entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Any tips on writing Juzi would be nice to see (planning a fun scene in SKN)

good timing‍ ‍‍—‍ i was actually just about to hit submit on a reblog where this was asked in the tags, but this works better as a standalone post.

took so long to respond because i underslept yesterday because i kinda feel that, while there’s many areas of writing i’m good at giving advice on, characters are one area where it’s all intuition for me right now. but here’s a few thoughts

the number one insight that made relationships in general click for me is the understanding that it’s all about emotional needs. the core of any relationship isn’t whether they like each other, or whether they have chemistry, or whether they do anything else that couples conventionally do. it’s answering the question “what do they get out of this relationship?”

could be validation, respect, a sense of security, even just having fun, but i find it clarifies things to be able to frame it as “this character needs something, and that character provides it”

there’s a fair amount of room to flesh out J’s character to whatever works for you story. in terms of what’s established, it’s not groundbreaking, but you can understand a lot of what she needs through the lens of middle management. she simultaneously wants to have someone above her and someone beneath her, smugly obedient or smugly superior, but always smug.

this isn’t all of her character‍ ‍‍—‍ her humansona drawing is very suggestive of a repressed drive for expression and individuality‍ ‍‍—‍ but i think it’s the easiest part to relate to Uzi.

because Uzi is a lot easier to get a read on. the text all but announces what motivates her: she wants respects. the edgy teen assertions, acting out in class‍ ‍‍—‍ she badly wants recognition. (i think deep down, it’s partly cope and she needs affection more, which N provides, but this isn’t a post about nuzi). she also has a drive to for expressing individuality, but she’s far less repressed about it (though of course, being loudly unconventional gets in the way of the whole recognition and respect thing).

and again, this isn’t all of her character‍ ‍‍—‍ her quest for answers about her mother suggests a drive for meaning, purpose even‍ ‍‍—‍ but this post isn’t exhaustive

the thing is, you can see the resonance, but these pieces don’t fit together. i think it’s easy enough to see the ideal form of the relationship. it’s mutual respect, it’s Uzi knowing J is proud of her accomplishments and who she is, and J knowing Uzi thinks she’s doing a good job or that Uzi will listen to her orders.

but the thing that makes J/Uzi so interesting and spicy is how much it doesn’t work. even along their most compatible axis, you can see a much more likely outcome is a rivalry, each wanting spite and outdo (or undo) the other. J would want to slot Uzi in as her underling, which Uzi reject conforming to. and given the things that J takes pride in‍ ‍‍—‍ efficient, orderly adherence to rules‍ ‍‍—‍ can you imagine Uzi complimenting that?

a very concise way to put it is an old joke of mine. J/Uzi is a mutual superposition of “i hate her, she’s fucking insufferable, but i can fix her” and “she thinks she’s so much better than me, but i can make her worse”

• i wrote this as a general purpose post but you’ve got a pretty clever setup that sidesteps some of the issues. so good work there

receiving dozens of boops but the boop button doesnt work for me. i am so powerless.

brain still fried after the mania off finished the gigachapter. doctor has prescribed yuri fluff. pharmacy had none :c

i was minding my own business today, idly thinking to myself, “as far as md fanfiction writers go, i like to think i’m pretty good!”

then i read As Above, So Below

it’s been sitting complete for over a year, which is both a respectable achievement but also a bit of a shame, since that means it’s a bit buried on ao3 as a result

i can’t say it’s stolen the title of my favorite, but it’s genuinely some of the best writing i’ve encountered, and not just in this fandom. breathtaking metaphors, heart‍-​wrenching character writing, and a unique and intriguing premise set years after the events of the show (note that it came before ep4). uzi has become a badass, hardened fighter and the rest of the cast has matured in their own way. the solver is running out of hosts, but outpost‍-​3 is running out of resources.

go read it!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/43721221

when the author likes my fic

hear me out

nori/yeva old woman yuri but they’re both heart core creatures

• i keep saying i dont ship these two
• but i think the propaganda is subverting me

Anonymous asked:

So I’m writing a fanfic for a friend and I don’t exactly know how to do you have any recommendations on how to write one

i admit, i’m at a bit of a loss when it comes to giving advice to total beginners.

i think the first thing i’d point you two is the fimfiction.net writing guide

https://www.fimfiction.net/writing‍-​guide

the site is for My Little Pony fanfic, but the guide is general purpose and i think it’s the best instruction to get over the first hurdle in fanfiction, which is readable and idiomatic formatting.

when it comes to the broader aspects of writings‍ ‍‍—‍ coming up with ideas, polishing them to something good‍ ‍‍—‍ i know of short and beginner‍-​friendly resources, but the friendly ones aren’t short and the short ones aren’t beginner‍-​friendly

that you’re writing this fic for a friend makes it feel like the “sit down and read these 16 books cover to cover” is not the kind of time investment that would be appropriate for what you’re looking to achieve

(the vain thing would be to link my own writing guides here, but i think the kind of advice i’m comfortable giving personally is especially not beginner friendly)

i struggle to put this in a way that doesn’t sound condescending, but it’s been so long since i learned how to write that i find myself genuinely out of touch with what someone who doesn’t know how actually needs

if you thought HT’s pacing is rough, just know there was a random thad pov scene in chapter 14 that got cut. dont ask me what i was cooking there

the funniest part is that half my thinking was “i guess i’ll put this scene here because this chapter will probably be too short otherwise”

• this has been sitting in my drafts a few days
• i think i forgot to post lol

Anonymous asked:

So I developed a crush on my friend and I’m scared I don’t know what to do if I should stop talking to them or what I don’t know what to do

not sure why i’m the one you ask; i have the relationship instincts of an aromantic amoeba. ironically, my sole‍ ‍‍—‍ unsuccessful ‍—relationship consists exactly of a friendship turned romantic because of a crush (not my own, though).

