- 2024-04-01
- entitiy-4 asked:
- Any tips on writing Juzi would be nice to see (planning a fun scene in SKN)
good timing — i was actually just about to hit submit on a reblog where this was asked in the tags, but this works better as a standalone post.
took so long to respond
because i underslept yesterdaybecause i kinda feel that, while there’s many areas of writing i’m good at giving advice on, characters are one area where it’s all intuition for me right now. but here’s a few thoughtsthe number one insight that made relationships in general click for me is the understanding that it’s all about emotional needs. the core of any relationship isn’t whether they like each other, or whether they have chemistry, or whether they do anything else that couples conventionally do. it’s answering the question “what do they get out of this relationship?”
could be validation, respect, a sense of security, even just having fun, but i find it clarifies things to be able to frame it as “this character needs something, and that character provides it”
there’s a fair amount of room to flesh out J’s character to whatever works for you story. in terms of what’s established, it’s not groundbreaking, but you can understand a lot of what she needs through the lens of middle management. she simultaneously wants to have someone above her and someone beneath her, smugly obedient or smugly superior, but always smug.
this isn’t all of her character — her humansona drawing is very suggestive of a repressed drive for expression and individuality — but i think it’s the easiest part to relate to Uzi.
because Uzi is a lot easier to get a read on. the text all but announces what motivates her: she wants respects. the edgy teen assertions, acting out in class — she badly wants recognition. (i think deep down, it’s partly cope and she needs affection more, which N provides, but this isn’t a post about nuzi). she also has a drive to for expressing individuality, but she’s far less repressed about it (though of course, being loudly unconventional gets in the way of the whole recognition and respect thing).
and again, this isn’t all of her character — her quest for answers about her mother suggests a drive for meaning, purpose even — but this post isn’t exhaustive
the thing is, you can see the resonance, but these pieces don’t fit together. i think it’s easy enough to see the ideal form of the relationship. it’s mutual respect, it’s Uzi knowing J is proud of her accomplishments and who she is, and J knowing Uzi thinks she’s doing a good job or that Uzi will listen to her orders.
but the thing that makes J/Uzi so interesting and spicy is how much it doesn’t work. even along their most compatible axis, you can see a much more likely outcome is a rivalry, each wanting spite and outdo (or undo) the other. J would want to slot Uzi in as her underling, which Uzi reject conforming to. and given the things that J takes pride in — efficient, orderly adherence to rules — can you imagine Uzi complimenting that?
a very concise way to put it is an old joke of mine. J/Uzi is a mutual superposition of “i hate her, she’s fucking insufferable, but i can fix her” and “she thinks she’s so much better than me, but i can make her worse”
- i wrote this as a general purpose post but you’ve got a pretty clever setup that sidesteps some of the issues. so good work there
- 2024-04-01
receiving dozens of boops but the boop button doesnt work for me. i am so powerless.
- 2024-04-01
brain still fried after the mania off finished the gigachapter. doctor has prescribed yuri fluff. pharmacy had none :c
- 2024-04-02
i was minding my own business today, idly thinking to myself, “as far as md fanfiction writers go, i like to think i’m pretty good!”
then i read As Above, So Below

it’s been sitting complete for over a year, which is both a respectable achievement but also a bit of a shame, since that means it’s a bit buried on ao3 as a result
i can’t say it’s stolen the title of my favorite, but it’s genuinely some of the best writing i’ve encountered, and not just in this fandom. breathtaking metaphors, heart-wrenching character writing, and a unique and intriguing premise set years after the events of the show (note that it came before ep4). uzi has become a badass, hardened fighter and the rest of the cast has matured in their own way. the solver is running out of hosts, but outpost-3 is running out of resources.
go read it!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/43721221
when the author likes my fic

- 2024-04-02
hear me out
nori/yeva old woman yuri but they’re both heart core creatures
- i keep saying i dont ship these two
- but i think the propaganda is subverting me
- 2024-04-03
- Anonymous asked:
- So I’m writing a fanfic for a friend and I don’t exactly know how to do you have any recommendations on how to write one
i admit, i’m at a bit of a loss when it comes to giving advice to total beginners.
