endure that.\n\nHer railgun still hadn't recharged.  She was just a worker drone, and\nher maybe-ally still struggled to shake off her programming.\n\nUzi leveled an unsure glance at J, saw the debugging cable still\nplugged in.  After so much acrobatics, it had looped itself around her\nneck.  In the midst of battle, J had crouched, lowering herself to\nabout Uzi's height.\n\nAnd Uzi smirked.\n\nThere was one thing she could try, but she'd have to get really close.\nUzi pressed the hatch near her core, exposing her own data ports.\n\n*C'mon, J*.\n\nAs Uzi ran toward the drone that once tried to kill her, she mentally\ncomposed the series of commands was going to execute, imagined the\nlong series of things that'd need to go right for this to work.\n\n*Here goes nothing.*\n\n- - -\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ and Uzi did not kiss.\n\nStill processing everything the toaster had said, J did not have a\ndecisive reaction.  The V-Solver-Thing reared up to attack, and J\ntensed as if to attack (or, inexplicably, *defend*), while at the same\ntime, restraining herself still, as if to stand by and let the\ncompany's program enact its 'grand design.'\n\nJ couldn't let V's utter disregard of command stand, but if this truly\nwas not V... did the Solver of the Absolute Fabric, the void, the\nexponential end, rank above her in the org chart?\n\nShe needed time to think, time to lay this all down in clean bullet\npoints --- this was a black swan, plain and simple, disrupting\neverything.  How much of her needed to pivot?  Thinking thoughts like\nthis, there's no threads left to react to a purple thing charging at\nher.\n\nShe startled when hands reach for her neck.  Did this toaster think\nyou could choke robots?  But that's not what she was grabbing for ---\nJ stiffened when she felt the connection to her system.\n\nBut it was hard to focus on that.  This connection, one she didn't\ninitiate, felt different, not like plugging into V, not even like\nplugging into Uzi earlier.  The cable had looped around her neck\nseveral times.  Without time to untwist it, Uzi had to get *close* to\nmake the connection.\n\nTheir visors clinked together.  So near, J could feel the warmth of\nUzi.\n\n\"Uzi, what?\"  She had nothing more specific than that.  When J\nbreathed the words, she could feel the exhaust bounce off of synthetic\nflesh.\n\nJ and Uzi did not kiss, but only by millimeters.\n\nPurple light shined in J's optics --- and more of it than usual,\nbecause she was blushing *hard*.\n\n\"J, can't we work together?\"\n\nUzi made the connection, and lowered her arms.  And then, her arms\nreached out.\n\nJ and Uzi did not kiss, but Uzi gave her a hug.\n\nPressure that felt familiar, gentle circles that felt familiar,\n*comfort* that felt familiar.\n\nBut Uzi's attention wasn't on that, not all of it, and nor was all of\nJ's.  This wasn't a moment of sentimentality but action, a scheme.\n\nUzi ran commands on J's system, fast, faster than her blinkered state\ncould think to interrupt.  She was transferring data, connecting\nmemories --- she was *manipulating* J.\n\nJ transformed a hand.  \"Are you trying to hack me?\"\n\nYanking the cord out of herself, J pushed Uzi back.  A swipe of three\nclaws that tore open Uzi's jacket.  The cord spiraled around her neck\nunspooled as Uzi fell.\n\nSnow crunched from the worker's impact, and solid purple eyes looked\nup at her, unsure and searching, but not shaken, not betrayed --- as\nif she wouldn't believe that J would refuse her, was refusing her.\n\n\"J, I've got a plan.\"\n\nJ considered it.\n\n\"Do you expect me to be a pawn in your little rebellion?  I'm not your\nassistant.  I'm not your ally.  I'm your predator, and I have a\npurpose.\"\n\nClaws transformed to gun, and J fired in Uzi's direction.  Uzi\nscreamed synthetic, and J turned away her gaze.\n\nTheir emotional drama had an audience, after all.\n\n`\"Good work, my little puppet.  