anyway, the ideal here is that you would just, y’know, talk about it. your feelings exist, and if they’re a good friend, they are going to be reasonable and understanding about it. you should be able to communicate frankly, doubly so if you actually want to be romantic with them.

but that kinda hinges on assuming the two of you will be mature about this, and if not, then i dunno. get the rock?

an under discussed phenomena in web fiction, especially when you don’t have a deadline holding you back, is standards creep

when “it gets better!” becomes not an observation, but an aspiration, like chasing Moore’s law.

there’s a creeping sense that each update has to push the envelope, be bigger and better than the last. praise begets a cycle (is it vicious or virtuous?) wherein the audience’s faith and hype must be earned and lived up to

so many things die from a lack of attention, but i wonder how many drowned in it

what if *bangs on theory keyboard like a monkey* tessa was a drone but from the same model as cyn. cyn was in the elliott’s dump because they threw her out when she malfunctioned, and then they bought tessa as a replacement

• im not cooking just microwaving fridge meat

apparently the juzi and general sapphic!uzi propaganda in Hostile Takeover is so strong that one guy reading the fic before watching the show caused him to straight up not parse N & Uzi as romantic

Anonymous asked:

Will you ever write vuzi

wait i never posted this Hostile Takeover meme here

(spoilers, ofc)

(based on a jjk meme)

‘show don’t tell’ has an insane grip on my brain dude, it’s poison. whenever i have to convey information in any but the most roundabout way it’s so embarrassing. like hi, this is what happened & this is what these characters feeling. just kill me now

“what’s a cog to do but turn?” i say to myself as i once again slam my nose to the grindstone pursuing tasks no one is demanding of me with workaholic abandon to fulfill promises i never spoke aloud

while i can relate to years of experience meaning my first drafts come out just fine, i have some mixed feelings on some of the advice. this babble and prune model of the drafting process, “write cringe, edit serious” is very common advice. lowering standards is definitely my number one tip i’d give to those experiencing writers block, after handling bodily needs (i say, while currently starving). i think about this quote from the Angry GM sometimes:

Everything must be good enough. And that means that they spend a lot of their time shooting their own ideas down. When it comes time to create something‍ ‍‍—‍ especially when they have to do it on the fly‍ ‍‍—‍ they end up killing lots of potentially interesting, potentially exciting, potentially fun, perfectly normal things. And if you do that long enough, eventually, you’re not using a pump shotgun anymore. Eventually, you’ve got a machine gun. Or worse, an automated turret. Eventually, you don’t even see the idea slaughter. You just sit at the other end of the killing field waiting for a good idea to emerge. But nothing does. And you don’t know why. So, you conclude you suck at being creative.

the inner editor chomping at the bit instead of waiting their turn is a failure mode. but there’s one line in OP’s post, another commonly repeated bit of wisdom, that i think i finally have the words to push back against

It is far, far easier to fix slop than it is to try and perfect as you go.

and i disagree, if not emphatically, then at least pointed, and with a particular caveat. i would say instead that you should put down unedited slop if and only if you can actually trust yourself to fix it later. and that’s a skill, one not everyone has. the anchoring effect is a killer. if you struggle to kill your darlings, then i hate to say it, but writers’ block is actually adaptive‍ ‍‍—‍ putting down a sloppy idea early genuinely can come at the opportunity cost of locking you mentally out of better ideas. the answer, of course, is to learn how to edit mercilessly‍ ‍‍—‍ but the advice should be given. it shouldn’t be assumed. i dont know. i suppose this advice gets repeated so much because it’s just genuinely true for most people‍ ‍‍—‍ and i simply happen to sit at the very narrow intersection of being skeptical of my writing’s quality (not uncommon) while not at all hating it. whenever i write something, i know with near‍-​certainty i’ll come back to it tomorrow and think it’s pretty alright, rarely having more than a few tweaks to give it, a little extra polish and push, and then it smells fine. and the question haunts me: did i write this because i think it’s good? or do i think it’s good because i wrote it?

if i reblog something and you enjoy it, it was for you btw

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Imagine ‍-​ a roachbug Doll sent to spy on the disassembly drones was near the door when J and Uzi kissed. Later, Doll and Lizzy are going through the footage and they find it.

the funniest answer would be Lizzy going “Hot. pause Not hot? We’re way better than them.”

…actually, come to think of it, seeing that would probably bluescreen them. because it’s like 1) mm lesbiab, 2) but it’s uzi. and she’s being annoying about it, 3) well, at least someone is putting in her place 4) wait that’s a murder drone, 5) why is uzi going along with it?? 6) did i mention lesbiab

doll’s pov in particular is funny, since doll and uzi fumbled each other. so doll’s definitely not jealous. on two levels, actually‍ ‍‍—‍ since if the roach sees them flying off, doll gets to see j getting permission to drink oil, which, y’know, lizzy never gave.

that roachbot would be a weapon’s grade instrument of psychic damage. probably the only answer is to destroy it and never speak of this.