i think the first thing i’d point you two is the fimfiction.net writing guide
https://www.fimfiction.net/writing-guide
the site is for My Little Pony fanfic, but the guide is general purpose and i think it’s the best instruction to get over the first hurdle in fanfiction, which is readable and idiomatic formatting.
when it comes to the broader aspects of writings — coming up with ideas, polishing them to something good — i know of short and beginner-friendly resources, but the friendly ones aren’t short and the short ones aren’t beginner-friendly
that you’re writing this fic for a friend makes it feel like the “sit down and read these 16 books cover to cover” is not the kind of time investment that would be appropriate for what you’re looking to achieve
(the vain thing would be to link my own writing guides here, but i think the kind of advice i’m comfortable giving personally is especially not beginner friendly)
i struggle to put this in a way that doesn’t sound condescending, but it’s been so long since i learned how to write that i find myself genuinely out of touch with what someone who doesn’t know how actually needs
- 2024-04-03
if you thought HT’s pacing is rough, just know there was a random thad pov scene in chapter 14 that got cut. dont ask me what i was cooking there
the funniest part is that half my thinking was “i guess i’ll put this scene here because this chapter will probably be too short otherwise”
- this has been sitting in my drafts a few days
- i think i forgot to post lol
- 2024-04-05
- fighting for me life trying to reblog shit today. my internet connection is out for blood
- 2024-04-05
- Anonymous asked:
- So I developed a crush on my friend and I’m scared I don’t know what to do if I should stop talking to them or what I don’t know what to do
not sure why i’m the one you ask; i have the relationship instincts of an aromantic amoeba. ironically, my sole — unsuccessful —relationship consists exactly of a friendship turned romantic because of a crush (not my own, though).
anyway, the ideal here is that you would just, y’know, talk about it. your feelings exist, and if they’re a good friend, they are going to be reasonable and understanding about it. you should be able to communicate frankly, doubly so if you actually want to be romantic with them.
but that kinda hinges on assuming the two of you will be mature about this, and if not, then i dunno. get the rock?
- 2024-04-05
an under discussed phenomena in web fiction, especially when you don’t have a deadline holding you back, is standards creep
when “it gets better!” becomes not an observation, but an aspiration, like chasing Moore’s law.
there’s a creeping sense that each update has to push the envelope, be bigger and better than the last. praise begets a cycle (is it vicious or virtuous?) wherein the audience’s faith and hype must be earned and lived up to
so many things die from a lack of attention, but i wonder how many drowned in it
- 2024-04-05
- if this post gets 1 note i will post a random poem i wrote yesterday
- The Parched and the Puddle
- 2024-04-05
what if *bangs on theory keyboard like a monkey* tessa was a drone but from the same model as cyn. cyn was in the elliott’s dump because they threw her out when she malfunctioned, and then they bought tessa as a replacement
- im not cooking just microwaving fridge meat
- 2024-04-05
apparently the juzi and general sapphic!uzi propaganda in Hostile Takeover is so strong that one guy reading the fic before watching the show caused him to straight up not parse N & Uzi as romantic
- 2024-04-05
- Anonymous asked:
- Will you ever write vuzi
- 2024-04-06
wait i never posted this Hostile Takeover meme here
(spoilers, ofc)

(based on a jjk meme)
- 2024-04-07
‘show don’t tell’ has an insane grip on my brain dude, it’s poison. whenever i have to convey information in any but the most roundabout way it’s so embarrassing. like hi, this is what happened & this is what these characters feeling. just kill me now
- 2024-04-07
“what’s a cog to do but turn?” i say to myself as i once again slam my nose to the grindstone pursuing tasks no one is demanding of me with workaholic abandon to fulfill promises i never spoke aloud
- 2024-04-08
- cryptotheism’s thoughts on writer’s block
while i can relate to years of experience meaning my first drafts come out just fine, i have some mixed feelings on some of the advice. this babble and prune model of the drafting process, “write cringe, edit serious” is very common advice. lowering standards is definitely my number one tip i’d give to those experiencing writers block, after handling bodily needs (i say, while currently starving). i think about this quote from the Angry GM sometimes:
Everything must be good enough. And that means that they spend a lot of their time shooting their own ideas down. When it comes time to create something — especially when they have to do it on the fly — they end up killing lots of potentially interesting, potentially exciting, potentially fun, perfectly normal things. And if you do that long enough, eventually, you’re not using a pump shotgun anymore. Eventually, you’ve got a machine gun. Or worse, an automated turret. Eventually, you don’t even see the idea slaughter. You just sit at the other end of the killing field waiting for a good idea to emerge. But nothing does. And you don’t know why. So, you conclude you suck at being creative.
