Serpentine Squiggles

2025-09-304.4k words

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2025‍-​09‍-​01
in this economy you’ve gotta have a fuck around family and a found out family
2025‍-​09‍-​01
ice girls, water girls, or cloud girls. what is the ideal state of girl.
2025‍-​09‍-​01

being surrounded by insect lovers has warped my perspective. i was talking to someone who didnt like cockroaches, even when i mentioned the existence of hissers or the more colorful species, and then i tried “you know, termites are a kind of cockroach” believing that this (fascinating) fact would make them more endearing

(it did not)

2025‍-​09‍-​02
when he’s right like a stopped clock, call that a truth fluke
2025‍-​09‍-​02
client is doing their best to get the next chapter ready for me to review before silksong drops
2025‍-​09‍-​03
the only asexual mathematician (the other guys are fucking your numbers)
2025‍-​09‍-​03
this came up in a chatroom so i’m curious. what does the eyes emoji (👀) mean? clearly it communicates capturing someone’s attention, but do you feel the represents “pre‍-​interest” or “post‍-​interest”? is it saying “ooh, i’ll take a look” or “ooh, that’s cool”?
what does 👀 mean?
Final result from 6 votes
OptionVotes
interest in looking at someting33.3%
interest from looking at something66.7%
i don’t speak emoji / view results0%
2025‍-​09‍-​03
fungus girl spreading for you
2025‍-​09‍-​03
it’s funny that the backlash against saying “it’s not your fault” in response to “i’m sorry” (as if it misunderstands an expression of sympathy for one of contrition) might actual misunderstand an expression of reassurance for one of absolution. it’s nice to hear, and the both of you can come out of it feeling better
2025‍-​09‍-​03
nothing that unsettles me more than hearing someone say “thank you for always being there” while i’m mentally eyeing the exits. realizing that people have come to rely on me‍ ‍‍—‍ as if i’m not prepared to make a break for it at any minute
2025‍-​09‍-​03
realizing i dislike receiving apologies because it generally indicates the person giving it is more upset than i am
  • “i’m sorry” oh great now i have to deal with your anxiety too
2025‍-​09‍-​03
i will walk backwards into society
2025‍-​09‍-​03
society is other people
2025‍-​09‍-​03
tbh writing gets harder when you’re good at it bc at least when you suck you’re supposed to suck. when you don’t then you’re comparing everything you do to your best work and if you cant match that energy what are you doing
2025‍-​09‍-​03
tried to say “i’m going crazy” and “i’m stupid” at the same time and wound up with “i’m going stupid” which. yeah.
2025‍-​09‍-​03

meme inspired by my latest lua shenanigans

> for k,v in pairs(house) do print(k,v) end
senior_cop    keep searching.  i just know he's around here somewhere...
crawlspace    (window conspicuously open)
  basement    (guns & ammunition)
junior_cop    (the perp's gone without a trace! must have some incredible hiding spot
diningroom    (empty)
livingroom    (empty)
 masterbed    (empty)
> getmetatable(house).doge
they'll never search the metatable :^)

it has extra pockets :3

2025‍-​09‍-​03
i be on that glug glug glug type shit
2025‍-​09‍-​03
saw someone mention they were involved in cynder ship wars back on deviantart. what. how were there wars. there is only one port in that sea
2025‍-​09‍-​03
digging through old chatlogs, saving some old ideas. this one’s from right after the final episode dropped

i have been assailed with yet another AU idea

final battle ends in more of a stalemate. uzi triggers core collapse 2 or makes the planet destroying mat collection tendrils go haywire.

bottom line is, instead of imploding, the planet explodes

nothing but neighborhood‍-​city sized chunks floating off into the solar system uzi et al have to regroup and build a new society in space

not sure what happens to cyn, original idea was that she’s broken into fragments or rendered dormant, so the overarching plot is finding a new strat to beat before she’s back for the rematch

but writing it down now, it feels lot more interesting if it’s not just lead up to another cyn fight

…that said, the literal original basis of this idea was specifically “what if instead eating the planet, Cyn tried to turned it into a dyson swarm?”