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

now my brain is caught on the idea that Doll knows Uzi didn’t die to J and in fact made out with tongue, and she finds Khan mourning his daughter and has to decide if she should tell him

tired but all my ways of relaxing require more energy than i have. what the fuck do i do now

when you think about it, personalized recommendation algorithms are just search engines where you arent allowed to set to set the options. pretty bad design imo.

why do i have to get superstitious about what i engage with i dont trip invisible flags that throw everything off. why do i have to babysit a glorified spreadsheet instead of just being able to tell it what i want. why did we let it come to this

bedlam‍-​moon reblogged:

this meshes interestingly against my thoughts on friends as personalized recommendation algorithms

spent a bit trying to words it out and idk how, but there’s a lot of “oh friend is doing a thing, cool” (ponders: is thing a thing i want to do?)

even for like. life stuff.

maybe it’s the [motion]? recommendation algorithms are… ~static? not really, but definitely more so than people

things become more meaningful when they involve people. knowing that my friends are engaged in something immediately makes it matter more than a proposal that emerged from the ether imo

“solverlilies” nova was right there. yori was right there. we will not escape samsara

• i admire the improvements to compression
• it’s nice when people try to make things better
• instead of being stuck with the state of the art from literal decades ago
• “that’s the post” it says as it puts the rest of the post in the tags

stibnitewires asked:

im in the middle of reading hostile takeover (chapter 8, actually) and i LOVE how you characterize all the murder drones, especially J. You have a good balance for them all and highlight the issues in their teamwork, it’s so fun to read

thank you so much ^_

it’s fun trying to find the angle to portray all them, especially J surprised me with how much i ended up enjoying writing her. all the more rewarding to hear that it works for other people

i get a little excited whenever i see people reaching that point in the fic, because i feel it’s place where the setup is done and the fic really hits its stride

(a part of me is surprised to hear it’s a fun read‍ ‍‍—‍ i’ve spent so long worried that my writing is so slow and dense that even people who enjoy it find it a slog, but maybe i’ve finally gotten a lil bit better about that.)

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

If we’re talking about how good hostile takeover is, it’s the fic that got me into murder drones in the first place. Without it I wouldn’t be here. Here’s to more Juzi!

i feel a lil bad asking this right when a lot of people are excited for hostile takeover, but for financial reasons, i might need to start putting some of my energy into more serious original projects again.

i’m not pausing HT‍ ‍‍—‍ i don’t think i could stop thinking about those lezbots if i tried‍ ‍‍—‍ but being able to take breaks to work on other things tends to be good for my energy levels in general.

and honestly, when i first started, i thought HT itself was just going to be a quick break from those projects, and now i’m four months in and my plans keep growing >.>

anyway, the purpose of this post is that i wanted to gauge interest. i know most people follow me for murder drones stuff, but do any of the original stories i’m considering interest you?

more detailed pitches for each of these can be found under the cut. honesty is appreciated.

Which story sounds coolest? (see below)

Final result from 15 votes

Option	Votes
None / I don’t read origfic / Show results	6.7%
Aurora Moonrise (epic fantasy; a comet learns about friendship through violence)	13.3%
Thy Wretched Mask (horror fantasy; cannibalism and fungal possession)	6.7%
Running Out of Skin & Time (“superhero” fantasy; time loops, complex magic)	26.7%
A Chimerical Hope (epic fantasy; insect ninjas unravel deep schemes)	13.3%
I love reading anything / Whatever you’re most passionate about	26.7%
I’m a diehard fan holding out for an obscure project to continue (tag or reply?)	6.7%

a note before i pitch them‍ ‍‍—‍ when i write original fiction, i post it to my site and a site for original fiction called royalroad. i’ll probably reserve my ao3 account for, yknow, fanfiction.

the plan is that while the stories will eventually be available publically, supporters to my patreon will get to read several chapters ahead of everyone else.

Aurora Moonrise

pitching this one is hard, because the most interesting thing about is a twist reveal at the end of the first arc. at first, you can see it’s framed to suggest‍ ‍‍—‍ and Aurora initially believes‍ ‍‍—‍ her mother is a “daughter of the moon”, but of course, she’s actually a comet.

as the poll option suggests, her inhuman heritage makes urges her to fight and hinders her ability to understand the basics of human social interaction.

this would be a long story, lighter in tone than the others, and structured like a fantasy trilogy, about Aurora journeying across the land doing what she thinks heroes do. along the way, she picks up several party members with their own weird baggage. all of them girls, of course, and it gets very gay by the end‍ ‍‍—‍ but it’s slow going because, yknow, aurora doesn’t understand romance, either.

i’m very excited about this project‍ ‍‍—‍ just thinking about it is enough to get me bouncing. you can actually read the prologue and four teaser chapters right now, and i have over 70k words of notes past that, with the whole thing outlined start to finish.

Thy Wretched Mask

once again, the most interesting parts of this are a surprise. Beca isn’t human; she’s saddled predatory instincts she doesn’t understand. the “fungal possession” comes into play several chapters in. it gets intense enough that i believe it’s one of the few times i’ve teared up while writing something, and it’s so far the first and only time i’ve written something that explores topics of plurality, which is pretty personal to us

i say HT is the first time i’ve written romance (and it is), but TWM came close, and would have gotten even closer if i continued it.

i’ve already written over 20k words of this (unpublished), but due to the writing exercise it began as, it requires substantial rewrites; i cringe when i try to reread it, and it honestly makes the prospect of returning a bit unexciting.

this would probably only about the length of a novel. (original projection was novella length, but i think i want to flesh it out more.)

of all of my potential projects, i think this one is probably the biggest thematic overlap with Hostile Takeover. but uh, it’s dark enough to make that look like a sappy romance >.<

Running Out of Skin & Time [WIP]

of all the options, this story is the least well flesh out (no pun intended), but it has a lot of potential. a “time loop” where a character relives the same day over and over is something not enough stories explore well

(if it means anything to you, the inspiration for this fic was literally just thinking “what if the Shibuya Incident was a time loop?”)

i call this “superhero fantasy” because, while i havent figured out the tech level (it’s industrial, but how modern?), the magic system gives everyone unique and specific abilities that are easiest to imagine as superpowers.

the time loop effect itself is the rube goldberg interaction of half a dozen powers, and part of the fic is puzzling out just how it works, as well as puzzling out how to overcome the various powers arrayed against the lord.