the inner editor chomping at the bit instead of waiting their turn is a failure mode. but there’s one line in OP’s post, another commonly repeated bit of wisdom, that i think i finally have the words to push back against
It is far, far easier to fix slop than it is to try and perfect as you go.
and i disagree, if not emphatically, then at least pointed, and with a particular caveat. i would say instead that you should put down unedited slop if and only if you can actually trust yourself to fix it later. and that’s a skill, one not everyone has. the anchoring effect is a killer. if you struggle to kill your darlings, then i hate to say it, but writers’ block is actually adaptive — putting down a sloppy idea early genuinely can come at the opportunity cost of locking you mentally out of better ideas. the answer, of course, is to learn how to edit mercilessly — but the advice should be given. it shouldn’t be assumed. i dont know. i suppose this advice gets repeated so much because it’s just genuinely true for most people — and i simply happen to sit at the very narrow intersection of being skeptical of my writing’s quality (not uncommon) while not at all hating it. whenever i write something, i know with near-certainty i’ll come back to it tomorrow and think it’s pretty alright, rarely having more than a few tweaks to give it, a little extra polish and push, and then it smells fine. and the question haunts me: did i write this because i think it’s good? or do i think it’s good because i wrote it?
- 2024-04-08
if i reblog something and you enjoy it, it was for you btw
- 2024-04-08
- entitiy-4 asked:
- Imagine - a roachbug Doll sent to spy on the disassembly drones was near the door when J and Uzi kissed. Later, Doll and Lizzy are going through the footage and they find it.
the funniest answer would be Lizzy going “Hot. pause Not hot? We’re way better than them.”
…actually, come to think of it, seeing that would probably bluescreen them. because it’s like 1) mm lesbiab, 2) but it’s uzi. and she’s being annoying about it, 3) well, at least someone is putting in her place 4) wait that’s a murder drone, 5) why is uzi going along with it??
6) did i mention lesbiabdoll’s pov in particular is funny, since doll and uzi fumbled each other. so doll’s definitely not jealous. on two levels, actually — since if the roach sees them flying off, doll gets to see j getting permission to drink oil, which, y’know, lizzy never gave.
that roachbot would be a weapon’s grade instrument of psychic damage. probably the only answer is to destroy it and never speak of this.
- 2024-04-08
- entitiy-4 asked:
now my brain is caught on the idea that Doll knows Uzi didn’t die to J and in fact made out with tongue, and she finds Khan mourning his daughter and has to decide if she should tell him
not sure if there’s a more awkward comment to drop at the wakethough at this point i have to keep my silence — there’s a sketch of a possible khan-doll interaction already sitting in my notes, so- 2024-04-08
tired but all my ways of relaxing require more energy than i have. what the fuck do i do now
- 2024-04-09
when you think about it, personalized recommendation algorithms are just search engines where you arent allowed to set to set the options. pretty bad design imo.
why do i have to get superstitious about what i engage with i dont trip invisible flags that throw everything off. why do i have to babysit a glorified spreadsheet instead of just being able to tell it what i want. why did we let it come to this
- bedlam-moon reblogged:
this meshes interestingly against my thoughts on friends as personalized recommendation algorithms
spent a bit trying to words it out and idk how, but there’s a lot of “oh friend is doing a thing, cool” (ponders: is thing a thing i want to do?)
even for like. life stuff.
maybe it’s the [motion]? recommendation algorithms are… ~static? not really, but definitely more so than people
things become more meaningful when they involve people. knowing that my friends are engaged in something immediately makes it matter more than a proposal that emerged from the ether imo
- 2024-04-10
“solverlilies” nova was right there. yori was right there. we will not escape samsara
- 2024-04-10
- i like webp. that’s it, that’s the post.