(yes i am thinking about Alkaloid ‍-​ The Malkuth Grimoire again, how could you tell)

forgot to mention my favorite part

which is just the image of solverpedes undulating throught the void, drifting from fragment to fragment devouring mass

running away from them, thinking you found a safe haven, only to feel the ground underneath you quiver

Imagining massive cables that connect the isles
big ass hooks and winches keeping it all together
and all the wonders (and terrors) that come with working in zero‍-​g
or at least low‍-​grav, if some of the chunbks are big enough to still retain gravity/technology is used to substitute
An unpredictable day/night cycle making outside existence for DD’s hazardous
you are cooking with thermite snuggs
very much exists the threat one can just fall off the islets and into space

…so like, remember how the original seed of the idea was ‘what if cyn was trying to build a dyson swarm’

what if the solverpedes are like, literally following a directive to manufactor solar panels and thrusters and such

so like, youve got to keep them around and the whole basis of your society is trying to scrape off bits the pedes have made and hope you dont get nommed in the process

2025‍-​09‍-​03
being friendly is too easy. it’s a solved game. therefore my unpleasant demeanor is something of an avant garde performance you see
2025‍-​09‍-​03
finding aggressively cynical posters miserable, but also finding the consistently cutesy‍-​positive vapid and tiresome. i again remember there’s no pleasing me. this whole world exists to disappoint me. except the jellyfishes
2025‍-​09‍-​03
forgot to post this FSE meme i made back before the relevant chapters were public
chapter number is wrong due to splits
2025‍-​09‍-​03
damn girl, you post good. are you looking for a reason to live?
2025‍-​09‍-​03
imagine if the people who wanted to talk to you could hold a conversation
2025‍-​09‍-​03
it’s so weird to me that AAA gaming is so focused on ghost train rides and ubisoft open worlds and shooters and some genres are relegated entirely to the indie scene when it feels like you could take a william dollar budget and easily make a 2d platformer or metroidvania that changes the world
2025‍-​09‍-​03
if we follow each other, just know that i would gladly sell you out if promised a scrap of power
2025‍-​09‍-​03
get it twisted. please
2025‍-​09‍-​03
something about seeing small fanfic writers grind away resolutely while garnering a handful of comments if they’re lucky while i sit in a castle of my hundreds of kudos going “hm? updates? no, i just don’t find it rewarding enough”
2025‍-​09‍-​03
yeah sure sex is satisfying but have you ever read a fic that seemed like it was bashing a character but then you push through and when you finally get scene from their perspective their actions are sympathetic & justified and it turns out the protagonists has biases of her own
2025‍-​09‍-​03
lore whore
2025‍-​09‍-​03
fckitweball posted
when gamers say “gg” they are actually calling eachother good girl
to a joker like me, girls are games
2025‍-​09‍-​03
i’ve started just straight up sending headpat emojis to people when they say some silly stuff it’s not worth arguing with.
2025‍-​09‍-​03
so much more than i deserve, so much less than i need‍ ‍‍—‍ terribly so
2025‍-​09‍-​03
die on hills, not in trenches
  • draft purge
  • this one’s a year and a half old lol
  • had to meditate on those six words
2025‍-​09‍-​03
conjure in your mind for me the platonic ideal of a post from whoever put this on the dash (or whoever’s page you’re rifling through like a fridge) is that post a flop or a hit?
how many notes does prev deserve?
Final result from 3 votes
OptionVotes
just ban them tbh0%
do pity likes count?33.3%
7, no more no less0%
10‍-​50, but that’s a hit for a mf like them33.3%
60‍-​70, but half from one really enthusiastic spam reblogger0%
100‍-​500, but all on the version with a typo0%
207‍-​713, but every other reblog is tagging the same joke0%
7140%
715‍-​20k, and everyone is blorbotagging it33.3%
800+, reblogs disabled0%
10k‍-​50k, and all of it is discourse0%
50k+, you’re saying they belong on reddit0%
2025‍-​09‍-​03
done clearing my drafts. enjoy the dashboard event that awaits you below this post
2025‍-​09‍-​04
misunderstood silksong’s release time and woke up early
  • clinging the clown make up till the last hour it seems
2025‍-​09‍-​04
on discord there are people already posting screenshots while i’m struggling to add it to my cart
2025‍-​09‍-​04
it is time for shaw. see y’all later
2025‍-​09‍-​05
neat to realize that if a game has you killing an enemy over and over just to see what its journal entry says, your motivations align perfectly with it means diegetically (i.e. a research/observation notes)
2025‍-​09‍-​05
there will be silksong tomorrow for the rest of our lives
2025‍-​09‍-​06