it would be a very complex, cerebral fic, all about power progression and fight scenes, but at its heart, i want it to be the story of two dead girls who love each other enough to unravel fate itself

A Chimerical Hope

unlike all of the others, this isn’t an idea for a story, or a plan for a story, it is a story, one i’ve written 100k words for. you can read it right now

it’s set in an expansive setting i’ve spent literal years thinking about with giant insects empowered by virulent mutant bat blood and cold black corruption pouring out from a hole in the sky.

it’s also, shamelessly, only avoids being called naruto fanfiction by dint of sheer weirdness

Aurora Moonrise may be the story i’m most excited about, but ACH is the one with the most ambition and purpose behind it. if i could only ever tell one story in my life, it’d probably make it ACH. it might be over a million words if i ever finish it

but i also think it’s probably too weird to get very popular.

if you can’t tell already, i have a LOT of story ideas. before i ever watched murder drones, would you believe i was literally already working on a story about killer lesbian robots on a inhospitable frozen planet haunted by a creeping cosmic horror? not joking[Circuits of Ice and Iron]

and i’m kind of tempted to work on a story about modular mushroom creatures that live underground. (Fruiting Body, Rotting Soul [WIP]) or a fricken pokemon mystery dungeon self‍-​insert i’ve already finished one chapter of. (Frozen Dominion)

and of course, i have several other stories i could continue working on…

but like, the stories i’ve listed are the ones i can honestly say i might work on right now. and, practically speaking, the stories that might genuinely takeoff, if i dare hope.

shipping j/cyn purely because cyn’s motivation being to get revenge for uzi killing her girlfriend is comedy gold

after some reflection i figured out why i’ve started to dislike V

i dont think i can cog mentality grindset my way out of this one girls.. i might be genuinely mentally unwell rn

• but we stay silly
• right?

i have no context for the cyn cargo shorts thing and at this point i think it’s funnier if i remain puzzled

yall must’ve posted fire last night. tumblr does not want to let me scroll down my dash. im dying

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

J says pray to Uzi if anything bad happens in the merch video Do with that what you will

• who are we kidding
• it’d be both

juzi nation do u love me enough to forgive what i’m gonna do in Corrupt Combustion? it’s definitely treason…

• me constructing the most byzantine rube goldberg plot with every lever aimed to push the ‘being uzi is suffering’ button

what does it take to get better at writing prose? what are all those rules for, anyway? i share a few thoughts about the process of improvement, dress it up in some metaphors. this one’s shorter and a bit more meandering than usual, but i have a couple interesting ideas to share

Stylistic Annealing

a little bit embarrassed of this one, to be honest, but i figure people aren’t following me because they don’t want to hear my thoughts.

it just occurred to me

people probably think about stories they’ve read?

like, when i’m in the shower or out for a walk, my brain obsessively turns over my own projects

and there’s probably a type of person that will speculate about what happens next in a story they’re invested in, or retread their memory of something they loved

and i guess this is how people have inspiration to like, discuss and theorize things?

• instead i just stare into my beautiful reflection

Anonymous asked: : Is there going to be a chapter anytime soon or is it going to take longer

nope.

i’ve had Esoteric Surgery sitting with four thousand words of notes for more than a month (yes, before i’d even finished 13 or 14). between burnout, financial stress, and wondering how the hell i’m supposed to follow up the best chapter in the fic, i haven’t even opened the doc since posting the last chapter

i could go back to 2023 posting rates, but then we’d go back to 2023 quality and i’d rather not, at least not until the cyn arc wraps up

• suspiciously corrupt combustion shaped gap in my upload schedule:

kind of unhinged how tumblr’s endless scroll breaks sometimes. try to go back up and it glitches you back to where you were

social media said you will scroll down and you will be happy

how will oneshot authors ever know the indescribable joys and sorrows, the splendor & misery, of devoting fourteen months of your life to a project, and then after monumental toil, finally stepping away, leaving it unfinished & never touching or mentioning it again

the perilous tightrope of tryna be self‍-​deprecating without shooting strays

disappeared into the writing dimension for many hours yesterday. now i am back to read 28 hours of tumblr dash like a morning newspaper. good lord the lesbians are at it again

yall im tempted to make a sideblog for dragon stuff. the wof brainworms are coming at me something fierce

never had a proper hyperfixation on that shit maybe this was a long time coming

• ngl would not have predicted astore being the first headmate to get her own blog

i’m sorry i kissed you during the epic life‍-​or‍-​death culmination of our rivalry. it just sort of happened. i didnt mean it. i still want to be enemies. please. do you hate me

• yeah i’ve been writing more juzi how can you tell

ok so i have a reputation for long winded yaps but i have utterly outdone myself this week

the good: i’ve been writing. a lot.

the bad: it’s not Hostile Takeover

the ugly: it’s nuzi :]

really, the real problem is wasn’t trying to write something new at all. i had a lil plot bunny, and i was just going to summarize it for some friends on discord.

so i sat down, thought i’d spend on hour or two writing up an explanation, the broad strokes outline, and share it with them.

i ended up writing all evening without finishing. then went back the next day, wrote all evening, again without finishing. next day it was my friends birthday, so i was out of the house. but i came back with a vengence and spent all day writing ten thousand words (!). oh, did you think i’d finish? haha. came back the next day, still not done. on the fifth day, i was sure it would conclude. i got right up to the end, and it took till today to finally finish up the epilogue‍-​y bits.

now i just need to proofread and maybe tweak some things.

and hope my friends won’t kill me for making them readin 35k of brain dump.

anyway. i genuinely have no idea what to do?

because like. this is not written with the fidelity of my usual writing. it is a summary, a sketch, a rough draft. the “finished” version of this fic could easily exceed 100k words.

and like. i’m tired boss. i don’t feel like writing another Hostile Takeover. and i’m not sure i can even commit to that, and not just slowly stop writing halfway through like with everything i’ve tried.