- i admire the improvements to compression
- it’s nice when people try to make things better
- instead of being stuck with the state of the art from literal decades ago
- “that’s the post” it says as it puts the rest of the post in the tags
- 2024-04-11
- stibnitewires asked:
im in the middle of reading hostile takeover (chapter 8, actually) and i LOVE how you characterize all the murder drones, especially J. You have a good balance for them all and highlight the issues in their teamwork, it’s so fun to read
thank you so much _
it’s fun trying to find the angle to portray all them, especially J surprised me with how much i ended up enjoying writing her. all the more rewarding to hear that it works for other people
i get a little excited whenever i see people reaching that point in the fic, because i feel it’s place where the setup is done and the fic really hits its stride
(a part of me is surprised to hear it’s a fun read — i’ve spent so long worried that my writing is so slow and dense that even people who enjoy it find it a slog, but maybe i’ve finally gotten a lil bit better about that.)
- 2024-04-11
- entitiy-4 asked:
If we’re talking about how good hostile takeover is, it’s the fic that got me into murder drones in the first place. Without it I wouldn’t be here. Here’s to more Juzi!
- 2024-04-11
i feel a lil bad asking this right when a lot of people are excited for hostile takeover, but for financial reasons, i might need to start putting some of my energy into more serious original projects again.
i’m not pausing HT — i don’t think i could stop thinking about those lezbots if i tried — but being able to take breaks to work on other things tends to be good for my energy levels in general.
and honestly, when i first started, i thought HT itself was just going to be a quick break from those projects, and now i’m four months in and my plans keep growing >.>
anyway, the purpose of this post is that i wanted to gauge interest. i know most people follow me for murder drones stuff, but do any of the original stories i’m considering interest you?
more detailed pitches for each of these can be found under the cut. honesty is appreciated.
- Which story sounds coolest? (see below)
Final result from 15 votes Option Votes None / I don’t read origfic / Show results 6.7% Aurora Moonrise (epic fantasy; a comet learns about friendship through violence) 13.3% Thy Wretched Mask (horror fantasy; cannibalism and fungal possession) 6.7% Running Out of Skin & Time (“superhero” fantasy; time loops, complex magic) 26.7% A Chimerical Hope (epic fantasy; insect ninjas unravel deep schemes) 13.3% I love reading anything / Whatever you’re most passionate about 26.7% I’m a diehard fan holding out for an obscure project to continue (tag or reply?) 6.7%
a note before i pitch them — when i write original fiction, i post it to my site and a site for original fiction called royalroad. i’ll probably reserve my ao3 account for, yknow, fanfiction.
the plan is that while the stories will eventually be available publically, supporters to my patreon will get to read several chapters ahead of everyone else.
- Aurora Moonrise
pitching this one is hard, because the most interesting thing about is a twist reveal at the end of the first arc. at first, you can see it’s framed to suggest — and Aurora initially believes — her mother is a “daughter of the moon”, but of course, she’s actually a comet.
as the poll option suggests, her inhuman heritage makes urges her to fight and hinders her ability to understand the basics of human social interaction.
this would be a long story, lighter in tone than the others, and structured like a fantasy trilogy, about Aurora journeying across the land doing what she thinks heroes do. along the way, she picks up several party members with their own weird baggage. all of them girls, of course, and it gets very gay by the end — but it’s slow going because, yknow, aurora doesn’t understand romance, either.
i’m very excited about this project — just thinking about it is enough to get me bouncing. you can actually read the prologue and four teaser chapters right now, and i have over 70k words of notes past that, with the whole thing outlined start to finish.
- Thy Wretched Mask
once again, the most interesting parts of this are a surprise. Beca isn’t human; she’s saddled predatory instincts she doesn’t understand. the “fungal possession” comes into play several chapters in. it gets intense enough that i believe it’s one of the few times i’ve teared up while writing something, and it’s so far the first and only time i’ve written something that explores topics of plurality, which is pretty personal to us
i say HT is the first time i’ve written romance (and it is), but TWM came close, and would have gotten even closer if i continued it.
i’ve already written over 20k words of this (unpublished), but due to the writing exercise it began as, it requires substantial rewrites; i cringe when i try to reread it, and it honestly makes the prospect of returning a bit unexciting.