i don’t know if i’m just contrarian, but everyone around me is complaining nonstop about the boss runbacks in silksong but i am unironically enjoying them?

the movement feels so nice and if there’s a tricky platforming room between me and the boss i feel satisfied every time i make it back there for a new attempt

  • i am saying this after having just beaten TLJ
  • which was some people’s breaking point
2025‍-​09‍-​08
i’m tipsy rn and it’s great because i’m trying to skill solution my way into behaving exactly like i do when sober
2025‍-​09‍-​09
i love bug yuri but shakra and hornet are platonic to me i think
  • i could talk about who i do ship but it’d be spoilers
2025‍-​09‍-​09
i might be beginning to see the angle for a silksong fanfic
  • if you’ve gotten to That Sidequest in shellwood i wonder how easy it is to predict just what spoke to me
2025‍-​09‍-​11
that doesn’t count. my headmate had the controller
2025‍-​09‍-​11
people love to say you’re a coward if you draw hornet with big tits and a fat ass, but my hot take is it’s also cowardice if you’re shipping her and opt to portray her all flustered and swooning. (tsundere interpretations get half‍-​credit)
2025‍-​09‍-​11

do i have the inverse of the aphobic “not being interested in romance means there’s something wrong with you” brainworms. i have noticed it’s harder for me not to see a character as aromantic the more they have their shit together

i’m not saying “falling in love is a character flaw”, but‍-​

the more thoughtful expression of this idea is that i view relationships as a means of meeting certain emotional needs. so if i see a character who has most of their needs met, i’m just thinking “why would they bother dating anyone. they’ve got better things to do”
wait, just realized this is why i find rivalry and enemy ships so easy to get on board with. pretty much for free you get to inject emotional needs like “kill them” or “make them give me the respect i deserve” even if otherwise they not get much out of the relationship
  • anyway the subtext i’m getting at here is that shaknet is just uninteresting sorry
  • they’re both beautiful lesbians but there’s no chemistry imo
2025‍-​09‍-​13
silksong doesn’t have enemy attacks that deal 1 mask or 2 masks of damage. it has attacks that deal either half or full damage
2025‍-​09‍-​13

that mantis hornet art bounced around in my head for a bit and i started thinking about an au where instead of getting trained by vespa in the hive, hornet gets sent to train with the mantes.

but it gets kinda fucked up when you realize it even makes sense. you have to imagine there’s still tensions with deepnest even after herrah’s bargain. so what if pale king decides that having her taught by the warriors who stand as defend against deepnest‍ ‍‍—‍ savages who nonetheless fell in line with civilization in a way deepnest never did‍ ‍‍—‍ would be just the thing to ensure his daughter grows up with a right‍-​thinking mindset? perhaps she could be what integrates them with the kingdom‍ ‍‍—‍ or, if peace proves untenable, this way she’s sure to be on the right side

kind of heartbreaking to imagine hornet grappling with even more conflicted feelings about that half of her heritage. or to think of the devouts regarding her with the same admiration while she can only look at them with distaste or hostility

one interesting knock‍-​on effect this could have is if hornet was especially dedicated to the mantis lords and also knew the five knights (i.e. ze’mer), she would have a lot of reasons to dislike traitor lord‍ ‍‍—‍ imagine if she decided to go and take him out herself?

it’s tempting to spin out this plotline because further‍ ‍‍—‍ what if this dominos into dryya surviving? (even better‍ ‍‍—‍ if anyone read that fic i was talking about last month, incorporating Dryya the Fierce’s interpretation of her would give that knight a very interesting relationship with this hornet)

…but before i can really commit to that line of thought i’d have to figure out why hornet wouldn’t have done that in canon.