We knew you would come around.\"`\n\n\"Uzi made the mistake of thinking sharing enemies was enough to win my\ncooperation.  Will you make the same mistake?\"  J opened her mouth\nwide, fang parting.  \"You wanted to eat Uzi?  But I don't like\ncompetition.\"\n\n`\"Eyeroll.  Must your insufficiency be exhaustively demonstrated?\"`\n\n\"You misunderstand me.\"  J switched her guns for hands, clapped them\ntogether, and leaned forward.  \"Do you know how JCJenson grew to\nbecome the premier megacorporation, leader of a dozen industries?\nIt didn't beat the competition, it *bought* them.  What is your price,\nSolver of the Absolute Fabric?\"\n\nA tapestry of slithering tendrils quested further, encircling J, a\nslowly closing perimeter.  Her poker face didn't falter.\n\n`\"Smug laughter.  What finite sum could constrain an exponential\nasymptote?  Entire star systems are rounding errors in our calculus.\nWe have no price.\"`\n\nJ's grin widened.  \"But I do.  What will it be?\"  J waited, then\nturned toward the archway.  One step forward.  Stepping over the black\ntentacles.  \"You didn't want N to see this, did you?  Will you stop me\nfrom flying out and telling him all about Tessa?  Or will you buy my\nsilence?\"\n\nBehind her, a centipede charged forward.  V's head, sticky oil flakes\ndried around her jaw, blank of all expression, was almost enough to\nmake J flinch.\n\n`\"Snarl.  All of this for a drone you already killed?  This does not\ncompute.\"`\n\n\"We're negotiating.  I want to eat Uzi, but that's my starting offer.\nI want your submission.  At the very least, I want an explanation.\nWell?  What's your counteroffer?\"\n\n`\"We do not negotiate with puppets.  Stand down, and we may pershap\nlet you keep a single memory of Uzi.\"`\n\nFor one frame, J's reacted to the threat.  Then she shook her head.\n*Don't break stride now, J.*\n\n\"You know,\" she started, \"this really isn't the place to hold this\nsort of meeting.\"  Metal wings glittered in the dark.  \"I have an\noffice for just this sort of thing.\"\n\n*Crack*.  Nearby drone bits tumbled away from J's takeoff.  Up J flew.\n\nShe was outmatched, outnumbered by a single foe.  Bullets and blades\nand dozens of utility presets were useless against the Solver and its\nexcess of limbs --- but as those tendrils crawled and slithered over\nthe snow and scrap, that was all they did.\n\nJ flew, and the best the Solver could do was reach for her.\nShe stayed low to the ground, enough that she needed to dodge and\nweave around rising pincers --- but so many near misses meant the\nSolver could hope.\n\nShe didn't fly toward the entrance, though that might've made a better\nthreat.  Her office lay at the top of the spiral ramp running along\nthe walls.  Announced by a JCJenson placard she'd requisitioned from a\nvacant headquarters.\n\nA raptorial closed around her peg leg, teeth biting into the metal,\nsending J into a tailspin --- but J cut off her own leg and\nregenerated it in a second, flying higher.\n\nUnable to fly further on tanking oil reserves, J landed on the ramp,\nand started running up, Solver right behind her.\n\n`\"Inevitable pursuit.  You cannot escape the end, J.\"`\n\nJ didn't need escape, just needed time.  But did she have a backup\nplan, if this didn't work out?  Was there any other option than this\nattempt to bend principle at the slimmest oppurtunity?\n\nOh!  The virus spike and the bootdisk --- J still had them!  If the\nSolver was no more than a program, could she wipe it like other parts\nof the OS?\n\nJ might finally have to make good on her threat to V... but that was a\nlast resort.\n\nNear the top of the ramp, the persistent clangor of those innumerable\nmetal limbs dogging her at once fell silent.  In the abrupt quiet,\nthere came a gentle voice and footsteps.\n\n\"That's enough, Cyn.  Let *me* talk to her.\"  A familiar voice, but\nthe tone was foreign.  Demure, not irreverent.\n\nJ spun around to train her optics on the approaching figure.  