this would probably only about the length of a novel. (original projection was novella length, but i think i want to flesh it out more.)
of all of my potential projects, i think this one is probably the biggest thematic overlap with Hostile Takeover. but uh, it’s dark enough to make that look like a sappy romance >.<
- Running Out of Skin & Time [WIP]
of all the options, this story is the least well flesh out (no pun intended), but it has a lot of potential. a “time loop” where a character relives the same day over and over is something not enough stories explore well
(if it means anything to you, the inspiration for this fic was literally just thinking “what if the Shibuya Incident was a time loop?”)
i call this “superhero fantasy” because, while i havent figured out the tech level (it’s industrial, but how modern?), the magic system gives everyone unique and specific abilities that are easiest to imagine as superpowers.
the time loop effect itself is the rube goldberg interaction of half a dozen powers, and part of the fic is puzzling out just how it works, as well as puzzling out how to overcome the various powers arrayed against the lord.
it would be a very complex, cerebral fic, all about power progression and fight scenes, but at its heart, i want it to be the story of two dead girls who love each other enough to unravel fate itself
- A Chimerical Hope
unlike all of the others, this isn’t an idea for a story, or a plan for a story, it is a story, one i’ve written 100k words for. you can read it right now
it’s set in an expansive setting i’ve spent literal years thinking about with giant insects empowered by virulent mutant bat blood and cold black corruption pouring out from a hole in the sky.
it’s also, shamelessly, only avoids being called naruto fanfiction by dint of sheer weirdness
Aurora Moonrise may be the story i’m most excited about, but ACH is the one with the most ambition and purpose behind it. if i could only ever tell one story in my life, it’d probably make it ACH. it might be over a million words if i ever finish it
but i also think it’s probably too weird to get very popular.
if you can’t tell already, i have a LOT of story ideas. before i ever watched murder drones, would you believe i was literally already working on a story about killer lesbian robots on a inhospitable frozen planet haunted by a creeping cosmic horror?
and i’m kind of tempted to work on a story about modular mushroom creatures that live underground. (Fruiting Body, Rotting Soul [WIP]) or a fricken pokemon mystery dungeon self-insert i’ve already finished one chapter of. (Frozen Dominion)
and of course, i have several other stories i could continue working on…
but like, the stories i’ve listed are the ones i can honestly say i might work on right now. and, practically speaking, the stories that might genuinely takeoff, if i dare hope.
- 2024-04-12
shipping j/cyn purely because cyn’s motivation being to get revenge for uzi killing her girlfriend is comedy gold
- 2024-04-13
after some reflection i figured out why i’ve started to dislike V
![edited mulan meme in two panels. first panel caption: quote, you mean you're not a [psycho / woman who will fucking kill me?], end quote. second panel caption: quote, I can't believe I was in love with a [tsundere]. it’s no fun if they’re pretending](tsun-v.jpg)
- 2024-04-13
i dont think i can cog mentality grindset my way out of this one girls.. i might be genuinely mentally unwell rn
- but we stay silly
- right?
- 2024-04-14
i have no context for the cyn cargo shorts thing and at this point i think it’s funnier if i remain puzzled
- 2024-04-14
yall must’ve posted fire last night. tumblr does not want to let me scroll down my dash. im dying
- 2024-04-15
- entitiy-4 asked:
- J says pray to Uzi if anything bad happens in the merch video Do with that what you will
- who are we kidding
- it’d be both
- 2024-04-16
juzi nation do u love me enough to forgive what i’m gonna do in Corrupt Combustion? it’s definitely treason…
- me constructing the most byzantine rube goldberg plot with every lever aimed to push the ‘being uzi is suffering’ button
- 2024-04-16
what does it take to get better at writing prose? what are all those rules for, anyway? i share a few thoughts about the process of improvement, dress it up in some metaphors. this one’s shorter and a bit more meandering than usual, but i have a couple interesting ideas to share
a little bit embarrassed of this one, to be honest, but i figure people aren’t following me because they don’t want to hear my thoughts.
- 2024-04-18
it just occurred to me
people probably think about stories they’ve read?
like, when i’m in the shower or out for a walk, my brain obsessively turns over my own projects
and there’s probably a type of person that will speculate about what happens next in a story they’re invested in, or retread their memory of something they loved
and i guess this is how people have inspiration to like, discuss and theorize things?