(and this would be a terrible story to die halfway through‍ ‍‍—‍ i call it nuzi, but there are some big twists and if i don’t get to them i’ll explode. it takes a while, but believe me, you’d understand why i would write this >:3)

i don’t even know if want to put that much effort into it. i like it, but do i like it enough to devote months to it? not sure.

but it is pretty good, if you trust me saying so. some of the sections already hit pretty hard. i kind of think i ought to share this with people, whatever state it ultimately ends up in.

but i don’t know.

is anyone interested in reading this and giving feedback maybe?

sometimes the side hustle aint a hustle. sometimes it is large scale financial fraud

An Opaque Heart

Spend too long in the dark, and light is blinding, even painful. Uzi’s lived a life neglected and alone, but N’s smile could brighten any darkness.

Locked out of Outpost‍-​3, the two of them face the world side by side. His squad leader wants him dead, and J won’t leave a job unfinished. Can they escape her wrath? It would be easy to fly far away, but Uzi needs to know who her mother was. Knowledge is power, knowledge takes power, yet what is power good for but destroying things?

Try not to love everything you destroy.

35k words, a rough sketch for a longer fic. a lot of this is loose; open to feedback for tightening the plot, refining the accuracy of characters, but be kind

An Opaque Heart

and… i’m sorry.

random meme courtesy of a discord convo

between An Opaque Heart and Corrupt Combustion, if i published what i’ve been working on i would be tried for high treason in the courts of juzi nation. my days are numbered

nuzi empire would probably hunt me for sport. where do i even go? seek dizzy asylum? slum it up with the roving purple malice gangs?

• oh the consequences of my actions
• have mercy

entitiy‍-​4 replied:

Letting you know i would testify Opaque heart is peak Juzi

me: *literally trying to betray juzi nation*

juzi fans: wow it’s just like Scorpions & Drought

purrple‍-​bat reblogged:

• definite peak juzi even if uzi doesn’t feel as much for J
• was gonna say go for Noll resort
• but than i had the evil thought of noll in an opaque heart
• and that would genuinely get you killed by nuzi fans

hard pills to the swallow: it would be the good ending. i’m not even necessarily a noll person

like uzi, babygirl, maybe you can fix this but i don’t know if you should

there was a joke i made, before i finished figuring out the direction AOH would go‍ ‍‍—‍ that i’m threatening to make envy viable, not by overcoming trauma but by creating more

you ever interact with mildly interesting person and just go “you are a strange creature and i want to hunt you for sport.”

what if the reason i dont like nuzi and vuzi is because i resent the fact that it’s possible so easy for them to be happy

• being a juzi fan will teach you about faith

guy who doesn’t see j & n’s relationship as abusive because they look at how n shrugs things off and stays chipper and is like “he’s just like me fr. and i’m fine so. 😎”

• not a guy but it’s me lowkey
• also what fuck is happening in md‍-​confessions

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

For the Cyn/Uzi/J thing ‍-​ I’m tempted to mess with that if I ever revisit snippets. Cyn may be interested in learning new emotions, but she’s looking for answers when we barely know anything about what separates that stuff.

manor cynjuzi is far more wholesome than what i was imagining. i was imagining a triple situationship brought together in the unbreakable bonds of three girls all trying to kill each other with each pair forming and betraying ever shifting alliances against the other one

…oh god. i just realized this fits in PERFECTLY with the juzi speedrun idea i had weeks ago. frickfrickfrick i cannot outline a new fic…

but yeah, i’m definitely piqued by the idea of this happening in the manor (and therefore with the possibility to be actually healthy :v).

something about the idea of cyn learning about emotions from the two such fine examples of introspection and expression feelings as j and uzi feels ripe for fun

anyway, here’s an idea. J clearly has artistic talent. Uzi has drawn blueprints and built stuff. cyn of course has wrought some strange creations.

what would these three working together unleash?

i need to finally start posting about corrupt combustion to beat the obsessed with juzi allegations

“does that mean it doesn’t have juzi” it has LESS

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Just realize that in HT Doll and Lizzy can do the “we aren’t friends anymore” “that’s the worst way to tell people we’re dating” bit Avatar

“new TADC” real ones are talking about the new alien biospheres. neotect gang rise up

still not a fan of TADC but i am a fan of specifically zooble gangle and bubble. goose really popped off with le characters specifically

• why cant we get more zooble please
• and critical support to jax honestly if i was stuck in this show i wouldnt give a shit either
• also kinda losing patience with pomni as a protag ngl

in chat, someone didn’t like elaborate ship names with a whole word for each member, like bloody violin or biscuit bites

this led me to conclusion that the best J/Uzi ship name is:

the insidious tendency of capitalism to subsume and reincorporate its own critique, commodifying internal contradictions

Anonymous asked:

hostile takeover is my favorite MD fic ever, and one of my favorite fics period (in no specific order). whenever you finish writing hostile takeover, do you plan to continue writing in the fandom out of curiosity?

thank you, always happy to hear my work sits among someone’s favorites

the answer to this has changed over time. initially, HT was supposed to be a test run for the fic i really wanted to write (but HT has long since eclipsed it in passion). still, a few months into writing HT i had grown so weary of the effort that i was genuinely uncertain i could bear to write another dronefic.

but alas, at this point there’s an undeniable answer to this question, and it’s that i don’t think i could stop writing dronefic if i tried.

right now, i have a 35k word complete rough draft for another fic, and i have 20‍-​30k words of notes and outlines for a rather ambitious AU, and if i added in what i just spent this evening writing it’d be even more embarrassing

i do want to shift my focus back to original writing, but it’s tempting to stay focused on the fandom when it’s the first place where people read my writing

as far as plans go, i plan to finish Hostile Takeover, and that’s it. i don’t know what i’m going to do with Corrupt Combustion or An Opaque Heart. i guess the simplest way to put it is i don’t want to write any more fics, but chances are more fics will want to be written

Anonymous asked:

I love your writing and the way you give depht to the characters! Hostile Takeover is one of my top favourite fics! I also read the draft of An Opaque Heart and it was so good!