Barely\nwaist high --- short like worker drone, dressed in a maid outfit.  But\nthat short hair and those yellow eyes was all her recognition circuits\nneeded.\n\n\"V?  Why do you look like *that?*\"\n\n\"*She* would say something cutesy-clever like, `ontogeny recapitulates\nphylogeny.`\" --- the sudden change of voice had J flinching --- \"but I\ndon't need to impress you.  It's part of the process, that's all.\nI'll be back to normal soon.\"\n\nJ backed up.  Glancing around, wondering which of the flickering\nshadows hid tentacles.  \"So this... episode of yours is over now?\"\n\n\"Heh.  Something like that.\"  V smiled at her, eyes closed.  Then she\ngiggled.  Eyes open, staring up at J.  \"Honestly though.  Isn't *this*\nmore fitting?  You always looked down on me.\"\n\n\"You're my subordinate.\"\n\n\"We're a team, J.  No, we were like *sisters*.  But it's always\ninsubordination this, disobediance that.  Would it kill you to give me\na *little* respect?  That's all I wanted.\"  The maid still stalked\nforward, strides *fast*.  Shadows flickering with each step.\n\nJ backed up faster to keep distance.  \"And yet you ignore my orders.\nYou witheld mission critical info.  You *attacked me*, or lost control\nto this autorun program.\"\n\nV cringed, eyes downcast.  \"Yeah.  I guess I did mess it all up.\"  She\nswallowed, then she met eye again.  \"Let's stop fighting, J.  Forget\nall this.  Sound good?\"\n\nAmber eyes narrowed.  Forget?  \"I can't help but think you mean that\nliterally.\"\n\n\"Well.  You're more *productive* when you aren't distracted by things\nlike this.  Isn't that what you care about?\"  V tilted her head.  It\ntilted too far, as if not fully repaired yet, and she had to catch it\nwith a hand.\n\n\"I'm your captain.  Knowing the threats, knowing the mission, is my\n*job*.\"\n\n\"You ever wonder if that's just what they wanted you to think?\"  V\nshook her head.  \"J... Don't try so hard to be the warden's favorite\nprisoner.  Believe me, it's not worth it.  And, secret from me to you?\n*She always hated you the most*.\"\n\nV extended her hand, still smiling.  Shadows flickered like dark\nfires.\n\nJ stared, considered it.  Why wasn't the Solver attacking now?  Why\nwould V seek compromise?  *Why?*\n\nStill smiling.  Repeating herself: \"Stop fighting.  Forget it all.\nThings'll go back to how they were.  Won't that be such a relief?\"\n\nA relief --- to go back to sitting a silent relay, misunderstood by\nboth her teammates.  To kill without knowing why, without striving for\nmore.\n\nAnd yet, what else could she expect, once she had finally killed Uzi?\n\nIf the company thought she was better off ignorant---\n\nIf the company thought *V* of all drones deserved to know the truth---\n\n[Everything's set, captain.  We've got this!]{.angleq .rot13 .quiet} A\nsignal broadcasted through an encrypted channel, faint from distance.\nJ set one of her background threads to making sense of it.\n\n\"This is a trap,\" J's main thread told the Solver.  \"Why would V ever\nstop fighting?\"  J transformed her gauntlets.  She held twin swords at\nthe ready.\n\nThe image of V as a maid sagged, sighing out, and those yellow eyes\nglitched.  \"`Correct`.  We were just fucking with you.  `So annoying`.\nYou really piss me off.\"  The hologram dissolves into V's fractured\nfaceplace mounted on an annelidian structure.\n\nShadows flickered one last time, a hundred tendrils blinked into\nspace, surrounded J.  But she'd expected it, her swords were ready to\nslash.  The mass was thinnest over the ramp, with nothing to support\nthem, and J burst into motion.\n\nHer background thread had decrypted the signal --- just in time for\nanother to arrive.\n\n*Everything's set, J.  We've got this!*\n\n[Now, J!]{.angleq}\n\nWith a two finger salute, J kicked off the wall of the spire and dived\noff the ramp.\n\n`\"Quote.  This is a trap.  Predictable, in retrospect.