- instead i just stare into my beautiful reflection
- 2024-04-20
- yudkowsky & alexanderwales discuss elemental systems
- for black nerve, i ended up sort of hybridizing this approach. diegetically, enervate (read: mana) gains an affinity to an element via what amounts to a selection effect, so rare elements just statistically aren’t going to have enough presence for the quasi-geological process that forms of an elemental plane. and when you look at the most common elements a terrestrial organism interacts with — nitrogen, silicon, oxygen, carbon — it’s pretty easy to map this on air, earth, water, fire. with the benefit of giving you some tasty knock-on effects, like “fire”-bending skill tree having a “mince organic life” feat, or nitro-benders having a fertilizer specialty. (you might note that carbon is the odd one out in being substantially less abundant than the others. but that’s actually because the plane of carbon was artificially constructed by a precursor race whose magical system required a continuous supply oil) …of course, the actual, good faith consequence of this supposed setup is that aluminum, calcium, sodium, etc. ought to be really important. (and it i suppose bone bending and salt bending has a certain allure to it) but i think it’s clear i wrote the bottom line first here. still, i think there’s some extra thought put into the approach here
- 2024-04-20
Anonymous asked: : Is there going to be a chapter anytime soon or is it going to take longer
nope.
i’ve had Esoteric Surgery sitting with four thousand words of notes for more than a month (yes, before i’d even finished 13 or 14). between burnout, financial stress, and wondering how the hell i’m supposed to follow up the best chapter in the fic, i haven’t even opened the doc since posting the last chapter
i could go back to 2023 posting rates, but then we’d go back to 2023 quality and i’d rather not, at least not until the cyn arc wraps up
- suspiciously corrupt combustion shaped gap in my upload schedule:
- 2024-04-20
kind of unhinged how tumblr’s endless scroll breaks sometimes. try to go back up and it glitches you back to where you were
social media said you will scroll down and you will be happy
- 2024-04-20
how will oneshot authors ever know the indescribable joys and sorrows, the splendor & misery, of devoting fourteen months of your life to a project, and then after monumental toil, finally stepping away, leaving it unfinished & never touching or mentioning it again
- 2024-04-21
the perilous tightrope of tryna be self-deprecating without shooting strays
- 2024-04-23
disappeared into the writing dimension for many hours yesterday. now i am back to read 28 hours of tumblr dash like a morning newspaper. good lord the lesbians are at it again
- 2024-04-23
yall im tempted to make a sideblog for dragon stuff. the wof brainworms are coming at me something fierce
never had a proper hyperfixation on that shit maybe this was a long time coming
- ngl would not have predicted astore being the first headmate to get her own blog
- 2024-04-23
i’m sorry i kissed you during the epic life-or-death culmination of our rivalry. it just sort of happened. i didnt mean it. i still want to be enemies. please. do you hate me
- yeah i’ve been writing more juzi how can you tell
- 2024-04-25
- “i’ll put you on the news” i’ll put you on the index of popular historical misconceptions. do not try me
- 2024-04-25
ok so i have a reputation for long winded yaps but i have utterly outdone myself this week
the good: i’ve been writing. a lot.
the bad: it’s not Hostile Takeover
the ugly:
it’s nuzi :]really, the real problem is wasn’t trying to write something new at all. i had a lil plot bunny, and i was just going to summarize it for some friends on discord.
so i sat down, thought i’d spend on hour or two writing up an explanation, the broad strokes outline, and share it with them.
i ended up writing all evening without finishing. then went back the next day, wrote all evening, again without finishing. next day it was my friends birthday, so i was out of the house. but i came back with a vengence and spent all day writing ten thousand words (!). oh, did you think i’d finish? haha. came back the next day, still not done. on the fifth day, i was sure it would conclude. i got right up to the end, and it took till today to finally finish up the epilogue-y bits.
now i just need to proofread and maybe tweak some things.
and hope my friends won’t kill me for making them readin 35k of brain dump.
anyway. i genuinely have no idea what to do?
because like. this is not written with the fidelity of my usual writing. it is a summary, a sketch, a rough draft. the “finished” version of this fic could easily exceed 100k words.
and like. i’m tired boss. i don’t feel like writing another Hostile Takeover. and i’m not sure i can even commit to that, and not just slowly stop writing halfway through like with everything i’ve tried.