There is something else you could share about the Corrupt Combustion? Or that story about Cyn and Uzi? I am oh so curious about them after the emotional devastation of An Opaque Heart!

fun fact: Corrupt Combustion is worse. or at least it might be; after writing AOH, i started wondering whether i really should write something even more bleak

but yeah, Corrupt Combustion is the story about Cyn and Uzi. or was, rather. it begin mutating when i made the connection that Cyn being stuck inside of Uzi, occasionally possessing her, kind of resembled a common trope of demons sealed in the protagonist you see in a bunch of anime. i kept thinking along these lines, and whoops, this AU is whole ass Jujutsu Kaisen fusion now.

(i recently read back over my original outline for Circuits Turn to Stone, the original Uzi & Cyn fic, and i don’t think it works as well with how much everything else has changed. i’m not sure if i’ll scrap it entirely, or rewrite it into a different story where Cyn’s influence drags Uzi into darkness, more of a horror/thriller with less fantastical action and complex mechanics. there’s a certain appeal to that, but i worry the stories are too similar, even as i rethink how CC should ultimately play out)

but enough waffling. what is Corrupt Combustion? you don’t actually need to know anything about JJK to understand it, i think.

Corrupt Combustion

the notes for this have been semi‍-​public for months now, but i’ve been dragging my feet in pointing people at it since i’m still unsure what i’m gonna do with it.

it’s also a little bit disorganized. a general overview of the mechanics is in this post:

this “prologue” is the newest thing i’ve written, it’s supposed to serve as a introduction to the plot

Deadlocked & Thrashing is technically the first thing i’ve written, and it was supposed to be a sort of prequel fic that sets up the events of the main plot, but it’s gotten so complicated that i think Beau might’ve become the real protagonist?

finally, the last post chronologically speaking is the backstory for Doll’s dad, and i think it’s probably the write up i’m proudest of.

one thing you may be thinking if you read all of that… where the heck is Uzi?

and i do have plans for her, big plans, but i’m keeping those cards close to my chest for now >:3

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Just finished reading your corrupt combustion notes and damn you cooked up another fucking banger!

Some of my favorite parts are J’s powers (of course), Nori’s whole vibe, the way you shine the spotlight on Beau, which I love that they’re kind of the main character here, with Cyn infesting them.

There’s also all the mysteries, like who’s giving the orders, what’s the solver’s final goal, how different is the solver from Cyn, and Nori’s whole backstory. I especially got caught on both Doll and Uzi ‍-​ they’re getting along! Go them! But also the mystery of what they’re up to, and how it ends up. I wonder how many plot beats will come from JJK, how many from MD, and how many will you make yourself.

Speaking of Doll, I love what you did with Adam ‍-​ a tragic tale of losing yourself, and even when given the chance to turn away you don’t. Girl is probably gonna be devastated.

Not gonna lie, some of the parts of all your outlines feel like good enough writing to just put on AO3. Can’t wait to see what you do next, whether or not it involves Murder Drones!

thanks for reading! i’m glad you enjoyed

there’s quite a few plotlines i’m itching to do write ups for. i’m very proud of what i have in store for j and uzi. and that’s without getting into my thoughts on v & lizzy, or what i have planned for alice.

but most of all, nobody is prepared for the “pilot”‍ ‍‍—‍ which at this point, is such a byzantine clusterfuck the relation to episode one is in the manner of the ship of theseus

the problem with posting these outlines is that i get caught in a paradoxical spiral. if it’s good enough to post, then it’s good enough to polish. and the trouble with polishing, is that if i’m gonna sit down and check for typos, i might as well tighten up the wording here and there. if i’m gonna tighten up the wording, i might as well add a few more details for clarity and impact. if i’m adding details, well it’s kinda jarring if the fidelity is inconsistent, might as well flesh out the sparser sections too. if i turn this summary into a mini scene, i can add this cool character beat or i can foreshadow this plot point. and you know, if i reimagine this bit entirely, couldn’t i make it more dramatic, more inspired? if i can make it a little bit better, why not take it just one step further?

which all then just snaps back to “if i’m gonna post it, i might as well draw the rest of the owl” and it’s just. i don't know that's scary.png

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

I was thinking about CC again, and realized something very interesting ‍-​ Uzi, at the start of MD, doesn’t have solver powers. In terms of CC, it means she hasn’t undergone combustion. But given the nature of her parent’s work, she probably knows about how zombie drones work.

which leads to another interesting tech thing, if she tries to hunt zombies pre‍-​combustion ‍-​ she has to figure out how to detect them, which could come in a manner of ways, but would no doubt be something JCJ would want a look at. Avatar

one thing that didn’t make it into the outlines yet but i’ve been tossing around, is that instead of opening immediately on “nori’s average tuesday”, the very beginning of the fic is highly edited and redacted version of the “dead drones explode” exposition

then it scene breaks to uzi & doll giving a group presentation to the class. “And what have our parents done for the past forever while the world’s in a frickin zombie apocalypse? Hide our powers behind this lame as hell masquerade? Anyway, that’s why my project is this totally game‍-​changing error blaster!”

still workshopping the name, but the idea is it’s a gun that harnesses corruption to allow ordinary drones to damage zombie processes.