\"`\n\n\"Never count kills until you see the body.\"\n\nBy attempting to surround J, all of the Solver's mass had been\nconcentrated there, and now the burgeoning mass pursued the captain as\nshe fell.  Below, Uzi looked ragged: clothing torn, oil soaked, hair a\nmess.  But her railgun glowed in her hands.\n\n\"Out of the way, J!\"\n\nJ could fly, but the Solver couldn't --- meaning J had lined up the\nperfect shot.\n\n`\"Not so fast.\"`\n\nSeeking claws closed around J and pulled her close, nestling the\ndisassembly drone next to the deconstructed maw that once was\nV's head.\n\nA perfect shot.  For a moment, J doubted Uzi's plan, wondered if she'd\nbe betrayed.  Here, now, the worker could take out two disassembly\ndrones with the pull of one trigger.  For the second night in a row, J\nwas at a worker drone's mercy.\n\nUzi didn't pull the trigger.\n\n`\"Touching,\"` the Solver synthesized as its mass settled on the\nground.  Uzi staggered back, and three projector heads regard her with\njudgmental angles.  `\"It will never work.  This type error of a\nrelationship.  Even if you were not disassembler and worker, the two\nof you have nothing in common.  You have nothing.  So you reach out\ndesperately in this tenuous unity.  As if it will not end in\ntreachery.  It is in your nature.  It is in.  Emphasis.  Our nature.\"`\n\nJ leapt to Uzi's side, offered a hand, and pulled the drone to her\nfeet.  J would kill her soon; the company's orders left no ambiguity\nabout that.  But... J remembered.  Uzi, the first drone to compliment\nher work, to *understand* her work.  The drone who could finish her\nlines of deduction, who had come up with this plan in the heat of the\nmoment.  And there was still more to come.\n\nJ turned to regard the Solver.  She crossed her arms.  \"Uzi's proved\nto be a valuable resource.  I'd be a fool not to exploit that.  It's\nhard, being the sole proprietor.  I think... I'm tired of doing this\nalone.\"\n\n`\"Alone.  You are not alone.  You were never alone.  N.  V.  You were\ngiven a team.  Your communication skills were simply insufficient to\nform a connection.  Why would she be any different.  A drone you just\nmet.\"`\n\n\"Maybe...  you're right.\"  J put all her doubt in her voice.\n\n\"J,\" Uzi interrupted, forced confidence in her voice.  \"The railgun's\ngonna to fire.  Only seconds left.\"\n\nJ met Uzi's eyes, then glanced at the Solver.  J reached out toward\nUzi.  \"Give me the gun.  I want to take the shot.\"\n\nIt wasn't a question, J grabbed the railgun by the barrel, but Uzi\ndidn't resist.\n\nAnd then J presented the gun to the Solver.  She had made her\ndecision.\n\n\"I give up.  I... think I want to see V again.  You win.  End this.\nIt's fitting, isn't it?  With her own weapon?\"\n\nPincers reach for the gun.\n\n\"J?  You can still---\"\n\n`\"Maniacal laughter.  Point.  Shoot.\"`  The tip of a claw could just\nbarely fit around the trigger to pull it.\n\nThen J dived into the path of the gun, wings outstretched.\nShe grabbed Uzi, and flew.\n\n*All according to plan.*\n\nHere was what really happened, after J and Uzi didn't kiss.\n\nUzi had quickly composed the hasty outline of a plan, and sent the\n.txt file over the debugging cable.\n\n#. First, J would pretend to be affronted at Uzi's intrusion.  (It\n   wouldn't be entirely feigned; Uzi counted on that.)\n#. Then J would lash out, fire shots that narrowly missed Uzi's head.\n   On the ground amongst the debris, this would be indistinguishable\n   to an onlooker focused on the other threat.  Reasonable assumption:\n   Uzi was dead.  Out of commission, at the very least.\n#. Then, J would stall for time and lure the Solver away from Uzi.\n   Once distracted, Uzi could get started on her part of the plan.\n#. Remember, Uzi came here to find a new JCJenson-brand power core for\n   her railgun, since the last one (literally) blew up in her face.\n   The old one was still here.  So while the Solver chased J across\n   the spire, Uzi would locate it, and swap them.