2025‍-​09‍-​14
Anonymous asked
You write the best juzi in the entire fandom, just hope you knew that
thank you for the kind words anon. given my output this year, i certainly hope that doesn’t remain true forever
2025‍-​09‍-​14
laying down but i’m struggling to get past phase one of the naptime boss fight
2025‍-​09‍-​14
always funny when you aren’t the target audience of your own posts. i’ve written things that do numbers that i can’t read without cringing out
2025‍-​09‍-​15
chuckles  brightly
2025‍-​09‍-​15
there’s something special about a clean and melodic song at the end of a album of intense metal. like congrats on enduring all that, rest now
2025‍-​09‍-​15
much in the way there is no “cloud”, only somebody else’s computer, there is no “quality”, only somebody else’s opinion. do objective standards for art exist? what some other motherfucker thinks is certainly outside your own subjectivity, and yet
2025‍-​09‍-​15

spoilers for the finale of silksong act two but

given that spiders eat their webs in order to recycle the proteins… do you think hornet could nibble on lace. do you think she would feel the urge to

2025‍-​09‍-​15
untitled lacenet vignette {.dopost}
2025‍-​09‍-​15
was backscrolling and remembered this interaction
2025‍-​09‍-​16
man, everyone always complains about the bilewater runback. does no one else genuinely appreciate the thematic point that bilewater vehemently, personally hates you?
2025‍-​09‍-​16

just had some bizarre sweaty nap dream wherein i struggled to stay asleep, but repeatedly waking up and going back to sleep had been diegetically woven into what i was trying to accomplish in my dreams?

there was a silksong texture to it, of course, but i can’t remember anything specific, only that i had accomplished whatever meta‍-​platforming challenge required precisely timing my wakefulness

2025‍-​09‍-​17
did i really log nearly a hundred hours into silksong before it’s even been out two weeks
  • sorry for everyone who followed me for actual creations
  • i thought i’d come back from silksong with more creative energy
  • but i still feel utterly barren mentally and sapped of physical strength
  • maybe i really am nothing at my core
2025‍-​09‍-​17
silksong ships i fuck with:
  1. lacenet (goes without saying)
  2. hornet/greyroot (parasitic yuri <3)
  3. hornet/eva (girl who stares longingly at the essence of your soul… plus the final evolution of their relationship is literally described as a union)
  4. hornet/twelfth architect (i need hornet finding a way to repair them to proper functioning…)
  5. hornet/second sentinel (only caveat is i do not think senti would actually stop patrolling long enough for relationship stuff. unless they worked themselves to the point of malfunctioning…)
lace, eva, and greyroot in particular are fun because i’m pretty sure each of them has some reason to dislike the other two
2025‍-​09‍-​18

people talk about flop posts like they’re embarassing, but they aren’t. getting 1 or 2 notes feels like you’re minding your own business, talking to yourself. no one sees you, what’s there to worry about

no, what’s embarrassing is tossing out a mid post and getting notes on it. no dont look at that, i didnt mean it

2025‍-​09‍-​19
realizing i’m a fake idgafer… my heart aches with concern
2025‍-​09‍-​19

silly idea: it’s not a deckbuilder, it’s a chainbuilder

instead of adding cards to your deck, you add nodes to your markov chain. where in other games you might normally draw cards from a shuffled draw pile, here your chain repeatedly enters a new states, adding a copy of each card associated with a given state

(for comparison, if N cards had a uniform transition probability between their states, then using this chain would be like if you could draw cards from a deck with replacement after each draw‍ ‍‍—‍ a giant dice roll, essentially)

but in practice, this would enable very complex “deck” structures. cards that synergize together could be “clumped” so that they’re often drawn in conjunction, giving your deck “moods” or “phases” that it drifts in and out of throughout combat. you could have “tree” decks that might go down very different gameplay routes based on the roll of the dice. at the most basic level, you could have idioms like “chaser” cards that only generate after their “shot” cards have been drawn.

anyway, there would be a whole menagerie of different keywords and constraints. imagine an effect like