(and this would be a terrible story to die halfway through — i call it nuzi, but there are some big twists and if i don’t get to them i’ll explode. it takes a while, but believe me, you’d understand why i would write this >:3)
i don’t even know if want to put that much effort into it. i like it, but do i like it enough to devote months to it? not sure.
but it is pretty good, if you trust me saying so. some of the sections already hit pretty hard. i kind of think i ought to share this with people, whatever state it ultimately ends up in.
but i don’t know.
is anyone interested in reading this and giving feedback maybe?
- 2024-04-26
sometimes the side hustle aint a hustle. sometimes it is large scale financial fraud
- 2024-04-26
- An Opaque Heart
Spend too long in the dark, and light is blinding, even painful. Uzi’s lived a life neglected and alone, but N’s smile could brighten any darkness.
Locked out of Outpost-3, the two of them face the world side by side. His squad leader wants him dead, and J won’t leave a job unfinished. Can they escape her wrath? It would be easy to fly far away, but Uzi needs to know who her mother was. Knowledge is power, knowledge takes power, yet what is power good for but destroying things?
Try not to love everything you destroy.
35k words, a rough sketch for a longer fic. a lot of this is loose; open to feedback for tightening the plot, refining the accuracy of characters, but be kind
and… i’m sorry.
- 2024-04-26

- 2024-04-27
between An Opaque Heart and Corrupt Combustion, if i published what i’ve been working on i would be tried for high treason in the courts of juzi nation. my days are numbered
nuzi empire would probably hunt me for sport. where do i even go? seek dizzy asylum? slum it up with the roving purple malice gangs?
- oh the consequences of my actions
- have mercy
- entitiy-4 replied:
- Letting you know i would testify Opaque heart is peak Juzi
me: *literally trying to betray juzi nation*
juzi fans: wow it’s just like Scorpions & Drought
- purrple-bat reblogged:
- definite peak juzi even if uzi doesn’t feel as much for J
- was gonna say go for Noll resort
- but than i had the evil thought of noll in an opaque heart
- and that would genuinely get you killed by nuzi fans
hard pills to the swallow: it would be the good ending. i’m not even necessarily a noll person
like uzi, babygirl, maybe you can fix this but i don’t know if you should
there was a joke i made, before i finished figuring out the direction AOH would go — that i’m threatening to make envy viable, not by overcoming trauma but by creating more
- 2024-04-27
you ever interact with mildly interesting person and just go “you are a strange creature and i want to hunt you for sport.”
- 2024-04-28
what if the reason i dont like nuzi and vuzi is because i resent the fact that it’s
possibleso easy for them to be happy- being a juzi fan will teach you about faith
- 2024-04-29
guy who doesn’t see j & n’s relationship as abusive because they look at how n shrugs things off and stays chipper and is like “he’s just like me fr. and i’m fine so. 😎”
- not a guy but it’s me lowkey
- also what fuck is happening in md-confessions
- 2024-04-29
- entitiy-4 asked:
For the Cyn/Uzi/J thing - I’m tempted to mess with that if I ever revisit snippets. Cyn may be interested in learning new emotions, but she’s looking for answers when we barely know anything about what separates that stuff.
manor cynjuzi is far more wholesome than what i was imagining. i was imagining a triple situationship brought together in the unbreakable bonds of three girls all trying to kill each other with each pair forming and betraying ever shifting alliances against the other one
…oh god. i just realized this fits in PERFECTLY with the juzi speedrun idea i had weeks ago. frickfrickfrick i cannot outline a new fic…
but yeah, i’m definitely piqued by the idea of this happening in the manor (and therefore with the possibility to be actually healthy :v).
something about the idea of cyn learning about emotions from the two such fine examples of introspection and expression feelings as j and uzi feels ripe for fun
anyway, here’s an idea. J clearly has artistic talent. Uzi has drawn blueprints and built stuff. cyn of course has wrought some strange creations.
what would these three working together unleash?
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