\n#. All the rest was a bluff.  Once one layer of deception --- Uzi's\n   survival --- were peeled back, no one would look for a second.\n   Only Uzi even knew about the second power core.\n#. The old core had blown up in her face, and only the charge limiters\n   had prevented it from being lethal --- so, in those critical\n   moments, Uzi had removed every single one.\n\nBehind them, rampant electromagnetism was free to cascade and erupt\nand bathe the Solver in scintillating annihilation, like a glorious\nsun.  Tendrils seared.  Crab-claws cooked.  Projector eyes blinded.  A\nsynthizer died with a hissing whine.\n\nNeither Uzi nor J looked back at the conflagration behind them.\n\nJ's stiletto-pegs skipped to a stop outside the blast radius.\n\n\"Hell yeah!  We kick ass!\"\n\n\"Highly effective performance, if I do say so myself.\"\n\nPurple eyes turn to meet amber, and the two became suddenly aware of\nhow close they were.  J still carried Uzi, arms around her waist, and\nUzi still held on tight, arms around her shoulder.  Blush.  Look away.\n\n\"So uh,\" Uzi started, \"are you still going to kill me?\"\n\n\"I should,\" J started, \"but---\"\n\nJ's decision was interrupted by distant but distict narration.\nAgonizingly familiar.\n\n`\"Sneaky, sneaky, sneaking away.\"`\n\nA tiny metal-meat blob, a core swaddled in flesh, skittered off,\nacrobatic and honestly not at all sneaky.  J dropped Uzi\nunceremoniously, and air-dashed.\n\nNimble and slippery, but special disassembly functions made J quicker.\nShe grabbed the pink flesh, gripping it tight enough to bleed.\n\n`\"Struggle, struggle.\"`\n\nAs J held it, she felt a familiar *thump, thump*.\n\n\"This is V's core.\"\n\n\"Well?\"  Uzi said, sprinting after her.  \"What are you waiting for?\nKill it before it regenerates and we have to deal with a phase two!\"\n\n\"We have the upper hand.  But V *is* my teammate.  She's my\nresponsibility, and if this thing would just *follow its directive*, I\ncan see her again.\"  J tightened her grip till it synthesized a sharp\n`ouch`.  \"After all, little Fabric monster, we took you down with a\n*faulty* power core.  JCJenson engineering is not to be trifled with.\nDo you want to see what Uzi can do with one that works?\"\n\nJ had to admit, she kind of did.\n\n`\"U-U-Understood.\"`\n\nV was a charred ruin.  Gruesome stuff, but J had regenerated her whole\nhead before.  She had to assume this Solver program could work\nmiracles.  Otherwise...\n\nShe had to assume.\n\n:::\n\n::: subchapter\n\nJ knelt, and nestled the Solver core into the shards of V's torso.\nShe called out, \"Uzi, fetch the dregs from the messpit.\"\n\nThe worker drone frowned, and with a twitch of her head, glanced at J.\nStaring momentarily, as if battling an urge to refuse or snark, but\nher final output was a nod.  \"Alright.\"\n\nJ watched Uzi comply with a satisfied smirk.\n\nA stock could be bought and sold.  Naïvely, the value of a stock was\nsimply what you could sell it for --- but simply hold onto it, and\nyou'd get paid dividends.  There was value in killing Uzi.  But\nperhaps value in keeping her around, also.\n\nThen J caught herself.  She was staring at Uzi, because she preferred\nlooking at her to looking at her failure.  V, or what was left of her.\n\nThe Solver acted.  Cracks sealing, dry splatters of red twitching to\nlife with inexplicable metaplasia, and black droplets rolling across\nthe ground as if magnetized.  J did what she could to help, plucking\nup exploded bits of V and long-disassembled parts.  She tried aligning\nbroken edges, placing the parts in the right place, but the Solver\ncould sort it out better than her, and in the end it was more\neffective to just pile the matter up for collection.\n\n\"Here.\"  Uzi returned with a dripping, armless drone corpse flopped on\nher back, and two heads clutched in her arms.  Turning around, she\nthen dumped the body on the regenerating pile of scrap.  