  1. “whenever you add an attack to your deck, create a transition to this card”
  2. “this card can only have three transitions to it”
  3. “deal 40 damage. for each transition to this card, deal 4 less damage”
  4. “this card can only transition to nodes which have no path back to it”

this would be a nightmare to balance, and presenting its information legibly to the player would be another nightmare, and there is not much advantage to this system other than novelty for a the thousand‍-​hours‍-​in‍-​deckbuilders audience

2025‍-​09‍-​20
dismissing another post to drafts with the unfortunate subtext of “if you have anxiety talking to me, you’re right”
2025‍-​09‍-​20
spacebuggorez posted

I wonder why I dont ever find a vessa fan work, I only have seen nessa and jessa so far.

I wonder how would y’all interpret the dynamics between V and Tessa(before she was killed)?

way earlier this year i did a write up brainstorming an angle for writing vessa. have you seen that one?

i find it most interesting to approach vessa as the opposite of jessa, especially when you can use it to prefigure her copper‍-​9 personality‍ ‍‍—‍ which is to say, V’s brazen and vicious streak wasn’t a new development, instead the urges she always had but was too shy to indulge in back in the manor, especially around N.

Tessaract was a formative fic for me, which probably shows in how easy it is to imagine Tessa as a sub who enjoys being toyed with by her robots‍ ‍‍—‍ which, again, makes for an interesting contrast with jessa. it’s easy to imagine J being too deferential to Tessa to treat her as a beloved pet rather than a controlling master.

and it’s also fun to imagine a rivalry, V being smug about how close she’s gotten Tessa and bickering with J about it. what keeps this from getting too heated is that i also like to incorporate the headcanon of J being asexual if not partly aromantic, and viewing their relationship with a some measure of disgust‍ ‍‍—‍ she isn’t envious because she’d never want to treat her boss like that

but i digress. the thing i’ve always found most fruitful to explore in V and Tessa’s relationship is the equality of it. Tessa condescends to N, J puts Tessa on a pedastal, and Cyn is… a lot.

so even outside the consideration of who tops whom, i think V would be the only one willing to call out when Tessa’s screwing something up and give her an honest opinion. and though V will keep up a certain facade around both N and J for different reasons, she has to tell Tessa how she’s really feeling and what’s wrong, because that’s her mechanic, she needs to know

so i think V and Tessa’s dynamic is one of honesty and respect, especially as something each respectively is pretty bad about giving anyone else

2025‍-​09‍-​20

gonna take a break from playing silksong for a bit, i think‍ ‍‍—‍ forgot the new toree game came out last month!!!

was so excited when i heard about it, toree is top tier

2025‍-​09‍-​20
shigashimura posted (2018‍-​10‍-​29) the whole mutual thing is really overhyped on this site. sometimes interests don’t match up and that’s the only reason why there isn’t a mutual following. if you’re a regular in my inbox or my notifications, i have visited your blog before. if i didn’t want you around for any reason, you would be blocked. so yeah. you can spam my notes and/or talk with me (and possibly become my friend) even if i’m not following you back. no worries.

there are people who follow me that i’d love to follow back, except that i have a reverse chronological dashboard and i am compelled to glance at everything that anyone i follow posts.

so sometimes, even if they even have the same reblog tastes as me and their blog is full of good shit, i don’t follow back because i just don’t have enough time in the day to add dozens if not hundreds more posts to my daily scroll.

i already struggle to get through it all, i already unfollow people, i wish there was a way to keep the cake and eat it too

2025‍-​09‍-​21
i owe an apology to everyone i judged for being grouchy. shit is actually so annoying
2025‍-​09‍-​21
people really seem to like that lacenet short i wrote. unfortunately i’ve been cursed by the gods and cannot write more
2025‍-​09‍-​21

i can hear my housemate getting tilted fighting nightmare king grimm in the living room

tempted to boot up the game and beat him hitless again…

2025‍-​09‍-​21
i will not interact with the ragebaiting vaguepost.
magicalrival
and it’ll still do 20k notes
20k ‍-​ 1
2025‍-​09‍-​23
for someone who does not like the ship at all i sure do reblog every single piece of shaknet art i see. what’s up with that.
2025‍-​09‍-​24
beautiful piece of art has a caption that throws shade at other fandom artists. will not be reblogging
2025‍-​09‍-​25

minor silksong act three spoilers

my coffeepot theory is that maybe the mantis tribe was like the skarr. the skarr resisted the haunting bc of karmelita’s lingering strength. what if the mantes aren’t just built different, but it was their devotion to the mantis lords instead of the pale king that lets them retain their independence?

