in case anyone’s been wondering where i’ve been, the short version is that at the end of last month, i had a single thought:

i had been struggling to get anything productive done for a few weeks at that point. my solution? if doing one thing is too hard, why not do all the things?

sounds stupid but it kinda worked? i was going to call it my ‘slop era’, where i just get things done even if the output was low effort nonsense. the first two days, i wrote a few pages of a new story[Devouring Inane / Regent Kindred] (which turned out kind of interesting), got a few sketches done, and composed two simple tracks.

oh, and i started working on a little game. it’s what the majority of my time those first two days was spent doing; once i’d knocked out that creative hat trick, i dug into the programming mines for several hours, because i don’t know how to quit and i wanted to come out with something semi‍-​substantial even if it was supposed to be slop

and i liked working on the game. i liked working on it so much that on the third day, i only found it in me to focus on it. i liked it so much that for a few days in the row i was staying up late working on it, and then waking up on five or six hours of sleep and getting out of bed anyway because i couldn’t stop thinking of things to add. i liked it enough hunger doesn’t stop me from working and on at least one day, i ate nothing but four hashbrowns i tossed in the oven lol

and of course, i liked it enough that i’ve found it hard to step away and check tumblr or discord, or read new chapters of things. sorry about that.

but yeah, this was just a lil status update before i hop back in the mines.

that said i’m probably gonna need to figure out how to use to queue i dont overload people with a hundred posts in a row once i burn out and need to catch up on a week of backlog here lol

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

So I was watching a video about JJK and my brain inevitably came back to Corrupt Combustion, which lead me down a rabbit hole of thoughts, mostly focused on Adam. Specifically, his potential interactions with Uzi. After all, she is a decent enough threat to his plans, with her connection to Nori. But given her closeness to Doll (and whatever relationship they have with Uzi being watched by Yeva), it’s interesting to think about what might happen if he learns what she’s been up to with Alice. Because with everything he’s doing, him being a Solver Drone with impossible powers, Uzi’s going for the same goal without them. And she’s succeeding. (It’s ironic. Nori is fully capable of creating Black Boxes, but won’t. Her daughter is figuring out how to get around needing them.) Which lead my brain to spiral with the thought that maybe some of his experiments are based off her work. The Corruption Blaster (better name pending) is, at the very least, a lesson in what not to do. He wants to turn drones into weapons, yes, but having them explode is such a mess afterwards. Or maybe its the other way around, with Uzi finding one of his villain labs and taking cues from the experiments he did to improve her own work. After all, making a Black Box would make her goal a lot easier. Which then made my brain go “what if they worked together?” IDK I think Uzi should have more mentor figures who are villains.

• i’m still not “back” for anyone wondering
• i check my notifications here but i’m still focused on the game
• havent checked my dash in a week
• but maybe i should give up the idea of scrolling through everything i missed

i slither out from my den and flick my tongue in the now unfamiliar air

• can anyone hear me

Pushro, a puzzle roguelike demo

welp. after 18 days straight, i think i’ve hit my limit and i can’t keep working on the game without a mental breakdown.

it’s here if you wanna check it out. it’s like a block pushing puzzle game with randomly generated levels and some neat items and power ups

also slapped it on itch.io.

there’s no tutorial at the moment, which is a bit of a problem when the interface is this cryptic, especially if you arent fluent in the genres it’s combining.

i think it’s shaped up into something kinda neat, though this isn’t exactly the state i wanted to present it in. dont know how long it’ll be till i pick it up again, especially since i have no idea who even cares

may was pretty depressing for me so it was nice to spend a few weeks energized in a way i haven’t been in a while. not sure what to do now

time to go back to thinking about gay robots i think

everyone always says “words are hard” when it comes to talking about their feelings. but i’m great at words. putting feelings into words? i bet i’d totally get a good grade, trust me.

but no one ever talks about how hard it is to put the things that happen to you into feelings

why didnt anyone tell me depression was a physical debuff. i cant even take a walk the fuck is this shit

• i feel fine
• that’s a weird part
• but every movement feels weak n slow
• dont even have energy to sit up in my chair tbh

love how tumblr offers like four different ways to have a conversation with someone. there’s reblogging of course, which is fine. though woe to your followers if you have a big rapid back and forth they have to scroll through

then there’s talking through tags which keeps things on the down low but it does feel weird to keep reblogging the same thing with different tags

then there’s replies under the post if you wanna hide even further out of sight and type into a tiny featureless textbox.

then there’s dming someone which pales in comparison to a dedicated chat platform and somehow feels even more cramped than replies

i haven’t used communities yet but it’s the safest bet in the world it’s gonna be its own kind of scuffed

light the stove. it’s time to corrupt some combustion

favorite thing in the world is having one character interrupt another, making dialogue look naturalistic and fast‍-​paced when the truth is you have no idea what else there for the first to say, or even how to finish the sentence

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Wait. Uzi doesn’t activate a core driver. Yeva can tell who’s able to activate. She and Nori attempted to make a black box ‍-​ and are masterclasses at getting rid of them.

Nori, did you do what I think you did?

i’m tired.

Compression & Extraction

this isn’t what i wanted to write. i was going to finally talking about the citadel incident (and in the process, finally reveal what Uzi gets up to right before everything blows up). but it turns out to talk about the citadel incident, you must first invent the universe. i share part of the blame, i admit‍ ‍‍—‍ i’d decided i wanted this to be completely comprehensive, obviously i should begin where CC proper begins and cover everything.

i ran out of gas multiple arcs away from the citadel incident. this covers like, the arrival of the disaster drones, corpse spire siege, and the first major sequence of the blackhat suppression campaign.

admittedly, part of why i’m stopping here is that there’s a unplanned development right there at the end and i kinda wanna know what people think about it before i figure out how to tie it into the plans

(what’s left? the advance placement tournament arc, uzi retrieval arc, the nameless and the dead arc, the false power arc (luckily i’ve already written that one), and then i think that’s all the guns loaded for the citadel firing squad)

(…the real tragedy is that i stopped right before the juzi corruption starts >.<)

so yeah. sorry, but you get 15k words of recap, setup, and unnecessary scenes. payoff? answers? what are those.

i guess it might be a okay starting point if you have no idea what corrupt combustion is?

btw while reorging the cc pages on my site, i discovered there was a 4k word juzi outline[Rampant Regressionism] i think i wrote and only ever showed one person? what the…

i wonder if it’s any good. i have almost no memory of this

sometimes it feels like i have a big dial labeled “me” that i turn up a little higher before looking back at the audience and waiting for someone to tell me to keep going

and sometimes it feels like i havent touched that dial in a long, long time