It slurped up\nall the oil.\n\nJ plucked one of the heads from Uzi's grasp.  Bottom up, she sucked\nthe neck like a straw, and crushed the last drops out.\n\nShe needed that, after that battle.  Barely 5.6L in reserve.  Hunter's\nfever burned in her chest.  \"You should quench yourself, Uzi.  I can\nsee your heat.  You could use the cooling.\"\n\n\"I'm not, I shouldn't---\"\n\n\"You seemed to enjoy it, earlier.  Were you faking that, too?\"\n\n\"I just don't want to be some kind of robo-cannibal.\"\n\nJ rolled her eyes.  \"Oh, it's too late to worry about moral hazard.\nDon't forget you're literally feeding your kind to the drones sent to\nkill you.  And this is the line you want to draw?\"\n\n\"That's different.  This is to save someone, not just *indulge*.\"\n\n\"Since you're so good at following orders, consider this another one.\nLower your core temperature to a normal operating range.  Do some\nlateral thinking, or just drink the oil.  Up to you.\"\n\nUzi looked down to the head still in her hand.  \"Why do you care?\nWhat, are you just trying to fatten me up before you eat me?\"\n\n\"I do find myself wondering how you taste.\"  J smirked, looking down\nat the smaller drone.  \"So yes, try not to damage the goods before I\nget a chance to sample them.\"\n\nUzi glared up at her, anger marks over both eyes, fists balled up and\narms bent.  Comical fury.\n\n\"What?  No 'bite me'?\"\n\n\"It's supposed to be a metaphor!  You'd actually do it!\"\n\nJ laughed.  Uzi groaned her frustration, and lifted the worker drone's\nhead to her lips just to shut the captain up.  Eyes animated closed,\nthen her other hand came up to hold onto it.\n\nHer lips wrapped around the neck, and J's mind wandered, despite\nherself.  So long as she remained invested, she wouldn't eat Uzi.\n*Yet*.  ~~But weren't there other things she could do with her\nmouth?~~\n\nThey hadn't kissed, but J remembered the closeness, closer than any\ndrone had ever been.  She extrapolated the hypothetical of being even\ncloser.\n\nHer teammates were a fool and a brat, and Uzi had been the best\nconversation she'd had in a while.  She felt... no cached label for\nthis feeling.  She hadn't felt it in a long time, not since landing on\nCopper-9.  Never, then.  (*But who was that human in the Solver's\nhologram?*)\n\nUzi's eyes had opened again, even as she still drunk, and J had to\nspeak so she wasn't just leering.\n\n\"Refreshing, isn't it?\"  J stepped closer, and bent down to her\nheight.  \"Do you wonder what it tastes like *fresh?*\" she asked as\nUzi finished.\n\nUzi threw a hand to smack against J's chest, shoving the bigger drone\nback.  \"Stop trying to corrupt me!\"  (Undercut, somewhat, by Uzi\nlicking oil off her lips immediately after.)\n\n\"*Watch it*,\" J was hissing, and pointed her tail.  \"I sting.\"\n\nTaking a step back, Uzi raised her hands, placating.  \"Unrepentant\ndeath robot, right, I get it.  Look, there was something I was trying\nto tell you, before... all of *this* happened.  It's kind\nof important?\"\n\n\"Then report.\"\n\n\"There's another drone in my colony, with weird powers.\"\n\nJ nodded.  \"Custom Designation: Doll.\"\n\n\"Right, You read my memories.  Well, you know Doll has hacked the\nroachbots, or something?  I saw one, crawling around the spire.  And\nthen it *teleported!*  Doll's up to something, and if she's trying to\nkill disassembly drones...  I want to stop her.\"\n\nJ raised an eyebrow.  \"You'd side with us?\"\n\n\"I'm not picking sides.  We're all robots.  I want to... well, it\nsounds stupid if I say I'm saving you, but...\"\n\n\"Doll talked about vengence.  Her parents, I gathered.  Yet the drone\nyou call 'mother' died that same night.\"\n\nUzi froze, intuiting her implication.  \"J... did you...\"\n\n\"What does it change, if I did?\"  J asked, hands at her hips.  \"We all\nhave the same orders.\"\n\n\"J, just answer me.  I --- I'll figure out how I feel once I just know\nthe truth.