are there any instances of intelligent bugs that aren’t aligned with pale king nevertheless succumbing to the infection?

probably the biggest complications in this theory are deepnest and the hive.

deepnest never accepted pale king’s rule, but i would argue this theory would suggest that if herrah had never agreed to become a dreamer, her cult might’ve been able to resist the infection like the mantes

meanwhile, the hive refused to assist the hallownest’s perpetuation, and i feel it’s a fine distinction between that kind of independence (they’re literally walled off!) and the mantis tribe’s truce with hallownest. still, vespa considers her hive a part of hallownest‍ ‍‍—‍ so perhaps the bees still revered the pale king alongside their queen

it is amusing to imagine that the infection specifically afflicts mindless bugs and pale king worshipers (but i repeat myself) and mantes have atheist super powers.

  • but i’m mostly imagining karmelita vs the mantis lords.
  • imagine the girls fighting…
2025‍-​09‍-​26

silksong spoilers (mainly the resolution of shakra’s quest)

the funny thing about shaknet is that, okay leave aside the question of chemistry, or how hornet is depicted, i’ve grouched about that enough already.

but we have, on one hand, a character who came to pharloom looking for the greatest of her tribe‍ ‍‍—‍ a bug who is already dead. on the other, we have a character who gave up on romance because her mates kept dying on her

we’re really gonna have her step on that rake again, huh

2025‍-​09‍-​27
grand mother spore
2025‍-​09‍-​28
it’s hot if they’re both killers, but it’s so much more tempting when only one is. is she an accomplice? does she approve? is she helpless to stop her? does she even know? or is she all too eager to believe the lies? and the question that really cuts to the heart of it‍ ‍‍—‍ is she next?
2025‍-​09‍-​29
everyone loves to shake their head at insane discourse ringing out like gunshots in the distance until the gun is in your neighborhood and you realize the echo sounds nothing like sound it’s distorting

bad faith reframings and misleading abstractions are what survive transmission. if all you’re seeing is people reacting to the latest discourse, don’t forget they have a rhetorical incentive to make it look as insane as possible. look at what they have to put up with!

it’s easy to think ragebait is crafted, or at least deliberate. but social media is like gravity, and this is just the process of erosion

You are not compelled to form any opinion about this matter before you, nor to disturb your peace of mind at all. Things in themselves have no power to extort a verdict from you.

‍—‍ Marcus Aurelius

2025‍-​09‍-​29

I am an Architect. Only an Architect. To build‍-​automate is not choice. It is our nature‍-​directive‍-​c‍-​c‍-​c‍-​cage.

12a’s use of kenning‍-​esque compound words is one of the more striking elements of their dialogue, i just love the flavor it gives them. “identity‍-​idiom” from the silkshot description might be my favorite

but i find myself wondering if it’s a deliberate, the product of searching for a meaning that can’t quite fit into a single word without a poetic juxtaposition, or if it’s more like a stutter.

did they mean to call building a cage, or was it reflexive? is that stutter there from them resisting it?

  • when brought the cogwork heart there’s another interesting one: “brought‍-​forced” describing the sentinels’ treatment of outside bugs
2025‍-​09‍-​30
tbh i frown when people call it “the high halls arena” because “the forum” is so much funnier. like yeah, that’s the forum experience
2025‍-​09‍-​30
what’s the most satisfying type of corruption? when she remains steadfast, determined not to cross any line… right until it all comes crumbling down? letting herself slip piece by piece, each “just this once” and “this time is different” less convincing than the last? or indulging hard before seeing the light, giving it all up and crawling back to the heroes for one more chance? “never again,” she declares resolutely, before temptation beckons her back. “i can change, i promise. save me. please.”