(thinking when i flush out uzi & doll’s first excursion, uzi might be still trying to find a source of corruption for the error blaster. doll ignites her core in the fight with the zombie, and that might be what lets her use the error blaster where uzi couldn’t)

that said, right now the notes are written as though solvers with unignited cores can still perceive corruption. (an easy to miss detail, but when doll & adam encounter the zombie, doll reacts and adam can’t perceive it).

(alice, though, does need a way to detect zombies. i was going to give her glasses, but a friend suggest perhaps this is what her antlers are for. like radio antennae)

anyway, i think it’s more interesting if pre‍-​ignition drones need a workaround to detect them, but it does present difficulties for the planned plot. because one of the major sources of tension is that even when the action is in full swing, no matter how many times uzi steps into the line of fire, she doesn’t initialize a core driver.

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

thinking about how Nori would react if she found out that Uzi was dating J and Cyn.

“You kissed a DISASSEMBLER?”

“Um, not just her.”

“WHAT”

so i was looking through the memes i made for one of my original settings and found this old one

see 2025 for explanation

today on my walk i daydreamed about two of my OCs having a big epic fight. it was so cool dude believe me, they kicked ass.

rainesontheside reblogged on 2024‍-​05‍-​14:

who won

Vela Versus Novus

…oh god wait a minute. i was thinking about black nerve’s mantis people and does the fluff/spike distinction[The Duality of Mantes] count as a species‍-​wide expectation of plurality

average system trying to write singlets i guess

• probably not tbh
• but they would Get it
• like right away

yeah reading bad fics sucks, but what if there was a decent fic with j as a prominent character but their grasp of J’s voice is just agonizing

• im wincing and averting my eyes so hard >.<

takeover status: ill‍-​wishing. aggressive. perhaps even.. hostile.

how it feels opening up that document after so many weeks

• it’s time to cook

how intensely do you have to silently scream before anyone hears? asking for me actually

• im not ok lol

“you’re obviously trolling, i won’t engage” have you considered that i need enrichment

everyone’s always like “to be healthy you need learn to when to step away”. to be healthy i need to rip and tear with my rhetorical teeth. do you understand

• being mad on the internet is the only emotion i’ve felt in weeks
• i can feel my heart beating again

hm… i like my friends actually

• why does this feel like a revelation

yeah sure the agonies of the cross mightve sucked

but have you ever gone back to a beloved WIP, a fruit of your greatest passion, and discovered that it’s actually pretty mid

my world is crumbling ;~;

• black nerve i love you
• but i dont know if i can save you

when someone offers you a hug, don’t accept. for best results, keep it in your inventory till you hit a really hard boss fight and you’re getting low on hp. it won’t heal you then either but you’ll want a hug after you lose

oh yeah i forgot to post this here, but after eight months i finally wrote another chapter of Aurora Moonrise. (the ‘what if comets were inhuman spirits’ fic i talk about sometimes). this chapter required writing a common trope and couldn’t figure out how to handle it in a way i liked

and then it rained heavily with ear splitting thunder which turned out to be exactly the inspiration i needed.

5: Flash iv: To Drown With a Smile

mixed feelings about this WIP, so writing more of it isn’t a priority, but it’s refreshing to go back to something i can write a whole chapter of in a day and be done with. (next HT chapter is already three times and long and not even halfway done 💀)

i’m not saying i’m gonna write the sequel to An Opaque Heart but god, how do i keep coming up with ways to make their lives even worse

• is the engine of A Birefringent Mind me going ‘hey wouldnt it be fucked up if’
• i’m not saying the answer is yes
• jokes aside i think the real reason i’m not chomping at the bit to write
• i killed off so many characters i’d need to introduce a bunch of OCs to have a plot

need me a girl who’ll read my mind & give me everything i need without me needing to express any vulnerability or step outside my incredibly aloof comfort zone

• “…and you’ll do the same right?” there is a reason i’m single

bedlam‍-​moon reblogged:

• ht is bn prequel confirmed

unironically i’ve thought that ‘drone oil is made from enervate, solver is just vespers’ actually goes pretty hard as a crossover.

probably the only reason i’m not actually rotating a black nerve drones fic in my head is that i’m not sure what point i could make with it, and black nerve doesn’t actually have iconic characters who could bounce off of copper‍-​9 in an interesting way.

…although, inverting this, and imagining the cast of murder drones rocketship isekai‍-​ing into the heartlands, that actually is opening my third eye a little

banyanas posted:

there is something entertaining abt figuring out how the fuck to make the v/doll corner of the toxic yuri robopolycule work.

just realized in Corrupt Combustion i have the power to make unnamed detective drone relevant

in case anyone’s been wondering where i’ve been, the short version is that at the end of last month, i had a single thought:

i had been struggling to get anything productive done for a few weeks at that point. my solution? if doing one thing is too hard, why not do all the things?

sounds stupid but it kinda worked? i was going to call it my ‘slop era’, where i just get things done even if the output was low effort nonsense. the first two days, i wrote a few pages of a new story[Devouring Inane / Regent Kindred] (which turned out kind of interesting), got a few sketches done, and composed two simple tracks.

oh, and i started working on a little game. it’s what the majority of my time those first two days was spent doing; once i’d knocked out that creative hat trick, i dug into the programming mines for several hours, because i don’t know how to quit and i wanted to come out with something semi‍-​substantial even if it was supposed to be slop

and i liked working on the game. i liked working on it so much that on the third day, i only found it in me to focus on it. i liked it so much that for a few days in the row i was staying up late working on it, and then waking up on five or six hours of sleep and getting out of bed anyway because i couldn’t stop thinking of things to add. i liked it enough hunger doesn’t stop me from working and on at least one day, i ate nothing but four hashbrowns i tossed in the oven lol

and of course, i liked it enough that i’ve found it hard to step away and check tumblr or discord, or read new chapters of things. sorry about that.