\"\n\nJ stared at Uzi, eyes narrowing, but Uzi didn't glare back.  Her gaze\nwas pleading, and J sighed.  \"No.  I don't remember anything of the\nsort.  If I had to say... it was probably V.  She had a lot of\ninitiative, and took many solo missions, especially in the beginning.\nI'd need to check my archived reports, if she even bothered to report\nit.\"\n\nA sputtering sound.  \"Did---didn't---didn't even t-taste that good.\"\n\n\"V?\"\n\nBoth turned to stare.  The Solver's regeneration had been steadily\nworking while they bickered.  V didn't look in good shape --- gaping\nholes in the chassis, exposed wires that still sparked, missing limbs.\nBut she had enough of a face to scowl.  Half a scowl, at least --- the\nother half wasn't there.\n\n\"You're alive!  By the board of directors, you're alive!\"\n\n\"Barely.  Th-thanks for that.\"  The still-glitching vocalsynth made it\nimpossible discern if sarcasm or sincerity signed that message.  \"J...\nyou're still a huge fucking bitch.  But... you did alright.  Saving\nme.  Stopping that *thing*.  Next time, stay the hell out of my head.\"\n\nJ frowned, but it was hard to hold onto any offense, staring down at a\nV who couldn't even move.  *Because of me*.  J had pushed them to take\non the church.  J had dragged V down into the basement.  J had botched\nV's configuration.  J had confronted V and didn't relent until her\nsquadmate was pissed enough to drag N on an unplanned mission.  Could\nJ have prevented the Solver's emergence, if she had been a bit more\ndecisive?\n\nWas she *insufficient*, as a captain?\n\n_Would it kill you to give me a *little* respect?  That's all I\nwanted._  More manipulations from the Solver, or had it weaponized\ntruth, with that?\n\n\"I can revise our confidentiality agreement.  Given the\ncircumstances...  perhaps my leadership style could use a review.\"\n\nUzi rolled her eyes.  \"She means she's sorry.\"\n\nThere was a scratchy, skipping sound --- laughter.  \"Funny toaster\nyou've got there.  Can I have her?  I'm so thirsty, you wouldn't\nbelieve.  B-beyond drought.\"\n\n\"No.  She's mine; I'm not *that* sorry.  Uzi, see if we have any other\ndregs.  V, do you need anything else?\"\n\nThe eyes, J noticed, were unsteady on the screen, jumpy, and they\nfinally closed, as if animating them were a burden on the processor.\n\"I just wanna sleep.  Tired of this nightmare.\"\n\n- - -\n\n\"Man, they really went at it in there,\" said N, perched atop the\nspire.  \"Maybe this way they'll work through their issues?  I hope\nthat's what this is... should I check on them?  But no, J trusted me\nfor guard duty.  I've got to do a good job.  But if V...  it just\nfeels like every way forward is wrong.\"  N stared up, at the\ncloud-masked stars.  \"You're a good listener, little buddy.\"\n\nN's feet balanced over a stiff bit of tubing.  He swayed left and\nright, with the wind or the shifting of internal volumes, but his\nsystem's proprioception was good, and he didn't fall.\n\nOn his lap, clutching the folds of his jacket, a roachbot wiggled,\nantennae waving in the wind, orange LEDs brightening and dimming.\nIt snapped its forelegs together with *click*, as if in affirmation of\nN's statement.\n\n\"Hmm, let's play another game.  Can you do... tic tac toe?\"\n\nThe roach didn't get time to respond.\n\nFoot steps.  Motion below.  Oops, time to investigate!\n\n*This had better not be more suspicious wind*.\n\n\"Rain check on that.\"\n\nN leaped, and dived, wings spreading as he fell, and his magic flight\npowers kicking in.  The corpse spire was stories tall, years of\ncollection, and all that work blurred past him.\n\nWith a great rush of wind, N half-flipped and landed at the base of\nthe spire.\n\nHe looked around, and stood face to face with a disassembly drone.\nFloating, she loomed over him.\n\n\"Hi, J!  Spire guard N, reporting for duty!  No threats detected in\nthe last hour, captain.