but yeah, this was just a lil status update before i hop back in the mines.

that said i’m probably gonna need to figure out how to use to queue i dont overload people with a hundred posts in a row once i burn out and need to catch up on a week of backlog here lol

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

So I was watching a video about JJK and my brain inevitably came back to Corrupt Combustion, which lead me down a rabbit hole of thoughts, mostly focused on Adam. Specifically, his potential interactions with Uzi. After all, she is a decent enough threat to his plans, with her connection to Nori. But given her closeness to Doll (and whatever relationship they have with Uzi being watched by Yeva), it’s interesting to think about what might happen if he learns what she’s been up to with Alice. Because with everything he’s doing, him being a Solver Drone with impossible powers, Uzi’s going for the same goal without them. And she’s succeeding. (It’s ironic. Nori is fully capable of creating Black Boxes, but won’t. Her daughter is figuring out how to get around needing them.) Which lead my brain to spiral with the thought that maybe some of his experiments are based off her work. The Corruption Blaster (better name pending) is, at the very least, a lesson in what not to do. He wants to turn drones into weapons, yes, but having them explode is such a mess afterwards. Or maybe its the other way around, with Uzi finding one of his villain labs and taking cues from the experiments he did to improve her own work. After all, making a Black Box would make her goal a lot easier. Which then made my brain go “what if they worked together?” IDK I think Uzi should have more mentor figures who are villains.

• i’m still not “back” for anyone wondering
• i check my notifications here but i’m still focused on the game
• havent checked my dash in a week
• but maybe i should give up the idea of scrolling through everything i missed

i slither out from my den and flick my tongue in the now unfamiliar air

• can anyone hear me

Pushro, a puzzle roguelike demo

welp. after 18 days straight, i think i’ve hit my limit and i can’t keep working on the game without a mental breakdown.

it’s here if you wanna check it out. it’s like a block pushing puzzle game with randomly generated levels and some neat items and power ups

also slapped it on itch.io.

there’s no tutorial at the moment, which is a bit of a problem when the interface is this cryptic, especially if you arent fluent in the genres it’s combining.

i think it’s shaped up into something kinda neat, though this isn’t exactly the state i wanted to present it in. dont know how long it’ll be till i pick it up again, especially since i have no idea who even cares

may was pretty depressing for me so it was nice to spend a few weeks energized in a way i haven’t been in a while. not sure what to do now

time to go back to thinking about gay robots i think

everyone always says “words are hard” when it comes to talking about their feelings. but i’m great at words. putting feelings into words? i bet i’d totally get a good grade, trust me.

but no one ever talks about how hard it is to put the things that happen to you into feelings

why didnt anyone tell me depression was a physical debuff. i cant even take a walk the fuck is this shit

• i feel fine
• that’s a weird part
• but every movement feels weak n slow
• dont even have energy to sit up in my chair tbh

love how tumblr offers like four different ways to have a conversation with someone. there’s reblogging of course, which is fine. though woe to your followers if you have a big rapid back and forth they have to scroll through

then there’s talking through tags which keeps things on the down low but it does feel weird to keep reblogging the same thing with different tags

then there’s replies under the post if you wanna hide even further out of sight and type into a tiny featureless textbox.

then there’s dming someone which pales in comparison to a dedicated chat platform and somehow feels even more cramped than replies

i haven’t used communities yet but it’s the safest bet in the world it’s gonna be its own kind of scuffed

light the stove. it’s time to corrupt some combustion

favorite thing in the world is having one character interrupt another, making dialogue look naturalistic and fast‍-​paced when the truth is you have no idea what else there for the first to say, or even how to finish the sentence

entitiy‍-​4 asked:

Wait. Uzi doesn’t activate a core driver. Yeva can tell who’s able to activate. She and Nori attempted to make a black box ‍-​ and are masterclasses at getting rid of them.

Nori, did you do what I think you did?

i’m tired.

Compression & Extraction

this isn’t what i wanted to write. i was going to finally talking about the citadel incident (and in the process, finally reveal what Uzi gets up to right before everything blows up). but it turns out to talk about the citadel incident, you must first invent the universe. i share part of the blame, i admit‍ ‍‍—‍ i’d decided i wanted this to be completely comprehensive, obviously i should begin where CC proper begins and cover everything.

i ran out of gas multiple arcs away from the citadel incident. this covers like, the arrival of the disaster drones, corpse spire siege, and the first major sequence of the blackhat suppression campaign.

admittedly, part of why i’m stopping here is that there’s a unplanned development right there at the end and i kinda wanna know what people think about it before i figure out how to tie it into the plans

(what’s left? the advance placement tournament arc, uzi retrieval arc, the nameless and the dead arc, the false power arc (luckily i’ve already written that one), and then i think that’s all the guns loaded for the citadel firing squad)

(…the real tragedy is that i stopped right before the juzi corruption starts >.<)

so yeah. sorry, but you get 15k words of recap, setup, and unnecessary scenes. payoff? answers? what are those.

i guess it might be a okay starting point if you have no idea what corrupt combustion is?

btw while reorging the cc pages on my site, i discovered there was a 4k word juzi outline[Rampant Regressionism] i think i wrote and only ever showed one person? what the…

i wonder if it’s any good. i have almost no memory of this

sometimes it feels like i have a big dial labeled “me” that i turn up a little higher before looking back at the audience and waiting for someone to tell me to keep going

and sometimes it feels like i havent touched that dial in a long, long time