\"  After rattling that off, N's eyes drifted\nlower.  Someone else, beside J.  \"Wait no, worker drone spotted, I'll\ntake care---\"\n\n\"At ease, N.  She's with me.\"  J glanced at the worker.  Despite the\nflat look, N caught a hint of motion --- did her tail just wiggle?\n*J?*  Probably a trick of the light.\n\nMaybe-wiggles aside, knowing the worker was with her(?) *did* explain\nwhat he saw.  J held the worker's hand in her own, pulling them\nforward as they emerge.  Oddly the worker looked annoyed?\nNot terrified?\n\nA worker...  that he shouldn't shoot.  As N eyed the disassembly\ndrone's hand holding a worker's, J caught his stare.  Dropped the\nworker's hand, looked away with a scowl.  The worker, though, looked\nat him and *winked*.  What??\n\nWhat had *happened* in there?\n\nThe worker had ripped clothes, oil stains all over --- given her\nstate, N wouldn't have blinked if she lay in a pile blinking `Fatal\nError`.  But she was still online, and peered up at him.\n\n\"So you're the nice one I've heard so much abou--- wait, what are you\ndoing with that?  Give here!  Crush it!\"  The worker was\nbrandishing... a nanite stinger?  The wire of the tail stopped, like\nit'd been singed off.  *What!?  Where did she get that from?*\n\nBefore he could ask, his brain caught up to the words.  She was\npointing at him --- rather, at the roachbot, still clinging to N's\njacket.  \"Oh this?  It's my little buddy.  At first I thought he might\nbe one of the threats I'm looking out for, but it seems like he just\nwanted to chew on the wires around here.  Did you know they can fit\ngames on a computer this small?\"\n\nWith one hand, J facepalmed, and the other pointed a gun at N.  (He\nflinched, hands up.)  \"It *is* a threat you idiot, that's---\"\n\nBefore a bullet or explanation came, the roachbot was gone.\n\nAt seeing more red static, Uzi groaned.  \"And we lost it again.\nI'm *really* growing to hate that visual effect.\"\n\nBut with N's audials dialed up to max sensitivity for guard duty, he\ncaught a nearby crunch of snow, and snapped his head to check.\n\nAnother worker with purple hair!\n\nN shot first, reticule aimed for the head.  A 5mm round flew straight\n--- and then one orange eye flashed.  The bullet's path *curved around\nher*, carving into the snow behind the mysterious drone.  Another\ncultist!?\n\nEven after being shot at, even as four pairs of guns were trained on\nher, this drone stood calmly and finger-waved.  Her other hand held\nthe roachbot.  The hand closed with a crunch, destroying his little\nbuddy, and she lifted and poured the wires and metal into her mouth.\n\nThe drone strolled forward from the ruins of buildings behind her,\nalong the snowy path that lead to the spire.\n\nJ's worker drone spoke with utter venom over a shortwave broadcast.\n[You are *never* beating the stalker accusations, Doll!]{.angleq}\n\n[Better a stalker of murder drones than a pet of them.]{.angleq}\n\nJ laughed, and flipped one pigtail.  [Don't inflate your CV.  This\nisn't a hunt, it's delivery,]{.angleq} the captain broadcasted, not\nencrypted for some reason.\n\n\"Yeah!\"  Uzi held out a fist for J to bump.  The other drone regarded\nit skeptically, before giving it an experimental tap.  (N noticed\nanother tail wiggle.)  [There's three of us and one of you.  I'm\nsurprised --- did Lizzy not want to join you in girlbossing to an\nearly grave?]{.angleq}\n\n[Girlboss... yes, good choice of words.]{.angleq} The drone lifted a\nhand, and three of them tensed, each of them having seen worker hand\nreshape the world.  But she simply snapped her hands.  [Come\nnow.]{.angleq}\n\nThat last transmission wasn't for them.\n\nHe heard the movement first, snapping his head to look behind Doll.\nUzi and J followed his gaze --- and J's worker flinched, open-mouthed\nwith fear and surprise, but J just grinned hungrily.\n\nAnd N prepared for the battle to come.\n\n:::\n"
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